i'm sorry that i haven't really been keeping up with the blogging. yet people continue to check my blogger because the counter keeps going up. wow.. people love me.. or hate me really.. cuz i've found that to be the case too, but more on that later.

it's been awhile.. things have happened... one thing that hasn't is that I haven't gotten fired yet. yay!! i should have, because i was a late once.. but they love me, so i got a "get out of jail free." but either way, work is work, i go in for 3 hour shifts at 6am to process their shipment and then go home and usually take a nap. it kinda sucks.. i'm so not a 6am person. yuk. i get to go home next week, which is exciting. no gap for almost an entire week! whoo hoo. not that i don't enjoy it.. just sometimes it's a little too much.

we went to FTC it was a good time. it's so weird.. as i get older, things become less fun, or just a fun in a different way. i've gone to so many of these events, and like ICON or FTC this year, I was really low key, just kind of hung out with my club and a few friends. i wasn't all over the place or interested in meeting everyone, which is little bad, but i've become really anti-social cki wise, just in terms of trying to meet everyone. i dunno.. do i feel as if everyone should know who i am? or is it like that whole senior thing where you just kind of don't care anymore. i remember when i was a freshman i wanted to know who everyone was, and by the end of my senior year, i realized i only really know my class and half of the other classes.. maybe that's just how it works eh? and not to sound really conceited or anything.. but it's weird going to these district events and not needing to do anything, or for anyone to really know who you are or want to talk to you. it's not really like an issue of my ego, but to spend a year in the spotlights, and to be doing so much.. it's weird to not have that anymore. like after joe wasn't governor anymore he would always say that he didn't know what to do with his time anymore, like he didn't know how to spend his free time when there wasn't cki stuff to do. and it's hitting me and i was only a ltg, i wonder what it's like for bigger people. hmm.. not that it really matters much though ... i guess. whatever.. kathy knows how i feel.. she agrees with me. :P

but anyways.. FTC was good.. we flew to avoid the massive headache of 10 hour drives and getting lost. and after seeing all the people come in at 2am and the horror stories of accidents .. i was really glad we spent the extra money to fly. i got to drive the fancy rental car, that was exciting, and we got a little lost in berkeley, where i got all nostalgic and weepy and called angelee like 5 times .. i'm a dork. we got to see opening session, which was so funny, and chilled. hung out with crazy nicole and carrie, made kiwanis hospital dolls, went to workshops. we watched the campfire skits saturday night.. they were really good and so funny too. now i want a fairy god-jigga too. :P so does nicole. we need fairy god-jigga's.. does anyone know where we could get them? the dance on saturday night was fun too. seriously.. i'm getting old, because i kept getting tired and had to sit down. weird. hmm.. we left after the dance, drove at 2am.. kathy and i talked the entire way back. i'm glad i could keep her awake. sakura, kathy and i all crashed out on the plane, sleeping on top of each other in our three seats. i got home and slept all day and then went to a work meeting. yay for holiday at the gap :)

work sunday - thursday.. doing shipment and just work at the gap in general. it's cool because we have friends and family day coming up.. and instead of it just being immediate family.. i get 20 invitations to send to whoever i want!! whoo hoo. discounts for everyone! hmm. i'm going to fail all of my classes though.. i am just half assing it through the year, and i think all of my teachers can sense that. yuk. i used to be such an over acheiver in school.. i went to cams for gods sake. what happened to me? i dunno..weird. monday was our new installation banquet. it was a good time. kathy did a BEAUTIFUL job planning and taking care of everything. she rocks the house, no wonder she's going to be the "international president" hahahaha.. it was great, and interesting as well. there are some crazy people out there. yesterday was my 21st birthday.. whoo hoo. tuesday night we went to friday's at midnight, me, vivian, sakura and rachel. rachel's a new member in cki.. she's so great, and so funny. we're going to have her take sakura and i go bar hopping.. cuz she knows all of the places. sakura and i did a stoplight shot.. it was fun. wednesday i TOTALLY forgot i had work after my class. i was supposed to go to a basketball training session, and completely didn't even remember until an hour after it started. i rushed over there and caught the tail end of it. i'm kind of excited for basketball season..i hope i get to do the book a lot. then jill, jason, sakura, kristen and i went to margarita rocks. it was interesting, my first time in a bar/club. i mean... a real one.. those tj ones don't count. andy and jen came by later after they saw the bond movie, and chris was there with his friend.. so it was fun to be around people i knew. it was funny because all these guys kept coming up and trying to freak with sakura, and she was all freaked out. and this one real scary dude kept trying to talk to kristen. i lost my wallet and totally freaked out.. but some angel of a girl turned it in to the front desk and the security guard gave it to me. i love them both. all in all it was a good night.. hey hey.. you can't beat 10 cent chicken wings and 91 cent margaritas :)

anyways.. my birthday was fun.. i can't really complain.. i find out who really cares and in what capacity. i taped dawson's creek, and watched it today.. it was too cute. philly.. you're going to die when you watch it. haahah. anyhoo.. tomorrow and saturday i get to work at the wwpa water polo championships.. whoo hoo.. hot boys in speedos. lovely. also annie's cd release party is saturday.. that should be fun. i dunno.. my life is just kind of a blur.. maybe because i'm tired. but i get to go home soon and take a break from it all... hopefully. but i have a hot date on tuesday.. so i can't complain. whoo hoo! :)