yikes.. it's been a crazy couple of days. i'm kind of proud of myself... all weekend i wasn't hooked to the computer and i didn't go through withdrawal or anything.. maybe i'm being weened on my addiction to the ethernet. anyways... hmm.. Friday.. I went to Jury Duty.. it was SUCH a waste of my time. I thought going would make me a good citizen or something, but now I know why people hate it so much. I slept in the Jury Assembly room all morning.. shoot.. I could have just done that at home. I GUESS. Anyways.. I got out around 2...and don't have to go back for 12 months... whoo hoo. Drove down to San Diego where the traffic wasn't too horribly bad, but some patches here and there. Met up with Vivian in Oceanside to go to her friend Rob's bday party, and then to the JASON MRAZ show in OB at Java Joe's. I was spastic on the way down because I was so excited to see him perform live again. I LOVE him.. he is soooooo great. I'm so sad that he's not going to be playing as much anymore because he's getting all famous and everything, because like the intimacy of the shows and everything will change, but at the same time.. it's awesome that he's going to be huge and famous and what not.... I guess I'm jealous at the same time. He gets to do something he loves. *sigh* He's SO awesome.. check him out.

On Saturday I was supposed to pack and clean and what not... that morning I went to a DCM for Paradise.. hmm.. it's kind of weird to go to these things after a year of running them and planning for them and what not. But at the same time, it's relieving because I get to just sit back and chill and be there, I don't have to do anything!! heheheh... esp. now that I don't have to plan for weekly meetings either.. I *heart* summer. mm.. I packed a little bit, napped, ate lunch with Vivian.. pretty boring shiznit. Went to go get ice cream at Coldstone's and visited our favorite waiter Justin and saw his place, met his bro and his friend and his cute cat! :) That night I went to go to In N Out and visit Jill at work, and went over to Dave's house. We chilled hung out, Ashley came over and we watched Dazed and Confused and Varsity Blues (yay.. i love Johnny Moxon) and had some drinks :) Dave is my favorite bartender.. hahaha.. And then some of the other friends came over.. it was a good time. Sunday, helped Vivian move, and packed a bit for myself. Vivian spent the night since she was officially homeless, and we slumber partied it. Monday, went to go look at the house, but it sucked because not were there other groups interested, but when the real estate guy showed up, the tenants didn't answer the door!! At frikkin 9:30am.. I dragged myself out of bed.. sucky. Ate breakfast at Kono's and packed. My mom and dad showed up, and tried to help me pack, we left late than night and I drove back to LA. (exciting weekend huh?) not... But I swear.. I should move boxes everyday.. my arms are SO sore.. I guess it's a good workout.

Speaking of working out, Carrie and I have been pretty good about it for the past two days.. hahah.. we're proud of ourselves.. we've been working out twice in a row.. hope we keep it up. In other news... I got an internship at Edmonds Entertainment.. *whoo hoo*.. I'm kind of excited, I'll get to work in the production and the management side.. learn some cool things. :) And then I'm trying to get a job at the GAP.. we'll see how that goes. mm. nothing else too new. *ooooohhh* except that Pete Holiday talked to me two days in a row.. wow.. i must be special. hahahahahah

I'm going to SD this weekend.. and I'm going to the Jason Mraz show.. (yes.. again).. YAAAAAAAAAAY.. I *heart* Jason Mraz. he's SO awesome... I also conned Ryan and Carrie to going with me (yay.. i have friends), and Kristina is meeting us down there. I tried getting Nicole to come.. but she won't go.. :P sucker.. oh well.. her loss. She'll be sorry.. haha.. I'm trying to get another friend to go.. but that one's kind of a doozie.. we'll see how that goes.. *sigh* But for the last two days I've been "stalking" him.. not really just looking at his website, downloading songs, and I found this new discussion board and like talking with all these other crazed fans.. haha. It's bad news.. but Ryan thought I was totally crazy.. but tomorrow night he will see, oh yes, he will believe. And I have to take care of house stuff and what not.. shoot.. I'm going to be homeless come Monday. blah blah blah.. my life is boring.. I know.. go out and play!!

wow.. summer has made me REALLY lazy... more lazy than i already was... wow.. do you think that's possible? hahaha.. anyways.. I really haven't been doing much.. just chillin. hmm..

