mmm.. shopping. today was a good day. i spent quite a bit of money. which is actually bad, because i have no money to spend, and i should be saving up.. but alas.. i'm not. bad me. but hey! i had a good time!! woke up around noon.. showered.. (yes.. very important) and then chilled around the house. finally got my butt in gear and out to the mall. i was trying to find a shopping partner, but i think everyone was already out from the early morning, and plus my fav shopping buddy moved away :( i miss you angelee!! so anyhoo.. i bought tons of stuff, some for other people, and some for myself, and shopped until i felt like i had covered the whole mall. all three floors. it was stupendous. i got myself some shoes, and a mixer, and some porn.. i mean A&F catalogue. hahah.. and some christmas presents.. ooh and a free stitch doll from the disney store.. it's soooooooo cute :)

hmm. so anyways.. ate leftovers, and chilled all night. my nose started running.. it seems as if i'm getting sick. boo.. but there was a wicked thunder and lightning storm tonight.. and it rained hard. it was interested. i drank my hot cocoa and it was all good. :) tomorrow i get to watch 007 with my mommy and then i'm probably headed back down to san diego to chill with the girlies. :) and then work on sunday i'm sure. yes.. my life is exciting.. i assure you. :) oki dokes.. off to bed!! happy post thanksgiving shopping.. don't do any of the mean things that pete does!! be nice to employees and shoppers. they're hard workers :)

so.. thanksgiving has come and gone. sort of. there will always be the leftovers to remind me of it. shoot.. i forgot to take a picture of the dinner table. *sigh*.. oh well. this year i actually helped cook!! yay me.. and it was DELICIOUS. i don't know if it was the satisfaction of knowing that i had helped, or just because i haven't really eaten real food that was homecooked in so long. maybe both.. but i ate tons.. and five hours later i'm still full.

so.. i really should have left SD tuesday night, but i didn't. and i paid the consequences. i didn't get to go on my hot date with Carrie, we'll have to reschedule.. i hope she can pencil me in. hahaha... i do feel bad because i really wanted to hang out with her, and because i was too lazy.. i didn't get the chance to. sad. tuesday i cleaned up my room some more... and then went to bed late, 5am late. got up a few hours later, 11-ish.. too late to hang out with Carrie.. cleaned some more, packed and thought that I lost my wallet. completely freaked out, put holds on all my credit cards, searched everywhere for my wallet, and then spent 2 hours in the dmv getting a new license. down and depressed i came home and took a nap to kill time before leaving for la to miss the holiday traffic. and when i awoke, i did some random things, sat a my computer, and there my wallet was, under a stack of papers. i am LAME. i seriously stressed out so much, and then to have it sitting there under a stack of papers.. the one place i didn't look. so simple. duh. so i suck.. i drove home, but not before saying hello to my neighbor across the way.

got home around 11pm, chilled, organized my photo album.. yay.. my pictures make me happy. today after many hours of much needed sleep i woke up and helped cook thanksgiving dinner, while doing some laundry. i just rested all day, and soaked in the atmosphere of home.. including the yelling and fighting.. but it's all good. i guess it's what makes home home .. like chandler on friends.. he didn't feel like it was thanksgiving until his friends started yelling and fighting. anyways.. after eating a glorious dinner.. me and my very full stomach went to go see harry potter and the chamer of secrets with my hot date Sakura. it was a good movie, and i'm totally officially hooked. except that the movie was pretty scary.. i don't know how little kids watch that stuff. or maybe i'm just easily frightened.. but nicole says that the continuing books get darker.. hmm.. but anyways.. it's definitely enjoyable... it's funny about how uninterested i was when the first one came out. i had no inclination to see it, and then i saw it on the plane just because it was free and there, and now i can't get enough. although i'm not quite as obsessed as nicole :)

anyhoo.. i feel as if i should awake early to go take advantage of those shopping deals.. but i deal with retail all day and night that i might just take a break. :) i will the get the sleep that i so need and deserve because i know i won't be getting any in the next two weeks. maybe do a bit of homework and hit up the mall just for fun, because the galleria rocks my world. i miss home sometimes.. like, not all the rules and restrictions, but just the comfort and familiarity. it's nice.. i love torrance. and i love my queen bed. and i love home cooked meals, and not paying for laundry... and of course my parents ;) okay.. enough cheese.. just know that i'm thankful for a lot of things, even if i don't say so or act like it all the time. and of course i'm thankful for you. :)

happy birthday pete holiday!!

pete is my birthday buddy, his bday is one week after mine :) although he doesn't feel like his birthday is special... it is, cuz all birthdays are.. so go make a big fuss and wish him a happy birthday. hahaha.

hmm.. today was kind a waste of a day.. although i did clean my room.. sort of.. so i kind of got something accomplished. the quote from the previous blog was from southpark. i watched it with beth and brianne and her friend kevin at 2am on sunday morning. south park is the best ever.. i love it. hmm.. anyways.. worked the water polo tournament last friday and saturday. mmm.. wet hot boys in speedos.. they were all too fine. :) and i was sitting right next to all of them. and getting paid nonetheless. man oh man.

