yikes.. it's september already.. school starts soon.. but not as soon as manny! hahahaah ... sucker starts on tuesday. hmm.. it's been a busy few days.. as it will continue through the end of the month. i don't know whether i should glad that i'm not just sitting around bored.. or perturbed that it seems like i hardly have any free time where i'm not completely pooped. i just started working at the gap again for a month, and on top of my internship, i'm barely at home (which can be good), but running around like a work horse for all the hours of the day. but i do get paid at the gap, which is good.. although with the money that i spend there i probably spend more than i make. but i've been good and resisting lots of little things.. and bought jeans (4 pairs for $100) but that's something that i really needed.

other than that.. my life hasn't been too interesting. talked to people online here and there. went to a tv taping for circle k.. it was fun. i made joe and beth go. beth and i drooled over sean maguire while joe drooled over carmen electra.. yes.. she guest starred on the show.. see.. you foolios should have come. but.. in sad news.. my car died on friday night while taking beth home. thank goodness i wasn't on the freeway though.. or else i would have caused an accident for sure. but it was midnight, and traumatizing and my car is pretty angry at me, and now i feel like i'm 12 years old because i have to get a ride from my dad everywhere i go. which is a pain in the ass for when i go to work (which is everyday). i'm hoping that if i get a rental car, maybe i can get a suv or something.. hahaha. last night i had interesting conversations with Philly, who I met from being a rabid fan of Jason Mraz. we had really good talks about circle k and key club, and jason and other good stuff.. but it prompted me to have a weird dream last night that had jason mraz in it.. but also the cast of 90210, plus all my circle k friends. crazyness. but i must go because i have to clean.. yuk.. i hate living at home with my way-too-asian parents. haha.. but i also have to work tomorrow... but at least i get paid time and a half!! whoo! let's just hope i don't spend it. :P

oh yeah.. and read beth's latest blog. it's soooo funny. and too cute. :) (it should be the one about jason mraz). it says at the top "this is to make jean happy" or something like that. plus carrie blogged for me... not all the scandalous details that i wanted.. i know you're hiding something! but nonetheless it was because of me.. hahaha.. man.. i feel so loved (and conceited) right now. hah. toodles!

okay.. as promised.. here's what happened for the past few weeks.. i hope you didn't miss me too much. ;)

- august 3rd and 4th -
i don't really remember much of what happened this weekend... (man.. i must be getting old).. or maybe nothing too important happened. i know on saturday i drove to brea for joey's birthday dinner. a bunch of his friends from cal po po getting him drunk at this silly restaurant, bobby mcgee's, where they embarass you worse than they do at friday's. but it was fun. sunday.. i just slept and packed.. i think that was it. i didn't sleep at all that night cuz our flight was at 7am, so we left at 5.. so i just packed and stayed up cuz i didn't think i'd be able to wake up.

- august 5th - 9th -
wow... if i blog in clusters of days.. maybe it won't take as long as i thought. hmm.. nevermind.. that's not going to work.

- august 5th -
my dad drove sakura and i to the airport, tired as all hell we checked in and waited in the long ass security line. it went all the way to the other terminal.. jeebus. but i guess it's necessary.. although lines like that don't really prevent what happened a few months ago. but i don't see much of a difference besides the fact that they make a few people take off their shoes. i don't know why the lines are SO much longer.. i guess they just take a longer look at your bags and such, and well check your id's.. i guess that's pretty time consuming. anyways.. we ate mcdonald's (yum.. their hashbrowns are the best) and then got to the gate right as they began boarding. yay us. got on the plane, and tried to sleep as much as possible. in between us eating chocolate, laughing and pushing each other around, we just slept.. or tried to. got to orlando in the afternoon... greeted by it's hot and sticky humid weather.. blah... got picked up by some lssp people - pic, kathleen, ricky.. yada yada yada. sakura and I walked around kissimmee (what a cute name for a city!!), ate lunch at the Sizzler.. yum.. and chilled in the hotel room, laughed, screamed. Watched Fear Factor and I made Sakura do our own version of Fear Factor jumping from bed to bed to prove that she was a triple jumper in high school. hahaha.. we were rolling around on the floor.. the people next to us must have thought we were crazy. tee hee. had the LSSP orientation that night.. haha.. our teams were organized by rooms.. and our team had 7/8's cal nev ha people.. so much for meeting new members. :P It was fun though, our room was the UCSD girls and we were next to Carrie and the CSULB girls and Lauren and we opened the connecting door.. it was a big ol slumber party.

- august 6th, 7th, 8th -
the kids came, we tried to make them go through drills... but they just wanted to play. and they were better than most of us.. hahaha but it was fun. we braved the heat with lots of water and sunblock and breaks. i got to cook spaghetti on tuesday night.. yum. On wednesday, the kids came again... but I was feeling kind of sick, so I abandoned the team.. (sorry!) and went to go rest.. but later got dragged out to buy food and cook, since i'm such a whiz in the kitchen. hahahah. bought and cooked hot dogs for 140 people.. man the people at walmart thought we were insane.. cleaned up, and then went right back to walmart to shop for dinner. cooked jambalaya (i'm being cultured.. whoo hoo) and cleaned up after that as well. That night in our room as we (or maybe just me and Sakura) worked diligently on the team headbands (go FIRE!) I also played Big Brother 3 nazi. damn Ryan who likes to talk while I'm watching my tv.. hung out in the cnh boy's room doing some quality old school cal nev ha bonding time... we're nuts. THURSDAY!! was tournament day!! yay! our super studly team (me, sakura, kieu, tanya, ryan skophammer, chris anderson, jackie (from nj) and dan schroeder (from az)) - and our awesome kids (cc, kinisha, johnelle and kevin (who flirted with sakura)).. we rocked.. haha.. i sprained my ankle in the first game and hobbled around being a gimpy cheerleader. the fourth and last game.. we played a team we didn't like too much and vowed to beat.. so I played hurt ankle and all (joey.. you should be proud). until i got tripped and knocked over by a big defender... and hailes caught that moment on his digital camera.. haha stupid hailes and his camera.. grr.. anyways.. we still won.. so we rock. :) said goodbye to the kids.. people cried.. and then we chilled. a big group of us ordered pizza and had a pool party at the hotel. megan was kind enough to order and pick up all the stuff (whoo hoo) and we had tons of leftovers. once again ... played big brother nazi that night :) and then got forced to go clubbing at Pleasure Island. yes.. forced.. by carrie. :P but it was all good.. so pic, maggie, megan, carrie, sakura and i headed off to orlando's downtown disney and off to Pleasure Island. it's 8 clubs for $20 although we only went to one... met up with nicole, manny, armando and alice and danced the night away. it's like tj, but no hoochie girls taking off their clothes. (good)... after visiting some and getting lost some.. we finally got home and slept.

- august 9th -
DISNEYWORLD!!!! YAAAAAAY!! sakura and i dragged our lazy out-late-clubbin butts outta bed and hopped on the ghetto shuttle to disneyworld. went to the magic kingdow (which is like disneyland).. LOVED IT...we ran all around the park hitting the big stuff like we were five years old. if my ankle wasn't sprained i bet we would have skipped. we contemplated getting one of those electric wheelchairs for me.. hahah.. maybe we wouldn't have to wait in any lines.. but i decided not too cuz i didn't want to look like a dork. after the fun and shopping and eating, we went to Epcot. we were really tired so we just shopped and looked around a little bit.. and took lots of photos of course. then met megan, kieu, ryan, hailes, lauren and tanya at this moroccan restaurant where hailes belly danced!! hahahahaha watched the illuminations show, and then sakura and i rushed off hoping the shuttle didn't leave us.. we got there right when it was gettting ready to go. yay. went back and packed to get ready for our full day ahead of us the next day...

- august 10th -
MORE DISNEYWORLD!! whoo hoo. we finished off Epcot and did MGM in record time. took a massive amount of pictures. sakura and i got obsessed with those imprinted pennies (where they smush the penny and make a design) i'm mad.. in the whole tour of the nations.. they had a penny for each country.. but NO China didn't have a penny.. and Japan's was in Morocco.. WHAT THE HECK.. man.. good thing my sister wasn't there.. she would have made all asians ban disneyworld for life. anyways.. ran around all the parks like maniacs trying to collect pennies.. went back to our new hotel (the convention hotel) and checked in... figured out we were in tower frikkin seven.. the furthest one out.. in the boonies. it was such a far far far walk. thank god nicole from wum gave us a ride as we collapsed on her doorstep. although.. the first person i saw at ICON was the one and only Pete Holiday.. *i'm so lucky* so yeah.. went to our fantabulous 8 person suite... showered, rested, trekked back to the convention center for opening session. later did candidate stuff, blah blah blah.

- august 11th -
workshops, caucusing - walked with manny.. which is an interesting side to be on.. rather than inside the caucus rooms.. there's a lot that goes on outside that you wouldn't think about. nothing really important, just different, governor's gala, district awards - congrats carrie! - and then the desert reception and then the dance and then hugs and kisses party in the ohio suite. fun fun fun... i sat around and talked to mary and justin during the night and met some cute boys from t-o and carolinas (yes.. those carolinas boys again.. hahah)

- august 12th -
house of delegates, sightseeing time (where i just stayed in a slept.. yah.. party pooper i know), then caucusing.. it was a busy night. there were a bunch of parties that night.. walked around a few, just kind of stayed in. oh i remember what i did.. i cleaned the suite and set up for ryan's "surprise" party (you're welcome ryan).. hung out a little bit, and then just kind of chilled. slept with nicole and joe that night (ooh la la) cuz sean came and slept with the ucsd girls, and i didn't want to sleep on the sofabed or with ryan (and be the homewrecker again this year) :P it's funny our suite was more of the district hang out suite... which is ironic because it was so far.. it would have made more sense to congregate in tower 5.. but us foolios are lazy and made everyone walk their asses out here. hahah.

