so i'm super bummed out right now... i just called to follow up with this nissan job that i applied for. but they said that they're only doing internal recruiting for this position. i was really excited about this job.. and i thought "hey.. i'm internal.. i come and work here everyday" but yet i'm not. so the fact that i have a nissan email address i'm on their intranet - and can see all the postings does me no good. boo. i know that i shouldn't get my hopes up, and i don't really, but it still sucks to never be good enough :(

i have an interview tomorrow but i am screwed because i can't find the paper that i wrote all the information on. SUCKS. i have been home probably like 5 hours this week (aside from sleeping) because i've been editing my sister's videos. not that i regret that.. but it just makes things more complicated when i'm trying to find my shit.