I need your help

On the top of my list of things that make me awkward is interacting with drivers in the next car over. Maybe it's a personal space issue, maybe it's a "don't talk to strangers thing" imbedded in me from when I was young, but I always think it's so weird making eye contact with people on the road in other cars.

In LA where so much of your time is spent in a car, it may rank up there as "places to meet people". Recently I was driving home from the valley and some guy started yelling at me and honking his horn to get attention. My windows were shut and I could still hear him. I maaaaybe would have turned to look if except A. He sounded 19, B. He was really obnoxious about it and that's not attractive, C. I was having a really shitty day and didn't want to deal with stupid people. Sometimes I think, "hey, maybe I should have given him a chance". He may have been the hottest guy I had seen in my life. But including all of the facts above, D. That's so awkward.

Today, I was driving to the AT&T store to get a new sim card and a pretty attractive man pulled up in a silver 4 runner. It was a nice hot 86 degrees out this fine Monday in October, so I was driving with my windows down. He pulled up and smiled at me and I half grinned back. I looked away and pretended to be really interested on something on my side of the street, the radio, my fingernails. Anything except looking at "pretty attractive man". Then I got the courage to take a better look at him and he thankfully was looking away. But then he started to turn his head and I immediately looked away. Yes, I'm a chicken. That's my zodiac sign, maybe it's in my blood. I could be totally wrong. Maybe he was just being nice. But I still imagine all the scenarios that could have happened and all the pretty attractive children we would have had had I maybe just tried a little bit? Is that what this is all about? I think I'm pretty much doomed anyways.

Do you interact with other drivers? What do you do when someone rolls up next to you in the car and smiles? Are you attracted when someone yells at you from the next car? I can't be alone in this... can I?

Tales from work today

I caught a major mistake that will require a change to the rest of the days... Yet I don't know if they'll even know it was me who caught it or that they should be glad that I happened to be there at that particular moment.

I had to go to the psychic eye bookstore, kind of creeped me out.

I also went to Joann's. It made me kind of wish that I was crafty and that I could buy this a bunch of stuff from this store and make really cool stuff.

Please and thank you go a long way. Learn to use them. And mean it.

Still wondering about this whole entertainment thing.

So, I got a job... sort of. A pseudo job. I'm going to be PA'ing on an indie short for the next week and a half. Bright sides are that I'm going to be working on a movie (!!)l, it seems pretty legit and organized, the guys running it aren't asshats, and I'm going to be getting paid (and won't end up with a $425 U-Haul charge on my card that will take me 2 weeks to resolve). Downside is that I'm not getting paid very much, I'll be driving my ass all around town picking up food and taking care of people, and I have to commute to the valley. All in all, I think (I hope) it'll be a good experience. At least it'll take me a mini-step further in the "what do I want to do" path. I hope.

*And then it will be 6 weeks to go until the Show, and then another 12 to really figure out where this life is heading. That's D-season, people.*

It's October!

Aaaand.. I'm not really any further along than I should be. At least not in a measurable sense. I keep thinking about whether I should still be trying to cram stuff into the next 8 weeks I have off. It doesn't sound like a long time when you put it that way, but it kind of is. I'm still doing some searching and hunting and trying to find work to fill my time, but the outlook is grim. I went to a mixer where are girl told me she got rejected by 5 temp agencies because they didn't have enough jobs to staff the temps they already had. Things seem to be floating around, and I'm trying to find that right in, but it's just not there, so yea.

Let's have a look see at this list.

1. Figure out how to work my Nikon DSLR - well.
I went to a class @ Samy's, and learned some tips. I still have a far ways to go, and some more stuff to learn and memorize... Things don't stick in my brain like they used to....

2. Learn how to drive stick.
I'm going to start next week dammit.

3. Work on:
a. SOFA reel
b. Sakura/Jimmy wedding video
c. Olivia/Chinson wedding video
d. Annie/Mraz Hotel Cafe video

4. Take Logging/Transcription test - for fun/depth/possible jobs
was wondering if I should still do this, I obviously have not

5. Apply with Creative Temp Agency
see rambling above

6. Start Tennis Classes or find ppl to play with (anyone??)
I got into this class, but it was just a class where you do a hour of drills. Not really great, but I think I can transfer into another class, or at least I'm hoping.

Bonus -
?Build a website for myself?
Got a book, haven't started reading it....

So I pretty much such at this list thing. Grr. I know I know... begin to berate me. maybe that will motivate me. I feel like there is a lot of stuff I "have" been doing, I guess I can't really say much of what. I have been trying to gym it up more often, and that always seems to suck and enormous part of the day up. Not an excuse, but just letting you know. I guess that excuse only works if you can see the results huh?

One thing I did do, is go to The Griddle Cafe in Hollywood and have their Red Velvet Pancakes. They're absolutely freaking AMAZING. I think I twittered and facebook'ed about them enough, but here are some more scrumpdidilyumptious pictures. I found out about them by reading Eliza Dushku's twitter, and it's basically one of the best things I've done last month.

I'll leave you with a few key moments with my parents:

Dad: Are you okay?
Jean: Yea... I just forgot my eye drops
Dad: You should just cry, then it's like natural eye drops
Dad: How about if I pinch you? *pinch*
Jean: Ouch!
Dad: See, tears. Better now?

Mom: There's been a lot of typhoons and floods in Thailand and Philippines
Jean: Yea, I know
Mom: I was thinking about putting all my "special things" upstairs on the 2nd floor, so you know, they don't get ruined.
Jean: That's silly
Mom: No, like hurricane Katrina! Like all the electronics and my treasures.

Riot and a half.