hmm.. wow time flies when you do absolutely... nothing.

that's right.. summer has come and i have been reduced to a completely useless human being. i am lazy and unproductive and sit on my ass all day catching up on soaps, full house re-runs, surfing the internet, waiting for someone to email me and checking friendster. sounds exciting huh? well... i think it's dandy.

i leave for indy in a little over 28 hours. strange. but i have yet to pack or do awards or fix the scrapbook due to complications. yuck. but bless cal-nev-ha and our int'l trustee friends so that our awards look almost exactly like the int'l ones. hahahah.. yes.. shady i know. but oh well. hopefully that won't take too long.. and i just have to do some cosmetic stuff on the scrapbook... beth may help. she's my stand in while sakura's in europe :P jk. but i may go over to her house tomorrow to cut her hair and play with her cat, while she fixes the scrapbook... maybe i can get her to do the awards for me too while she's at it. :P

buuuuut... today was JEAN AND NICOLE'S DAY OF FUN!! haha.. well it was more like a night really. nicole cruised over topless in her nice little convertible (hehe) and we "exchanged" gifts. haha more like she gave me my graduation gift.. (yay.. i heart nicole) so that i can bling bling all over ICON.. and i gave her her stuff back that she's left behind at random places and such and i haven't given back to her until now. but hey.. it's like getting brand new stuff when you get back that brush, scarf, loofah and stick of travel deoderant that you've been missing for a year or two now. :) hey hey! after she watched me finish some laundry and helped me move some boxes of clothes (bless her) we went to best buy to check out digital cameras and buy a kylie minogue cd. then ate mc donalds to get some finding nemo toys (OH NO!! i left mine in her car... keep it safe for me) and went to the happiest place on earth: disneyland *yay*. we mulled around trying to decide what to do.. and didn't want to wait in any lines as disneyland was unbearably crowded today, and there were detours in the park because they had stuff set up for the pirates of the carribean movie premiere (it's at disneyland... how cool is that). but that also equaled no fantasmic (insert sad faced jean). so we finally walked back and forth a lot, then ate clam chowder bread bowls, walked in and out of line for pirates, watched the fireworks (yay), went on the jungle cruise (insert drooling nicole) and then splash mountain (whoo hoo). i got home past my 11:30pm said curfew (oh the joys of living at home with my too-asian parents). but it was okay... i got off easy.. probably because i did all those chores in the afternoon... or they were just too tired to lecture me and i'll get it tomorrow. anyways.. it was way fun, and i had a blast tonight. thanks nicole.

after i came home i tried to work on my awards, but my beloved computer is dead. i don't know quite exactly what's wrong.. but when i start there's no response from the monitor and there's three beeps (which i feel are like the beeps of death) and my computer is on but it sits there, along with the monitor, doing nothing. ugh.. so i tried all sorts of things to try and fix it. gave up, borrowed my "cousin's" laptop had to install AOL.. where that freaked out on me too, and when i finally got it to work, i didn't like the format from this computer and all the instructions are in chinese because this computer is from taiwan. so i gave up and procrastinated some more instead of cleaning or sleeping. i'm smart. anyhoo... sucky sucky sucky. i wonder what will happen with my computer.. but this laptop is fun... it's so handy.. i can type in my bed. whoo hoo. but i should probably sleep... i have soooo much to do before i leave.. i'm probably not going to sleep before i get on that plane.. which is fine. i'll just sleep on the plane. those lssp people better pick me up at that airport... and then i'm going to crash in my hotel.. i just hope i don't have weirdo roommates. hahaha.. jk... all cki people are great.. except i heard who ryan was rooming with. hahahahhahahah. (evil)

i am back in town... my first vacation is over... and it's four days until my next. yikes.. it almost seems like time is flying by so fast... and soon i'll have to find a real job. shoot. i need to move out.. for my own sanity and my parents'.