Tuesday, I bummed around of course.. went out to lunch with Keri at the Kettle, caught up, and then visited Angelee in the hospital.. we screamed at each other through the glass, I'm sure all of the hospital heard. Anyways.. before that we went to Ralphs to buy her some stuff and I bought all these cute picture frames cuz they were on clearance.. (yes.. Ralphs has picture frames) but now I have buyer's remorse but I can't return them cuz I don't have the receipt... shit. That night I went to go pick Carrie up at the airport and we went and got Boba... along with visiting my sister. We ended up at the same Boba place as my sister was having her meeting, but Carrie and I just chatted away, and said goodbye to my sissy-poo as we left.

Wednesday... I didn't do much during the day.. ran a couple errands here and there. And then I made Nicole drive down to Torrance to drop off the ICON registration forms. hehe.. along with Joe's credit card number.. anyone want to go shopping?! hahaha.. So we ventured out to Westwood to meet up with Carrie and Manny and then went to BJ's for dinner. (mmm.. pizza and pizookies.... yum). Before you hear it from anyone else.. I said hello to a cop that was standing on the street... and the three morons I was with made fun of me for fliritng with the cop. I was JUST being friendly.. jeez guys. freaks.. didn't your parents ever teach you to be friendly? We just chilled afterwards, and I came home and talked on the phone with Vivian. We found the hot guy online and actually considered emailing him through the whole match.com thing... yikes.. are there really not any decent guys out there that we have to resort to this? Or does it just make it easier because I'm a weenie and it's all anonymous online. hahaha.. Anyways.. he's from Torrance which is the most amusing part.. he could live around the corner from me!! But Carrie and I are going to start a pool.. heheh.. whoever lands a date first wins.. hahaha.. we are such dorks.

Today.. another lazy day. Went out to lunch with Ryan and Beth at the Loft, and then sat around for another hour while we decided what to do.. (like we always do). Went to Border's where I bought "Dating without Novacaine" hahaha.. it's a fiction book, not an advice book so stop laughing, well keep laughing I guess.. just for a different reason. Went to Costco with my mom and had conversations with Carrie about her domestication.. ahah.. if it counts.. I guess if you're cooking out of a box.. it's still cooking right? heheheheh... my my my.. I lead an exciting life..

Tomorrow I have to go to Jury Duty.. gay bastards.. they just HAD to call me in at the last day of the week.. what jerks. My mom told me to be racist and Vivian told me to racist and pretend not to speak english so I can get out of it. hahahahha.. crazy.. but then I'm off to SD to pack, but of course not before I go see the Jason Mraz show. I'm SO excited that he's playing this weekend... he's going to get SO famous, but he's so great. I love those little intimate settings that you can see people in before they get all huge. It's so fun. But go figure.. someone I wanted to visit in SD is coming to LA right as I'm going down.. sucks.. must not be meant to be huh.. dang it all.

whoa.. i broke 1,000 today.. whoo hoo! i'm in awe.. i know it doesn't compare to Nicole's like four hundred million thousand.. but it's a start.. at least i'm 1/4 as loved as she is.. awwww..

ahhhh.. summer... the joys of sitting around in your pajamas alllllllll day, talking on the phone, watching soaps... being lazy. :)

*although.. you'd be proud of me.. i was semi-productive.. i finished my resume. whoo hoo.. i hope i get a good job. because of some recent events.. i have to make a lot of money, and fast.. so we'll see how that all works out.

this house hunting thing is psycho.. i hate it.

but i talked to angelee a lot today, we watched days together, and i'm going to visit her and her radioactive self in the hospital soon. talked to carrie and caught up on stuff, i tortured her some more. and talked to Keri.. WHOO HOO.. she's back in Torrance. she flew back from New Zealand to surprise her parents for their 25th anniversary.. and plus i think she was getting a little homesick, but anyways.. go for me.. we get to hang out.. we're going to go chill tomorrow.. it's going to be great. too bad all my present for her are in san diego.