Friday night i went to Allyn's show at the firehouse museum in Little Italy. It was an interesting place, and there were some other artists, but it was really well decorated, and kind of fun.. and it was my first show where i got a "i'm 21 and not a loser" stamp. :) instead of the "i'm a loser don't serve me alcohol" stamp. anyhoo.. Saturday morning i went to TJ Meal Sacks before water polo. It was really good, Carli did a really good job of organizing it. a lot of people came.. and people had a good time, so I'm glad. water polo all day :) and then annie's party and show later that night. it was good, it was jam-packed and a million people were there. but it was cool, just a little hot. beth came down, and she enjoyed it. we went to tgi friday's where she forgot to order my food without jalapeno peppers, and i totally burned my mouth out. haahah.. got served by my "favorite" waiter.. and then we just hung out and slept that night. fun fun slumber party times. oh.. and watched south park of course :). sunday i worked... i'm really dreading work, and it's not so fun anymore.. which makes me feel like i have a short attention span, and a little bit worried about the "real world" when i can't just quit my job if i don't like it. but maybe i'm just sick of retail. hmph.. who knows.. i'm just sick of a lot of things in my life right now. monday i did shipment and i was the lead person, and apparently i did a good job, so yay me. had class and then circle k, and then i kind of hung out with kimmy, but we were supposed to go out and didn't.. blah. oh well.. i got to see her way cute apt. *sigh* i miss living in la jolla.

today i cleaned, ran some errands, and i went to class. i got out of class early, and i really should have went home, but i wasn't anticipating it.. so i wasn't planning on going home, and made plans. but i got out of class at 6, totally could have made it home in time to see my sister and my grandma off, but i stayed because i had already made plans. which sucked because all of the plans fell through. gay. so i feel like i just totally wasted my entire night. and super bummed because i was excited to see my grandma this weekend, but now that she changed her flight, i won't get to see her until june. dang it. hmm.. so anyways.. i should probably clean and finish packing so that i can leave early tomorrow and go on my hot lunch date with the international vice president. :) man.. i feel so special. anyways.. HAVE A HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!

"jesus crap dancing christ"

i'm sorry that i haven't really been keeping up with the blogging. yet people continue to check my blogger because the counter keeps going up. wow.. people love me.. or hate me really.. cuz i've found that to be the case too, but more on that later.

it's been awhile.. things have happened... one thing that hasn't is that I haven't gotten fired yet. yay!! i should have, because i was a late once.. but they love me, so i got a "get out of jail free." but either way, work is work, i go in for 3 hour shifts at 6am to process their shipment and then go home and usually take a nap. it kinda sucks.. i'm so not a 6am person. yuk. i get to go home next week, which is exciting. no gap for almost an entire week! whoo hoo. not that i don't enjoy it.. just sometimes it's a little too much.

we went to FTC it was a good time. it's so weird.. as i get older, things become less fun, or just a fun in a different way. i've gone to so many of these events, and like ICON or FTC this year, I was really low key, just kind of hung out with my club and a few friends. i wasn't all over the place or interested in meeting everyone, which is little bad, but i've become really anti-social cki wise, just in terms of trying to meet everyone. i dunno.. do i feel as if everyone should know who i am? or is it like that whole senior thing where you just kind of don't care anymore. i remember when i was a freshman i wanted to know who everyone was, and by the end of my senior year, i realized i only really know my class and half of the other classes.. maybe that's just how it works eh? and not to sound really conceited or anything.. but it's weird going to these district events and not needing to do anything, or for anyone to really know who you are or want to talk to you. it's not really like an issue of my ego, but to spend a year in the spotlights, and to be doing so much.. it's weird to not have that anymore. like after joe wasn't governor anymore he would always say that he didn't know what to do with his time anymore, like he didn't know how to spend his free time when there wasn't cki stuff to do. and it's hitting me and i was only a ltg, i wonder what it's like for bigger people. hmm.. not that it really matters much though ... i guess. whatever.. kathy knows how i feel.. she agrees with me. :P

