i could watch this kid all day long.

i know it's kind of weird, and kind of sad, because he's all embarassed now, and so it's almost like you're laughing at him.. and not with him. but it's not mean laughter... it's joy.. because it's so cute and amusing. and the song is very catchy. i know this video has probably been around the internet and back.. but i just caught with of this this weekend. so it's this kind lip syncing to this polish(?) song maybe. i'm not sure what language it's in, but he does this flailing dance in his chair, along with synchronized gestures and facial expressions. it's great. watch either the version with or without subtitles. but not he original version because then enter weird flashes of pictures. i don't like it.. it takes away from the dancing. he's awesome.

this weekend was good. last night i felt like i had a really good weekend and it seemed long, but this morning i realized it's way too short. last week thursday and friday i worked in a different department since i was covering for a girl who was on vacation. it's different, change of pace, change of scenery, change of tasks and people. it's almost like having a brand new job :P plus i got free lunch both days. hahah. friday night i met up with vivian and her bf josh for her belated birthday dinner. my food was okay. i didn't feel like cracking crab shells, so i had the crab cake sandwich, and it wasn't so yummy. but the really good chocolate cake made up for it. so i guess that's okay :P saturday was errands, napping and just a lot of resting. had dinner with kyle @ tgi friday's. i haven't been there in a while.. so it was really good.. if that makes any sense. it's a lot busier than i remember it being. when we left at like 10 or so people were still waiting to eat. crazy. sunday was work in the morning, napping in the middle and then off to my first work party!! yay.. i feel so grown up and everything. my hot date was sakura :) and it was really cute. they made a pseudo-red carpet and had strobe lights and sound fx of cameras going off.. so it was like you were walking up the aisle of paparazzi. it was cute. and then dinner was good and dessert was even better. and sitting in round table style.. like you were at an awards show.. with the cool decorations and big screen. it was fun. people from our company were nominated for visual fx for i, robot. peopel were antsy up to that point, and when the people came out on stage people were cheering and stuff. and when they announced i, robot the whole room cheered.. (as if it would make a difference right?) but it was infectuous cheering, and then sad when we lost. our ceo stood up and said "drinks on me!" and went towards the open bar. har har har.. it was funny though because the features execs were super duper nervous about the visual fx category. of course.. who wouldn't be right? but right before they announced there were all sitting there... probably holding their breath, and one had her head in her hands. and do you know what i thought of? stupid scrapbook awards and how nervous me and sakura used to get. and it wasn't for anything like an oscar, but we all act the same way. ahhaha.. and we're all pissed off the same when you don't win :P after that some people didn't care.. and lot of people just stood in the back and chatted and drank until the show was over, then there was a band and then a dj and dancing. it was fun.. and i had a few good conversations with people. it's kind of nice bonding outside of work (even though we're still.. at work i guess). but it's nice to be sociable. i wore one of nicole's dresses that's on permanent loan to me (she said i could have it.. i swear i didn't steal it) to the party and i got SO many compliments. i told them all that i stole it from a a friend and they told me to "keep it" and "good job." i probably shouldn't mention it because then nicole might want her dress back.. but i love it. haha. and apparently so did everyone else. tonight i'm going to a work party at nicole's. oh i feel so adult! work parties! :P

now for the obligatory pictures.

so i got this page from pete... a canadian couple was vacationing in thailand when the tsunami hit, and they were at the beach and were taking pictures. their camera was found, and they were able to pull the pictures off the memory card. so you can see the beach and the water. it's kind of sad, kind of scary, kind of... i don't know... i'm glad that the kids can find comfort in it somehow, because no matter what, it happened.. this way at least they can kind of share with their parents. it's weird.. when i was looking at the pictures, i feel like i expected them to be bigger, because i guess in the pictures they don't seem as huge, but just like waves up close.. but it's actually taken from really far away. but if you compare them to the other things in the picture, like the people and the boats.. you can see how big they are. it's sad, i wonder if they were standing there, knowing that they couldn't do anything else...so just taking pictures hoping that other people could know what happened. kind of like the people who made the last minute 9/11 calls. crazy :(

six more minutes... arrghhh..this has been the longest hour and a half ever!!

compounded by the fact that i am in some agonizing pain... i want my sweats and a bed. and they keep calling me to go in to work tonight. or at least that's what i'm assuming because i am avoiding their calls, so i don't actually know.

ohhhh... hurry hurry hurry.

so... i was FRRREAKING out about that ebay auction, almost had a few panic attacks, and was puzzled by nobody wanted the space mountain poster... well the auction ended (without anymore bids from me thank you very much) at $222.50. not as much as the skyway attraction, people mover or submarine ride - but those rides don't exist anymore, so i'm assuming that's why. but yea... i had a premature freak out, because i knew the disneyland crazies would come out and snatch it up... but i just imagined worst case scenario.. what if.

aww..posters.. you'll always be in my heart... and on my blog. but i can't have you in my home.. especially not for $200 or $300+ each...

this is also something i wanted.. i wonder what the end price was...for the space mountain letters. they were $355 last i looked, but that was also a few days ago. they started out at $25.. and i was totally going to bid on them too... i know.. awful. but i realized that i didn't really have anywhere to put them. see.. i'm trying to be good :)

so i feel really bad... i totally just ruined this guy's birthday surprise! and so you might be thinking "oh jean.. she can't keep secrets" but i didn't even know!! for everyone's birthday in my department the boss buys a cheesecake. and so i knew something was going on, and i took my lunch a little later than usual and i saw one guy from the department still walking around so i asked him "why aren't you at the birthday thing?" and he says "what birthday thing?" DOH... i realized that it was his birthday thing, and it was a surprise. damn. i tried to cover it up "oh wow, your eyes, are you wearing colored contacts. oh.. yea the birthday thing on friday.. how was the club? yea.. i don't think he bought it. and worse yet.. he couldn't just pretend he didn't know (out of pity for my shameless flustered unsmooth plan to salvage what was left) and act surprised, but he told my boss and everyone else there that he wasn't surprised because i had told him. i didn't "teeeelllll" him.. i just helped him figure it out.

argh.. i know it's not a huge deal, and it's not a "total" surprise because you almost expect it since they do it for everyone's birthday. but still... it sucks that i ruined it. boo. my boss said he'll just have to ruin by birthday.. haha.. what's fair is fair i guess :P

yikes.. there was this huge flash of lightning and then a even huger (is that even a word?) rumble of thunder... it was crazy. at least this time i saw the lighting so i wasn't as shocked by the thunder as last time.

have a safe drive home kids!! (actually..most of you are probably home already.. boo)

at least in my car i have my rubber tires to keep me grounded :) and i will be driving the ginormous minivan.

do you know that blink 182 broke up? or at least that's the rumor i heard on kroq.

and my friend kimmy sent me this funny email:
FRIENDSHIP PRAYER:
May the fleas of a thousand camels infest the crotch of the person who
screws up your day and may their arms be too short to scratch ... AMEN.

