i got a fatty parking ticket today. sucks. i parked my car in the meters and then forgot about it. i ditched my classes and had to do the bbq all day. sucks. but i did make up my quiz and i think i did alright. i have a make up paper to write and a midterm to study for. and then more bbq stuff for circle k to care of. i really think that i'm going to fail out of school, that is if i don't die from exploding from stress first.

spaznik: awwww. poor sleepless jean...
jeanyah: :-(
jeanyah: yes poor me

hahah.. pity me... jk.

this is me and nicole.. unplugged.

jeanyah: to catholocism and become a nun
spaznik: hahahahahahahah...
jeanyah: or i could just be a hermit
spaznik: hermit... its less restrictive.
spaznik: you can go and do anything your hermit-self desires..
spaznik: if you're a nun... its a lot of praying and you have to dedicate yourself to a life of no sex..
spaznik: see.. if youre a hermit.. you can get with a hermit guy and just use him for the sex and then go on with your hermit life.
jeanyah: ew
spaznik: hhahaha... hey.. hermits have their urges too!
jeanyah: hahaha
jeanyah: that's what their hands are for
spaznik: hahahaha... ewwwwww!!
spaznik: but thats so sad...
spaznik: what if theres a hermit with arthrythis!?!?
jeanyah: yea'
jeanyah: so he uses tools!
spaznik: or like a hermit with no hands...
jeanyah: a mouth?
spaznik: HAHAAHAHAHAHAH
spaznik: so apparently there are hermits that are contortionists...
spaznik: niice.
spaznik: thats SICK!!
spaznik: ahahahah
jeanyah: you started it
spaznik: hahaha.. nooo...
spaznik: i was just saying that there are pros and cons to being a hermit and a nun...
spaznik: and one of the pros of being a hermit is the sex aspect.
spaznik: if you're a nun and you have sex... i think thats an automatic ticket to hell.
spaznik: or something like that... i dunno.. its pretty bad.
jeanyah: what do you mean something like that
jeanyah: shouldn't you know?
jeanyah: some catholic you are
spaznik: hahahahah... im not an expert on the roll of NUNS!!
jeanyah: the roll of nuns?
spaznik: shhh.. we must stop talking about it... or else i will get struck by lighting.
jeanyah: like when they go rolling down the hill?
spaznik: HAHAAHAHAHAH
jeanyah: do they tuck their legs behind their head and..
jeanyah: hm.. oh wait.. that sounds bad.
spaznik: shhhhhhhhhhhhh

mm.. yeah.. that's what 35 hours of no sleep, a million quizzes to make up and in and out at midnight will do to ya. hah.. maybe i'm a gremlin.. or just delirious.

Oh.. how I love Sakura... she's so cute, and such a sweetheart.
"hey jean...
this is sakura.
your best friend.
i just wanted to call and leave a message so my voice will be the first thing you'll hear when you walk in your room, you know? cuz i know that you'll love that and you missed me... "

hehe.. then she went on to tell me that we had a lot of work to do (which is the real reason she called) haha.. not really.. but it made me smile. too bad it wasn't the first, but it was the last message I got so it made me feel all warm and fuzzy after the many previous annoying messages. :P anyways.. a quick blog before i proceed to reorganize my life. it's so weird being gone for a week, and i have so many things to do, and so many things to catch up on, I need to not be a slacker this week. I have a makeup quiz, a makeup midterm paper, and real time midterm and other makeup work to do.. plus catch up reading.. haha.. but that last thing's nothing new. :P I guess this is what it feels like to be on spring break in berkeley (or any other semester school) you have a week of nothing... and then you're supposed to pick up right back where you left off? that's hard business. anyways.. my trip was decent.. i mean.. it was as good as it can be right? but it was good to see family and what not. we took family pictures (even though there were two cousins missing.. we missed you Karen and Sherry!) and i did some shopping .. actually lot of shopping.. hahah.. visited my mom's relatives and some other stuff. my flight was alright, slept and read... I was quite glad that I wasn't stuck behind the crying babies.. they were in a separate part of plane. yay. my plane was delayed, and it took forever to get out of the airport. thankfully Eric was there to pick me up. although i did have to pay for his parking... which was $7 because he parked in the non-meters (where they charge you $2 for each additional 20 minutes after the first hour -which is $3) and he didn't check to see if my flight was delayed. oh well.. i'll got money from my dad.. heheheh :) i'll say it once and i'll say it again... i'm such a daddy's girl. anyways... did some stuff at home, looked through my mail, conversed with Sakura, grabbed some stuff, re-packed my car and off I was to La Jolla. It was pretty good, except I was starving, but finally got some Jack in the Box.. . although I was really hankering for In N Out. But I got really irritated because they closed off the 5 where the 805 and the 5 split! And I got so lost trying to get home because I NEVER take the 805 and it was 2am. ugh. But I got home safe and sound to find my room as messy as I left it.. yuck. I had a healthy conversation with Nicole. I was complaining a lot.. I feel bad.. I always gripe with her.. sorry Nicole! Well it's 4:20am (haha) and I'm way jet-lagged.. so I think I might just stay up until class and then try and tire myself out today so that I can get back to a normal sleeping pattern. Although.. I probably won't be sleeping much as it is in the next week.. so I should probably catch some rest wherever I can get it.. umm.. we'll see.

