I absolutely do not want to do my paper. Which is never really a surprise to anyone.. umm. except that it's due in 6 hours or so and I have no clue what I'm going to write about. umm.. yeah. So I decided to procrastinate some more and blog. haah.. maybe I work better under pressure. Anyways.. So on Saturday I work at a 9 hour Swim Invitational using the new equipment. Which was fun and all and makes my job easier, but the day of the swim meet, during the meet is not a good time to see if the equipment works. Remember that. Anyways.. went home and was supposed to write my paper, and nope.. I didn't, talked to people online, cleaned my room, watched some tv, burned a cd, re-organized my room, washed my clothes... everything but the paper. :P

This morning I woke up to go to CKI South. I was a little late, but not later than Sean, who we had to wake up, and then wait for, only to have him decide that he wanted to drive himself to LA! oh my gosh.. anyways.. there's going to be some heavy fining involved on Monday. Sakura and I ran around like idiots shoving fliers for Maquerade Ball in everyone's faces. and our entire team ran around Columbia Park ran around cheering for ourselves like idiots.. hah.. oh yeah.. and making fun of Hailes because we put him on the SDSU team and kept telling him to "not try as hard" it was a good time. I wish more of our general members went so that they could have seen this side of Circle K... but you know what? UCSD WON FIRST PLACE!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! We're all so competitive, we were just like.. "we wanna win" But we did, so that's good! When we didn't get second or third, Sakura and I started thinking we got first and not really sure, and our hearts were beating so fast, and then we laughed at ourselves for being such losers. But we won, and we screamed and cheered for ourselves (again). We're such nerds. Anyways.. then we ransacked our houses and my neighbors houses for donations to give to the victims of 9:11. And I met some of my neighbors, who can be quite scary. Ask me about one of the "anti-terrorism" shirts my neighbor was wearing. Yikes. Then some people went to the Loft to eat, and then I went home... chillaxed with my parents a little bit, and then slept all afternoon. I woke up at midnight and tried to read for my paper, and then got the "you have too many extra-curricular activities and don't spend enough time on school" comments from my mom. Finally at 3am I decided I wasn't getting anything done so I drove back to school with my worrisome mother loading me up with lots of "make sure you get home safe" tools. :) So here I am 3 hours later... no further than I was.. but I do have a 6 pack of Mountain Dew... hmm.. wish me luck.

so I'm kinda excited.. I just found out it was Daylight Savings.. so we get to "fall back" and I get another precious hour of sleep before I drive to Torrance for CKI South. yeah.. instead of going straight to bed rejoicing my 1 hour of sleep. I waste more of my time since I apparently have more of it. I'm a moron. That's all I wanted to say..

the last couple of days have been interesting days to say the least. Wednesday.. I had the absolute worst night of my life. I woke up completely tired because I had like a half an hour of sleep. Went through the day, slept through my classes (haha), and then ran errands for Circle K. I had to fight horrendous trafiic, and then went to Party City. On the way home, Sakura and I thought we'd have enough time so that we could get home in time to watch Felicity. That is.. if I HADN'T GOTTEN ON THE FREEWAY GOING THE WRONG WAY. Yeah.. I went North instead of South.. dumb me. And I was running out of gas. (greeeaaat) So I get gas, and then get on the right freeway and think everything's over. But no... I go over to pick something up, and the night kinda goes like this: I have a talk that I don't want to have with someone, that includes tears and "stern" language and no result whatsoever, then being double parked behind so I couldn't leave and go home, which is all I wanted to do at that point, getting in a fight with a friend's boyfriend, but finally I did get to go home. yay! but I got home way late, and still had mucha tarea to do.. so I tried to do it as much as I could until I felt like I was going to pass out, and then did. Unfortunately that only left me with a couple hours of sleep. Woke up feeling like shit the next day.... and while walking to class my insides and outsides all hurt at the same time. I almost started crying.. (poor poor pitiful me)... Anyways.. got through that day.

Today.. I was restricted to going to my morning class by Vivian who said I need sleep for my own health and well being, and so I slept until my afternoon engagements and classes. Then tonight I went to two friends' 21st birthday party! It was a really good time, and I got to hang out with some cool people. It was a lot of fun, except for worrying about friends who were way too drunk and getting puked on in the car ride home (yuck!)... but I just hope all of my friends are going to be okay... I know they will. Anyways.. I think it's amazing how I still have so much clarity when I'm "tipsy" I have mad skills. haha.. anyways.. I have to work tomorrow morning... I hope I'll be okay. :)

Heehe.. I think it's funny how in my last blog I talk about not having an internet connection.. AND NOW I HAVE ONE! Yeah! I am now a proud user of Dial-Up! Whoo hoo! Me and Nicole rock. hha.. Anyways. Thanks to Jeff Lan.. who spent multiple hours to try and fix the two modems I already had (with no drivers..:P) but ended with us just buying a new one from Fry's (why my cashier was the nerdiest boy ever who looked/talked/acted like he was born in Fry's) *gosh. I'm such a jerk.

Anyways.. Let's see.. since the 16th... umm.. yeah I had the week from Heck last week. I had a midterm on Monday, that of course I didn't do the reading until Sunday night because I'm a procrastinator extraordinary. And then on Tuesday, when I think I'm safe, I find out I have a midterm on Thursday (although I really should have known well before that.. oh well), so I try to study for that, but yet it doesn't start until Wednesday either... or more like Thursday morning.. (I took a nap and it lasted longer than expected... just my luck) and so I did that, and I think it went pretty well though. It was a heck of a lot more useful that stupid Mexican Television Trivia. BLAAAHHHHH! so yeah.. Friday I went to Horton Plaza with Vivian, Jason and Sakura. Sakura and I tried to get donations for Masquerade Ball.. and we ate Mongolian Noodles at the mall.. mmm.... so what I was craving. And then proceeded to shop for Jason's new wardrobe in an attempt to make him "cooler." Yes.. that's really what we were doing.. honest! And I'm damn good at it too, I didn't work at the GAP for nothing.. I'm good with fashion dammit. Anyways.. then went to Carli's to bake brownies and got harassed by Hailes. (ew) and went home extremely exhausted, on to wake up the next morning to work the CCAA Cross Country Finals. I admired these fools who can run 3-5 miles, uphill, downhill in the woods in tiny little shorts in less than 30 minutes. It's amazing.. something I wouldn't be able to do if my life depended on it! Crazy. Anyways.. talked to Angelee.. dude.. I love that girl, and I was supposed to go to the CAL vs. UCLA game with her, but I left to late. Oh well it was a whole case of whoop-ass brought on by UCLA anyways. Eh.. it would have been my first football game. But I guess that'll just have to wait. But honestly.. I think that all these people who have fun football teams at their school take it for granted because speaking from someone who didn't have football in high school OR college, it really kinda sucks. I always wanted to be part o fthat Varsity Blues party life.. it'd be fun.. anyways. So yeah.. drove home (and I never realized how tiring that was) and chillaxed with the parents at home. And of course inevitably getting into a fight with my mother before I left on Sunday... I feel bad, but it's just so hard to stop it. We're both so stubborn and opinionated and we both think we're being misunderstood. Yikes.. not a good combination.

Drove home... started my paper at midnight (due at 9am.) I suck dude.. and then slept through all my classes the rest of the day. Not on purpose though! I fully intended on going to chem and social force, but I slept through my alarm! Yikes.. woke up right in time for Circle K. The funniest thing happened at the meeting. The Pres and the VP had to dig in pudding for the gavel back. True, Riverside and Berkeley have done this before, but I've never seen it live. It's honestly the funniest thing ever. Sakura, Carli, Kieu and I were just standing there laughing trying not to fall over. I couldn't breathe and I started crying because I was laughing so hard. hehe.. it was great. Then went to Horton to follow up on the donations.

Today I just went to my one class, then wasted my time the rest of the day. Horrible eh? But I did make pies!! I was proud of myself.. it's good too! Chocolatte Mousse. Wanna pie? I'll make you one! Went grocery shopping with Crack Whore and wasted more time before Jeff came over to fix my ~pooter. I'm so excited.. except I hope I don't spend allll of my time online. That's bad news. I can't get addicted again.. I'm barely coming off the withdrawal. I'm on the 12th step!! Anyways.. I spent a ridiculous amount of time online tonight.. I think just to feed my addiction once to get it out of my system and hopefully it won't be too bad next time. But you know what.. tonight was interesting, I got to talk to a lot of people I haven't talked to in awhile. But also...

