spaznik: http://people.aol.com/people/article/0,26334,1219142,00.html
spaznik: AAAAHHHHHHHHHH
spaznik: good thing I dumped him...
spaznik: cause then it would TOTALLY be awkward now...
spaznik: totally.

nicole totally made my day. especially when i called her and she was listening to "this i promise you"... promise me what lance? huh? huh?

hahahahhhaha...

EDIT:
so apparently this has been the talk of the day... not at my work because they're not cool enough to admit they care, but at beth's and nicole's. and of course among the internet.. even in taiwan - this is what my sister had to say (and i knew this is exactly what she was going to say)

from joan@iammean.com:
"now we just have to wait for JC! hahahahhahah j/k"

and then i got a text message from nicole:
"so everyoen is making fun of me because of the lance bass thing. apparently no one else had a lance bass puppet."

i've seen two myspace bulletins so far (and that's only among my friends)... it's so.. i dunno.. such big news? couldn't anyone kind of guess? it wasn't this big when clay aiken came out... was it more obvious? because he spent less time hiding it? there's a lot of people that are like "good for him" and "i'm happy for him".. but it just seems excessive to splash it out like that and have a giant cover with giant yellow words "I'M GAY!"... oh well.. whatever you wanna do yah know? good way to advertise and promo for your new show. haha.. that's usually a big part of it.

pop culture is great. i bet on the next 'beauty and the geek' show this will be one of the questions... "which member of famed boyband *NSYNC came out of the closet in the summer of 2006?" :P

gary hall jr. survives shark attack

<3

anyone want to go with me to the usa swimming national championships next month in irvine? boo that i missed the janet evans invitational at usc... that would have been mucho fun.

is there such a thing as a "work 15".. you know.. like freshman 15? i think there has to be. i do nothing but mostly sit on my butt all day - typing at my computer.. with the occasional walk across the street... but there is food everywhere... especially on fridays and especially as the weeks wind down.

today.. i thought i'd be good and bring my lunch because i've been out to lunch a few times this week and spending money on food is something i could probably do less of. especially since last night i had a huge craving for sushi so i ordered 3 rolls from california roll factory because i'm indecisive like that. i brought my leftovers for breakfast - ate few pieces of sushi and had some cereal even though it was free donut friday. i combined the sushi with my leftovers from a birthday lunch on wednesday and thought i had a pretty decent meal. i got invited out to gyu-kaku for lunch, but didn't go because i was feeling anti-social and then i got a notification about free food! whoo!! i had a turkey burger with all the fixings, pasta salad and regular salad. i skipped out on the baked beans and the pound cake/berry mix/create your own shortbread.. but helped myself to a cookie and added a little ice cream for sandwichness.

less than 2 hours later there was a goodbye party for someone who was leaving. so there was meat, cheese and veggie platters, chips and salsa/cheese/guacamole, fruit tart and chocolate cakes and champagne.

20 minutes after that i am told there is ice cream and m&m's in a different area of our work.

in 43 minutes there is another goodbye party for another girl's last day. no food i don't think.. just a few bottles alcohol (for those who haven't already started drinking at lunch. i hear at another goodbye lunch i missed out on 48 oz. margaritas.)

i think they might also be serving dinner for some of the shows in an hour and a half. and i still have those leftovers that i was supposed to eat for lunch. at this rate i could probably stretch it out to next week. no wonder i never go grocery shopping.

understand that i am only posting these for the 3 people who want to see them. granted i am plastering them out on the internet, but emailing them the pictures just seemed too weird. also - it has taken me this long to put up pictures because it has taken me that long to find a half decent picture where i a)looked okay or b)you could actually see the hair. this post is 100% in the vain category.. but only because it's really all about me and how i look. also understand that i am not too pleased. sometimes i can pretend my hair is okay.. and if i have a good day and get compliments at work, it sometimes makes me feel a little bit better. especially if its the cute guy at work. BUT.. it's been more than 2 weeks and i can't seem to find a decent picture of me and my new hair. so i thought hey.. i'll just take some tonight ... and it took a million and two takes just to get some ones that weren't atrocious. i could never be america's next top model. (shut up.)

