so i really shouldn't be online.. i have so many other things to do.. clean my room, catch up on tivo'ed tv, sleep.. but yet i am here. my addiction to the internet.. even when the internet can be boring.. is deadly.

tomorrow i am excited to be able to stay at home and just chillax. my weeks lately have consisted of being out of the house everynight.. and while that may seem exciting.. it is tiring. this week was softball, hockey, and stage managing tonight. friday is bday party, saturday- rehearsal, bday party and sunday- hockey then rehearsal. yikes yikes yikes. i am looking forward to tomorrow. i hope i don't waste it online :P

work was interesting on tuesday night. some short funnies are that this old lady came up and asked me if a team was playing at that time.. or rather .. where the team she wanted to watch was (the puckheads). she swore that they were supposed to be playing right now at that rink after i suggested that they were an ice team. she says to me.. "no i KNOW they're playing monday at 10pm" i say to her "it's tuesday."

there's a team that has consistent fans coming each week. i don't know if they're just friends or wives or something.. (i never turn around to look.. i don't know why) but they're japanese women with slightly fobby accents. i always hear them commenting on the game.. cheering on players.. and whatnot. a few times someone would miss the shot, or fall or something "amusing" to them.. and the group of them (2 or 3? i can't tell) laugh/giggle so daintily it's like those japanese cartoons. not like the raunchy laughter that i have when i find something really funny. but it was just like a soundtrack to anime. haha.. why can't i be more ladylike? and cute and japanese.. in little school girl outfits. hah.

keep one of the next 11 thursday nights open for me. i'm stage managing (really just pressing buttons on a light & sound board) a play and you guys should come see it.. and then tell me how great i was in making the show just right. haha.. i'll know it's all bs, but it's still nice to hear. i need a little love sometimes.

man o man.. it was 11:30pm when i was contemplating going to bed.. now it's 1am.. why doesn't time fly this fast when i'm at work?

playing catch up is a bitch. remind me why i am trying so hard for a temp job? :P

job hunting blows.

i hate interviews.

have a great day!

too tired to post... but i made like $4.50 at the garage sale. hell yea. :P i blame sakura for missing the rush of professional garage sale shoppers saturday morning. :P

and

happy birthday manny!

blech... so i am under semi-house arrest this weekend. semi because i might be able to sneak out to jimmy's garage sale to get rid of some of my stuff, make some money and hopefully not buy too much stuff back... but house arrest because i don't get what i really want to do :(

i had been looking into going down to san diego to hang out with fun friends and go see .pete. play in the san diego music awards acoustic showcase. awesome huh? cuz he's nominated for best acoustic.. niice. anyhow... i got my shift covered at the gap, but because of complications aka the asian mother syndrome and my messy room.. i can't go. which sucks because i really wanted to go just hang out, i wanted to see pete play, and tristan, and i wanted to see friends. philly is going to kick my ass for flaking on her, beth is going to beat me up for not going, kelly is cool with it, but still wants me to go, which is soooooooo tempting. i want to just take off and go... but i'm sure my mom will change the locks or something, or not speak to me for another 3 weeks... i dunno anymore.

it's okay though.. because right now i'm a little anti-social. sitting in my filth and cleaning can maybe be fun too. maybe i will clean out enough shit of mine (everyone knows i have enough of it) and make a small fortune during the weekend.. or at least get rid of it. who knows.. i need to take some time to breathe.....

reality tv = love

i came home after midnight last night after getting off work and i should have gone to bed, but i stayed up because i HAD to watch who won big brother 5 and the amazing race. i've always loved big brother.. i remember all those ICON's and hotel rooms where i shushed everyone or yelled at them to be quiet because i couldn't hear. just ask ryan :P this is my first season watching the amazing race. i dunno, i never had really heard about it before, and last year watching the emmys, they were nominated and my sister really wanted them to win because that show was amazing not only concept wise, but camera and logistics and planning and everything. she was right, and they won as well.

sooooooooooooo... i checked it out.. and i'm happy. the hottest guy on reality tv, drew won big brother 5. i wanted him to win, but he also is kind of smarmy.. so i was kind of mixed about that. although i don't like diane, so sometimes when he makes smarmy comments about her it makes me giggle. i wanted will to win just because he was so great and plus he wanted to do something good with the money.. to help other people. that's so nice. drew's gonna use it to go drinking and then buy that girl vanessa a new goonies shirt. hah. like he seems like such a nice guy, but can also be one of those guys who seems nice, but then turns around and does the typical frat boy action :P those are the worst :P but man oh man.. drew and his twin brother, ben.. hottness.

