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Here Come the Fosters!
(a new play by Amanda Kaplan and Jeremy Klavens)
*stage managed by yours truly.. hahahah*

it's showing for the next 5 Thursdays @ 8pm:
Oct 23, 30, Nov 6, 13, 20

Theatre/Theatre
6425 Hollywood Blvd 4th Floor (Hollywood)
between Wilcox & Cahuenga

tickets are $15

reservation line 323)988-4300

today is the first day in a long time that i felt like i had a real dinner. which is totally untrue because who would believe that i have gone without dinner for awhile (althouhg my dad did suggest that if i was looking to go on a diet i should try david blaine's nothing but water for 43 days diet... psycho) but with rehearsals and i don't even know what else maybe dinner has just been convoluted... i mean, saturday i had dinner at home, but we all ate at different times, we didn't really sit together.. it was weird. not that i've been doing much, but it just seems like it's all be happening so fast that i can't even remember what happened. wow.. what is wrong with my memory? no.. and it's not too much crack.

oh!! sunday i went to stup's bridal shower. duh. that was the reason i didn't eat dinner with the family that day. hah. it kind of sucks because everyone went to go eat lunch together (including joan and jeff-gu) and i missed out on the family bonding before joan leaves for taiwan. :P but she'll be back right? so no worries. i'm taking her to the airport tomorrow (today) so i'll get to see her, but it's just not the same. haha. anyways.. it was fun. it was more leaning towards the adult side cuz stup has a lot of family older friends and stuff like that.. so yea. but mania and jill-a made it out, so i got to see them as well as stup, so i'm glad. we sat and chit chatted, ate hors deouvres (??) and then lunch and then watched stup open presents. she got a wide range of stuff from cookware, to bath stuff, to lingerie. hahha.. some ladies are crazy even when they're older... hopefully when my friends and i are older we'll have as good as humor as this one lady :) afterwards we talked a lot more, and then stup, jill-a, mania, big matt, little matt and stacey and i went to eat dinner afterwards. it was good times just hanging out. not quite the same as in san diego, but still fun. the wedding will be fun, especially because trish is coming down and we'll get to see her. i did miss out on going to disneyland (always a bummer) and yet again missing my chance to see fantasmic. dammit.. i gotta see it soon. i'm itching for it!

for the past two days i've been in tech for the play that i'm stage managing (which you all should come see!!) dry tech on monday for 5 hours, and then tech today for 6.5 hours. and plus driving time as well. it's actually not too bad compared to other shows, larger shows where you have a week or so of tech and still don't get everything down. and you do run after run... but somehow i just feel like it's almost too little and i wish we could have more. at least for my sake. but we'll see.. it's a good time.. i just hope i don't screw up too badly and ruin the whole show :P anyways.. i do get a day off tomorrow to hang out with my grandma and be my sister's chaffeur. it was fun though, my sister came home late tonight to go over a few things with my mom before she leaves, and my dad woke up and we all just kind of hung out downstairs late at night.. it was way cute :P

anyways.. come see the play!!!

my weekend has been busy, but not in the good way. i am so weird, i want to be busy, but when i'm busy, i don't want to do anything. maybe because i feel like i'm not being productive. i'm not busy because i'm making money, which in the eyes of my parents is the only other way to be productive other than cleaning the house, but exactly the opposite, working for free or going out and spending money that i don't have.

i have been in this hanging out with family mode, since my grandma is leaving soon and my sister is leaving for china/taiwan for a month on tuesday.. i feel like i have to spend every waking second with them. i love the fact that i'm going to stup's bridal shower tomorrow, but hate the fact that i'm missing out on lunch with the family. i think it's because we rarely do things as a family anymore, not as much as we used to when i was little, it just always seems like we're fighting about one thing or another, or just plain not talking to each other. but what can i do. i even have to spend my birthday "working" for free.. so i bet it'll be like that year i gave my dad money to go buy me a birthday cake and he didn't even do that because i had to go to a meeting so he decided not to bother with it. *sigh* maybe i do need therapy.