I think I learned a lot tonight, and I really should start putting things into perspective. I talked to some really great people who had a lot of really intelligent things to say.. it's one of those conversations that makes you go hmm.. Granted it took a 3 hour phone conversation starting at 2am (there go my 3000 minutes) but it helped a lot. Those conversations are the best. But I talked to our International Trustee.. who also happens to be the *gasp* INTERNATIONAL VICE PRESIDENT!! yes yes.. me, one of the little people had a conversation with the him. haha.. okay I'll stop now. But yeah.. he seems like a really nice guy with good things to say. I'm really glad I had a chance to talk to him and have a little bit better outlook on this year. The coolest thing though.. is that his birthday is EXACTLY one week after mine. Yeah.. I'm a nerd.. I get excited when people's birthday's are around mine.. whatever.. suck it. But yeah.. so we're born 51 weeks apart. Nice huh? And Britney Spears is born 13 days after me and her middle name is Jean.. *it's a sign! Anyways.. I talked to another friend from home for THREE HOURS about nothing and everything all at once. We talked about lot about expectations, fears, rejection, personalities, and big plethora of other things. And we both passed on the same message to each other, it that it doesn't matter what other people think as long as you yourself are content. Which is funny because we both told each other this, but have problems with it ourselves. Ironic eh? But it was a great conversation because we really understand each other, and can help each other out. But while I was talking to her and I was so angry about random stuff, that in the whole scheme of life.. isn't really that important, and doesn't matter in the long run. And I start to think why should I bother to get so upset about it. Or rather.. why do I? And then as I'm bawling and trying to speak intelligible words, I also think to myself... why am I'm crying over this in the first place.. is it all really worth it.. and I guess that's what I have to figure out. whoa .. sorry to get all philosophical on you, but I think I just needed an outlet. and here it was, so sorry if you feel into the trap.... next time I'll try to have a parental advisory or something.

Anyways.. On Monday, I also found out that MY SISTER MET JC and Chris FROM *NSYNC!!!!!! Oh my gosh.. I'm sooo jealous. She also bought me a t-shirt from the concert.. which is awesome of her. I have a great sister. :) I love her. And she shot video footage of them and Backstreet Boys perfoming... yeeeaaahhh! (she also saw the BSB praticing in their dressing room so she saw them sing acapella!) I also got that Nike bag I wanted for forever and a day. So I'm a happy camper, shoot I'm estatic. There was this really cute puffy jacket that I wanted but my mom got kinda mad. Haha.. that's what happens when you set me loose in a bargain store. BUT MY SISTER MET JC, AND TALKED TO HIM AND SHOOK HIS HAND AND THEN TOOK A PICTURE WITH HIM... OOOOOOOOHHHH MYYYY. And I'm such a dork.. I asked her if she had washed her hands yet after she shook his hand. And of course she said yes.. but am I really that psycho? I guess I am because I was screaming in my kitchen and jumping up and down. It was great. I can't wait until the pictures gets developed. First Ann meets him and take a photo, and then my sis. *next.. it's my turn! and rumor has it that he broke up with his girlfriend!! heheheheheheheh.. * Or maybe I can just take one with *Pete Holiday*.. that would be the equivalent. hahaha.

*are you amazed how i can shift from depressive-deep-thought blog to random-ditzy-teeny-bopper blog so easily? hah.. yes yes i'm multi-faceted.

Gosh.. I really haven't blogged in a long time. The effects of not having an internet connection. Anyways.. I'm always usually too tired to blog, as I kinda am right now... but after reading about everyone else exciting life, I kinda felt left out. Even Beth is blogging! *gasp*

Anyhoo.. my life hasn't been all too exciting. Mostly my l ife just consists of school and Circle K. No homework though, because we all know that I don't read. I'm illiterate. Anyways.. Tricia and I took Mania out for her birthday a weekend ago. It was a good time. We went to CPK. We have a good time when we're together. I love my friends in San Diego. Although it's kind of sad because we're so spread out now. But it was fun because all of the girls went out again for Mania's birthday again on Thursday. haha.. we like to celebrate a lot. Anyways... other than that I've just been trying to cope with school and doing my Circle K thing. One thing that makes me extreeemely excited is the fact that Amanda and Jill and Becca are so in love with Circle K. I love it that they're so excited, it makes me happy. :) Even though Amanda and Richard both fined me a dollar each for being from Torrance. What jerks. :P Anyways.. I also love it that Sakura is in the club, because we think alike on a lot of the same things, and we are always there for each other. It's great. But as I called a friend today and fell apart because I felt like I'm not doing my job, I think a lot of people are kind of feeling that way. Except for maybe a few. But honestly.. sometimes I feel like I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing, and partly it's because I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing! And I can't get people involved, and they don't care... but as my friend says.. it's not really my job to get people to care. I tell them about it, and if they don't want to do anything about it.. I can't force them. But still... it leaves me with that emptiness.

But also.. in terms of general life.. I feel icky because in that area I feel so lost too. Everyone seems to have their life figured out, and they know what they want to do. But I honestly have no clue. I think I'm going to grow up to be an old maid who's never been on a date and who lives with her parents for eternity. That's what it seems like right now. I told Sergi that I admired him and that I thought he was great because he totally seemed to have his life in perspective, and I think he told me that he really didn't. So I guess I wonder how many other people seem all put together but really aren't?

And then there's the question of my social life.. do I really even have one? On Saturday night I wanted to go to the soccer party, but the best directions I could get were that it was "off Governor." Granted I'm sure if I drove down the street I could probably find it, but hey... Vivian and I went to Olive Garden instead. We had a blast... it was great. But I dunno.. I think I'm in that mood where I'm throwing myself a pity party again. I just am in the middle of so many things, that I think that I'm just so utterly confused... *sigh.

Anyways.. on a lighter note to end this depressing blog (sorry guys).. I think I failed my midterm today. Haha.. you would think I would be heartbroken, but I think I just find it amusing about how little I know about Mexican television. hahah.. honestly.. even if I did learn this stuff.. how is it really going to help me in the end? Really Professor Hallin. I don't care about the commercialization of the Mexican media. booooooooooooooooooooo. But one more thing. Do you know where my sister is right now? She's in Washington DC working on the ABC special that's airing the benefit concert from RFK stadium that has *NSYNC and the BACKSTREET BOYS.. and some other people like Aerosmith, Michael Jackson.. ehh.. not important. BUT NSYNC! BSB! all I say is that I hope I get some pictures, or autographed stuff.. or some cool stuff. That would be so rad. :) I love my sister and her wicked job. :)

I'll end with the words of Beth "Joe Bussiere's so cute!" and Nicole "He's so dreamy!" (hahahahhahah.. those kids are crazy)

I honestly never thought I could be so tired in my life. Well I guess I could be... like during convention or something where we don't sleep for days.. but I'm getting some amounts of sleep, but I just wake up so stinking early to sit through classes. yuck. Anyways.. so my weekend was pretty blah. So anyways.. against my better judgement and my friends' advice, I decided to rush.. yes.. again. I dunno.. I thought maybe it would be different this year. And plus Vivian was doing it, and so it was just going to be all fun and games. But ironically enough, the same exact thing happened as last year. Weirdness... That's the second time that the same situation has happened to me two times in two years. I swear.. it's a sign. Like.. someone saying we'll put you through exactly what you went through last year so that you understand, or that you see that it's not supposed to happen. But yeah.. I got dropped after spirit night, but you know what it's okay. I really don't mind it that much. I mean.. in some ways I guess I do.. like I think it would be fun to get all the presents and go to all the dances and get all dressed up and look cute. But.. I also know that if I did that I would be so busy and even more so tired than I already am, and way too stressed out, so in the end, that's the way it's supposed to be right? And I really like what Mark said about me.. hah.. he tells Vivian that I already live the sorority girl life anyways, so I don't really need to pay to be in one. hahah. *sorry if I offended anyone.

But after rush on Saturday night Vivian and I went to Sebastian's birthday party. It was a good time and I saw a lot of people I hadn't seen in awhile, Katie Riggs, Reesa, Candise, Matt, etc... and randomly Clint and Jeff Dodge were there.. not two people I would expect to see there, but it was pleasant, and quite amusing. :) It was great. Vivian and I went home because we were way too tired, and then went to sleep. The next morning I got dropped, and then ran errands.. booo... I went to see Joe again, and chat with him a bit, and then got Stup's water bottles for my way awesome plan, and then chillaxed at Vivian's for a bit before going to the library to read for COCU. *gasp.. YES I went to the library, and YES to read for a class, and NO it wasn't because I had a test... amazing huh? Anyways.. that was good.. I've just been having a normal week, going to class, going to Circle K, and doin' my thang. yes.. I know.. I'm exciting..

plus...Stup and I are great.. we are.. true dat. yeah man.

