typhoon update...



it's 77degrees.. in Taiwan.. less than it is here.. but it's 88% humidity which i bet makes it INSUFFERABLE. it's 85 degrees here now.. with 31% humidity and i already think it's muggy. bleh. but it's not blazing hot anymore.. i hope it helps out the fires. crazy. yesterday the sun was glowing red. i wish i had had a camera.

iSighting with the sis and the baby tonight! whoo.. and maybe my mom? i dunno. when we were setting up the time it prompted this whole discussion of trying to figure out what the time difference would be.. it was pretty funny .. i wish i had saved it.

still very bored.

i'm sure you've all seen these before a million times, but they're always a fun read everyonce in awhile. i changed the last one (changed in italics). my personal fave is #6.. it made me laugh out loud.

also these are kind of cute.. great truths


DEEP THOUGHTS...

1. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?"

2. Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken there? I'm gonna eat the next thing that comes outta its butt."

3. Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?

4. If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a song about him?

5. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

6. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but they don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?

8. Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!

9. If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that Acme stuff, why didn't he just buy dinner?

11. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?

12. If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

13. Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?

14. Stop singing and read on..........

15. Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup?

16. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?

17. Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it arrive faster?

18. Do you ever wonder why you read my blog in the first place?



... SO bored.

it's really flippin hot outside. i mean.. i should be glad that it's hot instead of freezing cold.. or that we don't have much to deal with. i mean.. we.. as in south bay/samo area.. because fires are burning as we speak in T.O. point is.. it's not something i "should" be complaining about.. but it is quite sweltering. and i'm right next to the beach. it must be like death in the valley... and chino hills :P (gotta give you a shoutout, concepcions!) hah.

anyways.. i haven't watched the news (bad me) but apparently there is a typhoon headed towards taiwan. it looks pretty huge and ginormous and so i'm kind of scared for my family.. especially with recent hurricanes here. i mean.. typhoons happen in taiwan all the time. so maybe they are used to it, maybe the city is more prepared? i don't know. we'll see.. i requested my vacation.. it's less than a month away. if i'm there when another typhoon hits.. i think i might just freak. this california native doesn't know much about weather.



so.. stalkerish me... i googled someone i used to know.. and he seems to be doing pretty well for himself. and he started this website that helps feed hungry children in argentina with clicks from people (one of thoooose sites you know?) so click on the link, and then click on the button to help feed the children. isn't that awesome?!!

porloschicos.com

it only lets each visitor have one click per day, so click on it everyday :)

you know what needs to stop RIGHT NOW?! the stupid frigging combination of movie star names anytime someone is a couple. it's getting REALLY OLD. i mean.. bennifer was kind of cute the first time. and then bennifer 2.. or whatever.. but now it is just OUT OF CONTROL. I CAN NOT STAND IT!!

bennifer
bengar
garfleck
tomkat
brangelina

and now... DASHMI... what the hell is that?!!!

barf barf barf barf barf.

i did like when ben affleck went on SNL after his break up with j.lo and said how he made up a bunch of shirts in anticipation of his next relationship... and there was like "benyonce" (ben+beyonce... duh), "boprah" (ben+oprah.. double duh) and my personal fave (matt damon+ ben affleck) "bengay". oh.. what happened to you...

this is funny.. stole this off a girl from work's signature in her email:

All-Time Great NHL Goalie: Jacques Plante - "How would you like a job where, every time you make a mistake, a big red light goes on and 18,000 people boo?"

and then i imagine if there was a big red light above my desk and every time i made a mistake it'd go off. sad... it'd be like a disco in here.

this random caller guy called and was trying to surf for information that i totally didn't have. and then he tried to make feel stupid like i didn't know info about my company. but he was totally wrong.. so i layed the smack down. hell yea.

so sad. i heard rumors about them breaking up awhile ago.. but thought it would wash away like the nick and jessica rumors. but i guess not. men can be cheating fools. sophia bush is so pretty too... but i guess they're just both sooo young. i wonder what it will do to the show!

