i'm not religious at all - but i need some of this...
GOD, grant me the
Serenity
to accept the things
I cannot change
Courage
to change the
things I can
and the
Wisdom
to know the difference.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Sunday, October 19, 2008
so. let me tell you one of my pet peeves. i hate. hate hate HATE when people come in and change your shit around because they think their idea is better. if it's a better idea sure. fine. yea, that makes sense. but i spend a lot of time thinking about things and how they work, and how they'll work in the future to what's best. and in reality too. like.. sure.. you might think your idea is good, but are you going to maintain it and carry it out? Or is it going to be my job to carry out your crappy idea that's going to just be trouble for me? most of the time (with the exception of a few people) your idea isn't better. And sure, sometimes i'll split hairs. Sometimes your way is one way, and my way is another way - and they're both good, so who cares. But when I've spent a few days plus all day today doing it one way, is it really that necessary to change it to your way? Especially when today is the last time you'll ever touch it? You saw me doing it this way last week, and saw me doing it this way all day today. Only when I'm almost finished do you say "hey, let's do it this way!" Sure. Go for it. Yes. Maybe I'm being kind of a child by just walking away and not helping. I'm not really offended that you don't like the way I've organized it, I just hate wasting my time. And I've just wasted 4 hours today, and I'm not going to waste anymore. It'll probably be up to me to maintain it, or I can just wash my hands of it completely. What's funny is that no one would have taken any initiative to get it done, unless I started doing it. And now everyone else is going to get credit for making the board look great. "you did all the hard work, now you just have to re-do it"
yea thanks. that's a not so much.
yea thanks. that's a not so much.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
cute client services boy i like to smile at: "do you need anything else?"
me: "no thanks, i'm good." smiley face.
how this conversation should have went:
cute client services boy i like to smile at: "do you need anything else?"
me: "you."
the sky will fall before that conversation ever actually happens. *sigh
me: "no thanks, i'm good." smiley face.
how this conversation should have went:
cute client services boy i like to smile at: "do you need anything else?"
me: "you."
the sky will fall before that conversation ever actually happens. *sigh
Monday, September 29, 2008
it just started raining as i was walking back to my office from lunch. guess who just got her car washed on saturday? boo!! i'm hoping the rain passes by the time i get off work - it's pseudo safe in the garage for now.
i think i should consider not drinking for awhile. friday night was "fun" and saturday morning was kind of awful. i can't remember many conversations, phone calls and text messages from friday night, and i say things that.. i can't tell that i don't mean, or i just don't want to admit, or i don't even know i was thinking! whoa. really though, no more drinking for awhile - the thought of it almost makes me a little ill. heh. we'll see how long that lasts though.
i will say that i do miss the mall. probably because i don't go there a lot. sometimes i think i hate it because it's such a hassle. but on saturday, i walked into the mall, and it was just all sorts of goodness. bought some jewelry, almost got talked into getting my ears pierced, and had good food. the mall is great. you know where else is great? target and costco. i bought lots of food that i probably won't be eating any time soon (i mostly tried to buy stuff that wouldn't go to waste though!) and cooked dinner at my sister's on sunday. it makes me really want a house (and or just bigger kitchen with nicer kitchen stuff) and/or have a dinner party again. a nice one. but there's no time, and not really an occasion (not that you "really" need one.) but most especially, not really a lot of room. we'll see what we can do about that.
i'm in a very anti work mood today, even though i have TONS to do. six weeks(ish) to go! (whoops, my boss just walked up behind me while i was blogging. HAH. i should probably get on gettin' on.)
i think i should consider not drinking for awhile. friday night was "fun" and saturday morning was kind of awful. i can't remember many conversations, phone calls and text messages from friday night, and i say things that.. i can't tell that i don't mean, or i just don't want to admit, or i don't even know i was thinking! whoa. really though, no more drinking for awhile - the thought of it almost makes me a little ill. heh. we'll see how long that lasts though.
i will say that i do miss the mall. probably because i don't go there a lot. sometimes i think i hate it because it's such a hassle. but on saturday, i walked into the mall, and it was just all sorts of goodness. bought some jewelry, almost got talked into getting my ears pierced, and had good food. the mall is great. you know where else is great? target and costco. i bought lots of food that i probably won't be eating any time soon (i mostly tried to buy stuff that wouldn't go to waste though!) and cooked dinner at my sister's on sunday. it makes me really want a house (and or just bigger kitchen with nicer kitchen stuff) and/or have a dinner party again. a nice one. but there's no time, and not really an occasion (not that you "really" need one.) but most especially, not really a lot of room. we'll see what we can do about that.
i'm in a very anti work mood today, even though i have TONS to do. six weeks(ish) to go! (whoops, my boss just walked up behind me while i was blogging. HAH. i should probably get on gettin' on.)
Monday, September 22, 2008
damn you workBFF. you're not online so I can complain to you. no one that i can talk to is really online right now. it's monday morning at 9am. what do i expect?
so i'm having a good morning, despite the fact that i came in early for a shot delivery that is happening at 9:30. cool. it's okay. i have my large free coffee bean, a breakfast burrito and a C monster. i'm set. i've also go hilarious office antics. and by hilarious, i mean ridiculous. the way it's supposed to go in the morning is that we're supposed to get these shots, DUMB was coming in early to cut in the shots for us. at least that's what it said in the email i got. so i'm here, and we get one of the two shots. i put it in DUMB's folder, and when she comes in this morning (not early) i go to tell her it's there. she tells me that she prefers for other person to do it. which is fine. so i ask her how her weekend was, and she replies "same as everyone else's" and i play dumb and say "oh, were you here on saturday?" and she's like "yea". and so i say "well, did you at least do something fun yesterday?" and mind you, this whole time she's just prepping her breakfast, back turned towards me, not even replying. she scoffs/laughs and says "i don't know why you're asking me these questions." so in a sing songy voice i say "just trying to be friendly" as i walk way. that probably wasn't annoying. maybe partially i enjoy it. do i really think i'm still trying to get along with her? i can't tell.
whatever... my breakfast burrito loves me.