today was an okay day... woke up feeling quite dehydrated.. but that's all.. so it's all good. ate hummus and pita bread that we bought from costco for lunch, and proceeded to pack and clean up a little and do my laundry. it was fun.. as i'm sure you can tell. loaded up my car, dropped of some stuff, returned library books (where the bins were soooo full of books you couldn't open the drop door thingy, and these guys said that it was even worse in the actual library slot.. they said there were book overflowing.) anyways.. drove back to Torrance, but not in time to go out to dinner with my dad for father's day. sad... i told him i'd take him out for dessert, but he's not really a super desserty type guy.. so now i feel all bad. so yeah..

i'm at home now... and i'm not quite as elated as carrie was.. in fact.. it's almost the opposite.. well that's not fair.. it wasn't that bad.. but i guess it just got worse as it got along. i'm not really a home body type of person, and i'm more of a free spirit than my parents agree with, and so i guess it makes both of us unhappy.. but hopefully it'll get better. if not.. hopefully i'll have a place to escape to... but that's a whole other set of mini-dramas... yeah.. so if anyone needs a place to stay in san diego for the next year.. me and my friend Ryan need a 3rd roommate or else i'll be living in a box on the corner next year. i told kimmy it could double as my home and workplace. yikes. i really hope that we get this house. anyways.. the soccer game is on and i must watch...

so... really.. i think that maybe.. i have to stop putting up with people's shit. and part of that includes.. telling them when i'm angry with them... or they do things that upset me. i dunno.. i have to stop being so nice to people, especially people who don't deserve it all the time. i mean.. i guess this is that whole the "not being a doormat thing" but at the same time.. i'm not the type to be rude to people for no reason.... soo i don't really know what to do. i mean.. i guess i need to start listening to people like manny and carrie and just do what i want .. (within reason of course) and be who i want to be.. and if people don't like me.. then too bad for them i guess.. i dunno.. i need to grow a thicker skin.

anyways.. today was fun. woke up way early for vivian's and julie's and jeff's and nick's and a whole buncha other people's graduations... 9am.. geeez. got so sunburnt. went to lunch with laura and viv and her fam... and then ran errands and chit chatted with laura. it was fun.. she's a super nice girl. and then spent FOREVER trying to find Ryan Billings so we could hang out. I swear.. it took forever and a day.. and when I got to the parking lot, they were at the gas station, and then when I got to the gas station, they were at the parking lot. madness!!! I wanted to hurt Ryan so badly.. haha.. met his friends, went to a BBQ.. and then Ryan met my friends, and we went to the SMAC house party before they left.. and that was my night. hanging out with friends, socializing..... quality. It was a lot of fun talking to them and chit chatting. And like.. we got there and it wasn't a super huge party.. but sometimes that's almost better (when you know the people) so you can just talk, that's always nice. Anyways.. I must get going... i'm a tiny bit inebriated... vivian kept a nice drink in my hand all night.. it was tons o' fun. vivian makes good drinks.. tomorrow i must also pack and go home for I have jury duty on monday.. aww yeah.

oooooooohhhh my gosh.. my pajama pants are the like the most comfortable things in the world.. they are the best ever.. so anyways...

it's totally been roommate bonding time this week.. it's amusing.. maybe cuz i've holed myself up in the house long enough? maybe because i'm leaving? anyways.. it's been a lot of fun. today i went to the kiwanis meeting, and then came back.. finished editing my paper, and then turned it in. *MY LAST FINAL OF MY JUNIOR YEAR... whoooooo hoooooo * dubbed my videos so that kristen and I both have copies, and then came back... chit chatted on the phone and went to costco with michele.. we got pizza and beer.. oooh and hummus.. it was on sale.. hahaha :) anyways..

oh.. exciting news.. i found a place down the street from where i live now.. it's $1800.. that's $600/room, but it's like a townhouse, and it's a lot cheaper than anything else i've found.. i really want to live there, but it's doubtful what the rest of it will be like. and then i would have to decide if i wanted to share a room or not.. hmmm.. i don't want to fuck someone over, but i don't want to get in anymore nasty roommate situations.. i think i've had enough for a lifetime. man.. if i had had a blogger last year.. whoa.. it's would have be the 'days of my life' all the time. anyways.. i'm crossing my fingers.