i chatted with my sis today.. (shh.. don't tell my mom :P) but it was good to talk to her. my dad made me sad and told me that i shouldn't go to taiwan and that it wasn't important, and that i'd see them all when they came home anyways. but.. my dad likes to downplay a lot of things, or we just have different ideas of what's "important".. so i have to learn to discount a lot of things he says and not take it personally i guess? but it still makes me sad to think about it. but my sister wants me there, and jake TOTALLY wants me there, and my mom does too. so my dad is just a nut (as seen in previous post). after chatting with my sis i am really excited to go.. i just have to set the dates, which i thought i did, but now i'm not sure. my sister totally misses mexican food, she even had dreams about going to the ghettos of taiwan to try and find real mexican food but didn't get any because it was too scary. and then we showed up at the door full from eating too many tacos and she gets really sad. hahahaha.. i guess it was more like a nightmare. i wish i could like take carne asada, carnitas and gyros to her... but i don't know if i'd make it past customs and if they'd spoil or not. haha.. but she has put in a request for krispy kremes :P

this week i am a total laze. at work, at home, at everything. but it is very nice :)

i am unnaturally and unhealthily excited about the new TWO STORY target they are building. i heard a rumor it was going to be 24 hours, but that's less likely to be true. BUT.. i love the big windows and how it looks almost futuristic inside, but maybe that's only from far away. but.. i am excited enough to sit in an empty parking lot late at night to snap some photos. (after a movie.. i didn't make a special trip JUST to take pictures, i ain't THAT crazy!) although i will tell you that i did not like how they closed the entrance to the galleria from behind good guys so that i had to go ALL away around past the cemetary. ugh.. not a fan.

but it's a giant target, even close than the other 2 that are already close to my house and new, shiny and spectacular, so i will forgive.

okay.. sorry i am just rambling now. did a lot of sleeping and eating this weekend. sounds like a good weekend eh? although it's not where i have the tivo set up so last night i stayed up a little late catching up on some of the season premieres. i totally paid for it this morning though. argh.. but desperate housewives was really good, kind of creepy at the end. i don't know whether to thank or curse my sister for getting me hooked on that show. :P

lost again in softball last night. but we're totally out of our league.. so i kind of just expect it to happen.. which makes it less of a dissapointment for me when we lose. other people.. i can't really say.. but some people just don't have fun. which i totally understand, but they also give up trying, or maybe just half ass it.. and then i say.. you have no reason to complain. i dunno.. it was 24-1 (boo), so the team scored the same amount of runs as the team last week, but we played 5 innings, meaning they didn't score the maximum amount of runs each inning (6).. so that's slightly better than getting trounced on each inning right? :P i dunno.. we lost all the time before.. and i think i've come to feel like.. whether we lose by a lot or a little.. it's always the same dissapointment. in fact.. when we lose by one or two.. it's even worse! it's harder because you always think.. "if i had only done that..." one thing that would have made the little difference in the one run.. then you could have tied and gone on to win. when we lose by 20+ points.. i know that it's not in our control, and so i can't feel bad about it. hahaha.. it just becomes funny. makes sense right? or am i just making excuses. :P anyways..we'll have more of a complete team and some of our bigger hitters/good players all there this week, so maybe it will be better. although they always seem to be right where it's hit.. as where we're NEVER in the right place. haha.. how does that happen?

i'm tired.. only 2 more hrs.. this day has flown by a little better than most.. so i am grateful for that. i think i might just veg out tonight. anyone want to come join? :)

i'm an aunt!!!

hi baby <3

funny conversation with my dad:

me: did you do all the cleaning?
my dad: no
me: who did all the cleaning then?
my dad: me!
me: but you just said you didn't do it
my dad: i dunno.

hahah.. strange.

my dad says he has to go into work tomorrow and do overtime. and then he said "i gotta make some milk money!" but the milk ain't for me! ;P