- august 13th -
the last "real" day of icon. hmm.. in the morning we had more awards.. ucsd won 1st place in all of inter-frikkin-national for scrapbook.. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!! sakura was weeping a little.. it was so cute. we were so excited and almost ran cindy over when we went up on stage. i'm sure i was smiling like an idiot. and third place in newsletter .. haha.. we got all excited and jumped up and down.. and then sat back down. i didn't realize that i was supposed to go up and get the award.. haha.. so i ran up there all retardedly. had another house of delegates.. congrats carrie! now she's the new international vp.. hahah.. i tried to make the same fuss as i did with pete.. but carrie will hit me.. hahahaha i can see it in her eyes. that afternoon there was a wicked thunderstorm that was fun to watch. sakura and i got in the jacuzzi in our suite (awesome!) and i screamed because this guy i knew josh was on elimidate. haahahah i knew he was on it, but i never thought i was going to see it, and i did.. and it was the best. hahaah. did the whole farewell session thing.. cnh got distinguished district for last year WHOO HOO!! man.. we did good. last years district board ran up while the district chanted (even when the other district was getting their award) we're such annoying brats... hahahhha. it was exciting though to be part of it all. watched carrie get installed and they announced the winners for trustees and then it was time for the last dance. hahahah.. there was food .. meatballs and nachos and good healthy stuff like that.. so naturally sakura, hailes and i sat outside and ate while everyone else was dancing. watched carrie whore it up on the dance floor, as well as other people.. I DIDN'T SEE ANYTHING! dissapointed when i saw the cute boy that i had my eye on dance with some other hoochie... hahaha. that night did laundry, packed, gave Pete his "Holiday" candles from the Gap (i'm the best present giver), swam a little, people came over... blah blah blah. i don't know if it was because of my ankle, because we were in tower 7, the humidity.. but i wasn't all over the place like usual.. which is good and bad. but i didn't talk to as many people as i wanted ... just hung out with the roomies.. which isn't bad. but i thought i would talk to mary or pete or nick more.. i mean.. these people were all busy (especially pete and the ladies.. hahaha) .. but still but whatevs.. it was enjoyable.. and i just lived vicariously through tanya anyways. :)

- august 14th -
sad.. time to go home, packed up our stuff, did some last minute souvenir shopping, got a taxi and ryan, kieu, sakura, tanya, hailes and i loaded up for the airport. everyone except kieu was on the same flight.. hahah.. so the 5 of us got those seats facing each other.. slept on top of each other, braved the annoying drunk people next to us, and held each others hands as we were startled by the sudden dip the plane took in turbulence. ryan left us in phoenix, and us lax'ers headed up to the front, slept some more and gushed about icon some more (and how we won first place in scrapbook.. guess who i sat next to.. :P) got to the airport, my dad, tanya's parents, hailes' family and jimmy were all there. i got my luggage went home and slept. whoo..

there it is.. finally. it seemed really quick, but it was fun.. i was ready to go home by the end of it. and my ankle is still sore some, my bags are still only half unpacked and our 8 rolls of film have been developed.. i had a good time at icon.. :)

hmm.. the rest of my life? hahah.. went back to my internship. i'm SO mad... my future husband Eli Swanson came in while i was at ICON.. (that's it!! i'm quitting circle k!!) he came in TWICE.. and i wasn't there.. damn it! according to Tosha, he looked goooood, and just my luck, he's not coming in anymore because he's quitting acting and going to medical school... damn damn damn!!! ugh... i think i'm going to go to columbia med next year. :P there goes my one chance at true happiness. hahaha.. i still can get his cell phone number and address! jk. (well not really.. but i don't have the guts to do that.. plus i don't want to go to jail for actually being a stalker).. i'll just stay slightly obsessed. hmm.. went to benji's family's karaoke party. it was interesting.. and very benji. hahah.. if you know benji, you know what i mean. saw jason mraz last thursday.. he was AMAZING as always. there was this kick ass 17 year old saxophone guy who played with Jason and Toca and Ian.. it was great. annie came and went up during the say anything game and rocked everyone's world. and beth came and now is just as in love with jason mraz. she was all "can he play at my wedding?" ahahhahaha we went to mel's diner afterwards, and i figured out that one time i drove in fatty traffic for 2 hours to see howie day after work at the virgin megastore on sunset.. i drove in a circle going the wrong way! went down the 101s to the 110s and then back up the 405n to get there... kind of like a triangle.. i went down and up the two diagonal sides instead of straight across. yes yes yes.. i'm a horrible person with directions.. i know. :P anyways.. not much since then.. chillin.. i started working at the gap today.. but most of my friends quit so it's not as fun. boo. but at least i'm getting paid. interning, working, not much else.. ooh.. tomorrow there's a big brother on! whoo hoo. and i'm tired now.. babbled too much.. but i applaud you for reading all the way to the end if you have. you are a marathon blogger reader ... hi-five!

okay.. so i've put off doing my marathon blog about ICON... but i think i'm goign to start now.. i probably won't finish it tonight seeing as how i have work early in the morning.. but at least if i start it'll be closer to being done... (if only i was this systematic with my comm papers). so.. watch out for it.. it'll be a good one... maybe.. well.. at least I'll enjoy reading it. hahaha.

on another note.. i wonder what happened to all my friendies? i think they all went out on a secret date.. cuz they just all vanished. nicole and carrie have been missing all day. they're away messages said that they were "out" and now they're not even online! oh no! and then at 9:30 beth said she was going to go take a shower and come back... three hours later she's not around.. i hope that scary final destination thing didn't happen to her. she hasn't even been looking for ryan! *gasp*.. something must be wrong! :P i hope no one kidnapped them.. or that the Torrance rapist got to them... maybe i should put up fliers around my neighborhood....

oh.. one more thing.. i'm going to see jason mraz on thursday! yay!

i'm back from Orlando... safe and sound, although i did sprain my ankle, and there was some turbulence where we all thought we were going to die. but i just thought i'd update my blog for everyone who loves me and checks it. sorry it's said the same thing for awhile, but thanks for coming back! i'll have to sit down and do a marathon blog.. i just haven't been up to it yet. i've been SO tired.. i wake up late, eat, nap, eat, sleep early.. and do the same thing all over again. what's wrong with me?! anyhoo.. just wanted to put something new up... LSSP & ICON recap soon.. i promise. *oh.. and i'm still homeless (in SD) if you're wondering. :(

first things first... HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY JOEY!! he's the guy in the third picture down. what a cutie. anyways.. it's his bday today, so yay for him :)

hmm.. not much, i'm still kind of homeless for next year, but some things are starting to look up. i mass emailed a ton of people on my school's off campus housing listings and got a few responses. i talked to this one girl who lives in La Regencia .. which is the same complex that Sakura lives in.. hahahah, i could play with her everyday.. i don't know who's luckier, her or me :P but the rent's not too bad, and it's close to school, so that's kind of exciting. but my selfish side wants to live with this girl in Pacific Beach that's like 7 blocks from the ocean and has a view of the ocean from her balcony, or so she says. this is all based on what these people say... but hey.. it beats a cardboard box eh? or someone's living room. but thanks for offering. the girl from La Regencia seems way nice, and she was in Key Club in high school.. hahaha.. i hope she doesn't pick one of those other losers who are looking at her place tomorrow.

wednesday i interned, i had to research this list of black comic book superheroes, and honestly.. it was SO obscure, sometimes i couldn't even find facts on these characters.. wow.. they should make a comm class about that. another "how the white man is bad" class.. cuz we don't have enough of those at ucsd. thursday it was super slow, i ran errands, did breakdowns, answered phones... nothing too much out of the ordinary.. some famous people came in, but not any of the super cool ones. i'm still waiting for my future husband Eli to walk through the door. he's SO going to come in while i'm at ICON.. i'll be so upset. *knock on wood* i also interviewed at denny's, but i don't think they're going to hire me based on the fact that i could only work there for 4 weeks, and those lame gap people finally got their shit together, but told me to talk to them after i come back from ICON.. which is fine, but they should have just hired me like a month ago. lame-o's

today was a lazy day as well, but i did go to softball practice for my work. yay! softball!! (*yes sergi, i got the nerve to ask.. thanks) it's kind of fun and exciting.. i kind of felt lame because i'm just the intern, so i didn't want to like butt in, but they were cool. and after showing off my mad skills (haha.. riiiiight) they didn't mind so much. it was funny though because today beth and i remembered that we were on the same torrance rec softball team in middle school.. hahaa.. she remembered me because i was the only other asian girl... what a nerd. but i definitely miss that.. yay fast pitch softball. too bad tomorrow's slow pitch, but i doubt that i could still pitch like i used to. but i am excited to play.

overall it's been a weird few days.. i've been really tired, sometimes cranky. i like flipped out yesterday.. it was so weird. i had like an emotional over surge.. maybe i should lay off the crack. jk. but yeah.. i got in this weird funk and decided i didn't want to do anything but lay around, and that i didn't want to go to ICON anymore, and i dunno. it was just weird. thanks mucho to Ryan and Beth who always try to make me feel better when i'm being lame. but i should go.. because i gotta get up early so i can be ready to win at softball tomorrow. ooh.. maybe babyface will come to the game to watch his company play. hahha.. yeah right. i hope we win, cross your fingers for me. if you wanna come watch me get hit by softballs... we're playing at la cienaga park at noon! come come come!!

once again.. happy birthday joseph william bensie :)

there are so many things to say, and i don't know where to start, or how to say them all. it's like when you're really hungry and you get a whole bunch of food, and then once you start eating you're not hungry anymore. well.... kinda.

anyways... let's see.... Friday I finally got my butt out of bed and drove down to SD. First stopping off in Poway to meet up with Angelee.. we were supposed to go shopping, but in combination with my late departure and the massive retardation of traffic (what the heck are people doing on the road at noon on friday.. don't they have work or something?) we didn't get to go. it was quite funny though because right after i got on the 15 traffic was backed up, and i found out because avocados were spilled alllll over the freeway.. there was green and brown mush everywhere (guacamole anyone?) and cops with push brooms trying to clean it up. man.. what a waste of avocados.. i should have got out and saved some... haha.. that's what my mom would have done. jk. anyways.. chilled out at ben's IMMACULATE house. man.. i wish i could live there.. I would commute to ucsd from poway just to live in his hilltop house, it'd be so worth it. haha.. and watched pokemon and jeopardy on his kickass split screen tv. i'm going to live like that someday. anyways, drove over to kristen and jill's... chilled out. checked out the jason and jane show.. it was pretty cool. one of the girls there knew one of my sister's friends.. it was the whole six degrees thing, small world. saturday, after getting three hours of sleep, went to the kiwanis pancake breakfast. i was SO tired.. and i had to keep walking around to keep myself awake, because if i ever stopped and sat down, i'd fall asleep. i wore my princeton sweatshirt and everyone oohed and aahhed until i told them that i really went to UCSD. it's so weird how people treat you differently based on what they think you're like. like whether you're dressed up, dressed down, wearing an ivy league sweatshirt. anyways.. i did get hit on by some dirty old man yet again this year *shudder* but it made my day when three really hot boys showed up. me and tanya giggled the whole time there were there in between the drooling.. jk later house hunted a little bit, but i was SO tired that i just konked out. dinner with Sakura and Carol, they cooked.. yum! and then the Austin Powers movie. it was good, but not like great... maybe the effect has worn out, or i just expect too much. it was still funny, and i laughed a lot, but it's not like OH MY GOD YOU HAVE TO GO SEE... but if you're looking for a good time, call nicole.. oops I mean.. go see the movie. jk on sunday, house hunted with jill. she is my savior, she was like house hunting nazi and made me drive around and call and look at places. she's a pro, because i'm retarded and didn't know how to do anything.. so thanks jill, you rock. but still i didn't find a place because i suck.. so i'm still homeless. g-a-i-y-e. had pizza at home with kristen and spent the evening with the tv and the jason mraz video. kristen was in love. hahahaha. monday, did a little bit of the house hunting, applied for place, thought about a few more places. i don't know exactly what i'm going to do because money and distance are two big factors and too bad the closer i live the more expensive it is. i asked my dad and he told me just to wait until i come back from ICON but i feel like that would be too late. but at the same time.. i have no idea what i'm going to do. yay cardboard box here i come. got to hang out with Taylor and his dog Sarge.. it was lots of fun, we just talked, had lovely conversation.. haha.. gave him his late late late birthday present wrapped in *nsync christmas wrapping paper... that was his favorite part :) ate at joe's crab shack with kristen, it was YUMMY, and then raced home for road rules and sorority life. drove back to torrance at 11pm, and got all freaked out because they shut down the freeway and made everyone take a detour and i swore i was going to get lost, but i didn't, so i was glad. got home and fell asleep, woke up this morning with the lights on, in yesterday's clothes and bad bad breathe (mm. pretty mental images)

