my guilty pleasures worlds have collided.

hahaha... check this out:

moana

susan

jehan

kristen

tara
(her profile wasn't set to private before - all their profiles must have blown up recently)

if you know me, you know that i am HIGHLY addicted to myspace. and that i also love love LURVE the bachelor. guilty pleasures indeed. so after some surfing on monday i found that the lovely bachelorettes are also myspacers. which is so funny to me, because it makes me want to look up everyone who's anyone because most likely you will find them on myspace. not that i didn't know that before because i've spent a lot of time stalking co-workers, old school friends, random people... you can find almost anyone... it's cool - yet scary how accessible everyone is. BUT.. it's funny because it's not like these girls just signed up for myspace after the show, but they have been part of it for a long time too. and it's funny to read the comments from their actual friends, and plus to/from each other. i would have thought that none of them would talk to moana ever again - but they are leaving nice lovely messages to each other about how they miss each other so much. and that shows you the power of editing of reality tv. i am also very jealous because jehan has pictures with hot jerry from the jen scheft bachelorette season. probably at some bachelor reunion/celebration party. i wonder if they cut out the scene of the bachelor where the girls are like "oh you're on myspace, i am too?!" you know they did... that's part of regular introductory lingo nowadays.

my early pick was moana :) and she's TOTALLY going to win now that susan is out of the running. no way that sarah tennessee can beat her. puh-leeze. too bad i didn't actually take the $100 bet with jeff or i'd be way happier. haha.

i also love baking - and last night at target beth helped me find a cupcake stand. i wanted one so long ago - i almost bought one for $20 at michaels. i got the one from target for $5 on sale. yes!! this also prompted more hilarity from my mom:

my mom: what did you buy at target?
me: a cupcake stand
my mom: what?
me: a cup. cake. stand.
my mom: huh?
me: a STAND
my mom: like to decorate cupcakes with?
me: (realizing she thinks i'm saying sand) - no.. stand to put cupcakes in

one last thing...

congrats to the people at my work, we won the Visual Effect Society's (VES) awards for "Outstanding Visual Effects in a Music Video" for Nine Inch Nails Only... whoo hoo.. :)

just in time for valentine's day:

boys are idiots.

the end.

i really should be sleeping - especially if i want to be of any use later today.. but.. i just wanted to post a quick blog. i watched annapolis tonight. despite some people saying it wasn't very good and it doing so poorly in the box office (i still can't believe it's losing to big momma's house) i really liked it. but that's how everything goes - i usually like those movies that people say aren't so great :P it's the whole surpassing expectations thing. so yea.. i am cheesy and i cheered a little bit when "directed by justin lin" came up. i know.. cheesy. but so i think you all should go see it. please please beat big momma's house... the sequel nonetheless. it's not a totally military movie, yet not a total boxing movie - a nice little combination of both. plus a side of friendship and love story. and jordana brewster is really pretty by the way. and of course there is james franco with no shirt on :P but seriously.. go see annapolis - i mean.. it's not the riveting life altering movie - but it's feel good and enjoyable and does makes you care about the characters. it's gotta be better than big momma's house... although i bet #1 will be when a stranger calls or something.

ps. in the previews they had this scary scary preview for this movie with a boy on a swing. i can't tell you much more than that because i put my hands up to sheild my view and carol closed her eyes... we so were not having that scary movie business. i'm definitely glad i did because i'm sure i would be having nightmares. but i'm a little bit curious. anyone want to tell me what it's about (in the non-scariest way possible) :)

my gmail is down

my myspace is undergoing maintenance..

hmm. trusty blogger.. here you are.

hilarity from my mom:

my mom: are you coming home tomorrow?
me: mmm... i don't think so, i'm going to a contender fight tomorrow
my mom: a what?
me: a boxing match
my mom: boxing? you're going to go and be all buff and muscley (aka manly)
me: umm.. i'm going to watch, not going to fight in it
my mom: oh.

hahahah.. i thought it was funny.

update:

so i'm paying $35 for my doctor's office to provide me with copies of my own freaking medical records. there's a law that states that they are only allowed to charge you a reasonable cost (supplies, labor, postage) for you to mail your records. honestly - i think that $35 is a little high and unreasonable, but that whole "reasonable" thing is subjective. besides if they're going to charge me $15 to hand my papers to a copy service and i have to pay the copy service way more than $20.. so i guess whatever. they won't make copies until i pay them, so i had to give them my cc# and they say they can only make copies on tuesday & thursday, because they see patients all day on monday, wednesday, fridays. apparently - they are incapable of something i like calling doing more than one thing at a time, or rather, not being an idiot. but they can't make copies until next tuesday because the doctor is on vacation this week and he needs to okay the records to be sent out. (although you could question why they're so busy if the doctor is out. but i know that they bring in a temp doctor when my doctor likes to go on vacation, which is fairly often).

i know i'm making a big fuss over this little thing, but after all the shit having gone through - i think they are just being ridiculous. this is how they treat people - it's sort of retarded. they're so retarded. they're rude and retarded and never EVER go to see dr. irvine in hermosa beach because they're the absolute worst. i almost feel like typing up my "story" and sitting outside their offices and passing it out to people who would be going to see them. hah. my other chiropractor already gave the records and he says that people usually do it as a courtesy. my mom says that it's because i am currently a patient with the other chiro, and that i'm not with the first chiro, but regardless i don't think anything really justifies their behavior. assholes.

&*^%#^@)&!!

remember the incident with the worst chiropractic office EVER!!? well they are back. little things, but not stuff i wanted them to add on their long list of assholeness.

my lawyers called me today saying that dr. irvine's staff, specifically gabby, won't release my papers and the medical statement because they're "too understaffed" to get the paperwork together to send over to my lawyer's office. seriously? it takes you that much effort to fax over some paperwork that between 3 people you can't do it? you must be incompetent. but we already knew that. so my lawyer says we have to pay a copy service to go over to hermosa (my lawyer's offices are located in alhambra) and pick up the papers so they can make copies of them. furthermore, we have to pay dr. irvine's office FIFTEEN DOLLARS to prepare the paperwork to be picked up. seriously?! i have to pay you $15 to pull a file out of a drawer?!! i know $15 isn't a whole lot of money, but it's the principle here people. i mean.. if they said they were charging us $15 to send my lawyer's the copies.. i'd grumble a little bit, but i wouldn't be this outraged. granted.. maybe my paper work isn't all in one file (because they suck ass) and maybe they have to do some work to put it together.. but that's not my fault they aren't organized? everyone i know says "how hard is it to get some paperwork, push print, or copy?" my second chiropractor (who is awesome by the way - kyle schleicher on wilshire & 7th - 310.395.7535) has one assistant, ONE, and he managed to get the paperwork through. they're totally being spiteful bitches. i can't believe that's how they run their company. i'm going to call tomorrow and see what they say if i want to pick up my own files.. they'll want to charge me too.. this initimidating looking biker like man (but totally nice) offered to go pick up my paper work (and i wanted to add rough em up a little bit) - but i don't want to have to resort to that. i don't know.. i hate this crap, i hate them, why can't they just get over the fact that i left because they suck ass and give me my paperwork, why must they be total shitheads. UGH.

went to the premiere of see this movie with john cho and seth meyers :) i like them both. i didn't loooove the movie, but it was enjoyable and amusing. it has it's definite funny moments and it's a good time, so go see it to watch a not horrible film and something that's not the usual norm. it's in limited release so go and try and see it if you can. you may not want to try something that's not a "hit" ... sooooo... if that's not your thing definitely go see annapolis directed by justin lin!! :) whooo. it seems like a military movie.. but it actually a boxing story.. (i know it's not that easy to tell from the traiilers) but i hear it's good stuff.. AND james franco is hot :P

speaking of boxing i just got home from a contender fight. it was surprisingly exciting. i've never really watched boxing before (actual boxing.. cinderella man doesn't count) and i was kind of nervous about it being to gory or violent.. but it's actually pretty thrilling :) because it's not just "fighting" you know.. there's skill and purpose and strategy, rules, point system.. it's pretty interesting. and it's a lot of fun being in the arena and seeing the cameras (i'm such a production goober). it's like all athletic events - you cheer for "your guy" and "my guy" won :) so it was good times. i'm glad i was with someone who LOVES boxing because it makes me that much more excited - because otherwise i just feel like the girl who is yelling out things that she doesn't really understand or make sense. haha. i was that anyways.. but i feel a little more legitimate sitting next to someone who actually knows what they're saying :)



i also spent a lot of this weekend shooting the short traffic in the sky. it's fun and engaging. i'm really glad i'm doing it even though it's eating up a lot of time.. it's temporary though.. and worth it. it's a little strange and me and charles are working together on this film after so long of not really keeping in touch after middle school. neat really, but it intrigues both of us. that makes me happy too. i guess that's all i'm going to say about that.

man.. i totally just teared up watching grey's anatomy.... i like good tv.

happy chinese new year!

my fav conversation for tonight:

nicole: yea i was in a hit and run accident
me: aww.. are you okay?
nicole: yea.. and umm. your christmas present was in my trunk
me: god nicole! why can't you be more careful??!!

haha.. of course that was in jest. we spent a good 3 minutes laughing while i cried over my lost crumpled christmas present. haha. it sounds silly when i type it out, but i swear it was funny :P

side note:
.. i need to get back on the bandwagon ...

we just got back from screenings a little while ago and while i'm waiting to shower, i thought i'd blog - because i'm obsessed. i wish i could post all the pictures of the picturesque scenery (yay for snow) but i didn't bring my cable, so it'll just have to wait. we saw three movies today - and it was kind of a lot.. only because i had so little sleep and it's it was in the span of 8 hours. and then add in trying to eat and travel time.. not much room for leisure.. but it's all a good time. we spent the later part of the afternoon/evening in salt lake because that's where our screenings were. tomorrow is our park city day.. so it's nice to get to see both because i didn't get to last time.

i'm going to "try" to get up early enough to go into park city for a screening (emphasis on the word try) and right now it's setting in just how tired i am.. and i have a long day ahead. you think i can wake up at 6am? (it's one hour ahead too.. so it's actually 3:45am)

small summary for today (yesterday) - not previously mentioned

*park city to pick up tickets and eat a little lunch (who knew utah would have decent japanese food).. although i am SUPER sad that my favorite 24 hangout place rUinTAH eggs was not there anymore. BOO! it was always so crowded - i wonder what happened.. maybe it only thrived during sundance times.