this weekend was fun.. it was good to see family again. friday.. we packed up and drove up north. we left a little late and had to fight LA traffic :( picked up joan and it was just like the old family trips to berkeley. crazy.. except we're all so much older.. but sprawling out in the back of the minivan is still a good way to nap. i read my harry potter books and slept.. mmm.. stopped in modesto friday night at joey's house, and then saturday drove over to emeryville to our hotel. chillaxed for a bit before changing for the rehearsal dinner. i drank a little (yay open bar) and ate 12 courses of food.. (oooh.. soo stuffed) and then chatted with my cousin michelle and everything else. took lots of pictures and then went back to the hotel. then watched alex & emma with michelle, joan and jeff. it was totally cute.. kate hudson is so cute and luke wilson is hot.

the next day.. got dressed and went to the wedding. there was another tiff between my mom and i (as always) it was just the same old thing... *sigh* but the wedding was way cute. i want to get married someday.. :P we took a lot more pictures..

and then ate lots of more food *yum* :P my cousin karen (the bride) did want to throw the bouquet cuz she hates that tradition, but she presented it to my grandma to honor her because she's had a really hard year, but came out to celebrate still. it was so sweet, i almost started crying.

but then they had this slide show of old pictures of my cousin, and the old pictures of her husband, ben, and then old pictures of them together. and with their guest book they had izones and you take a picture, stick it in the book and write a message! too cute... but they did all the traditional stuff, first dance, dances with parents. but when karen was dancing with her dad they played time after time.. it was so cute and so perfect. aww... i'm gushing.

more karen's wedding pix

afterwards we drove back to modesto and spent the night there. i'm sure my mom was really happy to spend time with her old friends. i woke up way late and we left modesto around 3, but it was pretty good because then we missed the traffic, got into LA around 7.. so no traffic! yay.. it took like 5.5 hours. not too bad.

so my vacation and jouney of trips start and after they end i will really have to start looking for a job. (tgi friday's here i come).

thursday i woke up kind of late and headed down to san diego to clean and what not. had one last run in with the cute neighbor boys that we didn't get to meet until last week.. (dang it!!) and borrowed their tools. hahaha.. acting like the oh so helpless neighbor girly girls while carrying the couch downstairs... he offered to help.. what a gentleman... too bad we moved. (just goes to show.. meet your neighbors). finished loading up my car, tried to clean the apt as best i could.. and then jetted out of there way late.. like 10pm. left a note trying to say as nicely as possible that i wasn't going to pay the rent. hah.. how do you do that? so.. yeah.. when i go to jail.. please come visit.

stopped by the occ pj jam and hung out with andrew (yay) and banana and billings and petey and luke and whole a slew of people for a little bit.. and then drove home in this weird sprinkling, raining hard, not raining, sprinkling weather spurts. read harry potter before i went to bed :) (yes.. i know i'm a little late in the reading of the books.. but i'm trying to catch up!!) today woke up, tried to find my clothes and packed for my cousin's wedding (!!) in san francisco this weekend. spent all afternoon in the car reading, sleeping, sweating, trying to avoid the cow funk and all that good stuff and now i'm at joey's house (with no joey) cuz we're crashing here for the night before heading on to emeryville. then it's family!! fun and food!! (yay for 12 course dinners). hahah i just got to make sure that i don't catch the bouquet so i can avoid the dissapointment when i'm not the next one to get married because i'm for sure going to be single for the rest of my life. hahahah... sad. pathetic. yes i know.

happy belated birthday to kelvin.. 6/18

so it's been a jam-packed week, although it doesn't feel like that long.

on friday the 13th.. i totally forgot it was that day.. hmm. but i ran some errands, sold back some books (got like $27 for a load of books) and then decided to be a good little intern and go help even though i was done already. i helped with the website, but i thought it would only take me a hour. it took me four. yikes. slaved over that for awhile, and then went home and tried to clean and pack before my family came. it didn't really happen much and they were a little mad that my house was still so not in boxes when they came. we went to todai that night for my graduation dinner... i kind of wish i had thought to wait until after graduation, it would have felt so much more meaningful. oh well.. can't do anything now. got into a bit of a tiff that night.. and i had to go out to rancho bernardo to spend the night because my mom wanted our family to be all together.. and my sister and dad didn't want to stay in my apt. rancho bernardo is freaking far... ugh. but before i went to sakura's house to drop something off and she had roses for me!! aww.. what a sweetheart.. i love that girl.