today was fun, i went to work... and SHOOK HANDS WITH DARRIN HENSON.. the MAN who choreographed some of *NSYNC's dances. man.. i'm that much closer to JC. he seemed like a super nice guy, asked me my name, introduced himself to a nobody like me. hehehe... maybe he just came from JC's house and shook his hand too.. i could have JC on my hand! heheheheh.. (yes i know.. i'm retarded). anyways.. that was my excitement for today.. drove in fatty traffic to the Virgin Megastore in LA to meet Howie Day. it was alright.. it seemed real nice as well. got my cd autographed.. blah blah blah. ate in n out for dinner while driving home and proceeded to spill crap all over myself, but got home, watched a tape of big brother 3 (from saturday) right after THE BEST CAR CHASE I'VE EVER SEEN.. this guy like got swipe by this van as he sped through the red-light intersection, spun around, almost ran over a pedestrian, kept going, got on the freeway going the wrong way, made some crazy spins and turns, finally started going the right way only to make another crazy turn to go back the wrong way when the cops started chasing him again, his car gave out and he tried to run and jump over fences.. in the end.. he was caught, like they always do. it's just fun to watch I guess.. (you can tell i'm from LA) with my dad yelling "shoot him! shoot him!" and me yelling "run! run! goooooo!" and my mom going "aiya"... it's definitely Q.T. with the family. hahahaha. this one was way exciting though.

i do leave for ICON in less than a week though. that's way crazy.. summer is almost already over. yikes.

it's been a long week. i now intern tues, wed, thurs, and seriously.. working three days in a row, driving 1 hour both ways.. i am SO not used to. i mean.. i've worked 40+ hour work weeks before, but nothing like a real job, working at the gap, computer camp.. shit like that. i dunno.. something about this is just so different, and i'm only doing menial things.. maybe that's the problem. but anyways.. it's alright. wednesday i alphabetized scripts into the script library ... yay. (not).. and then today.. was SO great. it was really busy, which made me happy because i felt like i was serving a purpose. so yeah.. i was doing breakdowns, got to answer the phones again (i was a little less retarded) and then it got really hectic, and these people came in for a meeting, and then DONALD FAISON walks through the door. i was so excited cuz Clueless is like my ALL-TIME fav movie... and he's just such a cutey. and then.. i was told to wrap this gift for a client.. and little did i know it was for Donald. I WRAPPED DONALD FAISON'S BIRTHDAY GIFT. Let the world know... he ripped my fantastic job to shreds in like 5 nanoseconds.. and my heart cried a little for my poor wrapping paper. hehe.. but as he left with his present and his Challenge for the Children basketball, he said "see ya later" to me. YAY!!!! hahaa.. i'm such a huge nerd. so yeah.. Donald Faison was going to go off to play basketball with *NSYNC... which is why we got that call from that chick. Man.. what I wouldn't give to like be his personal assistant for the weekend. Then I could glue myself to JC's pants. :)

Anyways.. that's all, went to Costco, got my pix back, half good, half bad. Talked to Kristen, had waffles for dinner, umm.. nothing much. Going to go watch Big Brother 3.. its' the best :) Going to San Diego tomorrow for the weekend. Hopefully I'll find a frikkin place to live.. AHHH!! *sigh*.. but I'm happy for the most part. Going shopping with Angelee tomorrow.. NORDSTROM'S ANNIVERSARY SALE. although i'm so broke... i need a job, maybe a new corner... the old one's not working.

i stabbed myself with a screwdriver today while i was fixing my dad's chair. there's a huge hole in my finger :( but the chair's fixed. (no nicole, this is not a cry for help)

happy 21st birthday to jill-a! i wish i could be there to celebrate. they went out to get plastered at friday's... and i'm missing out. damn this being home crap. but hopefully we'll go out for a good time this weekend.

my finger hurts.

"pooooooooooooooor unfortunate souls. so sad, so true"

i am SO bored. i'm at work right now, and everyone's out at lunch, so the intern gets to answer the phones. whoo hoo. the highlight of my day though this lady named Beth called, and she said she was from somewhere, and I thought some company. So I asked again where she was from, and she said "*NSync.." all slow (like I was retarded) "like the group" and then much like the Eli Swanson episode I got all choked up and was unable to speak. I should have made her wait and tell me all the details. I don't know. Anyways... *sigh.. I wish I could intern for them... haha.. knowing them though, I'd probably never even meet them even if I did intern for them. Celebrity bastards.

Anyways.. it's been a chill couple of days. Dinner with the fam on Friday, chillin at home on Saturday. I went to go see My Big Fat Greek Wedding and dinner at the Kettle with Benji that night. hehehe.. we were arguing over who was going to drive to who, and I won!! hahaha.. eat my dust Benji. The movie was good, it made me a little sad like all love stories do, but I guess the moral is that "anyone can find love, yes even you" so it either makes me happy because it gives me hope, or makes me sad because I'm such a loser that I can't find love when everyone else, even the seemingly hopeless can. (yes.. i know.. i'm lame). Anyways.. that was fun. Sunday my dad went to work, so my mom and I hung out, ran errands, did some shopping. We got to Costco too late and they were packing up all the sample carts. sad.. that's the worst... like.. so close, but so far away. Monday I hung out with my dad because he didn't have work. I was supposed to come in to intern, but I was going to switch days anyways, so I figure hey.. why not. Plus, if I hadn't then I wouldn't have gotten the call from Beth from *Nsync. hahahahahha. Anyways. so I'm sittin here, chillin.

I didn't realize that ICON and LSSP were so soon. I thought I had a few weeks still.. like a month almost, and I was talking to Megan, and she leaves this Wednesday.. and realized that I leave in less than two weeks!! Crazy.. I haven't thought about what I'm wearing, or gone shopping for ICON clothes. But it's kind of exciting to think it's so close. But soon it will be over.. and then I will be sad. And then summer will end I still have no place to live and haven't made any money.. wow.. time flies. Okay.. enough blogging.. I'm even getting bored of this. I want to go home.

"and then there was one"

yay.. i have pretty pretty pictures. muchas gracias to joey who helped me out with my picture problems, and a big no thanks to manny who is completely useless. :P

anyways.. today was whatevers.. dragged my sorry butt out of bed to go to my internship. it was a lazy day at the office, sent out casting letters. same thing i do everyday. went out to dinner with my parents. it was funny because she called me on my cell while i was at work, and she was all mad and asked "where are you" and i told her i was at work. but she wanted to if i wanted to go out to dinner, which is funny because i was actually going to call her to see if she wanted to come out to dinner. funny. anyways.. her and my dad and i went to this vegetarian all you can eat place in torrance. it was pretty good, i was fully stuffed. came home, lounged around, and played with my blogger. and now it's purrtty... by the way.. if you can't tell the fourth picture is of my sister WHEN SHE MET JC!!!!! *sigh

"thanks again freakies.. you make me smile."

yay.. i'm a little happier today. my shoutbox is back. my page doesn't look quite so lonely, but the shoutbox does... so go shout :) i'd love you forever for it. also, i found out today that we got the villa for convention. haha.. i told nicole that if we had got it, i'd never leave my room. hahaha.. goodbye convention. but that makes me happy, i was screaming and jumping up and down and my dad thought i was crazy. and then he asked me when i was leaving, and then do you know what he said? "oh good, that means i'll have some quiet now" ew.. today i just chilled, worked out, and hung out with my daddy.. he's so cute. i took the cutest izone of us at the mall, i'll have to find someway to put it up here. house hunted (gay) and did other sorts of errands. it was quite a non-eventful day. oh yeah.. one last thing.. i did something really lame and funny today, like sending out a weird email, and i feel like a fool now, but i did it.. and now i'm laughing at myself. oh jeebus. we'll just see what happens.

but i would like to say thanks to sakura and kimmy and manny and amanda for talking to me, making me laugh, giving me good advice, understanding.. you know what you did. *muah*

sakura: *muah*
jean: mwaw
sakura: no.. it's not mwaw, it's *mmmmmuah!*

so when i originally started this blog, and i thought of the title, it was something that i made up, that just seemed to fit. i guess my blogger could fit in where tv is, although sometimes it is not so cooperative. but when i made up the title.. it was based on the fact that when i was little, and my parents were working, my sister off doing her own things..the tv was the only one that would always be there for me. it kept me company when i needed it, made me laugh, it was always there for me, no matter what. although this seems lame and selfish and dorky, i do find comfort in stability and knowing that something will always be there for me.

in other episodes of today, this was not the case. i complained the other day about what a crappy situation i was in, well it got worse. and i complain not so that you will feel pity for me, but so that i can vent freely without feeling bad that i forcing anyone to listen to me whine. i guess this week is just not a good week for trusting people. i laid myself out on the line and i got screwed over, twice. i trusted people, and got let down by people who PROMISED they wouldn't, and people that i wouldn't let down because i believed they wouldn't do it to me, but i was wrong. and it's hard to swallow, and hard not to be bitter, because right now i am a bitter bitter angry girl.. and so i'm sorry if i'm bringing anyone down, there's only so much shit one person can take. and people pretend they care so that they can make themselves feel better, or they justify it as survival of the fittest, but there comes a point when you should consider others in your action. and when you choose to fuck someone else over irreparably, because it's what's best for you, don't expect any sympathy, compassion or understanding in return. i honestly have cried so much this past week, that people who are my friends wouldn't have put me through that, wouldn't have made me hurt so much. so right now.. i guess i don't really know anymore. it's hard to trust people, when people that you trusted so much don't come through, so what's to say for the rest of the people you trust.

"promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it"

today has been a day of all sorts. good, bad, ugly...

one thing i forgot to say that happened on saturday night. i got water bombed!! i was driving, and there was a loud boom and water all over my windshield. i felt like josie grossie when she got attacked by eggs from her hs prom date. sadness. it also made my rearview mirror fall off, a little krazy glue, and i was back in action. sunday was chill, i had a hot dinner date with sakura, and then drove back to la. near the checkpoint, there was this truck on fire and i was in trafiic, and didn't move for like 10 minutes. people like turned off their cars and got out. we should have thrown a big party on the freeway. haha.. came home, and watched A Walk to Remember. it was so cute, and mandy moore is so cute, i wish i could be her. shane west was such a sweetie. awww.... okay.. i'll stop.

today i went to my internship, i stayed an hour later, but it was okay. i was hard at work. i got drool over more headshots of my future husband Eli Swanson. and then i got to call clients, including mr. hottie. oh my gosh... i was so nervous, and i might have peed my pants if i actually talked to him, but it was his voicemail, and i left a message, stumbling over all my own words the entire time. i tried to figure out this thing online, and i was so frustrated, and i called the help guy like 5 times, i bet he thought i was a moron. i felt like a total ass everytime he was like "hi jean..." drove home, chilled, ate, did random stuff.

my night turned really bad though. like shane west's character in A Walk to Remember, he didn't have any faith because he had been let down too many times. and i'm kind of like that, except I'm not smart enough to accept it, and keep on having this naivete about the world that i can trust people, and not to turn your back on other people because it's not nice, and others wouldn't turn their back on you. so yeah.. i know i sound cynical, but there are so many times that i've been let down. needless to say, i had a bitch of a night. it was not pleasant. and i guess i really do need to be more careful about who i trust, who i talk to, who i make friends with, who i open up to, because in the end everyone will just trample all over you if you let them. but that's hard.. because i'm not a confrontational person, and i'm not naturally hateful.. so i don't know. thanks to ryan and kimmy, and some night time running i cleared my heard... although still pretty peeved. i don't know what i'm going to do. one more thing... parents are so hard to please. you do one thing, and they want you to do more. you don't do anything, they only want you to do the one thing. but in the end, unless you've done everything, you might as well have not done anything. sounds like some more trampling's a'comin.

"sleeping to dream about you, and i'm so tired" - jmraz

it's been a slow couple of days... nothing too exciting, just my life. thursday.. i went out with the family to go out for my dad's birthday. it was kind of exciting, just fun hanging out with the family. my sister asked about birthday parties when they were little, and although they didn't really have parties, my dad said he had a 20th birthday party but wouldn't tell us what he did at it, and my mom told us stories about when she was drunk at the moon festival. hahhaha.. it's so cute when we actually talk about stuff like that. that night i also went on a cleaning spree and sorted stuff in the living room and the family room. i got sick of not having a place to sit down (yes.. my house is that messy)... and so i cleaned until like 4am (bad me).. and dragged myself out of bed the next for my internship. drove in fatty traffic.. but.. i got to send out resumes and headshots trying to get people auditions. hehehe.. they guy in the britney spears video is so hot... i drooled all over his headshot. Along with this guy Kaya Wittenberg... I didn't know who he is... but he was way hot.. and he was on Temptaition Island!!! hahahahahha so anyways.. that's me being lame. they were casting for dawson's and i was so tempted to like steal it and send my own resume and like 4x6 picture in. yes.. i'm lame i know.

umm.... that was my friday.. OOH.. so i got to hang out with my sister on friday night. i went with her and her roommates to go see Lilo & Stitch although i totally
didn't want to see it at all when i saw the commercials. it was totally cute, and i really enjoyed it.. haha. i even almost started crying at the sad parts. damn nicole for being right! anyways.. it was super cute.. go watch it.

today i drove down to san diego to go house hunting again. it was a little meager.. but then jill-a and i went to go see this one house on Mt. Soledad.. it was EXCELLENT
it was such a nice house, now we just have to get it. it would be perfecto. *sigh* i'm really hoping for that house it would be the answer to all my dreams. anyways.. chilled with jill and kristen... watched tv - yay.. real world and big brother 3.. whooo hoo. oh.. and a mary kate and ashley movie. this one actually made me a little sick.. hahha went on a late night ice cream and roberto's run. perfection. hahaahha.. it's like that one episode of friends...


"on second thought, gum would be perfection"

wow.. i feel like today was long.. because i actually got up at an hour of a working person. but before i start ranting and raving only to be shot down by people who really did have a hard day.. today was definitely HOT and you cannot debate me on that.

mm. let's move back to yesterday though.. i woke up at 2 (oooh.. exciting.. i know).. but it was bad because i felt sluggish all day. I did get to squeeze in some Passions though... and they changed Ethan!! yuk.. there's not reason to watch that show now.. haha. anyways.. ooh.. another discovery I made. Since we don't have cable, we have an antenna, so sometimes we get those fuzzy in between channels (no.. not like the fuzzy porn channels you sicko.) but like channel 6 and 12 (san diego channels).. anyways.. they show garfield and alvin and the chipmunks and clarissa explains it all on channel 12!! i so miss alvin and the chipmunks. the only drawbacks are a)it's fuzzy and b)they're in spanish. man... i knew those 5 years paid off for something. too bad i only understand half of what they're saying. but it's the weirdest thing.. i find myself watching those shows instead of regular programming... just like i'd watch the world cup in spanish instead (or maybe i just liked to hear the "GOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLL") anyways.. that's me. went to go eat dinner with Carrie and then worked out at the Bally's in Santa Monica. they charge 50 cents for parking!! how janky is that? i mean.. you already pay enough to be a member.. and there is no parking as it is in West LA.. and then they charge you to go park at the gym!! jeebus.

today i woke up gigundoly early to go to my "production" portion of my internship. i left at 8:15am.. the earliest i've woken up i think all summer and as far as work goes.. i did the same thing.. filing.. at least it was easier.. mostly just entering titles into the script log. i got to take home some scripts to read.. some will & grace ones, dawson's creek and other movies that weren't made. hehe.. now i can be a nerd like Nicole and read! hahaha (jk babe.. i lub you!) mm.. not too much else.. met one of the other interns, and ended up leaving around 2. sat through nasty traffic, had Jack for lunch. i ordered the sourdough jack combo specifically for the antenna ball (go dodgers!) and the lady tried to stiff me!!! she handed me the bag and i checked for the ball and it wasn't in there, so i had to ask for it. i was in drive thru, so i felt kind of bad holding up the line.. but DUDE.. she tried to cheat me out of an antenna ball!!! man.. i'm glad i checked.. or i seriously would have went postal when i got home. it would have been just like that other time that joan got all crazed when they forgot her hamburger.. man.. she threw the biggest shitfit.. it still cracks me up today.. hahahahah me and Angelee would be like.. "man.. don't piss Joan of or she'll go all Jack in the Box on you" hahah.. aww.. i'm so sad that that girl moved.. i'll have to tell her my story though. she'll get a good laugh. mm.. tried to go to guitar class at the torrance cultural arts center.. but i think i looked up the wrong thing.. it was soooo cute though.. there was this kids hip hop dance class. man i wish my parents enrolled me in that when i was little.. haha i could do the booty dance right along with kristen. mm.. chilled at home, watched tv, ooh. i bought the avril lavigne cd. (yes.. carrie.. i know i can burn it) but it was only $5.99.. and so i figure.. so a few extra bucks you can get the real thing! it's pretty good so far. didn't work out today.. although i'm kind of getting discouraged.. i don't think it's working so well.. i still all "big boned" eh... chit chatted.. met some new people online.. so that was way fun. and talked to all my old friendies..caught up with some missing ones.. it was a fun night for online talking. i had the most interesting conversation with Kristen though.. *sigh.. sometimes I feel like I'm missing out on so much... one day... Anyways.. downloaded some new music That's pretty much it. Tomorrow's another lazy day.. and then Friday's interning, and then Saturday I'm going down to SD to house hunt. yay.... (SORRY i can't go to your thing Ryan!!) ooh.. I did watch Big Brother though tonight.. it was good.. haha.. i like that show.. i don't care what any of you retards think. :P

one last thing... HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

"but i do know one thing,
it's where you are, is where i belong
I do know, where you go, is where i wanna be" - dmb

today's been an okay day... at least it's ended pretty well.. i feel alright :)

hmm. today was my first day on intern-ing and edmonds management.. woo woo. i'm basically a pee-on though, making copies, running errands, organizing stuff, filing stuff.. yada yada yada. i guess i could be doing worse things though. heheh.. i surfed the internet for a little bit in the little nook they let me sit in, while not doing other things, but hehe.. i have an actual place i guess. i DID however find that they (we?) represent the guy from the oops i did it again video (the astronaut.. who could forget him) and darren henson!! (of darren's dance grooves!) along with some other exciting people (like rosario dawson).. but those two ranked high on my sordid list. hahahaha

drove home, traffic wasn't too icky.. although i do have a real problem with speeding up real fast and then having to come a complete stop. i swear.. i need to be careful or else i'm totally going to rear end someone and that would suck hard core. ate dinner with my daddy and chilled before Carrie came to pick me up. ooh.. the new Dave cd was leaked and so i promptly downloaded it and burned it.. whoo hoo.. free music. man.. i'm totally gonna go to jail. bad bad me.. anyways it's good.. it's very dave of course. it's nice and relaxing .. it's faboo. Carrie and I worked out, and aside from the broken treadmills, icky id card picture, and me being way sick and congested, it was okay. ate afterwards (yes.. defeating the purpose.. we're still trying to work on that).. but.. i may have found a new possibility for a job. the graveyard shift at denny's. yes ... i know it's SUPER crazy.. but i am one broke ass mofo with a need for lots of money. i dunno.. i kind of really want to do it.. i must be insane!

got the ftp server to work to feed my addiction to jason mraz, and chit chatted with friends. ooh.. last night I watched the DAYS tape that angelee made me. it was the entire week of days of our lives when sami gets her rear end kicked in by austin. IT WAS THE BEST!!! five episodes, no commercials ~ austin caught her lying, broke off the engagement, left sami bawling at the alter.. man austin is SO hot. but anyways.. it was so great.. and it was a long time coming, she was not allowed to marry austin, and she totally deserved what she got.. and i was SO excited.. i was squealing like a five year old child. my family thought i was insane. so THANKS angelee mucho times over.. it's a tape i will cherish forever. and if you ever want to watch it.. just let me know! it's great.

