wow.. i feel like i haven't blogged in forever.. although it really hasn't been that long. i think it's a combination with being too lazy, tired, moving, starting school, doing cki stuff and having only a dial up connection. although that doesn't prohibit me from staying online for like 3, 4 hours. which isn't so bad, cuz no one ever calls me anyways, except now i share the phone line with roommates, and they're popular as all hell. anyways... hmm.. so since then.. monday i cleaned and packed. well mostly i slept, ran some errands, and sat around on my ass because i wasn't motivated enough to pack. and then when i mom came home, i ran upstairs and pretended like i had been packing the whole day. :) the packing went late into the night.. and i finished at like 3am, fell asleep on the couch at 4 while dubbing some tapes, woke up at 7am when i dragged myself upstairs to my bed, and slept until 11am (tuesday), packed up my car and left. got to sakura's house (with my entire life in my car) at 2pm, right on time for the board meeting, 4 hours later.. i finally got to go home. where i unpacked my car.. (whew) and went to dinner with Vivian at World Famous where they had $1 shrimp tacos.. they were soooooo good. yum. yeah. too bad that i so poor that i can't even afford $1 tacos. yeah.. on top of not being able to afford anything.. i have to pay a $15 charge for vivian's check bouncing (even though I wrote her a check) and pay a $35 parking ticket for my meter being expired for 5 minutes while I was in a meeting for cki. CRAPPY.

hmmm... what else. school on thursday.. was SO not feeling the school thing. i didn't really like either of the classes that i had.. so i'm thinking i might drop them (don't worry.. i'll sign up for new ones.. hopefully). friday.. handed out camptoons.. got on the wrong parking shuttles (and yes.. parking is as atrocious as ever), chilled until i had to go back to school to work at the vball game. it was pretty exciting.. there was a TON of people there because the dept. did this free food, and big promotion dealio to get all the people out there. and we won against cal po-po.. it was good news. it was kind of sad.. there was this little stuffed mustang that they were beating and kicking around. rhiannon and i sat around and made snide comments.. it was fun :) after that Vivian, Emily, Brianne and i went to the Pike part that i swear i was going to fall into the pool, and was crowded with waaaaay too many people (hoochified girls... prolly freshman), went to Mark's house after that, and then jack's house after that. i was just following my drunk roommates around (drunkenly) to wherever they thought the boys were at. hmm.. so i passed out on some guy's couch, and got finally got to go home at 3am where i managed to brush my teeth and drink water before passing out in bed.

woke up today.. in pretty good shape.. just thirsty. bummed and lazed around (after swearing i was going to be productive). and after watching sappy movies like america's sweethearts, someone like you and serendipity.. i dragged myself to work. it was a good game... we played csusb, which is ranked #1, and ucsd was really good... but in the end we lost :( I got to see tanya.. and her parents (who are so cute) were visiting her. came back and chilled.. cleaned my room (finally!) while listening and prancing around to britney spears. heheh... afterwards.. pete came over.. and he sat around and endured emily, vivian, brianne and i being retarded.. and was thoroughly enthralled about how girls could multitask and carry on multiple conversations all at once. yeah man.. chicks rock. hahaha. he strung the guitar justin lent me.. and played a little bit of stuff.. while i sat there with a dopey grin and an amazed look on my face.. i totally want to learn how to play the guitar... and here i am now.. chillin at 5am (yikes).. talking to cool philly and blogging.. being scared at the ghettoness of my neighborhood because i'm hearing glass shatter and car alarms going off, and when i called the police they said they couldn't do anything about it because it was so long ago. god dang it.. all i wanted was someone to drive up and down the street once to make sure everything was okay.. what other important business could they be doing at 5am!? geez!! protect my safety here people.. isn't that what your job is? ugh.. i am not a fan of the police right now. anyways.. i should go.. i have cki business to take care of tomorrow.. good morning!!

oh yeah.. happy belated birthday manny and mike salamanca!!

manny: thanks for the birthday wishes
jean: you're welcome.. did you have a fun birthday?
manny: i don't remember it.