went with vivian and laura to friday's (our new watering hole) and met up with brianne. did our thing. but it was the funniest thing.. i ran into so many people at friday's... i saw Brian Capanna and it was his 21st b-day.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and then oddly enough.. i saw Chase.. it was fun catching up.. i felt bad because i totally neglected the girls ... but freshman year friends.. there's just something special about them. afterwards.. went over to dave, justin and neil's house, where we caught the tail end of the party and chilled out.. more fun with marshall kids.. and our new fun friend justin and his cousin brandon met up with us later. so all in all it was a good time.. i had a little fluid here and there.. but not too much. hehe.. i can handle my own.. heck i drank mikie under the table at nicole's party. :) hahahaha. anyways.. we're hoping tomorrow night we're going to get fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucked up. i hope i don't have to DD, cuz that's what i always do.. this will be the last time during the summer that i have to do this. but anyways.. i have to get up in 3.5 hours and i smell like party... it's time for me to go. bye bye bye have a nice life. *muah*

wow.. so I've really screwed up my sleeping pattern this week. it's 6:33am and I'm not really tired. I ate dinner at like 11:30pm, and umm.. I dunno. Anyways.. so I did end up going out.. hahah.. I went out to dinner with Michele and brought along Vivian and Angie.. who we picked up from the Pike party. okay..so anyways.. we at dinner, and the waitress was bad news bears. I mean.. granted.. she had like an entire section to cover.. but really.. she should be used to it.. I mean.. it's HER section. She was way late in bringing our drinks, didn't refill them, and our food wasn't like it usually is (which i know isn't her fault.. but adds to the whole unpleasantness of the evening), and she herself wasn't so nice. I know.. i know.. I wouldn't say I was a demanding customer, I just know what I want... and that's kind of their job to give it to the customers.. I mean.. heck.. WAITers. And it's not like I'm rude about it or anything. I dunno.. I just know if it was my first time there, I wouldn't really wanted to have gone back. Oh and on top of all of that.. she was talking smack about us to a table full of people who work there but were off, so they were glaring at us all night, and glared at us when we left.. I guesss... So whatevers.. that was my second restaurant experience (shut up Carrie).

Stopped by the Pike party for a little bit and took care of a way drunk Allen, and then came home. chit chatted, finished my paper (although it needs to be intensely edited), and watched the US get their butts wiped by Portugal, but oddly enough, they are still advancing to the second round.. weird how things work like that huh?

So anyways.. giving it some thought.. this is the last "official" day of school... so that means.. by the end of today.. I'll be a SENIOR.. god.. it's the weirdest thing. I mean.. not really so much as it is in high school because it's a much smaller atmosphere (and there are tons of super seniors and grad students around so you're not all big and bad and tough)... but like.. it's still kind of trippy to know that you're a fourth year, and that you'll be graduating college and forced to go out into the real world. wow.. how strange is that. *don't tell my parents* but when i went to academic advising they told me that i was three classes away from graduating.. so I could have taken those three classes this summer and walked THIS JUNE. wow.. how weird would that have been? I mean.. like.. it would have been kind of fun.. to say something like.. "oh yeah.. i graduated in three years" but at the same time.. i wanted to have a "senior year" in college, and enjoy it with all my friends, and graduate with my friends.. and i think the most deciding factor was... that i couldn't be president of circle k.. haha. not. no but really.. I don't think that I was ready to be put out into the work force yet. I mean.. 20 years old and working for the rest of your life already? geez. I haven't done so many things.. plus the fact that I have NO experience whatsoever.. i'd die.. and just wish i was back in college again.. so why not? ehh.. I don't know.. it's a weird weird feeling... and I know that if I had told my parents they would have pressured me or got really angry for being selfish and taking a fourth year.. but i'm just not ready you know... i need to be a college kid still.. heck.. i'm immature enough for it.. hahaha.. jk. i wanted to play with my friends, enjoy college life, maybe this year i won't have to be so bogged down by classes that I will really have time for myself :) or i'll take some classes that i really want to take, instead of ones that I just have to take, enjoy my learning experience yah know? broaden the horizons. i was thinking about taking chinese again, or picking up spanish again.. (ahaha.. someone suggested both.. do you know how much bitch-work that would be?).. I'll probably pick up a theater minor... hehe.. maybe I can even *gasp* raise my grades.. hahahahaha.. so yeah.. these are things i think about at 6:46 in the morning.. great yeah?

