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i went to the dentist today.. and i was sitting there thinking... i wonder if my hygienist gets excited when sees someone's mouthful of plaque and thinks "ooh.. which one am i gonna attack first" and then after she's done with all the scraping and polishing.. does she check over her handiwork with that little mirror on the stick and say "damn i'm good."

i almost feel like i'm in school again. i am surviving on three hours of sleep. but it's okay.. it hasn't quite caught up to me yet... maybe i'll just take another nap in my car again when it does. :P

but i'm still pretty excited i stayed up til 3am packing and hoping my clothes were warm enough for utah. my mom's like "you only have summer clothes" well duh. but lots of layers... which i have learned from the gap. :) but i think it'll be okay. hopefully.. i have lots of gloves and two jackets. i don't quite have the appropriate shoes, but i'm hoping my sneakers and the boots nicole gave me don't fail me. my mom says i'll trip and fall, i hope not. just don't run around in the snow. plus i read that they have directv for each seat on jetblue.. hehhe... nice.

i got a new phone.. well new/old.. but it seems pretty new. after waiting for like 40 minutes i told the guy i had already been there like 3 times.. and he was pretty nice. which is surprising... when i've gone there in the past some of their employees were pretty rude. but i got the same phone, but a newer model, it's got a blue face instead of grey and is shinier.. ooohh.. and it feels really new. i am excited. it's purtty.. so here's to hoping i don't drop/lose/break my phone and it doesn't suck.

a few exciting news in tv... new one tree hill (yay!) sakura is taping real world san diego and newlyweds for me. (oh yea!) and i just read that they're coming out with an average joe three!! hehehe.. they're pulling a bachelor and bringing back adam from average joe 1 (the nice millionaire who got dumped for the pretty boy... not the fairy tale ending everyone was hoping for) and he's going to be choosing (i guess he broke up with his gf). i wonder if they're going to give him "average" girls? or hot girls... hmm.. well.. there's an open call casting this weekend in LA. if you want to know where.. let me know!

so i haven't returned anything yet... well.. not true. i returned these camera accessories from best buy.. but not anything i bought on friday. but they were very expensive camera accessories, so i felt a little better. a part of it got put on my credit card, and then i got a $10 store credit (from a gift exchange gift i returned) and as i was walking through the store i saw IT. the MIGHTY DUCKS TRILOGY BOX SET. it's glorious. i was SO excited.. i didn't even know it existed until a few weeks ago, i had always just thought... it would be smart of them to make a box set. and then i saw it online and freaked. i had never seen it in stores until that night. with my store credit the total came out to be $15.15 - for 3 excellent dvd's. i am a great shopper.

saturday i vegged at home. watched a week's worth of tv shows that i had taped.. so i basically sat on the couch all day. it was faboo. sunday a confused jill, vivian and i drove up to the dark softball field to find out our game was cancelled because they couldn't turn the lights on. hmm.. glad someone called us. a few minutes later beth drove up, and called ryan, then a pissed off ryan drove up. so i chatted with the guy from the other team, and his teammate on the phone who wouldn't believe him, and they told me that they were planning to let us win. (because they are the large large team that beat us even when they weren't trying). that's cool.. although i'd like us to win on our own merit sometime. eventually we all wound up at the cheesecake factory (not the guy from the other team :P) and had a yummy dinner while staring at the hot waiter, and the cute guy at the next table (ryan wasn't staring). yea.. girls are stupid sometimes. afterwards we went to ryan's to watch sex in the city... yay ryan for having hbo and tivo! it was really funny this week. it's so sad that there's only 5 episodes left. boo.