thursday i went to rehearsal and then when to my sister's office afterwards to work on my editing project, but what i had already done lacked any kind of good so i restarted.. but didn't quite know what to do, so i sat in the cold office by myself for a few hours, hungry, dinnerless and trying to figure it out. fun huh. friday i had lunch at the mall with my grandma and then came back to discover a newt hanging out by my mailbox.. i screamed and ran inside as it climbed inside the mailbox and i left the mail for my dad to get. later that night i was supposed to hang out with nicole, but i waited until she called and she thought i was going to meet her when she called and i was just a big sorry party pooper to drive to pasadena by myself and no one wanted to come with. so as i got into my sweats and got ready for bed benji called and wanted me to "show him and his friend a good time" not like that you perverts. but they gave me shit for being 21 years old and not going out because i was scared of what my mom would say, and i felt guilty for not inviting benji to go to knott's scary farm last sunday, and not going with him tonight, so they picked me up and we went to manhattan and hermosa. just hanging out with some mit nerds. :P i got home late and went to bed even later from reading my books from the concepcion library.. not a wise choice, but apparently i'm not that smart. so i went to rehearsal today.. tired and malnourished.. had some porridge rice for breakfast, mountain dew and half a bag of chips for lunch, and came home from the extra long rehearsal tired and hungry and alone. which was okay because then i could veg out in front of the tv without any guilt. i helped myself to a peanut butter and honey sandwich, after i very dissapointingly couldn't find the jam. my schedule has been so weird these past few days, and i don't think i've been eating right or at the right times.. but my stomach is not happy with me. nicole called and said she wanted to go home and shower before going out tonight, and it sucks because a few hours later i was too pooped to drive anywhere... i suck i know.. i am an AWFUL friend. i am sorry. :( but my parents finally came home, gave me money to go buy church's chicken for dinner, i took care of some stuff for the play and then my sister came home. i watched the yankees lose game one and talked to danny a little bit and he made me feel a little bit better about the job situation. joan and i went to go see pirates at the $3 theater because i knew this would be my only chance seeing as how tech is coming up and i would miss out on seeing it at the cheapy theaters just like legally blonde 2 and american wedding. damn. so we seized the chance except joan punched me for taking too long and missing the first few minutes of the movie. it was pretty good, i screamed a lot.. i have a fear of skeletons/half dead people along with my fear of clowns... it was like the bestest movie ever in the whole entire world like some people said, but probably becacuse other people had built it up so much that it could never be that great. but it was pretty good and i liked the music and i think i'm going to have a born again crush on johnny depp. :P

so what is up party people. this week seems to have passed by so fast... gosh.. it's already friday. soon it'll be the 28th and my grandma will be leaving me to go to taiwan :( and then i really will have to do something with my life. today when i came home i found that some one left me a book "how to survive with your parents' money" what the heck is this!!?? can we say "hint" cuz i know it's not a joke cuz it's sure as hell ain't funny. argh. my only comfort is that last year danny who graduated from stanford came to work at the gap during holiday season because he couldn't find a job either.. and finally got one in june. i'm sure his parents were nice enough to not nag him about it.. but maybe he did try harder than i did to find a job. i know that he did hold out for just the right one and didn't just take the first thing that came his way. i need to call and talk to him so he can make me feel better.. i know he'll understand :)

not much has happened to me since arnold took over california (esp. since technically it hasn't happened yet.. but who needs to be picky). i swear.. if i was gray davis.. i would screw everything up as much as possible.. hahahah.. but i'm evil... so don't listen to me. i've just been hanging out with my grandma a lot, and letting her see what a lazy sod i am. (sorry.. nicole let me borrow a bunch of her girly books and they all take place in london.. i'm picking up a few words here and there). friday i went to go spend some quality time with nicole and her family and saw their pretty new living room and their growing dog :) i've been doing the play/stage managing thing.. it's been going alright. it just sucks that i'm barely getting paid anything.. just because gas is so expensive and i live pretty far away and i don't really think i'm going to go further into stage managing.. so why am i doing this again? but i'm just going to finish what i started.. but i don't punk out.. i don't want to be that kind of person because i know how people feel about those kind of people. first hand experience. :P saturday i did get to watch justin timberlake on snl. yummy. he is one talented young man.. and makes a kick ass omelet.