hmm.. not much to say. well i guess there's a lot to say, but no one out there to hear it. anyways.. i'm currently "out of town" and doing family stuff. it's kind of nice to be able to take a break from all the madness that is my life, but also sucky because i know that when i get back i'll have a lot to make up for. On Thursday night I did go to the Jason Mraz show at Java Joe's. I was supposed to go with Vivian but she had to clean her house for inspection, I scrambled around to find anyone that could go with me and finally went by myself. It was good though because Aran was there so I chilled with him and his friends. It was an awesome like always, so I'm really glad that I went. Friday I did the class thing and went to the Kiwanis Luncheon. We got there late and all they had left was fruit.. oops. Worked later on that night at the UCSD vs. SDSU women's water polo game. It was a heartbreaking game because we were up the entire time and it seemed like we were kicking their ass, but then they caught up and tied the game in the 4th quarter, and the upped us. And then Courtney drew a 4M and Emma made the goal and tied the game with like 17 seconds and everyone was super happy. And then SDSU made a goal with 3 seconds left and we lost. It was so sad, and Dana was all pissed because her suit was ripped because she was getting beat down in 2 meter and the refs weren't calling anything. And the whole team was crying. yikes. So I dropped off the stats at the ICA office and reconciled the score sheet to clear up so stuff and didn't get out of there until like 8pm. Went home, finished packing and drove to LA at like 11:30pm. I was running so late. Chatted on the phone a bit to keep myself awake, and when I got home I totally just crashed. Woke up early the next morning, went to the eye doctor and dentist. good news.. I'm getting really cute glasses... Bad news.. I had to sit while they filled a cavity that was caused by my wisdom teeth.. which sucked. But anyways.. came home, helped ma finish her packing and then got dropped off at the airport.
My mom and I flew together and it was an okay plane trip. The plane was pretty empty so we slept a lot. I watched Harry Potter and Shallow Hal and parts of Kate and Leopold. I enjoyed Harry Potter a lot more than I originally thought I would. I really like it actually. Arrived in Taiwan where my daddy and Uncle Tony picked us up. I was really excited to see my dad.. it was weird.. but he's been not shaving while he's been here and has the beginnings of a beard and a mustache. It's odd and I told him he looked ugly. haha.. I was looking at him today and it's weird because his beard it black and white, but you can't really see the white parts.. so sometimes it just looks like he has random small patches of black hair on his chin. hah.. I hope he shaves when he gets home. Went to my grandmother's house and said hello to my aunts and uncles, and went back to my mom's brother's place to sleep and shower. Came back to my grandma's place this morning and spent the day there, napping, reading, listening to relatives talk. Chit chatted with my cousin (who is engaged!) and talked about her wedding, the cake and my other cousin who is engaged too!, Tonight we went to the night market to buy some white shoes. People must have thought we were funny buying like 8 pairs of the same shoe in all different sizes. But I ate some food (since I had slept through dinner), night market food is always yummy, and bought some hair clips (to replace all the ones I've broken) and even got some VCD's! hehe.. yay.. illegal movies. You guys are all going to laugh, but I bought Crossroads.. (hahahahaha), A Beautiful Mind, Harry Potter, Seredipity, Kate and Leopold, Panic Room and my mom got E.T. I'm kind of excited.. at least I hope they work! Rode the bus back to my uncle's and now I'm just kind of chillin.
I guess it's kind of weird being here.. for a couple of reasons. I was here in August, so everything seems kind of familiar, even though it's not. And although it should be kind of fun that our entire family is here, and that we're seeing all our relatives, the circumstances under which we gather isn't really something to celebrate. When I first went into my grandmother's house, there's a little alter set up for my grandfather and there's a large picture sitting on top of it. And it's something pretty traditional, but I guess it just makes me sad because it's a constant reminder. While I was trying to do some reading today I'd catch myself staring at it, and at his picture and I dunno.. just thinking about him I guess. And also it's sad to see my grandmother, so was always so cute and happy and had a sparkle in her eye, and now she just always looks so sad, I haven't seen her smile once, and I dunno.. if I was that upset when I my first told me, I can't really imagine what she must be feeling 24/7. My aunt was crying today and my cousin was getting misty and later as we were talking she said that it's hard to see her mom like this and it sucked because it was their 30th wedding anniversary, and they couldn't celebrate it, and that my grandfather couldn't be here to see his only daughter celebrate it. I guess it's easier for me a little bit because my dad's not real emotional. But I was also thinking how my parents are in this constant at odds. I'm sure things will be better.. at least I hope. It's been a little bit harder than I thought it would be, and who knows how Wednesday and Thursday will be for me. My sister's plane comes in a five hours or so, but I probably won't see her until later this afternoon, but I know she'll cheer me up. It also didn't help to have some moron IM me today and say retarded things to me. It didn't really matter much to me what she said because I could give a crap less about what she has to say, but she just thoroughly annoyed me because of her stupidity and just her raunchy personality. But I guess it's just something I should let go because stuff like that and people like her don't really matter, and real things like my family and friends do. And then I guess I catch myself thinking about either how it'll be when what's hapenning to my dad happens to me, how I'll handle it, or how I'll feel and how my sister and I will deal with it, or how I would feel when if I lost my husband. This seems like such a far out concept because I'm so far away from that point of marriage, (and seems even weirder since my cousin is so close), but I dunno.. I guess it's just one of those things everyone has to go through. It's just odd because this is my first, and I wonder how many more times this will happen and if I'll be able to get through them all.

hmm.. today was interesting. i woke up rather later.. and instead of going to sleep early like i had planned i went to sleep really late. i don't know why.. i think it's because i was talking to nicole and doing cki work. anyways.. I ate lunch with Kristen in PC today and we chit chatted.. we had a really good talk. :) I went to the Credit meeting for Circle K, and then Staples with Sakura. Came home, put together my President's folder (yay me) and then chit chatted online for a bit. Crawled out of my house to go to the Lisa Loeb show where Jason Mraz opened for her. But I got there a little late, so I only got to hear one song. *sad. But took some pix with Jason Mraz (like the obsessed fan that I have become) and then went inside for the Lisa Loeb show. SHE IS SO AWESOME. I love her old stuff, and really like her new stuff. I bought her new cd, and got her to sign it and took some more pix. (yes.. obsessive). drove home, ate in and out. good stuff. i really should stop eating so late at night. vivian called neil to see if she could pick up her tupperware and since i was going to in and out, we thought it'd be nice to bring them milkshakes.. but they were all sleeping. oops.. sorry guys! but i guess people don't stay up as late as i do.. hmm maybe that's a sign that i should change my lifestyle. haha. anyways.. i have to do homework and cki stuff and other random sorts. i'm kind of mad at myself because i forgot to do something.. uh oh.. i'm in trouble. :P ciao!

ugh.. i had a really good blog.. and then my computer freaked out and re-started and i lost it all. and now i'm too upset (and lazy and tired) to re-do it all over again. so you'll just have to deal with this.

download these songs:
anything by jason mraz (especially better and sleeping to dream)
i think about you - collin raye
hey juliet - LMNT

but basically my life has been school, circle k and sleeping. which is nothing out of the ordinary.. and then some other stuff that no one really needs to know about.. but yeah. and I'm sick. so feel sorry for me. :P

tonight was a crazier night than I've had in awhile. and I made Nicole and Beth cry because they were laughing so hard at my idiocy that I thought I'd share it with you before you heard it from someone else. Anyways... lemme back up a bit.

Wednesday night I worked at the Men's Volleyball game vs. BYU. I swear.. those volleyball boys are so awesome. They are really good and I wish they could have won, but it was really close everytime.. I guess it's just those little things that matter. But it was weird because all these Mormoms infiltrated RIMAC.. and I hear that it's because the Church sent out at 5,000 person email saying to go support BYU at the game.. and thus.. they all showed up. It was kind of sad that they overpowered our crowd. And Griffin said it was even more crazy when they went to BYU last year. Like the crowd sits 5 feet away from you and screaming in your face. Crazy life.. I remember when I used to be an athelete.. aww.. sad.

Today.. went to class, ran errands with Sakura, and then came home and slept for 4 hours. I bought a new I-Zone though.. which is always fun. I feel kind of bad though, because I bought a new one (because it was cute and on sale) and the old one which I stole from my sister isn't even broken. hmph.. I'll just have to put both of them to good use. So when I woke up, ate dinner, did some cki work, and chilled. Vivian came over and then we ran to school (yes.. I was actually exercising.. good huh? .. ahha.. Kimmy thinks I'm on crack) and then went to Ralphs and saw some cute boys who invited us to a party.. but didn't really invite us.. I dunno. it was weird.. but yeah.. that was incident #1. Came back to my house, watched Bridget Jones' Diary.. funny funny movie, and then I was about to take Vivian back home and we started talking to this boy who said he was a musician and in the Screen Actor's Guild. After talking to him for awhile.. he gave us his number we called him, and then I guess found ourselves at his house. (don't ask). Upon driving there I called Nicole and told her that if I died, this is what happened to me. When we got there, we sat around for 10 minutes or so. He was so short, and umm.. quite "effeminate" as I would guess. But totally still in the closet. haha.. the first time I talked to him on the phone and he said "hi" I mouthed to Vivian "he sounds SO gay" and it's mean of me to say, but my gay-dar isn't good at all (Convention was a prime example of that) and I could tell. Vivian's went off too. So yeah.. he tried unsuccessfully to be suave and we left.. and he wasn't even like walk us out. But whatever... as we were walking back I saw on my left side some scary iron statue or this warrior guy holding a spear over his head, and Vivian saw a skeleton slumped in a chair, and one hanging from a cross. We simulatneously got freaked out and started screaming and running. As we neared the end of the walkway and approached the sand and water I slowed down because I remembered Beth's scary pier story. I looked back to check what was behind me, and when I turned back around there was a guy there and I promptly screamed. I felt like such a moron. Anyways... we talk to this boy while we're all walking out to the parking lot and he's going to work because he works at the airport. He was totally a cutie, said "y'all" and drove a mustang. And when Vivian introduced herself, he asked for our names which was big brownie points. So we wanted to hit on him while we were driving but I didn't have enough guts to stalk him while we were driving, so it didn't happen and now I'm kicking myself in the ass. oh well.. I guess it's not meant to be eh? Anyways.. on the way home I called Nicole to let her know I was okay, and she told Beth the whole situation, and they were both in tears laughing their ass off at me. Because it didn't get much better than "Jean drove to some random online guy's house at 4am on a whim who was short, hairy and gay who asked for weed." umm.. yeah.. the things I do at 4am when I've had too much sleep. Rest assured I am quite normal and these are not things that I do when I'm by myself... only when I'm with my lunatic friends.

