well it's the end of 10th week, which means the end of my fall classes... ever!! wow.. my last fall quarter.. kind of scary. i don't really know what i'll be doing in a year.. hopefully something good, somewhere good, with someone good.. haha jk. but yeah.. and it just seems so blah.. like i feel like there should be more excitement or fanfare.. but there's not... and it's just me.. sitting alone in my apt... watching tv while the apartment below me has a party.

wednesday had class and then a 4 hour circle k meeting.. joy, oh joy. thursday i worked and then went to the computer lab to work on my sound project. it was kind of cool to edit the sounds on the computer.. i felt all pro, or like i was smart or something... and stayed until 11:30pm or so until i decided that i needed to go home to sleep so that i could get up for work.. today!! was at work for 9 hours.. and was completely pooped. dude.. never go grocery shopping when you're tired because all i bought were easy foods... i bought all frozen dinners.. those Ralphs people must think i'm so lazy. dah.. who cares.

i should really be studying for finals or writing my paper or something... my documentary class.. i'm a little worried... because part of my grade is participation in the projects.. but these two people i'm helping don't want help.. so what am i supposed to do? and then when i write my self evaluation.. haha.. what do i say? oh well.. i'm sure the teacher understands.. or at least i hope she will. i've given up on trying to get good grades. hahah.. is that bad? i came home so pooped that i put my ice cream in the fridge (yeah.. the fridge) and then just watched tv all night. i *heart* harry potter... i swear i've watched that movie like 4 times this week.. it's the best. :) nicole and i want to go to hogwarts, and i want to be on the quidditch team.. i think that would rock. so.. i also watched sex in the city and then an hour of elimidate (among many other things). but the reason i mention elimidate is because.. i don't know... it's something i've been thinking about a lot lately.. and i was watching these shows.. and i also hope that the guy will do the right thing and pick the good girl, and not just go for the ho. but time and time again it never fails, whichever girl throws herself at him.. he'll pick. which.. i dunno.. by now shouldn't suprise me, but still does. like is that what you really have to do to get someone to like you? make out with them, and then other girls on his command? and then stick your hand down his pants, and then jump in his bed? it just doesn't seem like the way to go, or maybe i shouldn't watch elimidate for tips on dating.. but isn't that how the real world works? but it just seems like that's what the standard is for today... put out or get out.. haha.. and then if someone doesn't conform.. doesn't that mean they'll just be left behind? doomed to be purseholders for life?