so i'm done with school.. it's pretty exciting.. but then also boring at the same time. now i feel as if my life has no purpose. wow.. what a loser huh? i'm in a way blah mood right right now.. i'm pretty restless, and don't want to go to sleep, but don't really want to do anything else.. and it's 4am. geez. there are a million things going through my head, and i'm just trying to think about them all, but it seems like they don't have an answer. although jackie always says you always have a choice, sometimes i feel like you just don't. but then i guess it's my choice to do nothing at all right.. another one of those questions i can't really answer. maybe these three weeks of working and not trying to be too busy will be good, but in that boring depressing i have no life or friends kind of way. we'll see.

in other news:
* i'm done done with finals, and i think it did alright.. we'll see how those grades turn out though because i was not doing so hot during the quarter due to the general lack of busy-ness. my sound project turned out excellently, and if any of you ever want to listen to my project that i slaved over and poured my heart into... feel free to ask. it's about 9/11 and it's called "a day in the life".. but it's not cheesy.. but actually really good.. suprisingly.. cuz i did it right?

*i ate 50% off sushi (yum), hung out a bit with justin, and then baked cookies with kimmy and then watched dawson's ... i want an eddie. audrey is a ho.

*played in the gap with sakura and kathy and then went out to "done with finals" dinner with jill and jason. then went to pete's show and after-show hang out dealio. i got to use Aran's camera to help him tape the show and became an "honorary Crispy".. i have to come up with a coolio name. and no matter what they say i think pete and isaac sounded real good, and pete played this cover of this john mayer song that i really adore, so i was real happy during that song. it was chill.. except i got WAY lost on the way to the show due to bad directions from the coffee bean & tea leaf website. for some reason i'm retarded and ended up in a gated community on top of a large hill when i was supposed to be at a coffee shop in mira mesa. apparently "didn't all the signs that say poway give you a hint" wasn't something i considered, since i thought maybe you could go through poway to get to mira mesa. thus proving i know nothing about where anything is in san diego.. even after 4 years. i am LAME.

*i get to work women's basketball this weekend, which is fun, i like basketball.. i like my athletics job. i'm excited for tuesday for the men's game to see michael and cameron play. i miss living on campus two doors down from them. and i'm working 36.5 hours next week on top of the three athletic events and driving home to see my mom for her birthday. yay home. but it sounds like i will be a busy girl.

*one last thing.. for some reason, some how.. i don't feel like it's christmas. i listen to the christmas music at work, see the red bags and boxes that gap especially made for the holidays, and watch people buy gifts all day long, but yet i still feel as christmas is so far away. i feel like i lost that christmas spirit or something.. i don't know. i'm still buying presents for people when i see fit, and see something they like.. but i'm not all excited because christmas is 12 days away... it doesn't even seem like it's december. weird huh? is it just me?