"you're happy you got outbid? whys that? you never wanna get out bid!"

sure.. usually that's the case. usually if you bid on something it's because you want that item and you want to pay that amount for it. but it wasn't the case this time... sure.. everyone asks me.. "why did you bid on it if you didn't want it?" it's not that i didn't want it.. i wanted it.. just not at that price.. and i bid on it because i thought it would be fun to be the first one.. or something like that.. "totally sure" that i was going to be outbid. pete told me that i need to check my "totally sure"-o-meter... when i started panicking when it had been 3 days and my bid still stood @ $150. FINALLY .. last night someone outbid me at $152.50.. which is where it's at now. thank goodness! there are similar posters that are going for $200-$300 and i wonder why the poster i bid on isn't going for more.. but at least i don't have to buy it anymore. :P

yay for 3 day weekends.. boo that it's over already. but i had a good time..so it's okay :) despite the rain i went out a decent amount and didn't really ever get caught up in the traffic accidents.. *knock on wood* they were always on the other side of the freeway or already behind me. friday i met up with some co-workers for a birthday dinner at koji's @ hollywood and highland. it was really really yummy, and i got sushi since i wasn't really feeling the shabu shabu. it's funny though because when kathy was visiting we were thinking about going there, but looked at the menu and i guess they had lunch specials later in the day and kathy was like "we'll probably come back when the specials are going on." but she was already going to leave by then and i was about to say "but kathy, you won't be here" haha, but then i realized that she just wanted to get out of there gracefully. but...i must say that it's really yummy so i'm kind of sad we didn't eat there that day. next time!! afterwards i didn't get to go to the 80's club with the co-workers, but trekked over to brea (and i do mean trekked!) to meet up with jenny, carol and sakura for pool, fun and dancing :) apparently they were waiting for me to drink.. so sakura, carol and i had a few..but it was fun. some guy asked sakura to dance and i got dragged out there too, and then there was this little really freaky asian guy and his friend that bump and grinded everyone and everything. hahah.. i thought he was scary, but in that crazy funny kind of way. it was a different "vibe" there and the music was very nostalgic of middle school and they even played paperboy. hahah..niice :P the drive home was okay.. there were some parts where it was raining REALLY hard, and there was a crazy accident on the other side of the freeway, and lots of lightning. it sucked that i had to drive by myself and know that carol and sakura were right in the car behind me. but at least i wasn't completely alone right? :P

saturday was dvd recording day at my sisters and lunch with beth @ my new favorite place california chicken cafe... yumm!! we also vegged on trader joe's chocolate volcano cakes and the ice cream aisle at ralphs. hahah. driving home in the rain yet again... lighting, hard rain...yikes. sunday my mom tricked me into going to her religious group's chinese new year festival. she asked if my friends would want to come help.. good thing they all couldn't come. i got there and it wasn't too bad until this jerk of a lady came up and was like "why don't you stand over there.... umm..so you're not in the way." ugh.. i was there first, hello!! last time i try to help my mom. haha.. so i just sat around, reading my newspaper, looking at the little booths, trying to find ways to amuse myself, and finally i resorted to sleeping in the car. until my dad called asking where i was because i was supposed to pick him up at the airport!! oh CRAP. lucky that my dad is not the type to hold grudges. he took a taxi home because he didn't want to have to wait for us, but i still wanted to get home because i was afraid he didn't have house keys. i don't know what he did, but he was inside the house so i didn't feel TOO bad. and he came bearing gifts :P heheh. he bought me this cute wooden cookie molder thing for cookies or chocolate or something that is in the shape of a peanut butter cup but has a chicken carving on top. he bought a dragon one for my sister, but thought she probably wouldn't want it, so now i have both. who wants to have another baking party!? haha. that night i had a hot date with sakura to see the wedding date. heheh... i know i know.. chick flick movie crap.. but whatever. it was based on a girly book that nicole had actually lent me.. but i didn't connect the plots until i saw "based on.." in the credits. i wasn't as pleased as when i saw hitch... and the development in the movie wasn't good, which made the movie sort of unbelievable.. BUT, the movie stopped showing in the middle for a few minutes, and went back on, but because of that sakura and i got a refund.. so hey.. not too bad right? :) i was scared a first though.. like what if there was a blackout and that's why the movie stopped.. but no such thing and we were safe :)

monday... beth and i went to disneyland.. yay!!! i totally would have stayed home, but beth wants to make her passport "worth it" so she decided we were going "no matter what" despite the rain, thunder, flash flood warnings and killer mudslides, we went to disneyland. beth forgot her umbrella in the car and joined the drones and bought a bright blue poncho. i think she really loves it. she especially loved her poncho when we went on the grizzly rapids ride... twice. i got soaked.. and it was already nighttime.. i don't know why i agreed to go on it twice, i guess i figured it was already raining and wet outside.. what did it matter right? like swim meets and what not. beth and i met up at hook's pointe with nicole and had the yummers creme brulee. so addicting. we also got suckered into the chocolate souffle, which was a little dissapointing, but at least we had the creme brulee to make up for it :P

today.. was a day.. yikes. a lot lately.. i've been seeing the sunshine while still raining, so at least i got greeted by a rainbow this morning. BUT.. my car wouldn't start. boo... it started..and kind of wigged out and then died. and then refused to start. maybe it was mad with all the madness from friday. so i asked my mom to use her beast of a minivan. she was hesitant, but just handed me the keys and told me to be careful. which is surprisiing.. because before she would absolutely refuse to let me touch her car. but i guess she knew it was important. or that i'm a great driver!! but i do feel bad that i dumped my car problems on my parents. my mom wanted to do stuff today, but she probably just wanted to fix it asap... so my dad took a few hours off to go back home and get it all checked out. boo for car problems, yay for my parents.

oh dammit. i've been trying to hide something, and i thought it was hidden really well. but i just found out a way that it could have been found, and i wonder if it's been found or am i safe. that's why it's not good to keep secrets.. but sometimes you just have to. the truth will set you free huh? or i wonder if it just causes more trouble. i guess not that it really matters or changes anything.. but it's scary not to know what exactly is protected and what's not.

oh HALLELUJAH... i got outbid. PHEW!!!

i guess all those wishes on time, tunnels and the cave of wonders helped :)

thank you thank you thank you.

i've got 13 minutes to write this post.. good thing i type fast. hopefully i can think as fast as i type :P

anyhoo.. it's been a good day.. it started out kind of dreary.. i felt pretty blah this morning. i changed into three different outfits and was dissatisfied with them all, but ended up with the first outfit i put on.. dumb. and i decided to take a different way to work thinking that it might be faster because it's certainly quicker getting home. i may have been faster.. i'm not quite sure.. but i didn't like that nervous feeling transferring from the 405 to the 105 and all the massive traffic... that was the most nervewracking.. oh and when sepulveda turned into lincoln. ack.

anyhoo.. today as ended being pretty good. i booked a ticket to go visit angelee after she moves into her phat (did i just spell it with a ph..??) townhouse :) and i got an email saying that me new ram for my computer has "arrived" yay :) not that my computer is slow, but in anticipation for final cut :) awesome! aaaand.. my mom was bugging me about benefits and junk because my "student" coverage is expiring or something because i guess that they figured out that i'm not legally a student anymore. so i called HR and found out what companies we use to see when and "if" i cross over to staff is it easier if i sign up for the same one. well.. i won't bore you with boring details.... BUT she informed me that i have already become staff YAY... i was like "really?" hahaha.. and she's like "your boss didn't tell you?" obviously not because i was surprised. haha.. but it was a nice surprise. :) so as of monday of last week i am "staff" hahah. i get can have direct deposit (ooOoO) and my benefits don't kick in until a little bit later.. but at least i know they are coming. yay i can finally get new glasses! :P AND.. i also get my holidays paid!! whoooo!! when i asked my boss about it he said that he had submitted it so that i could get this coming monday paid. AWESOME. i don't think i've ever not worked before and still got paid. sure it is a simple concept - but it's so "exciting" haha. so.. funny funny.. when i wrote in my blog and whined about becoming staff soon.. i was already staff. har har har. :P yay. :) and now if i take that day off to go play with angelee i may not feel so guilty about it.. i wonder how vacation and all that junk work :P (i know.. premature considering i just got it.. but think of it as "planning")

yaaaaaay... i feel almost worthwhile now :P almost like a "real grownup" hahah.