and sunday i went to knott's scary farm with nicole, carlene, sonny, sakura, and carrie. it was a good time and we got cheapy tickets courtesy of my mother. :) and i got to eat funnel cake. it wasn't quite as good as i had remembered it though.

beforehand carrie, sakura and i went to the pre-scare buffet. they advertised it a lot better than it actually was. it was pretty dinky, but we got a free souvenir cup with a free refill! the only part they didn't advertise was that there were monsters walking around scaring you as your were trying to eat. it wasn't too bad for me because they would scare carrie and sakura first, and i'd laugh, and when they scared me it would just make me laugh more. go figure. we met up with nicole, carlene and sonny and got in the slow slow slow line for ghostrider.. and it never fails that after waiting 45 minutes we got up close to the front and the ride broke down. i wanted to wait, but everyone else bolted out of line and swore off any mores so i had no choice to follow suit. we got chased by monsters, sonny had one of them yell out chase carrie calling out her name, we watched the "hanging" of 'bennifer' and did some mazes. it wasn't too bad... except when we went into malice in wonderland. that was my own personal hell. the maze was actually pretty tame up until near the end when i got separated from my "scare partner" nicole and two scary monsterish clowns started chasing me and then this midget clown backed me into a wall. as the three clowns cornered me i see my friends go into the next room. thanks a lot jerks. as i start to hyperventilate and i can't breathe i break for the next room, fighting all the people who passed me to try and find my friends. but this one clown with a kazoo in its mouth decides to chase me, so even if i don't look back i know it's there. i keep running thinking that it has to stay in its "section" but it follows me through the other rooms where i run in circles around my friends trying to use them as shields as they and the people around us keep laughing at me. great. i immediately start bawling as i exit the house and miss out on seeing brandy in a pink velour jump suit. damn nicole.. you see all the stars.. first jamie foxx and now brandy. anyways.. i hate hate HATE clowns, .. and even though they weren't human clowns, but rather monster faces.. the day glowyness resembled them enough. i was not only trapped, but scared and worst of all alone... i freaked. so yes.. i'm 21 and i cried at knott's scary farm. it was my first time there.. give me a break.. i'm just glad i didn't buy the 3-D glasses, or else i probably would have had a heart attack. afterwards lots of hugging, petting and consoling... carlene, sonny, nicole and i squeezed in two last mazes and they were good because we were just laughing the whole time.. i think when the park is just about to close the employees just do whatever they want... congratulate and high-five each other on scaring people, do weird dances, meow, pikachu, and tell us that we were the easiest scare all night. i wish we could have stayed an extra hour, because lines were insane and we didn't get to see everything... some day soon i want to go back just to go on the rides.. they look insane!! that ginormous perilous plunge thing, and the excelerator and a bunch of other rides look so fun. who wants to go with me :) maybe it'll be my celebratory "i got a job" trip.. when i get a job (which is never).. so umm.. who wants to go?

this week i just have been submitting a few more resumes.. no calls.. surprise surprise.. going shopping with my grandma. she is an insane shopper.. i know where i get it from :) hheheh.. i might hang out with gibbler tomorrow.. yay :) and this weekend is stup's bachelorette party. and then rehearsal. argh.. my life seems so busy, but i really have nothing to do. sorry if i seem so down but i the constant reprimands from my parents are taking their toll. i guess i just need to figure some stuff out.. but i wish things weren't so hard. and sometimes i'm starting to feel like i'm just not going to get anything because i have nothing to offer, at least not more than anyone else. that i'm not really good at anything, and just mediocre at a lot of things. which may be good, but not good enough to mean anything, and certainly not enough to get me those minimum wage/no benefits job that i keep getting rejected for. argh. maybe working at the gap for the rest of my life is exactly where i need to be, and hell maybe it wouldn't be so bad.. if i ever had kids they'd have cute clothes. *sigh* but there are things out there that make me think that everything happens for a reason, and one day it'll just fall into place when the time is right. i sure hope so.