"good girl. here i'll give you two dollars and you can go buy yourself some boba"

okay.. so i realize just how corny that quote was last time.. but i thought it should be fitting since it was the 4th, although it just seems quite lame. anyways... i haven't really been up to much, despite the fact that there are probably a million things for me to do right now. friday i was left carless, but carrie came and fetched me and we went shopping. except for the fact that i had gotten sick somewhere along the 4th and was dripping snot all over the mall. it was pretty disgusting. carrie dropped me off at home so i could rest up before going out again later that evening, but i just ended up staying in bed all evening and sleeping through my miserableness.

saturday, still feeling pretty crappy i dragged my lazy-self over to the service committee carwash. i whored myself out on the corner (in the daytime nonetheless) holding a carwash sign. i don't think that helped at all, but it got me out of washing cars! i don't think dripping snot all over these people's car was good for them anyways. went to the service committee and dlssp meetings and went home to rest. slept a lot more and didn't really do much else. except had a long conversation with nicole... about... anything and everything.. i don't even remember. i just remember that Nicole and Carlene were talking on yahoo messenger and trying to get some guy to take his shirt off. hahahah..

today was another "i feel like shit ran over twice" days, so i stayed in, chit chatted on the phone, cleaned my room (yeah.. i must really be sick) and eh.. not too much else. did some more stressin' about house stuff. it sucks hot monkey ass. but i hope you're having a good day.

"and if my day keeps going this way i just might rip your f*in face tonight!"

So another fourth of july has come and gone. This one was pretty good. I started out really bummed because I wanted to go up north with Kristen to Ryan's party, and bummed that my parents wouldn't let me... but I guess they saved me from 7 hours in the car. Bummed around the house a little bit and then went out to Whittier to help our at a CKI project. How sad... I'm doing Circle K stuff on the 4th. I felt a little bad because my dad gave me a hard time wanting to go up north and not spend time with him.. but then he let me go to Whittier. So I don't know if it was just that he didn't want me to drive up north, or he just got tired of me not wanting to hang out with him... it made me a little sad.. like I let him down. :( I have this weekend though right? Anyways.. Carrie and I handed out programs, while Manny and Armando directed traffic... ooh.. fun. It was all good we milled around afterwards and then Armando brought Cindy Brigham (the Int'l Pres of CKI) and Chris Zock (a past Int'l Pres), who were in Anaheim for the Key Club ICON, to mingle. Although, we tossed around a lot of inside jokes, and think we might have scared them with our eccentricities.. but I guess we're just too cool for them. hahahah.. jk. Joe showed up with his sis, and we all watched the fireworks, which I really really enjoyed. It totally beats having to watch them from like behind Torrance High where you can only see half the show because my parents didn't want to leave earlier. ghetto... But the fireworks were really good.. haha I almost started crying...duuumb.. Anyways.. then we met up with Nicole and her mom and sis, chit chatted a little and waited for traffic to clear and then we took Chris and Cindy to In N Out.. mm..... I think really it was just an excuse for us to go.. hahaha. Chris is funny as all hell and in conjunction with Mondo's driving almost made Manny crap his pants. hahahah.. It was the funniest thing when Manny refused to go in the Hilton so he wouldn't be mistaken for a Key Clubber and so he told Mondo to go to the Marriott, and Mondo forgot and drove past it, and then had to circle back why Manny threatened to let loose in the back seat while I was totally dying up front. *sigh*.. I guess you just had to be there. But it was good to see Chris and chit chat for a little bit.

ps... thanks Mondo for giving us a ride home .. since SOMEONE else ditched up for her priorities :P

"and i'd gladly stand up, next to you, and defend her still today, cuz there ain't no doubt, i love this land, god bless the usa"

wow.. this world is pretty crazy. I woke up this morning and while turning on the TV to hope and find some re-run or a soap opera, I find that there's been a shooting at LAX. It's crazyness... but what's even weirder is that the news people were talking about how relatively calm the crowd was while they were waiting away from the area. And I don't know if it's just a statement about people in LA.. like.. we're so used to the crazyness that sometimes it doesn't phase us anymore. Like when I see car chases on TV, it's not a huge deal.. it's kind of a guilty pleasure. But anyways.. it's hard to see things like this happen though. It's so weird that the world and the people can be like this. But there's only so much I can take, I had to stop watching the news and here comes reruns of Sister Sister and Full House.

i hate house hunting.. it is so god awful frustrating. the house we wanted last time got rented out before we got a chance to apply, and so i had the applications all ready this time, and they tell me that yesterday the owners decided they didn't want co-signers. which means.. me and my three roommates have to make 3 times rent which is $5700. yeah.. some goddamn bizzos are trying to deter college kids form living in their house. what the heck.. they need to pull the great big stick from out of their arse. *phew*.. sorry for all the negativity.. but this whole me being homeless and not having a place to live next year despite all the constant crap i've been through kind of puts me on an edge. i am so frustrated because these places that we want are either a)too expensive, b)too far away, c)not the right amount of rooms, or d)all of the frikkin above. ARRGGH!!

went to go workout with Carrie today.. it was good.. except we went out and ate afterwards. it was really bad.. and we got horrible service too. hahaa.. and Carrie agreed too... so it wasn't just me being a difficult snob. but anyways. it was hilarious because when I got in her car.. guess what CD was playing.. JASON MRAZ! hehehe.. and she tried so hard to hate him too.. just to give me a hard time.. BUT SHE CAN'T .. neener neener neener.. Then we went on to discuss what good taste I have.. haha.. wow, I sound like an ego-maniac. Anyways.. here's a tip for y'all.. no eating (esp. cheese fries and ice cream) after you work out. We need to have more self-control.

anyways.. that was my day kids.. HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!! oh yeah.. and happy birthday to Ryan Billings!

jeanyah: pete I hate house hunting
CKI Pete: AMEN
CKI Pete: A-frikkin-MEN

oh man.. i just finished like 4 hours of circle k work... yes.. i came home roughly after midnight and started doing cki work.. and just finished a few minutes ago.. wow.. be proud of me. :) anyways.. that should be it for awhile.. haha jk. I guess I just was feeling like a bit of a slacker.. everyone was doing their stuff, taking care of what they needed to do.. and I was sitting around actually enjoying my summer.. hahaha.. oh well.

today i actually paid for my membership to Bally's.. despite my mother's constant attempt to have me use free guest passes for the entire summer. I tried to explain to my mother that I couldn't use guest passes the entire summer because they'd recognize me as not a "perspective member" but just a freeloader... she didn't seem to get it.. or care. Gotta love that asianess. Anyways... now I guess since I paid money for it.. I should go huh? Then I went to Carrie's to pick up the drug money she owed me. Listened to her babble on the phone and watched her MTV.. since I don't get cable at home. hehe.. she made me read lame horoscope stuff... but on the good note, she becoming under the spell of Jason Mraz.. ahahah. She's loving him too.. well duh.. there's no reason not to... but yeah.. I think it's funny that she thought I was retarded, but she now SO knows why. hahaha :)

"be so happy with the way you are, just be happy that you made it this far" - jmraz.

so yes... i told my friend that i had to move out of my apartment, and so he told me that i was pretty homeless.. to which i replied.. i was very homeless.. *sigh*

anyways.. so i spent the weekend packing up my house... well i guess that's not all. Friday... I took care of errands and then met up with Ryan and Carrie and Kristina for the JASON MRAZ show. Yes.. I must be super obsessed because I saw him not only twice in two weeks, but no.. three times. *sigh* but he's leaving the state, so I guess I had to get my fill in. Anyways.. yes yes.. I dragged Carrie and Ryan to the show, and Kristina met us there, and then I saw Natalie there too. So anyways.. I was enraptured in the greatness that is Jason Mraz. He is so awesome. The friends left around 2 or 3am from my house, and then I woke up the next day, hunted down Kristen and we went to the Jason Mraz show. I brought my video camera.. but I didn't charge it cuz I thought I had enough battery power. Sucky.. cuz I didn't.. and I only got half. Junk. Anyways.. I'm glad that I got what I did.. so anyone who wants to see him can :) I found out that he's playing at this Lobster Festival in Pedro.. which is totally funny because a)it's right by my house and b)I've never even heard of the Lobster Festival. haha.. but that would be funny.. we'll see if we go, but it's way later.. October. Anyways.. Kristen had FANTABULOUS time.. and was all like "I can totally see why girls are enraptured by him. You look around and you can see everyone staring up in adoration. I understand now." and then I asked her, how about you... and all she could do was smile and nod her head. hahahah. I do feel bad for Carrie and Kristina and Ryan.. because we got there kind of late, and so we had to sit all cramped up in the back, and we weren't in the thick of the action surrounded by the music.. so the whole effect of his live performance is not as great... dah well, they still think he was awesome (cuz he is). okay.. enough gushing.

Sunday I cleaned and packed.. it was so sad to leave my little room behind and see it all empty knowing that I was never going to come back.. boo hoo hoo. I also went on a little house hunting excursion and checked out some houses in Clairemont that looked okay. I just hope we get them.. the last house we really wanted got snatched out from under us. saaaaaaad. anyways... Spend Sunday night at Kristen's house, we had In N Out, talked a lot, it was great... I haven't talked to her for awhile. It was tons of fun. Monday, we ate, walked on the beach, gossipped, giggled, laughed at people online, laughed at ourselves.. and I watched Kristen gush about Jason Mraz.. hahaha.. of course I did some of my own. Also I got to go visit Taylor and chit chatted with him and played with his cute dog. :) It was a good time, I'm sad that I'm not going to be in SD for the summer. hmm.. anyways.. drove home way late at night.. I almost fell asleep.. oops.. woke up today.. was TOTALLY tired.. but it's all good. I don't have to go to my internship this week.. haha.. and I odnt' know what's going on with the whole GAP thing.. but we'll see. ummm... what else is new?

yikes.. it's been a crazy couple of days. i'm kind of proud of myself... all weekend i wasn't hooked to the computer and i didn't go through withdrawal or anything.. maybe i'm being weened on my addiction to the ethernet. anyways... hmm.. Friday.. I went to Jury Duty.. it was SUCH a waste of my time. I thought going would make me a good citizen or something, but now I know why people hate it so much. I slept in the Jury Assembly room all morning.. shoot.. I could have just done that at home. I GUESS. Anyways.. I got out around 2...and don't have to go back for 12 months... whoo hoo. Drove down to San Diego where the traffic wasn't too horribly bad, but some patches here and there. Met up with Vivian in Oceanside to go to her friend Rob's bday party, and then to the JASON MRAZ show in OB at Java Joe's. I was spastic on the way down because I was so excited to see him perform live again. I LOVE him.. he is soooooo great. I'm so sad that he's not going to be playing as much anymore because he's getting all famous and everything, because like the intimacy of the shows and everything will change, but at the same time.. it's awesome that he's going to be huge and famous and what not.... I guess I'm jealous at the same time. He gets to do something he loves. *sigh* He's SO awesome.. check him out.