okay time to go and go to one of my other jobs (hah). adios!!

i hate that if i leave my house at 7:30am then i will get here around 8am. but if i leave my house at 7:40am or 7:36ish even, that i get here right before 8:30. seriously.. what the heck? i mean.. i "understand" why.. but i don't get it... in the sense that i don't want to understand.. because it shouldn't make sense... but it does. stupid.

last night i had to work and when i got home i was "planning" on going to bed right away. of course my plans to go to bed at a decent hour never pan out the way i want them to. my mom had me burn some of my sister's news and wedding dvd's for our relatives, and those take awhile.. finally at 1:30am i deciding to give up and continue them another day. i was so beat that i just went sleep. my mom woke me up later.. and i was SO tired.. but she kept yelling at me and i thought she wanted me to get out of bed and go to work. so finally i got out of bed and but then i realized she wanted me to take out my contacts. sure.. i know i know.. i'm supposed to take them out everyday. but i've started to become more and more lazy about it and sometime i just sleep with them in, which i'm not supposed to do because it dehydraes my eyes, and i could scratch my cornea (which i think i've done before) and some other awful stuff, but hell i do it anyways because it's one less thing to do in the morning. awful right? so my mom hoisted me out of bed at like 2:30am.. and i was SO cranky. i am so not a morning person.. or a wake up when i'm sleeping person. but waking up this morning was not much better.. i am ti-red.

i feel like i have to let a lot of little things go. that not everything is going to go my way, and i just have to suck it up and deal with it. but i don't want to become (or continue being) the person to who lets so much go that you end up being walked all over. i mean... what are little things and what are dealbreakers? or if there are too many little things too many times, does that equal on big thing to not be happy with? or does that count as one little thing that you can't control and just simply deal with? i don't want to be the kind of person that no one can deal with because i have to have everything my way. i also don't want to be constantly worrying about making other people happy, or constantly stressed out that i'm not doing everything how everyone else wants it. people want to hang out with other people that are "fun" but if you worry so much about "being fun" then it's not fun anymore. just like constantly trying to "be cool".. there's a point where you're trying to hard and you're so not it. my dad told me once that if i don't learn to forgive people then i'll be miserable. but does forgiveness equal forgetting, or does it just mean you're over it and you won't be that way again. i'm far too nostalgic and wussy at this point to just say "eff you" and just leave people in the dark.. sometimes i wish i could be that kind of person, and then sometimes i'm glad i'm not a fatty jerk.. but i hate feeling like such a sucker sometimes.

argggh.. i also hate how i don't have enough time in the day. i want to do too many things.. but they all pile on top of each other. my work wants me to work this "team israel vs. team mexico" game tonight which is "huge" or so they say. and that could be kind of exciting right? just like real life mighty ducks.. hehhe. but i have to go buy some stuff for my friend's bday and the place closes @ 9pm.. and i was supposed to buy it tonight to give to someone tomorrow.. but i'm trying to see if it can wait until later, but i was supposed to go to my sisters and record some dvd's for her.. and i'm also supposed to hang out with my mom and do some other junk and then.. arrrggh. i wish my work days weren't so long.. i can never get anything done. especially with time constraints of stores closing and gotta be there at whatever time.. blah blah blah.. and it's ridiculous that i get sad whenever i can't do "everything" i feel like i'm missing out or something .. when i have a million other things to do. lame. :P i do want to go to disneyland relatively soon.. can we go sometime? soon please? i'd go by myself, but that's kind of no fun. hmm.. what else do i want to do :P

so we get a lot of random calls here that "i'm not supposed to let through" at first i was kind of iffy, but now i just kind of whatever. i just got a call from a "very interested high profile important Brazilian investor" who was interested in the company. does that sound fake to me? kind of .. like one of those chain letters, but in actual real life. could it maybe have been true? maybe, but we get lots of faxes "sell us your company?!" i don't know... are these people really interested in selling? i don't think so.. but who knows. maybe this was "the guy" but at the same time i'm not supposed to let you in.. so... yea.

strange.

i'm tired... i just really want to sleep right now. it's another day where i wish i had 2 more hours instead of 4 (isn't that everyday?)

i spent a little bit of stalking.. not for cute boys, but just random people. it's interesting to read other people's blogs that you kind of know, but not really... and then you feel like you know them so well... but you hardly or may not even talk to them at all, they may not even know you exist, but yet you know all about them. it almost makes them a celebrity of some sort, but they're not, so it's weird. before i was really good friends with nicole i still used to read her blog all the time (i've told her this before, so hopefully she won't get too freaked out by it) so i felt like i "knew" her before i really knew her. hahah. i think the same with pete too. when he was the exaulted trustee we used to stalk him on his page.. and then we realized he could track who was looking at his site and i figured i might as well fess up and start talking to him. maybe that's something i should be regretting :P jk.

it's also weird because when you read stuff of people's you assume you know what they're talking about, or who they're writing to, and it could be a totally different situation. stuff gets totally misconstrued in print, especially when you're trying to be all sly and vague. or, sometimes it's painfully obvious what stuff is about, but you think you're being all sly and no one can figure it out... but oh.. people can. i dunno.. i was just reading a lot of different people's stuff.. and sometimes i wonder who's reading mine. obviously the people who are leaving comments or say to me "so in your blog" blah blah blah whatever.. but yea.. it's weird because you would think "why would you read blogs of people you don't know" maybe you know them, but not too well, or you know of them.. it's interesting though.

i also think that it's funny that all lot of people whine or complain (myself included i realize) about a lot of stuff, but i wonder if they really mean it. or do they just say it because they can, because they can whine without anyone saying anything. people write about their unhappiness in their life, how they're lonely, how no one cares for them, what they wish other people would do, or what things would happen. and you think people are so together, but then they write about how miserable their life is. you almost don't believe it. or you know that people write about how great their life is, but really it's just a big waste of space.

they had this thing on kevin & bean once about weblogs and why people have them... and i dont' quite remember people's answer, but i always wonder if i were to call up what would i say. because i want to keep in touch with my friends? because i like having an audience? because i like being able to complain without someone talking back? because it gives me something to do at work? because i talk a lot and this is just one more place that i can do it? because all of my friends do? because it makes me feel special? and then when people leave comments is that like having an actual conversation?

i don't know where this is going aymore... i'm just rambling.. that is also another freedom my blogger allows me. :)

three and a half hours to go.....

i just bought tickets to the teeny bopperest concert EVER. i know i know.. i totally got suckered in. i was watching one tree hill (yes..i know), and they had all the acts singing on the show (which basically is just a hour long commercial for this tour) and i was like "wow, i really like all of them" and afterwards they had a commercial to "follow the tour LIVE!!!" so.. like the teeny bopper sucker i am i immediately went to go check if there were tickets and crossing my fingers hoping they weren't sold out. they're playing at the wiltern, which i immediately confused with the troubador or roxy or something smaller.. but i remembered that the wiltern is friggin huge..and it will be filled with 13 year old girls screaming. argh. but i have come to like tyler hilton, gavin degraw and i've always liked michelle branch... and what i saw on the show was really good.. so here's to hoping!! i've been spending way too much money on concerts.. :P

but despite my self-realization of lameness.. i am still kind of excited :)

i know i know... half you have disowned me already. sorry.