spent the night in RB.. barely got any sleep, had to wake up early and deal with my hair and the bags under my eyes. yuck. but it's all good, went to graduation.. saw a ton of people i haven't seen in a long time. i totally wanted to go run up and talk to them but everyone was with their parents and plus.. i didn't want to seem like the big dork who wanted to reminisce and remember everyone.. like melissa joan hart in can't hardly wait. plus i wasn't too social at 7am. but it was interesting to see those people i hadn't seen in so many years... i wonder if i'll get to see them again. i hope so. afterwards, instead of a graduation lunch (since i already got the dinner the night before) we headed to kfc. how glamorous.. i know. then went back to the apartment to pack and clean. did it pretty much allllll day. i met some of the neighbors.. including some cute boys downstairs. just my luck.. i meet people i could have hung out with all year right when i'm moving out. dang it. i suck. i didn't really clean everything up.. and i gotta go back tomorrow and do that... boo. i don't want to clean.. can i just bone out and not do it? that night i drove home.. and the collapsed in bed

sunday .. unpacked the uhaul and cleaned up the backyard to put my stuff. that's right... all my boxes (including my clothes) are in the backyard. great.. i really have to clean my house to find a place to put them. geez. the past few days i've been lounging around my house and such... watching lots of tv.. getting back into my soaps. heheheh.. kyle from the real world is on days of our lives! although he looks kind of out of place. i actually joined friendster, despite all my refusals to do so and i even got some other people to join. hahah.. now i know why nicole wanted me to join so badly.. so she could up her friend count. just kidding. it's kind of addicting.. but i swear i have more than 19 friends... i do... i really do. my friends are just umm... not computer people. :P anyways...

tuesday.. i went to the JUSTIFIED/STRIPPED concert. it was way good. justin is sexy.. so is christina. all the teeny boppers are not. but yea.. there are some girls who need to learn how to dress... but i was comfortable with my jeans, sweatshirt and flip-flops. yay. i got to dance in the audience and act like a fool. i went with ann and some of her friends. hehe.. i haven't seen ann in forever.. leave it up to justin timberlake and christina aguilera to reunite us. :P it was good.. i had a good time.. and saw some celebs. pamela anderson and tommy lee, usher, mike from big brother 1!! hahaha. it was good times.

today i just lounged as well, did some laundry, uploaded some pictures. and then i went to dinner with vivian.. we went to the macaroni grill. it was good stuff. she is crazy. hahah. anyone want to see graduation pictures?


more fun pictures here!

i are a graduate

whooooooooo hoooooooooo.. i am D-O-N-E done. it's actually pretty sad that i'm done with my college career, because i feel like i can't even remember the past four years, and that they've just *whoosh* flown by so fast. and there's so many things that i would have like to have done, or done better, and now it's just too late. but i guess i do have the rest of my life and we can't really dwell too much on the past, and the future will only be brighter (i hope) and that which you carry on with you is what should be there and is important to have with you. i'm a little sad because i feel like there is so much i'm leaving behind, and so many people and friends i will never really see again, but i can't have everything or everyone. :( but.. it's an interesting feel to be done with school.. for-ev-er. (what movie is that from again? i forget.)

anyways...i finished my hellish musical theater paper. and yes.. it doesn't sound like a bundle of joy, or easy because it's theater... but no. it was 17 pages of crap and 17 pages of me trying to sound like i know what i'm talking about.. but i don't. but hey... i'm sure i will get at least a D in the class... a B if i'm hopeful, but definitely a C (unless my paper did really suck that much) and i will get my fake diploma on saturday and it will be allll good. i did actually get sleep this time and finish my paper like 3 hours before it was actually due, and had time to re-read and edit my paper. amazing.. maybe i finally learned my lesson in procratinating. at least a little. but.. as i tried to print my paper.. i realized my printer sucks butt munchies and i had to try to run off to imprints to print it out.. but guess what.. I HAVE A FLAT TIRE. no.. i'm really not joking and wasn't trying to use the "flat tire on the day of finals" excuse or so my teacher called it. got it fixed shortly and was on my way. luckily i got sakura to go ahead and get it printed and then i dropped it off. i was only like 20 minutes late.. and there were people after me.. so whatevs.