ALRIGHT. so i'm entirely too frustrated because my day has not shaped up so well, and it's continuing to be sucky. my email is being way too slow for my liking, but it's stuff that i need to read, so i figure i'll blog while i wait. i'll probably be done before my inbox even appears. damn the studentlink. anyways... hmm.. friday i worked. it was okay. my manager was is a pissy mood, and decided to yell at me. i mean.. it was things that i was doing wrong, but they were things that everyone was doing wrong. and it was more like his inconsistency that made me angry. and also the fact that he said that he felt like i wasn't dedicated to doing my job well, where i got really upset and offended because i busted my ass to be there, and for someone to say that makes it seem like all the effort was for nothing. anyways.. it's done, and i'm never going back. (for real this time). maybe to another store, but not that one.. for sure.. just like there will always be a special hatred in kathy and my hearts for the UTC Gap. bastards.

anyways.. came home and tried to pack so i could leave on saturday. yeah.. didn't happen. instead.. i rushed out of Torrance on Saturday with my things unpacked and went to the banquet (where there was good food at least) and then rushed down to OB to the Anya Marina show with Jason Mraz as the guest. so here's a story that will make me sound completely lame, but i figure i'll say so anyways. i got really good parking that night, and when i was walking to the entrance, there was a little gated area behind Java Joe's. and i thought it was someone's backyard. and then i heard guitar music and a little bit of singing and i thought it was cute that someone who liked to sing lived behind Java Joe's and liked to play his music outside. and then i thought that "wow this person is really good" and then I realized it was Jason Mraz warming up and felt all giddy and squeamish and resisted all urges to start the fawning before he even went up on stage. yes.. i'm retarded.. i know.

anyways.. the show was really good. (both of them). annie and i hung out with jon, and then afterwards i pimped annie out using my footage of her at the hotel cafe during jason's say anything game. we're a good team. philly and i sported our "i *heart* soundguy" goods and entertained people. philly is so fun, i'm glad that i went to the show and got to talk to her. i'm glad she convinced me to go. haaha.. she was one of the bigger reasons why i was going, so i'm glad i had a good time with her. after it all annie and i chit chatted for a little bit, and then i got home at 2am to the sounds of my roommate and her friend. yeah.. it was interesting. anyways.. got up the next day, did the marshall fair for recruiting for circle k. we got some people to sign up which is exciting. drove home (while trying not to fall asleep). fell asleep once i got home, hung out with my sister a little bit, and then back home to do more of the same doldrums.

today has been craptacular so far with bad drivers, people wasting my time, no good news, and me stressing out because i have to pack and clean by noon tomorrow so i can be there in time for the board meeting. (and i also have to prepare for that). and i also realized that masquerade ball is only a little over a month away. what the heck.. where did my summer go?!

carrie is TOO cute. she just sent me virtual flowers, (yay.. carrie loves me!) which i haven't done in ages, but it totally made my day/night. whatevs. still busy, still tired, but at least i feel all warm and fuzzy inside. THANKS CARRIE! you rock my world.

i am butt ass tired. i got home from work 20 minutes ago, and have to be back there in six and a half hours. grrr... but i just wanted to say that i'm still alive. barely. i'm holding on by thread. so i'm gonna be like carrie and say that i'll blog later. hahah.. but here are some highs and lows of my past week

high: seeing hottie nick lachey
low: my car breaking down on the freeway and being stranded all of friday afternoon
high: hanging out with kimmy in laguna hills
low: missing pete's show :(
high: organizing stuff at my sd apt, seeing some of my sd friends, and not having to deal with parents
low: being sexiled from my apt (by choice.. but still an uncomfortable situation)
high: getting my bed moved in.. and eating dinner with my dad
low: the retarded girl at ranch 99, and finding out i live next to a mortuary
high: watching cable all day :)
low: getting in trouble for stupid stuff that i had no control over
high: going on a date with sakura
low: being too busy these past few days to eat!

