SO.BORED.
this is me... at work... :
i can't really complain, i'm getting paid to not really do anything.. hang out, blog, myspace, look up crap on the internet. whoo crap! it's really quiet though because so many people are on vacation. but i am not, and i am just sitting here. maybe since i have a new cube i could crawl under my desk and take a nap and less people would notice... but then i would be under my desk. ew. haha.
this week has been a week of meeting up with old friends. i guess that's how it is when people come home for the holidays. last night was middle school friends, tonight is high school friends. good times. maybe in a few years i'll meet up with old college friends, because right now we're not really keeping in touch much. some of them.. but not all. i'd post pictures, but i don't have the really recent ones and i'm a little too lazy right now. you'd think the boredom would want to give me something to do, but in turn it just makes me tired and lazy. hahah.. i've been watching a lot of days :) but only the carrie/austin/sami/lucas storyline. i fast forward through everything else (i <3 tivo) but yet still manage to keep up on what's going on because it's so slow! and you just can tell by facial expressions. haha. austin=hot, but they're all still so dumb. i can't believe they talk to sami, or drag their feet on telling they like each other.. stupid stupid stupid. so frustrating!! but i'm still so addicted! i've also been playing mario party 7 .. whoo!! not a whole lot.. but i did stay up until 1am on tuesday morning playing it.. so fun. :) - but that was only my second time.. and i haven't played since then, so i'm not totally hooked... yet.
ooh yay.. i might have lunch with my mom and j^3 (the nickname for joan, jeff & jake... lazyness sets in and that family is reduced to a symbol.. like prince). hahah. that'll keep me from falling asleep... i did bring lunch though.. leftovers from dinner last night at el pollo inka... yuuuuum..
i'm going to sundance :) i booked the hotel and flight and car yesterday. yay!! i thought the plans were going to fall through, but they didn't.. :) if i can get a few more of my friends to come along with it'll be SO fun.. hopefully they'll say yes!! i realized that it's only in a few weeks too.. crazyness!!
anyone have good plans for new years? umm.. i mean.. good plans that i can crash? haahah. i'm not that great at planning good outings.. sometimes they come together, but a lot of the time with big holidays everyone has their own idea of what they want so it's hard to get everyone together. birthdays are easy because you plan what you want and everyone has to go along with it because you say so.. haha.. i might just end up babysitting so other people can go out and party. is that lame? hahah...
yay! going out to lunch.. indian food? i hope i like it.. i usually don't.. the spices are too different for me..
today's lunch: http://shershahcuisineofindia.com/
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
up late again. working on captioning pictures cuz now i can't do it at work! at least not this week when i'm training.
so i think i need to cut back on the sarcasm, because either i'm too good at it, too bad at it, or people just don't get me. apparently there are certain people who think i have a HUGE attitude problem because they can't tell when i'm serious and when i'm not. assuming the whole time i'm serious (am i ever? jk) i say a lot of really mean things. things that i think it's obvious that i'm joking... what kind of person says those things in person? either someone really blunt, or someone with a big problem. supposedly that someone equals me. right. apparently i am someone that needs to put other people down to make myself feel better. thanks for the memo. so i'll TRY to be "nicer" .. which i think is ridiculous because i am TOO nice sometimes.. and i usually only joke around with people i really like, apparently they don't like me back. maybe i should just talk less total... don't say anything at all.
but.. so i need to try and watch myself. not be sarcastic, especially around people who don't "know" me.. my very incorrect assumption is that people "get me" but i guess not. or i will follow every sarcastic phrase with "that was a joke"... how suave is that?
seriously.. people suck sometimes... maybe a lot of the time.
that was not a joke.
so i think i need to cut back on the sarcasm, because either i'm too good at it, too bad at it, or people just don't get me. apparently there are certain people who think i have a HUGE attitude problem because they can't tell when i'm serious and when i'm not. assuming the whole time i'm serious (am i ever? jk) i say a lot of really mean things. things that i think it's obvious that i'm joking... what kind of person says those things in person? either someone really blunt, or someone with a big problem. supposedly that someone equals me. right. apparently i am someone that needs to put other people down to make myself feel better. thanks for the memo. so i'll TRY to be "nicer" .. which i think is ridiculous because i am TOO nice sometimes.. and i usually only joke around with people i really like, apparently they don't like me back. maybe i should just talk less total... don't say anything at all.
but.. so i need to try and watch myself. not be sarcastic, especially around people who don't "know" me.. my very incorrect assumption is that people "get me" but i guess not. or i will follow every sarcastic phrase with "that was a joke"... how suave is that?
seriously.. people suck sometimes... maybe a lot of the time.
that was not a joke.
Monday, December 12, 2005
i really should be sleeping, but i'm not. hmm. how many posts have i started out writing that? too many probably.
i start my new job tomorrow. it's new, but yet i'm going to the same place, so it seems not new. does that seem weird? i don't even have a different parking space, well not this week. but i do get to go in at 9am instead of 8:30... does the 30 minutes make that huge of a difference? apparently so because i am staying up late because of it :P i also blame the 2 hour nap i took while i was at home. hopefully it'll add up the the next few hours of sleep i get and when i wake up i will be okay. it's weird to think that i won't have forever to the just surf the internet, blog, chat and myspace it up while at work. i mean.. granted a lot of people do anyways, but for me it was a given, because really i was just supposed to sit and wait for the phone to ring, or someone to walk through the door. granted i did other things, but most days ... well you get it. i have this plan i want to enact that probably takes lot of internet research, and i just had this dilemma that i wouldn't be able to do it tomorrow... hahaha.
i have a little hesitation calling this job a "promotion." only because it's not like they called me in and said they were giving me this new job. it was a process where i had to "apply".. and it was because it was vacated. but i guess in the real world higher title + pay raise = promotion no matter what the circumstances :P so i guess that's what it is.. but i still like to say "new job," but that does sound weird to me to.
i've been listening to a lot of cover songs lately.. well the two on my computer... on repeat :P a kelly clarkson - since u been gone cover by h's between vowels (a band discovered on myspace with former members of ozma in it..) and a coldplay cover of yellow by petra haden and bill frisell as featured on the OC. i really really like them.. granted.. i like the songs in original form... but they're very soothing for me. weird huh.
speaking of the OC.. i know you probably didn't think i watched it, but i have started to get into to it more and more. i blame mana and my sister. not so much my sister because even when she made me record those dvd's for her, i got into it a little, but still kicked the habit. but i watched the OC a little because mana was talking about it, and now i'm a little hooked... i want to know what happens with johnny and marissa, and i really like summer. okay okay. i'll stop gushing.. but having it on tivo helps because i can watch it when there's nothing better to do. it's not a religious thursday night ritual, so i'm not that far gone yet. another show i have been obsessed with lately is days of our lives. !!! hahah.. i haven't watched for awhile and a lot of things changed, BUT they brought back austin and THEN brought back carrie. MY FAVORITE PEOPLE EVAR. i know i sound really lame right now, but they were my favorites, they're the perfect couple, the reason why i will forever hate alison sweeney no matter what. it doesn't hurt that austin is like the hottest ever (even when he was in that Ross commercial... hahahha). i remember when me and angelee would sit on the phone together and just watch days of our lives. silent during the show with the occasional scream or gasp here and there, and the gab during commercials. when we were away at college sometimes i would tape the show and send it to her when she wasn't able to catch it. and i remember when austin accidentally hit sami with his car i was so deliriously happy i think i rewound and watched that moment 3 or 4 times. evil huh? that's how much we hate sami. but anyways.. it's slow and dragging and i love tivo for this reason as well. i fast forward through all the other story lines and just watch the austin/nicole/sami/carrie/lucas story line. funny enough even with the fast forwarding i can still comprehend the other story lines because it moves that slow. i haven't been keeping up on my passions though - i wonder what's going on with ethan/gwen/theresa? that was always my favorite storyline there.
i told myself i'd go to bed by 2am.. but now it's 2:07.. i should probably go. wish me luck in my first day... this week i will be training and hopefully i'll "get it" luckily, even though this girl is leaving, the girl who was in the position before her is still there so she will be getting a lot of my phone calls. hahaha. good thing she's also my friend.. she'll be getting a nice christmas present. haha.
i watched the chronicles of narnia today with my dad. funny.. he had been talking about it for weeks, and so i thought he really wanted to see it. my mom's not much of a movie person, so i have to be my dad's movie date or else i think he doesn't really watch many movies. which is fine because i don't really go out that much either. but it's funny because i think my dad bases how good movies will be based on how they do on the "hollywood stock exchange" (hsx.com) it's this thing my sister got us into awhile back where movies and actors are a stock and you can buy/trade etc etc and they make money. it's fake and fun and i stopped keeping up with it a LONG time ago, but my dad is still going strong. he told me that the narnia stock went up $20 today. haha... he never read the books though, that's why i wanted to see it. initially i wasn't interested, but i slowly came around. i think it was pretty good, definitely not a "kid's" movie, but young adult.. that's how the book is anyways right? my parents are also very funny in missing the "point" of movies. my dad was saying something like "see they should tell kids not to go hang out with strangers" when lucy first goes off with mr. thomas. and then after the movie was over my dad was like "this movie is not good because it teaches kids to run off, and also to fight" hahaha.. maybe not like that verbatim.. but that was his point. i said that they had to fulfill the prophecy and their fate, and he was just like "eh". hahahah.. next weekend i think we have a date to see aeon flux :) smiley face because that's the movie my company worked on.. yay!! i've heard conflicting things about the movie, and not like we make more money based on how the movie did, but i'm still interested. i'm sure my dad just wants to go to see charlize in a tight suit :P but it'll be cool to see my co-workers names in the credits. i saw a few people i know who worked on narnia's names in the credits... exciting :P
i want to do something really fun for new years. like a "go big or go home" kind of fun. haha.. any ideas? i have one, but i don't know how it's going to pan out. especially because i don't know what a lot of my friends are doing, two friends are leaving on a big trip the next day - may not be up for partying, one may have to be working, others may already have plans of their own. last new years i hung out with a couple and basically watched them (and everyone else) make out all night. that was fun.... not. :P anyways.. maybe it'll just be me and dick clark rockin it (does he even still do it?) i dunno.. i've been kind of out of the "really fun things to do" ideas. 2006 might be spent ringing it in with my family.. which isn't a bad thing.. but usually means my mom downstairs watching tv, my dad on the computer, my cousin in his room across the hall (although he may be out with his friends.. more exciting plans than me.. haha) and me in my room and my 13" tv. awesome huh? someone save me.