*hotel check in - funny fiascos and had to switch rooms 3 times, which is funny only to me because i just saw the episode of friends where monica and chandler go on a weekend getaway (when they were still hiding their relationship) and she made chandler switch rooms like 10 times.

*drive back to salt lake to catch the 3 screenings: friends with money, factotum & lucky number slevin

*dinner at red rock brewing co... (waiting, bar seats, ordering, leaving, to go....) if that doesn't make sense to you it's really just a note to myself.

*midnight screening of lucky number slevin in a small quaint theatre - my favorite out of the three.

*driving back to the hotel from salt lake - at one point the car thermostat said it 6 degrees farenheit outside. holy cow.. brr! good thing the heater was way up :)

k.. i should go prep for my supposed early day tomorrow.. we'll see if it happens.. but regardless it will be long.

having a blast - wish you were here.

Sundance #1:

Yay!! We’re here. We’re driving in the car to park city from salt lake. The flight here, though early, wasn’t too bad. We couldn’t get a direct flight so even before the butt crack of dawn my dad drove sakura, beth and I to the airport (thanks daddy!) where we met up with Shelby. Gosh a little mc donald’s hash browns (yum!) and waited to board.

(IT’S SNOWING!!)

we had an hour layover in vegas where I was surprised to see how close the strip to the airport – and excited to see they had slot machines in the airport.. haha.. and we followed sakura’s “hunch” and “feelings” to a certain section and after ups and downs I finally won $16!! Whoo!! I know.. small winnings, but it was a exciting start.

we’re driving into park city and going to pick up our tickets, get some food (starving!!), check into our hotel and then off to our first screening!! I want to pack so much stuff in… snowboarding, screenings, seeing the sights, parties, eating :P – but we’re only here for two days. It’s okay.. like all the websites say.. it doesn’t matter much what we do because we’re at sundance and “being at sundance rules all”

haha.. oh.. celebrity alert #1… rider strong (shawn from boy meets world) was on our plane. Beth saw him waiting at the airport but didn’t say anything because she thinks it’s rude… not that I wanted to harass him but I like to sit in my own little pool of giddiness. i’d like to think that I keep the obvious gawking and gaping to a minimum. I saw him while boarding the plane and later reveled with other passengers about the “celebrity” on our plane.. haha.. we’re such nerds…

i have never been so happy that i get off at 7 in my life. i got let our early today because there was a massive power outage... and i was driving home at 5:30.... SO MUCH EFFIN TRAFFIC. ugh. and stupid drivers. it took me damn near 30 minutes to get home. but enough about that.. i need to go pack! and then i have a mtg at 8 in torrance. if i don't finish packing now, i'm going to have to come back to LA to pack after the meeting and then back to torrance to spend the night. and that right there is just impractical. grr... so little time. and i'm procrastinating with my blog. typical :P

i'm so lame!!!

i think things are cool - but they're so not.. at least to everyone else.

i'm a worrywart - bordering on annoying. i worry too much about everything - but i already knew this. i worry if i'm annoying you right now.

i'm a good girl - good bordering on boring.

i'm too nice and helpful - i see things and i want to fix them. i want to make things better. i want to help. help bordering on overbearing. it's like in joy luck club where the mom takes the rotten crab and everyone else gets the best crabs. hah.. i know where i got this from.

i am lame... bordering on pathetic.

but not quite there yet... right?

i'm a dork - but yet hopefully still kind of rad.

on tap: meet the barkers

thank you thank you linh for the awesome belated christmas present!! i laughed with giddyness just because the present was so hilarious. i have had this long standing infatuation with "he's just not that into you".. so i get the book AND the calendar. hi-larious. now i can have a daily reminder about how guys aren't that into me. haha...

this totally trips me out...

jake: week one

jake: week sixteen

they grow so fast, you don't even know. and this is all on milk only! crazy!

ps. i bought that onesie he's wearing in the second picture.. so cute.. i have good taste :P

*SHORTS*

*i'm soooo tired today.. stayed up way too late talking on the phone. it was a great conversation, and i knew it was going to happen, because whenever i call her we spend FOREVER on the phone, but it still makes me uber tired nonetheless.

*i'm kind of wheezey this morning, which i do not like. i was sitting on the ice rink for far too long, with way too little clothing. no.. not skanked out, but i was wearing a skirt and flip flops, which is not great for icy coldness. but i had no choice i came straight from other work & the airport - no time to put on my uber warm clothing.

*i was at the airport because i was dropping my sister and jake off :( (jeff-gu went earlier in another car).. as usual my family loves to run behind schedule when catching flights. haha. it was also a rush because i had to be at work earlier than i had originally anticipated. but while i am glad that i get to be by myself again (in preparation for moving out) - i am sad that they left and there's no more cutie-patootie nephew to play with, no more sister to eat good food and watch days and reality tv with, and no more jeff-gu to play mario party with. good thing it's not 6 months this time.

*when i was leaving i saw this guy loading these giant bags of equipment in tampa bay lighting bags into a locker room. he was looking at me kind of funny, like i was going to maul him and steal the equipment or something. haha. whatever.. what would i want to do with gross, smelly, sweaty hockey junk? oh.. ebay.. that's right. but anyways.. i realize now that he was storing the player's equipment after their game last night. kind of neat.. i'm such a starstruck floozy. and that's so weird too because i'm so close to it all, but really if any of the kings or lightning players or even lakers (aside from kobe, of course) were walking around.. i wouldn't be able to recognize them to save my life. okay maybe the lakers.. cuz i'd be like.. "really tall black dude.. must be a laker" oh.. and luke walton.. cuz he's cute :P

*i had a chance to go on a movie set, which i was super excited about - but then i didn't end up getting to go, which i am kind of bummed about. oh well, next time right? but it was neat hearing about it, and inspiring to hear this person talk about fighting the fight and how all the hard work paid off. hopefully sundance will be equally as inspiring (if i can get into screenings!) and a good energy for everything. but i'm working on a short.. so even if my professional life can't be about that, at least i'm doing something - that's a start.

*it's harder to myspace or blog at work when the part-timer is here with me because she can automatically see onto my screen :P i feel a little guilty when she turns around and there's a ton of pictures from myspace on my screen .. but i just turned around and she's on ebay.. so i'm sure she doesn't really give a hoot.

*yay!! sundance!!!

*i bought boots for this weekend. i call them my fuggs.. (for fake uggs).. because really.. all shearling boots are essentially modeled after the ugg popularity. but i love my fuggs, they're super warm.. and i love it that i can just tromp around in the snow as i please :) and not worry that i spent $130 on a pair of boots that i will either ultimately a)ruin or b)wear once in cold weather and never again because i'm not pretentious enough to pretend that it's cold enough in LA to wear them

*the plan is to move out soon.. but i'm facing this dilemma about living by myself vs. living with strangers. not really a fan of either.. so.. anyone looking for a place to live or need a roomie? :P

*okay.. so too many shorts = a long.. but oh well. still wheezey, maybe i'll run to get some coffee later. gotta read up on some SAG contracts, and organize my itinerary for this weekend.. whoo hoo! oh yea.. and work :P

*best line i've heard lately: "you can't just go out there and be too michelle kwan..."

<3

i've been watching far too much MTV for my own good.

i am totally obsessed with the show NEXT. it's such a guilty pleasure ... i know it's the worst show ever.. but it's so interesting and demeaning all at the same time. when people get instantly NEXTed.. that's so wrong. hahahaha.. the epitome of superficialness is this show.. which is so funny because i saw a casting ad for it on craigslist and it's like "hot hot hot" but i swear that there are so many people on that show that are not remotely hot... odd. but if you want to have 5 minutes of fame... here ya go.

i also caught up on "there and back" the new series about ashley parker angel and him trying to make it as a solo artist post o-town. i am a reality junkie, and i will forever *heart* boy bands - so this is almost my dream come true yah know? hahah.. jk. but seriously.. there was this shot of the pipes of a gas co. or something.. it looked familiar you know the manhattan beach area, and then they went to the lighthouse cafe to hang out for a bit... ashley angel lives near me!! hahah.. but it was so cute, it was his and his girlfriend's two year anniversary so they had a picnic on the beach, he made her this giant card with all these pictures, and serenaded her with this really cute song he wrote and played guitar and sang on the beach, at sunset... so cute.. i'm a total sucker for boys with guitars.. but that's not new.

room raiders texas.. here i come... oh my.. and i have a meeting tomorrow morning.. oh.. i mean this weekend. yay 3 day weekend!