i also finished setting up the dvd player and vcr (a new one) in my room. that's pretty exciting... now if i just get a mini fridge i won't ever have to leave my room on the weekends. just kidding... i'll need to leave to go to the bathroom :P

i also figured out that my cell phone is broken... yes AGAIN. i can't hear out of it unless i have the headset plugged in. it's pretty crappy. the frequency of my cell phone troubles are just like nicole's car troubles. i've had to switch my phone two or three times already. BOOOOOO! and each time they give me a refurbished phone. i understand i can't get a new phone each time.. but yah know... three times is a little excessive. i feel like i keep getting phones that don't work. and so i asked the verizon wireless guy if it was the phone model and he says "no unfortunately it's just your bad luck" uh.. thanks? so i gotta get a new/old phone before i leave on tuesday, so i'm going to change it today, but i'm still very wary. i wish they could do something.. but they won't.. freaking verizon wireless. you suck! don't get the LG VX4400. boo on this phone.

i need to stop spending money... if you're around me and i'm buying something.. tell me no.

i have the ultimate buyer's remorse. beth and i were supposed to just go the mall, grab dinner and go work out - or maybe hang out with nicole. instead of the work out we ended up shopping instead. i was just supposed to pick up my schedule and paycheck, but i ended up getting 3 pairs of underwear, a necklace, and lots of body sprays, lotions and body washes. bad bad bad. probably like $95 or so. that plastic just jumps out of my wallet i'm telling you. i'm going to have to do a lot of returning.. and i always feel so bad. like i was just teasing them with my business. i am an indian giver shopper.

like yesterday, after a defunct softball practice we were going to go work out, but instead we went to chili's where we ate all this food, then jill, beth and i went to the gym (although i probably only worked off half of what i ate for dinner), where we got interrogated and questioned on stuff like whether or not we were related, and how many kids we had, by the scary, weird, kinda of creepy, commission hungry bally's guy. he freaked beth out.. but we had a pretty good time working out. it's definitely more fun to go with friends. :)

ugh... i hate tough decisions. why can't life just be simple.. and your life laid out for you. it may suck but at least you'd know what to do.

and how is it that parents can make you seem like the epitome of failure. with a feel little words they can make you feel worse than you already did. you are the disspointment, you are the scar in their perfect skin, you are the dirt in their perfect white house. and they don't even say it those words, just words that don't seem threatening, but cut you deep.

does this happen to everyone?

or is it just me.

happy anniversary to my parents (yesterday). aww... <3

my dad wanted to take everyone out to dinner, so my mom decided that she wanted to go the mall food court for dinner. haaha. we had chicken tostadas and mongolian noodles and dairy queen. yum. we also went shopping and i got two new purses and some shoes.. whoo hoo! (wait.. i thought i was supposed to be giving my mom gifts.. not the other way around). oh well.

i dug the extra vcr my mom bought out of the back room, and after much debate my mom finally sold it to me for $55. i guess that's alright. i finally plugged it in through various connectors, only to find out that the heads were dirty and then i noticed that the packinging looked "not so new" so after all that hard work i have to go return it for a new one. should have just bought a new one in the first place. grr.

my sister is currently MIA. i have no idea where she is, her cell phone is off, and she hasn't been to work. either something's wrong or she's doing a lot of playing.

one last thing: i was reading up about that new movie Miracle. at first i was like. wow this kind of seem like an adult's mighty ducks. complete with hot boys of the appropriate age. it's almost like the mighty ducks grew up and made a movie. after more reading it's based on a true story, but still looks pretty interesting. it gives me warms tinglies watching the commercials. hahah. i'm such a loser.

a big fat happy birthday!! goes to kimmy :) the gibbler. (no it's not really the chick from full house). kimmy is an old fart hitting 23, but still hot as hell. and single now, snatch her up while you can boys!

not much to blog about lately.. haven't been doing anything interest (shut up.. i know what you're thinking.. "jean you never do anything interesting). be quiet. i'm fun.. i swear. anyhoo... just playing softball... whoa man.. it wasn't quite as bad as last time with the mercy rule going into effect, but they did hit the 10 run cap in the first inning. boo. we HAVE TO win a game... i'll feel dumb if we don't. i hope we win against that brooklyn pizza team because according to beth they were talking lots of smack about us. retards.

