me + snowboarding = so painful

:0

is it that i'm immature or just cool like joey/rachel that i snicker a little bit everytime my boss tells me that i have to buy some "lightwave dongles"

*snicker, snicker, snicker*

ahahah..

on a more clever note.. this is kind of cool. apple is having this contest where people who download a 100,000th song get an ipod nano, and the person who downloads the 1 billionth song gets this mega prize pack including $10,000 itunes gift card, a 20 inch iMac, and then 10 60gb video ipods. TEN!! 5 white and 5 black. seriously? who needs 10? i mean.. i guess you could keep one of each color, and then have ones for back up in case they break. or really - you're just going to make 8 friends. but 10 ipods seems a bit excessive.. just give them a g5 or something.

nevertheless, if you want to try winning you can utilize this. someone sent it out at work and i couldn't quite figure out the best way to utilize it, but i'm not trying to win - so if you're really into it, i hope it helps. and if you win those 10 ipods, remember who loves ya baby.

so i'm a little spooked. these near death or almost car crash experiences are happening to me a little way too often.

not cool, i tell you... not cool.

so i was driving home from vivian's house and about to go through an intersection and the light turned from red to green and as i'm driving through the intersection i hear this loud crash and see this car coming the opposite direction towards me and i realize that it could possibly hit me. hit me in the back, send me into a tailspin... yikes.

the car (like in slow-mo) passes by me and i drive through the intersection and look in my rearview mirrors. there's a truck that hasn't left yet, and a few other cars. i don't know whether i should stop, keep going, turn around... the trucks finally take off and go and i'm wondering if i should try and help. maybe i want to be more empathetic or helpful since nicole was just in a hit and run.

finally i turn around and try to see what's up, there's already a cop car there. that's good. i hover for a bit and finally park behind the cop car. i get out of my car, but the cop is in the middle of the street picking up the car's bumper out of the way. i second guessed whether it was actually a white minivan i saw fleeing from the scene, or maybe was i just mistaken. the cop isn't really paying any attention to me, so i just get back in my car and leave. i figure i can't really help. i drive away, but i'm scared. i do my usual post almost accident drive, driving 6mph and finding someone on the phone to console me.

sometimes i get scared about what i'd be missing out on in my life if i died. all the things i haven't done yet. do i hurry up and do them now? you never can tell what's going to happen to you. are all these almost accidents telling me that i should appreciate what i have? enjoy what i do have, make the most of what's going on? i know i've been questioning a few things in my life lately... maybe i shouldn't be questioning, maybe i should make lemonade out of lemons. it's all too complex for me to think about right now... but be safe my babies okay? it may not be your fault, but it could still happen to you. <3

my guilty pleasures worlds have collided.

hahaha... check this out:

moana

susan

jehan

kristen

tara
(her profile wasn't set to private before - all their profiles must have blown up recently)

if you know me, you know that i am HIGHLY addicted to myspace. and that i also love love LURVE the bachelor. guilty pleasures indeed. so after some surfing on monday i found that the lovely bachelorettes are also myspacers. which is so funny to me, because it makes me want to look up everyone who's anyone because most likely you will find them on myspace. not that i didn't know that before because i've spent a lot of time stalking co-workers, old school friends, random people... you can find almost anyone... it's cool - yet scary how accessible everyone is. BUT.. it's funny because it's not like these girls just signed up for myspace after the show, but they have been part of it for a long time too. and it's funny to read the comments from their actual friends, and plus to/from each other. i would have thought that none of them would talk to moana ever again - but they are leaving nice lovely messages to each other about how they miss each other so much. and that shows you the power of editing of reality tv. i am also very jealous because jehan has pictures with hot jerry from the jen scheft bachelorette season. probably at some bachelor reunion/celebration party. i wonder if they cut out the scene of the bachelor where the girls are like "oh you're on myspace, i am too?!" you know they did... that's part of regular introductory lingo nowadays.

my early pick was moana :) and she's TOTALLY going to win now that susan is out of the running. no way that sarah tennessee can beat her. puh-leeze. too bad i didn't actually take the $100 bet with jeff or i'd be way happier. haha.

i also love baking - and last night at target beth helped me find a cupcake stand. i wanted one so long ago - i almost bought one for $20 at michaels. i got the one from target for $5 on sale. yes!! this also prompted more hilarity from my mom:

my mom: what did you buy at target?
me: a cupcake stand
my mom: what?
me: a cup. cake. stand.
my mom: huh?
me: a STAND
my mom: like to decorate cupcakes with?
me: (realizing she thinks i'm saying sand) - no.. stand to put cupcakes in

one last thing...