so for all you UCSD kids.. vote yes on the Athletic Fee Referendum.. this is what I have to say. Today while I was walking back towards my car, we all passed by some Action kids handing out their literature. And then I heard some boys... who were probably losers with no life.. comment on how they didn't care enough to vote, but did vote on the Fee Referendum. And then went on to say how they voted no because they didn't want to pay the $27 to help out atheltics when only $1 or so went to recreational facilites. And then his lame ass friends concurred and said that that was bullshit, and it was the principle of that they didn't want money coming out of their pocket. And not to fund sports either because there weren't any sports worth watching or supporting at this school. And then one of those guys was all like, "well our water polo team is pretty good isn't it.. and our women's soccer team won the national championships again" and I don't think they really said anything in response to that, except that they didn't want to have to pay more money. This is my gripe, and I really didn't feel like getting in to a full blown argument with them.. so I'll just say it here. To those people who think there aren't any sports worth supporting... I bet you've never even gone to a game, or thought about it. How can you talk about something that you don't even know? And the point of the referendum is to fund these sports so that we can become better and make them more amusing to the masses. Sure.. maybe I am a little bit biased because I work for ICA... but that doesn't mean I'm wrong (haha.. cuz I never am). :P But schools like UCLA and Stanford pump big amounts of money into their sports, because they have money and thus people support them. We don't have money, and people think they suck, and then won't give them money and the whole cycle starts all over again. And I wouldn't say that sports weren't enjoyable anyways.. people that actually do go to games have a good time, and have lots of fun supporting their school. It's just all the lame losers who don't care enough to even look into it, and then say it's not worth their time, when really they have no clue what they're talking about. There's a lot of really talented athletes out there, and they shouldn't have to suffer the consequences of the apathetic student body and get less support than they already do. Like I pay $75 in my student fees to use RIMAC... and just because I don't go everyday.. my money's going to waste.. but I'm not complaining that this fee should be optional.. or to lower this just because I personally don't have the time to enjoy it and don't feel it's worth it? So moral of the story.. vote yes on the fee referendum

On another note.. my email hardly seems to be working correctly.. either I receive my mail, and can't send mail out, or I can send mail out, but can't receive it.. but not both at the same time. yuck.

One more thing.. my dad's leaving for Taiwan for three weeks and I'm not going to get to see him or talk to him. sadness. :( have a safe trip daddy.

so really I have nothing to blog about, or at least anything that I feel like sharing with people, but i felt like my blogger was lonely and empty and neglected so I decided to say at least something. hmm. let's see.. I worked at the San Diego Crew Classic this past weekend. both Saturday and Sunday much to my chagrin. not that it wasn't fun, but it required me to attempt to wake up at 5am both mornings and work until the late afternoon where it was quite nipply out by the bay. but it was fun, I got to play with binoculars and walkie talkies, ride in boats and sit on yachts (yay), and see some cute boys row. :) i'm so convinced that i want to own a boat or yacht or something... it'd be fun.. and I could add it to my collection along with my tourbus. hahah. anyways.. I sat on the yacht at the start line all Sunday afternoon and it was so awesome because it didn't even feel like it was moving.. wow.. amazing. Anyways.. Circle K stuff, family sadness and drama.. blah blah blah.. my life is boring.

i did however manage to sleep through yet another day of classes.. shame on me.. so I suck. it's only second week and i've missed two days of class.. and yet i'm still sitting here blogging at 2am.. i'm horrible. but on Friday, I did something that people would be proud of. For the past year or so I've sort of agonized over a friend who became not so much of a friend for ridiculous reasons.. but I was always sad because I knew we used to be good friends and thought maybe we could be once again. and this person has not always been the nicest person in the past year or so, and I just kind of dismissed it or took it like "doormat" however you want to put it. but I guess Friday was finally the last straw where I realized that, really, this person was definitely not worth it.. and maybe we used to be good friends, but things had definitely changed for good. It still makes me a little sad, but at the same time.. I honestly have no qualms about dismissing this person ... which is really unusual for me. hmm. .maybe I guess was because it was a long time coming. I don't know. .but for any reason this person I am no longer concerned with.. and it's a good thing. this is step 1 towards me being less "apathetic" and not to "care too damn much." good yeah? yes yes .. this is a small step, but baby steps huh?

wow.. this blog is longer than i expected.. and all about nothing too.. hmm.. I guess I'll leave you with a funny that was said at our Circle K mtg today:

Hailes: "So everyone can attest that that's my corner because it's where everyone picks me up."

ummm.. yeah.. so I'm a horrible person.. or a horrible student at least because it's only the first week of school and I'm behind on my reading and I skipped classes.. well I didn't do it on purpose.. but when my alarm clock failed to get me out of bed because of the invention of the snooze button.. and then I finally woke up at 11 and realized that my first class was over and my second class had already started. but then i realized that my clock was 15 minutes fast, and that I actually had 20 minutes to get ready.. but i wouldn't make it time with parking/me being slow. oops. anyways.. so I chilled, made myself a sandwich because I FINALLY went shopping and have food in my fridge. I think I got sick of eating out all the time because it was so expensive. Watched "Two of a Kind" with Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen. Nicole's going to disown me as a friend.. but I actually really like watching that show.. and their other show So Little Time.. it's not like I watch it religiously or anything, but if it's on.. I enjoy it. :) yes yes.. now I'm no longer Nicole's friend.. but hey.. maybe it's her fault.. she bought me their makeup! Anyways... then I drove to school, ran some errands.. bought Strokes and Tenacious D tix for my sister's roommate and went to Groundworks at like 5:02 to find out that they closed at 5. fart. Anyways.. then I just chilled at Vivian's for a bit, went to Costco and got gas. (ooh.. exciting) and then went to go see the Jason Mraz show with Vivian, Julie and Brianne. Originally I didn't want to go, just so I could chill at home, and then I only went because they needed a sober driver, but I'm really glad that I went because he's really really good. It's very chill/mellow music, and he's really nice and what not. We took tons of pictures and got him to sign our cd's and probably looked like the hugest groupies and like big fools. Dah well. But I guess we might go see him again with Lisa Loeb at Canes.. so that will be fun.. I always really like Lisa Loeb.. I hope she plays her old stuff.. hahahaha.. she's prolly so old now. Anyways.. Then Darrell called me cuz he was in San Diego.. and we talked, he came by and we all tried to go the Pike party but it was closed cuz of fire hazard. Saaad.. I really wanted to dance too. damn us and our groupiness. Then Darrell and I just went to Roberto's.. we had a little mishap with the cheese and its moldiness.. but um.. yeah.. I think I'll live.. hopefully. But I have to get up tomorrow to volunteer at the SD Crew Classic.. so I'm debating whether or not to go to sleep... hmm.... and listening to Manny's details of his date... *sigh... I want to go on a date. I hate you Manny. :P

ho hum ho hum.. i'm bored. hah.. I should probably be reading some Foucault.. but not like that would make me any less bored. yesterday was fun... I did some circle k junk.. mostly just tabling. and then took a nap and awoke to the sounds of screaming girls playing Dance Dance Revolution.. so I went downstairs to join the fun. hehe.. now I'm a crazed addict. I did tear myself away though to watch an independent film with Julie.. it was pretty funny. "Late Night Shopping" And then picked Vivian up at the airport. And then proceeded to play some more Dance Dance Revolution, hehehe.. cleaned my room and watched Dawson's and Felicity. awww... Today did more cki junk, and classes. Also went to Costco and had a fiasco where I locked Vivian's keys in her car and my ice cream was melting in the backseat. Finally Julie brought the spare keys and went to Savon to "peruse" the liquor section.. hmm.... anyways.. so not much.. I don't really feel like doing anything.. so.. yeeeeeaaaahhhh.

