a year ago.. i swore i would never do what i was doing again. and yet somehow i've found myself doing the same exact thing.. maybe even worse. i told myself that even though for 2 years all i ever wanted to was to go into production - that much like the grass being greener on the other side, it was not what it was cracked up to be. i still had some fun because it was my job and there were people around to support me. a year later, it's not "really" my job, but i'm still doing it. i'm cleaning up EVERY. SINGLE. page of this database because people are apparently stupid and don't know how to cut and paste. or don't know how to read. or just hate me. i sometimes don't get people. strike that.. i never get people.
funny enough, a year ago i was kind of meandering in this mess of a boy situation. actually i guess a year ago it was starting to get better. this year, it's just starting to get worse.
how come i can't haven't learned my lesson yet?
today might be a first step... i said no.
second step: refusing to call again. i don't know if holding out is stubborn pride or self respect. there's a fine line when your ego gets in the way. i haven't figured out yet which one it is.