congrats to the people at my work, we won the Visual Effect Society's (VES) awards for "Outstanding Visual Effects in a Music Video" for Nine Inch Nails Only... whoo hoo.. :)

just in time for valentine's day:

boys are idiots.

the end.

i really should be sleeping - especially if i want to be of any use later today.. but.. i just wanted to post a quick blog. i watched annapolis tonight. despite some people saying it wasn't very good and it doing so poorly in the box office (i still can't believe it's losing to big momma's house) i really liked it. but that's how everything goes - i usually like those movies that people say aren't so great :P it's the whole surpassing expectations thing. so yea.. i am cheesy and i cheered a little bit when "directed by justin lin" came up. i know.. cheesy. but so i think you all should go see it. please please beat big momma's house... the sequel nonetheless. it's not a totally military movie, yet not a total boxing movie - a nice little combination of both. plus a side of friendship and love story. and jordana brewster is really pretty by the way. and of course there is james franco with no shirt on :P but seriously.. go see annapolis - i mean.. it's not the riveting life altering movie - but it's feel good and enjoyable and does makes you care about the characters. it's gotta be better than big momma's house... although i bet #1 will be when a stranger calls or something.

ps. in the previews they had this scary scary preview for this movie with a boy on a swing. i can't tell you much more than that because i put my hands up to sheild my view and carol closed her eyes... we so were not having that scary movie business. i'm definitely glad i did because i'm sure i would be having nightmares. but i'm a little bit curious. anyone want to tell me what it's about (in the non-scariest way possible) :)

my gmail is down

my myspace is undergoing maintenance..

hmm. trusty blogger.. here you are.

hilarity from my mom:

my mom: are you coming home tomorrow?
me: mmm... i don't think so, i'm going to a contender fight tomorrow
my mom: a what?
me: a boxing match
my mom: boxing? you're going to go and be all buff and muscley (aka manly)
me: umm.. i'm going to watch, not going to fight in it
my mom: oh.

hahahah.. i thought it was funny.

update:

so i'm paying $35 for my doctor's office to provide me with copies of my own freaking medical records. there's a law that states that they are only allowed to charge you a reasonable cost (supplies, labor, postage) for you to mail your records. honestly - i think that $35 is a little high and unreasonable, but that whole "reasonable" thing is subjective. besides if they're going to charge me $15 to hand my papers to a copy service and i have to pay the copy service way more than $20.. so i guess whatever. they won't make copies until i pay them, so i had to give them my cc# and they say they can only make copies on tuesday & thursday, because they see patients all day on monday, wednesday, fridays. apparently - they are incapable of something i like calling doing more than one thing at a time, or rather, not being an idiot. but they can't make copies until next tuesday because the doctor is on vacation this week and he needs to okay the records to be sent out. (although you could question why they're so busy if the doctor is out. but i know that they bring in a temp doctor when my doctor likes to go on vacation, which is fairly often).

i know i'm making a big fuss over this little thing, but after all the shit having gone through - i think they are just being ridiculous. this is how they treat people - it's sort of retarded. they're so retarded. they're rude and retarded and never EVER go to see dr. irvine in hermosa beach because they're the absolute worst. i almost feel like typing up my "story" and sitting outside their offices and passing it out to people who would be going to see them. hah. my other chiropractor already gave the records and he says that people usually do it as a courtesy. my mom says that it's because i am currently a patient with the other chiro, and that i'm not with the first chiro, but regardless i don't think anything really justifies their behavior. assholes.

&*^%#^@)&!!

remember the incident with the worst chiropractic office EVER!!? well they are back. little things, but not stuff i wanted them to add on their long list of assholeness.

my lawyers called me today saying that dr. irvine's staff, specifically gabby, won't release my papers and the medical statement because they're "too understaffed" to get the paperwork together to send over to my lawyer's office. seriously? it takes you that much effort to fax over some paperwork that between 3 people you can't do it? you must be incompetent. but we already knew that. so my lawyer says we have to pay a copy service to go over to hermosa (my lawyer's offices are located in alhambra) and pick up the papers so they can make copies of them. furthermore, we have to pay dr. irvine's office FIFTEEN DOLLARS to prepare the paperwork to be picked up. seriously?! i have to pay you $15 to pull a file out of a drawer?!! i know $15 isn't a whole lot of money, but it's the principle here people. i mean.. if they said they were charging us $15 to send my lawyer's the copies.. i'd grumble a little bit, but i wouldn't be this outraged. granted.. maybe my paper work isn't all in one file (because they suck ass) and maybe they have to do some work to put it together.. but that's not my fault they aren't organized? everyone i know says "how hard is it to get some paperwork, push print, or copy?" my second chiropractor (who is awesome by the way - kyle schleicher on wilshire & 7th - 310.395.7535) has one assistant, ONE, and he managed to get the paperwork through. they're totally being spiteful bitches. i can't believe that's how they run their company. i'm going to call tomorrow and see what they say if i want to pick up my own files.. they'll want to charge me too.. this initimidating looking biker like man (but totally nice) offered to go pick up my paper work (and i wanted to add rough em up a little bit) - but i don't want to have to resort to that. i don't know.. i hate this crap, i hate them, why can't they just get over the fact that i left because they suck ass and give me my paperwork, why must they be total shitheads. UGH.