so i'm having a good morning, despite the fact that i came in early for a shot delivery that is happening at 9:30. cool. it's okay. i have my large free coffee bean, a breakfast burrito and a C monster. i'm set. i've also go hilarious office antics. and by hilarious, i mean ridiculous. the way it's supposed to go in the morning is that we're supposed to get these shots, DUMB was coming in early to cut in the shots for us. at least that's what it said in the email i got. so i'm here, and we get one of the two shots. i put it in DUMB's folder, and when she comes in this morning (not early) i go to tell her it's there. she tells me that she prefers for other person to do it. which is fine. so i ask her how her weekend was, and she replies "same as everyone else's" and i play dumb and say "oh, were you here on saturday?" and she's like "yea". and so i say "well, did you at least do something fun yesterday?" and mind you, this whole time she's just prepping her breakfast, back turned towards me, not even replying. she scoffs/laughs and says "i don't know why you're asking me these questions." so in a sing songy voice i say "just trying to be friendly" as i walk way. that probably wasn't annoying. maybe partially i enjoy it. do i really think i'm still trying to get along with her? i can't tell.
whatever... my breakfast burrito loves me.
I don't know why I'm still at work. It's 1:07am, and I have to be back here in roughly 7 hours. Actually, less than 7 hours because I'm supposed to be back at 8am. Stupid time zones. I was doing reports ALL day today that should have taken me hours. I don't know why it took me SO long. It's terrifying. I also am being really nitpicky about these reports, and a little OCD about it. I don't know what it is. In some weird way, this job makes me bitter, cynical, mean and hate people in all their stupidity... but yet I continue to keep at it. Maybe because it's the one thing in my life that I can control, or being good at it will bring something better to my life. Or I'm just uber OCD in general. I hate feeling like I'm disorganized or I don't know what I'm talking about and I'm constantly chasing my tail. Except I'm ALWAYS feeling this way because that's how this show is. I really didn't need to spend 12 hours on three reports. REALLY? Ugh. Sometimes I need to just say enough is enough.
Bleh.
Bleh.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
work is great story # 549302394
so last night i check my email on a whim, since you know, i have my fancy new iphone and all. and find that our scanning vendor can access the sites to upload the files our vendors need to work on shots. good times. so i call them, test my connections, and then tell them to use the ftp instead. the connection later starts working, and say, hey you can use the connection now too. sounds good eh? i mean, i know it wasn't necessarily "my" problem to solve and i'm not in charge of scans anymore, and the person who is, doesn't like me touching her stuff (because she's DUMB) - but i figure - hey... it's midnight, no one else is going to solve this problem, my vendor is going to be at work in a few hours and have no scans, and that's going to suck, i'm going to fix this.
problem is fixed, except the scanning vendor only uploaded 1 out of the 3 scans they were supposed to send. gee. great. i ask DUMB if she saw the mail, and first of all, when i say "hey DUMB", she replies "WHAT." umm. good morning to you too. i know i'm not a morning person, but ooooookay. she says to me about the issue that "yea, it's that whole issue with the aspera thing, i thought you were working on that" (that's also another reason why i don't like doing anything, once i say even one word, DUMB will say "well you're taking care of it, i'm not doing anything". hey lady, there's no I in TEAM.") so i clarify that they only received 1 out of the 3 and as she is walking away (actually, she never even stopped to talk to me...) she says, yea, we'll have to call the scanning vendor. and because i'm unclear, and i don't want it to fall into one of those things where she'll say that i was supposed to be taking care of it, i say "are you going to call them" and she yells down the hall "YES I'M GOING TO CALL THE SCANNING VENDOR." umm.. thanks. w.t.f. but it's a good thing that i've started to learn how to cover my ass.
seriously. i don't get why people behave like this. or why or how i illicit this behavior out of people. i mean.. i'm not all distraught about this (today...). it's actually pretty comical this morning. but there's gotta be something about me, because this has happened more than once. there's always the one person who doesn't like me for some reason or another and treats me kind of like that. they all kind of have the same attitude and personality - so maybe i just don't mesh well with that. in my own ego-ness, i'd like to think it's because they're so jealous and lame, they have to talk shit because they have nothing better to do, because i am awesome. yup, that's pretty much it ;P
so last night i check my email on a whim, since you know, i have my fancy new iphone and all. and find that our scanning vendor can access the sites to upload the files our vendors need to work on shots. good times. so i call them, test my connections, and then tell them to use the ftp instead. the connection later starts working, and say, hey you can use the connection now too. sounds good eh? i mean, i know it wasn't necessarily "my" problem to solve and i'm not in charge of scans anymore, and the person who is, doesn't like me touching her stuff (because she's DUMB) - but i figure - hey... it's midnight, no one else is going to solve this problem, my vendor is going to be at work in a few hours and have no scans, and that's going to suck, i'm going to fix this.
problem is fixed, except the scanning vendor only uploaded 1 out of the 3 scans they were supposed to send. gee. great. i ask DUMB if she saw the mail, and first of all, when i say "hey DUMB", she replies "WHAT." umm. good morning to you too. i know i'm not a morning person, but ooooookay. she says to me about the issue that "yea, it's that whole issue with the aspera thing, i thought you were working on that" (that's also another reason why i don't like doing anything, once i say even one word, DUMB will say "well you're taking care of it, i'm not doing anything". hey lady, there's no I in TEAM.") so i clarify that they only received 1 out of the 3 and as she is walking away (actually, she never even stopped to talk to me...) she says, yea, we'll have to call the scanning vendor. and because i'm unclear, and i don't want it to fall into one of those things where she'll say that i was supposed to be taking care of it, i say "are you going to call them" and she yells down the hall "YES I'M GOING TO CALL THE SCANNING VENDOR." umm.. thanks. w.t.f. but it's a good thing that i've started to learn how to cover my ass.
seriously. i don't get why people behave like this. or why or how i illicit this behavior out of people. i mean.. i'm not all distraught about this (today...). it's actually pretty comical this morning. but there's gotta be something about me, because this has happened more than once. there's always the one person who doesn't like me for some reason or another and treats me kind of like that. they all kind of have the same attitude and personality - so maybe i just don't mesh well with that. in my own ego-ness, i'd like to think it's because they're so jealous and lame, they have to talk shit because they have nothing better to do, because i am awesome. yup, that's pretty much it ;P
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
So I really should probably be sleeping. I have an all morning meeting for a run through in which no one from our team is attending at night which, to me, seems sketchy. I'd like to say that it was an oversight, but we came to the conclusion that leaving us out is partially intentional. Or maybe people are really just that stupid. It just doesn't make sense how people operate sometimes. You don't think it's important that people who are giving direction on how things will look need to be there in the review of the product? Really?