ugh.. it feels like it should be friday. haha.. it's only been two days of school and i'm already sick of it.. how horrible is that? Anyways.. nothing too exciting. On Saturday I went to a birthday dinner/party that my sister had and it was at this really nice restaurant and it was a lot of fun. Hehe.. it made me all jealous because A) I wanted it to be my birthday, and B) all her friends seem like they all have it figured out. Of course I know that they don't but like they all have their movies that they're in, or their producing things.. I dunno.. and know what they're talking about.. and I felt so young and inexperienced. And they were all drinking wine.. but I didn't want any anyways.. and plus I was driving ;) So yeah.. that was a fantastic time. Sunday I got to see Joey (yay!) and he brought over a cake that his mom had baked for us.. it's SO good. Drove back, and there was INSANE traffic on the 5 around Del Mar. But I got home, and the past two days I've just been in school and doing Circle K stuff. My first meeting was interesting and had some run ins with some morons.. :P and that's putting in mildly. haha.. but it was a good first meeting I suppose. I LOVE MY BOARD! :) Today was classes some more, and it was kinda sucky because I wanted to get into my Pornography and the Law class, but this teacher wouldn't let me in because she gave priority to 5th year graduating seniors. Yuck. I should have gotten in that class.. and really if these people wanted to graduate so bad, then you would take any of the other open comm classes.. it's not like that was the last one ever. It blew. But instead I'm in a Children's Lit class which a billion people were trying to add, so I felt bad because I was taking up a space.. but it's for my GE. And Sakura, Stup, Jill, Trish and Jennie are in it.. so it would be a fun time to see them since I hardly ever got to hang out with them. yay... hanging out in class.. so exciting. Did some more Circle K stuff (yes.. again) and then came home and was a couch potato. Took Vivian to the airport, and had a date with Sakura. :) we talked about Circle K, school and boys.. :P It was a good break.. and I'll have to have dinner with her more often.. ew.. not like I'm not going to see enough of her this year. But yeah.. I'm supposed to read 80 pages of deLauretis (again) and the technologies of gender.. oh yay.... *sigh*

you know one thing that i've been thinking about today? a)i'm a bit of a girly girl... when I was getting thrown in the pool.. the first thing I thought about was "take off my shoes! they're Steve Madden!" b)i really love my friends who have supported me this whole year, it really means a lot to me, and i've only succeeded so well because of all of you.. thanks. c)and even though I can be super nice and thoughtful to those people I like.. I'm totally like that stereotypical high school popular girl and can be the biggest brat of all when I want to. if you piss me off.. i mean.. really really piss me off.. I can be quite evil. And sometimes.. this is worst of all.. I can be so snobby and bratty. I'm not saying I'm proud of it.. but it has just tended to be my nature that I've realized in the past few years.. maybe always.. but I've only noticed it lately. I love my friends, and we have the best time together. And we're all very sarcastic and witty. But we can also be quite mean... yikes.. I'm such a jerk. *ugh..

wow.. I can't believe tomorrow's Friday and my spring break is already over... sad sad sad. Today was alright.. more running around due to post banquet stuff. I was SO tired after I cleaned up and gave Hailes the extra food. I woke up all tired.. drove the chafing dishes back to Oscar's came back, and just kind of sat for another hour. Then I went to return the key, and then came back.. packed and drove home. I missed my dentist appointment because I thought I was going to be super late.. and so I called to reschedule. But when I got back to Torrance I was only like 5-10 minutes late... and I should have just went, but when I called back they were all like.. nah.. don't come in.. of course, because they feel like I would throw off their schedule. But dude.. it's not like I wouldn't have been sitting in that dang office for that long anyways... what fools. So I just chilled at home.. which was REALLY nice and felt SO good. I just sat and watched my Dawson's, Felicity and South Park.. hehehe.. "you're breakin' my balls man" Oh my gosh.. it was a little depressing though.. because it was when Jen and Dawson first started dating.. and like.. he was all like "I'm not like your other boyfriends. i'm not going to cheat or lie, and I'll keep coming home no matter how much you push me away. And either you'll learn, or you'll keep on testing me, but the result will be the same." AWWW... I want a Dawson.. he's such a cutie. And then there's Ben.. who yeah... *sigh. ANYWAYS.

I went to the library to check out some books for my sis.. but I ended up checking out some of my favorite childhood books.. Me and Katie (the Pest) I love that book. and some other Ann M. Martin books. Then I went out to dinner with my sister to Chili's and we got some movies from Blockbuster... I bought some *hopeless romantic silly girl* movies.. Someone Like You and The Wedding Planner. And I was going to buy Save the Last Dance but I bought American Pie 2 cuz it was cheaper.. haha. But yeah.. came back and just chilled.. home is good.

So yeah.. now it's Thursday morning.. and I'm really done. Like.. officially done done.. well as Lieutenant Governor anyways. Today was my banquet, and I mean.. I wasn't really sad, because I think I had already thought about the sadness part so much already. *sigh.. that was during convention, before I even got retired.. but at the pre-board mtg, and at the board meeting, and all that weekend, I just started to realize, this is it... I'm not going to be on the District Board anymore, ever .. again. sad huh? Everyone kept asking me if I was sad, and like.. I was just kind of like.. not really. I mean.. I'm not so much a girly girl, and I didn't cry and convention and I didn't cry tonight, but tonight was really good... I think it was because all of my friends were there to help me celebrate. I was so surprised that so many people wanted to come, maybe because it was right after convention, maybe it was because Hawaii was there.. it's definitely not because all of them loved me, some of them maybe, but not all of them. :P I don't know.. it was all very weird. But let me back up.

Tuesday- I went to the dentist, then drove back down to SD. I feel really bad because my mom's super pissed at me right now.. and I think it's combination of being pissed at me and being dissapointed in me maybe. I wasn't home all weekend, and then went out again on Sunday night, then went out again Monday night, and left for SD on Tuesday.. so really I haven't spent any time at home and I think that makes her sad, and the way she reacts is by getting mad at me. I felt super bad last week because my dad had called and wanted to talk to me, and asked me when I was coming home and I was trying to explain to him how I was coming home, but leaving again and then coming back.. and he was all like "yeah yeah I know you're busy." Like they've accepted all the times I've come home after Circle K weekends and just slept but not really gotten to see me. When Joe made his farewell speech my freshman year he totally talked about how his parent's house became like a motel for him, just a place to stop or just a place to sleep, and I totally know what he means now. But anyways.. came back, showered, and then went with Kimmy to Canes to see MEST. They played with some bands named Inspection 12 and Whippersnapper. We really liked Inspection 12 and were going to get their CD, but they were all sold out by the time we got to it. But MEST was really good and I totally like them I got the lead singer to sign the sticker I bought.. haha.. whatevers. Then ate In N Out with Gibbler and chit chatted about our least favorite subject boys. She's kinda having a tough time right now, and sometimes it makes me wonder if it's really worth it.. but then again I think, I'm not even at that point, and when is it my turn? *sigh* I guess I just have to be patient and it will come to me.. that's what everyone says anyways. Then came back home and talked on the phone with Mike and then went to bed. - interesting eh?