Something strange is happenin' lately
We no longer see eye to eye
Time has changed us, rearranged us
And it leaves me wondering why

Now everything is different
Nothing feels quite the same
All the things we liked
About each other have changed
I don't know about the things that you do
What happened to the person
That I thought I knew?

You go one way and I'll go another
When nothing seems to work
Then why should we bother
We've let these little differences
Tear us apart
They're breaking up our friendship
And their breaking my heart
You need me and I need you
If only together we could see this through

You go left
And I'll go right
Life is just one crazy battle
When we argue, fuss, and fight
You're like day
Oh, and I'm like night
But if we could get together
Maybe things could work out right

I can see so much in you
Why can't we just see this through
Why must everything
In this life be so compllicated
But through all this pain
It's not you I blame
Why can't you feel the same

You're like day
And I'm like night
But if we could get together
Maybe things could work out right

You go left
And I'll go right
Life is just one crazy battle
When we argue, fuss, and fight
You're like day
Oh, and I'm like night
But if we could get together
Maybe things could work out right

We'll try to make it alright now
We'll try to make it alright now

~Save Ferris, Little Differences

today is my day of perpetual lateness. an off kilter day... maybe in preparation for friday the 13th huh? which is actually now.. but i guess in that sense that means i'm early huh? :P

today i slept in and woke up when i was supposed to already be at work... but i paid for it.. because i start running around like a maniac pretty quickly after i got there. as soon as i got back to my desk i'd have to run all around all over again. i got back to my desk around noon or so and i was absolutely poop-ed. it was so weird, because it was just a few steps right? a couple of door, crossing the street, stairs... man i'm such a wuss. but in my defense, it also didn't help that i wasn't really wearing the best walking shoes (aka high heels). haha.. lunch was good though.. el tarasco.. YUM. i *heart* el tarasco and heart carnitas. i had a tough time deciding between carne asada and carnitas. i know my day is filled with so many tough decisions. :P

after work i crammed down my leftovers from lunch and figured that i had enough time to go make some (or many) returns at target. that was nice.. i like getting money back :) there were a few things wrong.. but for the most part it was okay. i can fix them later i suppose. i hate this whole "time limit" thing on returns. i mean.. i'm fine with getting store credit if it's been too long, but not being able to return it at all? that sucks. anyways.. i sauntered off to work #2 thinking everything was okay.. and then i get this text message "no scorekeeping today?" and it strikes me a little odd. i see a game going on on the NHL rink and i panic a little bit because i think the game on the NHL rink and the olympic rink start at the same time. i breathe a little bit easier when i find out that the olympic game rink doesn't start until 9:15, which is the time i'm supposed to be at work..... or am i? i hear that they had some trouble with the scorekeeper on the NHL rink and that that person wasn't there at 8:45 when the game started.. and the guy who's supposed to do the 9:15 game is covering. uhh.. who's supposed to be on the NHL rink.. oh right.. that's me. OOPS. what was i doing? taking my sweet time at target. hah. man oh man.. i'm sorry.. i felt pretty bad - but i honestly thought i was supposed to work the 9:15 game. perpetual lateness i tell you.

hopefully this means my friday the 13th won't be all helter skelter because i've gotten all the kookyness out. hopefully today wasn't a preview.. because i don't think i want to deal with it.

ps. people are jackasses.

first of all - i didn't get a chance to blog..

happy birthday jill! (two days late)

i feel like blogging - and so i am. i actually really wanted to blog earlier today, but i couldn't get around to it today at work. i was busy.. well not every second of the day, but not really a long enough perioud where i got a chance to do my blog justice. go figure .. i was actually busy at work huh... too busy at work to blog.. that's a change :P i was going through some roller coaster emotions this week. and i don't know if it's a chemical imbalance, a situation thing.. but it's better tonight. :) yay. i was questioning my work a little bit this week, but i got some good advice and today was a better day (versus tuesday.. but it's always hard coming back after a vacation).. so it made it not so bad. plus.. fridays always make things better right?

tonight i also got to hang out with kimmy! i love that girl. she's so pretty and perfect that it makes me want to hate her - but you just can't. i didn't get to hang out with her much because she lived in temple city and then burbank and no one ever wants to drive out there.. but NOW she lives 5 minutes away from my sister. whoo!! she lives in a beautiful aparment with a cool roommate - which makes me want to hate her more.. but i can't. i love hanging out with her.. she fed me and then we went to go get diddy riese, and then came back, chatted, laughed at people on myspace, watched tivo, and built bathroom shelves. man.. i really want to have a place of my own. i'm at an impasse.. i don't want to live with a stranger, i don't want to live alone, but i only want to live in certain areas... but it can't be perfect. so *sigh* i don't know what to do.. but march is my new deadline. i'll be housesitting again for my sister and the new (old) gig ends in march (again) - so that's my new timeline. i probably shouldn't say it because i don't want to jinx it - but that's the plan my friends. aside from all the fun of living on your own, i really think i need to do it to "grow up".. you know what i mean jellybeans? i think i always knew that - but i was always worried about offending my parents... at this point.. i don't care. i think lately it's been the final straws to cause me to worry a little less about that. someone asked me today about an available place in downey.. but i don't think that i'm quite that desperate. downey.. seriously? hell.no.

anyways.. tomorrow (today) i'm going to a birthday party with a lot of people i haven't seen in a long long time.. it'll be.. interesting. haha. and then working hockey this weekend. i hope it'll be "worth it".. hahaha.

stuff that i need to do:
*research sundance shows
*organize receipts and return stuff
*try to organize ipod stuff?
*figure out which pictures i want to print

i'm sure there is tons more, but this is my list for now.

oh yea.. happy 2006.. it's the first weekend and it was 85 degrees today when i was out and about for lunch. i LOVE it. i love that it's january and sunny and so summer like. whooooo.

SO.BORED.

this is me... at work... :
i can't really complain, i'm getting paid to not really do anything.. hang out, blog, myspace, look up crap on the internet. whoo crap! it's really quiet though because so many people are on vacation. but i am not, and i am just sitting here. maybe since i have a new cube i could crawl under my desk and take a nap and less people would notice... but then i would be under my desk. ew. haha.

this week has been a week of meeting up with old friends. i guess that's how it is when people come home for the holidays. last night was middle school friends, tonight is high school friends. good times. maybe in a few years i'll meet up with old college friends, because right now we're not really keeping in touch much. some of them.. but not all. i'd post pictures, but i don't have the really recent ones and i'm a little too lazy right now. you'd think the boredom would want to give me something to do, but in turn it just makes me tired and lazy. hahah.. i've been watching a lot of days :) but only the carrie/austin/sami/lucas storyline. i fast forward through everything else (i <3 tivo) but yet still manage to keep up on what's going on because it's so slow! and you just can tell by facial expressions. haha. austin=hot, but they're all still so dumb. i can't believe they talk to sami, or drag their feet on telling they like each other.. stupid stupid stupid. so frustrating!! but i'm still so addicted! i've also been playing mario party 7 .. whoo!! not a whole lot.. but i did stay up until 1am on tuesday morning playing it.. so fun. :) - but that was only my second time.. and i haven't played since then, so i'm not totally hooked... yet.

ooh yay.. i might have lunch with my mom and j^3 (the nickname for joan, jeff & jake... lazyness sets in and that family is reduced to a symbol.. like prince). hahah. that'll keep me from falling asleep... i did bring lunch though.. leftovers from dinner last night at el pollo inka... yuuuuum..

i'm going to sundance :) i booked the hotel and flight and car yesterday. yay!! i thought the plans were going to fall through, but they didn't.. :) if i can get a few more of my friends to come along with it'll be SO fun.. hopefully they'll say yes!! i realized that it's only in a few weeks too.. crazyness!!

anyone have good plans for new years? umm.. i mean.. good plans that i can crash? haahah. i'm not that great at planning good outings.. sometimes they come together, but a lot of the time with big holidays everyone has their own idea of what they want so it's hard to get everyone together. birthdays are easy because you plan what you want and everyone has to go along with it because you say so.. haha.. i might just end up babysitting so other people can go out and party. is that lame? hahah...

yay! going out to lunch.. indian food? i hope i like it.. i usually don't.. the spices are too different for me..

today's lunch: http://shershahcuisineofindia.com/

technology is so ridiculously convenient these days.. i love it!!

iSighting is awesome.