Which brings me to original subject and point of me blogging instead of sleeping.
Ever since I've started this job, I've had an issue with a few things, the long hours, the massive amount of work, the confusion - but one hasn't been as constant or annoying as the attitude. True, you're never going to have the ideal working environment, and there are always people who are you're going to want to punchemintheface, but it can be so much better or so much worse. Since the beginning I've had to deal with two constant painsinmyass. These ladies, P & K, started out... sort of nice. Sort of. And maybe because I don't suck up to them, maybe because I'm so head strong, maybe because.. you know... I have no clue. They don't like me, and openly ignore my existence, talk to me as little as possible, and a flat out rude to my face. I DON'T GET IT. How do "grown ass people" (for lack of a better term) act like this? In the work place? No clue. Sometimes I laugh it off, because it's funny how stupid people are, and other times it really gets to me. My co-workers have told me not to take it personal, and know that their people skills suck, and while I don't take it all that personal, and I know it's not all me, it's still really frustrating and trying to be constantly be treated like that and to have to put up with it, on top of all the other things that I need to do. It's increasingly frustrating when it impedes me from doing a good job.
Example: Today there was a shortage of crew gifts floating around, however... I got one. I wanted to switch out my Medium for a Small, and since I knew there was an extra Small floating around, I wanted to switch out. However, P grabbed the extra before I could switch it out because she wanted to solve her shortage problem. I asked if I could switch out the Medium I had for the Small she just grabbed (because really, there's like one person on your crew who is a Small and you have 4 Smalls and 2 XL's. I'm really helping you out here.) Anyways... she acted all indignant, and so I said "if this messes up your plan, I don't have to switch." So then she says to me, has the freaking nerve to say to me "it doesn't mess up my plan, but I'm just trying to figure out how to get jackets for the people who have been on the show since the beginning."
Umm.. okay. Well technically, you're short a jacket for someone who hasn't been on the show since the beginning, so what are you talking about? And guess what? You gave your lazyhardlyworthanythingdoltofa PA a jacket and he's been around about just as long as me, and if you think he deserves one more than I do, then you're fucking retarded. It's not about the jacket. Really, I could care less. I mean, I like free stuff, who doesn't? But the idea that she didn't think I deserved a certain level of respect from her and her excuse is because I haven't been on the show since the beginning? That would fine if I wasn't saving this show's ass on a daily basis.
I'm going to stop complaining now. I know it's not personal, and I know it's not me. I know I'm the freaking shit and my boss got the best deal ever when he hired me (*sigh). You know what makes me smile? Is when I get emails from vendors like "p.s. it has been a pleasure working with you guys! you are far more organized than many of my clients." And "thanks for being a cool and good coordinator, it makes it SO much easier :)". And pseudo job offers. Then I know that the people that I actually work with can vet for the job that I'm doing, instead old jealous people who can't take their head out of their ass long enough to know what's going on. Okay, that was mean. And I don't really mean it. Part of me wishes that people could just like me. I seem to have those certain set of people who just do not like me. What gives? I hate if it trickles on to people who matter - but I feel like that hopefully the truth would come through in the end, or those people who do matter, know what's up. *sigh.. oh well.
Anyways.. I'll stop whining now. I'm so gonna fall asleep in that theatre tomorrow. Or if I'm lucky on the drive the way there :P (kidding.)
Which brings me to original subject and point of me blogging instead of sleeping.
Ever since I've started this job, I've had an issue with a few things, the long hours, the massive amount of work, the confusion - but one hasn't been as constant or annoying as the attitude. True, you're never going to have the ideal working environment, and there are always people who are you're going to want to punchemintheface, but it can be so much better or so much worse. Since the beginning I've had to deal with two constant painsinmyass. These ladies, P & K, started out... sort of nice. Sort of. And maybe because I don't suck up to them, maybe because I'm so head strong, maybe because.. you know... I have no clue. They don't like me, and openly ignore my existence, talk to me as little as possible, and a flat out rude to my face. I DON'T GET IT. How do "grown ass people" (for lack of a better term) act like this? In the work place? No clue. Sometimes I laugh it off, because it's funny how stupid people are, and other times it really gets to me. My co-workers have told me not to take it personal, and know that their people skills suck, and while I don't take it all that personal, and I know it's not all me, it's still really frustrating and trying to be constantly be treated like that and to have to put up with it, on top of all the other things that I need to do. It's increasingly frustrating when it impedes me from doing a good job.
Example: Today there was a shortage of crew gifts floating around, however... I got one. I wanted to switch out my Medium for a Small, and since I knew there was an extra Small floating around, I wanted to switch out. However, P grabbed the extra before I could switch it out because she wanted to solve her shortage problem. I asked if I could switch out the Medium I had for the Small she just grabbed (because really, there's like one person on your crew who is a Small and you have 4 Smalls and 2 XL's. I'm really helping you out here.) Anyways... she acted all indignant, and so I said "if this messes up your plan, I don't have to switch." So then she says to me, has the freaking nerve to say to me "it doesn't mess up my plan, but I'm just trying to figure out how to get jackets for the people who have been on the show since the beginning."
Umm.. okay. Well technically, you're short a jacket for someone who hasn't been on the show since the beginning, so what are you talking about? And guess what? You gave your lazyhardlyworthanythingdoltofa PA a jacket and he's been around about just as long as me, and if you think he deserves one more than I do, then you're fucking retarded. It's not about the jacket. Really, I could care less. I mean, I like free stuff, who doesn't? But the idea that she didn't think I deserved a certain level of respect from her and her excuse is because I haven't been on the show since the beginning? That would fine if I wasn't saving this show's ass on a daily basis.