can i tell you how i almost just died? and i'm totally not exaggerating either. okay fine.. maybe not died.. but definitely could have seriously injured myself, but there was definitely that possibility of death. i hope it's not karma because i hadn't done anything seriously wrong, but maybe that's why nothing bad happened. anyhow.. i went to a small shindig at nicole's work tonight and was driving home up the 405.. just wanting to get home as soon as possible, especially because i have to go into work early tomorrow. yea i know.. so i should waste my time typing this out... but i had to. so anyways.. i'm going a little faster than i usually do. 85 or so. sometimes i'd catch myself doing 90 and then slow back to 80 and progress up to 85. i was around hawthorne/el segundo, a little bit before the 105, driving in the left most lane... for speedy people :P so all of a sudden i see this BLACK car WITH NO LIGHTS ON, that is facing backwards at a 45 degree angle to the barrier, in the middle of the carpool and the left lane... the lane that i am in. uh.oh. so i immediately slam on my brakes and hear the loud screech and wailing of my tires, so i get scared for a second because the sound is so bad, but i realize (or at least i think) that there are cars next to me so i can't really swerve and i have no choice to break hard like my life depends on it.. because it does. so i brake again, loud screech of the tires, over the sound of my radio, and i am coming so close to the car that i swear that i'm still going to hit it. i move over in to the next lane a little bit and squuuuuueeeeeze past the car and i was probably going fast but i felt like it was slow-mo and at the next moment that i'm totally going to grind into the car and start spinning or something. and at the same time that i am slowing down i see all these cars and headlights flying around and past me. and all of that happened in 8 seconds or so. i wonder what the drivers in the other cars are thinking, what the sight looked like, i wonder what the guy in the car thought.. or if there way even a guy, and i wonder if i went back if i could see tire marks on the freeway. as i was driving away i thought i saw the car's headlight turn on and start to move fully into the carpool lane (only being a death trap for one lane as opposed to two). i got a little mad like.. "wtf man.. you just decide to do that now?" but ultimately i am REALLY lucky. someone was watching out for me. i am lucky that i wasn't more tired or distracted so that i noticed the car in time to do something about it. i'm lucky that my brakes and tires are in a good enough shape that i could prevent the accident from happening. i'm lucky that i could think quickly enough and my reflexes were quick enough to make it around that car. i'm lucky that the check engine light on in my car hasn't meant worse things for me (even though i JUST got my car back from the mechanic). i'm lucky that no other cars behind me totally rear ended me as i was braking and not only slammed me from the back, but could have slammed me into the car in front and hit other cars from the backlash. or i'm even lucky that it wasn't raining and the roads weren't slick because then i'd probably have no chance to stop in time. i didn't see my life flash before my eyes. maybe it's just a myth, or maybe there wasn't enough time, or maybe it only happens when you're really going to die and be hurt and it wasn't going to happen this time. who knows.. but i was totally shaken up and drove 55-65mph the rest of the way home. (not in the left lane.. i wasn't annoying!) but now i can totally see in my head the news spots of what could have been in the worst case scenario.

so be careful kids. drive safe.. especially late at night when you "think" that no one else is around and you just want to get home. i totally sound like a PSA, and i might be a hypocrite in a few days when i start speeding again. but i'd still like to say that i'm a safe driver.. but anyways.. stay safe.. those roads and dumb drivers can be a scary place.

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side note: about the emergency landing at LAX today.. i was listening to the radio and i find it amusing, yet kind of cool, how all the passengers were watching the news and essentially watching themselves and their own troubled plane on tv because jet blue has individual tv's with live cable feed. seems kind of freaky, but they said that it actually calmed them down because they knew exactly what was going on. interesting.

k.. maybe it's finally time to update. i talk to linh everyday, what possibly could she need to read this for? :P but i guess reading something (even if it's stuff you already know) still gives you something to do at work. so here goes.. but there's not really much to say i guess. i'm not in the blogative mood.

my sister's baby's due date is this week supposedly.. so we'll see. each day i am waiting for a phone call or email saying "your sister has gone into labor!!" hahaa.. not yet. this guy who works here's wife just came with their baby girl. she's so cute! (and you should see all the girls (and guys!) go gaga over the baby.) man oh man.. hurry already baby!! just kidding.. hahahah. i reserved my plane ticket to go visit and i have to put the vacation request in. i'm sure it won't be a problem, but i wanted to wait until i know exactly when i need to be there, and then factor in jetlag and all that junk. but i set the reservation so at least i have that. sucks though that i might be missing our company halloween party which i hear is always so fun. i'm kind of over missing it just because people here probably get SO into dressing up and their really creative artistic costumes. and i'm so like ready to just grab a white sheet and be a ghost. haha.. so lame. plus.. you never want to miss an opportunity to bond with your co-workers and lots and lots of alcohol. hahaha