yuk yuk yuk... i REALLY don't want to do this last paper.. and i know i know.. i shouldn'tbe complaining.. because it's only 3 pages.. but it's hard stuff... and when there's hard info that you have to cram into 3 pages.. it makes it worse. ugh.. i hate it. i played michele's xbox for like 2 hours... and it was like the best thing ever... i kept repeating.. "this is so much better than writing my paper!" now if only i could do that all day. anyways.. not really too much that's interesting.. that's pretty much the only thing that has consumed my life for the past day or so... wednesday morning i left the library at like 5am after i couldn't really stay awake anymore.. and what's the point of sleeping in the library.. when you can just do that at home? went back to clics around 2 and wrote my paper and sent it off at 5pm. I got the cutest email back from professor Bowker telling me thanks and have a good summer.. hahahahah. anyways.. i wasted lots of time yesterday. .but i did buy a strawberry pie from marie callendar's... yuuuuumm.. i was so excited because it was on sale!! whoo.. i love summer. read for my paper and fell asleep in my bed with my books, where i was awakened by diana who had locked herself out. slept, ate, watched tv.. saw my school on "I Bet You Will" on MTV.. that was kind of exciting. and procrastinated some more, played xbox, and now i'm blogging.. i think i'm going out to dinner with michele in a little bit. i wanted to go to friday's but she doesn't like it.. so i think we're going to do island's. *sigh.. maybe i'll go for like happy hour and get calamari or something. yum.. hey.. anything to keep me from doing my paper! i can't wait until i'm done!!

oy vey. today has been quite a day. so i stayed up all night.. in the library at school.. and read until 4am, started writing my paper until 7:30 (at the same time drooling over the hot boy in the library). and then read and at 8:20 carried my "hubangous" stack of books (without setting off the library alarm.. yay) across the parking lot to my car and drove over to my final. stressed a little bit about the readings i hadn't done.. and then stressed when we saw that the fill in the blank didn't have choices to choose from. i guess that's what happens when you don't sleep. (haha.. i bet all of you hate that i'm complaining about aTrue/False and Fill in the Blank final huh? haha) i managed to do alright.. although.. i do think that my teacher will think i'm a complete moron. *there was a question on the test.. and it said The Asians were used as a model minority compared to _____________ in the 20th century. dumbass me.. i put the Japanese because I was thinking about how the chinese were treated better when they tried to go after the Japanese during wwII. duhh... it said asians.. that includes Japanese.. i'm SO retarded.. but i was tired, and hey.. it's only one question right? anyways.. so after i got done with the final.. we got our videos.. and YAY!! we got an A on our video!! i'm going to be a movie-maker for sure.. hehe. but anyways.. i was stoked because i seriously thought we may have gotten a B. hahaha.. and so Kristen and I say to all those people who gave us bad comments and esp. to that one person who gave us a 5 and asked us what the point was.. "shove it" hahha.. anyways.. finished my paper for Children's lit, turned that in, and then napped. until Kristen called and we had a post final celebration at Denny's. we wanted to go to Ichiban's but it was closed. :(

i came back and slept. i passed out until 8:30pm when becca called me and then i woke up because i had a circle k meeting at 10pm.. uhh ooh. haha.. but then i looked at my cell phone and saw that 7 people had called me. haha.. i felt so popular! so anyways.. had a cki meeting for 2.5 hours.. yes.. crazy.. i know. and then went on a food run for Cory and Vivian.. and myself.. of course.i'm such a piggy. but i was kind of craving greasy mexican food but it was good because I ran into Jenni Hill who I totally haven't seen in forever and we went to Roberto's together and chit chatted the whole way and caught up..

but. my sleeping and eating schedule is totally thrown out of wack.. it's crazy. so here i am.. 4am in the library again. i'm not really tired because i just woke up.. and i figure if i'm here i might as well just finish my paper for comt111b and not have to worry about it tomorrow so i can concentrate on my politics of bodies paper. wow.. maybe i'll even finish early!! whooooaaaa.. have i actually broken out of the procrastinator cycle? haahaha.. nah.. i'll probably fuck around the next two days and be stressin friday morning. silly silly me.

