"you're happy you got outbid? whys that? you never wanna get out bid!"

sure.. usually that's the case. usually if you bid on something it's because you want that item and you want to pay that amount for it. but it wasn't the case this time... sure.. everyone asks me.. "why did you bid on it if you didn't want it?" it's not that i didn't want it.. i wanted it.. just not at that price.. and i bid on it because i thought it would be fun to be the first one.. or something like that.. "totally sure" that i was going to be outbid. pete told me that i need to check my "totally sure"-o-meter... when i started panicking when it had been 3 days and my bid still stood @ $150. FINALLY .. last night someone outbid me at $152.50.. which is where it's at now. thank goodness! there are similar posters that are going for $200-$300 and i wonder why the poster i bid on isn't going for more.. but at least i don't have to buy it anymore. :P

yay for 3 day weekends.. boo that it's over already. but i had a good time..so it's okay :) despite the rain i went out a decent amount and didn't really ever get caught up in the traffic accidents.. *knock on wood* they were always on the other side of the freeway or already behind me. friday i met up with some co-workers for a birthday dinner at koji's @ hollywood and highland. it was really really yummy, and i got sushi since i wasn't really feeling the shabu shabu. it's funny though because when kathy was visiting we were thinking about going there, but looked at the menu and i guess they had lunch specials later in the day and kathy was like "we'll probably come back when the specials are going on." but she was already going to leave by then and i was about to say "but kathy, you won't be here" haha, but then i realized that she just wanted to get out of there gracefully. but...i must say that it's really yummy so i'm kind of sad we didn't eat there that day. next time!! afterwards i didn't get to go to the 80's club with the co-workers, but trekked over to brea (and i do mean trekked!) to meet up with jenny, carol and sakura for pool, fun and dancing :) apparently they were waiting for me to drink.. so sakura, carol and i had a few..but it was fun. some guy asked sakura to dance and i got dragged out there too, and then there was this little really freaky asian guy and his friend that bump and grinded everyone and everything. hahah.. i thought he was scary, but in that crazy funny kind of way. it was a different "vibe" there and the music was very nostalgic of middle school and they even played paperboy. hahah..niice :P the drive home was okay.. there were some parts where it was raining REALLY hard, and there was a crazy accident on the other side of the freeway, and lots of lightning. it sucked that i had to drive by myself and know that carol and sakura were right in the car behind me. but at least i wasn't completely alone right? :P

saturday was dvd recording day at my sisters and lunch with beth @ my new favorite place california chicken cafe... yumm!! we also vegged on trader joe's chocolate volcano cakes and the ice cream aisle at ralphs. hahah. driving home in the rain yet again... lighting, hard rain...yikes. sunday my mom tricked me into going to her religious group's chinese new year festival. she asked if my friends would want to come help.. good thing they all couldn't come. i got there and it wasn't too bad until this jerk of a lady came up and was like "why don't you stand over there.... umm..so you're not in the way." ugh.. i was there first, hello!! last time i try to help my mom. haha.. so i just sat around, reading my newspaper, looking at the little booths, trying to find ways to amuse myself, and finally i resorted to sleeping in the car. until my dad called asking where i was because i was supposed to pick him up at the airport!! oh CRAP. lucky that my dad is not the type to hold grudges. he took a taxi home because he didn't want to have to wait for us, but i still wanted to get home because i was afraid he didn't have house keys. i don't know what he did, but he was inside the house so i didn't feel TOO bad. and he came bearing gifts :P heheh. he bought me this cute wooden cookie molder thing for cookies or chocolate or something that is in the shape of a peanut butter cup but has a chicken carving on top. he bought a dragon one for my sister, but thought she probably wouldn't want it, so now i have both. who wants to have another baking party!? haha. that night i had a hot date with sakura to see the wedding date. heheh... i know i know.. chick flick movie crap.. but whatever. it was based on a girly book that nicole had actually lent me.. but i didn't connect the plots until i saw "based on.." in the credits. i wasn't as pleased as when i saw hitch... and the development in the movie wasn't good, which made the movie sort of unbelievable.. BUT, the movie stopped showing in the middle for a few minutes, and went back on, but because of that sakura and i got a refund.. so hey.. not too bad right? :) i was scared a first though.. like what if there was a blackout and that's why the movie stopped.. but no such thing and we were safe :)

monday... beth and i went to disneyland.. yay!!! i totally would have stayed home, but beth wants to make her passport "worth it" so she decided we were going "no matter what" despite the rain, thunder, flash flood warnings and killer mudslides, we went to disneyland. beth forgot her umbrella in the car and joined the drones and bought a bright blue poncho. i think she really loves it. she especially loved her poncho when we went on the grizzly rapids ride... twice. i got soaked.. and it was already nighttime.. i don't know why i agreed to go on it twice, i guess i figured it was already raining and wet outside.. what did it matter right? like swim meets and what not. beth and i met up at hook's pointe with nicole and had the yummers creme brulee. so addicting. we also got suckered into the chocolate souffle, which was a little dissapointing, but at least we had the creme brulee to make up for it :P

today.. was a day.. yikes. a lot lately.. i've been seeing the sunshine while still raining, so at least i got greeted by a rainbow this morning. BUT.. my car wouldn't start. boo... it started..and kind of wigged out and then died. and then refused to start. maybe it was mad with all the madness from friday. so i asked my mom to use her beast of a minivan. she was hesitant, but just handed me the keys and told me to be careful. which is surprisiing.. because before she would absolutely refuse to let me touch her car. but i guess she knew it was important. or that i'm a great driver!! but i do feel bad that i dumped my car problems on my parents. my mom wanted to do stuff today, but she probably just wanted to fix it asap... so my dad took a few hours off to go back home and get it all checked out. boo for car problems, yay for my parents.

oh dammit. i've been trying to hide something, and i thought it was hidden really well. but i just found out a way that it could have been found, and i wonder if it's been found or am i safe. that's why it's not good to keep secrets.. but sometimes you just have to. the truth will set you free huh? or i wonder if it just causes more trouble. i guess not that it really matters or changes anything.. but it's scary not to know what exactly is protected and what's not.