It's officially my first week of school that I'm done with. It's a good time but I am sooooo tired. Let me tell you, I absolutely HATE 8am classes. Yes yes yes I know that whole "oh you get done earlier" shpiel... but guess what! You still have to wake up early! And then if you just go back to bed after you get back home, you waste the whole day anyways! Blah.. whatever I'm just a lazy nerd.

Anyways.. hmm.. Friday was a good day.. I went to the Kiwanis Luncheon, and then the Div. Banquet. all in good fun. And theeeen that night I went to a party of Becca's friends and it was one of the more humiliating nights thus far. All I can say though is that I'm probably going to die and old maid because boys and I just really don't mix. Anyways... I made a big fool of myself on Friday night and then proceeded to take care of my drunken "crack-whore" who I love dearly, and spent the night. Only to wake up the next day, go to a Circle K meeting, and then go home and sleep for 6 hours. It was a good time. Only that Saturday night was uneventful because everyone had gone out while I was blissfully sleeping. Eh.. whatevers.. I chilled and chatted with friends, no big deal. Watched some movies. The next day my parents came and BROUGHT ME MY CAR! YAY!! It's so great and so exciting! I looooooove having a car. Although I go out far less than I did when I didn't have a car.. it's weird... things just work out like that eh?

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday... class class class. STUB-Me for giving myself 8am classes five days a week. Hopefully I'll get into a routine of things though. On Sunday night I did get to go chill with Joe, who by the way is my very favorite personal hero. He's just great.. that's all. :) I'm glad he's back in SD. But yeah... I seem to be surviving okay without a regular phone or an internet connection, but I think I'm still going through withdrawal. It hurts. Monday night was pretty exciting though.. lots of new of people showed up at Circle K, which makes me really excited, especially since we really didn't advertise all that much. We were all super impressed. :) But it was a really good group, I'm excited about this year. And then I had a traumatizing conversation, but yeah.. whatever.. I'm a dope. Then proceeded to fight with my parents and my sister (*sigh.. yet again) which ended up in my yelling and crying and all of that not so fun stuff at 2am (which my roommate tells me I woke her up.. sorry Michelle!) But tricked Vivian into driving to LA and back (i'm possesed) and then later to Info Night... *sigh.. I'm sooo lame.

Anyways.. school school school.. that's basically what's been going on all week. Yuck. *sigh.. I miss summer.. but I have to go.. I have to go catch Vivian before she leaves me! have fun kids!

Today was the first day of school. It was a good time, but also very very loooong. But you know.. that feeling of the first day of school in elementary school, or middle school, or even high school, is so different than the first day of school at college. It just seems different somehow. Less fun, less exciting. I don't know. I think I'm just feeling old because I don't live on campus anymore, and I can't see my friends, and when I walk around I hardly know anyone because all of the people I do know all are scattered here and there. *sigh.

Anyways.. I woke up frightfully early (7:10am) after satying up painfully late to plan out my life/schedules if I were to add chem or biochem as a major and go pre-med. Scary thought eh? But I went to class at 8am.. *sigh*, and debated about whether or not to sit around and see if I was going to get into photography, but I figured I'd just wait until later. Then was going to go to my friend's chinese class with her, until I found out that was the same teacher that I had that I never went to class and eventually just dropped out of. Yeah.. didn't think I could sit through her class. ummm... no. So I passed out camptoons for Circle K on campus. I always hated those people who stood in your way on the way to Price Center and shoved things in your hand that you didn't want or need. And now... I've become one of those people. And I'm sure a whole bunch of people hate me. But then I always felt bad for those people because they would stand there just trying to do a job, and no one cared and just said "no thanks" and passed them on by. Yeah, that happened to me all day, I hate rejection. One good thing though is that I saw a lot of people today. More than I would normally see just sitting at home, especialy now that we all live off campus. Yuck.. growing up sucks. I do wish that I still lived on campus. Or that I was freshman again. I so live a life full of "what if's" it's horrible. yes yes yes I'm a reject.. I know.

Anyways.. I got home, tried to look at the classes I wanted to add to see if they were full (and yeah.. they were... junk!) scarfed down some lunch, and went back to campus with Michelle. yay! Tried to crash a Chem class, that was full of freshman. Crazy.. I felt oh so old. I can't believe those second and third and fourth years taking DOC.. it must be horrendous. Then tried to go to a math discussion that didn't start until next week, (nice) and then went to two Communication classes and saw some familiar faces, and had some time to kill before I was schedule to *appear* (haha) at the La Jolla Kiwanis Banquet. yeah right. So I wandered aimlessly around, and ran in to Eric Lawrence, one of the nicest guys ever, and just chilled and chatted with him for awhile. Then changed my clothes in the Peterson Hall bathroom (yes.. the pains of not living on campus, and having no car) and got picked up by Helen to go to the banquet. it was okay. It wasn't too painfully long, and I got out in time to catch Vivian before she left for the Delta Sig Party... "Black Thursday".. oooh.. (not really). :P

After rushing to get ready, we parked in a street, and started walking towards the party. At a crosswalk we saw a car run the red light as another car was turing left and watched this poor Jetta get slammed into by a white Alitma (sad.. my car). There was smoke, and air bags, and broken glass and it was just not good all around. We ran across the street hoping to not get killed by opposing traffic after taking a couple seconds too long staring at what just happened. STUBY. major STUBY. actually. STUBthem... dude. Anyways.. we got to the club and saw the MASSIVE line to get in, and tried to squeeze in. (yes.. it's one of our talents). too bad so many other people are talented at that. With much pushing and shoving and lots of yelling of back up, the club closed the doors, and after trying to get people to back up, right when it started looking hopeful that the doors would open back up, the popo showed up and told everyone outside to go home. :P So Vivian and I went to World Famous and ate some okay food while she flirted with the guys next to us, and they flirted back with her and felt up on her shoulders.. haha. And we went back to the party to see if it was back open, and the popo ruined all the fun again and made everyone go home. Somehow.. I feel jipped. but it's okay. there's a whole year of parties to go to. Four this weekend. yeeeaaaaaaaaaahhhh.. whatever.

So Vivian dropped me off, and I'm just sitting here blogging and chatting and being in a funk? What's with me being in funks? I don't know.. oh well.. we'll see what tomorrow brings.

Yes yes yes... I'm still alive, that is.. if anyone cares. Honestly I don't think people read my blogger, or that I'm special. I think it's just a nice place to vent, and if people want to read about my life, then so be it... although it does have that sort of scary stalker quality to it. Anyways.. I've been in a weird sort of blog lazyness funk lately. I honestly don't know what's gotten in to me. But after reading about some people's interesting lives I figured it was time to make a comeback.

*Oh wait.. I know what started this funk.. I was trying to blog last Tuesday about all the madness and my computer just kept freezing, or I pressed the wrong button, and after writing huge long blogs or emails, and they get lost, you just don't feel like trying again ya know? okay.. so here goes*

This past week has been kind of interesting in the way that it doesn't happen everyday. Not interesting good, but just interesting different. Tuesday, as I'm sure EVERYONE knows, was thee day. I remember my mom having the TV on, and I was mad that she had it on while I was trying to sleep, but after I finally woke up and realized what was on TV, I sat along with the rest of the world and stared in disbelief. Along the way I chatted with my grandma about what was going on as she could understand the pictures on the screen but not the words, and I called my sister and told her what was going on. And the first words out of her mouth were.. "Are you joking?" Because honestly, it was just that kind of thing that was too horrible to be true. We talked about how strange and surreal it all was because honestly you never think something like that was going to happen. It just like the plane crash killing Aaliyah, you never think something like that is going to happen, because bad things shouldn't happen to good people right? But all these events have been so weird. We were all in New York last month having the greatest time of our lives, and I flew in on a plane on Sunday, my grandparents flew in on a plane on Monday night, only half a day before it all went down. Who's to say that it couldn't have happened then? And that's the scariest thing. When you think you're in control, and you have everything down, something like this makes you realize that there are a kajillion other things going on it this world that you couldn't even begin to comprehend. Sadness.

But all of this made me think. As I tend to do occasionally. I get this same feeling sometimes when I'm watching TV, or when I'm in the hospital, and I think.. I like communications and I chose it because it interests me, and it's relatively easy (although it does take a lot of hard work) but in the whole perspective of life, when something like Tuesday happens where am I going to be, and how can I be of any help. And then I got to thinking, it would be really great if I could possess the skills to be a doctor. Like if something were to happen, I wouldn't just be sitting around helpless with the masses of other drones. But I could step forward and say.. hey.. I'm a doctor, do you want me to help? Ya know? But that also would require lots more schooling, and tons of classes that I'd probably fail, so.. we'll have to see. But it's nice to know that my dad would be fine with it. hahah.. Although he says he's told me so because he always told me I should be a pediatrician. He just doesn't want me to be an actress or a communications major or fat haha.. *translation* he doesn't want me to mooch off him the rest of his life.