*ooh ... the same hot boy is back at the library.. it must be fate.. ahah.... *that's got to be good motivation to go to the library.. hahaha.

ew.. i'm so upset.. the cute cute house that i wanted to live in PB was sold!! what the heck.. it was available when we looked at it. gay gay gay gay gay gay gay..

yuk.. and maybe the fact that it's 3:30am and i'm at the library makes my life pretty sucky as well. oh.. not to mention that i have a fianl from 9-11 and a paper due at 11:30am. both of which i still need to do reading for or have not started... i'm so fucked.

man... i am so screwed..(and not in the literal sense).. but anyways... bad joke.. i know.. finals week officially starts tomorrow.. my first final is at 9am tuesday.. and i feel like i have done jack crap. i've read a little here and there.. but i am no where near done with the papers that i need to do. *sigh.. maybe i shouldn't fool around so much.. but i dunno.. i'm a slacker.. i try and try not to procrastinate... and yet.. oops.. somehow i always am.. *i wish i could learn my lesson sometime*

anyways.. it's been a fun couple of days. friday morning i finished my paper in like 2 and a half hours.. pretty impressive.. and although it was five pages worth of pure crap.. i usually always get the same grade anyways.. at least i got some sleep right? that night i did talk to Megan and we had a good chat.. we caught up, and she gave me some useful advice..:) she also said that she wouldn't allow me to use her as my procrastination tool no longer.. and if i called her this week she'd hang up on me.. aww.. anyways.. after my last two classes of my junior year (wow...) kristen and i went to roberto's to munch and i also got my car checked out again. cheap fast mexican food is always the best.. yum. then we both went to our respective homes and crashed... that's what happens when you stay up all night :( i was supposed to drive back to torrance but got in a huge argument with the 'rents.. so i chilled out at Jill's house instead and waited for Kristen and Ryan to come home so I could make fun of them. hahah. we exchanged horror stories and did some crap talking.. haha.. but only about one person.. if that makes you feel any better (unless you're that one person.. hahaha). and i came home for some rest.

saturday i didn't do much, hung around at home, ate in-n-out and got to visit Jill-A at work.. it was a good time..she looks so cute in her uniform.. hehe..i always wanted one of those giant bobby pin things.. maybe i'll steal it from her. haaha. procrastinated a little, and finally read some.. before leaving for Nicole's 22nd birthday bash. it was a smashing good time. all the regular fools were there (joe, carrie, beth, ryan, mike, ryan, mikie, laura, steph) and all of her hs friends, and of course.. her family. her cousins are wild... haha. but we had a good time.. watched *nsync.. (yes!) a plethora of movies and the alcohol flowed freely. it's so weird that i look back on exactly a year ago at nicole's bday party when we were all just becoming friends, just beginning our year on dboard.. it's soooooo weird to think back.. yikes.. a lot has happened in a year. anyways.. took care of some kids.. slept in nicole's WAY comfy bed... when i got awakened at 8am by nicole dragging her hungover ass to bury herself in the corner, carrie joining us and managing to hurt herself (as always), and mikie dumping all the blankets that i so graciously got for them last night on me.. greeeeaaat. eh.. i just fell back asleep anyways.. hahah.. might i repeat..nicole's bed is SOOOO comfy "i feel like i'm sleeping on a cloud" hahhaa.. woke up around noon.. ate leftover chicken and pancit (yum!) and then managed to drag my sorry butt back to Torrance where I tried to go to the library.... so what the heck.. it says open sunday's 1-5pm during the school year. and yet they were closed when i got there!! torrance kids don't get out until june 20.. by definition.. THAT'S THE SCHOOL YEAR. ugh.. i was so aggravated.. went to the mall with my mom and then dinner with Carrie. fun times.. Carrie swears she'll never go to a restaurant with me again because i tortured the waiter.. but hey.. all i asked him to do was get me a few things... that's his job eh? what are the good Cheesecake Factory people paying him to do huh? anyways.. drove back to pick up a study sheet that i left at home and went to go get gas with my dad.. and then decided to stay in Torrance for the night.. go to the library and hang out with my daddy some. hopefully my reading of the books i have here, write two papers, and drive back tomorrow.. then finish up the reading.. i guess.. for my 9am tuesday final.. BLAH.. *one more week.*

so it's 6am.. i woke up half a hour ago and STARTED writing my paper. yes.. i'm officially insane. carrie immed me to tell me she's going to sleep because she had more self-restraint and discipline than i do and is done at 6am rather than starting.

oh and ps. i hate nicole because while i was procrastinating and reading her blogger, she gave me the link to Wil Wheaton's very own website. normally this wouldn't be a big deal except i loved Wil Wheaton ever since I was a wee-lad watching Star Trek (yes.. I watched Star Trek.. shut up). anyways.. he is definitely a cutie as always, and one of those geeky nerdy boys that I like so much. except he's married and has kids. dammit. (and I say that like I had a chance in the first place.)

i reeeeeeeeally don't want to do my paper. yuk. so i'm procrastinating. i've slept all day, talked on the phone.. and now i'm blogging. blah blah blah... tomorrow's the last day of school!!! whoo hoo.