poor gray davis.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAKURA!!!

nicole rocks :)

jeanyah: i missed john mayer perform his second song
spaznik: awww snl?
spaznik: oh booger.
spaznik: what did he sing?
spaznik: i hope he didnt sing his new song.
jeanyah: he did.. he did bigger than my body and clarity
jeanyah: his first two songs off his new album
spaznik: oh booger... i dont like that new song of his...
spaznik: i like his guitar stuff...
jeanyah: yea
spaznik: sexy "bedroom" voice songs...
jeanyah: it's different
jeanyah: hahahahha
spaznik: its POP.
spaznik: john mayer shouldn't do that type of songs...
spaznik: he should stick to his guitar and sing sweet songs like he's singing in bed.
jeanyah: hahahahahha
jeanyah: just like jason mraz eh?
spaznik: exactly...
spaznik: just imagine if jason mraz came out with some "poppy" crap.
spaznik: you'd be pissed.
spaznik: like "WHO ARE YOU!?!"
spaznik: STICK TO YOUR GUITAR!
jeanyah: he did
jeanyah: the remedy
jeanyah: a lot of people still don't like it
jeanyah: i love it
jeanyah: hahahaha
jeanyah: i am pop deep down inside

spaznik: what a dork
jeanyah: hahahha
jeanyah: hey.. some people just can't let go
jeanyah: they're not cool like you and me ;-)
spaznik: hahahaha they SHOULD be
spaznik: but then again, we're NEEDLES.
spaznik: they're all pieces of HAY.

spaznik: hahaha i was telling carlene "IM A NEEDLE IN A HAYSTACK!"
spaznik: SOMEONE FIND ME ALREADY DAMMIT!!
jeanyah: hahahahahhahahha
jeanyah: maybe you should poke someone in the ass!!
spaznik: hahahahah but i dont want them to be all "love hurts"

happy birthday mike!
happy birthday manny!

this week has been alright.. i've been chillaxin' a bit.. but i've also been doing a bunch of other stuff. one thing i haven't been doing is going to the gym. oops.. i just can't seem to get out of bed. :P it's so comfy. so yea.. that's that. monday i went with chris (who works with my sister) to go hand out fliers for the blt cast signing at borders. i actually ran into a few people from hs and some i haven't seen in a long long while. it was good. ucla is definitely a different atmosphere that ucsd is.. *sigh* i miss school. handing out fliers was okay.. just like handing out anything in mass quantities, if it's not free money or food, you get the run of people who are really excited, people who are just nice and take your fliers and throw it away when they're out of sight, and rude people who say crap like "oh.. i already met them" and "no!!" yea... those people are way too cool for us. chris and i made plenty of snide remarks. hahah.

today i had another interview (different place). i waited a long long time, and then finally had the interview, and the lady only asked me two questions... about my two previous jobs. that's it. she did tell me a little bit about what the position entails and some other details.. but only two questions?! i don't know if that's good or bad.. i guess we'll see huh. then i went to my sister's work and i started to learn final cut pro.. which is exciting.. i want to learn how to use that and avid.. and i'll be set :) i want to do everything.. haha. and then had hurry curry for dinner.. (yum) and cruised over with my sister and her friends to the blt signing at borders. we did a good job handing out fliers dammit.. haha there were a good amount of people there. not overwhelming.. but more than they expected i'm sure. freaking borders ran out of dvd's to sell to people!! like 15 minutes after the event had started.. i mean.. if you're going to have an event signing like this.. you should stock up. what butt munches. and then when they were doing the signing, they only let people who had dvd's go through first. which sucked because it's like. it's not their fault they don't have a dvd.. it's yours!! dumb borders in westwood. anyhoo.. afterwards we ate at bj's. mmm.. pizookie.

i'm thinking about maybe cruising down to sd for the film festival this weekend... i'm not too sure... i don't know who i'd hang out with just cuz everyone else has their group and i don't want to impose or be third wheel or odd man out or something. and where would i stay (because i am b-r-o-k-e) and stuff like that. but it's also kristen's birthday.. so we'll see i guess :)