that night i went out to ichiban's for a last dinner with the girls. aww.. sad :(. we all got together one last time to eat itchy buns, reminisce and have a good time. we talked about each other, other people and lots of random stuff. i'll miss my girls, i'm sad that we didn't get to hang out as much this year, and we're all leaving each other... i hope we do keep in touch though and are in each other's weddings and everything. :P after that i went home, did some random stuff and waited for carrie to come. man o man..i got carrie drunk.. hahah off of two drinks... gentlemen.. are you listening? carrie is a *CHEAP* date. but it was way fun... we went to Dublin's Irish Pub in downtown to meet up with my friend from the gap ... such a sweetheart, we just hung out with him and his friends a bit while i watched carrie's sobriety dwindle. then we headed off to pb and went to margarita rocks.. aww yes.. a fun favorite. carrie got hit on NUMEROUS times.. and each time she ran off and started laughing. poor guys. but it was hot and sweaty.. just the way we like it. then i introduced carrie to the wonder of el cotixans and the california burrito.. mmmmm.. carne asada. she was hesitant.. but if there's one thing you should trust my judgement about it's food. haha. i blew up the air mattress for carrie while we looked at old pictures. i realized what a HUGE dork i am because i have all these pictures with carrie when we weren't even friends. i can just see myself..."oh carrie.. lets take a picture.. it was so great hanging out with you.." and carrie.. "uhh.. who the hell are you and let go of my arm." i am a big dork.

today we slept in.. yay.. i love sleep. and then went shopping! i had some blockbuster dvd's that i wanted to return so they set off the alarm sensors in like half the stores.. it was kind of embarrasing. we ate really good greek food and then carrie shopped while i returned (because i am one broke mofo). i made carrie's dreams come true as we headed off to neiman marcus and then she made mine come true as we headed off to cheesecake factory. carrie is totally my sugar mama. then i went to my last shoot for fox rox. aww.. sad :P it was cool, and there were a lot of mishaps, more than normal, but it got done and it was good.. and i felt more useful this time.. i actually had things to do. but i really liked my internship.. too bad i can't get a job there. cuz i'm not a superstar like carrie.

but yea.. i got home around 11pm .. and i'm sure my school is probably all drunk in pb.. but i'm really kind of tired.. so it's okay. i'll pack and have a peaceful night at home. my parents and my sister is coming tomorrow.. maybe we'll go to todai for dinner.. mmmmmmm. and i don't know.. we'll just have a jolly good time. graduation is at 8am- which is interesting because i might see a few people from my high school. who aren't coming to see me, but to see mary... the more popular one.. but i might just run into them by default. that would be fun though.. sergi, keri, morales.. haven't seen them in awhile. yay cams reunion. hah. and then packing and moving.. what's don't really know what's going to go down with the roomie and rental situation. but that ho bag has my *nsync cd that i got from taiwan (with bonus tracks) and i think she has my adidas sandals too. okay.. time to pack.. man i have a lot of crap.

i'm SO sure that while we all sit here and stress over finals our professors aren't living it up because they don't have to teach anymore classes and their ta's are going to grade all the finals. sitting in their cozy la jolla houses inflicting pain on students who just want to graduate.... NOT APAPT PLAYS INTO MUSICALS!