but anyways.. FTC was good.. we flew to avoid the massive headache of 10 hour drives and getting lost. and after seeing all the people come in at 2am and the horror stories of accidents .. i was really glad we spent the extra money to fly. i got to drive the fancy rental car, that was exciting, and we got a little lost in berkeley, where i got all nostalgic and weepy and called angelee like 5 times .. i'm a dork. we got to see opening session, which was so funny, and chilled. hung out with crazy nicole and carrie, made kiwanis hospital dolls, went to workshops. we watched the campfire skits saturday night.. they were really good and so funny too. now i want a fairy god-jigga too. :P so does nicole. we need fairy god-jigga's.. does anyone know where we could get them? the dance on saturday night was fun too. seriously.. i'm getting old, because i kept getting tired and had to sit down. weird. hmm.. we left after the dance, drove at 2am.. kathy and i talked the entire way back. i'm glad i could keep her awake. sakura, kathy and i all crashed out on the plane, sleeping on top of each other in our three seats. i got home and slept all day and then went to a work meeting. yay for holiday at the gap :)

work sunday - thursday.. doing shipment and just work at the gap in general. it's cool because we have friends and family day coming up.. and instead of it just being immediate family.. i get 20 invitations to send to whoever i want!! whoo hoo. discounts for everyone! hmm. i'm going to fail all of my classes though.. i am just half assing it through the year, and i think all of my teachers can sense that. yuk. i used to be such an over acheiver in school.. i went to cams for gods sake. what happened to me? i dunno..weird. monday was our new installation banquet. it was a good time. kathy did a BEAUTIFUL job planning and taking care of everything. she rocks the house, no wonder she's going to be the "international president" hahahaha.. it was great, and interesting as well. there are some crazy people out there. yesterday was my 21st birthday.. whoo hoo. tuesday night we went to friday's at midnight, me, vivian, sakura and rachel. rachel's a new member in cki.. she's so great, and so funny. we're going to have her take sakura and i go bar hopping.. cuz she knows all of the places. sakura and i did a stoplight shot.. it was fun. wednesday i TOTALLY forgot i had work after my class. i was supposed to go to a basketball training session, and completely didn't even remember until an hour after it started. i rushed over there and caught the tail end of it. i'm kind of excited for basketball season..i hope i get to do the book a lot. then jill, jason, sakura, kristen and i went to margarita rocks. it was interesting, my first time in a bar/club. i mean... a real one.. those tj ones don't count. andy and jen came by later after they saw the bond movie, and chris was there with his friend.. so it was fun to be around people i knew. it was funny because all these guys kept coming up and trying to freak with sakura, and she was all freaked out. and this one real scary dude kept trying to talk to kristen. i lost my wallet and totally freaked out.. but some angel of a girl turned it in to the front desk and the security guard gave it to me. i love them both. all in all it was a good night.. hey hey.. you can't beat 10 cent chicken wings and 91 cent margaritas :)

anyways.. my birthday was fun.. i can't really complain.. i find out who really cares and in what capacity. i taped dawson's creek, and watched it today.. it was too cute. philly.. you're going to die when you watch it. haahah. anyhoo.. tomorrow and saturday i get to work at the wwpa water polo championships.. whoo hoo.. hot boys in speedos. lovely. also annie's cd release party is saturday.. that should be fun. i dunno.. my life is just kind of a blur.. maybe because i'm tired. but i get to go home soon and take a break from it all... hopefully. but i have a hot date on tuesday.. so i can't complain. whoo hoo! :)

ps... does anyone have a sleeping bag i can borrow?

so i've basically wasted my entire day and night... and just when i was going to post about getting my act together, and getting on the ball with things. it's weird.. because when i have so many things to do.. instead of becoming more efficient, i just get more apathetic.. and end up not doing anything at all.. which makes the situation worse. yuk. i need to have more discipline and dedication. some people i know do it really well, and get their stuff together.. how do they do it? and why am i such a slacker. yuk.... so basically i spent today working, and then napping, eating and chit chatting with the roommates. we even had a fun 15 minute cuddle session in brianne's bed.. where i also fell asleep for 2 hours after she left for work. went to class for three hours (was late of course) and then back home, where i ate waaaaaay too much of cotixan's, watched tons of the real world and then chatted up a storm once i was gone. thanks to philly i was highly amused and entertained as we both didn't want to do our homework. we're such bad influences on each other, but we're funny, and cute.. so you gotta love us. :P and also there was carrie and nicole and my new friend judy who's a rabid jason mraz and nsync fan. whoo hoo.. she's got good taste. hmm. i'm still not really making sense.. probably because it's 3am, i didn't do my hw yet and my carne asada is coming back to haunt me. time for bed!