2:14 time for sleep.. if i sleep until 8am (absolute latest i can..) i can still get almost 6hrs of sleep :)
look at the stars, look how they shine for you
i start my new job tomorrow. it's new, but yet i'm going to the same place, so it seems not new. does that seem weird? i don't even have a different parking space, well not this week. but i do get to go in at 9am instead of 8:30... does the 30 minutes make that huge of a difference? apparently so because i am staying up late because of it :P i also blame the 2 hour nap i took while i was at home. hopefully it'll add up the the next few hours of sleep i get and when i wake up i will be okay. it's weird to think that i won't have forever to the just surf the internet, blog, chat and myspace it up while at work. i mean.. granted a lot of people do anyways, but for me it was a given, because really i was just supposed to sit and wait for the phone to ring, or someone to walk through the door. granted i did other things, but most days ... well you get it. i have this plan i want to enact that probably takes lot of internet research, and i just had this dilemma that i wouldn't be able to do it tomorrow... hahaha.
i have a little hesitation calling this job a "promotion." only because it's not like they called me in and said they were giving me this new job. it was a process where i had to "apply".. and it was because it was vacated. but i guess in the real world higher title + pay raise = promotion no matter what the circumstances :P so i guess that's what it is.. but i still like to say "new job," but that does sound weird to me to.
i've been listening to a lot of cover songs lately.. well the two on my computer... on repeat :P a kelly clarkson - since u been gone cover by h's between vowels (a band discovered on myspace with former members of ozma in it..) and a coldplay cover of yellow by petra haden and bill frisell as featured on the OC. i really really like them.. granted.. i like the songs in original form... but they're very soothing for me. weird huh.
speaking of the OC.. i know you probably didn't think i watched it, but i have started to get into to it more and more. i blame mana and my sister. not so much my sister because even when she made me record those dvd's for her, i got into it a little, but still kicked the habit. but i watched the OC a little because mana was talking about it, and now i'm a little hooked... i want to know what happens with johnny and marissa, and i really like summer. okay okay. i'll stop gushing.. but having it on tivo helps because i can watch it when there's nothing better to do. it's not a religious thursday night ritual, so i'm not that far gone yet. another show i have been obsessed with lately is days of our lives. !!! hahah.. i haven't watched for awhile and a lot of things changed, BUT they brought back austin and THEN brought back carrie. MY FAVORITE PEOPLE EVAR. i know i sound really lame right now, but they were my favorites, they're the perfect couple, the reason why i will forever hate alison sweeney no matter what. it doesn't hurt that austin is like the hottest ever (even when he was in that Ross commercial... hahahha). i remember when me and angelee would sit on the phone together and just watch days of our lives. silent during the show with the occasional scream or gasp here and there, and the gab during commercials. when we were away at college sometimes i would tape the show and send it to her when she wasn't able to catch it. and i remember when austin accidentally hit sami with his car i was so deliriously happy i think i rewound and watched that moment 3 or 4 times. evil huh? that's how much we hate sami. but anyways.. it's slow and dragging and i love tivo for this reason as well. i fast forward through all the other story lines and just watch the austin/nicole/sami/carrie/lucas story line. funny enough even with the fast forwarding i can still comprehend the other story lines because it moves that slow. i haven't been keeping up on my passions though - i wonder what's going on with ethan/gwen/theresa? that was always my favorite storyline there.
i told myself i'd go to bed by 2am.. but now it's 2:07.. i should probably go. wish me luck in my first day... this week i will be training and hopefully i'll "get it" luckily, even though this girl is leaving, the girl who was in the position before her is still there so she will be getting a lot of my phone calls. hahaha. good thing she's also my friend.. she'll be getting a nice christmas present. haha.
i watched the chronicles of narnia today with my dad. funny.. he had been talking about it for weeks, and so i thought he really wanted to see it. my mom's not much of a movie person, so i have to be my dad's movie date or else i think he doesn't really watch many movies. which is fine because i don't really go out that much either. but it's funny because i think my dad bases how good movies will be based on how they do on the "hollywood stock exchange" (hsx.com) it's this thing my sister got us into awhile back where movies and actors are a stock and you can buy/trade etc etc and they make money. it's fake and fun and i stopped keeping up with it a LONG time ago, but my dad is still going strong. he told me that the narnia stock went up $20 today. haha... he never read the books though, that's why i wanted to see it. initially i wasn't interested, but i slowly came around. i think it was pretty good, definitely not a "kid's" movie, but young adult.. that's how the book is anyways right? my parents are also very funny in missing the "point" of movies. my dad was saying something like "see they should tell kids not to go hang out with strangers" when lucy first goes off with mr. thomas. and then after the movie was over my dad was like "this movie is not good because it teaches kids to run off, and also to fight" hahaha.. maybe not like that verbatim.. but that was his point. i said that they had to fulfill the prophecy and their fate, and he was just like "eh". hahahah.. next weekend i think we have a date to see aeon flux :) smiley face because that's the movie my company worked on.. yay!! i've heard conflicting things about the movie, and not like we make more money based on how the movie did, but i'm still interested. i'm sure my dad just wants to go to see charlize in a tight suit :P but it'll be cool to see my co-workers names in the credits. i saw a few people i know who worked on narnia's names in the credits... exciting :P
i want to do something really fun for new years. like a "go big or go home" kind of fun. haha.. any ideas? i have one, but i don't know how it's going to pan out. especially because i don't know what a lot of my friends are doing, two friends are leaving on a big trip the next day - may not be up for partying, one may have to be working, others may already have plans of their own. last new years i hung out with a couple and basically watched them (and everyone else) make out all night. that was fun.... not. :P anyways.. maybe it'll just be me and dick clark rockin it (does he even still do it?) i dunno.. i've been kind of out of the "really fun things to do" ideas. 2006 might be spent ringing it in with my family.. which isn't a bad thing.. but usually means my mom downstairs watching tv, my dad on the computer, my cousin in his room across the hall (although he may be out with his friends.. more exciting plans than me.. haha) and me in my room and my 13" tv. awesome huh? someone save me.
2:14 time for sleep.. if i sleep until 8am (absolute latest i can..) i can still get almost 6hrs of sleep :)
look at the stars, look how they shine for you
Friday, December 09, 2005
me: is this bill?
bill: yup..
me: there's a limo waiting outside for you
bill:
hahaha.. the funniest moment of today. so i have a new job. sort of a new job, new position, but same company. i'm excited, yet i'm scared. i was a little sad, but today i'm having one of those days where you are glad that you got out when you could. does that sound awful? i guess it's just the on-going thing of not feeling appreciated. i don't need a lot, i don't need big flashy signs or lots of "sugar words" (as my mom would call them), but there is a lot i do, and a lot i try hard to make things flow that aren't even supposed to be my job, but i want things to be better you know? maybe i try too hard or something and it's my fault, but i can't just sit back and do nothing, and when i watch people who do it frustrates me. maybe i have control issues.. who knows.. and then sometimes it makes me not want to do anything either, but i really do think in the end that maybe people aren't saying it to your face, but they do recognize the hard work you put it. so i'm glad that i feel like it's finally worth something. which is not the attitude i should have, because you shouldn't work hard only to be recognized, but some days i want to be vain... so there.
i start my new job on monday, so there are a lot of things to wrap up. it's a little hectic and a little busy, especially when i'm chained to my desk. bleh. i am scared that i won't do a good job, but before this year i was scared that i'd totally screw up my current job. it'll push me and i'll probably be learning a lot... so good times ahead right? i was a little wishy washy only because i had the whole "is this what i 'really' want to do?" conversation with myself. especially when i found out there were opportunities of things that i think that i "want" to do, and what i have is the "safe" choice. but.. what i "want" to do i have never actually done, so maybe i'll hate it, and maybe i'll like this new job all the same. plus, i'm still "young" so i can still move on to do what i "want" if i still want to do it. right? i've been at this point where i think the situation i have is the situation i'll be stuck in for the rest of my life, and that one year is SO long.. but in the grand scheme of life it's just one more step. but i know that what i'm going to be doing will be great. i'm just getting the whole cold feet thing.
since i will also be more financially able thoughts of moving out have also been entering my mind. my sister comes home soon, so me playing house will come to an end, yet she's also not staying for entirely too long, so there's the time i can just suck it up and live at home, or i can just be on my own for good. or so i think. saving money is nice though. but stupid misunderstandings turned not so great arguments make me think otherwise. sometimes i have these moments where i realize how little my family and friends know me, which sounds like a really awful statement. and there are things that they know about me.. but small little things that i wish someone would pick up on, but things don't go my way. maybe they do pick up on it and don't want to deal with me, but sometimes i need to be babied... maybe it goes along with the wanting to be vain. i know that's how "parents are" and i should become a better person and deal with it, but sometimes i just don't want to. is me being stubborn worth $1000/month?