:)

up late again. working on captioning pictures cuz now i can't do it at work! at least not this week when i'm training.

so i think i need to cut back on the sarcasm, because either i'm too good at it, too bad at it, or people just don't get me. apparently there are certain people who think i have a HUGE attitude problem because they can't tell when i'm serious and when i'm not. assuming the whole time i'm serious (am i ever? jk) i say a lot of really mean things. things that i think it's obvious that i'm joking... what kind of person says those things in person? either someone really blunt, or someone with a big problem. supposedly that someone equals me. right. apparently i am someone that needs to put other people down to make myself feel better. thanks for the memo. so i'll TRY to be "nicer" .. which i think is ridiculous because i am TOO nice sometimes.. and i usually only joke around with people i really like, apparently they don't like me back. maybe i should just talk less total... don't say anything at all.

but.. so i need to try and watch myself. not be sarcastic, especially around people who don't "know" me.. my very incorrect assumption is that people "get me" but i guess not. or i will follow every sarcastic phrase with "that was a joke"... how suave is that?

seriously.. people suck sometimes... maybe a lot of the time.

that was not a joke.

i really should be sleeping, but i'm not. hmm. how many posts have i started out writing that? too many probably.

i start my new job tomorrow. it's new, but yet i'm going to the same place, so it seems not new. does that seem weird? i don't even have a different parking space, well not this week. but i do get to go in at 9am instead of 8:30... does the 30 minutes make that huge of a difference? apparently so because i am staying up late because of it :P i also blame the 2 hour nap i took while i was at home. hopefully it'll add up the the next few hours of sleep i get and when i wake up i will be okay. it's weird to think that i won't have forever to the just surf the internet, blog, chat and myspace it up while at work. i mean.. granted a lot of people do anyways, but for me it was a given, because really i was just supposed to sit and wait for the phone to ring, or someone to walk through the door. granted i did other things, but most days ... well you get it. i have this plan i want to enact that probably takes lot of internet research, and i just had this dilemma that i wouldn't be able to do it tomorrow... hahaha.

i have a little hesitation calling this job a "promotion." only because it's not like they called me in and said they were giving me this new job. it was a process where i had to "apply".. and it was because it was vacated. but i guess in the real world higher title + pay raise = promotion no matter what the circumstances :P so i guess that's what it is.. but i still like to say "new job," but that does sound weird to me to.

i've been listening to a lot of cover songs lately.. well the two on my computer... on repeat :P a kelly clarkson - since u been gone cover by h's between vowels (a band discovered on myspace with former members of ozma in it..) and a coldplay cover of yellow by petra haden and bill frisell as featured on the OC. i really really like them.. granted.. i like the songs in original form... but they're very soothing for me. weird huh.

speaking of the OC.. i know you probably didn't think i watched it, but i have started to get into to it more and more. i blame mana and my sister. not so much my sister because even when she made me record those dvd's for her, i got into it a little, but still kicked the habit. but i watched the OC a little because mana was talking about it, and now i'm a little hooked... i want to know what happens with johnny and marissa, and i really like summer. okay okay. i'll stop gushing.. but having it on tivo helps because i can watch it when there's nothing better to do. it's not a religious thursday night ritual, so i'm not that far gone yet. another show i have been obsessed with lately is days of our lives. !!! hahah.. i haven't watched for awhile and a lot of things changed, BUT they brought back austin and THEN brought back carrie. MY FAVORITE PEOPLE EVAR. i know i sound really lame right now, but they were my favorites, they're the perfect couple, the reason why i will forever hate alison sweeney no matter what. it doesn't hurt that austin is like the hottest ever (even when he was in that Ross commercial... hahahha). i remember when me and angelee would sit on the phone together and just watch days of our lives. silent during the show with the occasional scream or gasp here and there, and the gab during commercials. when we were away at college sometimes i would tape the show and send it to her when she wasn't able to catch it. and i remember when austin accidentally hit sami with his car i was so deliriously happy i think i rewound and watched that moment 3 or 4 times. evil huh? that's how much we hate sami. but anyways.. it's slow and dragging and i love tivo for this reason as well. i fast forward through all the other story lines and just watch the austin/nicole/sami/carrie/lucas story line. funny enough even with the fast forwarding i can still comprehend the other story lines because it moves that slow. i haven't been keeping up on my passions though - i wonder what's going on with ethan/gwen/theresa? that was always my favorite storyline there.

i told myself i'd go to bed by 2am.. but now it's 2:07.. i should probably go. wish me luck in my first day... this week i will be training and hopefully i'll "get it" luckily, even though this girl is leaving, the girl who was in the position before her is still there so she will be getting a lot of my phone calls. hahaha. good thing she's also my friend.. she'll be getting a nice christmas present. haha.

i watched the chronicles of narnia today with my dad. funny.. he had been talking about it for weeks, and so i thought he really wanted to see it. my mom's not much of a movie person, so i have to be my dad's movie date or else i think he doesn't really watch many movies. which is fine because i don't really go out that much either. but it's funny because i think my dad bases how good movies will be based on how they do on the "hollywood stock exchange" (hsx.com) it's this thing my sister got us into awhile back where movies and actors are a stock and you can buy/trade etc etc and they make money. it's fake and fun and i stopped keeping up with it a LONG time ago, but my dad is still going strong. he told me that the narnia stock went up $20 today. haha... he never read the books though, that's why i wanted to see it. initially i wasn't interested, but i slowly came around. i think it was pretty good, definitely not a "kid's" movie, but young adult.. that's how the book is anyways right? my parents are also very funny in missing the "point" of movies. my dad was saying something like "see they should tell kids not to go hang out with strangers" when lucy first goes off with mr. thomas. and then after the movie was over my dad was like "this movie is not good because it teaches kids to run off, and also to fight" hahaha.. maybe not like that verbatim.. but that was his point. i said that they had to fulfill the prophecy and their fate, and he was just like "eh". hahahah.. next weekend i think we have a date to see aeon flux :) smiley face because that's the movie my company worked on.. yay!! i've heard conflicting things about the movie, and not like we make more money based on how the movie did, but i'm still interested. i'm sure my dad just wants to go to see charlize in a tight suit :P but it'll be cool to see my co-workers names in the credits. i saw a few people i know who worked on narnia's names in the credits... exciting :P

i want to do something really fun for new years. like a "go big or go home" kind of fun. haha.. any ideas? i have one, but i don't know how it's going to pan out. especially because i don't know what a lot of my friends are doing, two friends are leaving on a big trip the next day - may not be up for partying, one may have to be working, others may already have plans of their own. last new years i hung out with a couple and basically watched them (and everyone else) make out all night. that was fun.... not. :P anyways.. maybe it'll just be me and dick clark rockin it (does he even still do it?) i dunno.. i've been kind of out of the "really fun things to do" ideas. 2006 might be spent ringing it in with my family.. which isn't a bad thing.. but usually means my mom downstairs watching tv, my dad on the computer, my cousin in his room across the hall (although he may be out with his friends.. more exciting plans than me.. haha) and me in my room and my 13" tv. awesome huh? someone save me.

2:14 time for sleep.. if i sleep until 8am (absolute latest i can..) i can still get almost 6hrs of sleep :)

look at the stars, look how they shine for you

me: is this bill?
bill: yup..
me: there's a limo waiting outside for you
bill:

hahaha.. the funniest moment of today. so i have a new job. sort of a new job, new position, but same company. i'm excited, yet i'm scared. i was a little sad, but today i'm having one of those days where you are glad that you got out when you could. does that sound awful? i guess it's just the on-going thing of not feeling appreciated. i don't need a lot, i don't need big flashy signs or lots of "sugar words" (as my mom would call them), but there is a lot i do, and a lot i try hard to make things flow that aren't even supposed to be my job, but i want things to be better you know? maybe i try too hard or something and it's my fault, but i can't just sit back and do nothing, and when i watch people who do it frustrates me. maybe i have control issues.. who knows.. and then sometimes it makes me not want to do anything either, but i really do think in the end that maybe people aren't saying it to your face, but they do recognize the hard work you put it. so i'm glad that i feel like it's finally worth something. which is not the attitude i should have, because you shouldn't work hard only to be recognized, but some days i want to be vain... so there.

i start my new job on monday, so there are a lot of things to wrap up. it's a little hectic and a little busy, especially when i'm chained to my desk. bleh. i am scared that i won't do a good job, but before this year i was scared that i'd totally screw up my current job. it'll push me and i'll probably be learning a lot... so good times ahead right? i was a little wishy washy only because i had the whole "is this what i 'really' want to do?" conversation with myself. especially when i found out there were opportunities of things that i think that i "want" to do, and what i have is the "safe" choice. but.. what i "want" to do i have never actually done, so maybe i'll hate it, and maybe i'll like this new job all the same. plus, i'm still "young" so i can still move on to do what i "want" if i still want to do it. right? i've been at this point where i think the situation i have is the situation i'll be stuck in for the rest of my life, and that one year is SO long.. but in the grand scheme of life it's just one more step. but i know that what i'm going to be doing will be great. i'm just getting the whole cold feet thing.

since i will also be more financially able thoughts of moving out have also been entering my mind. my sister comes home soon, so me playing house will come to an end, yet she's also not staying for entirely too long, so there's the time i can just suck it up and live at home, or i can just be on my own for good. or so i think. saving money is nice though. but stupid misunderstandings turned not so great arguments make me think otherwise. sometimes i have these moments where i realize how little my family and friends know me, which sounds like a really awful statement. and there are things that they know about me.. but small little things that i wish someone would pick up on, but things don't go my way. maybe they do pick up on it and don't want to deal with me, but sometimes i need to be babied... maybe it goes along with the wanting to be vain. i know that's how "parents are" and i should become a better person and deal with it, but sometimes i just don't want to. is me being stubborn worth $1000/month?