anyways.. here goes. this makes me feel a little (or lot) worse about my hair. i still don't like it. and i know there will be the occasional comment (or not) about "oh it's cute!" but yea.. i am still not sold :(

*made them small on purpose so they'd look better from "further away"


this is the best out of the bunch, maybe i should wear my hair half up half down all the time.



i've got the half mushroom head (right side) and the half straight hair (left side) thing going on... lovely.



this is the "carefree" picture - although i am far from it.

so you might say "oh it's not that bad" - but there are tons more pictures that were bad than good. but even i am not stupid enough to post those up - even to prove a point.

ps. a lot of people say that my hair "suits me" - so if i have fugly hair.. what does that mean?

pps. totally not trying to fish for compliments here - because even if you say it i won't believe you, so don't think i'm a compliment fishing whore... but that doesn't mean you can post mean things either. then i'll cry.

i miss my hair a little bit.

i've gotten into a really bad habit of turning breath mints into meals. not doing it on purpose in the whole anorexia kind of way... but in an "i'm unprepared" kind of way. i used to carry around gum all the time. because i like to have good breath and i like to keep my mouth busy - but after i got in the car accident i had a bit of TMJ and i wasn't allowed to chew gum. boo. so i turned to breath mints and altoids. i discovered altoid mini's and most recently (thanks to linh and beth) icebreaker sours. breathmints, but like candy.

so lately.. i've been stuck places - work (hockey.. where you can't get up and go) or currently - class. i guess i could leave and go get some food.. but then i'd miss out on my class.. and for the rate i'm paying it's not really worth it. so i'm a little starving because i haven't eaten dinner yet... and all i have are altoid minis and icebreaker sours. the icebreaker sours are a little tastier than the plain ol altoids so i've been popping them like crazy... it curbs my hunger for a few minutes, and then time for more. but i'm still starving. when i was waiting for my mom at the hospital i was popping altoids like crazy at 2am... man i had some fresh breath.

anyhoo.. i should probably get back to paying attention in class. if i'm not leaving to go get food, not paying attention by blogging isn't any better.

okay okay.. i'll post/send some pictures soon... maybe... ahaha.. if i can take some half decent ones. but for now my camera is dead.. i think i left my charger in torrance so y'all are going to have to wait just a little bit.

people tell me i am overreacting. at work i've been getting compliments and i tell everyone "i'm still getting used it." funny thing.. i think my hair has already grown a little bit. it seems a little bit longer than saturday. and yes, the flat iron is my new best friend.

but back to the "compliments" i say so in quotes because it's such a drastic change, most people have to just say something. and mostly in work environments it's got to be say something nice or don't say anything at all. so when someone does something different with their hair.. you say the standard "oh!! nice hair cut!" (exclamation points optional.) one guy did tell me he liked it longer, because he prefers long hair. in fact, he told me not to cut it before i did it - but that's besides the point. anyways.. like when people feel the need to comment when something is different, and of course they're not going to say anything bad, sometimes i wonder which ones are real and which ones are just polite. like "oh... nice third arm!" you know? i know i'm being paranoid, but i also know i've told people that i like their hair when i really didn't.

vivian told me that with it down it makes me look "super asian"... all i need is the bowl bangs to complete the look. awesome.

joan.. it's very 2nd grade picture-esque. after i let you cut my hair and you cut it crooked so mommy had to cut it super short to fix it/even it out. hahahahha.. yup.. it's almost that short :P

i'm having a hair crisis.

bleh. so i wanted it short. i wanted it short and cute. what i got was a boy looking mushroom. you know how your hair is a little longer when it's wet, so i told my hair stylist to cut it around the length i wanted, and then she blew dry it, and then i realized that i was retarded. it's also weird, because it's got more body in the middle and the top and the bottom just kind of curls in... yuk yuk yuk. i thought.. "hey maybe if i wash it and re-style and blow dry that it'll look better..." nope.. it looks the same. ugly.

ack.

oh well.. it's only hair right? haha.. except when i was little my sister told me hair liks 90% of your looks. and= i have believed her ever since. i might not have done a whole lot about it.. but i believe it, always have. now i'm panicking. oh well, not like there's anyone i need to impress. haha.. like that's ever true.

oh well... can't do anything about it now.. except cry. hahahhahah.

*sigh*

they're blue because you're leaving.