On Saturday I was supposed to pack and clean and what not... that morning I went to a DCM for Paradise.. hmm.. it's kind of weird to go to these things after a year of running them and planning for them and what not. But at the same time, it's relieving because I get to just sit back and chill and be there, I don't have to do anything!! heheheh... esp. now that I don't have to plan for weekly meetings either.. I *heart* summer. mm.. I packed a little bit, napped, ate lunch with Vivian.. pretty boring shiznit. Went to go get ice cream at Coldstone's and visited our favorite waiter Justin and saw his place, met his bro and his friend and his cute cat! :) That night I went to go to In N Out and visit Jill at work, and went over to Dave's house. We chilled hung out, Ashley came over and we watched Dazed and Confused and Varsity Blues (yay.. i love Johnny Moxon) and had some drinks :) Dave is my favorite bartender.. hahaha.. And then some of the other friends came over.. it was a good time. Sunday, helped Vivian move, and packed a bit for myself. Vivian spent the night since she was officially homeless, and we slumber partied it. Monday, went to go look at the house, but it sucked because not were there other groups interested, but when the real estate guy showed up, the tenants didn't answer the door!! At frikkin 9:30am.. I dragged myself out of bed.. sucky. Ate breakfast at Kono's and packed. My mom and dad showed up, and tried to help me pack, we left late than night and I drove back to LA. (exciting weekend huh?) not... But I swear.. I should move boxes everyday.. my arms are SO sore.. I guess it's a good workout.

Speaking of working out, Carrie and I have been pretty good about it for the past two days.. hahah.. we're proud of ourselves.. we've been working out twice in a row.. hope we keep it up. In other news... I got an internship at Edmonds Entertainment.. *whoo hoo*.. I'm kind of excited, I'll get to work in the production and the management side.. learn some cool things. :) And then I'm trying to get a job at the GAP.. we'll see how that goes. mm. nothing else too new. *ooooohhh* except that Pete Holiday talked to me two days in a row.. wow.. i must be special. hahahahahah

I'm going to SD this weekend.. and I'm going to the Jason Mraz show.. (yes.. again).. YAAAAAAAAAAY.. I *heart* Jason Mraz. he's SO awesome... I also conned Ryan and Carrie to going with me (yay.. i have friends), and Kristina is meeting us down there. I tried getting Nicole to come.. but she won't go.. :P sucker.. oh well.. her loss. She'll be sorry.. haha.. I'm trying to get another friend to go.. but that one's kind of a doozie.. we'll see how that goes.. *sigh* But for the last two days I've been "stalking" him.. not really just looking at his website, downloading songs, and I found this new discussion board and like talking with all these other crazed fans.. haha. It's bad news.. but Ryan thought I was totally crazy.. but tomorrow night he will see, oh yes, he will believe. And I have to take care of house stuff and what not.. shoot.. I'm going to be homeless come Monday. blah blah blah.. my life is boring.. I know.. go out and play!!

wow.. summer has made me REALLY lazy... more lazy than i already was... wow.. do you think that's possible? hahaha.. anyways.. I really haven't been doing much.. just chillin. hmm..

Tuesday, I bummed around of course.. went out to lunch with Keri at the Kettle, caught up, and then visited Angelee in the hospital.. we screamed at each other through the glass, I'm sure all of the hospital heard. Anyways.. before that we went to Ralphs to buy her some stuff and I bought all these cute picture frames cuz they were on clearance.. (yes.. Ralphs has picture frames) but now I have buyer's remorse but I can't return them cuz I don't have the receipt... shit. That night I went to go pick Carrie up at the airport and we went and got Boba... along with visiting my sister. We ended up at the same Boba place as my sister was having her meeting, but Carrie and I just chatted away, and said goodbye to my sissy-poo as we left.

Wednesday... I didn't do much during the day.. ran a couple errands here and there. And then I made Nicole drive down to Torrance to drop off the ICON registration forms. hehe.. along with Joe's credit card number.. anyone want to go shopping?! hahaha.. So we ventured out to Westwood to meet up with Carrie and Manny and then went to BJ's for dinner. (mmm.. pizza and pizookies.... yum). Before you hear it from anyone else.. I said hello to a cop that was standing on the street... and the three morons I was with made fun of me for fliritng with the cop. I was JUST being friendly.. jeez guys. freaks.. didn't your parents ever teach you to be friendly? We just chilled afterwards, and I came home and talked on the phone with Vivian. We found the hot guy online and actually considered emailing him through the whole match.com thing... yikes.. are there really not any decent guys out there that we have to resort to this? Or does it just make it easier because I'm a weenie and it's all anonymous online. hahaha.. Anyways.. he's from Torrance which is the most amusing part.. he could live around the corner from me!! But Carrie and I are going to start a pool.. heheh.. whoever lands a date first wins.. hahaha.. we are such dorks.

Today.. another lazy day. Went out to lunch with Ryan and Beth at the Loft, and then sat around for another hour while we decided what to do.. (like we always do). Went to Border's where I bought "Dating without Novacaine" hahaha.. it's a fiction book, not an advice book so stop laughing, well keep laughing I guess.. just for a different reason. Went to Costco with my mom and had conversations with Carrie about her domestication.. ahah.. if it counts.. I guess if you're cooking out of a box.. it's still cooking right? heheheheh... my my my.. I lead an exciting life..

Tomorrow I have to go to Jury Duty.. gay bastards.. they just HAD to call me in at the last day of the week.. what jerks. My mom told me to be racist and Vivian told me to racist and pretend not to speak english so I can get out of it. hahahahha.. crazy.. but then I'm off to SD to pack, but of course not before I go see the Jason Mraz show. I'm SO excited that he's playing this weekend... he's going to get SO famous, but he's so great. I love those little intimate settings that you can see people in before they get all huge. It's so fun. But go figure.. someone I wanted to visit in SD is coming to LA right as I'm going down.. sucks.. must not be meant to be huh.. dang it all.

whoa.. i broke 1,000 today.. whoo hoo! i'm in awe.. i know it doesn't compare to Nicole's like four hundred million thousand.. but it's a start.. at least i'm 1/4 as loved as she is.. awwww..

ahhhh.. summer... the joys of sitting around in your pajamas alllllllll day, talking on the phone, watching soaps... being lazy. :)

*although.. you'd be proud of me.. i was semi-productive.. i finished my resume. whoo hoo.. i hope i get a good job. because of some recent events.. i have to make a lot of money, and fast.. so we'll see how that all works out.

this house hunting thing is psycho.. i hate it.

but i talked to angelee a lot today, we watched days together, and i'm going to visit her and her radioactive self in the hospital soon. talked to carrie and caught up on stuff, i tortured her some more. and talked to Keri.. WHOO HOO.. she's back in Torrance. she flew back from New Zealand to surprise her parents for their 25th anniversary.. and plus i think she was getting a little homesick, but anyways.. go for me.. we get to hang out.. we're going to go chill tomorrow.. it's going to be great. too bad all my present for her are in san diego.

today was an okay day... woke up feeling quite dehydrated.. but that's all.. so it's all good. ate hummus and pita bread that we bought from costco for lunch, and proceeded to pack and clean up a little and do my laundry. it was fun.. as i'm sure you can tell. loaded up my car, dropped of some stuff, returned library books (where the bins were soooo full of books you couldn't open the drop door thingy, and these guys said that it was even worse in the actual library slot.. they said there were book overflowing.) anyways.. drove back to Torrance, but not in time to go out to dinner with my dad for father's day. sad... i told him i'd take him out for dessert, but he's not really a super desserty type guy.. so now i feel all bad. so yeah..

i'm at home now... and i'm not quite as elated as carrie was.. in fact.. it's almost the opposite.. well that's not fair.. it wasn't that bad.. but i guess it just got worse as it got along. i'm not really a home body type of person, and i'm more of a free spirit than my parents agree with, and so i guess it makes both of us unhappy.. but hopefully it'll get better. if not.. hopefully i'll have a place to escape to... but that's a whole other set of mini-dramas... yeah.. so if anyone needs a place to stay in san diego for the next year.. me and my friend Ryan need a 3rd roommate or else i'll be living in a box on the corner next year. i told kimmy it could double as my home and workplace. yikes. i really hope that we get this house. anyways.. the soccer game is on and i must watch...

so... really.. i think that maybe.. i have to stop putting up with people's shit. and part of that includes.. telling them when i'm angry with them... or they do things that upset me. i dunno.. i have to stop being so nice to people, especially people who don't deserve it all the time. i mean.. i guess this is that whole the "not being a doormat thing" but at the same time.. i'm not the type to be rude to people for no reason.... soo i don't really know what to do. i mean.. i guess i need to start listening to people like manny and carrie and just do what i want .. (within reason of course) and be who i want to be.. and if people don't like me.. then too bad for them i guess.. i dunno.. i need to grow a thicker skin.

anyways.. today was fun. woke up way early for vivian's and julie's and jeff's and nick's and a whole buncha other people's graduations... 9am.. geeez. got so sunburnt. went to lunch with laura and viv and her fam... and then ran errands and chit chatted with laura. it was fun.. she's a super nice girl. and then spent FOREVER trying to find Ryan Billings so we could hang out. I swear.. it took forever and a day.. and when I got to the parking lot, they were at the gas station, and then when I got to the gas station, they were at the parking lot. madness!!! I wanted to hurt Ryan so badly.. haha.. met his friends, went to a BBQ.. and then Ryan met my friends, and we went to the SMAC house party before they left.. and that was my night. hanging out with friends, socializing..... quality. It was a lot of fun talking to them and chit chatting. And like.. we got there and it wasn't a super huge party.. but sometimes that's almost better (when you know the people) so you can just talk, that's always nice. Anyways.. I must get going... i'm a tiny bit inebriated... vivian kept a nice drink in my hand all night.. it was tons o' fun. vivian makes good drinks.. tomorrow i must also pack and go home for I have jury duty on monday.. aww yeah.

oooooooohhhh my gosh.. my pajama pants are the like the most comfortable things in the world.. they are the best ever.. so anyways...

it's totally been roommate bonding time this week.. it's amusing.. maybe cuz i've holed myself up in the house long enough? maybe because i'm leaving? anyways.. it's been a lot of fun. today i went to the kiwanis meeting, and then came back.. finished editing my paper, and then turned it in. *MY LAST FINAL OF MY JUNIOR YEAR... whoooooo hoooooo * dubbed my videos so that kristen and I both have copies, and then came back... chit chatted on the phone and went to costco with michele.. we got pizza and beer.. oooh and hummus.. it was on sale.. hahaha :) anyways..