so i went to a family friend's wedding in place of my mom since she is in taiwan.. and it was cute. not as good as my sisters!! hahah.. jk.. i just had to say that. but heck.. you can't compare any weddings to my sisters. plus.. since i didn't really know them.. it's harder to be elated you know? but.. when she walked down the aisle with her dad to the same song as in my sister's wedding (pachebel's canon in d) i got a little choked up. i don't know why.. it was so weird.. what's happening to me?!! :P after the ceremony was the drinks/hor'deurves and dinner part. 10 course chinese meal! but.. i have decided that they are a gargatuan waste of food and money. even if you only eat a little, you are still so full by the 5th or 6th course, and then the "good stuff" at the end like the fish, rice or crab are kind of just a waste. BUT.. the highlight of the wedding for me was that they had a CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN. man oh man.. the whole lobby smelled like chocolate, and i just thought it was really good cake. but i turned the corner and there it was! *gasp*... whoo!! i had seen them online before.. i think beth showed me. but it doesn't compare to seeing them in person. and eating them. there was strawberries, pineapple and bananas, and then brownies, rice krispie treats, and angel food to put on skewers and dips into the chocolate fountain. YUM. if wish i had actually seen it in person so that i could have gotten one for my sister's reception. or even her baby shower!! haah.. next time. maybe for my birthday. hahaha.. jk. that's a little too extravagant.

we've been playing softball. same team name (the menacers) sorry.. haven't changed it to "the ministers" yet. haha.. but a lot of new people. alot of people that i recruited at work. aha. and we're also in a different league. a higher up league. and i know what you're thinking... how come the team that took 5th place went up to the higher league? haha.. we're all thinking that too. it's because i registered too "late" and all the spots were taken. now we just get our asses whooped everyweek and run around like maniacs. never before have i been so glad for the 6 run/inning cap. haha.. i'm hoping the season will somehow get better or be okay. but i guess we also just suck it up and play and try to have fun anyways :P we go to the batting cages a little bit, which is fun too. so yea. that's that. go menacers :P (for the record i'm not exaggerating.. first game score was like 40-1 - something horrific like that.. at least 30+, second game score was 24-3.. go team!)

last sunday sakura invited us out to the taste of santa monica! it was so fun!! and SO MUCH FOOD. there like 30-40 restaurants doling out their goods, and we somehow managed to sample some from each booth. okay.. that's a lie.. i didn't eat some of the stuff.. but only because i didn't like it.. like raw oyster shooters or gaspacho... totally not my thing.

but i did eat a whole damn lot.. and it was almost painful. above are just a few of the faves :) you get to that point where you've been eating so much that nothing really tastes good anymore. well sort of. haha. but it was fun and i'd definitely do it again.. and again :)



last night i went to carlene's portfolio show. yay! it was kind of like all the students who were graduating, showcasing their work, inviting their friends, and hopefully impressing some potential employers. it was fun and interesting to see all the different student's works. also to see the different way people acted and watch how some of the students acted towards you (or other people) when they assumed whether or not you were important. how lame. i liked carlene's presentation the best because it was great looking and professional, and well lit, but not in a tacky manner (aka.. book lights), but also she was friendly and took time with everyone, not just the people who seemed important. cuz really the most important people go incognito :) unless their head is just huge and have to toot their own horn of self importance. hahah. but then again.. if you're tooting your own horn.... anyhoo. nicole and carlene's parents are super awesome... (cue parent trap theme song).. ahhaha.. sorry.. running joke of the night. but seriously.. they're parents are so cute and nice and friendly and interact so well with their friends. maybe i just think this way because they're not "my parents" hahah. carlene's dad brought plants and chocolate for her display... hahah.. and bought everyone drinks :P i continually stalked the servers with food trays and scarfed down an assorted array of spinach and cheese stuffed mushrooms, meatballs, chicken, tartlettes, and mini tostadas. yum!! nicole and i were joking about how we should wear our work badges and go harass some students... ahaha.. well not harass.. but just uhh.. play pretend :P but of course we didn't.. but i did have fun looking at the different booths and even grabbed a few reels and dropped them off to our recruiter. how funny would it be if some of these people got hired. not funny.. but i'd tell them they owe me some sort of manager's fee. ahaha.. jk. after that was dinner at BJ's... yum!!! too bad we met the bitchiest hostess ever! if it was my party i totally would have told everyone to go somewhere else. and do that whole i love lucy thing where she dresses up as different characters and pretends to leave because ricky wasn't playing at the club.. but instead it would be actual people .. a friggin party of 30! but nonetheless..we stayed and had our fill of 10 pizza's and 4 pizookie platters. we ate until it was ready to "roll" home. and i mean literally and not gangster like speak. but it was definitely a lot of fun and we got a sneak peak of the amount of "crunk" carlene will be on saturday. hahah.