chip & kim won amazing race.. i didn't want them to win. i don't know why.. i didn't like them from a long time ago.. and sometimes they'd redeem themselves, and other times i really didn't like them. but.. i dunno. i know it's a "game" and you have to "lie" but .. still. and talking to nicole this morning about their lucky break of getting a new flight when they found out the first "fastest" one was delayed made their game and broke it for everyone else. nicole says "it's all part of the game!" but still.. that sucks. it's like losing a really close game at the end due to a horrible ref call. (but if they were smart like me and nicole they would have known what the flag of the philippines is! that was too funny.. and yet dissapointing.) i guess the dating christian models don't really need money, and colin and christie already have 3 paid vacation trips.. so it's okay. i really wanted the moms to get a trip.. (or win) but their last moments were precious. aww.. they'll probably be doing those new ziploc or dishwasher liquid mom commercials or whatever.. do you know what i'm talking about? my final thought... is that colin has a pretty nasty attitude and nicole is a whiney bossy brat... sooooooooooo. i think that christie and brandon should get together. haha.. although brandon might be too religious for christie (i swear colin and christie were banging in front of that one tower when they were waiting for it to open and before chip and kim came... the perks of being in first place i suppose) and i dunno.. but i think they'd make a nice couple and they can ditch their jerky other halves. although i guess in every relationship there's always a crazy one.. or else it gets boring.

one tree hill started last night, the mountain premieres tonight (hahaha.. EDDIE) and the bachelor. the bachelor seems a lot lot older this time around (both of them) we'll see huh? yay for sweeps! (ps.. i was so shocked when bradley got voted off the apprentice last week.. "oh my god. oh my god. oh my god.") i wonder if everyone is going to hate ivana now. dayam.

i'm bored... i can't even do work if i wanted to. the databases that i'm using are being retarded.... so i'm using my manager's login to connect. and usually i use this one program to cross-reference info, but now that part of the browser isn't showing up anymore... argh. i can't do aaaaaaaaaaanyyyythiiing. and i guess i shouldn't complain... but it's getting to a point where even the internet is boring! crazy.

i toko a half day today because i had some stuff to do in the morning. when i drove up, i saw a smashed up van, a light/power pole that was down and tons of traffic backed up. good think it was in the other direction... but it was crazy - the whole building was dark and small amounts of lights are on back up generators. we have power back now, but it's all back up diesel generators.. interesting. i wonder what happened.. but it's been a little bit crazy.

i'm tired.. i wish i could just take a nap.. not like i have anything that i can do right now anyways.. haha.. no one would miss me. maybe after i run the next report. really.. i wish i could just go home.. they don't need me here... argh.. oh well.. time to go play some games i suppose. im me... leave comments...entertain me... PLEASE.

we lost by one... damn damn damn. i HATE that!! i dunno if losing by a lot is worse, or losing when it's so close is worse. either way.. we lost.. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn.

i feel awful because i let too many freaking people walk and too many people hit.. too many runs go in. and i got an awful awful out @ 3rd, where i either should have stayed at second or slid. but i was safe and then fell off the base and got out. suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks. we could have got two runs maybe if i didn't get out. damn damn damn.

i hate losing. but you think after last time i'd be used to it by now, but it still always sucks. BUT i guess if we had to lose to anyone, this team is okay because they were nice enough to play and get a win for us last time... so they can have this one.

argh.

i am pretty starving right now... my stomach is about to eat itself. i guess that banana and orange didn't cut it at all. i have about 10 minutes before i take a relatively early (for me) lunch.. so i figured i'd blog.

i am the QUEEN of losing things.. and it sucks. i can't find my wallet.. it's been missing for about a week.. and when i first noticed i couldn't find it i thought "no big deal.. it's probably just in another bag" or something. it wasn't a huge deal because a)i thought i knew where it was and b)i already switched out my id & credit cards to my smaller "going out" wallet. i usually carry both in my purse, unless i'm using a smaller purse and just have the one. but the big one isn't in my other purse, and now is causing me some concern because i really tried looking for it and no dice. ugh. i'm hoping it's somewhere in the heaping piles of clothes growing in my room, because other than that i have no clue. it sucks.. i hate that i lose things so frequently. i have also misplaced my work badge. guess i should clean some stuff up tonight. argh. i have also lost my mraz dvd.. i set it on top of the tv and now it's gone. it's not behind the tv, so really.. again i have no clue.