*AND THE SHIT-TALKING-FEST BEGINS*

i dunno, everyone just is seeming to have drama... and everyone just likes to sit around an talk about it. who said this, who said what. i mean.. i don't really mind, and it's kind of amusing to sit around with my friends and shoot the shit. but sometimes it also makes me really angry, and worried sometimes like who says what about me when i leave the room. and then also i know that people talk about me. it's not really a secret although people would like to think it is... that's the trouble... it always gets back to you. but anyways.. it's mildly amusing that along with everyone hooking up, everyone is also having drama. maybe it's the time of the year, it's the end and everyone just wants it to be over and they let the stress get to them.

hmm.. i've been on a weird sleep pattern lately.. i sleep during the day.. it really throws on my sleeping schedules. but it's so nice to take afternoon naps. :) went out with the girls to Pizza Port tonight. it was good to hang out in a group again. we've all really changed a lot, and it's hard to catch up on each others nights in the span of a few hours. but it's always a good time. my stomach is now churning from all the grease i shoveled in my mouth.

all the lights from nobel to la jolla village drive a little bit south of campus are out. i think someone ran into the power box on one of the corners and it blew out the power on a good majority of the street. it was way weird driving home in total darkness. sucks for the people who don't have power in their houses. haha.. i was going to go loot Ralphs and steal all their ice cream cuz their power was out too.

nothing much.. i'm supposed to be reading for and writing a paper. i told Kristen i was going to start tonight. haha.. and then we both laughed. i'm supposed to prove her wrong.. but i don't feel the pressure to finish, thus i don't feel a need to have to do it. i'm SO weird. i have a million papers to write.. and my car is acting up. my check engine light came on.. and i don't know what to do. the nissan dealership said they'd charge me a $75 assessment fee to LOOK at my car.. what the heck. so i think i might just go back this weekend and get my car dealt with by my parents. we'll see. we were supposed to have a party at Jill's.. but I don't know how that's going to work out. i also wanted to audition for the performing arts school. i found out it's in chinatown.. and that's a little far from Torrance. my dad and i got into a little argument because he didn't want me to do it. i don't know.. we'll see about that as well... i really want to do it.. but if i don't have a car and my parents don't want me to do it.. i'm gonna have to give up.. and that would kind of bum me out. *sigh*.. i'm just in a whatever/blah/apathetic state right now.. and it suits me just fine. i don't really care too much (hahah.. get it) and i dunno.. i guess it's better than being all stressed out. i flicked off my friend the other day when he said hi to me. i felt really bad.. it was just a reflex. oops. sorry Ryan! ummm.. yeah.. so maybe i should stop messing around and work on homework... two more days of classes.. and then a couple of papers and some reading.. and i'm home free.

wow.. this entire weekend was kind of a blur.. which i think the next two weeks will be like. but it's all chill. Friday I hung out with Angelee for a bit and then that night hung out with Ryan and his friends to Mike and Stan's party and then the Dance Team party. I think I slept at every other moment because I was so beat from not sleeping at all the nights before. There was a little bit on inebriated drama.. but it's all good. Saturday, went to St. Vincent de Paul to serve food to people. It was funny because the cooks kept trying to get us to sing karaoke on this little tv that they had. It was so funny because we were all like.. uhh.. aren't we supposed to be working. We finally broke down after serving lunch was over and sang some songs... hahah.. we are such nerds. Went over to Max and Blair's to hang out with them. Blair is transferring schools, sad.. so it was kind of like a farewell thing. :( That night we were supposed to go to the Kristen's Dance Show, but ended up eating sushi and just hanging out. But I did buy her a flower.. haha. Sunday, went to Miracle Mile of Quarters, we won first place in the Quarter Art.. yay. Went house hunting with Vivian... still homeless for next year, but hopefully that'll change soon. I HATE house hunting... it's so hard and I've never done it before in my life and it sucks a lot of butt. Anyways.. then went to Thomas and Adam's and their way over-crowded apartment for a chill-fest/Laker game party. His apartment was so packed it was hard to get around. Listened to everyone cheer and jeer and then had a dance party that moved to the pool. I'm sure we were so loud, but I guess peopel would understand, especially if they were watching the Laker game too. Then I went to go pick up Jill, hung out with her and Kristen for a bit and came home, did some CKI stuff and slept (ooh.. exciting huh?)