this is just all the stuff that i have pictures of (sans softball).. but not much else. work and junk. slowly starting to go back to working the 2nd job, and trying to find how to mesh job #3 in. oh.. went out labor day weekend to hermosa. and i somehow found myself riding the bull (oh i guess i have a picture of this too.) haha.. linh "tricked me" .. and i was kind of mad because you think that everyone just wants you to do it so they can laugh at you. but then you just learn to laugh at yourself and then it's okay.. i guess. hahah.. i guess you just have to get over the fear of riding it once, and then you just want to be better at it and not fall off immediately after you get on so that when it becomes second nature :P next time you're totally riding it linh. haha. aside from being super sick last week, not much else. some co-workers of mine saw pierce brosnan in a restaurant down the street yesterday :P and i had busy bee and el tarasco in a 48 hr period. (yum), got totally sunburnt from taste of santa monica because my dumbass wanted a "tan".. now i'm in a little bit of excruciating pain. constantly applying aloe in hopes that i don't peel.. at least too badly. went to cabo cantina on monday for happy hour with linh and tony... which was exciting because working until 7pm you pretty much never get happy hour.. but theirs is until 8!! whoo hoo!! buy one get one free margaritas and nachos that are super yummy.. we may have found a new watering hole :) so that is my life in a nutshell. this week is waiting for my new nephew (!!!!!), lucky strike for carlene's birthday and possibly disneyland, and then softball. laundry, sleeping and watching tv all packed in there somewhere. oh.. right now it's time to go see who won big brother 6.. but it's one of the "nerd herd" so i'm not really excited .. bah.

gosh can you believe it's almost october!!!???

stolen from IMDB's quote of the day:

"Men are like parking spaces: all the good ones are taken, and the available ones are handicapped."

hehe.

nicole is going out to see my boyfriend tonight. dang it!! damn this sickness.

i feel like i'm constantly making the wrong decisions. should i be stronger? should i just know what to do? i constantly don't believe in myself enough. maybe all i'm lacking is self-confidence, but i don't want to grab too many things... but i can't just stick to the same things and "hope" that they work out. i need to be afraid to not let go. but what if you let go too early? and what if you let go too late? how come some people just seem to know? they always seem to get it right.. trying new things can be good maybe....... i don't know.

so confused. and i feel like my throat is going to collapse. gah.

it's really miserable being sick in the summer. for all the obvious reason that being sick sucks.. and then some. when you are little and it's summer vacation it sucks more because you can't play with all your friends. when you're "grown up" it might be nice if you get to miss work.. but then you have that feeling of being a slacker, or you're just too miserable to enjoy the fact that you're not working. but.. what sucks about it being summertime.. is that it's SO hot outside and nice and the sun is shining all you want to do is go out and tan your arms, and it's hot and sweaty.. but yet you're so cold inside that you wear your sweaters and pants. you can never decide if you're hot or cold and keep taking off and putting back on that jacket. you toss around in your bed, not being able to sleep, sweating, but yet you need all your blankets because you keep getting chills. the second you take your jacket off/kick off the blankets you are immediately cold, and then when you put them back on, you are sweating so bad. it's a vicious vicious cycle. this is all inaddition to the phlegm, the congestion, the dripping snot, and the earaches... oh man.. i feel so attractive right now. i ache and i'm totally dragging ass. i feel kind of pathetic.. and i hope i don't look as bad as i feel. at least this gives me an excuse to wear my cute new sweater from the gap, and my scarf. i totally look all east coast fall... too bad i'm in the west coast and it's perpetually summer. i mean.. not too bad.. just too bad right now. not that i will complain it's super nice out today. i just keep getting strange looks for my thick sweater and scarf around my neck. some of them are like pitiful poor you looks.. i can't decide whether i appreciate those or not. but i guess i shouldn't sympathy in the gift horse's mouth.. or whatever that saying is (and i added stuff to it.. i know there's nothing about sympathy in that saying).. but so yea. anyways.. i still have 6 hrs to go or so.. i was going to go home to organize stuff beth & co's garage sale this weekend (who wants to buy our junk?!) buti think i'm far too lazy to go back night #5 in a row and organize stuff. it might just have to wait until tomorrow. sorry babe...