yesterday night i went out with sakura and met up with nicole at downtown disney for a semi-bon voyage get together for nicole. sure sure.. i know she will be back, and it's only 17 days, but really.. it seems like forever.. and i'll totally miss her :P i'm sure after she comes back i will be like "that's it?" but for now, 17 days seems like an eternity. we couldn't decide on which downtown disney restaurant we were the least sick of, so nicole had the brilliant idea of eating in one of the retaurants in the hotel. we ended up @ goofy's kitchen which was buffet style and characters roaming the restaurant, complete with many a screaming kid. the food was alright, some better than the others - the prime rib and "goofyroni and cheese" were among my favorites. plus the wide wide array of desserts was really exciting. we had crazy chip visit us and play mispelled hangman, make a rose out of ketchup and tabasco sauce on the table and have drawings of himself on the table with the caption "luv 'n nuts" after nicole said he was going to write his number down. so either it was a girl inside or a gay chipmunk :P he was pretty funny though and after he left nicole had a funny look on her face and mouthed "crazy" and that made me laugh so hard i almost choked, so dale came back to make sure i was okay... except i screamed because i thought he was going to accost me, and then could not stop laughing. so we were the crazy girls and the chipmunk.

we walked around the hotel ground afterwards, visiting never land pool and some other cutesy themed places, and it looks pretty neat :) i wanna go stay there sometime.. ooh.. maybe the princess diaries suite, that would be fun. hahah.

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in the parking lot:
me: aww nicole.. don't go!!
nicole: but i'll be back in 17 days!
me: but still.. that's a long time
nicole: i'll be back soon!!.... with presents!
me: okay.
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have a softball game today @ 6:30pm - wilson park. come out and cheer us on! i haven't practiced at all..uh oh.

this is what my week looks like
monday- softball
tuesday- hockey
wednesday- gap
thursday - gap
friday- relaxing or san diego
saturday- garage sale & gap or san diego
sunday- garage sale or san diego.

aiya.

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jeanyah: damn.. a new guy came to replace the guy who got fired
jeanyah: i was hoping he would be a cute computer guy..
jeanyah: but no luck
TOomUCH PETE: lol
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today i came in this morning and there was a franz ferdinand cd on my desk. my co-worker bought it and didn't like it, so she let me have it. that's a nice way to start off a monday :) sweet.

whew.. i am finally freaking done with that video. well really i finished like 6 hours ago.. but i was doing stuff until now. and really i shouldn't be looking at a computer because my eyes are pretty shot, from staring at the screen editing .. but i am addicted to my blog, so here goes.

i think my final finished product was.. okay. pretty good that i had less that 24 hours to do the actual editing. i would say it ranks #3 or #4 out of the 5 projects i've done lately though. it's also hard when you have absolutely no control over the footage, but i guess that's what "real editors" do. :P or so i've been told. i hope they liked it, i hope my sister liked it... i was kind of nervous because she didn't get a chance to see the final product. she saw like 75% of it and then i tacked on the end part. oh well, it's all over now, presumably they've watched it and hopefully liked it. my sister swinged it so i got a little compensation for it... that is nice :)

thursday i worked at the gap and helped this customer who said she was clueless for like 2.5 hours, helping her pick out the right clothes, and then trying to find ones in her size since we didn't have them in our store. i sat at the register for an hour with just her and everyone thought it was a big deal that i was still so pleasant with her. but i dunno, i guess that's just the way i was trained, or also how i am usually, but moreso if i'm getting paid to do it. like helping the customers have a really good "experience" in our store. i think too often, people just don't care, and it does have that ripple effect. i heard bad stories about other people from the gap who sucked, and have a few stories of my own. a few times i'm sure people have thought that about me, but i try not to make it a habit. it's weird there is something satisfying about finding that pair of pants that the customer really wants. i know, i know.. i'm a dork. but i also think that it transcends into other factors/aspects of people's life. a lot of times people will brush people off for small reasons, or just because of other factors, maybe some they don't even know the whole truth about.. or people don't really try hard enough to stay connected, or make an effort. it has a ripple effect, but i guess if you didn't care in the first place, you never really will.

phew.. that was a tangent. friday i made my 90's flashback cd for my sister's video, drove up to LA and started to work on the video. throughout the night i armed myself with a supersized starbucks, mountain dew, vitamin water and bought some shrimp rolls for dinner. i took a "nap" at 2am, because i was pretty useless at that point, and was supposed to wake up in anywhere from 30 minutes to 2 hours, but slept until 8:30am. oops. it seemed okay, but then i went with my sister to the "cams get together & tour" which i thought would be a bigger deal, or cooler than it was, but really wasted a few hours time that i could have been editing. but i think seeing some of the 94 people made me want to do a better job for them to enjoy it, instead of just ending it as quickly as possible. so yay for that i guess. had a quick lunch at home and browsed through my pictures that i ordered from imagestation online. they turned out really good, better than costco's i think :) and s&h was only $2.. so not too bad. maybe that will be my option next time. drove back up to la to finish the video, finished 1 hr later than i was supposed to, drove down to long beach to drop it off (i was way late, but it was okay because they were still mingling). drove home to shower because i was a pile of filth and gross from the semi-all nighter. then drove up to beverly hills to see one of ryan's favorite bands - relax to paris. they were pretty good, i was too tired and hungry to properly enjoy them, maybe in the future. i saw an old high school friend, heather, at the concert. her roomie when to high school with some of the guys in the band, so i guess they go to all the shows. interesting.. what a small world.