anyways.. that's all very vague and i'm sure doesn't mean anything to anyone except for my-crazy-self but maybe someday i'll make sense to you. anyhoo.. it's time for this body to go to bed. grr.. i'm not really tired now.. but i'm going to have the worst time getting up tomorrow if i don't. and i have to pack and clean and get ready to move my desk and dresser.. and i'm working for the next two days!! yikes! bye bye bye! *muah*

mm.. today was an interesting day. good and bad. it was the first day that i had a break and a little bit of normalcy in my life. i didn't have to work at the gap today, which was nice. it kind of sucks as well because i'm not making the money. but it was way nice to sleep in and not have to rush back to go to work on time.. or stand on my feet in platforms all day!! but i was still so tired all day, and i took my car in to get looked at, and the men said there was nothing wrong. i swear there's something wrong, like it's getting there.. but they won't fix it.. so i just have to drive around until my car completely breaks down again. :P so they can make the most money possible out of me. dang them.

anyways.. here's the bad of my day at work today: i had to go to the post office and drop something off for work. so i stood in this ridiculously long slow moving line and then this crazy irate man came in and started complaining to a worker about how he had to wait in this line even though he was home all day but still got one of those "sorry we missed you" notices. she dismissed him and made him stand in line, which made him even madder, and stood behind me muttering things. i was quite scared. he said something really rude to me once and i just kind of ignored him, and then he started hacking and coughing (on purpose i tell you) and right in my hair. like i could FEEL it ... and then i tried to step away to not be in the direct line of his nasty germs, so he took a step closer to me and coughed again!! SO rude. some guy was all like "cover your mouth man." which i was grateful for (thank you!!) but the damage was already done.. i felt very gross and diseased. ew.

okay.. good part of my day that makes me love my work: i went downstairs to drop off a package at the guard. and the elevator doors open and i see this really hot guy talking on his cell phone. we exchange hi's and how are you's and then i realize that he's NICK LACHEY from 98 Degrees. I totally choked. I wanted to like stop and say something to him, maybe make him serenade me.. but he was on his phone.. probably with his fiancee or something (grr). I walked over to the guard and checked the sign in sheet, and for sure it was him. *sigh* i called Nicole and told her that i saw him, and at first she was like "who's that.. he sounds familiar" and then once she realized who it was she was like "OH MY GOD" hehe.. i locked myself in my car to be all giddy so the people who worked there wouldn't think i'm super retarded. *sigh.. nick lachey*

other than that.. not too much. watched big brother 3, i should probably go pack and clean soon. seeing as how i'm going to sd and have NOTHING packed. yeah.. good job jean. :P don't miss me too much this weekend. *muah*

god.. i feel like it should be next week already. with all the work i've been doing the past few days... i am SOOOO tired. again.. not complaining.. just.. uhh.. commenting i suppose. friday i worked, saturday i worked as well (that's also a problem with working in a job that doesn't give you weekends off. the days of the week just blur together, and it doesn't matter ... you just can't figure what day it is anymore.) sunday i drove down to sd with beth at 5am.. worked at the rough water swim. it was the first time i had gone, so i didn't know exactly what we were doing. but we had beach duty. and when i got dressed at 5am i was freezing so i put on jeans and a long sleeve t-shirt. thank goodness i put a tank top underneath. but so yeah.. needless to say when high tide rolled it.. i got very wet.. my jeans didn't appreciate it so much. and one time the water came up and took away my flip flops that i was wearing. so yes.. and as i cautiously tried to go out and save my shoes and not get too wet, another giant wave came.. and i was done. so i just walked out with the water up to my thighs and grabbed my shoes. i'm sure the people up on the cliff were having a good laugh, i know all of the circle k people did. i could hear them. anyways.. it was fun... those people who swim that are amazing. haha.. all of us girls got excited when the young men's competition was up and hundreds of hot guys in speedos piled up on to the beach. yum. haha. anyways.. on top of getting all wet with salty beach water all day, i also got sunburnt and nasty tan lines. sigh.. the things i do for circle k. later on went to my new apartment.. it's pretty cool.. a little empty .. but i also don't live there yet. i'm pretty excited.. i stole one of the giant posters from gap and i'm going to hang it up in the living room wall. the guys pretty cute.. too bad i can't steal that abercrombie shit. :) invited people over for dinner. hahah we walked to ralphs to buy groceries. yeah.. i live behind target and ralphs.. (ghetto) and down the street from el cotixan's and jack in the box. dangerous.