**also... my roommate just came home from work, and then got all hooched out and left to go whore herself out. she went to la on monday morning, worked, then went to a bar and came home and flirted with the neighbor's friends. HELL... who needs a college degree? sounds like her life is just dandy! she certainly enjoys her night, while i sit here chained to my desk and computer. especially when in a week i will be unemployed and no longer a student, another useless member of society.

you were the one who told me lies
you were the one who said goodbye
if you're the one who is to blame
why are you the one still on my mind
how come i let you get me down
there are so many things
i have instead
but i want what you have
and won't give to me
you made me hate
you made me cry
and all i can do is sit here
while you drain my emotions
while inside i die
how can you make me so unhappy
without even a care of how i am
you've left me here with nothing
except fake memories.

yea.. so i didn't end up going to disneyland today, but still i did nothing. hmm.. i'm so undisciplined. i woke up at 10am due to my parents calling saying they wanted to come visit me in SD. i told them i had plans already, which made me feel really bad, because it's not often they come down to visit me, and they kind of were like, well you didn't call us so we didn't know what was going on. i guess my mother forgot about the fight we had on thursday. even so, i've been in a really anti-social people hating mood in the past week. i kind of got out of it by doing some happy activities that involved friends and alcohol and good music, but i think i'm starting to slip back into it.

eric came down to look at some housing and bring me some boxes and suitcases, so i had to wait for him before i left for disneyland. by the time i finally got out of the house (late as always) carrie called me to tell me to turn around and go home because nicole got into a car accident. :( sorry baby. but it's a good thing that i was late because i hadn't even gotten on the freeway yet (oops) maybe it was meant to be. but then it kind of makes me sad because then my parents could have came down. i guess i just feel bad that when my parents actually do try to reach out to me (as seldom that they do) i hate turning them down. oh well, i'll see them in a week. then i just chilled and went to sleep. i have been sleeping lots lately. just recouperating maybe. i woke up around 9pm, walked to ralphs to get some food, watched fox rox (which i'm quite sad that my internship is ending), and now i'm procrastinating anyway i can to not have to write this paper. although i NEED to write it.. and will be stressing out at noon on wednesday cursing myself for not writing it earlier (now.) but the idea of going back to sleep is just much more appealing.

so much for productivity. i know i my earlier blog i said i was going to work on my paper. yea... no. i pretty much just went back to sleep. slept until 5pm, ate, did my hair, watched tv, ate some more and then went to annie's show and then to pete's. i am a big fat slacker. i am going to fail my class and not get my theater minor and all my graduation announcements will be wrong. yea.. i could work on it tomorrow, but i'm probably going to sleep until 12, drag myself out of bed and then go to disneyland for nicole's bday. you can really say no to birthdays... especially not for something trivial like a final. hah. can i drop out of college now?

so it's been a little bit of a crazy week. none of which i did anything really productive. senioritis baby. i got my cap and gown this week, but i don't know if it still has really hit me that i'm never going to college again. ever. i have this one last paper to do (which i have no motivation for, but I really want to start it more than the day before) and i'm done with classes, but it just feels like i'm ending another year and i'll be back in the fall. maybe during graduation it'll kick in.

i went to my very last cki meeting on monday, and that again, was no big hoopla. it was just the last meeting and we had food (but we always have food), but there was no big goodbye, or senior thing, and it also seemed like no one really cared. maybe that's because everyone who goes to meetings now is new and not really much about the older people or traditions, but it's also sad because it makes me feel unloved and like it didn't really matter much that i was there or in that club because no one cares that i'm leaving. sure.. i know it's not true, but sometimes i wish cki provided that "sisterhood/brotherhood" or even just tight close-knittedness like other clubs, and people actually cared when you were a senior and left. it used to be like that, maybe it'll be like that in the future when the freshman now are all seniors and have grown together. i know i'm retarded but sometimes i need that attention and those actual words to show that people care and that it's not just implied.

tuesday- went to forever fondue with kathy and sakura. it was good stuff. the cheese appetizer was a little interesting... it was really strong because of the brandy they put in, and i didn't really like it that much, but it was still good. especially the dessert. mmmm... yay for chocolate. we might go there again just for the dessert, it's definitely the best part of the entire meal.

wednesday- i met up with the crispies at karl strauss, and ended up seeing a bunch of ucsd kids there too- so it was cool. i never knew karl strauss did this big happy hour thing.. but mmm.. garlic fries. yum. just talked and hung out. they're really cool guys and i made me feel better than i had been during the week.