so yea.. in the past 36 hours it was torrance->LA->torrance->carson->torrance->LA->long beach->torrance->beverly hills->LA->torrance.

man that is a lot of driving.

sorry for that angry burst of late night aggravation and insanity. in a town where EVERYONE is trying to be someone and trying to "make it" .. it's so hard to hear someone's relatively "easy" plight when you feel like you are just sitting here rotting. i remember when we went to go see napoleon dynamite @ the ucla free screening, it was filled with film students of sorts, and when they said it had been written by a 24 year old film student and his wife, i saw them all cringe and beth commented about how green they must all be. sitting there.. "it could be me" but sorry.. no it's not. that's me right now.

maybe it's not meant to be for me to do what i want to do. there is this depressing ass article about how if you want to do what you love, you will starve. gee that's great, thanks for the pep talk. i don't know man.. i just don't know. i'm sure some things look harder than they seem, and not everything is so easy, but sometimes it just is. i've noticed though, that when things are going to work out, they work out rather quickly. i just have to wait for the right moment. i hope it friggin comes soon.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. i hate la sometimes. no.. not really la itself. but the industry... one that i am aspiring to be in nonetheless. and that i will never be a part of. i hate how nepotistic it is sometimes. and sure... when i was partying it up with johnny knoxville or hanging out at sundance i didn't mind so much. when it blows in my favor i'm sure i don't complain. but those are little things. not big things. right now i'm just super frustrated... aggravated.... and tired. of everything.

and i can't get this last song i need for my super 90's flashback soundtrack to be done with.

and now i'm probably going to be late to work tomorrow... again.

and with so much to do tomorrow night too..............

fuck fuck #$%^&*@!!!

hold on to your nickels everyone!!

they're gonna change them. crazy huh? who needs to change the nickel? apparently we do. i like the old nickels, and i think the new ones are kind of not so cute, but i guess it's not up to be. i'm just going to have to start hoarding my nickels and keep them with my old quarters, $20's, $5's and $10's.

hmmm... what's goin on? i'm slacking off at work yet again. i am quite apathetic today.. data entry just isn't the same anymore :P plus the people at work are being meaner to me. well not mean, just not friendly. it's weird... oh well. more motivation for me to get outta here huh? yesterday i didn't come to work and i stayed home to digitize footage for the video that needs to be done by saturday. eeks... i finally finished imputing it all into the computer.. but haven't started editing. ack. i have friday night and saturday morning. 24hrs for one piece? uh oh.

it's my own fault though, i went with my sister to go run some errands and we ended up shopping for 3 hours. i spent like $100 or so.. crap :P gotta go return some other stuff i bought. hahah.

tuesday i worked at hockey again after our mini between season break. it kind of felt like i had never left, but i also felt like i forgot a lot of things. i messed up a few times with the clock & penalties. it's okay.. first day jitters right?

a happy belated birthday to my cousin michelle for yesterday. she turned 21! yay.. legal baby :) she's living the college life @ columbia. if you run into eli swanson... club him on the head and bring him back to california :)

nicole is leaving for italy in less than a week!!! oh my gosh... i can't believe it. i almost want to go wrap myself around her ankles so she can't go anywhere... but italy will be amazing. but it will be hard to deal without her. who else am i going to disney whore it up with, or spontaneously go see the piano man, watch fantasmic or eat breadbowl chowder? who else will i talk to at 2am when everyone else is asleep but us? who will say silly things to me on im, put up with my dumb stories (and really act like they are amused) and have conversations about the amazing race? and who else will keep me updated about the chippendales? nicole... don't go!! *(she told me she was going to try to find internet cafes to get online and blog or whatnot.. and although i would LOVE it, instead she should go find some hot italian boys to show her the good times. ;P stallion doesn't rhyme with italian for no reason ... jk.)

so this is my blog about my friend philly. she is AWESOME and rad and smart and mature (so why the hell is she friends with me?) but... she is only going to be a freshman in college. i swear that she is my age or older, but that's just her brain i suppose. she's always helping me, giving me advice, or just keeping me company late at night with talk of hot dawson's creek boys or what not. but anyways.. i was reading one of those random "get to know me" surveys and here's one that she put:

