i have FINALLY finished watching all the circle k tapes that have been given to me. i got sent closing session from 1994 icon, all 3 sessions from 1995 icon and then closing sessions from the past 5 years. yikes.. that is a lot to handle. it's funny how a lot of the speeches are the same - installations, award pre-speeches, the script can be almost exactly the same, just plug in different recipients. almost a little lame. but i guess.. what can you do. it's very funny to watch some of the memories and laugh at how annoying cal.nev.ha really can be.. heh.heh.heh. it's also funny to see how some people used the same speech and same "true stories" while speaking to different crowds. trying to pawn off the same speech as new material.

gripes that i have about all these stupid videos and sessions.

1. the bad video people who decided it'd be cool to show power point presentation of people names, instead of actually showing them. probably to cover up their horrendous taping skills, but still annoying. learn how to put text over video.. it ain't that hard. they even did it in the 1995 videos. you should be able to get it right in the 21st century.

2. convention highlights that were just slideshows of pictures, and sometimes really bad ones... you'd think that in this day of high tech doodads, that we could find some decent people to make a decent convention highlights video. i may not have anything to complain about while i was at icon, because the warm feeling of "aww.. i love cki" that you always get while at convention was invading my body... but after watching tape after tape looking for material and not really getting much.. the convention highlights or "creative conclusions" as they used to call it back in the day.. was something i looked forward to. imagine my anger when it's some crappy slideshow.. OR .. in the case of the 2003 indy convention.. no "highlights" at all. wtf man. seriously - who dropped the ball on that deal?

3. what is up with everyone swaying along to "friends are friends forever" at the end of the buffalo convention? really? that's the cheesiest song ever. singing auld lang syne every year is kind of cheesy too.. but it's "tradition" so it makes it kind of cute. but that "friends are friends" thing.. that's just god awful. especially when you did it in place of auld lang syne? that's great.. break tradition...

4. who's choice was it to announce vote counts during the election results in st. louis? kind of interesting, but anti-climactic, because they announced the vote totals, and then announced the new trustees.. isn't that kind of redundant? and sucky for the person with the least amount of votes. "congratulations! you're the least liked board member!"

5. they didn't do the "pony" thing at the st.louis convention. not that it's a gripe.. but i remember the "hassle" that it was to bring it back from the dead.. and the grief.. and it's kind of a cool tradition.. i'm just hoping it didn't get lost in someone's garage.. again. (yea i know.. i'm kind of into this whole traditions thing).

all in all though.. it does make me miss circle k. it makes me recontemplate about joining that kiwanis club. we'll see.. i know it will be different though.. but i do miss going to projects and working with kids. and i miss the fun with friends.. my board was the best :) i remember that dcm at my house where nicole, beth, kathy and joe were there and wrote crazy crap all over my calendar. and that house of delegates in buffalo where we laughed ourselves silly over so many stupid comments. that was the best HOD ever. i miss that very first LSSP where it was so perfect and happy and fun.. a utopian LSSP.. none of them will ever compare with that. i miss playing with the kids @ julian's anchorage. i miss ... a lot of things. man, i am the biggest geek.

i am still totally unsure of what i'm doing, but i am glad i am done watching these tapes. i just now have to digitize them so i can put it into my computer and hopefull start cutting stuff. we'll see... ugh. i'm going to the hollywood bowl.. and i LOVE going to the hollywood bowl during 4th of july and seeing fireworks there. i did it a few times with my family when i was younger, and tomorrow it will be EVEN better because it will be disney spectacular. YES. i really do want to go, but just freaking out about the time, and the loss of a whole night to work.

i love love LOVE fireworks, and not seeing them on 4th of july is just wrong. i want to go to wilson park so bad.. but i am also worried about my time... blech.. this sucks.

you know what also sucks? is that i probably can't go to disneyland until after all this is over.. AND.. i got a text message from nicole on wednesday night, and one from sakura on friday morning saying that they had rode space mountain. DANG.IT. space mountain is my favoritest ride EVER.. and i can't even go ride it during the relaunch. BOO. oh well.. maybe it'll give it time for the lines to die down... :P but it is a little dissapointing to have to wait so long, and then still wait a little more.

okay.. i should probably stop procrastinating and go digitize some stuff.. or maybe sleep. i'm pretty useless when i'm too tired to function.. and averaging 3-4 hrs of sleep last week was bad news. i thought i could get used to it and manage with lots of coffee and/or soda.. but i just crashed today. so yea. we shall see. july 20th isn't that far away. i wish i could make time stand still.