6 more hours...

pay attention kids.. trust me.. it helps.

jean: i'm watching the biggest loser.. even though i'm supposed to be cleaning.
sakura: oh.. isn't it the guy with the long hair?
jean: ....
jean: umm.. I DON'T KNOW I HAVEN'T FINISHED WATCHING!
sakura: oh wait.. i don't really know.. um.. i mean..
jean: i've been watching for a hour and forty minutes.. and now...
sakura: i dunno.. but he was on all the magazines
jean: STOP!! just stop talking..
sakura: okay.

hahahha.. she was right by the way.

hey they're accepting applications.. maybe i should send in an audition tape. :P

argh.. procrastinating.. need to clean!

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. :)

this post is for linh... she always tells me to update so that she has something to do at work. but i bet she didn't even see my post from yesterday. haha.

this morning.. i have been wasting time like no other. myspace mostly. it's so addicting, not even doing anything important, just stalking people as usual. it's a good early morning ritual. i have so much to do, but i haven't been keeping up. bad bad. if anything today should be the day where i am proactive and i get things done, but yea.. i don't think that's going to happen. well maybe.. i still have a good 8 hours of work left huh.

i thought i had a good post to write about.. but i don't.. all words are escaping me. my brain is not awake yet. maybe i'll go get a coffee.. but i said i was going to try to not drink as much coffee. i was good today though.. i stayed away from the donuts. by default. this guy said he was going to get me a donut, and i told him i wanted a chocolate french crueller. there were none of those, and instead he brought me a plain donut.. which i'm not a fan of.. so i guess it's "better" that way, and now i'm sitting here eating my nutrigrain bar (which i have been really really enjoying) and drinking my milk.

last night someone told me "that guy from alias" plays hockey at my work. well.. mr. vartan plays hockey (i don't really think any other guys do) so i freaked out when i thought it would be him. i've worked there for more than a year and have never even heard that before.. but apparently there a industry people all over the place and i never even know. maybe it's time to collect a few more hours there. do some investigating.

dammit.. why am i so boy crazy? i would say "when did i get this way" but i've always been like that... looking at attractive boys has always been a fun hobby. i guess it's better than being a whore huh? but i need to find more of a happy medium maybe.. or just take it as it comes.. i'm too tired to contemplate this right now.

i am totally babbling.. this entry is crap, but i'll post it anyways so i can remind myself how dumb i can be. sounds like a good idea eh? i wanted to post pictures.. but i've been to lazy to do that too. maybe i will now. but my anal side of me won't let me post anything until they're all captioned and organized, and that's the tedious part i can't get over yet. bleh.

yay it's friday. but it's still going to be a long day.

today this guy at work got two packages from his mom. it was two more in a string of packages he's been getting the past few days, all from his mom. when they're international packages you have to declare the contents and they show it on the outside what they are. today he got underwear and chocolate. and he replied "aww.. i love my mom" at that point.. i loved his mom too.

then i got to thinking. i've never really been in a place where i get packages from home. i mean.. trade off.. i go home and often time i'll get sent home with lots of things to take home... but getting packages and care packages are nice. granted my parents aren't really care packagey types.. but maybe my friends are? who knows. sometimes i'd get stuff from my mom while i was in san diego, but most of the time it was when i needed stuff. new glasses, contacts, checks. etc etc etc. nothing fun. once i got fudge from benji's mom, and that was awesome. BUT i digress... this isn't about lack of love from my parents.. but the fact that i haven't really been anywhere far enough to be in a position to be sent care packages. like, i only went to school in san diego, and then immediately came back to LA. there's so many people here (at my work.. not LA) that aren't from around here, which i always immediately assume they are. their parents send them cute little packages and it seems like they're living this great life in this new fun place. maybe this is why i wanted to go to school in minnesota, go somewhere different, try something new... but that didn't pan out. i'd never move to minnesota now, but it would be fun to live elsewhere, maybe san diego again, or somewhere like boston or new york. i wonder if i'd be able to stand the cold. people always seem so well traveled, this girl was having this conversation about the "lower east side" and "manhattan" and the "meat packing district" and i had almost no idea what she was talking about (i'll thank sex and the city for having some cognition).. but it seemed so neat to know about a place that seems so far away. and she lived there for 6 years. my friend kelly picked up and moved to new york and loves it. i wanted to take that internship in new york... but that fell through too. who knows, maybe staying here for a long time means i'll end up somewhere else for the future. but today i felt very sheltered.. like i was ready to be distant from LA... which is funny because it's where everyone wants to be.

hot off the presses, courtesy of my favorite news friend :)

Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey officially separating

LOS ANGELES (AP) — After months of rumors, denials, and salacious magazine covers, Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey are officially kaput, just in time for Thanksgiving.

The couple jointly announced their separation Wednesday, confirmed their publicists Meredith O’ Sullivan and Rob Shooter.

“After three years of marriage, and careful thought and consideration, we have decided to part ways,” Simpson and Lachey said in an official statement.

“This is the mutual decision of two people with an enormous amount of respect and admiration for each other. We hope that you respect our privacy during this difficult time.”

The photogenic couple wed in October 2002 and went on to star in their own reality show, “Newlyweds,” on MTV. The show made them A-list celebrities.

Following Simpson’s role in 2004’s “The Dukes of Hazard,” tabloid magazines began reporting trouble brewing in the couple’s marriage.

U.S. Weekly first reported the couple’s split in its Oct. 17 issue.

if they can't make it, no one can! despite what everyone says.. i love them. i am so sad.

i bet it was ashlee's fault. haha.

happy thanksgiving?

t w e n t y f o u r

dissapointed.

to flu shot or not.. that is the question. should i pay $25 or so to get a flu shot vaccination? i've never really had an intense flu (or so i think).. but after you get it it's too late to be like "man i should have got a flu shot" i HATE needles, and i may end up with bruises and or wooziness... but a winter minus flus would be great. so if you get a flu shot does that mean you're completely immune to the flu no matter what? is it worth it? i guess if i'm going to be around jake a lot it would be a good thing to have... la di da.. i hate shots.

i stole this off a friend's myspace... it's funny and cute and sad all at the same time.



awww....

(ps.. i can't believe it's already the 15th!!)

this weekend was pretty fun.

yay for humorous drunk co-workers
yay for ellen's play
boo for weird run-ins on the streets of long beach
yay for waking up early to go to ihop
yay for midday naps
boo for being entirely too exhausted for no reason (jet lag?)
yay for dinner and chicken little with carol
boo for running around LA and ending up empty handed
yay for diddy riese
boo for cancelled trip to pechanga
boo for staying up far too late for no good reason
yay for sleeping in (but not too late)
YAY for tamale festival with carol and sakura
yay for yummy food and lots of new things
boo for spending so much money
yay for dinner @ red robin with the team
boo for our last game (and another loss)
yay for going to sleep semi on time.

night!!

my computer crashed. blue screened and restarted all by itself. fab. i lost about 30 minutes of work that i was doing (not terrible.. could have been WAY worse).. but still i am unmotivated to open that badboy up and restart the recon. oh well..

HAHAHAHAHHA.. i just got this email sent out to our public "for random messages" listserv.....

"don't forget to ... loghoff tonight"



hilarious. i can't stop cracking up. crazy drunk co-workers.

haha.. this person might kill me for this.. but it's funny. and this could have been me tonight.. too bad i missed out. :P

drunk friend: pp,h sp filome driml
jeanyah: omg
drunk friend: we jad 3 sjpts pf [atrpm
drunk friend: jahaha
drunk friend: patron
drunk friend: lsakflsdkf
jeanyah: did you drive home?
drunk friend: ofcoure
drunk friend: how else did i get homeosjl
jeanyah: someone else?
drunk friend: omg i need ot sleep liek noe
drunk friend: ok
drunk friend: 99
jeanyah: night
jeanyah: water@!
drunk friend: sweat sfiowjdaeam

hilarious. maybe tomorrow night. everyone knows how i love those drinking at work functions :P

lately i have become really desensitized to smells. i can't decide whether this is a good thing or bad thing only because i don't want to lose one of my senses, but at the same time i don't want to have to suffer through all the horrific scents.

they are doing a lot of remodeling work at my work, so painting, wood staining, etc etc etc.. lots and lots of chemicals. people complain about paint fumes and the smell and what not and then ask me 20 times a day if it bothers me. i honestly don't really notice it, and never really thought it was that bad in the first place. i'm not sure if the fumes have already killed off all my brain cells that tell me to mind the paint fumes, but really.. it's not a problem.