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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 fall in love - "ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love."
02 make my parents proud
03 make a difference
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wow.. i mean.. it's not really anything unordinary, but in that section most people put like "have sex in a public place" or "go sky diving" or "work on the olympics" :P but these are so good they make me want to be just like philly when i grow up :) when i read this, i was like "wow... she is so amazing." she even has cool quotes :)

yay!!! we won our softball game tonight.. yay the disabled list!! i'm pretty stoked. although right before the game started while warming up in the outfield one of the girls, lara, got hit in the face and started bleeding. yuk. it sucked, so her and her husband left to go to the hospital. and while the other team was being jerky "come on, let's play already", "oh that's a forfeit" we pulled 3 spectators that were from another team to play with us. they were really good. one of them pitched, so i got relief (which is good because she's way better than i am, and my shoulder/back is still really sore/tight from yesterday) can we say ... outta shape? haha. so yea.. and then this old guy asked if we needed another guy, and he was real good too. so we had 4 "ringers" so the other team was making snide comments "oh see you next time when we play your team" so we HAVE TO beat them next time. :P as always, hitting and outfielding are the weaker spots. but hey.. we won, so i'm not going to complain. it was a lot of fun - yay for winning! :) plus we like to cheer and scream and yell (while other teams just yell a little and clap). i think they probably think we're super obnoxious and peppy. hahaha.. whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

what was oprah's big surprise?

geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez.

check this out too...

swim with the stars

it's not quite like champions on ice, cuz there's only 3, but i guess there's only so much you can do. what about gary hall jr? or aaron peirsol? or brendan hansen? mm... that would make it much better.

so.. this post is late.. sorry dude!! but

happy birthday benji!!(yesterday)

his birthday was 9/11.. and i didn't get a chance to post or hang out with him. :( sorry.. i suck. but you know.. he never reads this anyways.. so it's not like it quite matters. hahha. i'll just have to take him out later.. and i got him a present.. that's what really matters to anyone right? jk.

hmm.. well .. what have i been up to? not really sure.. a lot of this, a lot of that.. randomness here and there. this week was work and hanging out with friendies, my sister and more work. friday night i went up to LA and did some work for my sister, except i am dumb, and did it wrong, so really i accomplished nothing. which sucks a whole lot of ass. i have to finish a video by saturday, but i am working two days, and softball game tomorrow, so that leaves wednesday and friday.... ack. we'll see what i can come up with. it's gotta be good though. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. i got to eat this really good chinese chicken salad at this place near my sister's - california chicken cafe. i've been craving it everytime i've gone there but haven't gotten to eat it. i was quite happy on friday :) afterwards i went back to her house for a bit and watched some tivo - the complex:malibu. that show is pretty interesting... or maybe i'm just too easily amused.

saturday - worked @ the gap. good times as always. we have this new promo tool, it's these "how do you wear it" bands that come in like 6 different colors that we can pick to wear. of course, my greedy ass picked to wear all of them .. but yay rainbow! it's just funny, because it seems like a knock off on the whole "livestrong" bands. freaking EVERYWHERE. in fact, if i wanted to be "cool" i could sport the yellow one and pretend to jump on the bandwagon as well, but that would be even lamer than jumping on the bandwagon itself. but i do like my rainbow bands. except they make my wrist super sweaty :P

after worked i hauled ass over to chino hills. whoo hoo... i was glad my car made it. and the drive to chino hills wasn't too bad.. so i was grateful for that. it was carlene's birthday celebration!! those kids are so freaking skillful. first they re-did their floors - pulled out their carpet alllll by themselves and put in wood floors. .. and then they decorated their house (it was just like a restaurant! haha. and made it into a supercool birthday party scene. i want to rent their house and hire them to have my birthday party there. haha. they decorated the backyard all pretty, had yummy food that they made themselves (and some they ordered from daphne's) and were the best hosts ever. haha. they even provided some real entertainment national geographic style. in the middle of the celebration we heard a noise and saw two possums on the wall, but then one possum fell off (i think the other one pushed it), but then was trapped in their backyard. apparently possums are nasty and they like to attack, so we all went inside to continue the fun. there was the hookah, old school nintendo, poker and lots and lots more eating. joe provided the poker entertainment :) and the girls beat out all the boys. niiice. thanks for the good time concepcions!! i ended up spending the night to catch a few z's before driving back to lovely torrance, but ended up playing super mario with nicole until like 6am or so. yikes.... actually i played until like 6:30ish after nicole went to bed. i so wanted to rescue the princess... but i didn't :( i managed to get the 100+ lives in level 3, so i played for quite awhile, and then left the machine on (on pause) for nicole to pick up where i left off. i passed the seemingly impossible level 8-3 for her, so she's gotta do the castle. hahah. god speed nicole!

today i drove back this morning, which wasn't too bad, but i felt pretty crappy, either from eating too much, or being bloated, or too little sleep (or all three) - but i managed to make it to softball practice. we practiced for 3 hours, and most of the team showed up.. wow. it seems like it'll be fun. except i got sunburnt today :( i'm a little red, i hope it'll brown and not crisp :P

okay.. i should get some dubbing done. my mom is watching deuce bigalow on tv and really enjoying it. haha.. too hilarious.