6 more hours...
pay attention kids.. trust me.. it helps.
bill: yup..
me: there's a limo waiting outside for you
bill:
hahaha.. the funniest moment of today. so i have a new job. sort of a new job, new position, but same company. i'm excited, yet i'm scared. i was a little sad, but today i'm having one of those days where you are glad that you got out when you could. does that sound awful? i guess it's just the on-going thing of not feeling appreciated. i don't need a lot, i don't need big flashy signs or lots of "sugar words" (as my mom would call them), but there is a lot i do, and a lot i try hard to make things flow that aren't even supposed to be my job, but i want things to be better you know? maybe i try too hard or something and it's my fault, but i can't just sit back and do nothing, and when i watch people who do it frustrates me. maybe i have control issues.. who knows.. and then sometimes it makes me not want to do anything either, but i really do think in the end that maybe people aren't saying it to your face, but they do recognize the hard work you put it. so i'm glad that i feel like it's finally worth something. which is not the attitude i should have, because you shouldn't work hard only to be recognized, but some days i want to be vain... so there.
i start my new job on monday, so there are a lot of things to wrap up. it's a little hectic and a little busy, especially when i'm chained to my desk. bleh. i am scared that i won't do a good job, but before this year i was scared that i'd totally screw up my current job. it'll push me and i'll probably be learning a lot... so good times ahead right? i was a little wishy washy only because i had the whole "is this what i 'really' want to do?" conversation with myself. especially when i found out there were opportunities of things that i think that i "want" to do, and what i have is the "safe" choice. but.. what i "want" to do i have never actually done, so maybe i'll hate it, and maybe i'll like this new job all the same. plus, i'm still "young" so i can still move on to do what i "want" if i still want to do it. right? i've been at this point where i think the situation i have is the situation i'll be stuck in for the rest of my life, and that one year is SO long.. but in the grand scheme of life it's just one more step. but i know that what i'm going to be doing will be great. i'm just getting the whole cold feet thing.
since i will also be more financially able thoughts of moving out have also been entering my mind. my sister comes home soon, so me playing house will come to an end, yet she's also not staying for entirely too long, so there's the time i can just suck it up and live at home, or i can just be on my own for good. or so i think. saving money is nice though. but stupid misunderstandings turned not so great arguments make me think otherwise. sometimes i have these moments where i realize how little my family and friends know me, which sounds like a really awful statement. and there are things that they know about me.. but small little things that i wish someone would pick up on, but things don't go my way. maybe they do pick up on it and don't want to deal with me, but sometimes i need to be babied... maybe it goes along with the wanting to be vain. i know that's how "parents are" and i should become a better person and deal with it, but sometimes i just don't want to. is me being stubborn worth $1000/month?
6 more hours...
pay attention kids.. trust me.. it helps.
Friday, December 02, 2005
jean: i'm watching the biggest loser.. even though i'm supposed to be cleaning.
sakura: oh.. isn't it the guy with the long hair?
jean: ....
jean: umm.. I DON'T KNOW I HAVEN'T FINISHED WATCHING!
sakura: oh wait.. i don't really know.. um.. i mean..
jean: i've been watching for a hour and forty minutes.. and now...
sakura: i dunno.. but he was on all the magazines
jean: STOP!! just stop talking..
sakura: okay.
hahahha.. she was right by the way.
hey they're accepting applications.. maybe i should send in an audition tape. :P
argh.. procrastinating.. need to clean!
sakura: oh.. isn't it the guy with the long hair?
jean: ....
jean: umm.. I DON'T KNOW I HAVEN'T FINISHED WATCHING!
sakura: oh wait.. i don't really know.. um.. i mean..
jean: i've been watching for a hour and forty minutes.. and now...
sakura: i dunno.. but he was on all the magazines
jean: STOP!! just stop talking..
sakura: okay.
hahahha.. she was right by the way.
hey they're accepting applications.. maybe i should send in an audition tape. :P
argh.. procrastinating.. need to clean!
this post is for linh... she always tells me to update so that she has something to do at work. but i bet she didn't even see my post from yesterday. haha.
this morning.. i have been wasting time like no other. myspace mostly. it's so addicting, not even doing anything important, just stalking people as usual. it's a good early morning ritual. i have so much to do, but i haven't been keeping up. bad bad. if anything today should be the day where i am proactive and i get things done, but yea.. i don't think that's going to happen. well maybe.. i still have a good 8 hours of work left huh.
i thought i had a good post to write about.. but i don't.. all words are escaping me. my brain is not awake yet. maybe i'll go get a coffee.. but i said i was going to try to not drink as much coffee. i was good today though.. i stayed away from the donuts. by default. this guy said he was going to get me a donut, and i told him i wanted a chocolate french crueller. there were none of those, and instead he brought me a plain donut.. which i'm not a fan of.. so i guess it's "better" that way, and now i'm sitting here eating my nutrigrain bar (which i have been really really enjoying) and drinking my milk.
last night someone told me "that guy from alias" plays hockey at my work. well.. mr. vartan plays hockey (i don't really think any other guys do) so i freaked out when i thought it would be him. i've worked there for more than a year and have never even heard that before.. but apparently there a industry people all over the place and i never even know. maybe it's time to collect a few more hours there. do some investigating.
dammit.. why am i so boy crazy? i would say "when did i get this way" but i've always been like that... looking at attractive boys has always been a fun hobby. i guess it's better than being a whore huh? but i need to find more of a happy medium maybe.. or just take it as it comes.. i'm too tired to contemplate this right now.
i am totally babbling.. this entry is crap, but i'll post it anyways so i can remind myself how dumb i can be. sounds like a good idea eh? i wanted to post pictures.. but i've been to lazy to do that too. maybe i will now. but my anal side of me won't let me post anything until they're all captioned and organized, and that's the tedious part i can't get over yet. bleh.
yay it's friday. but it's still going to be a long day.
this morning.. i have been wasting time like no other. myspace mostly. it's so addicting, not even doing anything important, just stalking people as usual. it's a good early morning ritual. i have so much to do, but i haven't been keeping up. bad bad. if anything today should be the day where i am proactive and i get things done, but yea.. i don't think that's going to happen. well maybe.. i still have a good 8 hours of work left huh.
i thought i had a good post to write about.. but i don't.. all words are escaping me. my brain is not awake yet. maybe i'll go get a coffee.. but i said i was going to try to not drink as much coffee. i was good today though.. i stayed away from the donuts. by default. this guy said he was going to get me a donut, and i told him i wanted a chocolate french crueller. there were none of those, and instead he brought me a plain donut.. which i'm not a fan of.. so i guess it's "better" that way, and now i'm sitting here eating my nutrigrain bar (which i have been really really enjoying) and drinking my milk.
last night someone told me "that guy from alias" plays hockey at my work. well.. mr. vartan plays hockey (i don't really think any other guys do) so i freaked out when i thought it would be him. i've worked there for more than a year and have never even heard that before.. but apparently there a industry people all over the place and i never even know. maybe it's time to collect a few more hours there. do some investigating.
dammit.. why am i so boy crazy? i would say "when did i get this way" but i've always been like that... looking at attractive boys has always been a fun hobby. i guess it's better than being a whore huh? but i need to find more of a happy medium maybe.. or just take it as it comes.. i'm too tired to contemplate this right now.
i am totally babbling.. this entry is crap, but i'll post it anyways so i can remind myself how dumb i can be. sounds like a good idea eh? i wanted to post pictures.. but i've been to lazy to do that too. maybe i will now. but my anal side of me won't let me post anything until they're all captioned and organized, and that's the tedious part i can't get over yet. bleh.
yay it's friday. but it's still going to be a long day.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
today this guy at work got two packages from his mom. it was two more in a string of packages he's been getting the past few days, all from his mom. when they're international packages you have to declare the contents and they show it on the outside what they are. today he got underwear and chocolate. and he replied "aww.. i love my mom" at that point.. i loved his mom too.
then i got to thinking. i've never really been in a place where i get packages from home. i mean.. trade off.. i go home and often time i'll get sent home with lots of things to take home... but getting packages and care packages are nice. granted my parents aren't really care packagey types.. but maybe my friends are? who knows. sometimes i'd get stuff from my mom while i was in san diego, but most of the time it was when i needed stuff. new glasses, contacts, checks. etc etc etc. nothing fun. once i got fudge from benji's mom, and that was awesome. BUT i digress... this isn't about lack of love from my parents.. but the fact that i haven't really been anywhere far enough to be in a position to be sent care packages. like, i only went to school in san diego, and then immediately came back to LA. there's so many people here (at my work.. not LA) that aren't from around here, which i always immediately assume they are. their parents send them cute little packages and it seems like they're living this great life in this new fun place. maybe this is why i wanted to go to school in minnesota, go somewhere different, try something new... but that didn't pan out. i'd never move to minnesota now, but it would be fun to live elsewhere, maybe san diego again, or somewhere like boston or new york. i wonder if i'd be able to stand the cold. people always seem so well traveled, this girl was having this conversation about the "lower east side" and "manhattan" and the "meat packing district" and i had almost no idea what she was talking about (i'll thank sex and the city for having some cognition).. but it seemed so neat to know about a place that seems so far away. and she lived there for 6 years. my friend kelly picked up and moved to new york and loves it. i wanted to take that internship in new york... but that fell through too. who knows, maybe staying here for a long time means i'll end up somewhere else for the future. but today i felt very sheltered.. like i was ready to be distant from LA... which is funny because it's where everyone wants to be.