went to the premiere of see this movie with john cho and seth meyers :) i like them both. i didn't loooove the movie, but it was enjoyable and amusing. it has it's definite funny moments and it's a good time, so go see it to watch a not horrible film and something that's not the usual norm. it's in limited release so go and try and see it if you can. you may not want to try something that's not a "hit" ... sooooo... if that's not your thing definitely go see annapolis directed by justin lin!! :) whooo. it seems like a military movie.. but it actually a boxing story.. (i know it's not that easy to tell from the traiilers) but i hear it's good stuff.. AND james franco is hot :P

speaking of boxing i just got home from a contender fight. it was surprisingly exciting. i've never really watched boxing before (actual boxing.. cinderella man doesn't count) and i was kind of nervous about it being to gory or violent.. but it's actually pretty thrilling :) because it's not just "fighting" you know.. there's skill and purpose and strategy, rules, point system.. it's pretty interesting. and it's a lot of fun being in the arena and seeing the cameras (i'm such a production goober). it's like all athletic events - you cheer for "your guy" and "my guy" won :) so it was good times. i'm glad i was with someone who LOVES boxing because it makes me that much more excited - because otherwise i just feel like the girl who is yelling out things that she doesn't really understand or make sense. haha. i was that anyways.. but i feel a little more legitimate sitting next to someone who actually knows what they're saying :)



i also spent a lot of this weekend shooting the short traffic in the sky. it's fun and engaging. i'm really glad i'm doing it even though it's eating up a lot of time.. it's temporary though.. and worth it. it's a little strange and me and charles are working together on this film after so long of not really keeping in touch after middle school. neat really, but it intrigues both of us. that makes me happy too. i guess that's all i'm going to say about that.

man.. i totally just teared up watching grey's anatomy.... i like good tv.

happy chinese new year!

my fav conversation for tonight:

nicole: yea i was in a hit and run accident
me: aww.. are you okay?
nicole: yea.. and umm. your christmas present was in my trunk
me: god nicole! why can't you be more careful??!!

haha.. of course that was in jest. we spent a good 3 minutes laughing while i cried over my lost crumpled christmas present. haha. it sounds silly when i type it out, but i swear it was funny :P

side note:
.. i need to get back on the bandwagon ...

we just got back from screenings a little while ago and while i'm waiting to shower, i thought i'd blog - because i'm obsessed. i wish i could post all the pictures of the picturesque scenery (yay for snow) but i didn't bring my cable, so it'll just have to wait. we saw three movies today - and it was kind of a lot.. only because i had so little sleep and it's it was in the span of 8 hours. and then add in trying to eat and travel time.. not much room for leisure.. but it's all a good time. we spent the later part of the afternoon/evening in salt lake because that's where our screenings were. tomorrow is our park city day.. so it's nice to get to see both because i didn't get to last time.

i'm going to "try" to get up early enough to go into park city for a screening (emphasis on the word try) and right now it's setting in just how tired i am.. and i have a long day ahead. you think i can wake up at 6am? (it's one hour ahead too.. so it's actually 3:45am)

small summary for today (yesterday) - not previously mentioned

*park city to pick up tickets and eat a little lunch (who knew utah would have decent japanese food).. although i am SUPER sad that my favorite 24 hangout place rUinTAH eggs was not there anymore. BOO! it was always so crowded - i wonder what happened.. maybe it only thrived during sundance times.

*hotel check in - funny fiascos and had to switch rooms 3 times, which is funny only to me because i just saw the episode of friends where monica and chandler go on a weekend getaway (when they were still hiding their relationship) and she made chandler switch rooms like 10 times.

*drive back to salt lake to catch the 3 screenings: friends with money, factotum & lucky number slevin

*dinner at red rock brewing co... (waiting, bar seats, ordering, leaving, to go....) if that doesn't make sense to you it's really just a note to myself.

*midnight screening of lucky number slevin in a small quaint theatre - my favorite out of the three.