Today! I woke up rather early because I had to change the food order.. for some reason I counted wrong and thought that there were going to be way more people, so I bumped up the food, but I realized I counted wrong.. but it was already too late. dah well. Ran around like a fool trying to get banquet stuff done and was WAY WAY WAY late in starting.. I started it on Jean time.. hahahahaha whatever. Sorry guys.. but the food was alright. We had chafing dishes for serving and on the bottom were these canned heat things. So Ryan Billings and Lan started to light them with their cigarette lighters from the car and pieces of notebook paper... I nearly had a heart attack and in my mind I saw the whole place burning down and realized that I was going to lose a lot more than my deposit.. but I guess they're pros because it was all done with. People ate, I ran my DCM and the Banquet, gave out awards (thanks Armando for the 50 million times I asked you for help), and then got gel frosting squirted on me and my dress, Kathy saved me from being thrown into the pool (thank you Kathy) only to be "caked" by Joel in my hair... yeah.. in my hair. Sick.. that is the worst place ever.. it's way worse than the time in 5th grade were some seagull pooped on me on a whale watching trip where I didn't see any whales. I felt like I had a whole head full of pigeon poop. Anyways.. I went back an showered and changed.. it was okay.. I lived. Sakura came back to see if I was okay and stayed while I showered.. what a sweetie. Went back, showed the talent videos, gave my little farewell speech and cleaned up. Everyone just kinda mingled and talked and we all took pictures. Overall it was a really good night and I'm really lucky to have had so much support and so many really good friends who were willing to drive down to SD for some sloppy food and a banquet that didn't even start on time where they even had to sit on the floor. But it was kind of like a big party. I felt kinda bad though because I was saying a lot of things wrong and people were correcting me, and I felt really bad.. I was tired.. sorry. But tonight towards the end as the crowd got thinner and thinner, and people helped me clean up and we just talked I realized that my friends are awesome. I'm really glad that I was on District Board this year because I got to meet some amazing people that I feel like I'll talk to for a long time to come. And people who really care and help when you need it. So for all of you thanks.. I love you. haha I even got presents.. I felt like it was my birthday party. Thanks to John for getting this really cool candle/dolphin stand.. it's so pretty. Thanks to Holly for getting me a really cute picture frame. Thanks to Sakura for buying me super gorgeous flowers and thanks to those two big nerds Beth and Nicole who bought me a Britney Spears doll and Mary Kate and Ashley glitter spray. hahahaha.. I love those geeks. It's so funny though because more and more I've been hearing people's first impressions of me, or like when they first met me stories.. and a good majority of the people think I'm weird, or crazy or annoying.. or all three. That's not so good.. hmm.. What's going on? oh well.. people think that, but I guess if they stick around long enough to really know me, then it's good, and if they don't... then they can go screw themselves.. *whatever.. I do what I want.* I dunno.. so much more to say.. but i'm tired.. so i'll continue this later.. but I have to say..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JOAN!!

yikes.. I haven't blogged in a long time. I guess that's just a testament to how busy my life has been this past week. I blog religiously.. even when I have school work to do.. hahah.. Anyways.. I guess I spent last Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday doing Circle K work.. prepping for Convention and what not. No surprise there. I worked some on the scrapbook with Sakura, and then worked on my spirit items, and then tried to organize rides and emailing people, and of course working on banquet stuff. Oh my.. busy busy busy. I'm so busy I haven't had time to update myself in my *NSYNC planner. oh my.. that's busy. Anyways. here's the beginning of my weekend:

THURSDAY:
I was doing stuff all day. Went to try and pick up the shirts and found out that they wouldn't be ready. Wet Monkey was really janky this time.. I don't know what's wrong. But anyways.. arranged for them to be done on Friday morning and for Sakura to pick them up. Took care of some more stuff, packed and emailed some people and finally left for Nicole's. I got a really late start.. sorry to Nicole for leaving so late because I know she wanted to leave a lot earlier than that. I was going to stop by at home too before I went to Nicole's, but I didn't get a chance to do that either.. sad.. I didn't get to see my daddy. :( Anyways..got to Nicole's finished my pasta, and then drove to Visalia. Yikes.. I didn't realize that that drive was so bad. Especially when it was dark. Thanks to Nicole once again for riding with me, and not ditching me earlier on.. haha I guess I should thank Armando for already being on the 5. It was kinda scary because I was going quite speedily on the freeway to try and get to Visalia for the pre-board mtg. Sorry I was late, but at times I caught myself going 100mph (don't tell my parents!) and I was going uphill like 80 mph, and then we started going downhill, and the road curved to the right, and I got totally freaked out because my car was going really fast and I almost lost control. It was scary. So anyways.. we were in Visalia and Nicole start screaming and shreiking "VISALIAAAAAAA!!!! WHOOOO HOOOOOO!" And then when we pulled off the freeway towards the exit Nicole stuck her head out the window to scream some more, but quickly pulled it back in because it was "ew.. stinky" awwww.. Nicole's so cute! Go to the board meeting way late, and just talked about the weekend, and then worked on some stuff. hahaha I fixed Carrie's computer when Sukhyung coudln't.. hahahahahaah.

FRIDAY-
Got woken up by Nicole who is quite possibly the worst human alarm clock. :P and then Board Meeting. sad.. it was the last board meeting. That was the first "I can't believe it's ending already moment" and then Walmart Errands with Carrie for the DBoard. I swear.. I have been to Walmart more times in this past week then I have been in my entire life. heh. Had the DBoard lunch at the hotel.. Philly Cheesesteaks.. yumm. it was SO good. Yeah.. food in Visalia is really good, I guess it makes up for everything else. Then the members started arriving, and then we had opening session. I, of course, felt like a retard in the pseudo costume that I just made up, put people liked it, so it was all good. Had opening session, and Convention had officially started. It was so funny because Nicole was all like "Jean.. we're sitting at the head table!" And it's a cool feeling.. sitting at that table and looking out at the members cheering and clapping and being excited for Circle K. Anyways.. did that then went to caucus. Retarded me, I decorated the caucus room, and it was all nice.. but I decorate the wrong room, because they swtiched them around I guess after the program was printed. *sigh I was kinda upset.. but I got over it. Anyways... caucus with Foothill, and then afterwards I think I just hung out with Carrie, Nicole and Beth.

SATURDAY-
Caucus once again, but got breakfast.. danishes..mmm.. And then the rehearsal for dinner, and then I took a little break. I probably should have went to a workshop, but Jane told us to take naps or else we wouldn't make it through the rest of the day and she was probably right. So I resided in my room before it was time for lunch, and then House of Delegates. It was an interesting House of Delegates like I thought it would be, and Hailes got elected District Pub Ed! Yay! It was so funny because after his speech people were all cheering for him, and Sakura and I were so astounded and baffled because we were all like.. these people are cheering for Hailes, and they don't even know who he is. And maybe it was his speech, but I didn't think it was anything spectacular, it was just "Hailes." And Beth said something about how he was charming or endearing and how she thought he was really cool, and again.. Sakura and I laughed because we would never have thought to use Hailes and charming in the same sentence. I don't know.. something about that boy makes us so amused. But we love him and he's great and we're so excited that he's Pub Ed. hehe.. we're still going to treat him the same.. hahaha. Anyways.. then got primped for the Senior/VIP reception. We sat and listened to Joe about his "ingenious" ideas about barbers and who knows what else. Then the awards dinner. I'm so proud of UCSD, we won so many things, and we won the things that counted.. SCRAPBOOK! yay.. we won scrapbook and Sakura and I were sooooo happy. It's like our child. haha. It's a good thing that we won because then we wouldn't have to had staged a walk out. hehe.. I guess that $20 I gave Nicole really helped :P. Then I made a Walmart run with Megan, came back and danced for a little bit, and then did PTP pieing. hahahah I didn't get pied. I thought for a chance I might have been able to, but UCI put their tickets in Team 1 because they wanted the opportunity to pie someone.. which was dumb because if they had just waited for UCSD to put in their tix, then it may have been a closer race. Oh well.. too bad for Team 1, good for me. hahahahah. Then stayed up all night, with the exception of my power nap, and helped out with some stuff here and there. While Nicole is the worst human alarm clock I would have to say that Jimmy is the most amusing. He had phone calls with Michael Vartan and the Backstreet Boys to try and wake up Pic and Carrie. mm.. funny funny