But that was Tuesday... I also went to the dentist that day, and scheduled an appointment to pull out my wisdom teeth in December... scary! And then came home, watched more TV, and finally when I got sick of it, I made Beth come out with me. She came over, we chatted, looked at pictures, and moaned in our usual fashion. And then we ran to Costco to drop off my film before they close, and then went to In 'N' Out (*yumm...) Then Nicole called me on my cell just to chat, and didn't know that I was with Beth, and we talked and I relayed the conversation to Beth and we were all laughing super hard (almost as hard as that time in House, but not as much) while the police men in the next table looked at us funny thinking "how can these dumb girls be so cheery at a time like this" Oh well.. I'm used to people looking at me weird.. haha. uh oh.. is that a good thing? But Nicole and I talked for 50 minutes! (my mom is going to KILL me when she sees my cell phone bill this month!) but it was all worth it.

The next day I was supposed to hang out, but I think I just ended up sitting at home with nothing to do. Oh well.. it was nice to just chill. I went into the garage and looked through all my stuff and re-packed it to get ready for school. It was a good time. Thursday, I just chilled and packed as well. Packing is no fun, no fun. :P On Friday I was packing hard core because I wanted to go out that night. So I got a lot of my stuff packed up. Then Beth and Ryan came over to my house. Where I made them wait a little.. oops. We were also waiting for Nicole, who later called and asked where everyone was because she was at Beth's house. hahaha... so we waited for her, and then went to the Galleria (yay!) to eat. Mmmm.. Chick-fil-A and Mongolian BBQ. yummmmmm... but then after much indeciveness.. we decided to go see Fast and the Furious (didn't happen), I wanted to go the beach (didn't happen), we were going to go play cranium (didn't happen), so I think we sort of decided on going to Starbucks, but Ryan just drove until we ended up down by Cheesecake Factory and we went in to go hook up with Carrie and Manny. We had much indeciveness there as well (yes.. we're all lost souls).. talked in the foyer of the restaurant, talked in the parking lot, and then decided to go to get Boba. The weirdest thing though, I ran into Ernesto (one of my GAP managers) there who I just saw closing the GAP... interesting. We just chilled, talked, looked at pictures, and finally felt we should leave because the place was closed. Ryan, Beth and Nicole drove me back home, and then they left as well. Sadness, and I proceed to pack and also be ridiculed by my mother (as always) and stayed up alll night packing. sad. Finally everyone in the house woke up, I dealt with phone junk.. (I hate the phone company), and showered so we could go to Alhambra. We went to this restaurant which was a mix of all flairs of foods, but it was really gross and made my tummy hurt.. :( but we then went to the used car dealership and PICKED UP MY CAR! YAY!! My mom had already ordered me a 95 White Altima.. which I of course moaned and complained about. But it is a car, and I'm pretty gosh darn happy to have one that I can actually drive on the freeway. :) Although I do love my little red car. *sigh. Anyways.. after a long ordeal I finally got to drive home in my new car, blasting my awesome cd player. But it was a looong drive home from Alhambra taking all local streets because my mom was driving the third car (they bought for the guy who's living in our house (long story)). And my mom doesn't drive on the freeway. Eh.. oh well. That night went to this Japanese restaurant in Torrance with my mom, dad, Eric, my grandparents, Joan and Jeff-gu, I was pretty good. My grandparents were really happy though and seemed to have a good time and got up to toast to us. My grandparents are so great and so cute. :).. went home, and I crashed... but I did get to watch South Park before I fell asleep.

The next morning I got ready to go to school, picked up my pictures from Costco, ate my final meal at home..:( And said goodbye to my grandparents (although I'm sure I'll see them again before I leave) and was sad because I couldn't take my new car (*ooh.. I just thought I don't have a name for it. I should name it) because of minor details that are wrong with it. But hey.. you know mothers.. they always want their kids to be safe, even if their kids couldn't care less. So I loaded up the minivan, and my daddy drove me down to SD, where we then went out to eat at Rubio's and my daddy bought me some sheets (even though I didn't need them), and then grocery shopping, and then pack while he watched me unpack. Aw.. I love my dad.. *I'm such a daddy's girl! :P Then he left because he had to drive home and go to work the next day. Vivian came over.. she helped me unpack a little, and then we went over to her place where I spent the night. She's got a great apartment. :) Although it's a lot on the cold side. We ended up staying up until 6am talking! Crazyness... we hadn't seen each other in so long. We talked about life and boys, and how they both suck hard core. haha.. why so much misery eh? *crushes suck. *boys suck. *I'm going to die an old maid.. I'm convinced. We went to sleep finally and woke up around 1, got out of bed around 3 and went to the doctor to pick up Vivian's drugs. Then we went to Rubio's, and scarfed down my food before I went to the SDSU meeting with John, and then Kirby took me home. haha.. I love Kirby.. we're the most non-asian asians we know. hahah. jk. Anyways.. then Vivian came over, we cooked dinner, and chilled and watched Road Rules. It was a good time. I proceeded to try and unpack. Although I have no desk, or bookshelves, or dressers or once I unpack my stuff, there's really nowhere for it to go. :P And slept at 7am. (i'm psychotic)

Kathryn woke me up, and we went to campus to buy parking passes. Soooo excited! I own my very first parking pass! yay! Too bad it costs an arm and a leg. But it's pretty cool to have one. It's kinda like status, or I'm just excited I have a car... or.. I'm just a dork who's easily amused by little things. Anyways.. went home and realized I still have errands to run, so got Vivian to take me back to campus, and we walked around but campus was pretty dead by then. Sad. We went back to her house where we were supposed to go to Costco with her roommate, but he showed up late. So I took a Nice nap on her extraordinarily comfy bed. Woke up and realized I should go home, and met Vivian's super geeky roommate. And came home. Ate my leftovers, and then Jill, Amanda and Kristen came over! Yay!! I love my girls. We just chatted. I gave them the tour of my excellent abode and we sat engrossed in Big Brother, (*yay*.. I don't care what you say Nicole.. it's a good show dammit) and then in the Real World. Vivian came over with Costco pizza and watched tv with us. Then, Nicole happily interrupted that and we chatted about everything and nothing all at the same time. As well as enduring her cell phone problems.. haha... Then slowly all my friends left.. sad :( and I was left with Nicole. yikes. No really.. I love Nicole.. I don't know how we talk about nothing for such long periods of time though. haha.. but you should all thank her for bringing me out of my no-blog-funk. Although I am jealous because she got to talk to the International Secretary/Vice President. of Circle K.... (da da da daaa) Pete Holiday. *sigh..why can't I be so lucky. Oh oh oh.. I DID get to shake his hand though. Yes yes yes.. I shook hands with the Int'l Sec/VP... who want's to touch me? *pop quiz... what movie is that a reference to?.. Anyways.. I should really go. My roommate's coming home tomorrow and the house is a complete MESS... she's going to freak! yikes. oh yeah.. I should maybe sleep as well.. be normal for a little bit at a time. hey.. I'm working on it.

here's a blog to finish up my rememberance of Hawaii....

So after I met up with Brandy after her class was over, we found Jan and then decided to go eat at Cafe Lauffer. It was a nice little restaurant/cafe with pretty good food and reallly good desserts. I had the best chocolate eclair.. yum! Anyways.. we dropped Jan off, and then proceeded to pick up Krystal and Jamie. Then went to Ala Moana since they hadn't eaten yet. In my usual fashion we shopped first and then went to go eat. And then dropped Krystal off, and proceeded to downtown, the place I know oh-so-well, to pick up Brandy's mom. Then that night we thought we were going to go out and do something, but we didn't, so Lisa and Krystal and Brandy and I just ended up going out to Zippy's for dinner and our "girl's night out." It was pretty fun, we just talked and all of that. And then that night we tried to come up with Jeopardy questions for the MD&E thing.. but we were just way too tired so we fell asleep. But I did watch Liar Liar which is a funny funny movie.

"But my teacher says that beauty comes from the inside"
"That's just something ugly people say to make themselves feel better"
hahahahah.. that's so me.