then i got to thinking. i've never really been in a place where i get packages from home. i mean.. trade off.. i go home and often time i'll get sent home with lots of things to take home... but getting packages and care packages are nice. granted my parents aren't really care packagey types.. but maybe my friends are? who knows. sometimes i'd get stuff from my mom while i was in san diego, but most of the time it was when i needed stuff. new glasses, contacts, checks. etc etc etc. nothing fun. once i got fudge from benji's mom, and that was awesome. BUT i digress... this isn't about lack of love from my parents.. but the fact that i haven't really been anywhere far enough to be in a position to be sent care packages. like, i only went to school in san diego, and then immediately came back to LA. there's so many people here (at my work.. not LA) that aren't from around here, which i always immediately assume they are. their parents send them cute little packages and it seems like they're living this great life in this new fun place. maybe this is why i wanted to go to school in minnesota, go somewhere different, try something new... but that didn't pan out. i'd never move to minnesota now, but it would be fun to live elsewhere, maybe san diego again, or somewhere like boston or new york. i wonder if i'd be able to stand the cold. people always seem so well traveled, this girl was having this conversation about the "lower east side" and "manhattan" and the "meat packing district" and i had almost no idea what she was talking about (i'll thank sex and the city for having some cognition).. but it seemed so neat to know about a place that seems so far away. and she lived there for 6 years. my friend kelly picked up and moved to new york and loves it. i wanted to take that internship in new york... but that fell through too. who knows, maybe staying here for a long time means i'll end up somewhere else for the future. but today i felt very sheltered.. like i was ready to be distant from LA... which is funny because it's where everyone wants to be.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
hot off the presses, courtesy of my favorite news friend :)
Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey officially separating
LOS ANGELES (AP) — After months of rumors, denials, and salacious magazine covers, Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey are officially kaput, just in time for Thanksgiving.
The couple jointly announced their separation Wednesday, confirmed their publicists Meredith O’ Sullivan and Rob Shooter.
“After three years of marriage, and careful thought and consideration, we have decided to part ways,” Simpson and Lachey said in an official statement.
“This is the mutual decision of two people with an enormous amount of respect and admiration for each other. We hope that you respect our privacy during this difficult time.”
The photogenic couple wed in October 2002 and went on to star in their own reality show, “Newlyweds,” on MTV. The show made them A-list celebrities.
Following Simpson’s role in 2004’s “The Dukes of Hazard,” tabloid magazines began reporting trouble brewing in the couple’s marriage.
U.S. Weekly first reported the couple’s split in its Oct. 17 issue.
if they can't make it, no one can! despite what everyone says.. i love them. i am so sad.
i bet it was ashlee's fault. haha.
happy thanksgiving?
Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey officially separating
LOS ANGELES (AP) — After months of rumors, denials, and salacious magazine covers, Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey are officially kaput, just in time for Thanksgiving.
The couple jointly announced their separation Wednesday, confirmed their publicists Meredith O’ Sullivan and Rob Shooter.
“After three years of marriage, and careful thought and consideration, we have decided to part ways,” Simpson and Lachey said in an official statement.
“This is the mutual decision of two people with an enormous amount of respect and admiration for each other. We hope that you respect our privacy during this difficult time.”
The photogenic couple wed in October 2002 and went on to star in their own reality show, “Newlyweds,” on MTV. The show made them A-list celebrities.
Following Simpson’s role in 2004’s “The Dukes of Hazard,” tabloid magazines began reporting trouble brewing in the couple’s marriage.
U.S. Weekly first reported the couple’s split in its Oct. 17 issue.
if they can't make it, no one can! despite what everyone says.. i love them. i am so sad.
i bet it was ashlee's fault. haha.
happy thanksgiving?
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
to flu shot or not.. that is the question. should i pay $25 or so to get a flu shot vaccination? i've never really had an intense flu (or so i think).. but after you get it it's too late to be like "man i should have got a flu shot" i HATE needles, and i may end up with bruises and or wooziness... but a winter minus flus would be great. so if you get a flu shot does that mean you're completely immune to the flu no matter what? is it worth it? i guess if i'm going to be around jake a lot it would be a good thing to have... la di da.. i hate shots.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
this weekend was pretty fun.
yay for humorous drunk co-workers
yay for ellen's play
boo for weird run-ins on the streets of long beach
yay for waking up early to go to ihop
yay for midday naps
boo for being entirely too exhausted for no reason (jet lag?)
yay for dinner and chicken little with carol
boo for running around LA and ending up empty handed
yay for diddy riese
boo for cancelled trip to pechanga
boo for staying up far too late for no good reason
yay for sleeping in (but not too late)
YAY for tamale festival with carol and sakura
yay for yummy food and lots of new things
boo for spending so much money
yay for dinner @ red robin with the team
boo for our last game (and another loss)
yay for going to sleep semi on time.
night!!
yay for humorous drunk co-workers
yay for ellen's play
boo for weird run-ins on the streets of long beach
yay for waking up early to go to ihop
yay for midday naps
boo for being entirely too exhausted for no reason (jet lag?)
yay for dinner and chicken little with carol
boo for running around LA and ending up empty handed
yay for diddy riese
boo for cancelled trip to pechanga
boo for staying up far too late for no good reason
yay for sleeping in (but not too late)
YAY for tamale festival with carol and sakura
yay for yummy food and lots of new things
boo for spending so much money
yay for dinner @ red robin with the team
boo for our last game (and another loss)
yay for going to sleep semi on time.
night!!
Friday, November 11, 2005
my computer crashed. blue screened and restarted all by itself. fab. i lost about 30 minutes of work that i was doing (not terrible.. could have been WAY worse).. but still i am unmotivated to open that badboy up and restart the recon. oh well..
HAHAHAHAHHA.. i just got this email sent out to our public "for random messages" listserv.....
"don't forget to ... loghoff tonight"
hilarious. i can't stop cracking up. crazy drunk co-workers.
HAHAHAHAHHA.. i just got this email sent out to our public "for random messages" listserv.....
"don't forget to ... loghoff tonight"
hilarious. i can't stop cracking up. crazy drunk co-workers.
haha.. this person might kill me for this.. but it's funny. and this could have been me tonight.. too bad i missed out. :P
drunk friend: pp,h sp filome driml
jeanyah: omg
drunk friend: we jad 3 sjpts pf [atrpm
drunk friend: jahaha
drunk friend: patron
drunk friend: lsakflsdkf
jeanyah: did you drive home?
drunk friend: ofcoure
drunk friend: how else did i get homeosjl
jeanyah: someone else?
drunk friend: omg i need ot sleep liek noe
drunk friend: ok
drunk friend: 99
jeanyah: night
jeanyah: water@!
drunk friend: sweat sfiowjdaeam
hilarious. maybe tomorrow night. everyone knows how i love those drinking at work functions :P
drunk friend: pp,h sp filome driml
jeanyah: omg
drunk friend: we jad 3 sjpts pf [atrpm
drunk friend: jahaha
drunk friend: patron
drunk friend: lsakflsdkf
jeanyah: did you drive home?
drunk friend: ofcoure
drunk friend: how else did i get homeosjl
jeanyah: someone else?
drunk friend: omg i need ot sleep liek noe
drunk friend: ok
drunk friend: 99
jeanyah: night
jeanyah: water@!
drunk friend: sweat sfiowjdaeam
hilarious. maybe tomorrow night. everyone knows how i love those drinking at work functions :P
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
lately i have become really desensitized to smells. i can't decide whether this is a good thing or bad thing only because i don't want to lose one of my senses, but at the same time i don't want to have to suffer through all the horrific scents.
they are doing a lot of remodeling work at my work, so painting, wood staining, etc etc etc.. lots and lots of chemicals. people complain about paint fumes and the smell and what not and then ask me 20 times a day if it bothers me. i honestly don't really notice it, and never really thought it was that bad in the first place. i'm not sure if the fumes have already killed off all my brain cells that tell me to mind the paint fumes, but really.. it's not a problem.
today it's raining, and being in the lovely location we are in i guess everytime it rains in affects the sewers and our work starts to smell like a cess pool. mmm.. yummy. for a little while i was like "man.. what is that smell?.. gross" and it smelled like a stink bomb or something. more so when people would open the door. 20 minutes later or so.. it's all back to normal and i don't even smell anything, although i now have a flood of emails in my box complaining about the smell, people walking by asking me "what's for lunch" because they think it's bad catering, or who knows what else. i can't even smell it anymore... isn't that a bad sign? i mean.. good for me because i'm just like "whatever".. but maybe people will start to think that i'm crazy or that maybe it's me that smells (under the you can't smell it because you're used to it rule).
anyways.. just thought that was an interesting tidbit.
ps.. i'm SO unprepared for the rain today. i didn't realize it was raining until i was already in my car leaving the house. since i was already running late, there was no time to go back and change or even grab an umbrella. boo. i'm wearing open toed high heels and khakis instead of the jeans, sneakers and hooded sweatshirt that is normal rainy day attire. dang it. lucky for me there was a lost and found umbrella from the last time it rained that no one has claimed... it has been my savior. funny enough people have been complementing me about how it matches my outfit. haha.. now i'm one of those annoying girls who "has to" look cute no matter what the weather. oops.
they are doing a lot of remodeling work at my work, so painting, wood staining, etc etc etc.. lots and lots of chemicals. people complain about paint fumes and the smell and what not and then ask me 20 times a day if it bothers me. i honestly don't really notice it, and never really thought it was that bad in the first place. i'm not sure if the fumes have already killed off all my brain cells that tell me to mind the paint fumes, but really.. it's not a problem.
today it's raining, and being in the lovely location we are in i guess everytime it rains in affects the sewers and our work starts to smell like a cess pool. mmm.. yummy. for a little while i was like "man.. what is that smell?.. gross" and it smelled like a stink bomb or something. more so when people would open the door. 20 minutes later or so.. it's all back to normal and i don't even smell anything, although i now have a flood of emails in my box complaining about the smell, people walking by asking me "what's for lunch" because they think it's bad catering, or who knows what else. i can't even smell it anymore... isn't that a bad sign? i mean.. good for me because i'm just like "whatever".. but maybe people will start to think that i'm crazy or that maybe it's me that smells (under the you can't smell it because you're used to it rule).
anyways.. just thought that was an interesting tidbit.
ps.. i'm SO unprepared for the rain today. i didn't realize it was raining until i was already in my car leaving the house. since i was already running late, there was no time to go back and change or even grab an umbrella. boo. i'm wearing open toed high heels and khakis instead of the jeans, sneakers and hooded sweatshirt that is normal rainy day attire. dang it. lucky for me there was a lost and found umbrella from the last time it rained that no one has claimed... it has been my savior. funny enough people have been complementing me about how it matches my outfit. haha.. now i'm one of those annoying girls who "has to" look cute no matter what the weather. oops.