jean: there should be a valentine's equivalent of mistletoe
nicole: there is, chocolate, and you eat it ALL BY YOURSELF.

hahahahah..
happy valentine's day!!

you know.. i really am kind of okay with valentine's day. and i think because not only have i had 22 valentine's day by myself, i've never experienced that lovey dovey mushy crap on feb 14th, so there's nothing to miss. it's kind of like "whatever." although i did get a little bummed with all the flowers being delivered this morning to girls that weren't me, and valentine's day packages from home that i wasn't getting (despite the fact that i live at home.. but still). valentine's day balloons, balloons, heart shaped cookies, heart shaped cookies on sticks stuck in flower pots and arranged like flowers.. arggh!! to much!! it was mostly the flowers that i was like "aww... i want a delivery of flowers to come to me." who from.. i haven't the foggiest.. but yea. all the times i've been delivered flowers (like 2.. for my birthday, from my family).. i haven't been around, so i show up and flowers are there. which is great, but someday.. i will experience the excitement of receiving flowers - and it won't be a joke from some girlfriends :P i miss when you had your class list and you spent the week making your valentine's day mailbox, and everyone would pass out valentines, drop them in your mailbox and you'd have a party drinking punch, and little debbie cakes (one of the kids in my class's dad worked at little debbie, so every holiday we'd have those little cakes :P) and check out all your valentines. funny enough i'm pretty sure i still have some of them tucked away in my drawer somewhere. :)

but i have lots of love.. so i don't mind.. but presents are always nice :P i was going to make cookies or something or buy candy, but i was too lazy.. so oh well. my dad is out of town, so it's just me and my mom.. so we're each other's dates :P i was going to take her out, but i have a feeling we'll just be bumming it at home. yay for sweats! :)

this weekend was fun.. but definitely not long enough!! friday i said goodbye to my relatives and consequently missed the hockey game. oh well. i was going to go out to see a movie, but my mom pulled the whole "i'm lonely!! don't you want to hang out with me?!" oh geez. saturday i woke up late anticipating a fun lazy day, but i got asked to cover a shift at el gap-o. i am too much of a sucker to say no, so that's where i found myself. afterwards was in-n-out and the make-up movie from friday.. hitch!! beth and ryan made fun of me for wanting to see it (and/or the wedding date).. but really it was really good!! really funny!! i laughed so hard.. and it's not super cheesy or predictable, but really cute :) and funny. oh my gosh it was so funny! sunday i played catch up watching tv at my sister's house... jerry's mom is deaf!! oh my gosh. hahah.. he is so cute, and his mom is deaf, he's almost perfect!! i think that jen is totally going to pick him.. she's had the hots for him from day 1!

working at the gap is evil. i worked a four hour shift and then bought 2 items of clothing that probably equaled more than i made that shift. awful!! and SPEAKING of awful... i got a summary of my spendings from my credit card company.. i spent $12,000 last year! what do i have to spend $12,000 on?! why didn't i save it?! my high spending month was february.. weird huh. i thought christmas would be way higher. but $8,000 of it was on "retail".. basically stuff i DON'T NEED. and $2,000 on food, which is not as bad.. but still not good. seriously.. if i could have saved half of that.. i would be so much happier.. maybe :P i have shelves full of dvd's that i don't watch everyday.. i figure they'll come in handy when i have my own place and a nifty video library :P but still... $8,000 on clothes? electronics? media? seriously? take away my credit card!

happy birthday keri & norma!!
valentine's day babies :)

luc totally lied.. it only took me like 30 minutes to get home. there were no accidents on the 405 .. good thing i didn't listen to him :P

"that's too late!! you have to hurry and make your move.. before he finds a right handed woman who won't appreciate him and love him the way you will"

my boss bought me a mocha from the cafe across the street and now i'm kind of wired........ WHOO.

it is RAINY... and i have stopped keeping up with current events.. so i was totally surprised when it started sprinking last night. i woke up this morning and heard the torrential downpour and REALLY did not want to get out of bed. but i had to.. and the commute wasn't too horrific, but just wet. but retardedly i wore open toe shoes (because i don't really have any closed toe dressy shoes and i thought "it won't be too bad".. and really it hasn't.. just mildly annoying, especially when i step in puddles that i don't see.

last night i bummed around and got to sit in on the set of the commercial they were taping.. which was neat. it was cool to see and very "making the video" like.. so that was exciting. :) it's hard because it's a lot of repetition over and over again doing the shots .. but that's the life eh? but i did get to talk to this girl who had worked on the bachelorette!! she knows who won! and of course couldn't/wouldn't tell anyone because i'm sure she signed her life away with the secret. but she did tell us some stuff and she said that ben was such a sweetie in real life.. aww.. i want to meet him!!! he is my favorite.. i am sad that jen kicked him off.. and she said that she got to hang out with the guys a lot, plus got put up in her own place in new york. wow.. :P i talked to this guy that does lots of stuff and i gave him my info today and he said he'd call me if he had stuff that they need help with.. weekend shoots and stuff since i can't do any weekday stuff. hmmmm.. tons to think about.

so.. i'm just sitting here listening to my itunes... watching people walk by with cups of beer. it's a party!! whoo. speaking of which.. i got invited to my first work party :) yay, and there's another work function that is the same week, which you can invite friends and family to and they show what the company has done .. which is kind of cool because i haven't really seen the stuff either :) i'm gonna be the big dork who brings her parents.. haha.. and it's not even stuff i "did" haha.

grr.. i have misplaced two of my watches.. and my napoleon dynamite dvd.. GOSH. that sucks.

pete posted this really funny link to a guy who saw some really bad papers and then took them and wrote really mean comments all over them. it was AWESOME.. but the school's judicial board made him take them down and now he's in trouble.. which sucks.. because it was great. damn the man.

going to the airport tonight to drop off my aunt and cousin.. and then no more house guests.. in our lonely lonely house. just me and my mom. i will feel bad going out because then it's like i'm leaving her all alone.. but what can i do? i may go to the ucla vs. usc hockey game at my work tonight.. why? i don't know.. just to go.. it may be the closest thing to "real" college sports i can get because i will probably never go to a college football game. the rivalry will be exciting...although i won't really care who wins.. so it's kind of pointless. i wanted to go to the ucla vs. ucsd game.. but i missed it. boo. i hear there a tons of fights, and some even in the stands.. that i don't want to be a part of. :P

yay.. seven more minutes... but i gotta go to the bathroom and i can't go until i get off! but i also gotta race home.. grr.. it's the coffee.. cuz coffee's a diarretic. i learned that in BILD 12 at ucsd... human nutrition.. apparently sakura and i were in the same class.. but that was before we were friends, so we didn't know... small world huh? oh we also played tennis against each other in high school.. we didn't know each other either. they beat our ass... hey! we're a math and science school! riiigghht? okay.. WHAT?

shoot.. luc just told me that there is a fatty accident on the 405.. i gotta check sigalert.com.. i hope i can get home.. maaaaaaaan... friggin rain, friggin drivers, shiiiiiizzzz. time to go!! i'm outtie 5000. PEACE!

i just saw the cutest puppy... 1.5 lbs a few weeks old, pure chihuahua.. i think. i dunno.. but it was ADORABLE. i want one. nothing can beat penelope.. but, this dog comes close.

