it's really miserable being sick in the summer. for all the obvious reason that being sick sucks.. and then some. when you are little and it's summer vacation it sucks more because you can't play with all your friends. when you're "grown up" it might be nice if you get to miss work.. but then you have that feeling of being a slacker, or you're just too miserable to enjoy the fact that you're not working. but.. what sucks about it being summertime.. is that it's SO hot outside and nice and the sun is shining all you want to do is go out and tan your arms, and it's hot and sweaty.. but yet you're so cold inside that you wear your sweaters and pants. you can never decide if you're hot or cold and keep taking off and putting back on that jacket. you toss around in your bed, not being able to sleep, sweating, but yet you need all your blankets because you keep getting chills. the second you take your jacket off/kick off the blankets you are immediately cold, and then when you put them back on, you are sweating so bad. it's a vicious vicious cycle. this is all inaddition to the phlegm, the congestion, the dripping snot, and the earaches... oh man.. i feel so attractive right now. i ache and i'm totally dragging ass. i feel kind of pathetic.. and i hope i don't look as bad as i feel. at least this gives me an excuse to wear my cute new sweater from the gap, and my scarf. i totally look all east coast fall... too bad i'm in the west coast and it's perpetually summer. i mean.. not too bad.. just too bad right now. not that i will complain it's super nice out today. i just keep getting strange looks for my thick sweater and scarf around my neck. some of them are like pitiful poor you looks.. i can't decide whether i appreciate those or not. but i guess i shouldn't sympathy in the gift horse's mouth.. or whatever that saying is (and i added stuff to it.. i know there's nothing about sympathy in that saying).. but so yea. anyways.. i still have 6 hrs to go or so.. i was going to go home to organize stuff beth & co's garage sale this weekend (who wants to buy our junk?!) buti think i'm far too lazy to go back night #5 in a row and organize stuff. it might just have to wait until tomorrow. sorry babe...

new season of softball starts this weekend... hope that it's good!! i'm kind of scared because i went to the meeting and it was all these big guys. as the recreation director so succinctly described them "joey gorrillas".. haha.. that's who we play against. hoo-ray. well i actually haven't seen the teams.. i hear some of them are above us, and some "should" be in the same level. i hope.. *cross your fingers*.. i just don't want to get killed. cuz that's no fun. and no more getting hurt!!

bah.. it's only 1pm.. i was hoping blogging would kill some more time. damn me for typing so fast. umm... my mom left for taiwan last night. it's funny how she always waits until the very last minute to get stuff together. it's another one of those things you hate about yourself, but you can't help. can't teach an old dog new tricks eh? at least she didn't miss her flight, that's the most important part. i was thinking today about my sister having a baby. haha.. kind of weird. i'm gonna be an aunt. my parents are going to be grandparents.... so.. surreal!! hahah.. i guess i don't really know what to expect. i like babies.. and they're super cute... but i was walking around the baby aisles of target and there was so many baby things.. so overwhelming! and it's not even my baby. i had to get out of there fast. hahah.. and then i was surrounding by all these screaming bratty children... and you always say "my child won't be like that" i wonder how much control parents have over whether or not their baby is a "good baby".. like not behaviour wise.. but like fussyness, crying.. like is there much that you can do/control? well we will soon find out.

i hope my sister has a girl next... so i can buy tons of cute hello kitty stuff and cute pink clothes. jk. it'll be interesting to have a boy since there are like no boys in our family...

okay.. at this point.. i'm just rambling. nothing interesting to say whatsoever. so i'll stop the misery now.

ohhhhh 7pm hurry and come!