Anyways.. Saturday I dragged Chris out of bed to go to a KC DCM at 8am... dang high schoolers, they're crazy. But we struggled through that and came back and napped or something. Then Brandy and I went to the Kapiolani Med Center project. We just did arts and crafts with the kids that were in the hospital. It was pretty fun, I made some new friends.. hahah.. We came back and I started packing/planning for MD&E. It was a good time. So later that night Krystal and I hosted MD&E "Night of Fun!" hahah.. we had pizza from Jacob's favorite: Pizza Hut, and then proceeded to tell them about membership drives, MRP, and other shtuff, and started to play a killer game of Jeopardy. It was good, I had kick-ass questions. :) Anyways.. then we just chilled, Randy came by and gave me presents.. awww.. how sweet.. macadamia nuts.. hahaha. And I stayed up and packed and finally collapsed at 7am. I was supposed to get up at 8am to pack, but slept until 9am. whoops. Chris and Jan came by to take us to breakfast, but I made them wait because I was packing.. :P So Brandy's mom finally came in, threw all my stuff in a box and said "go" That's what efficient moms are for eh? Chris, Jan, Brandy, Krystal and I met up with Manny to eat breakfast at the Old Pancake house. I had some super gross runny omlettes.. *sick! if you ever go there order the strawberry waffles.. yummm... Anyways.. we went back, picked up my bags, rushed to the airport, and I finally checked in. Got on the plane with no problems... and sat in the sucky row.. the back row where I can't lean back at all. But I guess it was alrite, the guy next to me what nice, we chatted a little. But mostly I slept.. I was soooo tired. It wasn't as bad as flying back from ICON though. :P I slept through the meal and the movie (Moulin Rouge) and just kinda did whatever the rest of the way. Our plane landed half a hour early and I picked up my luggage quickly (that's the one good thing about checking in late) and waited for my dad who didn't even bother to check whether or not my plane was coming in early. Anyways.. got home, chowed down, and then proceeded to be online.. hahah.. I'm such a chump. Then next day I just pretty much slept and watched tv... pretty lame eh?

okay.. so I think I'm kinda scared because I'm "illegally" using the school computer in the library to do this. But I have an hour to kill until Brandy gets out of class. But anyways.. I think I've found where all the hot guys are in Hawaii. Annnyways.. this is what I did yesterday.

Thursday was an okay day. At 11:30 Manny and Chris and Jacob came to pick me up so that we could go to the Kaneohe meeting. But dude.. I was kinda nervous before hand because I was supposed to make a "presentation/speech" on why they should start a Circle K. But I think for me that it just turned into a what is Circle K all about. Which is dumb because that's what I always talk about so that's what I know. But it's not what they wanted to here. Thank god that Manny was there to give them the Kiwanian perspective of what Circle K is. That's the stuff they wanted to hear. Shoot. Well I guess I know for next time eh? But yeah.. so after that we went to La Gelateria for Sorbet and Gelato. That place is sooo good. yum! And then I came home, wasted more hours of my life watching more tv, and writing more postcards. hahhah.. Oh and I watched the MTV VMA's. *NSYNC is so cute I can barely stand it. Nicole's right... they're not a boy band, they're a MAN BAND. hahaha.. Anyways.. Then I just watched that all afternoon, ate dinner cooked by Brandy and her sis Jamie. The chicken was really good. And then I went out with Chris, Jan, Krystal and Joel to Waikiki. WHICH, is where all the hot boys are. But I think that's just because of the type of boys that I mostly like, *the abercrombie and fitch type .. yes I'm a nerd* are mostly tourists, and that's why they're all at Waikiki, or at the beach 24/7. But that was the largest group of hot guys I've seen in a collective. There are also a lot of freaky people too though. As we were leaving we walked by this guy who was all like "Hey Beautiful.. Love you" to Krystal. And we saw prostitutes. hahah.. they looked like your average skanks in TJ club clothes. hahah. We went to the Duty Free Shopping center and then to the International Market place where I did successfully bargain for my items. I was quite proud of myself. hahah.. I guess that trip to Taiwan did do me some good. (jk) Anyways..that was that, chatted a little bit with Brandy before I went to bed, and of course watched my daily dose of re-runs. Last night it was Saved by the Bell: The College Years. hahah. We have Brandy's mom's car today, and Bran only has one class.. oooh the fun we will have. hahah..

Oh my. I don't even really know what I'm doing up at this hour. It all started off as Circle K work, but then transformed into much more, and now is this. Yikes.. I've totally messed up my body's ability to tell time. Hopefully I can fix it before I go back to school with my 8am classes! But lately my life has seemed like a blur. But I'll try and sharpen it as much as I can for you.

umm.. Friday the 31st of August... I went out to eat sorbet and gelato with Brandy and her mom, and also Mc D's. It was all oh so good. Yum. And then that night, like true college students, we had a CKI social at Pizza Hut. BUT the reason we had it at PH was because Jacob works there and we got free food. Get it now? hahah.. Oh.. so the funniest quote ever came out of that night. I was rolling on the floor trying not to choke on my pizza:

(@ Pizza Hut during dinner)
Chris: mm.. The garlic bread is pretty good here. I've never eaten it before.
Chrissy: What?! Really? Dang, then what do you eat when you come here?
Chris: ummm... Pizza?

umm. maybe it's not so funny in words, but it was so hilarious. Maybe it was those you have to be there kinds of things. Then in that case, you missed out.. stby. Anyways.. then afterwards I think we wanted to catch a movie but it was way too late, so we went back to Brandy's, played Harry Potter and Life and all that, and just socialized. It was all very late when everyone left and I finally got some shut eye.

The next day I traveled to where all the Hawaiians take their CKI visitors. It the biggest tourist trap on the island. PCC- Polynesian Culture Center. While it sounds all fine and dandy, the secret behind it is that it's actually set up by the mormons to display the Polynesian culture. They put the students who attend BYU Hawaii work there, and by spending money there they say you're "helping to contribute to the education of some who otherwise wouldn't get one" or some mumbo jumbo like that. That's great and all but they make so much bank there.. those pictures that they take for you (like the ones off the rides like Splah Mountain) are $25 for the first ond and $15 for any others thereafter. And the tickets for non-Hawaiians are soo expensive, and the Hawaiian's only Annual Passes are only $16! But I should stop complaining because it is a great place, and I'm sure everyone works real hard there. Honestly I had a great time. They don't have rides (ooh.. except for the canoe tour with that one cute canoe guy) but lots of really interesting and funny shows. I had a great time, and it was cool just to run around like an idiot. Afterwards went to Zippy's for another late dinner, and back to Brandy's house do socialize. Except this time all but a few people were falling asleep in their seats while the others kept on socializing. It was a pretty amusing sight to watch. I chatted and bonded with Krystal, one cool chick. We talked a lot about our opinions of different matters and really clicked. I guess that was what these two weeks was supposed to be about eh?

The next day we were sooooooo tired from the night before we just mulled around all day. Chris, Krystal and I ran my errands.. ahha, and ate Liliha Korean BBQ take-out that was soo good and watched the UH convention videos. That night we went to the PET project at Manny's house. *Who by the way has the best house ever. It's near the top of this mountain and has the most spectacular view, and has the best PORCH (i refuse to call it a Lanai) to enjoy it from. It's a mega-bachelor pad. But anyways.. did that.. and then went to Safeway to buy food for my DCM and board training. And then .. oops.. didn't "just" go to Safeway, but went to Zippy's afterwards for food. But interesting about that night was that I found the Safeway guy kinda fliriting with me, and me kinda flirting back. That's what the club says at least.. but this is the way I see it. I have such a low self esteem about myself that I freak out when any guy starts talking to me for no good reason because I think that no guy could be attracted to a troll like me. So this guy in the soda aisle asks me if I really go to UCSD (I was wearing my sweater) and we talk about the letter grade/p/np system (dumb I know) and later I ask him where the breads are and he asks if I want him to take me there. Hhaha.. at this point I was like.. ummm.. oooookay. But of course I had my back up of the UH club and stopped along the meat aisles to complain about the priceyness of EVERYTHING in that store. And he eventually got bored and left. So we shoped peacefully, and when we went to go checkout *poof* he was bagging my groceries. hmm.. so he's talking to me, asking me if I'm visiting or here to stay, while all the UH people are snickering, and he asks to see my license, and I dunno if I'm trying to be cute, or trying to get his attention because I know I can, but I dunno... whatever. Anyways.. I left there, and that's the end of my story. *sigh... This is my theory. You just have to pretend you're from somewhere else and you'll attract guys who are sick of all the girls in their state. haha. So when I go back to California, I'm going to pretend I'm from Hawaii.. haha. yeah right.. it wouldn't work. I dunno.. like.. it's weird to say that some guy was fliriting with me because I don't think it would be possible in a million years that a decent looking guy would initiate a conversation with me (*definitely better than the Circuit City incident). But it does feel nice to have that attention from someone who's not a freak or pervert or dirty old man, and know that someone out there actually thinks you're okay looking.. So.. I dunno.. it's confusing.. phew.. good thing I usually never have to deal with it. *sigh.. I'm a pathetic freak. why can't cute guys in cali talk to me.. *sigh, stb me Anyways.