yay!!! i got my paycheck.. it still isn't a full paycheck because i got docked .25 hours for being late. gaiye... but it is still money and much needed :) i still haven't gotten my credit card bill that i charged my baby iMac too.. so i'm still waiting for the damage to be done to my account. i won't have a full paycheck until next pay period, but then it'll be minus a day again the period after that because of president's day. boo. please can i become "staff" soon?

so i feel kind of lame.. i was "stalking" on the internet... i mean.. researching this person that i had met.. with clues i knew through other people. he was a very cute boy that i had a brief conversation with. i thought he worked with me, but he was working with a client, so when i said "will you be here for awhile" he though i meant during that day, i meant.. for the rest of my life.. i mean.. a few weeks. i hope that the clients come back soon...and that i'm there when they do... we shall see. not like it matters, but i just like to stare :P

valentine's day is monday.. umm.. i'll be working, and then maybe sleeping.. hanging out with my mom. oh!! maybe i'll call up kimmy gibbler...she would be a good date... if she's not in class. i was thinking about baking cookies or cupcakes or something for people at my work.. but... i'm not sure. i didn't want to spend the time wrapping candy up that's for sure.. but i can't possibly bake enough for EVERYONE.. so.. we'll see how lazy i get this weekend. or maybe i'll bake em and eat em all. hahah.. love it. imagine me shoving my face full of cupcakes... who doesn't want that as a valentine?

yay.. tomorrow is friday. tomorrow is donut day. tomorrow kelly will be in town :)

it is FINALLY thursday... i have felt like it was thursday on monday and that it was friday for the past two days. i don't know why i'm so beat.. i mean.. it's not just because i sleep late, because it's more than a tiredness.. it's like a "man this week is long" but it had just started. maybe i'm all throw off my working some of the extra days. or maybe it's the entertaining houseguests/relatives thing. either way.. i am GLAD that tomorrow is friday and the weekend follows. i have almost nothing to do this weekend, and i wonder if it's better to keep it that way and just sleep the time away (but then you wonder where the weekend went) or go out and do fun stuff. i do however need to get to the gym.. i haven't been in quite awhile.. too many things to do. aside from the fact that i've figured out that once i get home, i only have 10 hours until i have to wake up for work again. it sounds like a lot, but if you factor in 6-8 hours for sleep, then i only have 2-4 to eat dinner, and do anything else... doesn't leave much time for anything. i'm not complaining.. but it definitely hard working long hours. and there's a gym next door to my work, except since i already have a membership, i can't join this one that i see eveyone going to on their lunch breaks/after work. somehow i feel left out or something... and it would be super convenient.. but it's not meant to be. i've tried waking up earlier to go before i work.. but that just isn't happening either. my bed is too comfortable.

been trying to entertain my relatives (when i'm not working) this week before they leave (today and tomorrow). went shopping and then took my uncle and cousin to krispy kreme to have them try the wonder that is melt in your mouth donuts. we got free samples, but they weren't hot off the tray, so they were sub-par. but i wanted to take them, because my cousin really likes donuts, and there's this donut place around the corner from their house (in taiwan) called "mr. donut" i think it's a japanese brand or something. but there is ALWAYS a long long line, and people wait 4+ hours to have donuts.. i guess like the intial krispy kreme madness. but also they apparently have 100 different kinds of donuts. really? who need 100?

tuesday was chinese new year's even dinner. the one thing about having relatives in town is that everything is more elaborate. we tend to go out to eat more, we do more things at home, and my mom definitely cooks more. so if they weren't here, especially with my dad leaving, we probably would have done nothing, but because there were here we had a HUGE dinner, hot pot, steak, crab - the works. last night my cousin (picky/bratty/antisocial) wanted to go to sizzler, and of course my mom obliged, so they went, i met them up after i got off work, fought traffic and crazy drivers to get there and then scarfed down as much food as i could in 40 minutes before i had to leave for work again. i had a salad plate and a real food plate and my uncle told me i should eat more and get my money's worth. hahah.. i was so uncomfortably full though i couldn't even try... not in the time frame i had either. i told them to eat a little more for me. although my cousin (older, not bratty, just shy) is amazing. he can pack away so much food, but yet he's so tall and lanky. he eats so much when he's out here, but he tells me that he loses weight. boo!! we went to costco and brought home like a bunch of hot dogs for everyone, i think he ate 4. last night he had the "big appetite combo" which was like steak, ribs, shrimp and a baked potato i think, plus 3 or 4 plates of food, and who knows what else after i left... he was still going strong. and it's not like he's all super athletic or anything either, he sits around and plays computer games all day. i think maybe he has his mom's metabolism or something. but i'm always amazed at how much he eats sometimes.

work last night was okay... but the refs were passing out penalties like candy. i think once they started calling them, they just had to keep doing it, to prove a point... even though some of the minor stuff sometimes other refs let go. but there were 21 penalties, 15 of them in the 3 period, and most of them all during stop time.. grrr. i was "racing" with the guy on the olympic rink to see who's games would finish first and i totally lost. sucks. oh well.. more money for me right? :)

they're still shooting the commercial here.. and i really want to go watch. i found out that one of the girls in it is chantal robson, wade robson's sister. i want to tell her that i love her brother. hahah.. i bet she hates that. :P

"i love the people at my work, they're all psychos!"
"gee, you're so pretty... it's a good thing you don't let it go to your head."

ten more minutes......... hurry hurry hurry. i am butt tired.. and i have work again tonight... maybe starbucks is in order for tonight. just wanted to say hello. :) :) :)

happy chinese new year!! :)

year of the rooster - yay..that's me!

*random fact: when i was on kidquiz in the sixth grade in 1993 (whoa 12 years ago!) one of the questions was about chinese new year and what the current year was... and i didn't get to answer the question (the snotty pompous kid from the other team buzzed in before me) i was SO mad at myself because it was "my" question. hahaha... i think i even laid my head down on the little podium table top thing. i'm glad they didn't show that on tv. haha

happy new year! :)

xlinhiex: so any more celebrity sightings?
xlinhiex: i cant believe u didnt snap a pic of JT!
jeanyah: i know!!!!
jeanyah: i'm totally kicking myself
jeanyah: but i was tooo nervous!
jeanyah: and i didn't want to just snap and picture as i was walking by
jeanyah: that's so rude yah know?!
xlinhiex: hahaha
xlinhiex: i woulda stopped him
xlinhiex: if anything.. he'll say no
xlinhiex: and you'll never see him again (unless ur really lucky(
xlinhiex: besides.. he'd never remember if u did see him again
xlinhiex: to be 'embarassed' that u asked once and he said no
jeanyah: haha
jeanyah: or he'd get angry and yell at me
jeanyah: and then i'd rant and rave about what an asshole JT was
jeanyah: yea.. but when i actually passed by him we were in the middle of the street yah know?
jeanyah: so.. either i stop him in the middle of the intersection (where there are cars waiting).. or i turn around and follow him down the street
jeanyah: how creepy are either of those things? hahah
jeanyah: dude.. what if you were sitting in the your car JT crossed the street in front of you
jeanyah: hahhahaha.. would you yell out your window? get out of your car?
xlinhiex: id holler at him
xlinhiex: sing some of his lines
jeanyah: hahah
xlinhiex: i'd tell him.. to move his body

this is a total pop post that everyone has probably seen already.. but i just felt i HAD to post it. :P

this is what having a boyfriend and being married does to you...



juuuust kidding. i mean.. i don't think she's picking her nose (upon closer zoom in inspection) i think she's scratching her eye.. but.. i did notice all her blemishes, plus the zit cream all over her face.. which sucks. i'm definitely not perfect, so i can't really criticize her, but i do try to not go out with stuff all my lotion/clearasil/sunblock/foundation rubbed in. and i hate how everyone's like "dang she's so fat!" really? i doubt it. just because she doesn't like this...