*driving back to the hotel from salt lake - at one point the car thermostat said it 6 degrees farenheit outside. holy cow.. brr! good thing the heater was way up :)

k.. i should go prep for my supposed early day tomorrow.. we'll see if it happens.. but regardless it will be long.

having a blast - wish you were here.

Sundance #1:

Yay!! We’re here. We’re driving in the car to park city from salt lake. The flight here, though early, wasn’t too bad. We couldn’t get a direct flight so even before the butt crack of dawn my dad drove sakura, beth and I to the airport (thanks daddy!) where we met up with Shelby. Gosh a little mc donald’s hash browns (yum!) and waited to board.

(IT’S SNOWING!!)

we had an hour layover in vegas where I was surprised to see how close the strip to the airport – and excited to see they had slot machines in the airport.. haha.. and we followed sakura’s “hunch” and “feelings” to a certain section and after ups and downs I finally won $16!! Whoo!! I know.. small winnings, but it was a exciting start.

we’re driving into park city and going to pick up our tickets, get some food (starving!!), check into our hotel and then off to our first screening!! I want to pack so much stuff in… snowboarding, screenings, seeing the sights, parties, eating :P – but we’re only here for two days. It’s okay.. like all the websites say.. it doesn’t matter much what we do because we’re at sundance and “being at sundance rules all”

haha.. oh.. celebrity alert #1… rider strong (shawn from boy meets world) was on our plane. Beth saw him waiting at the airport but didn’t say anything because she thinks it’s rude… not that I wanted to harass him but I like to sit in my own little pool of giddiness. i’d like to think that I keep the obvious gawking and gaping to a minimum. I saw him while boarding the plane and later reveled with other passengers about the “celebrity” on our plane.. haha.. we’re such nerds…

i have never been so happy that i get off at 7 in my life. i got let our early today because there was a massive power outage... and i was driving home at 5:30.... SO MUCH EFFIN TRAFFIC. ugh. and stupid drivers. it took me damn near 30 minutes to get home. but enough about that.. i need to go pack! and then i have a mtg at 8 in torrance. if i don't finish packing now, i'm going to have to come back to LA to pack after the meeting and then back to torrance to spend the night. and that right there is just impractical. grr... so little time. and i'm procrastinating with my blog. typical :P

i'm so lame!!!

i think things are cool - but they're so not.. at least to everyone else.

i'm a worrywart - bordering on annoying. i worry too much about everything - but i already knew this. i worry if i'm annoying you right now.

i'm a good girl - good bordering on boring.

i'm too nice and helpful - i see things and i want to fix them. i want to make things better. i want to help. help bordering on overbearing. it's like in joy luck club where the mom takes the rotten crab and everyone else gets the best crabs. hah.. i know where i got this from.

i am lame... bordering on pathetic.

but not quite there yet... right?

i'm a dork - but yet hopefully still kind of rad.

on tap: meet the barkers

thank you thank you linh for the awesome belated christmas present!! i laughed with giddyness just because the present was so hilarious. i have had this long standing infatuation with "he's just not that into you".. so i get the book AND the calendar. hi-larious. now i can have a daily reminder about how guys aren't that into me. haha...

this totally trips me out...

jake: week one

jake: week sixteen

they grow so fast, you don't even know. and this is all on milk only! crazy!

ps. i bought that onesie he's wearing in the second picture.. so cute.. i have good taste :P

*SHORTS*

*i'm soooo tired today.. stayed up way too late talking on the phone. it was a great conversation, and i knew it was going to happen, because whenever i call her we spend FOREVER on the phone, but it still makes me uber tired nonetheless.

*i'm kind of wheezey this morning, which i do not like. i was sitting on the ice rink for far too long, with way too little clothing. no.. not skanked out, but i was wearing a skirt and flip flops, which is not great for icy coldness. but i had no choice i came straight from other work & the airport - no time to put on my uber warm clothing.

*i was at the airport because i was dropping my sister and jake off :( (jeff-gu went earlier in another car).. as usual my family loves to run behind schedule when catching flights. haha. it was also a rush because i had to be at work earlier than i had originally anticipated. but while i am glad that i get to be by myself again (in preparation for moving out) - i am sad that they left and there's no more cutie-patootie nephew to play with, no more sister to eat good food and watch days and reality tv with, and no more jeff-gu to play mario party with. good thing it's not 6 months this time.