oh.. and happy birthday carlene!! :)

i got the right date today... she is the big ol 23. she has mad skillz in web design, home decorating and general kick ass-ness. happy birthday old fart! :)

so i'm pretty bummed right now. i don't think that the star internship is going to be possible. i already got turned down at one place, and the other place hasn't called me back either. i thought about adding a class to do the cooperative career program, but i don't know if i have the time for a class or if i can even get into one at this point. i dunno, i mean i definitely didn't try very hard to do everything to get this spot, but ... it was an uphill battle to begin with. ugh. maybe that's just what i get.

i still haven't called the guy yet, i'm sure he's gonna be like "okay thanks bye." or he already knew just because it's been a week since i've talked to him. my friend ben tried to make me feel better by saying there was "no point in chasing after not-so-great jobs with no pay" so i guess that's true, because so many people questioned why i wanted to do it. but i did really like the facilities and thought i could definitely learn a ton. sakura told me if i didn't do it i wasn't allowed to complain anymore about my job situation. hah.

i have a dentist appointment today. i forgot to floss last night. shoot.

so i got off work a little while ago, redoing the walls and all. it was alright, it's never enough time to do what you want to do. :P but i did the bag wall in the men's section 1 if you go. hahah.. check out my handywork :P i should be sleeping but i need "downtime" from work... it's lame i know.. but anyways.

"Simpson's wardrobe checked by NFL"

are you kidding me? can you ever imagine jessica simpson flashin anyone? showing her boob to anyone that wasn't nick lachey? puhleeze. only if you were married to her maybe, and she's not a mormon. so yea.. i mean.. i guess they have good reason and you have to be extra careful and make grandiose gestures.. but seriously? jessica simpson? and then they say "Elton told me he won't take his shirt off," said Charles Coplin, one of the producers of the show. "He can do that. We've allowed him to do that." ew? yea.. i think that's scarier than anything janet and justin could have pulled off. :P

i was going to post something else from a friend's livejournal, but they are down and doing upgrading crap.. so it'll have to wait. but one more thing.. i was watching the end of closing ceremonies (that my mom taped) today and the closing sequence was soo good. and i love john williams and his music.. it just sounds "olympic" :) there was a sequence they cut together a lot of really fast action and winning shots, it made me smile really hugely, and as i watched the credits roll by for the different sport producers and editors, i thought.. "wow.. how awesome would that be" :P someday... someday... (maybe... haha.. yea right :P) the only thing i didn't like was that in both of the "remember the olympic shots" they ended with michael phelps (and that wasn't the only clip of him they used, like the 4th or 5th). ok ok.. i get it, michael phelps is great.. whatever.. it's kind of overkill. i guess he's really a hero to a lot of people, but my heart always belongs to gary hall jr. hahah.. (i'm a dork) but too, like to see the excitement in all the other athletes faces (esp. smaller countries) is so much better.. it seemed maybe he just expected to win so he was like "ho hum another medal" which makes him seem like a snot. but whatever.. he was only really excited during the 4x200 relay, and i guess he gave up his spot in the medley relay, which was nice, but it was like "i have so many and you have none.. so i will be nice and also get all this 'i'm so great' attention" haha.. whatever.. i'm not his biggest fan, sorry. i dunno.. it's not that i don't think he's good, i think it's just media overkill. i've seen lots of things that shows he's a nice guy, just a regular 'ol 19 yr old with million dollar contracts and an escalade with spinners. hahah. there's just something that irks me. also... they only used 1 or 2 clips (one might have been of him falling.. haha but i couldn't see the face) of paul hamm .. which is good because me makes me a little sick too. hahah.. paul hamm you ruined my olympics :P all in all i still *heart* the olympics mucho.

oh.. and like whoa.. i have 12, yes 12! gmail invitations.. they are just sprouting up out of nowhere. i think almost everyone has one now.. but if you'd like one.. let me know. and if you're nice and i like you.. maybe you can have one. hahah. jk.

boo.. so i blogged last night, but my computer sucks and i lost it. i was hoping there was a slim chance it got published before the error (it's happened before) but no luck this time. oh well it was lame post anyways. maybe it deserved to die :P

yesterday i got this email from my work:
"We have recently been advised that our National campus falls within an area in which there have been confimed cases of West Nile Virus found in birds. West Nile virus is an illness that is transmitte primarily by mosquitoes and is most often chracterized by mild flu-like symptoms, including headache, fever, body aches and, sometimes, swollen lymph nodes or a skin rash.

