so after doing those big posts about sundance and the weekend with pete i feel like blogging is so empty. they're short and i only blog about nothingness just based on sheer boredom at work. i can't blog about what i've done when i'm blogging daily because i simply don't do anything that interesting on a day to day basis that anyone cares to read about. not like you care to read about this other crap i type, but at least it's remotely more interesting than "woke up, late to work like always, surfed the internet, ate turkey burgers for lunch, typed stuff up, went to the bathroom, went home, took a nap, watched tv, fight with mom, sleep" yup.. i am rad. anyways, here's some more out of boredom productiveness.

so i decided to re-join bmg today. (so if you want to join let me know!) i wanted some new cd's, and i just can't bring myself to buy in the stores much anymore. even though sometimes you can get them for $9.99, and yea, that's pretty cheap, but you can also get a dvd for $9.99, so shouldn't it be cheaper? maybe i'm just a penny pincher, but unless i've really wanted a cd or there was a good reason i can't really buy them for more than like $6.99, so this is my solution. (i know you're like "stupid" but anyways) i went through my sister so she cold get some free cd's for the "recruiting" it kind of sucks because they're selection big, but still kinda limited, they don't have a lot of new cd's or lesser known artists... but i did eventually find 7 cd's to get (pick 7, buy 1, pick 5 more).. so not too bad. you pay shipping and handling so i got 7 cd's this morning (yup.. shopping at work) for $20. nice. especially because i need to drastically cut down costs i just paid off one credit card bill that was a few hundred, gave my mom a check for like $800 for holiday shopping expenses and i just got a third credit card bill for like four more hundred. i need to stop with the plastic.. but it's oh so easy! no more spending lots of money, stop buying crap i don't need, and stop eating out so much, gas i think is a factor too. since when did the cost of living get so high? and i live at home! if i had to pay rent and utilities i wouldn't be able to eat. but i guess that's why i do spend so much money, because i have it. i've always been that type when i have cash in my hand i can never save it, i always gotta use it on something. awful. but i blame the holidays and the giving season... no more presents.. sorry if your birthday is coming up! jk.

i was reading ryan's blogger and he was talking about our last waffles game. he said that another team member, phil, said he felt like vomiting after our first loss and how he felt the same... and i dunno. i feel really bad. i mean.. i felt bad that we lost, especially because i think a lot of it was my fault. but i didn't feel that awful, and i guess since phil used to play baseball it's even worse for him. they're a lot more competitive than i am, and i hate losing, but i also know it's for fun. i just feel so awful that they feel that badly.. i wish i could do something.. but i guess not. i want to say that we might win the next two games, but one's a large powerhouse team that i've seen kick everyone's ass. they said they'd let us win, but it's still not the same. it kind of makes you feel stupid when people just let you win because they feel sorry for you. we don't want your pity! (so make it look like you're trying really hard. :P) and the other brooklyn pizza team (who are also huge jerks) if we brought our best out there and they made a few errors, we may win. i dunno. i do get a little angry when i feel like no one really takes it seriously (you can be serious and have fun!), or that everyone's already given up. but then again what can i do? i do really want to win on our own merit, not just for myself, but for the team morale and all. we're like the bad news bears... but we never had our comeback :(