doesn't mean she's a heffer. besides.. who looks like the everyday without airbrushing. no one. i don't know.. why am i defending her? maybe i just feel bad for her.. haha. why is my blog all about JT and britney lately? i don't know. i almost bought the crossroads dvd for $5.99 at best buy yesterday... i haven't even seen the movie, and i heard it is trash, but it's just fun to own. hahah.

but she's got millions of dollars (and suing for more).. so who cares what she looks like and what people say about her.. haha. it's her prerogative :)

netflix vs. blockbuster....

so.. every week and and almost everyday.. i see the outgoing mail for our company and it's almost always flooded with netflix. those unmistakeable red envelopes. especially on monday mornings. but i was surfing the internet, and i'm sure it's been in the making for awhile.. but blockbuster online! their answer to netflix... AND it's cheaper.. $14.99.. plus they send you two free coupons each month for a free rental in-store.. (maybe they're counting on people's laziness to get free rentals but return them late?) but.. that seems like a great deal...

but what do i know.. i don't do either. i've thought about signing up.. but i haven't really had time to watch all the dvd's i own.. it'd probably be great the first week or two and then i'd just be wasting my money. maybe when i have my own place and free reign to just plop in front of the tv and veg.. but really .. how many movies can you watch all the time? i mean.. i guess a lot.. whatever.

anyways.. in the end i'm sure i'd just be wasting my money... BUT with blockbuster i'd be wasting 3 less bucks. pros? cons? i dunno.. we'll see who wins this battle.

ps.. this actor just came in for a commercial we're doing that was on the set of desperate housewives this morning and had a part.. that's pretty exciting :) :) well to me at least.. and my current obsession with that show :P although i still have that long standing dislike of teri hatcher. hahah.. oh dean cain.. why did your show have to be cancelled?

so... umm.... as if i didn't need another reminder as to how little friends i have, or how technologically savvy or uncaring my friends already are... i thought it was bad when i had 12 gmail invites that i couldn't give away for the life of me. granted i have two gmail accounts .. so it's a collective.. but 6 each and i couldn't even give them away. but now.. i have FIFTY... fifty EACH.. so.. i have ONE HUNDRED gmail invites to give away and no one to give them away to. anyone who really wanted one i'm sure already has one, and my friend who don't use gmail already have hotmail/yahoo whatever .. and don't really feel the need to switch to gmail - to save them the hassle of switching emails and having too many addresses to check.. blah blah blah. i get it.. i do.. but you're also talking to a girl who has 4 email addresses (and one forwarding address) that i check 3 of them constantly. i don't really get that much mail, but i signed up for the hotmail to use for the forwarding, and i've had the aol one for forever which is convenient because that's the email i had in high school so some people still email me there. and then i scrambled around for a gmail account and got two because petey so very nicely signed one up for me after i had already signed myself up for one. this is when everyone wanted one and nobody had invites.. opposite of now. and now that hotmail has upped their limit.. it's not really as big of a deal... so... i dunno. plus i figure everyone i know will probably have a kajillion invites as well (unless they are way more popular than i am) so anyone who would want a second, third, twelfth account could give themselves one. i remember when everyone wanted one and they were selling on ebay for like $20+ .. now they're only going for $0.06-$1 ... yea.. and not even being boughten. right..... have they started to let people sign up for it yet? or is the only way through invite still....

so.. who wants some gmail?

soo... eagles vs. the patriots huh? hahah.. riiiiight. i pretended to care... i watched the game with my uncle who claimed to be excited about it... but not in the crazy fan way. i don't know if he REALLY cared who won.. but he said he used to like the eagles, until they lost a lot .. so obviously not a true die hard fan. i was rooting for tom brady (and the patriots i guess) because he is good looking. hahah... but i spent half of the game ripping songs onto my computer to reload my ipod with. i set my tivo to channel 11 and then every half hour or so i would fast forward through the game, watch the commercials, and i guess watch when a team scored.... it seemed so much easier that way. :)

the weekend was okay, not too much excitement. friday just came home for dinner and had two existing plans, but was too tired for anything and just stayed home, watched tv and slept. it was nice. saturday i had to do more errands for my sister and then i was supposed to go take my uncle and cousin to dinner, but they were hungry before i got home, so my mom just decided to take them somewhere else. it was a little frustrating because i felt like it was just leaving me in the lurch. like i spent the day thinking that that's what my plans for the night were, and when i got home i had nothing to eat and no plans anymore. i was kind of fed up, so i stopped trying to make plans and entertain and just figured they were happy playing computer games and watching chinese dvds. so whatever. this girl called to ask me to cover her shift and i figured why not.. not like anything exciting was going on at home right?

sunday was a chill day - superbowl day.. whoo. hoo. :P although last night my aunt and other cousin came and my mom was freaking out about what they were going to eat (when they weren't hungry) where they were going to sleep (when i had already offered multiple solutions).. and she told me "oh they're kind of quiet.. so when they come you should greet your aunt and say hi.." right.. because that's going to help their anti-social awkwardness? anyways.. i'm being mean.. but i was super frustrated last night with the "family politics" and how you're supposed to be all nice and behave when relatives/company are around.. it's just... tiring sometimes.. especially with my mom and how demanding yet unappreciative she can be. i am glad that i had my sister's netflix: dodgeball to watch before i returned it because that gave me something to do and was super duper funny. i laughed so hard... my cousin told me it was going to be bad and not to watch it. haha.. what does he know... but i also think he doesn't like stupid humor like i do. i love it... :)

today..i think i am losing my mind.. maybe because i am frazzled or something. i tried to finalize one of the discs that my sister forgot to close (so she could play her recorded dvd on other machines) and either it froze or something, but i couldn't get it to finish for the life of me.. and then all sorts of other chaos. i tried to do it during my lunch so i could get home earlier because my mom wanted me to do some stuff for her .. but it seems wasted almost.. so now i have to go back and hopefully try and solve the problem and still get home in a timely manner. ugh.

little things are slipping past me and i don't like it.. at all.

today's funny: i saw a limo outside as i was crossing the street... and i wanted to run up.. "justin?!!!!! is that you??!!" oh man. i was thinking about celebrity sightings.. and i remember one summer when i was in middle school - i went with my middle school best friend to torrance high to go watch them tape 90210. it was pretty neat .. they didn't have a closed set or anything, and i saw most of the cast (except for my favorite luke perry.. i was crushed)... but jason preistly did walk by us once while we were sitting in some random hallway while accompanied by a few bodyguards and he was shaving (electric) before his scene. he looked down and smiled and was like "hey what's up" and i was like "hey" before i realized who it was. and then when i did i had a total meltdown and no words to speak. i think i may have sat there gaping for a while as i did the whole head turning thing watching him walk away. oh.. how i miss carefree summers. and i *heart* torrance. hahahha.

so i am totally a gawking 12 year old school girl..

so.. this is my "i love LA" story.