today it's raining, and being in the lovely location we are in i guess everytime it rains in affects the sewers and our work starts to smell like a cess pool. mmm.. yummy. for a little while i was like "man.. what is that smell?.. gross" and it smelled like a stink bomb or something. more so when people would open the door. 20 minutes later or so.. it's all back to normal and i don't even smell anything, although i now have a flood of emails in my box complaining about the smell, people walking by asking me "what's for lunch" because they think it's bad catering, or who knows what else. i can't even smell it anymore... isn't that a bad sign? i mean.. good for me because i'm just like "whatever".. but maybe people will start to think that i'm crazy or that maybe it's me that smells (under the you can't smell it because you're used to it rule).

anyways.. just thought that was an interesting tidbit.

ps.. i'm SO unprepared for the rain today. i didn't realize it was raining until i was already in my car leaving the house. since i was already running late, there was no time to go back and change or even grab an umbrella. boo. i'm wearing open toed high heels and khakis instead of the jeans, sneakers and hooded sweatshirt that is normal rainy day attire. dang it. lucky for me there was a lost and found umbrella from the last time it rained that no one has claimed... it has been my savior. funny enough people have been complementing me about how it matches my outfit. haha.. now i'm one of those annoying girls who "has to" look cute no matter what the weather. oops.

hahahahahahhahahahha.

my sister is the best. i have all sorts of ridiculous things on my amazon wish list.. but she got the best one of all sent to me. and it was totally a surprise. i thought i was waiting for something that she ordered for herself that she wanted me to keep (so it doesn't get stolen again.. fedex bastards).. so i get it, and open it (so i can uhh... transport it without the packaging.. okay okay.. i'm just nosy)... and it's *NSYNC - THE WINTER ALBUM how awesome is that!! it's a swedish import and i have it. ooOOoOoo. gawd i am such a dork, but i love it. people at work think i'm young or something because i like nsync. but you know what? no matter how old i get i will always love them. :P (i also saw the no strings attached import "special edition" on amazon. good thing i already have it and bought it in taiwan!!! hahahahahahaha.. that's old news buddy!) ooh ooh.. i wonder if they have a special edition "greatest hits" cd in taiwan with videos and stuff.. hahahahah..)

i think i also know what else she bought me. i cheated a little, but not intentionally!!! i was looking at my wish list and i wanted to see "items purchased" thinking that it was only going to be the nsync album.. but there's 3 things!! so i'm assuming that she bought them all since not really any of my friends actually utilizes it.. so we'll see i guess. but now i'm anxious waiting for them :)

a lot of talk has gone around about the chinese kids singing karaoke to bsb's i want it that way. funny indeed.. but it made me pull up the numa numa kid i blogged about him before.. but man.. how i love him. i watched it again and cracked up so hard, which isn't the best while sitting at the front desk. hahahahahah.. but it's okay. he makes my sides hurt :P funny enough.. when i was in taiwan.. all the chicken little commercials are set to that song and the characters are dancing around (not like the kid).. but i think it's interesting that they used this song. i wonder if this kid made the song popular enough for disney to use it in their commercials!

nothing much else interesting. my eye is starting to twitch.. it's really kind of strange actually. maybe i have been staring at my monitor for far too long today. bleh. 25 more minutes to go!

your love is like a river, peaceful and deep
your soul is like a secret, that i never could keep
when i look into your eyes, i know that it's true
god must have spent, a little more time on you

<3

oh how this amuses me so....

ashlee simpson drunk at mcdonalds

"bitch stop talking to me, i'm nice!"

hahaha.. what a dumb ho.

i don't know what it is about halloween.. i just never have a good time. well not true.. last year was fun. but the year before i was upset with someone and then got in a huge fight with my mom. this year halloween (the day itself) was no fun.. i think halloween for me is like thanksgiving for chandler.

so this is my one man stand and my attempt to riot against the people who suck in this world. hahah...

if you ever need a chiropractor.. NEVER EVER GO TO DR. BRIAN IRVINE IN HERMOSA BEACH. let me tell you my story.

so they call me yesterday morning to see if i can come any earlier than my 6pm appointment. i work until 7pm and have been leaving 2hrs early three times a week to go see him (the drive from venice to hermosa isn't the funnest at 5pm) and that adversely affects my paycheck as i'm sure you can figure out... but i thought "hey.. if he's good and he can fix me.. then it's worth it right?" my mom referred me and really liked him, so i thought i should stick with him. so anyways.. i park in the lot at lik 5:57pm and go to the bldg and the elevator doesn't work and the door to the stairwell is locked. i understand that they're next to all the bars, and probably lock down stuff so all the crazy drunk weirdos don't fool around in the bldg. but.. i have an appointment, and if i can't get upstairs what am i supposed to do? so i see some girls smoking out back of their salon store on the 1st floor and ask if there is another stairway.. and they say no.. they also push the elevator buttons because they think it's weird that it doesn't work.. and offer to help me call them (i don't have their number on me..) so we call, and their phones are off and it goes to a recording. ARGH!! so, because i'm a smart girl i take a different stair set downstairs to the parking garage and from that level the elevator will work and take that up to the 3rd floor. i get to my doctor's office and door is closed and locked. so i knock and i can HEAR THEM INSIDE TALKING ABOUT HOW SOMEONE IS KNOCKING ON THE DOOR. hmm.. who could it be? maybe the girl who has the appointment at 6pm!! i knock for a few good minutes and continue to hear them inside as well as some shuffling. i am already jetlagged and tired and so frustrated and this is making it a million times worse. i wish they would just open the door and tell me to go home, but they don't. so i get on my cell and call a friend to complain, talking loud enough so they can hear me, and then i knock again and they finally open the door. about time, assholes. the girl who opens the door is like "your appointment was at 6 right?" and i'm like "yea.. but your elevator isn't working and the door to the stairs is locked and your phones don't work." and she tells me that the elevator should work, and that their phones don't turn over until 6pm, so basically trying to blame me for being "late" and since i'm already worked up and mad about them being shitheads and not opening the door, i'm "oh yea?! well go ask the salon girls who were there" and she's like "well.. i guess we can still take you...." it's like.. don't do me any favors buddy.. how much are you friggin charging me huh? she cops this attitude and it's like.. you don't want people like that touching you and treating you.. i didn't even want to stay. so i walk out to the elevator and i'm pacing around.. not wanting to just storm out and look stupid, or maybe i really wanted to let them have it or something. i go back and the doctor is standing there, all ready to schmooze me.. and he's like "yea we can see you, what's wrong" and i'm thinking "really.. you don't know".. and every thing just got to me.. the non-sleep, the jet lag, the needing to leave work early, the frustration, the anger.. and i'm on the verge of tears.. the kind where you know if you talk more they will just come spilling out. so i'm trying my hardest not to cry and going off on about how i couldn't get up here, and how i was knocking and they wouldn't open the door, and how rude it is, and i'm so livid already. at the end the doctor goes "sorry" in this (at least to me) insincere "whatever" tone.. you know what i mean? i am not having any of that.. so i turn around and leave. i'm so over-emotional these days (no clue why) and i'm bawling as i'm running down the stairs and when i get into my car. maybe i took it too personally, but they didn't really do much to assuage my anger, and really.. i didn't want them touching me.. so it was for the best. i was so frustrated, and i still am. i called my sister and vented for a good long while. i will tell my mom she is banned from going there again (but i bet she won't listen to me) but at least my sister said that my mom understood. it also was upsetting because i had fought so hard to still go see them.. despite the six hours of work i was missing a week, and the fact that my lawyer doesn't really work with them, and that i didn't really want to go to the chiro in the first place. i put my trust and faith in them, and then i got treated like that. it's frustrating when you get let down like that and then people just act like it's not a big deal. in their office literature they say that "I make it a priority for myself and my staff to treat each person and my staff to treat each person who comes here as an individual. To understand your specific needs, and the needs of your family. It's important to me.".. but it's all just bullcrap. i initially told them that i worked until 7pm and they act so nice like they'd totally accomodate you and then once you sign all their forms they just kick you around. it makes me lose my faith in humanity.. because they're not the only ones who are like that.

i called this morning and this woman who usually is the one who treats me answered and i wanted to cancel the rest of my appointments this week because there's not a way that i am going back there. so she starts out like "oh yea, dr. irvine told me to call you, but i haven't be able to get through to you" and i just start getting mad again because it's just more shit and more lies. it's like.. really? you can't get through.. because it's so important to you? i know you have my work number because you called me yesterday on it, and it's not like my phone was busy. so anyways, she says she doesn't know what happened and is confused because she was with another patient in the back. which is funny because if that's the case, then they shouldn't have locked the door and it wouldn't have mattered if i was late because i would have to wait for her anyways. and really.. if i was that upset, as i clearly was, shouldn't he call himself? is he too important for that.. cuz i thought it was "important" to him to understand my needs.. apparently i'm just another paycheck for him. so i try to explain to the lady what happened.. and how i was knocking, but no one was opening the door.. and she starts getting all argumentative with me.. like "oh yea the elevator wasn't working" (which is a direct contradiction with what that other girl - gabby - said.), "there was a patient in here and no one heard the knocking" (wtf.. seriously? a)if there was a patient there why is the door locked.. and b)really? all 4 of your office people are in the back and no one can answer the door?) and she tells me that they don't have access to the downstairs door, so they can't make sure it's not locked. and i'm like "the door is locked from the inside, you can unlock it and make sure it's open".. because when i stormed down the stairs and the door was locked i had to open it to leave. and she tried to give me some BS about this or that and i wasn't going to take it. and so i tell her that i just think that they were really rude and after the way i was treated i don't want to see them anymore. and she starts with the attitude too, "well if that's your opinion, and that's what you think and that's how you feel" ARGH!!!!!! i was already so mad with the whole situation and i hate that a) they were so rude yesterday, b) the girl is trying to argue with me and giving me excuses that make no sense, c) that they're not taking any blame or apologizing and d)they're trying to blame me for it... if there is something that working at the gap or being a receptionist has taught me is how to treat people. no matter what. i mean.. in general i'm not really all that nasty to people unless they really get to me, but especially for work you always have to behave properly even when it kills you. this seemingly senile homeless lady tried to crash our party on saturday and yet you have to treat her with all the kindness you would anyone else just because you may not know what people's situations are, and it's just common decency.. or at least i think. and maybe that gets me in trouble sometimes, but i have told my mom before i'd rather be stomped on, that do the stomping. feeling guilty afterwards is not a feeling i am fond of harboring. but i know those kind of people never feel guilty for what they do, which makes me even madder... which is stupid.. i know. i know that not everyone acts to please other people. i need to learn how to just let that shit go.