hmm.. monday worked at 5am, tuesday worked at 4:30am, interned at 1pm, met with Joan at 6pm, wednesday interned at 9am, worked at 2pm. my life is crazy. tomorrow i'm not scheduled.. and i'm kind of looking forward to it. although they're probably going to call me... i just might have to go.. i'm that broke. although i'm interning.. so we'll see. hmm hmm hmm.. not much. this weekend going to san diego to move stuff. going to catch my friend pete and his band she blonde swede play.. you wanna come? it'll be a good show.... maybe we'll also have margaritas at ryan's new pad in PB. haha.. non-alcoholic of course.. cuz i'm not 21. :P but i'm tired.. and have mucho things to do. so goodnight foolios!

la di da di da... i'm at my internship.. with not so much to do.. so i thought i'd blog because i'm "grounded" at home. yes.. i did say grounded. my mom told me i wasn't allowed to talk on the phone or go on the computer until i cleaned my room. yikes. beth was trying to tell me how in high school her parents always made her do chores before she could see Ryan... but then i reminded her that she was also in high school. :P i don't know.. i mean.. i know my room is messy, but i also have had no time to clean it, always being at work or interning. and when i do come home, i'm so pooped that i'm not all like "hey.. let's clean!" *sigh.. i don't know.. only a few more weeks. but beth did agree that this entire summer my mother hounded me about not having a paying job.. and now that i do, she's telling me that it's bad to have such a lame job, that takes up too much time and energy for not enough pay. lame-o.

thursday i got up early early to take international vice president carrie (haha.. isn't that what you told me to call you instead :P) i got up while the sky was still dark and fought traffic to be carrie's bitch. hahah.. but she paid for my breakfast, so i guess that makes her my sugar mama. anyways.. came back and napped and then went to the dentist. yuk.. they made my mouth sore all day. :P then my internship. and then i watch PETE SAMPRAS beat Andy Roddick in 3 sets. the game was amazing and after all that talk about how he should quit and stuff.. he played so so so well. i was so excited. the girl from work thought i was super lame. so anyways.. it rained.. yuk.. i went home, but on the upside.. i got to watch Big Brother 3! whoo hoo! i was so bummed because I always miss it because of work.. but yay! no work. it was really good. i'm so sad that Roddy got voted off. boo boo boo. hmm.. talked to nicole and helped her with her budget a bit, and then talked to beth.. all while cleaning my room and listening to good music. :) i got my Live cd (jason mraz)... yay.. i missed it cuz i lent my copy to beth.

one last thing.. it occurred to me yesterday that i hate guys when they use those like "affectionate" terms towards you.. hahha especially if you like them, and they know it, but they don't like you back. it should be outlawed or something. it's not fair because it's such a manipulative tool, and they soooooo know it... and it totally messes with your mind, when really it doesn't mean anything at all. grrr.. but have a good day anyways!

i don't even know what to write, but i feel as if i should blog... but i' feel like such a work horse... i've been working non-stop, and due to my excellent slacker skills, i still find time to go online. i'm horrible.. i should really be cleaning my room right now.. but anyhoo.. for the past two weeks i've been interning as well as working at the gap. and yes.. it is by my own choice (happy carrie?) but sort of not.. because i need to keep the internship for my experience and just to be responsible and all that crap. but i need the gap to get paid. thus.. i run back and forth like a oompa loompa. i guess it's kind of good that it's only for this month and i didn't have to do it for the whole summer. hmm.. do you have no idea what i'm talking about.. let's see what my life has been like lately...