Today I've kind of been in a daze all day. I got to class on time for the first time in forever. :) yay me. Except in my COMT class that I made the video for.. she's showing the videos. And if that's not bad enough.. that people are watching this thing that I think sucks, everyone had to write feedback on these little slips.. and that's kind of fun because you can see what people think.. but then after your video YOU HAVE TO GET UP AND HELP COLLECT THE SLIPS!! Yikes.. like if my video sucked, I thought at least no one would know who made it, except for a couple of my friends in the class, and they already think I'm retarded.. so who cares right? But now I would have these random people in my class think I'm an absolute moron with no skills whatsoever? Greeeaaat. So anyways.. my group's video was 7th and I kept looking back at Kristen and we both had pained looks on our faces, and then we ran out of time.. so she postponed our video to first on Wednesday!!! Argh... oh well.. the video's done.. nothing I can do but hide. Had lunch and shopped with Angelee.. which was tons of fun. I bought my sis a shirt from Abercrombie.. but I didn't know if she'd want it. It had a dragon and 27 which are totally her things, but she got a little upset over the whole "two wongs" thing. And I told her about the shirt, and she said she couldn't wear it because the Chinese characters on the particular shirt I bought her was the name of a guy who was a traitor to Taiwan for China. Weird huh? That they would put something like that on a shirt.. like did they just not know and thought those letters looked cool? Or are they pro-China? I dunno.. some of those Abercrombie people aren't so bright maybe. That was a shocker. But at Abercrombie I ran into Taylor! It totally made my day and made me realize how much I miss him and miss hanging out and talking to him. Like I talk to him every now and then on the phone, but he's always so busy with work that I never get to hang out with him. And like since I talk to him every now and then I didn't think it was a big deal, but when I saw him today and talked to him, it was so fun (even though it was only a few minutes) and I really had missed talking to him. Like this is probably how Megan feels when she used to talk to Taylor all the time and now never ever does. Crazy... I never really knew what she felt like until now. But anyways.. I'll have to hang out with him more next year. So yeah... did the whole Circle K thing. It was the last meeting.. and it's sad to say.. but it's kind of a relief, but then I know I'm still going to be doing CKI stuff all summer, so it's not like since we're not having meetings anymore I'm not doing things. But I guess it'll be somewhat less stressful... I hope. I need to relax. The next two weeks seems kind of rough I have 4 papers to write, a website to finish and a final to take (which equals 10 weeks of reading to catch up on). yeah.. I know.. I suck. I'm a sorry lame ass slacker. And on top of all that, my car is being funny. The check engine light came on.. which may not be a big deal.. but I don't know that much about cars. And lately my car's been really hot, like unnormally hot, and as always the brakes squeak and the speedometer and odometer only work when they feel like it. *sigh.. my poor car.

Anyways.. I should probably cut the crap and be productive and either get to bed or clean my room .. it's messy as all hell. *two more weeks*

it's been a long few days.. and i should be sleeping.. and i will be in a couple minutes.. but i finished my video this morning. it took alllll night. but it's done.. so i don't care. hahaha.. anyways.. thanks mucho to vivian for bringing us roberto's at 4am.. what an awesome gal huh? (she was up already.. it's not like i woke her up.. don't think that i'm like super mean or anything). got done with that.. class, showering, kiwanis luncheon. i totally passed out for a good while and was dead to the world until angelee called threatening to pee on my porch. yay.. she came down, we chilled for a bit, talked, did stuff. but i'm tired as all hell since i haven't really slept.. ugh.. but i just wanted to congratulate myself on having my video done.. one final project done, 6 more to go. oh yeah...