*when i was leaving i saw this guy loading these giant bags of equipment in tampa bay lighting bags into a locker room. he was looking at me kind of funny, like i was going to maul him and steal the equipment or something. haha. whatever.. what would i want to do with gross, smelly, sweaty hockey junk? oh.. ebay.. that's right. but anyways.. i realize now that he was storing the player's equipment after their game last night. kind of neat.. i'm such a starstruck floozy. and that's so weird too because i'm so close to it all, but really if any of the kings or lightning players or even lakers (aside from kobe, of course) were walking around.. i wouldn't be able to recognize them to save my life. okay maybe the lakers.. cuz i'd be like.. "really tall black dude.. must be a laker" oh.. and luke walton.. cuz he's cute :P

*i had a chance to go on a movie set, which i was super excited about - but then i didn't end up getting to go, which i am kind of bummed about. oh well, next time right? but it was neat hearing about it, and inspiring to hear this person talk about fighting the fight and how all the hard work paid off. hopefully sundance will be equally as inspiring (if i can get into screenings!) and a good energy for everything. but i'm working on a short.. so even if my professional life can't be about that, at least i'm doing something - that's a start.

*it's harder to myspace or blog at work when the part-timer is here with me because she can automatically see onto my screen :P i feel a little guilty when she turns around and there's a ton of pictures from myspace on my screen .. but i just turned around and she's on ebay.. so i'm sure she doesn't really give a hoot.

*yay!! sundance!!!

*i bought boots for this weekend. i call them my fuggs.. (for fake uggs).. because really.. all shearling boots are essentially modeled after the ugg popularity. but i love my fuggs, they're super warm.. and i love it that i can just tromp around in the snow as i please :) and not worry that i spent $130 on a pair of boots that i will either ultimately a)ruin or b)wear once in cold weather and never again because i'm not pretentious enough to pretend that it's cold enough in LA to wear them

*the plan is to move out soon.. but i'm facing this dilemma about living by myself vs. living with strangers. not really a fan of either.. so.. anyone looking for a place to live or need a roomie? :P

*okay.. so too many shorts = a long.. but oh well. still wheezey, maybe i'll run to get some coffee later. gotta read up on some SAG contracts, and organize my itinerary for this weekend.. whoo hoo! oh yea.. and work :P

*best line i've heard lately: "you can't just go out there and be too michelle kwan..."

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i've been watching far too much MTV for my own good.

i am totally obsessed with the show NEXT. it's such a guilty pleasure ... i know it's the worst show ever.. but it's so interesting and demeaning all at the same time. when people get instantly NEXTed.. that's so wrong. hahahaha.. the epitome of superficialness is this show.. which is so funny because i saw a casting ad for it on craigslist and it's like "hot hot hot" but i swear that there are so many people on that show that are not remotely hot... odd. but if you want to have 5 minutes of fame... here ya go.

i also caught up on "there and back" the new series about ashley parker angel and him trying to make it as a solo artist post o-town. i am a reality junkie, and i will forever *heart* boy bands - so this is almost my dream come true yah know? hahah.. jk. but seriously.. there was this shot of the pipes of a gas co. or something.. it looked familiar you know the manhattan beach area, and then they went to the lighthouse cafe to hang out for a bit... ashley angel lives near me!! hahah.. but it was so cute, it was his and his girlfriend's two year anniversary so they had a picnic on the beach, he made her this giant card with all these pictures, and serenaded her with this really cute song he wrote and played guitar and sang on the beach, at sunset... so cute.. i'm a total sucker for boys with guitars.. but that's not new.

room raiders texas.. here i come... oh my.. and i have a meeting tomorrow morning.. oh.. i mean this weekend. yay 3 day weekend!

Something strange is happenin' lately
We no longer see eye to eye
Time has changed us, rearranged us
And it leaves me wondering why

Now everything is different
Nothing feels quite the same
All the things we liked
About each other have changed
I don't know about the things that you do
What happened to the person
That I thought I knew?

You go one way and I'll go another
When nothing seems to work
Then why should we bother
We've let these little differences
Tear us apart
They're breaking up our friendship
And their breaking my heart
You need me and I need you
If only together we could see this through

You go left
And I'll go right
Life is just one crazy battle
When we argue, fuss, and fight
You're like day
Oh, and I'm like night
But if we could get together
Maybe things could work out right

I can see so much in you
Why can't we just see this through
Why must everything
In this life be so compllicated
But through all this pain
It's not you I blame
Why can't you feel the same

You're like day
And I'm like night
But if we could get together
Maybe things could work out right

You go left
And I'll go right
Life is just one crazy battle
When we argue, fuss, and fight
You're like day
Oh, and I'm like night
But if we could get together
Maybe things could work out right

We'll try to make it alright now
We'll try to make it alright now

~Save Ferris, Little Differences