thursday night i had dinner with my sister and watch tv on her lovely (soon to be mine... ) tivo. i love that thing.. hahah. friends was good.. i laughed hard when they mentioned the gap on it. :)

joey:(sarcastically to ross) nice shirt
ross: dude, you're wearing the same shirt
joey: stupid gap on every corner!

my sister also laughed and pointed at me. the weekend was all ho hum.. i was in a by myself mood, so saturday my parents went out and i just spent the day/night by myself, and doing a few errands and three loads of laundry. i figured there's not many opportunities where i just have the peace and quiet of the empty house to myself.. so i decided to take advantage of it. sunday i went to souplantation and costco with my parents. i almost conned my mom into getting a dish network system.. but she told me that i should do a little bit more research first. does anyone know which is better? dish network, directv, or just time warner cable? after the game on sunday, beth, jill and i mooched off ryan's hbo and ate dinner and watched sex in the city and the tail end of simpsons. unfortunately my contacts were bothering me and gave me a huge headache so i couldn't really enjoy anything properly... but it was still good. thanks ryan!

big news: (of the excitement that is my life)
*pete holiday is coming to la... finally. haha.. it's been mentioned before, but he finally actually set dates and bought a ticket. haha.. he should have bought it earlier, like i told him, to save money.. but he thinks i'm retarded because i'm a girl and a democrat. (jk).

*i'm going to SUNDANCE! whoo hoo. i am waay excited. it'll be nice to get out of here for awhile. my sister is going, so she had mentioned something about i could stay with her. i feel like maybe it's one of those things you say to be nice, because you don't think it'll happen, but when the other person is serious you instantly regret it. jk. maybe. but too bad. this documentary that my sister worked on "In the Realms of the Unreal" is in Sundance, so she's going, and I decided to seize the opportunity and go too. the only sad part is that a lot of the tickets to the screenings are sold out already, so i'm going to do a lot of waiting and hoping, and jason mraz is playing at this day cafe thing this sunday, but i don't get there until wednesday. but it is still rad .. I'm going to be braving the freezing cold of Utah and watching some movies, maybe meeting some movie stars and going to some parties.. hehe... and maybe I'll go snowboarding or something. Park City is supposed to be AWESOME. i am excited. who wants a postcard?

careful if you're going to be around the area kiddies. last night there was a shootout where they killed this guy who had car jacked this lady and already had one shootout in the morning in redondo beach. scary huh? the shootout happened at 190th and prarie which is not far from my house at all, and funny enough i had just left my house right before the shootout happened, so if i had taken prarie instead of crenshaw i would have been an unlucky duck.

we had softball practice at columbia park later that night, which is right on the corner where it happened, and there was tons of traffic from all the cars being re-routed, and we could see the flashing lights and all. we moved practice up to 6pm, but good thing it was at wilson park first. 1.5 hours later (trying to find a park to practice at where the lights were still on) we ended up at columbia. good twists of fate huh?

the guy who died had a partner, who is still on the loose, so i saw a police man patrolling our street this morning. it's a little scary, i'm gonna try to not be outside much, and don't open the door for strangers! plus lock your doors while you drive!

not much to write about since i haven't been doing much in the past few days. i want to be one of those bloggers who post interesting stories, instead of just the doldrums of my day, but i guess it's not meant to be... not just yet. that'll be something i'll work up to.

but there is a guy who is GREAT at writing.. pete showed me to him to fill the void that is my "job" (i use that term loosely), he's going to be my new obsession. he's very funny and tells great story, and is smart and sarcastic. hmm.. wonder why pete was reading him :P

I've never really been a fan of fish

The Walmart Story

these both ROCK. they've got dolphins, vomit, crappy jobs, revenge and porn. yum.