oh.. exciting news.. i found a place down the street from where i live now.. it's $1800.. that's $600/room, but it's like a townhouse, and it's a lot cheaper than anything else i've found.. i really want to live there, but it's doubtful what the rest of it will be like. and then i would have to decide if i wanted to share a room or not.. hmmm.. i don't want to fuck someone over, but i don't want to get in anymore nasty roommate situations.. i think i've had enough for a lifetime. man.. if i had had a blogger last year.. whoa.. it's would have be the 'days of my life' all the time. anyways.. i'm crossing my fingers.

went with vivian and laura to friday's (our new watering hole) and met up with brianne. did our thing. but it was the funniest thing.. i ran into so many people at friday's... i saw Brian Capanna and it was his 21st b-day.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and then oddly enough.. i saw Chase.. it was fun catching up.. i felt bad because i totally neglected the girls ... but freshman year friends.. there's just something special about them. afterwards.. went over to dave, justin and neil's house, where we caught the tail end of the party and chilled out.. more fun with marshall kids.. and our new fun friend justin and his cousin brandon met up with us later. so all in all it was a good time.. i had a little fluid here and there.. but not too much. hehe.. i can handle my own.. heck i drank mikie under the table at nicole's party. :) hahahaha. anyways.. we're hoping tomorrow night we're going to get fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucked up. i hope i don't have to DD, cuz that's what i always do.. this will be the last time during the summer that i have to do this. but anyways.. i have to get up in 3.5 hours and i smell like party... it's time for me to go. bye bye bye have a nice life. *muah*

wow.. so I've really screwed up my sleeping pattern this week. it's 6:33am and I'm not really tired. I ate dinner at like 11:30pm, and umm.. I dunno. Anyways.. so I did end up going out.. hahah.. I went out to dinner with Michele and brought along Vivian and Angie.. who we picked up from the Pike party. okay..so anyways.. we at dinner, and the waitress was bad news bears. I mean.. granted.. she had like an entire section to cover.. but really.. she should be used to it.. I mean.. it's HER section. She was way late in bringing our drinks, didn't refill them, and our food wasn't like it usually is (which i know isn't her fault.. but adds to the whole unpleasantness of the evening), and she herself wasn't so nice. I know.. i know.. I wouldn't say I was a demanding customer, I just know what I want... and that's kind of their job to give it to the customers.. I mean.. heck.. WAITers. And it's not like I'm rude about it or anything. I dunno.. I just know if it was my first time there, I wouldn't really wanted to have gone back. Oh and on top of all of that.. she was talking smack about us to a table full of people who work there but were off, so they were glaring at us all night, and glared at us when we left.. I guesss... So whatevers.. that was my second restaurant experience (shut up Carrie).

Stopped by the Pike party for a little bit and took care of a way drunk Allen, and then came home. chit chatted, finished my paper (although it needs to be intensely edited), and watched the US get their butts wiped by Portugal, but oddly enough, they are still advancing to the second round.. weird how things work like that huh?

So anyways.. giving it some thought.. this is the last "official" day of school... so that means.. by the end of today.. I'll be a SENIOR.. god.. it's the weirdest thing. I mean.. not really so much as it is in high school because it's a much smaller atmosphere (and there are tons of super seniors and grad students around so you're not all big and bad and tough)... but like.. it's still kind of trippy to know that you're a fourth year, and that you'll be graduating college and forced to go out into the real world. wow.. how strange is that. *don't tell my parents* but when i went to academic advising they told me that i was three classes away from graduating.. so I could have taken those three classes this summer and walked THIS JUNE. wow.. how weird would that have been? I mean.. like.. it would have been kind of fun.. to say something like.. "oh yeah.. i graduated in three years" but at the same time.. i wanted to have a "senior year" in college, and enjoy it with all my friends, and graduate with my friends.. and i think the most deciding factor was... that i couldn't be president of circle k.. haha. not. no but really.. I don't think that I was ready to be put out into the work force yet. I mean.. 20 years old and working for the rest of your life already? geez. I haven't done so many things.. plus the fact that I have NO experience whatsoever.. i'd die.. and just wish i was back in college again.. so why not? ehh.. I don't know.. it's a weird weird feeling... and I know that if I had told my parents they would have pressured me or got really angry for being selfish and taking a fourth year.. but i'm just not ready you know... i need to be a college kid still.. heck.. i'm immature enough for it.. hahaha.. jk. i wanted to play with my friends, enjoy college life, maybe this year i won't have to be so bogged down by classes that I will really have time for myself :) or i'll take some classes that i really want to take, instead of ones that I just have to take, enjoy my learning experience yah know? broaden the horizons. i was thinking about taking chinese again, or picking up spanish again.. (ahaha.. someone suggested both.. do you know how much bitch-work that would be?).. I'll probably pick up a theater minor... hehe.. maybe I can even *gasp* raise my grades.. hahahahaha.. so yeah.. these are things i think about at 6:46 in the morning.. great yeah?

yuk yuk yuk... i REALLY don't want to do this last paper.. and i know i know.. i shouldn'tbe complaining.. because it's only 3 pages.. but it's hard stuff... and when there's hard info that you have to cram into 3 pages.. it makes it worse. ugh.. i hate it. i played michele's xbox for like 2 hours... and it was like the best thing ever... i kept repeating.. "this is so much better than writing my paper!" now if only i could do that all day. anyways.. not really too much that's interesting.. that's pretty much the only thing that has consumed my life for the past day or so... wednesday morning i left the library at like 5am after i couldn't really stay awake anymore.. and what's the point of sleeping in the library.. when you can just do that at home? went back to clics around 2 and wrote my paper and sent it off at 5pm. I got the cutest email back from professor Bowker telling me thanks and have a good summer.. hahahahah. anyways.. i wasted lots of time yesterday. .but i did buy a strawberry pie from marie callendar's... yuuuuumm.. i was so excited because it was on sale!! whoo.. i love summer. read for my paper and fell asleep in my bed with my books, where i was awakened by diana who had locked herself out. slept, ate, watched tv.. saw my school on "I Bet You Will" on MTV.. that was kind of exciting. and procrastinated some more, played xbox, and now i'm blogging.. i think i'm going out to dinner with michele in a little bit. i wanted to go to friday's but she doesn't like it.. so i think we're going to do island's. *sigh.. maybe i'll go for like happy hour and get calamari or something. yum.. hey.. anything to keep me from doing my paper! i can't wait until i'm done!!

oy vey. today has been quite a day. so i stayed up all night.. in the library at school.. and read until 4am, started writing my paper until 7:30 (at the same time drooling over the hot boy in the library). and then read and at 8:20 carried my "hubangous" stack of books (without setting off the library alarm.. yay) across the parking lot to my car and drove over to my final. stressed a little bit about the readings i hadn't done.. and then stressed when we saw that the fill in the blank didn't have choices to choose from. i guess that's what happens when you don't sleep. (haha.. i bet all of you hate that i'm complaining about aTrue/False and Fill in the Blank final huh? haha) i managed to do alright.. although.. i do think that my teacher will think i'm a complete moron. *there was a question on the test.. and it said The Asians were used as a model minority compared to _____________ in the 20th century. dumbass me.. i put the Japanese because I was thinking about how the chinese were treated better when they tried to go after the Japanese during wwII. duhh... it said asians.. that includes Japanese.. i'm SO retarded.. but i was tired, and hey.. it's only one question right? anyways.. so after i got done with the final.. we got our videos.. and YAY!! we got an A on our video!! i'm going to be a movie-maker for sure.. hehe. but anyways.. i was stoked because i seriously thought we may have gotten a B. hahaha.. and so Kristen and I say to all those people who gave us bad comments and esp. to that one person who gave us a 5 and asked us what the point was.. "shove it" hahha.. anyways.. finished my paper for Children's lit, turned that in, and then napped. until Kristen called and we had a post final celebration at Denny's. we wanted to go to Ichiban's but it was closed. :(

i came back and slept. i passed out until 8:30pm when becca called me and then i woke up because i had a circle k meeting at 10pm.. uhh ooh. haha.. but then i looked at my cell phone and saw that 7 people had called me. haha.. i felt so popular! so anyways.. had a cki meeting for 2.5 hours.. yes.. crazy.. i know. and then went on a food run for Cory and Vivian.. and myself.. of course.i'm such a piggy. but i was kind of craving greasy mexican food but it was good because I ran into Jenni Hill who I totally haven't seen in forever and we went to Roberto's together and chit chatted the whole way and caught up..

but. my sleeping and eating schedule is totally thrown out of wack.. it's crazy. so here i am.. 4am in the library again. i'm not really tired because i just woke up.. and i figure if i'm here i might as well just finish my paper for comt111b and not have to worry about it tomorrow so i can concentrate on my politics of bodies paper. wow.. maybe i'll even finish early!! whooooaaaa.. have i actually broken out of the procrastinator cycle? haahaha.. nah.. i'll probably fuck around the next two days and be stressin friday morning. silly silly me.

*ooh ... the same hot boy is back at the library.. it must be fate.. ahah.... *that's got to be good motivation to go to the library.. hahaha.

ew.. i'm so upset.. the cute cute house that i wanted to live in PB was sold!! what the heck.. it was available when we looked at it. gay gay gay gay gay gay gay..

yuk.. and maybe the fact that it's 3:30am and i'm at the library makes my life pretty sucky as well. oh.. not to mention that i have a fianl from 9-11 and a paper due at 11:30am. both of which i still need to do reading for or have not started... i'm so fucked.

man... i am so screwed..(and not in the literal sense).. but anyways... bad joke.. i know.. finals week officially starts tomorrow.. my first final is at 9am tuesday.. and i feel like i have done jack crap. i've read a little here and there.. but i am no where near done with the papers that i need to do. *sigh.. maybe i shouldn't fool around so much.. but i dunno.. i'm a slacker.. i try and try not to procrastinate... and yet.. oops.. somehow i always am.. *i wish i could learn my lesson sometime*

anyways.. it's been a fun couple of days. friday morning i finished my paper in like 2 and a half hours.. pretty impressive.. and although it was five pages worth of pure crap.. i usually always get the same grade anyways.. at least i got some sleep right? that night i did talk to Megan and we had a good chat.. we caught up, and she gave me some useful advice..:) she also said that she wouldn't allow me to use her as my procrastination tool no longer.. and if i called her this week she'd hang up on me.. aww.. anyways.. after my last two classes of my junior year (wow...) kristen and i went to roberto's to munch and i also got my car checked out again. cheap fast mexican food is always the best.. yum. then we both went to our respective homes and crashed... that's what happens when you stay up all night :( i was supposed to drive back to torrance but got in a huge argument with the 'rents.. so i chilled out at Jill's house instead and waited for Kristen and Ryan to come home so I could make fun of them. hahah. we exchanged horror stories and did some crap talking.. haha.. but only about one person.. if that makes you feel any better (unless you're that one person.. hahaha). and i came home for some rest.

