today this guy at work got two packages from his mom. it was two more in a string of packages he's been getting the past few days, all from his mom. when they're international packages you have to declare the contents and they show it on the outside what they are. today he got underwear and chocolate. and he replied "aww.. i love my mom" at that point.. i loved his mom too.

then i got to thinking. i've never really been in a place where i get packages from home. i mean.. trade off.. i go home and often time i'll get sent home with lots of things to take home... but getting packages and care packages are nice. granted my parents aren't really care packagey types.. but maybe my friends are? who knows. sometimes i'd get stuff from my mom while i was in san diego, but most of the time it was when i needed stuff. new glasses, contacts, checks. etc etc etc. nothing fun. once i got fudge from benji's mom, and that was awesome. BUT i digress... this isn't about lack of love from my parents.. but the fact that i haven't really been anywhere far enough to be in a position to be sent care packages. like, i only went to school in san diego, and then immediately came back to LA. there's so many people here (at my work.. not LA) that aren't from around here, which i always immediately assume they are. their parents send them cute little packages and it seems like they're living this great life in this new fun place. maybe this is why i wanted to go to school in minnesota, go somewhere different, try something new... but that didn't pan out. i'd never move to minnesota now, but it would be fun to live elsewhere, maybe san diego again, or somewhere like boston or new york. i wonder if i'd be able to stand the cold. people always seem so well traveled, this girl was having this conversation about the "lower east side" and "manhattan" and the "meat packing district" and i had almost no idea what she was talking about (i'll thank sex and the city for having some cognition).. but it seemed so neat to know about a place that seems so far away. and she lived there for 6 years. my friend kelly picked up and moved to new york and loves it. i wanted to take that internship in new york... but that fell through too. who knows, maybe staying here for a long time means i'll end up somewhere else for the future. but today i felt very sheltered.. like i was ready to be distant from LA... which is funny because it's where everyone wants to be.