my mom is being an uber jerk currently. she's like having hot flashes or something because she's just pissed off about everything. it makes it rather unpleasant in my house and makes me not like her so much right now. don't get me wrong, i'm not one of those unappreciative jerks that hates their parents (although it may feel/seem that way sometime) but there's just so much conflict and drama between me and my mother, we have this unique ability to not be able to talk about anything, just fight. i was sleeping the other day and my mom came and started yelling about all these things. one of which was how i don't got to sleep early enough?! so how does it make sense that you woke me up to tell me these things?! thanks. plus the fact that she's pretty overbearing and feels like she needs to control every aspect of my life, like if i'm doing something she doesn't like, she'll just try to remove it from me. like when i was little she'd hide the video games so i wouldn't play them all the time. that was cool when i was in middle school, but god dang.. after living on my own for 4 years, this does not feel good. last night i was on the phone with nicole and my mom got pissed and told me to hang up and give her the phone downstairs. WHAT?! exactly. she reminded me of it again this morning.. it's not going to happen. sorry. so anyways... maybe this is what i need to give my job hunt a swift kick in the ass. my mom teeters on overbearing to cool, and this is just the VERY low end of the slump.. it is not making me happy at all.

boo.

happy birthday jill!!

hAppy new year friends! the softball ump said "although nothing really seems new from last year" and i thought that was an insult about our team, but he said it was just the fact that nothing really changes even if it's a new year, norma said the same thing on her blog, which may be true... but it can also be what you make of it. so i don't know.

anyhoo.. it's been a pretty fun coupla' days. i had work here and there, nothing to big, spending lots of time on the internet :) although it has it's drawbacks.. i actually got pretty bored of being online, but i found a splendid new game.. hexic.. it occupied me all day on friday and i didn't get bored once, it was nice. :)

i spent new year's eve waiting in line with carol and sakura. fun huh? plus the bouncer let in the people right before us a little bit before midnight, so there was that little glimpse of hope we'd get in, and us staring at the crowd inside celebrating. but seeing as how it was the hermosa pier there were tons of people milling around and tons of people to countdown and celebrate with, so it wasn't too un-new-year's-ish. we counted down, people cheered, i'm sure the band at the end of the pier played some fun song (i couldn't hear them), carol, sakura and i hugged, took pictures, and then a few minutes later paid $30 to get in to the lighthouse cafe where we were meeting up with carrie, and her friends, amanda flaute and jen. after the three of us got inside we tried to get tipsy as fast as possible, taking shots of 151, lemon drops, and tequila.. but it didn't really give us that special buzz.. man.. we need to stop drinking. all though i did have that fun feeling like my insides were burning after the 151... nice huh?

friday was a full 16 hours of work, i met up with my family at this italian restaurant in mb.. Lido. it was really good. pretty froofy.. but good. and then afterwards we went to gable house for rock 'n' bowl. me and shirley played DDR while we were waiting for the lanes to open. she's real good, and of course i looked like a fool. but i'm a lot better than when i tried to play that one time in buffalo with ryan. thanks to michele's disney DDR! :) right before we were about to play, this fight between these hs girls erupted. the girl who was playing DDR at the time ran over to help her friends and proceed to pull hair, punch, kick and beat the crap out of this other girl. it was really scary, i was kind of freaked out. shirley and i kept inching backwards as the tumbling crowd neared us. i've never seen a fight before, and definitely not like that. all the guys were standing around jeering - not even stopping it.. what the heck?! anyways.. i was pretty freaked out, and then i remembered in middle school when my best friend got the crap kicked out of her because she accidently tripped this girl wearing white jean during PE while they were playing soccer. so they beat her up because she got grass stains on her white jeans. honestly.. what some people think.. and my mother thinks that i'm the devil child.