The next day was my DCM.. and that morning was trauma, hectic, and yikes.. that makes no sense, but that's how my morning was. Early wake up, finishing my papers, not being picked up, making copies, being late, and then leading a DCM and a board training session that it seems like NOBODY cares or wants to be there... yuck. In the end it was all kind of frustrating, but hey.. at least it's over. That night Krystal and I just ate Hibachi with Brandy's family. And afterwards we roasted marshmallows with her little cousins and played Harry Potter.. it was a blast.

Tuesday was soo boring. I just kinda chilled... and watched tv. For like 5 hours. But I did get to watch lots of interesting re-runs. Finally at 6pm I was rescued. We went to the Pearl Harbor mtg, and then to Anna Miller's for dinner. I got $1.28 Strawberry Pie. Yum.

Wednesday.. haah.. was a little more fun. I got to take out Brandy's mom's car. I was going to sit with Brandy all day, but after deciding that was was worse than sitting at home and watching 5 hours of TV, I decided to go explore Oahu on my own. Nonetheless I got super lost, but did manage to find my way home from UH which I was totally proud of myself. Talk to Brandy's uncle for a bit, asked him for directions, and took a nap. Then talked to Chris and Krystal and Brandy and Jacob, and finally decided to go to the beach by myself (wow!) Went to Ala Moana Beach where it was okay. the sand was kinda rocky, and the water wasn't completely clear once I swan out into it, but it was quite nice. Swam a little, and then laid out a little.. but bright me, decided to lay out at 12noon. Yes, I'm retarded. I was only there for like 20 minutes total, so not too bad. Went back, thought I was going out to lunch, didn't. And chilled... then went to go pick up Brandy, got lost in downtown. Then decided to pick up her mom first then, only to get confused and having to drive in circles mulitple times due to one way streets. I HATE ONE WAY STREETS. After half a hour, I finally figured out where Brandy's mom works, but she had already left because someone picked her up, and no one told me. grr.. But that's okay. Went to go pick up Brandy, also met up with Krystal, and found Manny on the way. It's a regular party. Was going to do something with CKI folks, but everyone was butt tired, so was going to order pizza, but went out to La Pietro's with Brandy's family instead. It was good, and also ate Bubbie's homemade ice cream. Which actually was kinda little dirty store because all their names for their desserts had sexual connotations, and their sloagan was "shouldn't you be licking something?" haha.. amusing. Rock would love that place. Came home, attempted and failed to learn how to french braid, and tried to do my MD&E stuff, but didn't get to that either. eh.. I have until Saturday. But I'm kinda nervous because I have to make a "presentation" tomorrow on why Kaneohe should start a Circle K. Yikes... what am I supposed to say! pssht.. well I'll go worry about it in my dreams, because I'm sooooo tired I can't stand it. blah.. that's how I feel.

BLAH! Where do I start. Overall this has been a pretty shittified day. I mean.. there were some good parts... but there were a lot of bad. So anyways.. let me go back to Tuesday.. that's where I left off.
On Tuesday, Jacob picked me up and we went to the Honolulu Kiwanis meeting at this one nice hotel. There meeting was fun and I even got to speak for a couple minutes at the podium and everything! Although it was still quite nervewracking. Speaking in front of a bunch of Kiwanians hoping they don't think you sound stupid, or don't get what you're saying. Anyways.. afterwards, went to Ala Moana again with Jacob so i could buy my skirt from the GAP... oooh so excited because it was the skirt I wanted FOREVER but my store (or any LA store) didn't have. But I got it! So yeah. Then we went to Hot Topic, where I saw these cool pants that were like plastic shiny material. They would have been the best party/TJ pants... but they were too big (gasp!). Then we visited Lisa at the WB where I loaded up on PPG stuff courtesy of their closing the store sale and her employee discount (yay!). Then went back to Brandy's, and got locked out, but Chris let me know where the "secret" key was, so it was all good. Went to the Hawaii-Loa meetings that night. What Chris said is true, it's pretty entertaining going to their meetings. After I got home I was soooo tired, but I tried to stay up to watch the Real World, ONLY to find out that it wasn't even on! So then I went to bed.

Anyways, the next day I went with Brandy to her classes, out to lunch with her mom and sister and her. CPK yum! But I gotta stop ordering the same thing everytime I go there! then bought postcards (I am the ultimate tourist), and later than night went to this really good buffet place on this Air Force Base in Hawaii with the Kiwanis LtG and the Hawaii Board. It was sooo good, we all ate way too much and gained like 10 lbs each. Afterwards we walked around like we were drunk since we couldn't walk straight because of the amount of weight in our stomachs. It was a good time.

Today... it was a good time. I went to Pali Mountain with Jacob and Chris which is like this Mountain that over looks the island, but is also suuuuper windy. It was a fun time. The wind was so strong, it was just fun to stand there and let it push you around. Sometimes I thought it was going to rip my shorts right off. And then I was sad because I thought it blew my LtG. pin off of my shirt, but luckily for me and unluckily for Brandy's mom it was found in Brandy's house by her's mom's foot (ouch!). Then Chris, Joel, Brandy and I went to the Kaneohe Kiwanis meeting, where that was an experience in itself. But all the more same as the others. Came home, dealt with my business (grr...), and also found out that Fred died. mmm.. poor baby. Kathy should feel bad for making so much fun of him. jk. But it's so sad. *sigh ... I hope tomorrow's a better day.

Aloha! I'm in Hawaii right now, but I'm soooo pooped, although I shouldn't be. I got PLENTY of sleep last night.. but I guess that was to make up for the lack of sleep in the past two three days before that. i feel like the last days i have been walking around here like I was sleep walking or something because I've been so absolutely tired. But here's the story of my life:
So I took a nap on the couch for like 30 minutes.. showered, finished packing, which was also followed by yelling from my dad about not leaving things until the last minute. Went to the airport, tried to manuever my way throw theheavy crowd and completely slow metal detector only to RUN down to the gate which was at the very END of the wing, while my dad picked up my bags, and finally got on the plane. It was nice because I discovered that no one was going to sit next to me, so I had two seats all to my self. A window AND an aisle... yay! So I ate this horrible eggs and potato breakfast, and tried to lay down in the two seats and sleep. I didn't recline my chairs, because the people behind me had the wall in front of them, and since I remember what that was like... I didn't recline. Nice huh? :P Anyways.. I kept sleeping and waking up, and finally landed in Hawaii. The water is soooo blue and clear, it's sooo gorgeous. Landed.. met up with Chris and Lisa, got leied. (yah yah.. yuck it up) Went to Zippy's (Hawaii's Denny's) and then back to Brandy's to "nap" Went to Catch of the Day for dinner which was this cute sushi place where all the sushi was going around on this actualy train, and you just take the ones you want off the train. Cute huh? Then we went back and planned out my two weeks... fun stuff.. mm.. And then I tried to sleep.. but crazy me.. I couldn't. So I stayed up.. bah.. slept at 6am!!
The next day I woke up at 8:30am. Went with Brandy, Chrissy and her mom to the North Shore. They have the best bay there called Waimea Bay where the sand is soooo white and the water is soooo blue and clear! It's great.. I wish I could have gone swimming in it.. but I didn't have my suit. But they were also playing a polo game in the water at the beach.. it was so cool! Anyways.. did a lot of shopping in the little surf shops. Ate Haleiwa Joe's and Matsumoto's "the best shaved ice in Hawaii" both very yummy. Came home, and "napped" again. Except this time I slept through dinner and woke up at like 4am this morning.
Today... we tried to go to a Key Club meeting, but the times got all mixed up so we missed it. We'll try again later this week, or next week. Then went to Ala Moana's (a mall) with Brandy. I felt really bad... I dragged her around to all these stores because I'm a super shopper, and she doesn't really care much for it. Sorry Brandy! Anyways.. I bought some cool stuff. Then came back, did a UH Manoa club social. Ate dinner at Old Spaghetti Factory, and then went karaoke-ing. Their choice. If you ever go with the Hawaii peeps ask Chris to sing Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit... it's great. Came back.. suuuuuper tired but I had to check my mail for all that important business.. haha yeah right. Alrite.. that's all of my exciting days. Tomorrow I have to go smile and wave at two Kiwanis meetings so I should go get my rest! Mahalo!