SUNDAY
Got ready for rehearsal, then had the farewell session. *sigh.. sad sad sad. My divsion did win the Divsional Unity Award though.. which is awesome... yay my division! I also got to MC this session, which was fun, but I did mess up some names and "superheroines" oops.. my bad. During the slideshow and the speeches.. I never really cried. I don't know if it was because I was tired, or I had already heard most of the speeches, but like.. I think I was just sad it was over, but I knew that my Circle K life wasn't over. And that I'd see these people again. I don't know.. it's weird.. I was so sad, but it wasn't enough to bring me to tears.. I think it's cuz I was too tired to cry.. :( But the slide show I was laughing so hard I started to cry. Because Kathy and Nicole sat with me, and they were making fun of me and my "yay!" cheer. I dunno.. when I get happy I say "yaaaay" and so everytime they saw a picture of me or my division they'd do it all loud and I almost fell out of my chair because I was laughing so hard because I was so embarrased. Afterwards, took some pictures, and then rushed off to go check out of my room. Session ran way late, and I had to be at the Board Meeting, and so I left Sakura in the room, and came back later to check out. I think the maids were kinda irritated.. but I thought that I'd have tons of time. Dude.. I had so much stuff though. Packed my car, shoved in Nicole, Sakura and Beth's stuff. Ate Jack in the Box with the girls and Ryan and then it was off for home. I was so extremely tired though, and I started swerving here and there, and that woke me up of course. But like twenty minutes later I was so exhausted that i knew I would probably kill us all. The girls were so tired too though and none of them could drive so I parked at a nearby park and we all napped. Later when we woke up i went to go buy ice cream and water from McDonald's and they decided that Beth should drive. So she drove for a little bit, and then we stopped off to get gas, and I drove again. Met up with some CPP fools at TGI Friday's. We showed off the scrapbook and then went home. I dropped Nicole and Sakura off, and then came home for a bit and then went to Denny's with Carrie. hehe.. it's so weird, I've always gone to Denny's during convention and this year I didn't, but I guess we made up for it. Sat and talked and then I went home.

TODAY
Wow. that weekend just came and went like that, so fast. Today I didn't wake up until 4pm, and that was because Nicole called and my daddy woke me up. Otherwise.. who knows how long I would have slept. Chit chatted online and checked the million messages I had. Mostly junk emails though. Then head out with Mondo and Manny to meet up with Beth, Nicole and Ryan and did a pseudo-board post convention dinner. It was our attempt to stay in the convention world, but it's nice to just chill and have spring break after convention because it was so tiring and I would have died if I had to have school this week. We ate the Rainforest Cafe, and Sukhyung joined us later and then drove Manny and I home. It was a good time, we just sat and talked ... mostly about CKI stuff of course. hehe.. It's inevitable.. you put two Circle K'ers together and you get CKI talk. Anyways... I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and then banquet errands to run. Then back to SD for the MEST concert with Kimmy and then my banquet on Wednesday. Back to Torrance later on to chill with Angelee and spend some quality time with her.. :) I love that girl. And then back to school on Sunday. Yikes.. I hope my banquet goes okay. I dont' know.. I have like a million things to do. *sigh.

But for now.. I'm tired.. so tired I can't really think straight. I think I'll totally need this week to catch up on my sleep deprivation from this weekend. But hopefully I'll get to talk to all my friends as well. :) I just want to chill.. that's all.. that sounds good to me.
*ps.. sorry that this isn't like very insightful or like my thoughts or what not.. but just an update of my life. my real thoughts and feelings will probably come later when I'm not so tired and have the patience to come up with these things.

Yikes.. I feel like ever since I turned in my papers, my life has been a whirlwind of activities... not necessarily fun ones.. but just in and out all the time. Yikes.. but today has been a chill day.. so I can tell you what I'm NOT doing right now.. which is writing another paper. haha.. hey.. I wrote 22 pages last week.. it takes a lot out of you. I don't know if I have it in me to go 7-10 more. Anyways...

I'm in a pretty good mood. I was way bummed out during the weekend, but I guess my moods just kind of come and go. I hope there's nothing wrong with me. :P On Thursday I worked on my two papers all day.. with a few exceptions here and there.. but mostly working on the papers, or complaining about them.. it all goes hand in hand. I was up forever and a day though, and went to Jack in the Box at 2am with Kristen, and took an hour nap (that was only supposed to be 15 minutes.. oops) at 4:30 and finished writing my paper. Turned in my Museums and Zoos paper, and then my Popular Culture paper. It felt soooo good just to hand them in and be done with it. *yay. Went to Roberto's with Kristen afterwards because she hadn't eaten all day, and then I went back home and passed the fuck out. :) excuse my vulgar language. but I seriously was unconcious. Woke up a little later, and was supposed to go to Kristen's dance concert, but just ended up hanging out, talking on the phone. I was a little bummed out because I didn't have anyone to hang out with on a Friday night besides myself. (yeah.. I know.. I'm lame).. But finally when Kristen came home we went to Jack in the Box (we're whores for Jack in the Box) and then went back to her place and watched I am Sam. It's a really good movie, and little sad at times, and that little girl Dakota Fanning is sooooo cute. aww.. But it was really good.. went home and slept.

Saturday I went to Total K day and did community service with the most delinquent children ever. They were cussing and talking mad smack and threatening me.. it was insane. It was just so hard to control them and be responsible for them, when they really gave you no respect. When I came back for lunch I sat down with Kathy, Jill, Amanda and Jason and they all looked at me and asked me how everything went, and I gave them this look, and I knew they understood because they went through the same thing. Anyways.. went home, napped, went to work at the polo game.. it was Princeton.. aww.. I still got a little nostalgic from wanting to go there. *sigh.. but whatever.. the girls kicked their butts.. so it made me feel a bit better :) Afterwards I think I was supposed to go to the Dance Concert again.. missed it again, but I went over to Sakura's and worked on the scrapbook until midnight-thirty. It's so cute though.. we're TOTALLY going to win.. Kiss my ass Berkeley! haha.. just kidding. Anyways.

Worked again the next morning, ran to Walmart for Circle K errands with Sakura, work again, and then home.. for like 20 minutes.. went to the airport to pick Vivian up, and it was totally crowded like a mo-fo, and then came home again, changed, and Jill picked me up for the Dance Concert. We finally made it and Kristen was SO good. She's so talented and graceful.. now I'm mad at my parents for laughing at me whenever I told them I wanted to be a ballerina. :P But it also totally made me want to be a performer. This always happens.. whenever I go see shows, I picture myself on the stage and it makes me want to be up there. hehe.. Afterwards went to Jill to this bar in El Cajon that we thought was a total hole in the wall, but it ended up being this really huge party out in the parking lot. It was alright but it was a lot of crazy older drunk people (like.. 30's and 40's) and it was also raining. I got really cold and wet and I'm really surprise that I'm only mildly sick. But it's all good. :)

Today has been and EXCELLENT day. I've been in such a good mood. I got tons of rest today and woke up, showered, and my hair is behaving today. :) I got a B+ on my Pop Culture paper (yay me!) and I could take the final to try and raise my grade.. but it would only help if I got an A on the final, and I don't really think I could do that.. so I'm free for today. I went to my audition to try and get in to Singing for Actors next quarter, and although I might not get into it, the teacher said I did really well, and she had a big smile on her face, which is usually a good sign, so it made me happy. :) Came home, got food at Ralphs because I'm too lazy to make anything (and I really don't have much to make stuff with) and watched Days of Our Lives for the first time in a long time. Austin was on today and that totally made my day.. except for he's with retarded Sami.. ugh.. these story writers. Anyways.. they were all in this really fancy restaurant.. and it made me all girly like I wanted to go out to a nice place, get all dressed up and what not. *sigh.. but.. I will get to get all dressed up and do my hair all cute this weekend at convention! yay! I still need to go dress shopping.