thursday- i finished my LAST day of classes EVER. it was good stuff. came home and watched maid in manhattan.. i really do need to stop watching these sappy love movies.. ew. and went out with brianne and chris and his friends. it was a good time. i felt bad for chris because he was dd and had to deal with the drunken idiots, which is not as easy to tolerate when you're sober. we went to typhoon saloon, and it was fun. it was my first time there, and i also saw a bunch of old friends there which was happy. i had a good time, one of those final big bangs, and thanks to chris for driving back to drop of brianne's purse that we forgot in his trunk.

friday- woke up tired and not wanting to go to work - but i did anyways... and am pretty glad i did. i did some random stuff, and then started archiving. then i went to the kiwanis luncheon- but i missed the free food! because it took me ONE HOUR AND FIVE MINUTES to get there. ugh. i hate ardath rd.. stupid frikkin traffic. when i got back to work we were going on a shoot at the new found glory/good charlotte concert! whoo hoo.. cuz they were giving away a car, and so we were going to shoot it since they gave us some free prizes and stuff. before we left i wanted to move my car because i parked it in the tow away zone... but i had run out of gas... and my car wouldn't start.. what a day. i left my car there, moved the tow away signs and got in the truck and went to the shoot. it was alright, we had to wait a long time for the band to come out, but my boss kept cracking jokes about how i'm cooler than all the other interns... haha. and then we had to go because they had another interview for that night, but i decided to stay because they weren't going back to the station (plus i had no gas in my car) and since i was going to the concert anyways i would just meet up with kimmy and april later. so i went back to see who won the car, pretended i was still doing something important for foxrox and took pictures of new found glory, got to do this meet and greet thing. and then just waited for kimmy and april for like 2 hours. i was pretty bored, just people watched the whole time. the concert was really good though. mxpx, good charlotte and new found glory. and the movielife, but i didn't really see them. it was a super super good concert and we had really good seats. as close as you could get and still sitting down. we didn't want to go on the floor just because it was too crowded and i didn't want to spend the concert fighting for my life rather than listening to the music. it was great, went to friday's afterwards to eat. mmm..

today i need to start my paper. i really need to do my homework. esp because tonight i think i'm going to annie and pete's shows, and then tomorrow is disneyland. my mom asked if i was going to come home this weekend.. although i haven't really talked to her since we fought, so i don't know.

in other roommate drama- tai still hasn't paid or called. i knew i should have let her take those speakers. shoot. she hasn't been answering my phone calls and even hung up on me once. i hate how people are so sheisty about money. everyone just thinks that they don't need to be responsible for their own shit and tried to milk money out of everyone else. i mean.. i do agree it's nice to have people pay for your things and treat you.. but thing like rent or carpet cleaning or other stuff and people get for you that is just plain nice of them... ugh. all i know is that i hate the fact that i have to pay this in order to not be homeless. i hate the fact that i was her friend while she lived her and now she just boned out and wants to screw us over. i hate the fact that people are so frikkin sheisty when it comes to paying up and being responsible. what's fair is fair and what isn't sucks. i don't know what's going to happen, but i'll let you all know when my episode of judge judy airs.

i am no longer a pie virgin.

yes.. sad to say.. it's true. carrie and sakura took it away from me. but anyways........

i went through a whole week of school, random crap, circle k crap, failed my quiz. nothing too exciting.

banquet! was on saturday. the madness started on thursday night with skit rehearsal, then friday doing banquet errands as soon as i got off work, and then again on saturday... alllll day... until it was banquet time. picking up the projector, the cake, finishing the awards, then going to do kathy's hair, and then waiting around FOREVER for banana. then going to the clubhouse, and then doing some last minute taking care of stuff. buuuut.. i find out that i gave everyone the wrong directions and basically got everyone lost. i suck. we started kind of late, and then during the musical show i totally strained by voice and sang badly to try and compete with the volume of the piano, and then sang all the wrong words, and at the wrong tempo. i suck more. any how.. banquet was fun, people liked it, hailes got the most cheers (why?), people enjoyed my video, and i almost made sakura cry. damn it.. almost.. i shouldn't have made her laugh.. i should have added more sap. but anyways.. i was so excited for that chocolate cake.. and i got the last piece, but by the time i had finished cutting it and pieing was next, the thought of whip cream being shoved in my face gave me such a distaste for sweets.