blah... so yeah.. I'm leaving for Hawaii in 5 hours, and I still haven't really finished packing, and I'm sitting here chatting online considering sneaking out to go over to a friends house. Geez.. Anyways .. today was a fun day. I slept in late (I think I'm still jet-lagged) ate lunch, was tired all day, took naps here and there. Watched Days haha.. and Passions, organized my convention photos. There's this one picture of Mary and I on the bus.. we're so cute. And then there's a picture of Megan, Nicole, Beth, Kathy, Carrie and I in our formal wear, and it's a really cute picture too. Anyways.. did that, watched 90210, napped some more. Got online, chatted, made a hot date with Nicole, finally started packing, talked to my mom who's probably on the plane right now, and went to Target to buy a camera because my died in Taiwan.. RIP camera :( And made poor Nicole drive over there to find me, tortured the poor Target guy with my incessant requests and indecisiveness, (and NO Nicole, I was not flirting with him)... and then came home, packed some stuff, went to Rocky Cola Cafe to meet up with Carrie and Manny. Ate waaay too much I shouldn't have eaten in the first place, and then got yelled at by my dad, came home, and then went online. And this is where I'm at now. hahahah.. I'm chatting it up with my ho's, my friends, "satan," and Beth.. haha.. just kidding. Anyways.. I should stop being on this thing... I feel like I have no life. And that I'm always talking to myself, because I'm the only one that cares. hahah.. hey Manny... HAWAII! :P

okay.. so I'm a little frustrated, I wrote out this whole long thing, and then I pushed a wrong button, and then it disappeared. auggh! sucky!

So anyways.. it's been awhile since I've been here, mostly because I've been out of town, and unable to feed my addiction to the ethernet. haha. So yeah. here's a little synopsis of my past few weeks... careful.. it might be awhile.

Anyways.. I left for Buffalo on Tuesday night on a red eye flight, where I had the worst seat ever. Between two large guys, and up agaisnt the wall so I could really recline my seat back. I got like no sleep, and the movie was bad.. so I just kind of sat there. Got to the Buffalo airport where I was oh so relieved to find Katie from NY waiting for me at the gate. yay.. Got my bag, and went to the Days Inn Hotel (home of a bowling alley and the "hottest teen club") in Hamburg, NY - the Visalia of New York - Anyways.. started meeting the LSSP people. Went to the airport with the NY governor to pick up Jason and Charles, two of the funniest guys I've ever met. Back to the hotel, but also stopping by Univ of Buffalo, which is pretty nice. Back to the hotel, off to the mall, and then back to freak out about my board report, and bowl. :)

The next day I woke up with 15 minutes, showered, ran down and ate breakfast with the disgruntled lady waitress who wouldn't let us have extra plates, and harassed Ryan about how he was sitting. Rode the yellow school bus *with seat belts! to the camp. Worked worked worked.. Justin and Jennilynn from WUM, and Ryan and I piled up stray branches along the trail. Ate lunch with the kids who are way loud and rowdy. *MEAT IS GOOD!* And then back to working. Ate authentic Cajun Jambalaya and the I-Board came by. Chatted it up with Jason, Charles, Chartha and Jen Lewis. Rode the bus back, attempted to watch a movie, but just ended up making cards for the kids, and other random thank you cards. I did get to go to 24 hour Walmart, which was fun. The store was kinda shady and unkept, kinda like Pic'N'Save, but I bet the ones in California are better.. just because everything always is. haha. Next morning rode the bus, we all took tons of pictures in our LSSP shirts, worked worked worked. I got to chip wood and make new trails. That was fun. Being destructive and all. Ate lunch with the kids, worked, ate spaghetti for dinner, passed our cards to the kids, rode the bus home. That night everyone just kind of chilled, got ready for the next day. Ryan, Christi and I went to this "hot teen club" and dance by ourselves in this big room, but mostly played DDR to satisfy Ryan. Then hung out with my roomies, and Ryan, Tracy, Christi and Van. Ryan crashed on the floor to avoid the drama in his room, only to ensue more drama... I'm now a "homewrecker" :P

The next day some people left early, but us "leftovers" hung out, ate Wendy's for lunch, and then rode the bus over to the Convention. Ran through the masses of people to register, check-in, get delegate stuff, etc etc etc. I found Shannon and also Jeremy from Kansas. We hung out until opening session with our borrowed District cheer. Listened to people welcome us. And the "*NSYNC look alike motivational speaker who was kickin' it old school" who was pretty amusing. That night I helped Nick a little bit with his campaign stuff, and then just kind of stayed up and chatted with people, allll night. oops.

Then we went to the officer roundtables, and then to the Millenium Plan 2 workshop. After both Shannon feeling sick, and me shaking uncontrollably, we both went back and took naps. I slept through the part where I was supposed to help Nick, but I did make it to the general caucus session right on time. Good for me. District discussion, Governor's Gala dinner (where they served actual beef instead of chicken... much to our shock), congrats to Carrie who won disting. treas., divisional meeting, and then the dance- where I missed the dedication of California girls, as well as the dessert reception. :P Then went with Kathy, Beth, Ryan and Nicole to the LaMissTenn "party" and just sat and chatted with Mary. Then went back and chatted some more, but did go to sleep much earlier than the night before.. haha.

Next morning was the house of delegates.. not too bad, but wasn't too great either. eh.. then.. it was off to NIAGARA FALLS! We went on the Maid of the Mist boat ride where you get on the boat and ride very near the falls, they give you this poncho, but you still get completely soaked. Pic was my "little brother" and got in for the kids price. Then we crossed the border, took lots of pictures, went to the Hershey's store, and then to the casino!! haha.. I won a whole $3.50 ($8 canadian dollars) in five minutes. It was fun. And remember that episode of Friends where they're in Vegas, and Phoebe gets stalked by that old lady. SO happened to me. This lady hovered over me for my slot machine.. it was so annoying.. what a jerk. Then crossed back the border, only to run back to find Kathy because we though we had her wallet, only to find out that she already had it. oh well. Got back to the hotel by bus once again, and on to caucus. I always feel stupid, like no one cares, and that my questions are really dumb, and that I never sound as articulate as everyone else. *sigh. Anyways.. played UNO that night like I've never played it before. It was way fun and hilarious. It was a good time.

Last day of Convention.. sad! Morning session with a crummy breakfast..bagel and juice.. no danish or fruit of anything. :P and club awards.. none of those for us either.. sucks.. next year.. next year. then Divisional meeting, Service Fair.. which was fun.. we got to see what all the other districts were up to. Lunch at the restaurant hotel which we just ended up taking to go because they took too long. House of Delegates, which was excrutiatinly long. They gave us one break where Nicole, Beth and I sat there and released all our energy. We just talked about random stuff, "they should call her ___ No-Chance!" "wouldn't the house of delegates be better if they were allowed to cuss?" "you can cut off my fingers if I can have the last three hours of my life back! i wish i could just tear off this ribbon", I laughed so hard I was crying and I couldn't breath. It was great.. of course, everyone else thought we were insane. Didn't have to go to house III, and then went out to eat with some folks at a little restaurant nearby. It was pretty good. Closing Session.. sad... And then the Dance. This time I was there for California Girls. They had appetizers there.. I must have had like 10 Buffalo.. oh excuse me.. Chicken Wings. And then that night hung out a little in LaMissTenn people, and Cal-Nev-Ha people.. played UNO again. But everyone was pretty tired. But Anna wanted to stay up because she was leaving pretty early, so we went and found Mary, and hung out with her all night again, and then found Shannon and Jeremy. Shannon and I went to bed at 6am. Slept until 9am. Packed, cleaned up, ate breakfast in the hotel, and said our goodbyes.. *sad sad sad, and then I rode the $23 taxi to the airport. I hate taxis.. Flew out on a connecting flight to Baltimore again. This time I had an aisle seat.. :) and Michael from TO was on my flight, so I chatted with him. He's a pretty funny guy. It always seems you can chat with any KFamily person about random stuff when your bored cuz you have that one thing in common, which is nice. Got home, fought with dad, drove Kathy to Nicole's, stayed the night at Nicole's (haha I ran away from home), and fell asleep during Sex in the City, until the next morning. Ryan came over, drove to Torrance, ate at the Loft, picked up my paycheck, chilled, went to 7-11, and then they left. I packed, and then left for Taiwan. CRAZYNESS!

On the plane.. sat with Joan in Deluxe Class.. ooh. I felt way pampered. Ate airplane food, watched Shrek, (nice huh), and half of Heartbreakers. Slept some, listened to my cd player. Endured the 15 hour flight. Got to the airport, waited around for the shuttle to leave. Drove to Dou Lieu, where my Grandpa lives. Got there, went to this so so Chinese Vegetarian restaurant for his 89th bday celebration, a whole big family reunion sort of thing. Came back, chilled, and apparently I fell asleep because I don't remember much of that night. I remember being woken up and asked if I wanted to go with my mom, dad, aunt and sister to the night market saying that they were all going, and I remember them acting like they were going out partying or clubbing or something, or that's what it seemed like in my half asleep state.