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
hahahahahahhahahahha.
my sister is the best. i have all sorts of ridiculous things on my amazon wish list.. but she got the best one of all sent to me. and it was totally a surprise. i thought i was waiting for something that she ordered for herself that she wanted me to keep (so it doesn't get stolen again.. fedex bastards).. so i get it, and open it (so i can uhh... transport it without the packaging.. okay okay.. i'm just nosy)... and it's *NSYNC - THE WINTER ALBUM how awesome is that!! it's a swedish import and i have it. ooOOoOoo. gawd i am such a dork, but i love it. people at work think i'm young or something because i like nsync. but you know what? no matter how old i get i will always love them. :P (i also saw the no strings attached import "special edition" on amazon. good thing i already have it and bought it in taiwan!!! hahahahahahaha.. that's old news buddy!) ooh ooh.. i wonder if they have a special edition "greatest hits" cd in taiwan with videos and stuff.. hahahahah..)
i think i also know what else she bought me. i cheated a little, but not intentionally!!! i was looking at my wish list and i wanted to see "items purchased" thinking that it was only going to be the nsync album.. but there's 3 things!! so i'm assuming that she bought them all since not really any of my friends actually utilizes it.. so we'll see i guess. but now i'm anxious waiting for them :)
a lot of talk has gone around about the chinese kids singing karaoke to bsb's i want it that way. funny indeed.. but it made me pull up the numa numa kid i blogged about him before.. but man.. how i love him. i watched it again and cracked up so hard, which isn't the best while sitting at the front desk. hahahahahah.. but it's okay. he makes my sides hurt :P funny enough.. when i was in taiwan.. all the chicken little commercials are set to that song and the characters are dancing around (not like the kid).. but i think it's interesting that they used this song. i wonder if this kid made the song popular enough for disney to use it in their commercials!
nothing much else interesting. my eye is starting to twitch.. it's really kind of strange actually. maybe i have been staring at my monitor for far too long today. bleh. 25 more minutes to go!
your love is like a river, peaceful and deep
your soul is like a secret, that i never could keep
when i look into your eyes, i know that it's true
god must have spent, a little more time on you
<3
my sister is the best. i have all sorts of ridiculous things on my amazon wish list.. but she got the best one of all sent to me. and it was totally a surprise. i thought i was waiting for something that she ordered for herself that she wanted me to keep (so it doesn't get stolen again.. fedex bastards).. so i get it, and open it (so i can uhh... transport it without the packaging.. okay okay.. i'm just nosy)... and it's *NSYNC - THE WINTER ALBUM how awesome is that!! it's a swedish import and i have it. ooOOoOoo. gawd i am such a dork, but i love it. people at work think i'm young or something because i like nsync. but you know what? no matter how old i get i will always love them. :P (i also saw the no strings attached import "special edition" on amazon. good thing i already have it and bought it in taiwan!!! hahahahahahaha.. that's old news buddy!) ooh ooh.. i wonder if they have a special edition "greatest hits" cd in taiwan with videos and stuff.. hahahahah..)
i think i also know what else she bought me. i cheated a little, but not intentionally!!! i was looking at my wish list and i wanted to see "items purchased" thinking that it was only going to be the nsync album.. but there's 3 things!! so i'm assuming that she bought them all since not really any of my friends actually utilizes it.. so we'll see i guess. but now i'm anxious waiting for them :)
a lot of talk has gone around about the chinese kids singing karaoke to bsb's i want it that way. funny indeed.. but it made me pull up the numa numa kid i blogged about him before.. but man.. how i love him. i watched it again and cracked up so hard, which isn't the best while sitting at the front desk. hahahahahah.. but it's okay. he makes my sides hurt :P funny enough.. when i was in taiwan.. all the chicken little commercials are set to that song and the characters are dancing around (not like the kid).. but i think it's interesting that they used this song. i wonder if this kid made the song popular enough for disney to use it in their commercials!
nothing much else interesting. my eye is starting to twitch.. it's really kind of strange actually. maybe i have been staring at my monitor for far too long today. bleh. 25 more minutes to go!
your love is like a river, peaceful and deep
your soul is like a secret, that i never could keep
when i look into your eyes, i know that it's true
god must have spent, a little more time on you
<3
Friday, November 04, 2005
oh how this amuses me so....
ashlee simpson drunk at mcdonalds
"bitch stop talking to me, i'm nice!"
hahaha.. what a dumb ho.
ashlee simpson drunk at mcdonalds
"bitch stop talking to me, i'm nice!"
hahaha.. what a dumb ho.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
i don't know what it is about halloween.. i just never have a good time. well not true.. last year was fun. but the year before i was upset with someone and then got in a huge fight with my mom. this year halloween (the day itself) was no fun.. i think halloween for me is like thanksgiving for chandler.
so this is my one man stand and my attempt to riot against the people who suck in this world. hahah...
if you ever need a chiropractor.. NEVER EVER GO TO DR. BRIAN IRVINE IN HERMOSA BEACH. let me tell you my story.
so they call me yesterday morning to see if i can come any earlier than my 6pm appointment. i work until 7pm and have been leaving 2hrs early three times a week to go see him (the drive from venice to hermosa isn't the funnest at 5pm) and that adversely affects my paycheck as i'm sure you can figure out... but i thought "hey.. if he's good and he can fix me.. then it's worth it right?" my mom referred me and really liked him, so i thought i should stick with him. so anyways.. i park in the lot at lik 5:57pm and go to the bldg and the elevator doesn't work and the door to the stairwell is locked. i understand that they're next to all the bars, and probably lock down stuff so all the crazy drunk weirdos don't fool around in the bldg. but.. i have an appointment, and if i can't get upstairs what am i supposed to do? so i see some girls smoking out back of their salon store on the 1st floor and ask if there is another stairway.. and they say no.. they also push the elevator buttons because they think it's weird that it doesn't work.. and offer to help me call them (i don't have their number on me..) so we call, and their phones are off and it goes to a recording. ARGH!! so, because i'm a smart girl i take a different stair set downstairs to the parking garage and from that level the elevator will work and take that up to the 3rd floor. i get to my doctor's office and door is closed and locked. so i knock and i can HEAR THEM INSIDE TALKING ABOUT HOW SOMEONE IS KNOCKING ON THE DOOR. hmm.. who could it be? maybe the girl who has the appointment at 6pm!! i knock for a few good minutes and continue to hear them inside as well as some shuffling. i am already jetlagged and tired and so frustrated and this is making it a million times worse. i wish they would just open the door and tell me to go home, but they don't. so i get on my cell and call a friend to complain, talking loud enough so they can hear me, and then i knock again and they finally open the door. about time, assholes. the girl who opens the door is like "your appointment was at 6 right?" and i'm like "yea.. but your elevator isn't working and the door to the stairs is locked and your phones don't work." and she tells me that the elevator should work, and that their phones don't turn over until 6pm, so basically trying to blame me for being "late" and since i'm already worked up and mad about them being shitheads and not opening the door, i'm "oh yea?! well go ask the salon girls who were there" and she's like "well.. i guess we can still take you...." it's like.. don't do me any favors buddy.. how much are you friggin charging me huh? she cops this attitude and it's like.. you don't want people like that touching you and treating you.. i didn't even want to stay. so i walk out to the elevator and i'm pacing around.. not wanting to just storm out and look stupid, or maybe i really wanted to let them have it or something. i go back and the doctor is standing there, all ready to schmooze me.. and he's like "yea we can see you, what's wrong" and i'm thinking "really.. you don't know".. and every thing just got to me.. the non-sleep, the jet lag, the needing to leave work early, the frustration, the anger.. and i'm on the verge of tears.. the kind where you know if you talk more they will just come spilling out. so i'm trying my hardest not to cry and going off on about how i couldn't get up here, and how i was knocking and they wouldn't open the door, and how rude it is, and i'm so livid already. at the end the doctor goes "sorry" in this (at least to me) insincere "whatever" tone.. you know what i mean? i am not having any of that.. so i turn around and leave. i'm so over-emotional these days (no clue why) and i'm bawling as i'm running down the stairs and when i get into my car. maybe i took it too personally, but they didn't really do much to assuage my anger, and really.. i didn't want them touching me.. so it was for the best. i was so frustrated, and i still am. i called my sister and vented for a good long while. i will tell my mom she is banned from going there again (but i bet she won't listen to me) but at least my sister said that my mom understood. it also was upsetting because i had fought so hard to still go see them.. despite the six hours of work i was missing a week, and the fact that my lawyer doesn't really work with them, and that i didn't really want to go to the chiro in the first place. i put my trust and faith in them, and then i got treated like that. it's frustrating when you get let down like that and then people just act like it's not a big deal. in their office literature they say that "I make it a priority for myself and my staff to treat each person and my staff to treat each person who comes here as an individual. To understand your specific needs, and the needs of your family. It's important to me.".. but it's all just bullcrap. i initially told them that i worked until 7pm and they act so nice like they'd totally accomodate you and then once you sign all their forms they just kick you around. it makes me lose my faith in humanity.. because they're not the only ones who are like that.