after waiting and flashbacks to my misguided youth, we went to go rock 'n bowl from midnight to 3am. it was pretty fun, even though i sucked awfully bad. bowling is just not my game. i had pictures of my "stellar" score, but they're on my sister's camera, you're just going to have to wait to see the glory. :) it was real fun though. saturday i just chilled, watched felicity (always a fave) and then went with sakura to south gate to eat with hailes (his treat.. haha) at el ranchito. it was pretty good, i'm always down for some good mexican rice. yum. afterwards we caught the second half of the ucsd men's basketball game vs. csudh. it was a really close game, but we won.. so that's good. the guys are 3-1 in conference, so maybe this year will be good for them :) when i got there cameron wasn't playing, and then he got put in, but he fouled out after a few minutes (which was probably why he wasn't in the game). it was shoddy though, he hit a guys hand while he was going up for a shot. sometimes you just can't avoid that shit. boo. so i didn't get to see him play much, but it was still fun. there was a good amount of ucsd fans, lots of screaming and yelling, and i chatted a bit with cameron after the game. i do miss school a lot sometimes. but yay.. go tritons :)

then i went to ryan's apt to go play poker. well basically i went to hang out with them and donated $10 to mike, paul, ryan and shyam. it's okay, it was my first time. it's pretty fun, me and beth wanted to play just for fun, but guys are all about the money and taking it from helpless people. haha. jk. hopefully i can get better eventually and i'll take their money. haha.. i can dream can't i?

sunday i went to the wedding expo for joan with the family. it was interesting. saw this gown/tux show, tried lots of food samples and cake samples, got some free shizz, and just milled around. it was pretty interesting, although my sister doesn't have a ton of stuff set yet, so it was just browsing. people kept asking me if had set a date yet... ahha do i look like i'm getting married? i guess you never can tell. one day a group of us will just have to go somewhere and pretend. hahah. especially because it's not going to happen for awhile... but maybe i'll just do it britney style. hell yeah.

i drove back for our the waffles first game of the new year. it was the worst ever, even though it started out as the best. i think mike jinxed us by stating this was our record high... although true, the softball karma-ness didn't want us to get too cocky or hopeful, so the next inning the team hit the 10-run/inning cap and then in the next few innings the mercy rule was invoked because of the 20 run difference. sad sad sad. although i did get on base both my times at bat, which is exciting. we hit a lot better, but did awful fielding, or they just hit real well. hopefully we'll do a lot better in the next games, comeback baby! we'll be just like the bad news bears.

afterwards grabbed a quick bit to eat at home and then off to disneyland.. yay!! i just had to see the holiday magic before it was done for the year. nicole, the snow/firework nazi, yelled orders where to stand, what to do, almost didn't let me get ice cream (which i didn't because the line was too long). but it was worth it. we met up with jimmy and sakura (after lots of phone tag), watched the fireworks (yay) and then in snowed on main street!!! it was so fun, and everyone just stood there in awe. there was a little girl trying to catch the snow in the lunch box, it was SO darling. sakura and jimmy went home and nicole and i went over to the haunted holiday mansion to see the change they did for the nightmare before christmas theme. it was definitely less scary and creepy, but i wouldn't call it cute. then we caught fantasmic (with armando, who we ran into) in the best seats ever (and we only had to wait 3 minutes!) i guess everone went home already. it was real good, except i really don't like how the characters don't cruise by on the mark twain boat anymore. boo.. it definitely seems less fantasmical. then i made nicole go on splash mountain.. i was rad... we were the last ones. it was just fun to go on it and hear nicole cry, she's such a riot. i am not insane... we didn't even get wet. and plus i tried to sit in front of nicole, but she changed seats and sat in front of me. what a weirdo, i think she was just asking for it. just so she's have something to blame on me. SO not my fault. i'm not insane.

grabbed a bite to eat at denny's with nicole and armando. i wanted chowder in a bowl and disneyland, but nicole was a fantasmic nazi and after it was over, all the places were closed. i did get to talk to a cute boy in the parking lot when i asked him for directions. i think denny's is where all the cute disneyland workers go to eat after they get off work. hmm.. i wonder where i'll be (jk). came home late (1am) to an angry mother... gawrsh.. i need to get a real job and move out. new year, that's my plan. i hope.. *sigh*