Local health authorities are investigating the area and are taking preventative measures to reduce the mosquito population. Nissan is working with them and taking additional preventative measures to reduce the risks to our employees. To prevent exposure to the West Nile virus, the federal Occupational Safety and Health Administration ("OSHA") recommends that employees working outside apply insect repellent containing the ingredient DEET and wear appropriate clothing (including long sleeves, long pants and socks) when outdoors. Effetive immediately, security personnel in each of the buildings on the National campus will have insect repellent available for use by all personnel working outside on Nissan's campus. Please read the directions on the repellent can carefully before application."

grrreeeaat. good thing i don't work outdoors, but now i'm all freaked, i drive with the windows up. it smelled really bad on the way to work yesterday morning.. i thought it was sewage in the water or something.. but it was SO bad. maybe it was a bunch of dead birds :P i have some rashes on my arms... i've been trying to rationalize it for awhile. it's all hypochondria.

also.. i almost burned my house down yesterday :P whee... i was in the bathroom and i was like.. "hmm it smells like something is on.." but i didn't really think twice because i hadn't turned anything on (smart huh?) later when i went to go get a q-tip i found that my straightener was on, and my travel toiletries bag was on top of it. i must have pushed the bag, which flipped the switch of the straightener. my bag was a little warm, but there was no melting.. thank gosh. and to think i wouldn't have found if it i wasn't getting a q-tip for my medicine for my dry skin. i would have went to bed at the straightener burned down my house. thanks skin rash, you saved my life. :P

so a quick blog before heading off to bed. what jean? it's only midnight.. like 3 hours before you normally go to sleep. really i should have went to be like an hour ago... i've been pretty tired lately. i was falling asleep at work even thought i got like 9 hours of sleep! crazy.

anyhoo.. no bloggity blogs because nothing really excited has been going on. except it's been HOTT!!! it's so hard to fall asleep because it's so hot. during the day it's not too bad because i'm indoors. but yea... upstairs sucks in my house.

friday i was in a pretty good mood because i only worked a half day. it just made my day that much cheerier :P i drove out to go to my interview... still trying to figure all that shiznit out. argh... i hate the real world sometimes. the three day weekend was just relaxing. i didn't do anything big, no crazy going out, no re-doings floors, no sports game.. just chillaxing. saturday i just hung out at home and then went with my family to my sister's. my dad helped put together some tables that my sister got as wedding presents.. well we were supposed to all help, but my dad just did it, and i played double dash on game cube. hahah.. my dad really got into it...it was fun, except i felt bad because he kept losing :P for dinner we were going to go to talay thai for dinner, but my dad got frustrated because he couldn't find parking (hmm.. LA on a saturday night? :P) so we ended just buying groceries and cooking @ my sister's new house. it was interesting. that night my sister and i drove to tustin to stay before going to san diego the next (same) day for a shoot. we didn't get to bed until 2:30am or so and then left for SD @ 5:30am. yikes.

it was a short film for the san diego asian film festival. so i'm excited to see how it turns out and i can say "i helped!" :P it also made me really miss san diego too. i was walking through the ralphs in la jolla village square and i got all nostalgic... remembering all the times i went there and late night times shopping, but seeing a million other college kids there too... oh man.. i am a dork. i was all like "i gotta move back here" but who knows if that's even possible :P i guess i can always retire there. hahah. oh well.. it's only 1.5 hours away right? :P that night we came back (but not after getting california burritos from el cotixan's first!!) and my sister and i were supposed to check out the apple store, but we ended up sleeping too long. i was TIRED... 2 hrs of sleep was not good to drive on, but i survived and then crashed into bed. i was too tired to end up going out later that night.. so sorry guys.

monday i just hung out by myself :P my parents were gone when i woke up (apparently to visit relatives) but they were gone all day.. so i just waddled in my pajamas :P watched tv, went to the gym. i tried to go to dinner with my sister, but she fell asleep @ a friend's house, so she didn't pick up her phone. boo. and today... it was SO hard to go back to work, i SO didn't want to be there.. double boo. anyhow.. it's all very whatever to me and boring to you, so i'll stop now. :P

have a great day!

sorry for the overmelodramataness. :P and yes i would like some cheese with that whine whine whine.

so i don't feel really like blogging, but i feel like working even less.. so here i am :P so far today i've checked my email, read everyone's blogs, and balanced my check book... it's good times. today one of my co-worker's said to me (sarcastically) "you always sound so happy to come in here in the morning." i do.. well do i? or am i just not a morning person. but i think i've seriously begun to really hate this job... i do even less work than i did before. :P

anyhoo.. sorry to have reverted back to the "i hate my job" posts.. i know those get boring, because who doesn't hate their job? well a lot of people, but anyways. last weekend was okay.. a combination of work and going out. friday for the first time in a long while sakura and i went to the "pain in the butt" class @ bally's together. working out and feeling lame because you can't lift flimsy 3 lb weights is always funner when you have a friend. that night i went out with nicole, mike, beth and ryan.. because i left my id at home we didn't get to go to the cool ski lodge themed "best new bar in LA"... sorry.. we ended up at the union cattle co and then the kettle. there was a little puking, but not from me :P although with two drinks and one shot i was pretty toasty, which is good i guess. i almost passed out in the kettle.. i was tired. i avoided my mom's evil eye that night .. so the rest of the weekend i had to be good, so stayed home and worked. although i didn't actually do any cleaning or "good stuff" not going out is okay as well.