so yea.. pieing.. hmmm. i can't say that i wasn't expecting it.. and i knew it was going to happen, and this time it really was pie=love.. but i was still very antsy when i was sitting there waiting for sakura and carrie to show the pie in my face. it was a weird sensation.. lots of cool cream oozing all over your face, emerging every part into your pores. and up your nose.. i couldn't breathe for a bit, tried to and only ended up only making by boogers whip cream flavored (yum!) it got all in my hair, and was just not fun... but yet i couldn't still see all the camera flashes going off... fan-tas-tic. anyways.. i guess it was for a good cause. we didn't raise nearly as much money as when we had the pieing controversies in the previous years, but this time there really was no contest. i didn't even bother to fight the power, it was hopeless. but.. the best part is that i got to pie sakura. hahah.. i made sure that if i was getting pied, she would go down with me. :) carrie and i got to pie her, and it was great.. :) we should have sneak attacked carrie or something. but yea.. it was a good time.. too bad i stank of whip cream in my hair, and it was stinging my eyes. afterwards we cleaned up.. thanks to the guys- petey, ryan billings and lan who helped load the heavy stuff into my car, and to carrie for helping us clean. then we went to broomball where we discovered that someone we have no idea who it is or where or why paid the rest of our broomball fee. hmm.. weird? and the broomball guys also gave us an extra 20 minutes. weird. but.. while saying goodbyes and picking up people's left behind shoes and clothing (who played broomball barefoot?) i was checking the guys who drive the zamboni machine to discover that is was one of my friends from freshman year, brandon. yea.. he definitely was a hottie. but we exchanged a few yells across the ice as he made his trip around in the zamboni and left so i wasn't bothering him and didn't have to make carrie wait too long. i'm sad that i didn't get to talk to him more, and he was just sitting at the counter the whole time. anyhoo.. went with petey, billings and lan to cotixan's afterwards.. mmm.. and then home. petey crashed at my place, but not before the "jean's room door is locked and she doesn't have the key" adventure. so we tried many things, and finally petey removed the door knob and we broke into my room. yikes. washed that whip cream out of my hair (finally!) although i still feel very grimy in the face, and conked out. woke up this morning very tired and lothargic despite my 7 or 8 hours of sleep. got breakfast at kono's with petey and then dealt with roommate/landlord issues.

they were pissed off because tai had a party and it was super loud and so people complained. since none of my lovely roommates were home this morning i took all the thrashings... all three times. and then i have a discussion with tai once she comes home. this is where the day gets progressively worse. tai isn't going to pay her rent because there is mad drama between her and brianne. brianne says she doesn't have enough money to cover tai's part. and who knows... i'm not going to cough up the money. since the landlords already hate brianne, they want her out anyways, she decides that since she can't pay the money and the landlords want her out anyways, she's just going to ask to be served the 3 days eviction notice and be done with it. THIS MEANS in a few days i will be homeless because nobody wants to pay their rent and it's not fair to ask my parents to pay 700 or so dollars. (that was the short version). i don't know what's really going on.. brianne has already planned to be out of here by the 5th.. soo.. i don't really know. she is a nutcase, and this whole situation sucks and i am mad that i am a casualty of all of this. with a 20 page musical theater paper that i would have to pull out of my ass anyways, i didn't really need this. i feel bad for my parents because i called them crying and they were quite helpful. not so much yelling and blaming me.. although my dad started it a little bit, but my mom stopped him. i'm sure i'll get more of it this weekend or even thursday when they come help me move. but they were really helpful in this situation and made me feel a lot better than i thought they would, so for that i am grateful. thank you to my parents for that unconditional support and love. and thanks to sakura as well because i might have to sleep in the corner of her living room for the next week and a half while i stress out over this paper and trying to graduate. i will always be able to count on her when i need help, no matter what. i know this. she is definitely all the good things people say she is and more. thanks for helping me when i am in desperate need.