on my lunch break i figured i get some food and then try to go be a lookyloo where they're shooting the commercial. i went in for a few minutes while on my break and it was totally like "making the video" with the green screen and the cameras and the huge screens, trailers, wardrobe and craft services.. haah.. it was neat. anyways.. so i'm walking down the street and i see someone who's very shaved head looks familiar... and yes, yes it is.. it's justin timberlake. i'm wondering how i can stealthily take a picture, as i remember that i don't have a camera phone, but i do have my digital camera in my purse. can i stop him and ask to take his picture? should i just smile and keep on walking? should i ask him to sing me a song in the middle of the street? or should i just snap a picture and run away hoping he doesn't come beat me down. i also realize that we're going to cross the street at the exact same time, so i pass by him and two of his friends (i don't think bodyguards) and i was just looking at him, but trying to have it be in the friendly just want to say hi to a stranger kind of way, not the way that the screaming fan inside of me wanted to reach out, grab him, wrestle him to the ground and lick him (just kidding.) but he was looking away or at the ground.. probably trying not to make eye contact with me because he probably didn't want to encourage me. jerk.. haahh.. at least nick lachey said hi and how are you (even while he was on the phone) when i passed by him. whatever... it took all of me to not touch him.. like "accidentally" bump into him... or ask to take a picture, but i looked.. a lot. and although i tried to be smooth about it, i most definitely was not.. because as i reached the other side of the street this man says to me "that's good, don't let 'em know you're scared" and i tried to be all cool and i was like "what?" and the guy was like "i saw that look you gave him" and i just laughed said "yea" and just had the expression in my voice and on my face "duh.. because it's justin timberlake!!" i immediately called nicole to leave a hyperventilated squealing message (which is funny because she's the first person i called when i saw nick lachey) and text messaged all my other friends who i thought would be excited/care/not make too much fun of me.. and ate lunch while still jittery and excited about actually having a star sighting that i was uber excited about. i mean... i see directors at work, but it's kind of ... i don't get star struck, just intimidated. but that's also at work. i've never seen a star just out in the open.. except for that guy from the OC briefly.. but i don't really even watch the show, so no big deal right? it's just like "hey it's that guy!" if i could have snapped a picture it could have been in one of those US magazines.. "they're just like us! the cross the street!" i have seen my share of stars - more than others, but none that were this huge, and that i have seen in concert many many times. hahahah.. well only 3 (twice were *nsync)... so yea... on my way back to work (where i was hoping that i'd run into him again.. haha) kimmy called me and i told her why i sounded so happy and she properly squealed and gawked along with me. and then told me she saw jesse bradford at her gym.. hahah.. he's hot too. like i ever have a chance.. but it's nice to daydream.

i have to spend the rest of the afternoon in commercials because the girl over there isn't feeling well. with how crazy busy its been the past two days when i've been there for lunch, i'm just hoping i don't eff it up. although last time i spent the whole day over there it wasn't as busy.. although i did mess up and felt like a punk about it.

last night i had a hot date with nicole and sakura. it was awesome. what sucks is that because i get off so late, it's hard for me to do anything with anyone during the week... but my friends are nice and patient and starve themselves (or just eat anyways) for me to get off work, and then sakura and i fought the traffic on the 91east (what? traffic at 8pm?) but got there still by 8:30... so yay. we snuck into the restaurant before they closed at 9pm, ordered drinks, appetizers and yummy posh food and laughed and talked. i really needed it. we also had the "best creme brulee ever".. and it was good... but really.. isn't all creme brulee "the best?" i mean.. i guess not.. but everytime it tastes so damn good.

it's superbowl weekend ... ehhh... i'm rooting for the new england patriots because tom brady is hot. i should put up that poster i have of him. i wanted to put him on the bathroom door, but my mom was already complaining about the josh duhamel poster i have on my door and how it scares her at night.. hahah.. so i figured that's probably not the best idea. i may be watching the superbowl at home with my uncle because apparently he is a big superbowl fan... really i should try to take him out or something... get the full experience.. hmm. maybe vegas? i heard its madness over there for the superbowl :P

other than that my weekend looks pretty relaxing (which is good) no work sunday (at least that i know of) chillaxing.. cleaning, entertaining relatives or something. i may go clubbing with sakura, jenny and carol, but i'm not sure if i want to be where they're going.. hahah.. it's not "my scene" and apparently not sakura or carol's either, which is why they want me to go... misery loves company? i was supposed to hang out with this other girl, but she sucks at calling back.. and i question whether its me she doesn't want to call back, or she's just doesn't call anyone back... because that's what she tells me :P so i might just say fuggit and go out instead of waiting around for a phone call i'm never going to get. because you know.... a lot of people aren't about effort, and sometimes it's just so hard to be in a friendship that's all one sided. i mean.. sure the other person cares, but it's hard to always be the person making everything happen. a lot of times i get sick of it, and i don't want to be the one making the effort to see if anything happens. maybe it's petty and dumb, but it produces results i guess. you see who and what people are willing to try, and most times, what they aren't. i mean..when you get stuff like "well i figured when you wanted to talk to me, you'd call me.." that's bs.. if you don't make the effort with a person, whether they're mad at you or not, then you must not care enough to do anything about it. if you just give up and say "oh well" then that's exactly how strong your friendship is. how bad do you want it? because people who want stuff enough will go for it. and it's doesn't have to be a grand gesture, but just something to show you care.... to that other person, not just for you so you can justify it to yourself and say "well i tried".. no you didn't. whatever.. some people just "don't get it" and then wonder why you're mad. and then are mad at you or think you're crazy for being mad at them.. how is that a solution? but whatever... i'm just spouting nonsense. but it makes sense to me.. i know you all think i'm a raving fool now... so i'll get off the soapbox.

wait.. one more rant (hahaha..) oh shit..i forgot.. so you guys are spared... until next time....

pete is obliging me by entertaining me for my last hour at the ridiculously long day at work. tonight's entertainment provided is exchanging pictures of hot or trashy girls.. because as i have learned tonight those two don't necessarily mean the same thing.

TooMuchPete: Umm... trashy?
jeanyah: i thought boys liked that
jeanyah: hahah
jeanyah: because trashy doesnt' not necessarily equal hot.. or does it
TooMuchPete: Some do.
jeanyah: but not you?
jeanyah: Trashy is not hot.
jeanyah: aww... you're the best
TooMuchPete: Now.
TooMuchPete: There *is* a difference between slutty and trashy.
TooMuchPete: Slutty can be hot.
TooMuchPete: Trashy cannot.
TooMuchPete: I have a witness:
TooMuchPete: TooMuchPete: I need a witness... can a girl be slutty w/o being trashy?
whodamanny: yeah

consider yourselves educated.

pictures long over due.....

TAIWAN december 04

pictures from my grandfather's funeral setup


my dad and grandma walkin down the street :)


night market shopping :) look my dad and uncle are wearing the same (gap) shirts.. hahaha.



happy birthday to my mom!


pictures from bus rides and the mccafe


the cool bridge at the yummy restaurant


one handed photography of me and my sis. our favorite.

pete & annie @ highland grounds jan 04



missing san diego.

complete albums @ my imagestation

i'm grumpy.. lots of different reasons.. i just feel super blah.

the other day this purple plymouth car..that one that looks kind of like a hearst... the cooper? i forget what it's called.. but anyways.. this eyesore in front of me.. i'm waiting behind it on the offramp of the freeway and i see the passenger side door open.. and i thought they were going to spit or something.. because i always tend to catch those spitters.. but no.. even worse, she dumps out a paper plate with some scraps of food on it. eating breakfast in their car or something and then dumping out the garbage on the street! wtf!! it flops all over the street... and as you drive closer to the light, there's another street that merges with our lane, so this other car is trying to merge. this purple jerkface would let the car merge, drove in front of him and then parked in front of him while he proceeded to yell and flick him off through the window. really... is that necessary? he didn't even do anything wrong?

i hated this car instantly... people are such jerks sometimes.

