i have to spend the rest of the afternoon in commercials because the girl over there isn't feeling well. with how crazy busy its been the past two days when i've been there for lunch, i'm just hoping i don't eff it up. although last time i spent the whole day over there it wasn't as busy.. although i did mess up and felt like a punk about it.

last night i had a hot date with nicole and sakura. it was awesome. what sucks is that because i get off so late, it's hard for me to do anything with anyone during the week... but my friends are nice and patient and starve themselves (or just eat anyways) for me to get off work, and then sakura and i fought the traffic on the 91east (what? traffic at 8pm?) but got there still by 8:30... so yay. we snuck into the restaurant before they closed at 9pm, ordered drinks, appetizers and yummy posh food and laughed and talked. i really needed it. we also had the "best creme brulee ever".. and it was good... but really.. isn't all creme brulee "the best?" i mean.. i guess not.. but everytime it tastes so damn good.

it's superbowl weekend ... ehhh... i'm rooting for the new england patriots because tom brady is hot. i should put up that poster i have of him. i wanted to put him on the bathroom door, but my mom was already complaining about the josh duhamel poster i have on my door and how it scares her at night.. hahah.. so i figured that's probably not the best idea. i may be watching the superbowl at home with my uncle because apparently he is a big superbowl fan... really i should try to take him out or something... get the full experience.. hmm. maybe vegas? i heard its madness over there for the superbowl :P

other than that my weekend looks pretty relaxing (which is good) no work sunday (at least that i know of) chillaxing.. cleaning, entertaining relatives or something. i may go clubbing with sakura, jenny and carol, but i'm not sure if i want to be where they're going.. hahah.. it's not "my scene" and apparently not sakura or carol's either, which is why they want me to go... misery loves company? i was supposed to hang out with this other girl, but she sucks at calling back.. and i question whether its me she doesn't want to call back, or she's just doesn't call anyone back... because that's what she tells me :P so i might just say fuggit and go out instead of waiting around for a phone call i'm never going to get. because you know.... a lot of people aren't about effort, and sometimes it's just so hard to be in a friendship that's all one sided. i mean.. sure the other person cares, but it's hard to always be the person making everything happen. a lot of times i get sick of it, and i don't want to be the one making the effort to see if anything happens. maybe it's petty and dumb, but it produces results i guess. you see who and what people are willing to try, and most times, what they aren't. i mean..when you get stuff like "well i figured when you wanted to talk to me, you'd call me.." that's bs.. if you don't make the effort with a person, whether they're mad at you or not, then you must not care enough to do anything about it. if you just give up and say "oh well" then that's exactly how strong your friendship is. how bad do you want it? because people who want stuff enough will go for it. and it's doesn't have to be a grand gesture, but just something to show you care.... to that other person, not just for you so you can justify it to yourself and say "well i tried".. no you didn't. whatever.. some people just "don't get it" and then wonder why you're mad. and then are mad at you or think you're crazy for being mad at them.. how is that a solution? but whatever... i'm just spouting nonsense. but it makes sense to me.. i know you all think i'm a raving fool now... so i'll get off the soapbox.

wait.. one more rant (hahaha..) oh shit..i forgot.. so you guys are spared... until next time....