new season of softball starts this weekend... hope that it's good!! i'm kind of scared because i went to the meeting and it was all these big guys. as the recreation director so succinctly described them "joey gorrillas".. haha.. that's who we play against. hoo-ray. well i actually haven't seen the teams.. i hear some of them are above us, and some "should" be in the same level. i hope.. *cross your fingers*.. i just don't want to get killed. cuz that's no fun. and no more getting hurt!!

bah.. it's only 1pm.. i was hoping blogging would kill some more time. damn me for typing so fast. umm... my mom left for taiwan last night. it's funny how she always waits until the very last minute to get stuff together. it's another one of those things you hate about yourself, but you can't help. can't teach an old dog new tricks eh? at least she didn't miss her flight, that's the most important part. i was thinking today about my sister having a baby. haha.. kind of weird. i'm gonna be an aunt. my parents are going to be grandparents.... so.. surreal!! hahah.. i guess i don't really know what to expect. i like babies.. and they're super cute... but i was walking around the baby aisles of target and there was so many baby things.. so overwhelming! and it's not even my baby. i had to get out of there fast. hahah.. and then i was surrounding by all these screaming bratty children... and you always say "my child won't be like that" i wonder how much control parents have over whether or not their baby is a "good baby".. like not behaviour wise.. but like fussyness, crying.. like is there much that you can do/control? well we will soon find out.

i hope my sister has a girl next... so i can buy tons of cute hello kitty stuff and cute pink clothes. jk. it'll be interesting to have a boy since there are like no boys in our family...

okay.. at this point.. i'm just rambling. nothing interesting to say whatsoever. so i'll stop the misery now.

ohhhhh 7pm hurry and come!

i might die of embarassment right here...

from beth's comment in the previous post

"you might hate me for writing this, but i was digging through my piles of old cki stuff and i found your ltg letter of introduction with your special paradise letterhead and cloud stock paper. it is quite a gem, and it went in the "save" pile. here are some of my favorite lines:

"I'm a totally happy and friendly person who has tons of energy."

"I'm also employed at the GAP and I love it because I enjoy interacting with the public because I am the biggest people-person."

also: "Overall I want to be the best Lieutenant Governor I can be, a great district board member, and role model and a Circle K cheerleader."

aww, you sound so full of enthusiasm! we were so young, so excited, lol. not that you've lost your vigor and spirit or anything, because last time i checked you were still pretty energetic about the things you care about. but we were all so blissfully giddily in love with circle k, so thrilled about serving on the board. it cracks me up to think about it.

it's a real coming of age story.

anyway. you were a damn good ltg, the best of the best, in spite of, or maybe because of that cheery idealism. i thought maybe it might make you laugh to remember how cute you once were.


beth"

oh my god.. did i really write those things? and publicly distribute them? haahah... i wish i could dig out beth's letter and see what kind of "excited to be convention chair-ey" things she wrote... but i missed that mtg and thus didn't get any letters. sad... at least i wasn't present at the meeting for them to personally humilate me as they read that letter. wow.. i guess i can't really say anything. i found my key club literature when i ran for secretary ... same 'ol cheesy barfness. hahahaha.

"thanks" for the memories beth :P payback is a bitch. just kidding. it made me... do a half crooked smile/squirm. i'm going to go hide now.

*random thoughts*

- i was walking through the parking lot and passed by this saturn and had this overwhelming urge to just kick it as hard as i could to see if the door would pop back out. hehehehe... i didn't though.. i'm not a hooligan.

- i'm all for helping out and donating for the Katrina relief. BUT.. if they come out with Katrina wristbands or those ribbon car sticker things.. i might just barf a little.