I'm going to stop complaining now. I know it's not personal, and I know it's not me. I know I'm the freaking shit and my boss got the best deal ever when he hired me (*sigh). You know what makes me smile? Is when I get emails from vendors like "p.s. it has been a pleasure working with you guys! you are far more organized than many of my clients." And "thanks for being a cool and good coordinator, it makes it SO much easier :)". And pseudo job offers. Then I know that the people that I actually work with can vet for the job that I'm doing, instead old jealous people who can't take their head out of their ass long enough to know what's going on. Okay, that was mean. And I don't really mean it. Part of me wishes that people could just like me. I seem to have those certain set of people who just do not like me. What gives? I hate if it trickles on to people who matter - but I feel like that hopefully the truth would come through in the end, or those people who do matter, know what's up. *sigh.. oh well.
Anyways.. I'll stop whining now. I'm so gonna fall asleep in that theatre tomorrow. Or if I'm lucky on the drive the way there :P (kidding.)
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
blog. i've missed you. i'm sorry i've neglected you. i think about you all the time. i always think to myself "i'm gonna blog about this" i'm sorry that i don't. i'll try to do better in the future. it's not you, it's me.
here's what i want to give to you this morning:
inappropriate conversations from work:
me: (bringing extra coffee to jen) here jen, you can double fist is
jen: you shouldn't say that to a lesbian.
mikeT: i heard the grossest that's what she said joke the other day
me: what is it?
mikeT: well, i had this cut on my lip and i said "man, this thing just won't stop bleeding!"
everyone: .... ew.
(although that's a pretty good one...)
and here's an older one i meant to post but didn't. it's still excellent:
crackerman: OoOoO
Jean: ?
crackerman: its the olympic rings! duh
Jean: hahaha you should have sent me 2 ims then
crackerman: heh
crackerman: O O O
crackerman: O O
crackerman: damnit
Jean: FAIL
crackerman: it like autocorrected my spaces!
crackerman: not my fault!
crackerman: .-=-. .-=-. .-=-.
/ \ / \ / \
| | | |
\ ./. ./. /
'-' '\-/' '\=-'
| | |
\ / \ /
'-=-' '-=-'
crackerman: man, fail again.
crackerman: i give up
Jean: hahahahah
Jean: a for effort
crackerman: thanks
ps. my sister just joined facebook. it's overtaking the freaking world.
here's what i want to give to you this morning:
inappropriate conversations from work:
me: (bringing extra coffee to jen) here jen, you can double fist is
jen: you shouldn't say that to a lesbian.
mikeT: i heard the grossest that's what she said joke the other day
me: what is it?
mikeT: well, i had this cut on my lip and i said "man, this thing just won't stop bleeding!"
everyone: .... ew.
(although that's a pretty good one...)
and here's an older one i meant to post but didn't. it's still excellent:
crackerman: OoOoO
Jean: ?
crackerman: its the olympic rings! duh
Jean: hahaha you should have sent me 2 ims then
crackerman: heh
crackerman: O O O
crackerman: O O
crackerman: damnit
Jean: FAIL
crackerman: it like autocorrected my spaces!
crackerman: not my fault!
crackerman: .-=-. .-=-. .-=-.
/ \ / \ / \
| | | |
\ ./. ./. /
'-' '\-/' '\=-'
| | |
\ / \ /
'-=-' '-=-'
crackerman: man, fail again.
crackerman: i give up
Jean: hahahahah
Jean: a for effort
crackerman: thanks
ps. my sister just joined facebook. it's overtaking the freaking world.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Jean: http://www.skingcompany.com/detail.asp?product_ID=RPDF168
duckee: wtf
duckee: hahahaha
duckee: want.
Jean: i know
Jean: best road trip ever.
duckee: 5 foot cords? haha how is that even necessary
Jean: in like rv's?
duckee: ah
duckee: but they have normal plugs
Jean: oh right.
Jean: suv's then
Jean: like the big ones.
Jean: or stretch limos?
duckee: lol
duckee: yeah
duckee: stretch limos
duckee: that makes sense
Jean: yup.. on your way to prom, drink some champagne, have a panini
duckee: best. prom. ever.
jmig: omg
Jean: ?
jmig: did we talk last night
jmig: or did i leave a vm again?
Jean: haha
Jean: we talked.
jmig: ok
jmig: i thought so
duckee: wtf
duckee: hahahaha
duckee: want.
Jean: i know
Jean: best road trip ever.
duckee: 5 foot cords? haha how is that even necessary
Jean: in like rv's?
duckee: ah
duckee: but they have normal plugs
Jean: oh right.
Jean: suv's then
Jean: like the big ones.
Jean: or stretch limos?
duckee: lol
duckee: yeah
duckee: stretch limos
duckee: that makes sense
Jean: yup.. on your way to prom, drink some champagne, have a panini
duckee: best. prom. ever.
jmig: omg
Jean: ?
jmig: did we talk last night
jmig: or did i leave a vm again?
Jean: haha
Jean: we talked.
jmig: ok
jmig: i thought so
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
it's late and i really should be sleeping.. but i figured since i'm up and did a little bit of work stuff.. i'm gonna check my other email, chat with my friends and check facebook. BAD IDEA. facebook is the devil and it really just sucks.you.in.
anyways.. i've wanted to blog for awhile, but just hadn't had the chance to. here i am! i'm a little bummed. my sister is going to the olympics with her new fam (jakester and b!) and my mom is gonna get to go too. (and this is after they already when to prague this summer!!) they were trying to convince my dad to go - and i think he totally should because he deserves a good vacation - but he's not really that wild about the olympics (or sports in general) and thinks it's too taxing, too crowded and not really his idea of restful. which i get. he also might not want to go to china. haha.. he's a purist like that. BUT.. when i found out there was a possibility of everyone but me going.. i got really sad.. and to make matters worse.. here's my boss:
me: my whole family's going to the olympics
jen & scott: that's awesome!
jen: you should go! oh.... you can't go..