i called this morning and this woman who usually is the one who treats me answered and i wanted to cancel the rest of my appointments this week because there's not a way that i am going back there. so she starts out like "oh yea, dr. irvine told me to call you, but i haven't be able to get through to you" and i just start getting mad again because it's just more shit and more lies. it's like.. really? you can't get through.. because it's so important to you? i know you have my work number because you called me yesterday on it, and it's not like my phone was busy. so anyways, she says she doesn't know what happened and is confused because she was with another patient in the back. which is funny because if that's the case, then they shouldn't have locked the door and it wouldn't have mattered if i was late because i would have to wait for her anyways. and really.. if i was that upset, as i clearly was, shouldn't he call himself? is he too important for that.. cuz i thought it was "important" to him to understand my needs.. apparently i'm just another paycheck for him. so i try to explain to the lady what happened.. and how i was knocking, but no one was opening the door.. and she starts getting all argumentative with me.. like "oh yea the elevator wasn't working" (which is a direct contradiction with what that other girl - gabby - said.), "there was a patient in here and no one heard the knocking" (wtf.. seriously? a)if there was a patient there why is the door locked.. and b)really? all 4 of your office people are in the back and no one can answer the door?) and she tells me that they don't have access to the downstairs door, so they can't make sure it's not locked. and i'm like "the door is locked from the inside, you can unlock it and make sure it's open".. because when i stormed down the stairs and the door was locked i had to open it to leave. and she tried to give me some BS about this or that and i wasn't going to take it. and so i tell her that i just think that they were really rude and after the way i was treated i don't want to see them anymore. and she starts with the attitude too, "well if that's your opinion, and that's what you think and that's how you feel" ARGH!!!!!! i was already so mad with the whole situation and i hate that a) they were so rude yesterday, b) the girl is trying to argue with me and giving me excuses that make no sense, c) that they're not taking any blame or apologizing and d)they're trying to blame me for it... if there is something that working at the gap or being a receptionist has taught me is how to treat people. no matter what. i mean.. in general i'm not really all that nasty to people unless they really get to me, but especially for work you always have to behave properly even when it kills you. this seemingly senile homeless lady tried to crash our party on saturday and yet you have to treat her with all the kindness you would anyone else just because you may not know what people's situations are, and it's just common decency.. or at least i think. and maybe that gets me in trouble sometimes, but i have told my mom before i'd rather be stomped on, that do the stomping. feeling guilty afterwards is not a feeling i am fond of harboring. but i know those kind of people never feel guilty for what they do, which makes me even madder... which is stupid.. i know. i know that not everyone acts to please other people. i need to learn how to just let that shit go.
so that's my story and i'm sticking to it.
don't go see dr. irvine, tell all your friends not to see him, and bad mouth his staff whenever possible.
at the gap they tell us they focus so much on customer service because if someone has a good experience, they will tell 1 of their friends. if they have a bad experience, they'll tell 4. i believe it, i've told 8 people already. and i'm hoping the internet also does it's job :P
so this is my one man stand and my attempt to riot against the people who suck in this world. hahah...
if you ever need a chiropractor.. NEVER EVER GO TO DR. BRIAN IRVINE IN HERMOSA BEACH. let me tell you my story.
so they call me yesterday morning to see if i can come any earlier than my 6pm appointment. i work until 7pm and have been leaving 2hrs early three times a week to go see him (the drive from venice to hermosa isn't the funnest at 5pm) and that adversely affects my paycheck as i'm sure you can figure out... but i thought "hey.. if he's good and he can fix me.. then it's worth it right?" my mom referred me and really liked him, so i thought i should stick with him. so anyways.. i park in the lot at lik 5:57pm and go to the bldg and the elevator doesn't work and the door to the stairwell is locked. i understand that they're next to all the bars, and probably lock down stuff so all the crazy drunk weirdos don't fool around in the bldg. but.. i have an appointment, and if i can't get upstairs what am i supposed to do? so i see some girls smoking out back of their salon store on the 1st floor and ask if there is another stairway.. and they say no.. they also push the elevator buttons because they think it's weird that it doesn't work.. and offer to help me call them (i don't have their number on me..) so we call, and their phones are off and it goes to a recording. ARGH!! so, because i'm a smart girl i take a different stair set downstairs to the parking garage and from that level the elevator will work and take that up to the 3rd floor. i get to my doctor's office and door is closed and locked. so i knock and i can HEAR THEM INSIDE TALKING ABOUT HOW SOMEONE IS KNOCKING ON THE DOOR. hmm.. who could it be? maybe the girl who has the appointment at 6pm!! i knock for a few good minutes and continue to hear them inside as well as some shuffling. i am already jetlagged and tired and so frustrated and this is making it a million times worse. i wish they would just open the door and tell me to go home, but they don't. so i get on my cell and call a friend to complain, talking loud enough so they can hear me, and then i knock again and they finally open the door. about time, assholes. the girl who opens the door is like "your appointment was at 6 right?" and i'm like "yea.. but your elevator isn't working and the door to the stairs is locked and your phones don't work." and she tells me that the elevator should work, and that their phones don't turn over until 6pm, so basically trying to blame me for being "late" and since i'm already worked up and mad about them being shitheads and not opening the door, i'm "oh yea?! well go ask the salon girls who were there" and she's like "well.. i guess we can still take you...." it's like.. don't do me any favors buddy.. how much are you friggin charging me huh? she cops this attitude and it's like.. you don't want people like that touching you and treating you.. i didn't even want to stay. so i walk out to the elevator and i'm pacing around.. not wanting to just storm out and look stupid, or maybe i really wanted to let them have it or something. i go back and the doctor is standing there, all ready to schmooze me.. and he's like "yea we can see you, what's wrong" and i'm thinking "really.. you don't know".. and every thing just got to me.. the non-sleep, the jet lag, the needing to leave work early, the frustration, the anger.. and i'm on the verge of tears.. the kind where you know if you talk more they will just come spilling out. so i'm trying my hardest not to cry and going off on about how i couldn't get up here, and how i was knocking and they wouldn't open the door, and how rude it is, and i'm so livid already. at the end the doctor goes "sorry" in this (at least to me) insincere "whatever" tone.. you know what i mean? i am not having any of that.. so i turn around and leave. i'm so over-emotional these days (no clue why) and i'm bawling as i'm running down the stairs and when i get into my car. maybe i took it too personally, but they didn't really do much to assuage my anger, and really.. i didn't want them touching me.. so it was for the best. i was so frustrated, and i still am. i called my sister and vented for a good long while. i will tell my mom she is banned from going there again (but i bet she won't listen to me) but at least my sister said that my mom understood. it also was upsetting because i had fought so hard to still go see them.. despite the six hours of work i was missing a week, and the fact that my lawyer doesn't really work with them, and that i didn't really want to go to the chiro in the first place. i put my trust and faith in them, and then i got treated like that. it's frustrating when you get let down like that and then people just act like it's not a big deal. in their office literature they say that "I make it a priority for myself and my staff to treat each person and my staff to treat each person who comes here as an individual. To understand your specific needs, and the needs of your family. It's important to me.".. but it's all just bullcrap. i initially told them that i worked until 7pm and they act so nice like they'd totally accomodate you and then once you sign all their forms they just kick you around. it makes me lose my faith in humanity.. because they're not the only ones who are like that.
i called this morning and this woman who usually is the one who treats me answered and i wanted to cancel the rest of my appointments this week because there's not a way that i am going back there. so she starts out like "oh yea, dr. irvine told me to call you, but i haven't be able to get through to you" and i just start getting mad again because it's just more shit and more lies. it's like.. really? you can't get through.. because it's so important to you? i know you have my work number because you called me yesterday on it, and it's not like my phone was busy. so anyways, she says she doesn't know what happened and is confused because she was with another patient in the back. which is funny because if that's the case, then they shouldn't have locked the door and it wouldn't have mattered if i was late because i would have to wait for her anyways. and really.. if i was that upset, as i clearly was, shouldn't he call himself? is he too important for that.. cuz i thought it was "important" to him to understand my needs.. apparently i'm just another paycheck for him. so i try to explain to the lady what happened.. and how i was knocking, but no one was opening the door.. and she starts getting all argumentative with me.. like "oh yea the elevator wasn't working" (which is a direct contradiction with what that other girl - gabby - said.), "there was a patient in here and no one heard the knocking" (wtf.. seriously? a)if there was a patient there why is the door locked.. and b)really? all 4 of your office people are in the back and no one can answer the door?) and she tells me that they don't have access to the downstairs door, so they can't make sure it's not locked. and i'm like "the door is locked from the inside, you can unlock it and make sure it's open".. because when i stormed down the stairs and the door was locked i had to open it to leave. and she tried to give me some BS about this or that and i wasn't going to take it. and so i tell her that i just think that they were really rude and after the way i was treated i don't want to see them anymore. and she starts with the attitude too, "well if that's your opinion, and that's what you think and that's how you feel" ARGH!!!!!! i was already so mad with the whole situation and i hate that a) they were so rude yesterday, b) the girl is trying to argue with me and giving me excuses that make no sense, c) that they're not taking any blame or apologizing and d)they're trying to blame me for it... if there is something that working at the gap or being a receptionist has taught me is how to treat people. no matter what. i mean.. in general i'm not really all that nasty to people unless they really get to me, but especially for work you always have to behave properly even when it kills you. this seemingly senile homeless lady tried to crash our party on saturday and yet you have to treat her with all the kindness you would anyone else just because you may not know what people's situations are, and it's just common decency.. or at least i think. and maybe that gets me in trouble sometimes, but i have told my mom before i'd rather be stomped on, that do the stomping. feeling guilty afterwards is not a feeling i am fond of harboring. but i know those kind of people never feel guilty for what they do, which makes me even madder... which is stupid.. i know. i know that not everyone acts to please other people. i need to learn how to just let that shit go.
