so i'm in a fairly better mood than i started off the day in. which is good. i guess i was just super frustrated with everything.. the roommates, the friends, the parents, school, circle k.. etc. and everything just got to me. i'm just odd and get in those weird anti-social moods where i don't really feel like dealing with too many people or too many situations... but inevitably still i must.

today i went to my internship... i thought i was going to go out and shoot today, but i ended up just doing a lot of research and stupid junk.. but it's still pretty cool. i took a break to go to the kiwanis luncheon, but i guess they either cancelled it, or they moved it because it wasn't where they usually have it. i drove around downtown la jolla for an hour trying to find the right place... but no luck. so that put me in my already disdain mood. took a small nap, went back to my internship, then after not really doing anything.. i went back home. i guess i was just in a sour mood from yesterday already that every small thing just made it worse. and especially you because i was also having an ugly day. you know, where you just look, feel so blech? i was tired, my pores are huge, i had a big zit, my hair sucked, my teeth were yellow, and my clothes are all too tight. i was not so happy today. i came home, cleaned the kitchen, tried to take care of some cki crap and then back home. lots of useless driving around. came back, ate some, watched a bit of tv, talked a bit with tayyabeh and chilled. tried to clean my room some. but i was also very antsy.. nothing really satisfied me, i didn't want to go out, i didn't want to stay in. i'm so fussy. but i started cleaning, which is kind of good, because when i'm in a bad mood i tend to throw more things away, and not keep useless stuff just for sentimental value. i talked to sakura and we vented about our crappy lives, and after her story, mine seemed so much less insignificant... and then later she came over and we watched One Hour Photo. it was kind of creepy in that skeevy kind of way, it was a lot less scarier than i thought it would be. and michael vartan is way hot and nekkid in the movie. whoo.

so anyways.. after that.. i somehow feel a bit more at ease. just a nice night at home with a friend, and no retarded roommate interaction. although... (here comes my ranting) i must say that she definitely making me chomp at the bit. in two days our cable and internet is going to get shut off because one of the inhabitants that i share my rathole with refuses to pay the cable bill... (and hasn't paid it for the past two months) and this month the part that can be paid isn't enough to keep our service on. damn you vivian for moving out. so... if i'm not around.. this is why. i'm sure once the cable gets shut off she'll have a panic attack and re-connect the service... but only after then. tell me... how can you have a full time job and not have enough money to pay for anything? and it's not like it's a one time case.. it's been like this since i moved in... not paying rent/phone/gas & electric/cable bills on time... or even sometimes at all. argh!! it's so frustrating and annoying.. because i can't do the things i need to do when our things get shut off because of her. ugh. so i'll stop now... if you ever meet this girl... don't live with her.

so i'm working this weekend.. which kind of sucks because i was supposed to go back to torrance for that whole mother's day thing. which, i guess in my current mood maybe better for me. i'm working at the women's ncaa water polo championships.. which is always fun. just too bad it's women's. anyhoo.. time to go watch a happy movie now and go to bed. long day tomorrow..