monday i didn't go to work and instead i went to my interview for the internship @ star 98.7. sounds pretty exciting right? except i'm not really eligible. i have to find a way to get credit for it, and the people at elco (where i spent the afternoon) are soooo unhelpful. ack. i also found out that they're filming a movie @ elco with adam sandler and chris rock. i wish i could just walk up and be like "can i have a job?" but it's just not that easy. damn. i got a call about a job, that doesn't seem quite as exciting as the internship @ star, but it's paid... so i don't know how i feel. my interview is friday, so maybe i will love it after i see it. i hope so. i mean.. seeing as how the internship might not even be possible anyways.. but i got a mini tour of some of the facilities and they looked so cool.. i'd learn a lot about audio editing (thanks giovanna and comt175.. haha) and the way the job sounded when the lady described it, it seemed so... mundane and interney, even though i wasn't the intern. i know you gotta pay your dues, but i doubt they'd have me washing their dishes at star. i dunno.. i have this awful feeling that i will end up with nothing and be back here in my temp job forever and ever and ever. i tried to figure out numbers for if i got the job and if i moved out.. i don't even know if it'd be possible. how do people do it?! i hate that the world always revolves around money. i really want the star gig... i wish i could do both. i want to do everything, that is my problem. i turned down doing stage managing for the play that i did sm'ing for last year.. because i don't really have the time, and my schedule is still so up in the air. i felt really sad though, i really wanted to do it again. i want the job, i want the internship, i want to do the play, i want to still work at hockey, and i want the gap discount (haha.. without working :P) i want live on my own but without having to pay for anything :P i'm so fuckin greedy.

monday was nice though.. i met kathy up in h.wood @ hollywood and highland and we had a last lunch before her and her friend chris from england go back up north. sad.. it was really fun hanging out and talking with kathy. and now that we don't have that whole cki thing bothering us it was that much better. too bad we didn't get to hang out longer. sucks. but it was fun.. she's going to UCDC in the fall... she's going to have so much fun. (that's something else i wanted to do.. stinking cki.)

tuesday i had lunch with linh from steve's, but we ate it at her house with her loud ass dog that kept barking at me. it scared me a few times, and although i was assured it wouldn't bite, it's intimidating as hell :P that night i was supposed to go to my sister's and maybe later meet up with ryan, nicole, maritza and norma.. but none of that happened because... i got in a fight with my mom. ack.. story of my life. it was dumb, and me my mom just have this huge inability to communicate at all... so i just ended up sleeping all night. my mom likes to complain about how our house is so messy, but a lot of it is stuff that i can't really sort/clean. so if i try to do it, my mom just watches me, standing there, telling me how to do it and then yells at me if i don't do it her way, or if i question her methods. doesn't that seem like a colossal waste of time? if she's gonna do that, she should just do it herself.. i dunno.. but this is why no one wants to clean, because no one can.. but she constantly wants people to help out.. it's a vicious cycle. so for the past few i've been pretty quiet and homebody. for fear of going out, fear of my mom yelling at me more (although she's not really talking to me right now) and just in a general anti-social mood. sorry.. i do feel really lame guys.. i suck. thanks to nicole who has been calling and checking in. mucho appreciated. someone told me that if i get a real job and i still live at home my mom will ease up a bit. i wonder if that's true. i don't know. i feel like such a fuckin failure sometimes.. everyday these words come out of my parents mouth "so.. what kind of work are you looking for.." "you know if you lost weight, you'd be pretty" "so when are you going to find a real job" "when are you going to go to the gym" "you should find a job where you can get health benefits" "you're so fat" i know that all these things are true, but contrary to popular belief.. i don't enjoy hearing it everyday. thanks. growing up sucks.

pretty sky. 

me and my sissy poo after the reception. black and white pictures are always fun 

top left: at the dodgers game! 
topr right: john cho was there for korean american night :P 
bottom left: sakura and my cousin jerry 
bottom right: sukhyung, sara, ryan, beth and benji 

top left: me and nicole in line for the LAST millionaire EVER! 
top right: no more phone a complete stranger calls! :( 
bottom left: saying goodbye to the last millionaire game 
bottom right: cheering ourselves up on tower of terror 

left: jason and bushwalla getting ready to dance!
right: mraz, ian and bill bell guitaring it up

hanging out with kathy and her friend chris at johnny rockets in h.wood .. yum!