so that's my story and i'm sticking to it.

don't go see dr. irvine, tell all your friends not to see him, and bad mouth his staff whenever possible.

at the gap they tell us they focus so much on customer service because if someone has a good experience, they will tell 1 of their friends. if they have a bad experience, they'll tell 4. i believe it, i've told 8 people already. and i'm hoping the internet also does it's job :P

post halloween party 2005:

Saturday October 29
Taiwan time: 10:34pm
LA time: 7:34am

so I’m blogging from the plane. Not quite blogging, only because I’m not on the internet, of course. How cool would that be if I could be on the internet while on a plane!! That’s the next step I’m sure. It’s quite bumpy on the plane – a lot of turbulence. We even had to re route a little bit to avoid some worse turbulence. I don’t mind it too much.. it’s kind of fun.. like a roller coaster ride. I’m not antsy about planes, I’m sure Beth would be having a cow. What I’m not so keen about is mr. guy next to me who has been hacking up his lungs, and snorting his snot all flight long… sometimes covering his mouth, sometimes not. I really cannot be sick right now. And especially with me going to the Halloween party my immune system won’t be able to handle any attack of germs. I also am not keen about the crying baby 5 seats away from me. Crying all flight long, wah wah wah… It makes me a little sad, missing my nephew.. but my nephew isn’t bad like that – plus I’m sure my sister won’t be in crowded economy with dozens of people cursing her under their breaths. Hahhahah. Poor parents.

I’m watching Batman Begins for the second time this week. My sister rented it and we watched it, and now on the plane. I have nothing better to do, since I am in economy and I can’t choose which channel I want to watch. well I could sleep, but it’s only 10pm Taiwan time, so I’m not totally tired yet.. plus I already took a mini nap. Now that I think about it.. my Saturday will have been 39 hours long. Kind of neat huh? 24 hours from the first Saturday, and in 1.5 hrs it will be Sunday in Taiwan, but 9am Saturday in LA… so I get 15 more hours of that. whoo!! It’s like a three day weekend too.. I soooooooooo don’t want to go back to work Monday!

I have been up and down about this party.. wanting to go, not wanting to go… I hope overall it will be fun… not too crowded, not too chaotic ? I’m sure it will be.. if anything, alcohol makes everything more fun huh? Just kidding…. I’m not a lush.. I promise.

I also can’t wait to get home and dig through all of my new belongings… hahahah.. I have almost a WHOLE suitcase of stuff I bought. A little overboard huh? Oh well, it was a good time.

Stuff that I wanted to do in Taiwan, but missed out on:
1. ride the giant ferris wheel
2. eat at Mos Burger
3. feed jake
4. .. something i was just thinking about but it escapes me at the moment

Argh!! Now I’m coughing… grrr… stupid guy. I wish I had bought some airborne or something. I think I’m going to listen to my iPod.. maybe nap before the next movie.

i was at the night market today (shih lin) and i saw these rainbow leg warmers that i wanted to buy so bad!!! i don't know why i just had the hugest urge to buy them. i've never owned or worn leg warmers in my life, but for some reason, they just seemed so fun. maybe i could be an old school jazzercise chick for halloween. and then i remembered my old want of being rainbow brite for halloween!!! sooooooooo cute. but it's too late now because the work party is 2 days away, i'm in taiwan, and all the adult rainbow brite costumes are the cheap slutty ones. grrr.. maybe next year. but it'd be soooooooooo cute to have a rainbow brite costume that actually looked like the real one. and have a ponytail full of curls. regardless.. i still wanted those leg warmers.. but seriously.. where would i wear them? to play softball? haha.. that would be a riot. i would be a freakshow.

i think the medicine i was using for the bugbites is part of making it worse. the bug bites are still swollen and achy.. but the skin around it is red and puffy. so i put more medicine on to try and help it.. but it makes the red puffy part worse!! this draws me to the conclusion that although the medicine provides cooling relief, it is somehow prolonging the getting rid of efforts. argh.. so i will have to suffer in itching misery in hopes that they go away quickly. i'll just have my mom and sister slap them to make them stop itching.. they always enjoyed doing that. i can do it to myself, but i never slap myself hard enough, for obvious reasons.

gosh.. i can't believe this week is almost over.. i leave in less than 2 days!! i thought this week has been so long, but it's quickly coming to a close, and then it'll be back to the grind, back to losing softball, back to crammed messed up schedules. grr. oh well.. vacation wouldn't be as nice if your life was always like that.

and what's with all the selling of weird strange herby type dried foods next to the purses. has is always been like that? last time there was a whole store dedicated to just purses.. now it was half of the weird smelling dried food stuff. but another store was the exact same set up. is there some correlation between purse buyers and smelly food.. cuz i don't get it.

argghh.. itchy itchy itchy.. and stickiness from the humidity.. bleh. time for another shower and sleep.. it's 2:15am!

there are times when taiwan does not agree with me. the night before i stayed at my grandma's house because i came back too late from the night market. that was okay because i think my relatives really like it when i stay with them. people here are very big on having you stay with them.. maybe it makes them good hosts or something. anyways.. it was my cousin's old room, but they had moved the stuff out, so i slept on a mattress on the floor. i don't know if it was cuz i was closer to the ground, or i had the smell of stinky tofu on me from the night market (ps. i HATE that smell.. it makes me want to vomit. whoever thought it was a good idea to make tofu smell putrid and then eat it was obviously delirious from the odor).. anyways.. i woke up in the middle of the night furiously scratching my arms because of multiple bug bites. i think i even woke up once to the sound of a flea buzzing around near my ear. i was so mad, plus i was cranky because i couldn't get back to sleep because my arms itched so badly. ARGH!! i have 8 on my left arm, 4 on my right arm, and 2 on my face. it's weird because somehow i think they're spreading or something... i know bug bites don't "spread" ... but really.. they're getting worse. i thought it was okay because they had gone down.. but later the next night (yesterday).. they're worse! they're swelling up and they're even achy now. i have no idea what's wrong.. it's like i'm allergic or something. when my dad stayed at my grandma's nothing happened to him.. so either... i taste a lot better.. or they wanted revenge for not being able to attack my dad. either way i have been rubbing all sorts of ointments all over to try to stop the itching and getting them to simply go away. bleh.

in other news taiwan is good. sort of drizzly still. but it's light rain so i just walk around because it's not cold, still a little humid almost, which makes it warm, but not unbearable. i think i'm going shopping again today. whoo :) maybe to eat ice monster. hehe. mm.. maybe nap time. and then baby time before lunch, and then shopping!! i'm out of control. now if only the itching/achiness would stop.. everything would be dandy.

i have the worst case of buyers remorse right now. well it's like half buyer's remorse.. but it felt sooooo good to just keep buying.. but i felt silly carrying so many bags, buying so much junk, and didn't even want to walk into my grandma's house for fear that they'd all laugh at me. silly american who went crazy. and hey.. it's not all my fault.. people asked me to buy stuff for them... but like.. who knows what they like. i hope they like it.. they'd better!! cuz i am not getting stuck with it.

cute things will be the death of me for sure. i will probably die suffocating in all the cute little trinkets that i buy. sanrio, disney, no-brand super cute little characters... all of it.. i melt to pieces. i bargained pretty successfully with the vendors (or so i think.. i know they are still scamming me)... but how can i really bargain successfully with bags and bags of stuff in my hands?! they already know i'm a shopaholic! they can see it. just wave some cute thing it front of me and the money the jumps out of my pockets.

i had steamed dumplings and beef noodle soup at the place by my grandma's house today.. yuuuuuuuuummm. the dumplings aren't my favorite just because there are hints of ginger.. but i still like it anyways, that's how good they are. but today i realized that i haven't had beef noodle soup since the last time that i came to taiwan. isn't that crazy? not since december.. and i really only eat it when i come here. so silly.. but i guess it's like if i can't have the "real thing" why bother you know?