scott: yea... guess who's getting a pin?!
me: [death glare]
if you don't know .. i LOVE the olympics... i mean love. i don't know if it's the spirit, the athleticism, the camaraderie, the competition or even the theme song. (i heart you john williams) but i get all tingly about the olympics. my sister is going to get to go, probably do some pretty neato vip things, and be at the olympics. man. i mean.. i guess i can't really complain - i've been to the us open, and other big things, and this year, gary hall jr. didn't even qualify so he won't be there - so i guess it's not my time. but still.
i saw the mummy 3 tonight. god was that movie awful. and i like some bad movies. sometimes i think i'm more sensitive to stuff that has to do with chinese/asian/minority cultures. but it wasn't bad on that front as much as just bad overall. i have a special soft spot in my heart for rob cohen, so it was enjoyable (especially since i had low expectations). i could get into it.. and there were moments where i was really caught up in the "action". and then some really awful plot/script line would pull me out of it. my favorite is when one of the chinese actresses just starts screaming in english - when she was primarily speaking chinese the whole time. w.t.f. bad idea, rob cohen. but that's just a real minor concern i'm sure. it's making money, so that's the bottom line. i paid money for it, and the theatre was decently filled. so.. yay? i still can't believe r&h got first in the credits before dd. mothereffers.
one last funny anecdote. i saw the sandman today. nicole's all excited about it. she gave me all sorts of suggestions of what to say to him. asked me how he smells :P i think she just secretly wants me to get fired so she doesn't have to be all jealous that i breathe same air as shank.man. or maybe that i'm like one circle away from mr. dreamy hs musical. hah. anyhoo.. i was sitting at my desk late at night and i hear this knock on the window and i'm like "uhhh.." and i was about to ignore the knock and then i was like "someone could be locked out." so i walk over to the window, but i can't see cuz it's dark outside and the lights are on inside. so i have to get really close to the glass, like put my face up against the window close. and this guy outside is like "it's adam" and i was about to be like "adam who?" and then i realized it was the main dude in the show. oops. HAH. i let him in an now he forever owes me. riiight. i'm sure he's already forgotten about it. although when i went to go say good night he did look a little more friendly, as opposed to when i said hi the first time he kind of gave me the "who are you and why are you talking to me" look. but i'm also probably overanalyzing cuz that's what i do. it's fun. try it sometime.
anyways.. i've wanted to blog for awhile, but just hadn't had the chance to. here i am! i'm a little bummed. my sister is going to the olympics with her new fam (jakester and b!) and my mom is gonna get to go too. (and this is after they already when to prague this summer!!) they were trying to convince my dad to go - and i think he totally should because he deserves a good vacation - but he's not really that wild about the olympics (or sports in general) and thinks it's too taxing, too crowded and not really his idea of restful. which i get. he also might not want to go to china. haha.. he's a purist like that. BUT.. when i found out there was a possibility of everyone but me going.. i got really sad.. and to make matters worse.. here's my boss:
me: my whole family's going to the olympics
jen & scott: that's awesome!
jen: you should go! oh.... you can't go..
scott: yea... guess who's getting a pin?!
me: [death glare]
if you don't know .. i LOVE the olympics... i mean love. i don't know if it's the spirit, the athleticism, the camaraderie, the competition or even the theme song. (i heart you john williams) but i get all tingly about the olympics. my sister is going to get to go, probably do some pretty neato vip things, and be at the olympics. man. i mean.. i guess i can't really complain - i've been to the us open, and other big things, and this year, gary hall jr. didn't even qualify so he won't be there - so i guess it's not my time. but still.
i saw the mummy 3 tonight. god was that movie awful. and i like some bad movies. sometimes i think i'm more sensitive to stuff that has to do with chinese/asian/minority cultures. but it wasn't bad on that front as much as just bad overall. i have a special soft spot in my heart for rob cohen, so it was enjoyable (especially since i had low expectations). i could get into it.. and there were moments where i was really caught up in the "action". and then some really awful plot/script line would pull me out of it. my favorite is when one of the chinese actresses just starts screaming in english - when she was primarily speaking chinese the whole time. w.t.f. bad idea, rob cohen. but that's just a real minor concern i'm sure. it's making money, so that's the bottom line. i paid money for it, and the theatre was decently filled. so.. yay? i still can't believe r&h got first in the credits before dd. mothereffers.
one last funny anecdote. i saw the sandman today. nicole's all excited about it. she gave me all sorts of suggestions of what to say to him. asked me how he smells :P i think she just secretly wants me to get fired so she doesn't have to be all jealous that i breathe same air as shank.man. or maybe that i'm like one circle away from mr. dreamy hs musical. hah. anyhoo.. i was sitting at my desk late at night and i hear this knock on the window and i'm like "uhhh.." and i was about to ignore the knock and then i was like "someone could be locked out." so i walk over to the window, but i can't see cuz it's dark outside and the lights are on inside. so i have to get really close to the glass, like put my face up against the window close. and this guy outside is like "it's adam" and i was about to be like "adam who?" and then i realized it was the main dude in the show. oops. HAH. i let him in an now he forever owes me. riiight. i'm sure he's already forgotten about it. although when i went to go say good night he did look a little more friendly, as opposed to when i said hi the first time he kind of gave me the "who are you and why are you talking to me" look. but i'm also probably overanalyzing cuz that's what i do. it's fun. try it sometime.
