so it's been a little bit of a crazy week. none of which i did anything really productive. senioritis baby. i got my cap and gown this week, but i don't know if it still has really hit me that i'm never going to college again. ever. i have this one last paper to do (which i have no motivation for, but I really want to start it more than the day before) and i'm done with classes, but it just feels like i'm ending another year and i'll be back in the fall. maybe during graduation it'll kick in.

i went to my very last cki meeting on monday, and that again, was no big hoopla. it was just the last meeting and we had food (but we always have food), but there was no big goodbye, or senior thing, and it also seemed like no one really cared. maybe that's because everyone who goes to meetings now is new and not really much about the older people or traditions, but it's also sad because it makes me feel unloved and like it didn't really matter much that i was there or in that club because no one cares that i'm leaving. sure.. i know it's not true, but sometimes i wish cki provided that "sisterhood/brotherhood" or even just tight close-knittedness like other clubs, and people actually cared when you were a senior and left. it used to be like that, maybe it'll be like that in the future when the freshman now are all seniors and have grown together. i know i'm retarded but sometimes i need that attention and those actual words to show that people care and that it's not just implied.

tuesday- went to forever fondue with kathy and sakura. it was good stuff. the cheese appetizer was a little interesting... it was really strong because of the brandy they put in, and i didn't really like it that much, but it was still good. especially the dessert. mmmm... yay for chocolate. we might go there again just for the dessert, it's definitely the best part of the entire meal.

wednesday- i met up with the crispies at karl strauss, and ended up seeing a bunch of ucsd kids there too- so it was cool. i never knew karl strauss did this big happy hour thing.. but mmm.. garlic fries. yum. just talked and hung out. they're really cool guys and i made me feel better than i had been during the week.

thursday- i finished my LAST day of classes EVER. it was good stuff. came home and watched maid in manhattan.. i really do need to stop watching these sappy love movies.. ew. and went out with brianne and chris and his friends. it was a good time. i felt bad for chris because he was dd and had to deal with the drunken idiots, which is not as easy to tolerate when you're sober. we went to typhoon saloon, and it was fun. it was my first time there, and i also saw a bunch of old friends there which was happy. i had a good time, one of those final big bangs, and thanks to chris for driving back to drop of brianne's purse that we forgot in his trunk.

friday- woke up tired and not wanting to go to work - but i did anyways... and am pretty glad i did. i did some random stuff, and then started archiving. then i went to the kiwanis luncheon- but i missed the free food! because it took me ONE HOUR AND FIVE MINUTES to get there. ugh. i hate ardath rd.. stupid frikkin traffic. when i got back to work we were going on a shoot at the new found glory/good charlotte concert! whoo hoo.. cuz they were giving away a car, and so we were going to shoot it since they gave us some free prizes and stuff. before we left i wanted to move my car because i parked it in the tow away zone... but i had run out of gas... and my car wouldn't start.. what a day. i left my car there, moved the tow away signs and got in the truck and went to the shoot. it was alright, we had to wait a long time for the band to come out, but my boss kept cracking jokes about how i'm cooler than all the other interns... haha. and then we had to go because they had another interview for that night, but i decided to stay because they weren't going back to the station (plus i had no gas in my car) and since i was going to the concert anyways i would just meet up with kimmy and april later. so i went back to see who won the car, pretended i was still doing something important for foxrox and took pictures of new found glory, got to do this meet and greet thing. and then just waited for kimmy and april for like 2 hours. i was pretty bored, just people watched the whole time. the concert was really good though. mxpx, good charlotte and new found glory. and the movielife, but i didn't really see them. it was a super super good concert and we had really good seats. as close as you could get and still sitting down. we didn't want to go on the floor just because it was too crowded and i didn't want to spend the concert fighting for my life rather than listening to the music. it was great, went to friday's afterwards to eat. mmm..

today i need to start my paper. i really need to do my homework. esp because tonight i think i'm going to annie and pete's shows, and then tomorrow is disneyland. my mom asked if i was going to come home this weekend.. although i haven't really talked to her since we fought, so i don't know.

in other roommate drama- tai still hasn't paid or called. i knew i should have let her take those speakers. shoot. she hasn't been answering my phone calls and even hung up on me once. i hate how people are so sheisty about money. everyone just thinks that they don't need to be responsible for their own shit and tried to milk money out of everyone else. i mean.. i do agree it's nice to have people pay for your things and treat you.. but thing like rent or carpet cleaning or other stuff and people get for you that is just plain nice of them... ugh. all i know is that i hate the fact that i have to pay this in order to not be homeless. i hate the fact that i was her friend while she lived her and now she just boned out and wants to screw us over. i hate the fact that people are so frikkin sheisty when it comes to paying up and being responsible. what's fair is fair and what isn't sucks. i don't know what's going to happen, but i'll let you all know when my episode of judge judy airs.