short updates.... pictures to come later. i know how you love those :P

friday went to disneyland with nicole for a few hours to catch the last EVER "who wants to be a millionaire play it" game. sadness. saw a girl from my high school which i chose to avoid.. i dunno.. it would have been weird :P the first girl in the hot seat was from canada and the host picked some random guy outta the audience to "set her up with" but ended up being from the same area-ish and the same age. nicole says, "she's so lucky, she gets pins AND a boyfriend." disney magic.

that night drove to san diego to the belly up for the tristan, bushwalla, jason mraz show. due to some retardedness, lateness and general crappiness on the part of stupid friends i missed tristan's opening act. i was bummed... and i didn't get to see her and mraz sing "shy that way." double boo. i know some of my friends don't like it, but i personally LOVE that stuff... i also love *nsync and sometimes sing along to hilary duff. i rule. anyways. i got into san diego and to the belly up as tristan was singing, but i had to wait for kristen to get here, and she got really lost. and because i'm a good friend/nice person/schmuck/loser i waited outside on the phone, walked down to the corner and waited to spot her car. consequently missing tristan's set. watch bushwalla, got a drinked spilled on me, moved for jason's set, sat on the side. fun yet boring - maybe i was tired... i dunno.. can't really explain... but it was a good time. as i was walking out i got this huge wash of "i really miss san diego" i don't know what it was because i was just walking out of some bar... but it seemed so different. i dunno. drove home, swerving a few times, but made it home safe and sound. yay.

worked all weekend, gap, hockey, blah blah blah.

went swimming for a little bit at the dinky pool @ bally's. i felt i was turning more than swimming. and although the lane says "fast lap swim" the people who may think they are fast are slow, and in the next lane over are a couple making out, so can't swim there. i don't mind it too much, but i just felt bad that the people would stop and be like "go ahead" like i was some punk ass kid.

i got a call for an internship yesterday. i'm considering chucking my temp job gives me a steady check every week for unpaid grunt work that is a killer commute. everyone has to pay their dues, i'm wondering if this is my time. it's not exactly in the perfect field that i want, but similar... i wonder if that is good enough. a stick in the mud is that i need to be in school and get credit for it, i don't know how stickler they will be about it, but i called el camino to ask about it - and boy are they useless. i was thinking about going home right now and calling that guy back. when i talked to him yesterday i was confused and probably sounded pretty stupid. i'm sure he's already thrown my resume away... just like that NYC2012 guy. fuckers. why doesn't someone just want to hire me already? is working for free or getting a bs job just to earn a living and "be responsible" the way to go?

tried to go ice skating yesterday, but got there too late.. boo. next time. sat around and talked with beth and haphazardly watched the games going on, the referees :P and talked to a guy who's in the chocolate business. i asked him if he wanted to hire me. hah. beth should be a sports commentator - after a guy swings and misses "boy he feels stupid now."

my grandfather (mom's side) is in the hospital. i guess he fell. i don't know what happened really... i didn't want to probe my mom too much. i don't know if he broke anything, but my mom was complaining about how there is no one who takes care of him, he doesn't eat enough, doesn't eat right, isn't healthy.. etc etc. she doesn't like my step-grandmother all that much, and thus i think she is a flake and kind of evil as well. once she ran out and left my grandfather alone for a few days and no one could find her. my grandfather is pretty feeble, can't really do anything and pretty much just sits and watches tv. i've never been that close to him, so i feel more anguish for my mom than for myself. this is something else she doesn't need on top of all the other stresses and unhappiness in her life. but it'll be sad if the worst happens and i will also have no grandfather's left. sure.. it'll always happen eventually, but doesn't mean i can't be sad about it. my mom is really worried and had that whole "breaking voice" when she was telling me. i don't know what is better.. to live a feeble life or to go in peace. i recently found out on my last trip to taiwan that my other grandfather suffered from alzheimer's. so it makes more sense to me how he got sick (i think pneumonia) and died so suddenly. because it wasn't sudden.. it was just something i never knew. he would go out and walk around taipei and get really lost. he got in a taxi once and the taxi driver tried to ask him where to go, but my grandpa was unable to tell him. he couldn't remember where he lived. while we were walking back my dad walked right past the front door and kept walking half a block. maybe he just wasn't paying attention, or what if he'll fall to the same fate? there is a typhoon in taiwan right now. my sister is also going back there soon.

i had in-n-out for lunch today. i can feel my arteries clogging up and the heart attack coming on. fab.

"you call that short?" oops.. sorry.