Monday, July 28, 2008
downside to sleeping all day because i was so FUCKING exhausted is that now i'm staying up late and 8am when i have to wake up for work is now only a few hours away. i wasn't tired at midnight - but now i am and am just being stupid for staying up. but i miss my blog - so i thought i'd write a quick hello. i am finally getting around to doing a few frivolous things like chatting with the roommate, posting pictures (yea.. i FINALLY posted my last day @ DD pictures.. yea.. from more than a month ago. i suck) and a few other things. since i'm uploading pictures .. i thought this would be a good time to blog.
i have this unhealthy love for las vegas. i know it's bad for me, but i want it. all the time. okay, maybe not all the time. but i do enjoy it. it allows me to exploit all my bad habits, but makes them seem like the norm - wasting money, drinking, eating lots - which is probably why it's called the sin city. there are tons of bad habits which i have picked up from my father, and he has a pretty unhealthy love (moreso than i) for vegas too. which is why i thought it was obvious that for his 60th birthday - that's where we were going. he tried to be a butthead and cancel it a few times because he was worried i wouldn't have any money with this new job of mine - but i'm stubborn like that and proceeded anyways. i guess that's what people do - say they don't want something for you.. that's the nice side of people. anyways.
this was the view from my bed. i booked a room at the jockey club (my new favorite hotel in vegas) that was a suite, so we had a kitchen and a living room, and there were two beds in the bedroom. i could see the bellagio fountains from my bed, i felt so baller. it was kind of crappy cuz they were doing so much construction around the area - but the room was great and the price was great, and i didn't have to share a bed. awesome.
for dinner i took my dad to smith & wollenskys. my meal wasn't great - only because i ordered the poorly - but everything there was pretty fucking fantastic. i had to emphasize that with a curse word, i'm sorry, but that's how amazing it was. they were out of prime rib (which is what i originally wanted) and instead got filet mignon with this bernaise sauce ALL OVER IT.. and that was a little much for me.
but from their bread, to their salad, to my dad's 3lb lobster, to there mac n' cheese (BEST.EVER.), to their birthday dessert - everything was so good. i am drooling just thinking about it and want to go to vegas right now solely to have some mac n cheese. yikes.
after playing blackjack at the bellagio until late friday night, my dad and i headed to this locals casino that they found last time that my sister's friend took us too. he wanted to stay there, and i'm glad we didn't because although it was nice, but it was far from the strip and i like being where the action is :P my favorite was the penny slots that i played, and normally i HATE slot machines because they just eat my money like no other. but this one had two bonus reels where it'd multiplied your winnings. i was also very tired and not really feeling like thinking while playing blackjack, so i sat and pulled a lever.
it made really dramatic sounds and flashed lights and got me all excited. and then i realized i was getting excited for 250 credits. which sound like a lot, until you remember that i'm playing slot machines and that's $2.50. although i did score a few pretty big scores and got $84 once (that was my high). and that made me excited. although there was another machine i walked away from where the lady won $400 or so, and then another time where i only had one bonus reel in action, and had i had both i would have won $390 instead of just $39. boo. oh well. that was pretty much the favorite.
had sunday brunch at the mandalay bay which is pretty amazing. the waitress also came by with champagne and so i spent some more time drinking - i'm shocked my dad didn't comment and he's the one who ordered it. i think he kind of enjoyed it :P my dad paid for the brunch to "thank me" for the weekend. aww.. my dad is so cute. it was an entire weekend of eating, drinking and gambling. best weekend ever. :P although it was followed by the hellish 5ish hour drive back (most of which i slept though.. sorry daddy) and then came back and went to my dad's favorite chinese place here.
happy 60th birthday daddy!
i have this unhealthy love for las vegas. i know it's bad for me, but i want it. all the time. okay, maybe not all the time. but i do enjoy it. it allows me to exploit all my bad habits, but makes them seem like the norm - wasting money, drinking, eating lots - which is probably why it's called the sin city. there are tons of bad habits which i have picked up from my father, and he has a pretty unhealthy love (moreso than i) for vegas too. which is why i thought it was obvious that for his 60th birthday - that's where we were going. he tried to be a butthead and cancel it a few times because he was worried i wouldn't have any money with this new job of mine - but i'm stubborn like that and proceeded anyways. i guess that's what people do - say they don't want something for you.. that's the nice side of people. anyways.
this was the view from my bed. i booked a room at the jockey club (my new favorite hotel in vegas) that was a suite, so we had a kitchen and a living room, and there were two beds in the bedroom. i could see the bellagio fountains from my bed, i felt so baller. it was kind of crappy cuz they were doing so much construction around the area - but the room was great and the price was great, and i didn't have to share a bed. awesome.
for dinner i took my dad to smith & wollenskys. my meal wasn't great - only because i ordered the poorly - but everything there was pretty fucking fantastic. i had to emphasize that with a curse word, i'm sorry, but that's how amazing it was. they were out of prime rib (which is what i originally wanted) and instead got filet mignon with this bernaise sauce ALL OVER IT.. and that was a little much for me.
but from their bread, to their salad, to my dad's 3lb lobster, to there mac n' cheese (BEST.EVER.), to their birthday dessert - everything was so good. i am drooling just thinking about it and want to go to vegas right now solely to have some mac n cheese. yikes.
after playing blackjack at the bellagio until late friday night, my dad and i headed to this locals casino that they found last time that my sister's friend took us too. he wanted to stay there, and i'm glad we didn't because although it was nice, but it was far from the strip and i like being where the action is :P my favorite was the penny slots that i played, and normally i HATE slot machines because they just eat my money like no other. but this one had two bonus reels where it'd multiplied your winnings. i was also very tired and not really feeling like thinking while playing blackjack, so i sat and pulled a lever.
it made really dramatic sounds and flashed lights and got me all excited. and then i realized i was getting excited for 250 credits. which sound like a lot, until you remember that i'm playing slot machines and that's $2.50. although i did score a few pretty big scores and got $84 once (that was my high). and that made me excited. although there was another machine i walked away from where the lady won $400 or so, and then another time where i only had one bonus reel in action, and had i had both i would have won $390 instead of just $39. boo. oh well. that was pretty much the favorite.
had sunday brunch at the mandalay bay which is pretty amazing. the waitress also came by with champagne and so i spent some more time drinking - i'm shocked my dad didn't comment and he's the one who ordered it. i think he kind of enjoyed it :P my dad paid for the brunch to "thank me" for the weekend. aww.. my dad is so cute. it was an entire weekend of eating, drinking and gambling. best weekend ever. :P although it was followed by the hellish 5ish hour drive back (most of which i slept though.. sorry daddy) and then came back and went to my dad's favorite chinese place here.
happy 60th birthday daddy!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
when did being an "adult" get so expensive? not that i'm an adult at all, but i'm trying to "adultify" myself. well at least by look of my stuff. i like a clean chic modern style. i bought new nice bed sheets and a duvet cover. and i ordered prints to decorate my apartment so it's not just bare walls and my talking homer simpson clock. i probably spent about $150 or so buying the prints, and then i still have to buy the frames. man... wanting pretty things is expensive
you know also comes with "adult"hood? work. and that BLOWS. this is my 4th week on the job and everyday this week i've left at 1am. oh wait, today i left at 2am. like whoa. i'm not complaining, i'm just saying - when did my life become like this, and why, and is it always going to be this way? and when did all my friends start being workaholics too? here are some good "job" conversations
duckee: i'm in trouble.