so that's my story and i'm sticking to it.
don't go see dr. irvine, tell all your friends not to see him, and bad mouth his staff whenever possible.
at the gap they tell us they focus so much on customer service because if someone has a good experience, they will tell 1 of their friends. if they have a bad experience, they'll tell 4. i believe it, i've told 8 people already. and i'm hoping the internet also does it's job :P
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Saturday October 29
Taiwan time: 10:34pm
LA time: 7:34am
so I’m blogging from the plane. Not quite blogging, only because I’m not on the internet, of course. How cool would that be if I could be on the internet while on a plane!! That’s the next step I’m sure. It’s quite bumpy on the plane – a lot of turbulence. We even had to re route a little bit to avoid some worse turbulence. I don’t mind it too much.. it’s kind of fun.. like a roller coaster ride. I’m not antsy about planes, I’m sure Beth would be having a cow. What I’m not so keen about is mr. guy next to me who has been hacking up his lungs, and snorting his snot all flight long… sometimes covering his mouth, sometimes not. I really cannot be sick right now. And especially with me going to the Halloween party my immune system won’t be able to handle any attack of germs. I also am not keen about the crying baby 5 seats away from me. Crying all flight long, wah wah wah… It makes me a little sad, missing my nephew.. but my nephew isn’t bad like that – plus I’m sure my sister won’t be in crowded economy with dozens of people cursing her under their breaths. Hahhahah. Poor parents.
I’m watching Batman Begins for the second time this week. My sister rented it and we watched it, and now on the plane. I have nothing better to do, since I am in economy and I can’t choose which channel I want to watch. well I could sleep, but it’s only 10pm Taiwan time, so I’m not totally tired yet.. plus I already took a mini nap. Now that I think about it.. my Saturday will have been 39 hours long. Kind of neat huh? 24 hours from the first Saturday, and in 1.5 hrs it will be Sunday in Taiwan, but 9am Saturday in LA… so I get 15 more hours of that. whoo!! It’s like a three day weekend too.. I soooooooooo don’t want to go back to work Monday!
I have been up and down about this party.. wanting to go, not wanting to go… I hope overall it will be fun… not too crowded, not too chaotic ? I’m sure it will be.. if anything, alcohol makes everything more fun huh? Just kidding…. I’m not a lush.. I promise.
I also can’t wait to get home and dig through all of my new belongings… hahahah.. I have almost a WHOLE suitcase of stuff I bought. A little overboard huh? Oh well, it was a good time.
Stuff that I wanted to do in Taiwan, but missed out on:
1. ride the giant ferris wheel
2. eat at Mos Burger
3. feed jake
4. .. something i was just thinking about but it escapes me at the moment
Argh!! Now I’m coughing… grrr… stupid guy. I wish I had bought some airborne or something. I think I’m going to listen to my iPod.. maybe nap before the next movie.
Taiwan time: 10:34pm
LA time: 7:34am
so I’m blogging from the plane. Not quite blogging, only because I’m not on the internet, of course. How cool would that be if I could be on the internet while on a plane!! That’s the next step I’m sure. It’s quite bumpy on the plane – a lot of turbulence. We even had to re route a little bit to avoid some worse turbulence. I don’t mind it too much.. it’s kind of fun.. like a roller coaster ride. I’m not antsy about planes, I’m sure Beth would be having a cow. What I’m not so keen about is mr. guy next to me who has been hacking up his lungs, and snorting his snot all flight long… sometimes covering his mouth, sometimes not. I really cannot be sick right now. And especially with me going to the Halloween party my immune system won’t be able to handle any attack of germs. I also am not keen about the crying baby 5 seats away from me. Crying all flight long, wah wah wah… It makes me a little sad, missing my nephew.. but my nephew isn’t bad like that – plus I’m sure my sister won’t be in crowded economy with dozens of people cursing her under their breaths. Hahhahah. Poor parents.
I’m watching Batman Begins for the second time this week. My sister rented it and we watched it, and now on the plane. I have nothing better to do, since I am in economy and I can’t choose which channel I want to watch. well I could sleep, but it’s only 10pm Taiwan time, so I’m not totally tired yet.. plus I already took a mini nap. Now that I think about it.. my Saturday will have been 39 hours long. Kind of neat huh? 24 hours from the first Saturday, and in 1.5 hrs it will be Sunday in Taiwan, but 9am Saturday in LA… so I get 15 more hours of that. whoo!! It’s like a three day weekend too.. I soooooooooo don’t want to go back to work Monday!
I have been up and down about this party.. wanting to go, not wanting to go… I hope overall it will be fun… not too crowded, not too chaotic ? I’m sure it will be.. if anything, alcohol makes everything more fun huh? Just kidding…. I’m not a lush.. I promise.
I also can’t wait to get home and dig through all of my new belongings… hahahah.. I have almost a WHOLE suitcase of stuff I bought. A little overboard huh? Oh well, it was a good time.
Stuff that I wanted to do in Taiwan, but missed out on:
1. ride the giant ferris wheel
2. eat at Mos Burger
3. feed jake
4. .. something i was just thinking about but it escapes me at the moment
Argh!! Now I’m coughing… grrr… stupid guy. I wish I had bought some airborne or something. I think I’m going to listen to my iPod.. maybe nap before the next movie.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
i was at the night market today (shih lin) and i saw these rainbow leg warmers that i wanted to buy so bad!!! i don't know why i just had the hugest urge to buy them. i've never owned or worn leg warmers in my life, but for some reason, they just seemed so fun. maybe i could be an old school jazzercise chick for halloween. and then i remembered my old want of being rainbow brite for halloween!!! sooooooooo cute. but it's too late now because the work party is 2 days away, i'm in taiwan, and all the adult rainbow brite costumes are the cheap slutty ones. grrr.. maybe next year. but it'd be soooooooooo cute to have a rainbow brite costume that actually looked like the real one. and have a ponytail full of curls. regardless.. i still wanted those leg warmers.. but seriously.. where would i wear them? to play softball? haha.. that would be a riot. i would be a freakshow.
i think the medicine i was using for the bugbites is part of making it worse. the bug bites are still swollen and achy.. but the skin around it is red and puffy. so i put more medicine on to try and help it.. but it makes the red puffy part worse!! this draws me to the conclusion that although the medicine provides cooling relief, it is somehow prolonging the getting rid of efforts. argh.. so i will have to suffer in itching misery in hopes that they go away quickly. i'll just have my mom and sister slap them to make them stop itching.. they always enjoyed doing that. i can do it to myself, but i never slap myself hard enough, for obvious reasons.
gosh.. i can't believe this week is almost over.. i leave in less than 2 days!! i thought this week has been so long, but it's quickly coming to a close, and then it'll be back to the grind, back to losing softball, back to crammed messed up schedules. grr. oh well.. vacation wouldn't be as nice if your life was always like that.
and what's with all the selling of weird strange herby type dried foods next to the purses. has is always been like that? last time there was a whole store dedicated to just purses.. now it was half of the weird smelling dried food stuff. but another store was the exact same set up. is there some correlation between purse buyers and smelly food.. cuz i don't get it.
argghh.. itchy itchy itchy.. and stickiness from the humidity.. bleh. time for another shower and sleep.. it's 2:15am!
i think the medicine i was using for the bugbites is part of making it worse. the bug bites are still swollen and achy.. but the skin around it is red and puffy. so i put more medicine on to try and help it.. but it makes the red puffy part worse!! this draws me to the conclusion that although the medicine provides cooling relief, it is somehow prolonging the getting rid of efforts. argh.. so i will have to suffer in itching misery in hopes that they go away quickly. i'll just have my mom and sister slap them to make them stop itching.. they always enjoyed doing that. i can do it to myself, but i never slap myself hard enough, for obvious reasons.
gosh.. i can't believe this week is almost over.. i leave in less than 2 days!! i thought this week has been so long, but it's quickly coming to a close, and then it'll be back to the grind, back to losing softball, back to crammed messed up schedules. grr. oh well.. vacation wouldn't be as nice if your life was always like that.
and what's with all the selling of weird strange herby type dried foods next to the purses. has is always been like that? last time there was a whole store dedicated to just purses.. now it was half of the weird smelling dried food stuff. but another store was the exact same set up. is there some correlation between purse buyers and smelly food.. cuz i don't get it.
argghh.. itchy itchy itchy.. and stickiness from the humidity.. bleh. time for another shower and sleep.. it's 2:15am!