saturday i didn't do much, hung around at home, ate in-n-out and got to visit Jill-A at work.. it was a good time..she looks so cute in her uniform.. hehe..i always wanted one of those giant bobby pin things.. maybe i'll steal it from her. haaha. procrastinated a little, and finally read some.. before leaving for Nicole's 22nd birthday bash. it was a smashing good time. all the regular fools were there (joe, carrie, beth, ryan, mike, ryan, mikie, laura, steph) and all of her hs friends, and of course.. her family. her cousins are wild... haha. but we had a good time.. watched *nsync.. (yes!) a plethora of movies and the alcohol flowed freely. it's so weird that i look back on exactly a year ago at nicole's bday party when we were all just becoming friends, just beginning our year on dboard.. it's soooooo weird to think back.. yikes.. a lot has happened in a year. anyways.. took care of some kids.. slept in nicole's WAY comfy bed... when i got awakened at 8am by nicole dragging her hungover ass to bury herself in the corner, carrie joining us and managing to hurt herself (as always), and mikie dumping all the blankets that i so graciously got for them last night on me.. greeeeaaat. eh.. i just fell back asleep anyways.. hahah.. might i repeat..nicole's bed is SOOOO comfy "i feel like i'm sleeping on a cloud" hahhaa.. woke up around noon.. ate leftover chicken and pancit (yum!) and then managed to drag my sorry butt back to Torrance where I tried to go to the library.... so what the heck.. it says open sunday's 1-5pm during the school year. and yet they were closed when i got there!! torrance kids don't get out until june 20.. by definition.. THAT'S THE SCHOOL YEAR. ugh.. i was so aggravated.. went to the mall with my mom and then dinner with Carrie. fun times.. Carrie swears she'll never go to a restaurant with me again because i tortured the waiter.. but hey.. all i asked him to do was get me a few things... that's his job eh? what are the good Cheesecake Factory people paying him to do huh? anyways.. drove back to pick up a study sheet that i left at home and went to go get gas with my dad.. and then decided to stay in Torrance for the night.. go to the library and hang out with my daddy some. hopefully my reading of the books i have here, write two papers, and drive back tomorrow.. then finish up the reading.. i guess.. for my 9am tuesday final.. BLAH.. *one more week.*

so it's 6am.. i woke up half a hour ago and STARTED writing my paper. yes.. i'm officially insane. carrie immed me to tell me she's going to sleep because she had more self-restraint and discipline than i do and is done at 6am rather than starting.

oh and ps. i hate nicole because while i was procrastinating and reading her blogger, she gave me the link to Wil Wheaton's very own website. normally this wouldn't be a big deal except i loved Wil Wheaton ever since I was a wee-lad watching Star Trek (yes.. I watched Star Trek.. shut up). anyways.. he is definitely a cutie as always, and one of those geeky nerdy boys that I like so much. except he's married and has kids. dammit. (and I say that like I had a chance in the first place.)

i reeeeeeeeally don't want to do my paper. yuk. so i'm procrastinating. i've slept all day, talked on the phone.. and now i'm blogging. blah blah blah... tomorrow's the last day of school!!! whoo hoo.

*AND THE SHIT-TALKING-FEST BEGINS*

i dunno, everyone just is seeming to have drama... and everyone just likes to sit around an talk about it. who said this, who said what. i mean.. i don't really mind, and it's kind of amusing to sit around with my friends and shoot the shit. but sometimes it also makes me really angry, and worried sometimes like who says what about me when i leave the room. and then also i know that people talk about me. it's not really a secret although people would like to think it is... that's the trouble... it always gets back to you. but anyways.. it's mildly amusing that along with everyone hooking up, everyone is also having drama. maybe it's the time of the year, it's the end and everyone just wants it to be over and they let the stress get to them.

hmm.. i've been on a weird sleep pattern lately.. i sleep during the day.. it really throws on my sleeping schedules. but it's so nice to take afternoon naps. :) went out with the girls to Pizza Port tonight. it was good to hang out in a group again. we've all really changed a lot, and it's hard to catch up on each others nights in the span of a few hours. but it's always a good time. my stomach is now churning from all the grease i shoveled in my mouth.

all the lights from nobel to la jolla village drive a little bit south of campus are out. i think someone ran into the power box on one of the corners and it blew out the power on a good majority of the street. it was way weird driving home in total darkness. sucks for the people who don't have power in their houses. haha.. i was going to go loot Ralphs and steal all their ice cream cuz their power was out too.

nothing much.. i'm supposed to be reading for and writing a paper. i told Kristen i was going to start tonight. haha.. and then we both laughed. i'm supposed to prove her wrong.. but i don't feel the pressure to finish, thus i don't feel a need to have to do it. i'm SO weird. i have a million papers to write.. and my car is acting up. my check engine light came on.. and i don't know what to do. the nissan dealership said they'd charge me a $75 assessment fee to LOOK at my car.. what the heck. so i think i might just go back this weekend and get my car dealt with by my parents. we'll see. we were supposed to have a party at Jill's.. but I don't know how that's going to work out. i also wanted to audition for the performing arts school. i found out it's in chinatown.. and that's a little far from Torrance. my dad and i got into a little argument because he didn't want me to do it. i don't know.. we'll see about that as well... i really want to do it.. but if i don't have a car and my parents don't want me to do it.. i'm gonna have to give up.. and that would kind of bum me out. *sigh*.. i'm just in a whatever/blah/apathetic state right now.. and it suits me just fine. i don't really care too much (hahah.. get it) and i dunno.. i guess it's better than being all stressed out. i flicked off my friend the other day when he said hi to me. i felt really bad.. it was just a reflex. oops. sorry Ryan! ummm.. yeah.. so maybe i should stop messing around and work on homework... two more days of classes.. and then a couple of papers and some reading.. and i'm home free.

wow.. this entire weekend was kind of a blur.. which i think the next two weeks will be like. but it's all chill. Friday I hung out with Angelee for a bit and then that night hung out with Ryan and his friends to Mike and Stan's party and then the Dance Team party. I think I slept at every other moment because I was so beat from not sleeping at all the nights before. There was a little bit on inebriated drama.. but it's all good. Saturday, went to St. Vincent de Paul to serve food to people. It was funny because the cooks kept trying to get us to sing karaoke on this little tv that they had. It was so funny because we were all like.. uhh.. aren't we supposed to be working. We finally broke down after serving lunch was over and sang some songs... hahah.. we are such nerds. Went over to Max and Blair's to hang out with them. Blair is transferring schools, sad.. so it was kind of like a farewell thing. :( That night we were supposed to go to the Kristen's Dance Show, but ended up eating sushi and just hanging out. But I did buy her a flower.. haha. Sunday, went to Miracle Mile of Quarters, we won first place in the Quarter Art.. yay. Went house hunting with Vivian... still homeless for next year, but hopefully that'll change soon. I HATE house hunting... it's so hard and I've never done it before in my life and it sucks a lot of butt. Anyways.. then went to Thomas and Adam's and their way over-crowded apartment for a chill-fest/Laker game party. His apartment was so packed it was hard to get around. Listened to everyone cheer and jeer and then had a dance party that moved to the pool. I'm sure we were so loud, but I guess peopel would understand, especially if they were watching the Laker game too. Then I went to go pick up Jill, hung out with her and Kristen for a bit and came home, did some CKI stuff and slept (ooh.. exciting huh?)

Today I've kind of been in a daze all day. I got to class on time for the first time in forever. :) yay me. Except in my COMT class that I made the video for.. she's showing the videos. And if that's not bad enough.. that people are watching this thing that I think sucks, everyone had to write feedback on these little slips.. and that's kind of fun because you can see what people think.. but then after your video YOU HAVE TO GET UP AND HELP COLLECT THE SLIPS!! Yikes.. like if my video sucked, I thought at least no one would know who made it, except for a couple of my friends in the class, and they already think I'm retarded.. so who cares right? But now I would have these random people in my class think I'm an absolute moron with no skills whatsoever? Greeeaaat. So anyways.. my group's video was 7th and I kept looking back at Kristen and we both had pained looks on our faces, and then we ran out of time.. so she postponed our video to first on Wednesday!!! Argh... oh well.. the video's done.. nothing I can do but hide. Had lunch and shopped with Angelee.. which was tons of fun. I bought my sis a shirt from Abercrombie.. but I didn't know if she'd want it. It had a dragon and 27 which are totally her things, but she got a little upset over the whole "two wongs" thing. And I told her about the shirt, and she said she couldn't wear it because the Chinese characters on the particular shirt I bought her was the name of a guy who was a traitor to Taiwan for China. Weird huh? That they would put something like that on a shirt.. like did they just not know and thought those letters looked cool? Or are they pro-China? I dunno.. some of those Abercrombie people aren't so bright maybe. That was a shocker. But at Abercrombie I ran into Taylor! It totally made my day and made me realize how much I miss him and miss hanging out and talking to him. Like I talk to him every now and then on the phone, but he's always so busy with work that I never get to hang out with him. And like since I talk to him every now and then I didn't think it was a big deal, but when I saw him today and talked to him, it was so fun (even though it was only a few minutes) and I really had missed talking to him. Like this is probably how Megan feels when she used to talk to Taylor all the time and now never ever does. Crazy... I never really knew what she felt like until now. But anyways.. I'll have to hang out with him more next year. So yeah... did the whole Circle K thing. It was the last meeting.. and it's sad to say.. but it's kind of a relief, but then I know I'm still going to be doing CKI stuff all summer, so it's not like since we're not having meetings anymore I'm not doing things. But I guess it'll be somewhat less stressful... I hope. I need to relax. The next two weeks seems kind of rough I have 4 papers to write, a website to finish and a final to take (which equals 10 weeks of reading to catch up on). yeah.. I know.. I suck. I'm a sorry lame ass slacker. And on top of all that, my car is being funny. The check engine light came on.. which may not be a big deal.. but I don't know that much about cars. And lately my car's been really hot, like unnormally hot, and as always the brakes squeak and the speedometer and odometer only work when they feel like it. *sigh.. my poor car.

Anyways.. I should probably cut the crap and be productive and either get to bed or clean my room .. it's messy as all hell. *two more weeks*

it's been a long few days.. and i should be sleeping.. and i will be in a couple minutes.. but i finished my video this morning. it took alllll night. but it's done.. so i don't care. hahaha.. anyways.. thanks mucho to vivian for bringing us roberto's at 4am.. what an awesome gal huh? (she was up already.. it's not like i woke her up.. don't think that i'm like super mean or anything). got done with that.. class, showering, kiwanis luncheon. i totally passed out for a good while and was dead to the world until angelee called threatening to pee on my porch. yay.. she came down, we chilled for a bit, talked, did stuff. but i'm tired as all hell since i haven't really slept.. ugh.. but i just wanted to congratulate myself on having my video done.. one final project done, 6 more to go. oh yeah...