Jean: ?
duckee: i'm in "i'm here too much" trouble.
duckee: and i can't leave this place like this
duckee: it looks like dd just fucking puked on my desk
duckee: AGAIN
Jean: hahahahah
Jean: yea.
Jean: i look like that sometimes.
duckee: i wanna shoot myself
Jean: ooh ooh
Jean: shoot me first
duckee: except i'm not the problem, so i wanna shoot other people
Jean: meeeeee.
duckee: hahahah
justjohn: you at work?
Jean: yes
justjohn: me too
justjohn: sucks
Jean: i was here until 1am yesterday.. and i'll probably be here for the next 2 days
Jean: i've turned into you.
justjohn: it sucks so bad doesn't it
duckee: so are you living there now?
duckee: did you bring you sleeping bag and your hello kitty pillow?
Jean: are you really still at work too?
luvr: I'm leaving in a sec
Jean: oh.. well that's no fun
luvr: Are you at work?
Jean Huang: yes.
luvr: I wish I were saving children, because I'd have saved a lot of them by now. Instead I am re-writing re-writes of scripts
oh.. and then there's my dad:
dad: are you still at work?
me: yes
dad: poor jean. you're stupid, i told you not to do this job. you get paid less, you don't get over time, you have no holidays or vacation or sick days, and you won't have a job in five months.
me: yea, i know
dad: although, if you lost some weight because of this job, then that would make it worth it
umm.. thanks dad.
:)
you know also comes with "adult"hood? work. and that BLOWS. this is my 4th week on the job and everyday this week i've left at 1am. oh wait, today i left at 2am. like whoa. i'm not complaining, i'm just saying - when did my life become like this, and why, and is it always going to be this way? and when did all my friends start being workaholics too? here are some good "job" conversations
duckee: i'm in trouble.
Jean: ?
duckee: i'm in "i'm here too much" trouble.
duckee: and i can't leave this place like this
duckee: it looks like dd just fucking puked on my desk
duckee: AGAIN
Jean: hahahahah
Jean: yea.
Jean: i look like that sometimes.
duckee: i wanna shoot myself
Jean: ooh ooh
Jean: shoot me first
duckee: except i'm not the problem, so i wanna shoot other people
Jean: meeeeee.
duckee: hahahah
justjohn: you at work?
Jean: yes
justjohn: me too
justjohn: sucks
Jean: i was here until 1am yesterday.. and i'll probably be here for the next 2 days
Jean: i've turned into you.
justjohn: it sucks so bad doesn't it
duckee: so are you living there now?
duckee: did you bring you sleeping bag and your hello kitty pillow?
Jean: are you really still at work too?
luvr: I'm leaving in a sec
Jean: oh.. well that's no fun
luvr: Are you at work?
Jean Huang: yes.
luvr: I wish I were saving children, because I'd have saved a lot of them by now. Instead I am re-writing re-writes of scripts
oh.. and then there's my dad:
dad: are you still at work?
me: yes
dad: poor jean. you're stupid, i told you not to do this job. you get paid less, you don't get over time, you have no holidays or vacation or sick days, and you won't have a job in five months.
me: yea, i know
dad: although, if you lost some weight because of this job, then that would make it worth it
umm.. thanks dad.
:)
Monday, July 07, 2008
it was fun while it lasted...
i canceled my gap card today.. i really only signed up for it because i think i purchased a ton of stuff and wanted the discount (it might have actually been a year ago, shopping on the 3rd street promenade with courtney on 4th of july.) i really don't use it that much, and have saved a little bit here and there, but i apparently forgot to pay a bill in june (what? weird?) and then got $50+ of late fees. i got $25 (on month late fee) waived, but still had that extra fee and it just seemed like too much hassle for a card i didn't even use that much. plus.. i really shouldn't be buying more clothes anyways. it's kind of lame for a few reasons, because i'm sure i totally could have prevented it - like.. getting the bills sent to my apt instead of my parents' house. or when my dad told me about it on saturday, i could have checked it today before 5, not gotten the second $25 late fee (yea.. the due date was today), and got the previous waived, because they can only do one. right. my dad also told me he took care of it and paid it - although i think by "took care of it" means he sent out a check - which doesn't help me with the late fee business... either way.. i should have less cards. less things. i should simplify my life... (too bad i spend $117 on sheets and a duvet cover today. oops.)
i can't quite bring myself to cut up my gap card. it's so pretty. i have a hard time letting go. which is applicable to so many things in my life.
.....
so i'm kind of having a problem with people lately. more than usual. i was really content to spending a lot of time by myself. but then the "i can't say no when people ask me" side of me conflicts with that. anyways. a note to you. i am having issues with people being super judgmental. and/or hypocritical. or putting me down (or being hypocritical) in order to make themselves look better. number three may be tied to number one, but they could also be different. sure.. you're thinking to yourself, why would people do these things? these seem like awful traits. but sure enough, people do this. i can't say that i don't do these things, i try not to, and i think i do an okay job at it. but i've been noticing this kind of stuff lately EVERYWHERE. it's an.noy.ing. or maybe people just lie to themselves, so they think what they're saying is the truth. but as of late, i've been a little less patient with it. and it sucks, because it happens at work too. anyways.. there were a few instances where stuff happened, and i was just like "what? why? why do you say things like that?" and it's kind of becoming a little bit of a BIG problem. i honestly think that if you don't have anything to prove, you really don't have to go out of your way to try that hard to tell people how awesome you are. the unfortunate down side of it is that then other people will steam roll right over you. bleh.
