circle k has enveloped my life..

i don't know whether that's a good thing or bad thing.. but i do know it's 4:37am and i'm still up doing my homework. yuk. i spent yesterday and today doing circle k stuff, sitting through 7 hours of different sorts of meetings, preparing for meetings, making agendas, talking to people about circle k stuff, thinking about what's coming up in circle k. yikes.. it is insane how much of a circle k nerd i am. (and the scary thing is that there are even bigger circle k nerds than me out there!!) today i prepared for the meeting when i realized there was a recognition thing due this saturday, which is not simple and requires letters of rec and hour tabulation in order to even nominate someone. ugh. so yeah.. i have to count up all the hours so that i can ask people to write letters of rec. my secretary can't do it because she has an 8am class, and a volleyball game tomorrow night... so guess who volunteered to do it. i really need to learn how to delegate better. anyhoo.. i thought it wasn't bad because for my class, although i have reading, i always get by with not doing it.. haahaha, i thought i only had to do my prompt book and write a 1 page paper. sounds easy right? nope.. i just spent the last 5 hours doing my prompt book. *sigh*

but yeah.. elections are in only 2 weeks. that seems so scary. i only have 7 weeks left in my term. and just like last year, as much as i gripe and complain about it, and celebrate how soon it will be over, i'll still miss it when it's gone. it's scary to think that these people are going to come and replace you, and you hope that they'll do a good job.. but you never really know. the ones that you think will do a good job suck, and the ones you aren't sure of sometimes amaze. sometimes.. and then there's that just run everything in to the ground. but in any case circle k will live to see another day.. we hope. (or at least some of us.. hahahahah) nominations were crazy today, and technically i have 7 (yeah.. SEVEN) people running for president. but the members went on a nominating frenzy, and everyone just said they'll think about it... but i feel like a majority of them will decline.. i just hope not all of them. and then i think maybe they just all said yes because they're scared to say no? to me? i don't know.. i'm "witty" and "sarcastic" and that nickname "mean jean" i got, was a joking term, but people who don't know me well, i honestly think that i'm mean. i'm really not, i'm a nice girl. i promise. but what.. these people who got nominated say yes only for a fear that i'll come after them in the parking lot after the meeting because they won't run for my position? i don't know.. i swear i try to be as non-threatening as possible. but with the power and position of making things happen and bringing things into order... you also play the bad guy. i dunno.. maybe i expect too much.

i also have been wondering how my life would be different (and better or worse) if i had run for governor last year.. and either won and this year i would have been gov. or lost and this year i would have had no position. our club board would probably be a lot different... and my life would either be real busy or not so busy at all. but i guess there's not use thinking about it.. but it's another one of those grand "what-if's." i've set myself up in a good position to run for another position for next year...which makes me sad because there's so much that i'd like to do and experience.. but i refuse to be one of those people who are in circle k for eight years, especially if i don't even need to go to school anymore!! but it's like my feeling like i didn't get enough out of college, like i never went to the gym enough, didn't use AS resources as much as i could have, did go abroad.. all those things that are so easy while you're in school, and so hard once you're not. eh.. but anyhow.. i have to go write my one page and then do that circle k stuff. and it's now 5am. at least i have class at 2pm.. although tomorrow is a full day.. class, sdsu meeting and then budget stuff with sakura. at least i get to hang out with MY honey.. (that's right manny...)