ONE MORE WEEK!! WHOO HOO.

i don't really have anything important to say.. but i'm bored... so you get to hear me ramble. hmm. i didn't get to go home.. because i don't know, because i was tired, and lazy, and my dad told me to stay in san diego. especially because it was raining, and he didn't want me to drive in the rain. but anyhoo. hmm.. thursday i worked, and then slept.. quite eventful. although i did get a surge of energy and stayed up to finished crocheting the scarf that i'm making myself for ftc because i realized that i'm too broke to buy myself one. even with my discount from the gap. anyways... and then i watched movies by myself... coyote ugly and the sweetest thing. all gay romantic comedies that make me sad and even more bitter, and even more a believer that i'm going to die an old woman with my cats. ahahahha... yes.. i'm a bitter chick. but i told brianne that i wanted to be a coyote, and she told me that she knew i would want to be after i saw that movie. am i the perfect consumer or what?

anyways.. so yeah, for some odd reason i decided to stay up, and then after that ended up cleaning my room and staying up until 4am. that means i stayed up for 23 hours yesterday... what is wrong with me? i slept in today, which is nice, registered for classes, and then ran errands. it's rained all day today in san diego, which is kind of nice.... i needed a car wash. haha.. but it's interesting to see rain every once in awhile. call me crazy, but i sort of get sick of the sun all the time. but... i got a big fat disgusting parking ticket this morning for having the back end of my car in the red zone while parking in front of my complex. sucks.. i hate my complex and where i live.. it blows mad goats. i partly deserve it because i knew that i was in the red and was too lazy to move it, but it's frustrating because there's this asian rice rocket that parks in the red every single day and never gets a ticket, never gets towed.. what the heck!! so anyways... that's another $60 that i don't have. geeez. yuck.

i've sent out a lot of cd's to do jason mraz b&p's, so when i get that back i will be a happy girl. ftc is next weekend, so i get to travel and fly, and possible drive a rental car. it's always exciting driving cars that aren't yours. but i feel kind of bad because i don't feel like we have all of our shit pulled together, but hopefully it'll work out in the end. i have a ton of homework to do, and should not have just sat around bored around my apt all night, but i've really lost so much motivation to do anything but sit around. crazy enough i'm even considering leaving school early, like being done with my classes and starting "work" in january. how scary is that? jean in the real world. anyways.. i'm pretty beat.. either sleep or homework. probably sleep. i'm a lazy bum. my grandma is coming to torrance on tuesday... yay!! too bad i won't be there to hang out with her. i think my aunt from ny is coming too, and i think my dad took some time off to spend some qt with them. which is nice, i miss being able to be a part of that. but it's sad because it'll be so different that my grandfather isn't around anymore... i wonder how my grandma is now. we will see, we will see. okay.. enough ranting about nothing... comment or shout in my shout box. leave me some love people.

eleven more days!!

phew... well this one should be a long one, but it's going to be rather short. apologies. i need to go to bed (yes.. i know it's 10pm) so that i can wake up early so i can get to my 6am shift on time so that I don't get fired from my unfortunate job at gap. crazyness huh? I'm going to get fired. anyways.. so *phew* masquerade ball is over. now there's just a million more things to take care of that come after it. i've been telling people i feel like it never really happened because i was running around so much that the time just flew by, and i was never really in one place for too long that it just kind of was a huge blur. the dj wasn't spectacular, but he was okay, and definitely better than last year (heck.. me and my boombox would have been better than last year), and annie totally rocked the house. a lot of people came, so i think we may have even made money. pretty good considering i was worried about losing $2000. anyways.. uber thanks to EVERYONE who came, especially those who came at the last minute. everyone who came and supported us, it really means a lot to me that you came, liked it, and had a good time. :)

hm. so enough mushy. i'm finally blogging.. whoooo hooo. not much really. i finished that paper, but it was a bonafide piece of crap. school is definitely not my strong point, my grades are severely lacking this quarter. i just can't really seem to apply myself, which makes me think that i am doing too much... but it's hard to choose which one is the first to go. but also because i'm taking two production classes that involve two very critical teachers and a ton of outside work, which is hard to find the time for, and when i do have the time, i don't have the energy. yikes. anyways.. hopefully that will change, i'll try and focus this weekend... i need to focus. hmm.. not much really. spent halloween and friday night at home doing masquerade ball stuff. retained more proof that boys are evil and unreliable.. haha.. and did the whole masquerade ball thing.. and now i'm just kind of chillin. i've gone to bed every night before midnight this week. i'm catching up on so much sleep. but yeah. so now it's time to go... i hope everyone is doing well. i haven't talked to many people, i've been a little on the antisocial side.. but in and out. hmm.. maybe not antisocial, just not outgoing.. does that make sense? anyways.. i have a million things to do tomorrow... and i was going to go home.. but my dad told me to stay in san diego (how sad is that... ) but he just wants me to rest i guess. so gotta love him for that. i just wanted to go home to do my laundry and get my hair cut. who knows.. i might go anyways.. i need to get out of here..... i haven't been home since school started. yuk. my bday's in less than two weeks... the big TWO - ONE. celebrations are in order.

"don't forget your penis cream, son"

happy halloween everyone.

now come to masquerade ball.