.....
speaking of steamrolling - i've also been observing people when they get into "relationships." i say that with quotes because it doesn't even have to be official girlfriend/boyfriend type status. but just in relationship with someone else that ends up changing who you are, what you do, and how you act. it S.U.C.K.S. and to a certain degree, i kind of understand it - if it doesn't really affect you, but then to another degree, it makes me ill. i could be all bitter from topic written about above, but people like that - make me NEVER want to be in a relationship - unless i find that "one" - but that's really slim to none.. so... the future looks pretty bleek, people. shit, when did i become such a pessimist? i know i have to try harder, and compromise, and i feel like i have to put more effort when trying to find that "better half".. but i don't think i have it in me to do it. weird.
.....
nerdiness: ben's got me slightly excited because my computer is having a little woe. one of my slots that measures my ram is busted and doesn't read (which sucks because then i spent $90 on ram i don't really need and could have just spent $45) but anyways. he said that apple might just end up giving me a new computer because the computer's sold old, it might just be simpler to give me something new than fix this. but i don't want to get my hopes up, cuz i just realized my sister's harddrive crashed a few months ago, and they just fixed that up. but it also might be differing parts - but i can't believe they'd just hand me a new computer?! yikes.
another nerdy thing that's gotten me all excited...
look! in the calculator function, you flip it to the side and becomes a scientific calculator. OOH!! this is the function that most excited me when flipping through the new things that the iphone comes with. i know.. that makes me uber nerdy. but everything else is kind of just "better" technology. this is "special." i'm still waffling a little bit on the iphone only because i don't want to switch from verizon and their new plans are ex.pen.sive. i'm not sure if i want to pay $90 for my cell phone bill - even if it means i'll always have a map with me at all times. hmm.. i'm gonna have to think.
.....
i should probably head to bed soon.. i just wanted to why, cry, blog for a little bit. but this is bad. maybe i'd be less grump if i got more sleep.
i canceled my gap card today.. i really only signed up for it because i think i purchased a ton of stuff and wanted the discount (it might have actually been a year ago, shopping on the 3rd street promenade with courtney on 4th of july.) i really don't use it that much, and have saved a little bit here and there, but i apparently forgot to pay a bill in june (what? weird?) and then got $50+ of late fees. i got $25 (on month late fee) waived, but still had that extra fee and it just seemed like too much hassle for a card i didn't even use that much. plus.. i really shouldn't be buying more clothes anyways. it's kind of lame for a few reasons, because i'm sure i totally could have prevented it - like.. getting the bills sent to my apt instead of my parents' house. or when my dad told me about it on saturday, i could have checked it today before 5, not gotten the second $25 late fee (yea.. the due date was today), and got the previous waived, because they can only do one. right. my dad also told me he took care of it and paid it - although i think by "took care of it" means he sent out a check - which doesn't help me with the late fee business... either way.. i should have less cards. less things. i should simplify my life... (too bad i spend $117 on sheets and a duvet cover today. oops.)
i can't quite bring myself to cut up my gap card. it's so pretty. i have a hard time letting go. which is applicable to so many things in my life.
.....
so i'm kind of having a problem with people lately. more than usual. i was really content to spending a lot of time by myself. but then the "i can't say no when people ask me" side of me conflicts with that. anyways. a note to you. i am having issues with people being super judgmental. and/or hypocritical. or putting me down (or being hypocritical) in order to make themselves look better. number three may be tied to number one, but they could also be different. sure.. you're thinking to yourself, why would people do these things? these seem like awful traits. but sure enough, people do this. i can't say that i don't do these things, i try not to, and i think i do an okay job at it. but i've been noticing this kind of stuff lately EVERYWHERE. it's an.noy.ing. or maybe people just lie to themselves, so they think what they're saying is the truth. but as of late, i've been a little less patient with it. and it sucks, because it happens at work too. anyways.. there were a few instances where stuff happened, and i was just like "what? why? why do you say things like that?" and it's kind of becoming a little bit of a BIG problem. i honestly think that if you don't have anything to prove, you really don't have to go out of your way to try that hard to tell people how awesome you are. the unfortunate down side of it is that then other people will steam roll right over you. bleh.
.....
speaking of steamrolling - i've also been observing people when they get into "relationships." i say that with quotes because it doesn't even have to be official girlfriend/boyfriend type status. but just in relationship with someone else that ends up changing who you are, what you do, and how you act. it S.U.C.K.S. and to a certain degree, i kind of understand it - if it doesn't really affect you, but then to another degree, it makes me ill. i could be all bitter from topic written about above, but people like that - make me NEVER want to be in a relationship - unless i find that "one" - but that's really slim to none.. so... the future looks pretty bleek, people. shit, when did i become such a pessimist? i know i have to try harder, and compromise, and i feel like i have to put more effort when trying to find that "better half".. but i don't think i have it in me to do it. weird.
.....
nerdiness: ben's got me slightly excited because my computer is having a little woe. one of my slots that measures my ram is busted and doesn't read (which sucks because then i spent $90 on ram i don't really need and could have just spent $45) but anyways. he said that apple might just end up giving me a new computer because the computer's sold old, it might just be simpler to give me something new than fix this. but i don't want to get my hopes up, cuz i just realized my sister's harddrive crashed a few months ago, and they just fixed that up. but it also might be differing parts - but i can't believe they'd just hand me a new computer?! yikes.
another nerdy thing that's gotten me all excited...
look! in the calculator function, you flip it to the side and becomes a scientific calculator. OOH!! this is the function that most excited me when flipping through the new things that the iphone comes with. i know.. that makes me uber nerdy. but everything else is kind of just "better" technology. this is "special." i'm still waffling a little bit on the iphone only because i don't want to switch from verizon and their new plans are ex.pen.sive. i'm not sure if i want to pay $90 for my cell phone bill - even if it means i'll always have a map with me at all times. hmm.. i'm gonna have to think.
.....
i should probably head to bed soon.. i just wanted to why, cry, blog for a little bit. but this is bad. maybe i'd be less grump if i got more sleep.
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