so i mean it.. no more fooling around. well.. just a little.. but it's not really "fooling around" but prior engagements that i've set up. birthday parties, going away parties.. stuff you can't just flake on.. you know? i have the circle k video to finish and is due on the 20th. the footage i have for that isn't the best, i still haven't decided which portion i'm doing (thus holding everyone else up.. good job jean). i was thinking about doing some more interviews.. but i don't know if have the luxury of time.. but i don't want to make a bad project.. so... we will see. the response i've gotten for help hasn't been stellar either.. funny. people you would think who would totally want to help.. haven't heard from them. oh well.. nothing i can do at this point.

and i have another video which is a behind the scenes for this feature film for their dvd. i had the wrong tapes, so now i have 10 more tapes to log and cut.. and a month to do it. coincidentally with the cki video. i am so furreaking screwed it's not even funny. sure it's my own fault for being too busy/slacking off before.. and now i will have to pay the consequence. is it even possible to get it done? i feel like one of them will be mediocre, but it will be okay... one of them has to be GREAT.. because the bar is higher.. but yea. at this point i will be in hiding mode... or trying to be. my slacker side may get the best of me.. but i seriously feel like i'm going to cry all the time.. so that will keep me in check. just wanted to let you all know what was going on if you don't hear from me. and to shove those nasty bruise pictures down so they're not the first thing you see when my page opens.

AND.. this isn't a excuse to never call me.. because that will make me sad. text and voicemail and email messages are all welcome.. plus blog comments. the occasional fun conversation is good too.. but don't think because i've dissapeared i don't love you... maybe i just died in front of my computer or something. now that's a happy thought.