so i broke down today and applied at tgi friday's and cpk for jobs. i would have also gone to the gap (well i actually did) but the manager i wanted wasn't there.. so i will just wait another week. i don't know if i've given up hope of getting a "real" job.. or i just want the money, or i just need something to get me out of the house. or maybe i'm just not quite ready to enter the "real" world yet. although when i need that medical insurance/dentist or eye appt.. i will be screaming for help.

to top it off my mother started lecturing me again. i don't know if it the "i know you're not moving out so i can treat you like shit again" motivation or what.. but yea. i don't know. at least i'm not getting the "i want grandchildren" or "you better not be gay" lectures like some people (haha).. but i did get the "do you think just sitting of your ass all day is making you fat? because i do" lecture. fantastic.

in other words i had a date with sakura tonight :) now that i've introduced her to the chocolate wonderland at chili's she is hooked. we had a second dinner and a great dessert and a tiny bit of alcohol. just like real grown ups.. and then went back home to our parents. wow.. i am a huge loser.