does anyone know how drivetime traffic is at 7:30ish in the morning from santa monica to the 90 west taking the 405 south? or side streets.. or is traffic just shit everywhere? i'm trying to decide if staying at my sister's during the week would be better for me commute wise? (joan if you're reading this.. is that okay?! :) ) anyways.. so yea.. i am having some "trouble" getting here in the morning... any tips/advice/inside info is appreciated... or carpool buddies.. although the 405 north doesn't even really have a carpool lane north of the 105.. so what's the point?

blah blah blah.. "sure just leave earlier" that's the simple answer, that's the response i get from everyone.. like i'm an idiot and don't know that.. but apparently i don't.. because i have a problem with it. it's one of those things that you "know" you shouldn't do but you do it anyways.. like eat those really bad foods, call people you shouldn't be calling, and sleeping in when you know you should be out of bed.

happy february!!

yikes... there are times where it feels like time is going so slow. like.. a week ago when i went to annie & pete's show... seems like SO long ago.. but it seems like time has flown since my trip to taiwan, i can barely even remember it happened. anyways... it's february.. and this my 4th week at my new job. exciting exciting.. kind of. :P i'm still antsy about the whole "when am i going to be staff" bit... but all in due time i guess. i hope sooner rather than later. today my boss wanted to talk to me.. and i had all sorts of good and bad scenarios in my head.. but it turned out to be good. not "it" but good. :P

i've started to think more and more about moving out.. just so i can be closer to work.. because traffic is a bitch.. i hate it. i also hate that guilty feeling when i go out too much and not spending enough time that i feel that i am obliged to spend at home. but at the same time i might be too lonely at home by myself... since i'm not sure about the roomie thing. plus.. it might be nice to live alone. BUT.. who has the money to move out? certainly not me. well.. i have money, and i'd probably survive if i have to.. but just barely.. and i'd save probably no money.

i hate tax season for a different reason than most.. just because i get all my w-2's.. this year it's 4 from all the different jobs i had.. or maybe more are coming.. it seems like i should have more. but... the depressing part is that i open up my w-2's and see all the money that i have "supposedly" made during the year.. and i wonder where it has all gone. especially me with no real costs like car, food, rent, utilities.. etc etc... i wonder why i have none of the potential thousands of dollars i have earned. what is up with that my friends?

it is either my laziness or my new strategy.. is that i hold my paychecks.. and don't cash them so i can't spend them. then i deposit a bunch of them all together and it's like "wow!! i have so much money!!" but that's being because i'm losing accruing interest :P and really.. this isn't a plan.. just me being too lazy to go to a bank. those drive through atms across the street from school and my house in san diego spoiled me.

the end of last week was fun. hung out with sakura and did our "yay you got your first paycheck now take me out to dinner" ritual. funny though because she treated me last year.. and it took me a whole year later to make it happen. oh well.. we drank, ate good food and chatted. we got buzzed off of one drink (each).. how wussy of us.. maybe our stomachs were empty? but we had to sit in chili's and wait for it to wear off a bit. and i told her about the chili's waiter who me, beth and benji had one night... too bad we didn't get him again.. but i told him all his funny stories, so we'd giggle everytime he passed by. i wonder if he remembers us.. or if he just tells his sob stories to anyone who will listen to get more tips.

saturday i spent hanging out at my sister's putting shows onto dvd for her. it gives me the chance to watch most of the shows i watch anyways (plus cable) so.. it's not that big of a deal. it is a little time consuming because i have to go over there and it just seems to take longer when i'm watching a whole weeks worth of tv in one shot... but... technically it's time i would have spent watching tv during the week, just rescheduled. that night philly and lisa were in town for the ray lamontagne show... who i haven't heard myself but i've heard great things about him (that's for you pete.. check him out.. hahah) and so i was way excited to met up with them for dinner where we had the WEIRDEST waitress and crazy plate snatching bus boys. but the food was yummy, so i guess we'll just chalk it up to dinner entertainment. what was also entertaining was that i had some posters for philly in the backseat, but forgot i needed to seat 3 in the car, so philly someone managed to squeeze herself in the backseat with the posters to and from dinner.. but not without much hilarity. it was WINDY and cold that night though... so i didn't want to spend too much time outside. the wind almost chopped off my leg when it blew my car door shut. yikes. sunday was work pretty much all day. an added shift in the morning, a regular shortened shift in the afternoon and then another added shift at night. i am trying to make up for buying my computer and accessories, paying the red-light ticket, and all my other ridiculous expenditures.. i might help out with evals this weekend and next.. we shall see.

sunday after i came home from work i had to clean, but that left me with like 3 hrs of sleep.. so needless to say i was but tired. i came home and my dad, uncle and cousin had already gone out to eat without me (bastards!) so i just went upstairs and went to sleep. at 7:45pm.... crazy. slept until the next morning and went to work again. it all seems so routine.. i don't want to get stuck in a rut. so yea.. that's my life now..work and sleep. i don't know why i haven't quit the other jobs yet.. i don't want to. it's weird. i love and hate being so busy. because you know.. that i would be just sitting on my ass at home if i didn't have all those extra jobs to go to.. so at least i have a purpose.

next week is chinese new year :) year of the rooster.. that's me! haha.. does that mean i'll get extra money for it being my year? yea right. oh well..i rearranged my schedule to have the big chinese new year dinner with relatives, and maybe we will have a big blow out since my taiwan relatives are in town and it's a bigger deal to them. except that's the day my dad leaves for taiwan :( i am hoping that he will bring back lots of money meant for me back from my taiwan relatives.. since the cause is pretty much lost out here. oh well. that week i'm working on the night that the cute boy plays, and i'm hoping to "happen" to pass by him on my way to work.. coincidence right? hahah.. i'm a dork.. i know. or "so high school" as luc tells me. punk.

i was watching ebert & roepert on my sister's tivo last weekend and after hearing the good review that they gave my sister's movie i was excited to record it and send it to her. it made me happy because they said "the best movie of the show this week" but it made me sad because i think it was ebert said it was definitely oscar worthy... but it didn't get nominated. they were close - it was on the academy awards short list.. but didn't make the final cut. while born into brothels and super size me did.. and tupac resurrection... how much money can you make of a guy after he's dead... jeez! ehh.. i dunno.. it would have been really exciting if they got nominated... i wonder if i could have been my sister's plus one to the show.. that would have been THE BEST. in due time... but my company is nominated in a category for an oscar... i hope we win :) you should have seen everyone around here the day they were announced.. it's just like all those stories you hear about in the interviews, people calling each other in the early morning for congratulations, it was a big buzz.

i am also sad that my favoritest child star hot referree is no longer working at our rink. he freaking moved to idaho or something to work for the echl. damn you cost of living in LA. why couldn't he stay.. we could have been friends. damn he was hot. i was hoping he was just on a "break" and would come back when the season was over.. but no.. gone for good. :( maybe he'll be back later... i can only hope. i used to wish and hope that he'd be working the same games as me every week.. but i only got to work with him once or twice... boo... i bet all the girls in i-da-ho all over him. sluts :P

wow.. this was random and long. congrats to all the folks how got through it all :) it's like my tv watching habits.. instead of breaking it up into daily bits, i wait and make a big long one. :P man.. it's 4:40pm.. it needs to be 7pm already!! but it's funny.. i was telling someone that even though my hours are longer, and it never has seemed as long as it ever did at the temp job. that's a good sign right?

have a great day!!

oh and happy belated wishes to petey, erika, kimberly and ziad :)