The next day, which was Monday (I lost a day in the time change), we went to the marketplace and shopped. True to myself, I bought many many bags. And we ate shaved ice for $30 NT which is like $1. Yum! Played some Sims on Joan's computer, and watched Love and Basketball on Joan's computer, which is actually a really cute movie. The next day i woke up early to go with daddy to go visit his great-grandfather's grave, even though I HATE cemetaries, I agreed to go anyways. We tookt he train to JiaYi. And then walked around, I bought some *NSYNC stuff.. the first of many.. hahahah.. and drank Boba.. yum! And finally found a flower shop, bought flowers, took a taxi to the place where daddy thought there was the graves, but it wasn't! We didn't know where to go, so we just returned to back to flower shop, gave the flowers to them, and went back home.. blah.. it was just amusing that we just kind of wasted that whole day.. but it wasn't too much of a waste. My days are kind of blurry as to which day what happened.. but we went to this one temple at mommy's request. It was okay... nothing too special. The view was great, it was on top of a mountain. The highlight of my day was when I saw my mom's picture in one of the display pieces they had about temples in the US. haha.. millions of people in Taiwan look at my mom and her temple friends each day. hahah. We also went to the market place again, ate noodles, bought shoes.. yay, and ate shaved ice.. and split up.. daddy and I, and mommy and Joan. As daddy and I were going home, it started to POUR!! So we watched the rain, and the lightning and thunder for a looong time. My dad was convinced if we stood there long enough it would stop. wrong! this guy offered to drive us for $100 NT but we said no thanks, and started walking... but my dad started shrieking like a girl, and wanted to go back, so we took refuge under this little shack. I was laughing so hard, and my dad was just looking at me funny. Finally we just decided to go again, and started running. Then this very nice lady offered to give us a ride. Remind to me to do that for someone else someday. Then we took the train to Taipei, got picke up my Pearl Auntie's brother and his friend, and after much driving, found our little condo where we were staying. Then went to the Shihling market that night. Bought a few things, ate lots of stuff, and then came back. I'm now an expert on how to ride the Taiwan mass rapid transit system. It's a lot like Boston. Fun stuff. Next day went to a vegetarian restaurant with Pearl Auntie's family. And then to Warner Village where I saw this model search going on, and saw this chinese popstar that Joan said was worse than Britney. She hated her. hahah.. Then we went to the six floor mall and bought these handy sealer thingys. It was like a live infomercial demonstration thing. We got sucked in and bought NINE of them. haah.. Then went to go visit my dad's grandma (my great-grandmother) who's 99 years old! amazing, and then went and ate this great Japanese place with my great-uncle, and my dad's first younger brother. Then we also went to ShihMen market place.. which has a PiyoPiyo store!! And Joan and I after much much arguing were able to split up from the parents, and we shopped, I bought more *NSYNC much to my excitement, and ate McDonald's where their aple pie is fried! not baked.. yum. Then ate Korean bbq with my uncle, two aunts, mom, and sister, where we were late joined by my dad, uncle, and cousin. Went back.. chiled.. I watched my fabulous *nsync vcd's.. they're great. And started to watch Jurassic Park III on dvd. My uncle bought that and other illegal movies in China...hahahahah. The next day we just chilled, mommy had to pack because she was going back to Dou Lieu to be with her dad, and so we ate a quick lunch with beef noodle soup where they made fresh noodles. It was pretty good. Sent mom to the airport, and ate dinner near my grandmother's house with my aunt and uncle at this place that Joan loves. Bought some way cute stationary stuff, and went home. Wrote out my postcards, and the next day just chilled. Went out to lunch with my uncle at this really nice hotel, the Formosa Regent at this all you can eat buffet which had good food and haagen daas ice cream and tiramisu! yum!! Then went back, packed some more, watched more illegal movies, and then went to the airport, chilled before our flight and then flew another 15 hours in pampering deluxe class. Watched Someone Like You, The Mexican, Josie and the Pussycats, the end of Along Came a Spider, and the end of Monkeybone. All very interesting. haha.. got back.. shoved our 5 huge luggages in this one taxi, with a driver who had bad bad english, and didn't really know where he was going. And finally came home. *sigh. it's sad.. I was in Taiwan soo long where it's SUPER hot and humid, that this morning when I woke up I was cold!!

Yikes.. anyways.. today was errand day. But I did get to eat at El Torasco which is soooooooo yummy. Walked along the beach, took Eric to school, went to the GAP to get my paycheck, went to the bank, and the RETARDED travel agency, picked up eric from school, autozone to buy new winshield wipers, wells fargo for Eric and his mom, with the crazy crazy bank lady, and then to costco. Where I paid all that money to get the 1 hour developing, and I left them in the car so now I can't even look at them right now. *sigh. Watched some tv.. I was all excited about watching Big Brother, and this week they had the special episode that aired yesterday. Bites. pssht. Anyways.. I have to pack and junk.. leaving for Hawaii on Saturday.. *crazy. I feel like I have no time to breathe. Oh well it's going to be a good time right? I hope so. Anyways.. it's way late.. and I should probably get to bed before my dad wakes up and yells at me for staying up all night. *blah*

i just wanted to say hi from taiwan. i've been here for a week and a half... after i came back from buffalo, new york for international convention for cki and lssp. they were both amazing. i'm flying home tomorrow.. at an internet cafe paying to be online.. :( sucks.. oh well.. it's cheap. running out of time.. gotta go!

YO YO YO!! I'm in a way silly mood, and I'm sooooooo out of it. I guess that's because I had to go to work at 9:30AM! this morning after not being able to fall asleep until 4am. sheesh! And EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE wanted to return things today. It was kinda no fun. :P But I got to home early because we weren't making enough business. hahahah. Anyways.

I'm kind of frustrated because I haven't been able to get ANY dates right. I thought the FTC meeting was last Sunday, and then I thought it was today, but it was really yesterday. And then I thought my flight was on Wednesday, but it's actually on Tuesday. And then I thought I had to go to work today at 9:15, but it was actually 9:30, and then I thought I clocked out at 1:29, but it was actually 1:27. Am I going crazy? What the heck! Anyways.. it just attributes to all my mental derangement. Blah.

But the good news is that my mom is being significantly nicer to me. Which is very very nice. I just have to try and keep it up by being a good child. haha. :) umm I think that's going to last about 2 seconds. oh.. Bad me. But yeah. so that means I have to clean my room and all, and pack, and plan out my clothes for Buffalo. I want to buy a nice party dress, but I don't know if I should. Eh.. I'll think about it once I go through all my clothes. But that's going to be a hassle because now I have to be done my Tuesday night!! shoooot.

Anyways.. I've be downloading a lot of stuff. Haha.. it's kind of addicting. But I don't know if feel bad for like pirating.. or like because I feel like a nerd. But I have the movie AI, and the movie Pearl Harbor (yay hotties.. Josh Hartnett and Ben Affleck), and then I have the two *NSYNC songs that are on the foreign cd's, but not the US ones. (don't you feel cheated?) and a bunch of other coolio stuff. But I'm tired, and I must go clean.. mm.. my favorite pasttime. Toodle-loo!

So nothing too important today. I had to go in to my On-Call shift for work, which was good, because a) I wouldn't have to go in for just 2 hours to close down the store (I hate 3 hours shifts) and b) I got to escape from my house. But that also meant that I wasn't able to go to the FTC meeting.. sorry Nicole!! I wish I could have went. Haha.. they should have it in the Red Robin in the Galleria, and I could stop on in.. But it was an okay time at work. It was a busy busy day, but we got out in an hour after closing, which was pretty good. Other than that I woke up really late. hahah I finished downloading these movies that I was just trying out. That would be pretty wicked if they worked. I'd be psyched... but then I'd have to burn em on to cd's so that it wouldn't eat up my hard drive. But I was bummed when I got home because the VCR wasn't on, and it tivo'd an hour of Torrance City Cable (boo!) instead of Big Brother.. man. sucks...

3 more days until I leave for Buffalo! Yay!! Which also means I have to do my board report and my awards application before I leave.. shoot and I work on Sunday and Monday. And my mother took this week off, so it will be NO fun at home. Let the tyranny begin. blah.. I totaly have to clean my room though.. and possibly return some stuff.. haha.. :( I want that fron t slit skirt! It makes me mad that I can't find it. Maybe I'll have Joan drive me around.. Or maybe we'll get some in shipment on Monday! Yay!! That would make me happy. Well I'm DEAD tired, and I have to work tomorrow morning.. :( 9:15am... poop.