On Thursday night/Friday morning while I was taking one of my many "study breaks" I added links to my page. yay! (look to your left) I'm excited because I did it.. all by myself.. I guess working at computer camp for two summers was worth something. Anyways.. on Friday or Saturday I added comments to my page - thanks to Pete for helping me out- so now all y'all can comment on my super exciting life. hah. jk.. you can just comment and tell me what a retard I am. Just click on the word "Comments" at the bottom of each entry. I know you want to profess your love towards me. So go comment! Now!

okay.. so I'm about ready to "jab myself with a rusty spoon" as Manny would say. I don't think I've ever worked so hard in my life. I definitely need a break.. so hello blogger! I have been holed up in my room this week writing these stupid papers.. and it's 10:30pm and I have my Pop Culture paper almost done. Which is a good sign because it's done more than 24 hours before it's due.. BUT I have one more 10 page paper to due before 9am.. and that would be my problem. ugh. damn these teachers who think that final papers should be due 10th week instead of finals week. I have been online doing research and trying to spit out words to write my paper with all week and I don't think my computer can handle it anymore. It keeps crashing every few hours when I ask it to do too many things... and it's either restart or restart, and I almost cry because I don't think I've saved in awhile. But thank you to the man who decided to have something in Word that recovers stuff when you don't get a chance to save.. I LOVE YOU!

anyways.. I'm really not supposed to be blogging, and I think it's time to get back on the horse. but my life really hasn't been too exciting this week. I think I've only been to school and oh.. I worked at the NYU/UCSD Men's Volleyball game. Yay! We won, so that was exciting.. although that was the night I got 1.5 hours of sleep so I really wanted to kill the NYU coach everytime he called a timeout... grr. Other than that I just sit here and hope that make there will be some way to get out of this paper writing festival when really I know there's not. But I did take an IQ test today on AOL, and then used that re-do my "how much I'm worth quiz" hehe.. I'm worth exactly $2,285,374.00. hah! take that Nicole! haha.. just kidding. Anyways.. it was fun.. check it out. Yes, me writing these papers has made me mad and I've resorted to taking retarded quizzes, harassing Nicole about her "love life" and listening to my *NSYNC Christmas CD (yes... I know it's not Christmas) but I just got it.. so I figured I'd give it a whirl. I did take a break and watch the new *NSYNC Girlfriend video with Nelly in it. They are so great, and I love them and I had the biggest idiot smile on my face forever.

this is me and Nicole:
jeanyah: i LOVE *nsync
jeanyah: no no no I LOOOOOOOVVVEEEEE *nsync
*five minutes later*
jeanyah: oh my gosh.. i love them
spaznik: yeah yeah.. i got it
spaznik: jean LOVES *nsync
spaznik: loves them.

Gosh.. I just looked at my Calendar.. I can't believe that Convention is in a week. By this time in a week I'll be in Visalia (oh joy) preparing to have one of our last pre-board meeting meetings and our ice cream social. Oh my.. it's going to be kinda sad.. a nostalgic kind of sad.. awww... *sigh.. how quickly the year passes.. but I'm sure you'll here lots more about it in the coming week. But for now.. I have other things to do...

aiya... time to go back to writing my masterpieces of crap. wish me well y'all.

oh good lordy. I really am not enjoying this week at all.. it's going to kill me. And this morning I was all sorts of bummed out. So yeah.. I still have two 10 page papers due on Friday.. one on Pop Culture.. and one on Animals. yeah.. it seems all easy enough.. but a)it's ten pages and b)it's such a broad topic where I have to formulate my own argument and conclusions and what not. damn these upper division classes.. they don't give us prompts anymore. *sigh.. I miss the third grade. Anyways.. Monday I went to bed at like 6:30am.. work up at 8:50 for my 9:05 class.. needless to say I was late. But I did have a productive day.. I sat in Price Center and read.. that was fun .. yay. Went to my other classes, and then came home and napped before Circle K. Where.. I woke up at 6:50 for my 7:00 meeting.. but that was only because my daddy called me :) otherwise I'm sure I would have slept right through. Checked in at the lecture on campus for COCU175, talked to Sakura and then went home, tried to do work, and went to bed at 3am. Today.. I was supposed to have a productive day.. but yeah.. I just kind of slept all day.. oops. But I'll make up for it tonight by not sleeping and *hopefully* getting to work on my paper. I had a coffee date with Mania and then went to the library and checked out 8 books on Mardi Gras.. or actually.. Carnival.. whatever. But today while I was online I did get to talk to Mary.. so that was fun.. I totally miss that girl. So this is why I was bummed out..
a- because I have two 10 page papers to do, and don't really know what direction to take them in.. so basically I'm going to fail.
b- because I'm SO busy with school and Circle K and everything else.. but yet I don't feel like I'm doing anything
c- and because I gave up going to the *NSYNC concert on Sunday because I didn't think I could make it, and I was just going to go today.. but 1)I could have made it and 2)I didn't go today. I didn't go because it would have been foolish of me to drive all the way out there when I have a million things to do. And it sucks because I really wanted to go... so badly I even contemplated buying tickets for Friday in Vegas.. but I wouldn't be able to get out there in time because I have class.. and it's a far drive. So I missed the Pop Odessey tour, and it sucks.. and it makes me quite sad.

but as always.. I have my friends to help me out.. here are some wise words from my friends:
KitCheNsync222: oy vey...
KitCheNsync222: okay, BREATHE.
KitCheNsync222: take a few deep breaths and BREATHE right now.
KitCheNsync222: thats the most importnat thing.
KitCheNsync222: without breathing, you won't be able to accomplish anything. ;0
KitCheNsync222: did you outline what you have to do?
KitCheNsync222: like write it all down?
jeanyah: mm. kind of
KitCheNsync222: and plan a schedule?
jeanyah: not really
KitCheNsync222: i know it sounds dorky.
KitCheNsync222: but that always makes me feel better.
KitCheNsync222: charting it all out.
jeanyah: i just don't really know enough to even make an outline
jeanyah: that's how much trouble i'm in
KitCheNsync222: realizing what you have to do is good, but then you need to plan it out you know? seriously, break down your hours and stuff. :-)
KitCheNsync222: you do too.

Me: Michele, I'm going to fail out of school
Michele: I did that already.
Me: So it's not that bad eh?
Michele: nope.

Sakura: I know what you should do. Go back to sleep, wake up, eat, then go back to sleep, wake up, eat again, take a shower, and then start your homework. And you have to eat a lot or else it doesn't count okay? So eat lots of good food.

CKI Pete: I see. I think you need a vacation... with some hot male strippers.