"i'm never washing my arms again"

thanks to nicole for a FAB night last night... i know i totally missed out two weeks ago, and i've wanted to go out with you ever since you left that creepy message on my voicemail "next thursday night .... YOU'RE MINE".. huh?

anyways.. nicole is hardly ever wrong about going out.. and hollywood is a good fun place to be. especially when filled with middle school crushes. i was so giddy, nicole did everything she could from letting my confess my undying love and keeping her from dying of embarassment (like that time in the elevator.....) she says baby steps, but i say when he touched me i should have grabbed him and started making out with him... or something. hahah.. can you really picture me EVER doing that? hahaha.. and i could hear nicole giggling/snickering in the background. thanks nicole. :P i am still a little giddy. .... how sad is that?

the night ended with bacon wrapped hotdogs on the street and beef burritos at the 24 hour mexican food place (note to self.. next time get the carnitas or carne asada.. beef.. not so great, super salty.) and then some quality bonding, screenings, and conversations :) yay for nicole!!! she is AWESOME.

*and bonus... it wasn't too hard getting up for work this morning :) easier than yesterday at least. maybe it gets easier as you go out more and get more used to it.

the night before i went out with ryan to his fav local bar, the gaslite. a few drinks, a bit of free popcorn, and some karaoke.

a) ryan loves karaoke.. and loved his two songs. this girl even told me that he was really good.. (but she didn't talk to him at all afterwards beth.. I SWEAR :P)
b) wow.. do i suck bad at karaoke

i'm starting to get a little bit tired today. yay for the 3 day weekend. i hope maybe i can get out a little early today :) that would nice. i can't figure out if i want to chill or go out this weekend.. haha.. i guess we'll just have to see how it goes.

haHA... dirty dancing is on tv again. :) vh1's "movies that rock"... YEA IT DOES.

so i can't really say in so many words "my feelings" about Katrina, because really.. it seems like i ought to not even have any as a "sheltered" west coaster. but i was talking to a friend at work who went to tulane, and has lots of friends and family in new orleans. she's pretty down just because she hasn't heard from some of them, and of course the aftermath of a city she went to school in, and where her friends and relatives live... not so pretty. i was lucky enough to be able to go visit and hang out in baton rouge and new orleans a few years ago for mardi gras, and i'm not trying to make it about me.. but i definitely just took it all for granted being there. just like i thought nothing of it when i visited the world trade center in new york. you should appreciate what you have i guess.. not trying to preach or be a martyr or anything.. just babbling. i know what i'm feeling is so insignificant to so many others... i was watching the news today during my break.. and it's so surreal to see and watch. like 9/11 when you thought it was a movie, because great devastation like this is something you feel like is constructed for theatre.

i read this post that was forwarded to me at work.. and a small excerpt.. but you should read the whole thing...

Drove into HELL (New Orleans) last night... Sensitive types stay out
"Anyway we get to the city and it looks like a freaking war zone. The best visual I can give is the movie "Blackhawk Down" when all the Somalians are rushing the city. They are people EVERYWHERE, they are pissed off, and all have weapons, 2X4's, Axes, and guns. If this wasn't bad enough we are 2 white boys in a truck in a sea several hundred armed pissed off blacks. There wasn't a white person to be found. I couldn't get over the little 8-10yr old kids with weapons, I ever saw one carry a claw hammer!"

and then a picture i pulled off bobby schroder's blog



and then his post as well.. another first hand account...
"I don't know what's going to happen next. We are homeless, unemployed, along with about a million other people. We have about three to four pairs of clothes, some shoes, our end of August paychecks, and the few irreplaceable things we were able to cram into our cars. And compared to some people we know, we have a lot."

everyone has their own tragedies and moments of sadness. i don't think that one person's sorrow is any less than someone else's (although i know that can be argued).. it's hard because i bet a lot of these people never thought it would happen to them. i stumbled upon an older post of bobby's about another tropical storm.. where there was flooding and $30million dollars worth of damage, and i bet at that time they thought that was bad. i knew bobby through circle k, and i'm sure he doesn't remember the one or two times we met.. but i do feel bad for him and glad that at least he's "okay."

there's a fund that kiwanis has set up to help out Katrina victims. although it says it'll be going toward the children. i don't know if that's only towards children and if that makes it better or not.. but the info is here i'd probably donate there, just because it's not as advertised as red cross, and more "related" to me... i'd like to donate to clubs or something that were doing something.. but i bet any club that is close enough to do something has enough to worry about. i'm sure something will pop up though.

lastly.. here's a blog that i found off my homepage. did read a lot of it, but it has some pictures. interesting stuff: dancing with katrina