Monday: Labor Day.. national holiday.. everyone was enjoying the sunshine and the hotness and i was working.. joy. came home tired as crap.

Tuesday: work in the morning (8-11), get my car.. which cost $1000 to get fixed.. yikes!, 12-5 interning (keeping in mind it takes me roughly 45 to get there), and then i got called into work a split shift so it was back to the gap from 6-10. on the good news i had a hot date with International Vice President Chen (hehehe) which was fun because with both of us being so busy but with different schedules it's a lot different from when i used to see her everyday (hah.. when we used to "work out"). but i had to stay late an extra half an hour to finish replenishing, so she had to wait in the Ralphs parking lot (sorry!!!) went home and crashed

Today: woke up, went to my intern from 9-2, work from 3-10, crazy... i didn't even have time to eat lunch in between. i am pooped!

it's not like i'm trying to complain really... just i dunno.. letting people know.. haha.. maybe i just want the attention. and although i am busy busy.. my mother still finds a way to nag me and tell me that i'm not doing enough. grrr. second child syndrome sucks. anyways.. back to the horse tomorrow, friday, saturday and sunday.. blah blah blah. but it's good.. i guess when i get my fatty paycheck it'll make it all worth it.. i hope. love ya! *muah!*

yikes.. it's september already.. school starts soon.. but not as soon as manny! hahahaah ... sucker starts on tuesday. hmm.. it's been a busy few days.. as it will continue through the end of the month. i don't know whether i should glad that i'm not just sitting around bored.. or perturbed that it seems like i hardly have any free time where i'm not completely pooped. i just started working at the gap again for a month, and on top of my internship, i'm barely at home (which can be good), but running around like a work horse for all the hours of the day. but i do get paid at the gap, which is good.. although with the money that i spend there i probably spend more than i make. but i've been good and resisting lots of little things.. and bought jeans (4 pairs for $100) but that's something that i really needed.

other than that.. my life hasn't been too interesting. talked to people online here and there. went to a tv taping for circle k.. it was fun. i made joe and beth go. beth and i drooled over sean maguire while joe drooled over carmen electra.. yes.. she guest starred on the show.. see.. you foolios should have come. but.. in sad news.. my car died on friday night while taking beth home. thank goodness i wasn't on the freeway though.. or else i would have caused an accident for sure. but it was midnight, and traumatizing and my car is pretty angry at me, and now i feel like i'm 12 years old because i have to get a ride from my dad everywhere i go. which is a pain in the ass for when i go to work (which is everyday). i'm hoping that if i get a rental car, maybe i can get a suv or something.. hahaha. last night i had interesting conversations with Philly, who I met from being a rabid fan of Jason Mraz. we had really good talks about circle k and key club, and jason and other good stuff.. but it prompted me to have a weird dream last night that had jason mraz in it.. but also the cast of 90210, plus all my circle k friends. crazyness. but i must go because i have to clean.. yuk.. i hate living at home with my way-too-asian parents. haha.. but i also have to work tomorrow... but at least i get paid time and a half!! whoo! let's just hope i don't spend it. :P

oh yeah.. and read beth's latest blog. it's soooo funny. and too cute. :) (it should be the one about jason mraz). it says at the top "this is to make jean happy" or something like that. plus carrie blogged for me... not all the scandalous details that i wanted.. i know you're hiding something! but nonetheless it was because of me.. hahaha.. man.. i feel so loved (and conceited) right now. hah. toodles!