HELLOOOOOOOO! So as usual I'm blogging instead of sleeping or studying or doing something useful with my time.. but hey.. blogging it's pretty important right? uhhh.. yeaaaahhhhh. Anyways.. thanks to everyone who a)asked me if my hand was okay and then b)laughed at me for being such a dumbass... but yes.. my pretty little hand is okay I suppose. It still hurts a little bit here and there, and the wound is still pretty nasty.. but I'll live.. especially for these next two weeks.. dammit! :P Anyways.. but I did manage to hurt myself even more on Friday night.. (yes.. I know..) and Manny says I'm the one keeping the bandaid business alive.. har har har. Let's see:

THURSDAY- MARCH 7th- I got woken up quite early in the morning for a Circle K call (glorious) and then proceeded to sleep until 2pm.. so much for me getting a early start on the day. I tried to read some while I scanned some pictures for the Convention slide show for my division, and ordered pizza for dinner because I was too much of a lazy bum to cook, but I guess also the fact that I really didn't have any food in my fridge to cook was also a factor. Ate pizza, sort of watched Friends and afterwards although I had said that we would run the dishes through the dishwasher, for some reason we didn't and my dishes piling up in the sink were bothering me.. so I washed my dishes with my one good hand, because my left hand hurt and I didn't want to get it all dirty. Anyways.. needless to say that took awhile. After that I felt like I needed to get out of the hosue so I went and bought some coffee and ice cream and went to go visit Kimmy.. who.. WASN'T HOME! Jesus.. that girl is so busy. Afterward went to the library and read, came home and read and finally fell asleep

FRIDAY- MARCH 8th- Dragged my sorry ass out of bed, rushed off to class, went to the Kiwanis Luncheon, class, nap, went to the Lacrosse Game to see Kristen dance. They performed their routine to Britney Spears! haha.. it was great. And then later I was supposed to go to Trish's house and watch a movie with her, but I came back, got some food and took it over to Vivian's and ate it there while I watched Dude Where's My Car (I love that movie)... yeah yeah yeah.. but what does mine say? dude! what does mine say? sweet! anyways... it got too late for me to go to Trish's since she was sick, so we talked on the phone and realized we hadn't really seen each other in soooo long and made plans to hang out after the craziness of 10th week and finals were over. Went to a party with Vivian.. it was kind of random.. just a bunch of her work friends, kinda older people.. they freak me out a bit.. but it was entertaining I suppose. Ate In N Out at 1:30am.. (yikes) and stopped by Mike and Stan and Hayden's and then went home. I stayed up and did my MRF while this guy on AOL tried to convince me to let him come over.. umm.. okaaaay.

SATURDAY- MARCH 9th- Woke up friggin' early to go the Kiwanis DCM in Escondido which is friggin far. came back.. napped, ran off to the water polo game for work, dropped off the stats. I had planned on doing laundry but fell asleep again, went to another water polo game, dropped off more stats, and then came home. Where Ann and I worked on selling the SD NSYNC tickets and I was trying to read. Finally this guy wanted to buy tickets for his granddaughter.. (aww. how cute) and so we arranged for me to go drop them off in Escondido.. yeah.. had to drive out there again. boo. Anyways.. I was more than willing to just because I needed to unload these tickets and it was totally cool that they were buying these tix for their granddaughter's 13th bday. But at midnight I got in bed and read and finally decided to sleep at 1am. (wow.. that's a record huh.) Got multiple phone calls and messages from Vivian, but I was so tired that the phone didn't wake me up.. when it usually does. But at 3am.. she definitely woke me up leaving this message that she had run out of gas in the stretch of freeway that only had praries and grass. And she didn't know where I was because I hadn't answered any of her phone calls and so Neil was going to go pick her up. Crazyness.. haha. I guess it's like the time Pete ran out of gas.. except I guess it wasn't 3am and he wasn't in Oceanside. oh well. Anyways.. I called her back, talked to her for a bit, called Neil and offered to go with him so he wouldn't have to go fetch Vivian by himself, but he just ended up going by himself anyways. hah. oh well. I crawled back into bed and kept Vivian company on the phone until she said her phone was running out of batteries, tried to go back to sleep, and then got another call around 4:30 saying that she was on her way back. oh crazy crazy crazy.

TODAY!- So anyways.. despite all of that I woke up at 9am (SO TIRED) packed up my bags and headed out the door to drop off the NSYNC tix. The guy was really cool and owns this place that sells corvettes.. yeah.. he totally could have afforded to buy my tickets off me. But I hadn't seen so many really nice corvettes all together in one place.. Angelee would have died. But as I was leaving, I almost got into a fatty car accident.. cuz I was pulling out of the driveway and there was a big ass van blocking my view on the left side.. so I waited until all these cars had passed because I could see like way far down the road so I looked left, then right and then left again.. proceed to pull out before the car on the right car but this truck that was behind the van was speeding towards me. We both slammed on our brakes and he slid pass me inches away from my front bumper (including the loud screeching of tires noise). It was kind of embarassing because it was right in front of the guy who I sold my tickets to, so I bet he thought I was probably super irresponsible.. but it's really was a hard turn to make. But really I do thank whoever is watching out for me because I definitely have come close to a lot of danger in the past few weeks and always made it out okay.. so thanks. After that ordeal, drove to LA where I got thee best food I've had in weeks. My mom and dad cooked.. it was SO good and then Manny picked me up to go to the SAG awards. We sat there, chit chatted, and the people sitting behind us were so funny. There was this one guy with bleached hair and these crazy raver sunglasses and would like crazily yell out the stars names to get them to turn around so we could take pictures. He seriously had no shame.. which was so great for Manny and mine entertainment. When some chick from West Wing or the Practice or one of those shows was walking by he yelled out her name and was all like "you can be my psychiatrist anyday!" .. she had this half amused half scared look on her face it was great. I got to see Ryan Phillippe and Ethan Hawke who are total hotties, and Keri Russell.. who I love, and I totally freaked out when some of the Friends came by! Joey, Chandler, Ross and Phoebe.. damn Jennifer Aniston.. why did she and her hottie husband come.. dang it! Anyways.. it was totally a good time and I also got to see my sister who looked totally cute Ü Then Manny and I went to go eat at Cozymel's. I came home, read a bit, napped and then watched the 9/11 movie on CBS. Which I didn't even know was on because I haven't really been watching TV lately (when I told Manny that.. he was all like "dang.. are you okay?" hahaah) so Thanks Charles for letting me know it was on! It was intriguing because it was kind of an inside look as to what happened that day, but it was also kind of sad because you're reminded of all that had happened on 9/11. But I guess at the end they were all like, they chose to show it because they wanted people to see it out they saw it, not as a day of terrorism, but a day of strength. (Because the documentary/movie was about the firefighters, and their plight, and it just was really done I think). So I got to thinking that those are the kind of movies I'd like to do someday.. well not JUST that.. but that included.. and I do have the skills to do something cool like that. I guess just making a difference in the world. Anyways.. watched the News features on the SAG Awards because Joan called and said that she might be in the live coverage part, and lo and behold THERE SHE WAS! I saw my sis in her cute little dress talking and whatnot.. and she was behind this big guy, so my mom got all mad and started yelling at the TV, telling my sister to move so that she would be on TV, and telling the big fat guy to move. hahah.. I also saw MANNY! In the footage they were showing of the people on the red carpet, there was a shot and I totally saw Manny.. I freaked out and called him and he was throughly amused and laughed. hehe. I didn't see me but that was prolly cuz I was leaning back or something.. or maybe I'm not as noticeable as Manny.. haha.. but it's fun to see people you know on TV! PS.. watch Access Hollywood and EXTRA! tomorrow night.. Maybe Manny and I will be famous some more! but yeah.. so then I got my hair cut, and then packed up my car with food from home *yes!* and drove back to San Diego at 1am. Yikes.. (with a full tank of gas by the way because a) I always get gas in Torrance because it's way cheaper than janky La Jolla.. and b) I wouldn't want to be stranded in Oceanside like Vivian.. but I DO have Triple A thanks to my sister.) Anyways.. I flew back home and made it back in like 1 hour and 20 minutes.. which isn't usually faster than I make it home in.. but it just seemed like a ton faster... weird. Bought some caffiene at Ralphs, got my parking permit and helped Vivian with her video for a bit (to avoid getting a parking notice from the complex security for parking in a guest spot), came back, showered, and now I should be reading.. but I'm blogging. HAH. I need help. But Carrie and I have started to do what Khay Seng and I used to do, and have conversations late at night about how screwed both of us are. mm.. we love school. damn the quarter system. but yeah.. I think I'm done now.. GOOD MORNING!