i finally went to the taipei 101 observatory deck. :) i had gone to taipei 101 before, but just the mall part was open, not the observatory deck. it reminded me a lot of being in chicago and at sears tower. i knew that beth would really appreciate it, and they even gave you these neato free listening guides (using your license as collateral to make sure you'd return them.. but no fee!) that would tell you about what you were viewing around the city. it was pretty neat. in my perfect world there would be a pressed penny machine.. but taiwan is not that cheesy. but it didn't stop me from buying tons at the gift store. (seeing a trend?.. but wait you already knew this.)

another thing beth would appreciate is the tons of cute fobby things. mispelled words.. i thought they were so annoying when relatives would by my clothes with "SNOOPQY" .. but now it's so charming in its own way. i'm not really talking about fake "pdidas" (adidas) or "emma" (puma) stuff.. but just the very fobby stuff that seems unassuming but is so funny and ridiculous in english. just like when american people walk around with asian stuff... i really hope someone has that tattoo of like "i have a small penis" or something. i dunno.

nicole would appreciate all the hello kitty stuff they have here. in fact those were her parting words to me :P even the fake stuff she might like because it's cheaper. and some stuff is okay to buy because it's not too atrociously fake.

sakura would love all the jeans they have here. i wish i could buy her some, but of course she'd have to try them on. but everytime i pass by a stand/store.. i think of her.

linh would appreciate everything there is to eat here. hahahaha.

tonight is the first night i haven't been tired at 10pm. last night i was sooooo tired and fussy it was ridiculous. i guess i'm getting over the jet lag. but i leave in a few days..and then i will be so messed up it will be bad news.

well.. i'm sure my cousin wants to sleep, and i'm in his room rattling away on the keyboard. night night.. miss you!

"real time" 1:37am - wednesday the 26th.

so i've finally landed in taiwan. it seems like it didn't really take that much time to get here.. probably because i slept most of the way here. i didn't watch a lot of movies, which i usually do.. i was far too exhausted. plus i wanted to get the jet lag in check since i'm not here for that long. i can't waste it in the wrong time zone! yesterday was a marathon of packing and trying to get things ready. i got 2.5 hours of sleep and still made it through the work day, went to go see my chiropractor, bought a halloween costume (which i'm still not sure about yet), and finished up the packing. i got to go into the vip lounge and sat and had wine and crackers and then we had to take a bus to the remote gate where our plane was docked. it was strange because we were on this bus on the tarmac just cruising around. it was like we were vips.. or maybe in the movie speed. hahah. i fell asleep once we boarded and even slept through take off, which has only happened one other time when i had gotten 0 hrs of sleep the day before. watched the longest yard which was actually good and funny. i laughed out loud a few times.. i hope i didn't wake anyone up. i could totally tell where they filmed the parts at el co.. so i got pretty excited for that. ate and slept.. that was the plane ride :P

it's 20 degrees celcius... i'm not sure how that translates to farenheit... i was never good at that. it's drizzling too.. bleh.. i thought i had gotten away from that. we landed around 6am, got a ride to taipei and now it's almost 9am. sucks though because i only now just realized that we totally forgot the luggage with all the stuff my mom wanted to bring for her. it makes me feel so self absorbed.. that i was only concerned with my stuff, and packing stuff for my sister, that it didn't even occur to me that even though we only had 3 bags, no one remembered about the stuff for my mom. bah.. it's not quite that simple, and there are a few reasons why, but bottom line is i should have remembered. argh.

the 1 month party for my nephew is tonight :) so that will be fun. it's small and only family. so nothing too crazy :P i think i'm going to nap and shower and get ready for the day... i shouldn't be tired, but i still am... luckily since it's 9am, people won't think i'm too lazy if i go back to sleep (as opposed it being 6pm in cali).

this morning on E! news weekend

"move over brangelina... vaughniston is the new hot couple in town."

ARGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

seriously!? can this just die??!!

(comment on the combination of names, not on the subject matter)

aaaaand..

happy birthday angelee!

man oh man...

so i don't know exactly when these came out.. but it almost makes me hesitant to buy anything just because when you buy it a few months later the newer version will come out and you'd wish you would have bought that instead. boo. technology moves too fast for us.

apple has two more products to add to their line.. well.. not new.. but new models.. the ipod video, and the new imac G5. crazy. i'm not really upset or anything.. i'm just amazed on the more and more things that come out. i love my ipod more than the models out here and i'm not really longing for any of the ones that are out now. but it's kind of school that you can watch tv shows and what not on there. the imac G5.. neat. it has a built in isight.. which is cool in itself.. and a smart idea, because i have the problem where the isight sits too high on my computer so only half of my face shows unless i sit super straight up. plus now there's a remote which is neat like when you want to lay back and watch a dvd or something. i love my imac to bits too.. and i bought it 10 months ago.. so waiting for all this wouldn't really have been useful for me. plus i have an isight and i guess i'm not that lazy that i need a remote.. hahaha.. but it's nice to have nifty things :P

if you haven't donated yet for my walk.. please do :) i'm halfway at my goal.
support me @ aids walk!

i *heart* san diego <3> (minus the bumper car pictures)

my dad is currently driving to san francisco. "right now?" you ask? yes.. this very second. they left around midnight, and i guess are going to be there early morning. good for avoiding traffic i suppose. my dad has monday night because of columbus day a or something and city of LA employees get all kinds of extra days off.. like cesar chavez day.. haha. i hope my dad took naps and got lots of rest... i'm a little bit worried although i know he is a great driver and knows what he can and can't do.. i still worry a little bit. i think i get it from my mom. my dad used to make the norcal drive all the time. especially when my sister was going to berkeley and we'd drive every fall and summer to cart her stuff around. my dad was always fond of the long drives.. road trips. i remember once we drove to canada.

my dad also has to get home somehow (since he's driving someone else's car up for them). not that my aunt isn't willing to buy him a plane ticket back.. but my dad is insisting on taking the train back. the TRAIN.... from norcal. actually.. it's a train to bakersfield and a bus the rest of the way. bleh. you know how i feel about buses!! it'll take 7 hours or so but my dad keeps saying he's never been on a train (in the US) so now he wants to experience it, he's not just being polite.. he's really excited about taking the train. my dad is so odd sometimes. so funny.

i now have to go the chiro three times a week to "heal" from the car accident. and maybe now apparently i might also have TMJ. argh. it sucks so bad with all the time i have to take off of work and all.. and all the gas and driving that i will have to be doing now. bah. there are times when i feel fine, and time when i don't feel so hot. my jaw hurts so bad right now. and it seems like such a silly thing to say, but that's all i can think about right now.

maybe.. just maybe i should think about sleep huh?

my mom is thinking about getting a laptop... i think she realizes how convenient it is, especially if you are on the go or not at home. i don't think she likes having to share computer time with my sis, or imposing on her and just wants to have her own so she can be on it late at night in her own studio while she's watching her chinese soaps and writing out her 2 hour long emails. haha.. my sister told her apple's are better so i told her she should get an ibook. probably a 12incher. it'll be SO CUTE!!! i think i would have to occasionally steal it just to play with it and hold it. i'm sorry to cheat on you powerbook but i swear i still love you too. who knows if that'll happen.. but i got excited for a second. so lame.. i know.

i was going to start this great music reorganization (as angelee calls it).. and make sure all the songs i want are loaded onto my iMac and thus loaded into my ipod before i go to taiwan. but i got lazy and distracted by SNL and myspace. i can't believe they let ashlee simpson back on snl. well i can.. ratings and all. but bleh. i'm sure she sang live this time, can't risk not. but she is still super annoying. she was so pleased and giddy after she did "well" she was jumping up and down for joy.. like she had never sang a real song in her life. or maybe she was pleased she got away with the lip-singing this time. haha... the show wasn't as funny as i hoped it would be. the funniest was the opening monologue where they had cast members pretend to be people that napoleon dynamite was "supposedly" based on. i laughed out loud it was so funny. the neighbors must have thought i was crazy.

okay.. pretty tired.. tomorrow.. i dunno.. i hope it's super hot so i can layout by the pool. i've been wanting to do that forever but i haven't be able to. and lately the days it's been sweltering are weekdays when i am wasting away indoors. boo. if not i'm sure i can find plenty to do. we also have a softball game tomorrow... we'll see how that goes.. bah :P

so.. i know philly will hate this.. but..

tom and katie expecting!

there's also the story here and here.

personally... i like them. i do thinks it's a little crazy and very hollywood. poor chris klein, but i'm glad tom gets his own kid. hahah.. i think that's probably important. so strange though.. joey potter is pregnant!! hahahaha. i'd rather read about them any day rather than "bennifer2" bleh. i heard that michael vartan got killed off alias because jennifer garner didn't want him there anymore. whether it was because of ben affleck or whatever.. that still sucks so bad.. i hate her even more.. now there's even less of a reason for me to watch that show..not that i really do anyways. haha.. i'm glad that i don't have to record the shows onto dvd anymore.. it would just make me mad. haha.

i signed up for the aids walk with the team at my work. so.. everyone should donate. my goal is $200, and i emailed 38 people so far... if everyone donated $10.. i would totally surpass my goal. i know not everyone will donate but i am practicing wishful thinking anyways.

donate to me! :) i would for you

yikes.. be careful :|

car accidents = boo.