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
there are times when taiwan does not agree with me. the night before i stayed at my grandma's house because i came back too late from the night market. that was okay because i think my relatives really like it when i stay with them. people here are very big on having you stay with them.. maybe it makes them good hosts or something. anyways.. it was my cousin's old room, but they had moved the stuff out, so i slept on a mattress on the floor. i don't know if it was cuz i was closer to the ground, or i had the smell of stinky tofu on me from the night market (ps. i HATE that smell.. it makes me want to vomit. whoever thought it was a good idea to make tofu smell putrid and then eat it was obviously delirious from the odor).. anyways.. i woke up in the middle of the night furiously scratching my arms because of multiple bug bites. i think i even woke up once to the sound of a flea buzzing around near my ear. i was so mad, plus i was cranky because i couldn't get back to sleep because my arms itched so badly. ARGH!! i have 8 on my left arm, 4 on my right arm, and 2 on my face. it's weird because somehow i think they're spreading or something... i know bug bites don't "spread" ... but really.. they're getting worse. i thought it was okay because they had gone down.. but later the next night (yesterday).. they're worse! they're swelling up and they're even achy now. i have no idea what's wrong.. it's like i'm allergic or something. when my dad stayed at my grandma's nothing happened to him.. so either... i taste a lot better.. or they wanted revenge for not being able to attack my dad. either way i have been rubbing all sorts of ointments all over to try to stop the itching and getting them to simply go away. bleh.
in other news taiwan is good. sort of drizzly still. but it's light rain so i just walk around because it's not cold, still a little humid almost, which makes it warm, but not unbearable. i think i'm going shopping again today. whoo :) maybe to eat ice monster. hehe. mm.. maybe nap time. and then baby time before lunch, and then shopping!! i'm out of control. now if only the itching/achiness would stop.. everything would be dandy.
in other news taiwan is good. sort of drizzly still. but it's light rain so i just walk around because it's not cold, still a little humid almost, which makes it warm, but not unbearable. i think i'm going shopping again today. whoo :) maybe to eat ice monster. hehe. mm.. maybe nap time. and then baby time before lunch, and then shopping!! i'm out of control. now if only the itching/achiness would stop.. everything would be dandy.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
i have the worst case of buyers remorse right now. well it's like half buyer's remorse.. but it felt sooooo good to just keep buying.. but i felt silly carrying so many bags, buying so much junk, and didn't even want to walk into my grandma's house for fear that they'd all laugh at me. silly american who went crazy. and hey.. it's not all my fault.. people asked me to buy stuff for them... but like.. who knows what they like. i hope they like it.. they'd better!! cuz i am not getting stuck with it.
cute things will be the death of me for sure. i will probably die suffocating in all the cute little trinkets that i buy. sanrio, disney, no-brand super cute little characters... all of it.. i melt to pieces. i bargained pretty successfully with the vendors (or so i think.. i know they are still scamming me)... but how can i really bargain successfully with bags and bags of stuff in my hands?! they already know i'm a shopaholic! they can see it. just wave some cute thing it front of me and the money the jumps out of my pockets.
i had steamed dumplings and beef noodle soup at the place by my grandma's house today.. yuuuuuuuuummm. the dumplings aren't my favorite just because there are hints of ginger.. but i still like it anyways, that's how good they are. but today i realized that i haven't had beef noodle soup since the last time that i came to taiwan. isn't that crazy? not since december.. and i really only eat it when i come here. so silly.. but i guess it's like if i can't have the "real thing" why bother you know?
i finally went to the taipei 101 observatory deck. :) i had gone to taipei 101 before, but just the mall part was open, not the observatory deck. it reminded me a lot of being in chicago and at sears tower. i knew that beth would really appreciate it, and they even gave you these neato free listening guides (using your license as collateral to make sure you'd return them.. but no fee!) that would tell you about what you were viewing around the city. it was pretty neat. in my perfect world there would be a pressed penny machine.. but taiwan is not that cheesy. but it didn't stop me from buying tons at the gift store. (seeing a trend?.. but wait you already knew this.)
another thing beth would appreciate is the tons of cute fobby things. mispelled words.. i thought they were so annoying when relatives would by my clothes with "SNOOPQY" .. but now it's so charming in its own way. i'm not really talking about fake "pdidas" (adidas) or "emma" (puma) stuff.. but just the very fobby stuff that seems unassuming but is so funny and ridiculous in english. just like when american people walk around with asian stuff... i really hope someone has that tattoo of like "i have a small penis" or something. i dunno.
nicole would appreciate all the hello kitty stuff they have here. in fact those were her parting words to me :P even the fake stuff she might like because it's cheaper. and some stuff is okay to buy because it's not too atrociously fake.
sakura would love all the jeans they have here. i wish i could buy her some, but of course she'd have to try them on. but everytime i pass by a stand/store.. i think of her.
linh would appreciate everything there is to eat here. hahahaha.
tonight is the first night i haven't been tired at 10pm. last night i was sooooo tired and fussy it was ridiculous. i guess i'm getting over the jet lag. but i leave in a few days..and then i will be so messed up it will be bad news.
well.. i'm sure my cousin wants to sleep, and i'm in his room rattling away on the keyboard. night night.. miss you!
"real time" 1:37am - wednesday the 26th.
cute things will be the death of me for sure. i will probably die suffocating in all the cute little trinkets that i buy. sanrio, disney, no-brand super cute little characters... all of it.. i melt to pieces. i bargained pretty successfully with the vendors (or so i think.. i know they are still scamming me)... but how can i really bargain successfully with bags and bags of stuff in my hands?! they already know i'm a shopaholic! they can see it. just wave some cute thing it front of me and the money the jumps out of my pockets.
i had steamed dumplings and beef noodle soup at the place by my grandma's house today.. yuuuuuuuuummm. the dumplings aren't my favorite just because there are hints of ginger.. but i still like it anyways, that's how good they are. but today i realized that i haven't had beef noodle soup since the last time that i came to taiwan. isn't that crazy? not since december.. and i really only eat it when i come here. so silly.. but i guess it's like if i can't have the "real thing" why bother you know?
i finally went to the taipei 101 observatory deck. :) i had gone to taipei 101 before, but just the mall part was open, not the observatory deck. it reminded me a lot of being in chicago and at sears tower. i knew that beth would really appreciate it, and they even gave you these neato free listening guides (using your license as collateral to make sure you'd return them.. but no fee!) that would tell you about what you were viewing around the city. it was pretty neat. in my perfect world there would be a pressed penny machine.. but taiwan is not that cheesy. but it didn't stop me from buying tons at the gift store. (seeing a trend?.. but wait you already knew this.)
another thing beth would appreciate is the tons of cute fobby things. mispelled words.. i thought they were so annoying when relatives would by my clothes with "SNOOPQY" .. but now it's so charming in its own way. i'm not really talking about fake "pdidas" (adidas) or "emma" (puma) stuff.. but just the very fobby stuff that seems unassuming but is so funny and ridiculous in english. just like when american people walk around with asian stuff... i really hope someone has that tattoo of like "i have a small penis" or something. i dunno.
nicole would appreciate all the hello kitty stuff they have here. in fact those were her parting words to me :P even the fake stuff she might like because it's cheaper. and some stuff is okay to buy because it's not too atrociously fake.
sakura would love all the jeans they have here. i wish i could buy her some, but of course she'd have to try them on. but everytime i pass by a stand/store.. i think of her.
linh would appreciate everything there is to eat here. hahahaha.
tonight is the first night i haven't been tired at 10pm. last night i was sooooo tired and fussy it was ridiculous. i guess i'm getting over the jet lag. but i leave in a few days..and then i will be so messed up it will be bad news.
well.. i'm sure my cousin wants to sleep, and i'm in his room rattling away on the keyboard. night night.. miss you!
"real time" 1:37am - wednesday the 26th.
Friday, October 21, 2005
so i've finally landed in taiwan. it seems like it didn't really take that much time to get here.. probably because i slept most of the way here. i didn't watch a lot of movies, which i usually do.. i was far too exhausted. plus i wanted to get the jet lag in check since i'm not here for that long. i can't waste it in the wrong time zone! yesterday was a marathon of packing and trying to get things ready. i got 2.5 hours of sleep and still made it through the work day, went to go see my chiropractor, bought a halloween costume (which i'm still not sure about yet), and finished up the packing. i got to go into the vip lounge and sat and had wine and crackers and then we had to take a bus to the remote gate where our plane was docked. it was strange because we were on this bus on the tarmac just cruising around. it was like we were vips.. or maybe in the movie speed. hahah. i fell asleep once we boarded and even slept through take off, which has only happened one other time when i had gotten 0 hrs of sleep the day before. watched the longest yard which was actually good and funny. i laughed out loud a few times.. i hope i didn't wake anyone up. i could totally tell where they filmed the parts at el co.. so i got pretty excited for that. ate and slept.. that was the plane ride :P
it's 20 degrees celcius... i'm not sure how that translates to farenheit... i was never good at that. it's drizzling too.. bleh.. i thought i had gotten away from that. we landed around 6am, got a ride to taipei and now it's almost 9am. sucks though because i only now just realized that we totally forgot the luggage with all the stuff my mom wanted to bring for her. it makes me feel so self absorbed.. that i was only concerned with my stuff, and packing stuff for my sister, that it didn't even occur to me that even though we only had 3 bags, no one remembered about the stuff for my mom. bah.. it's not quite that simple, and there are a few reasons why, but bottom line is i should have remembered. argh.
the 1 month party for my nephew is tonight :) so that will be fun. it's small and only family. so nothing too crazy :P i think i'm going to nap and shower and get ready for the day... i shouldn't be tired, but i still am... luckily since it's 9am, people won't think i'm too lazy if i go back to sleep (as opposed it being 6pm in cali).
it's 20 degrees celcius... i'm not sure how that translates to farenheit... i was never good at that. it's drizzling too.. bleh.. i thought i had gotten away from that. we landed around 6am, got a ride to taipei and now it's almost 9am. sucks though because i only now just realized that we totally forgot the luggage with all the stuff my mom wanted to bring for her. it makes me feel so self absorbed.. that i was only concerned with my stuff, and packing stuff for my sister, that it didn't even occur to me that even though we only had 3 bags, no one remembered about the stuff for my mom. bah.. it's not quite that simple, and there are a few reasons why, but bottom line is i should have remembered. argh.
the 1 month party for my nephew is tonight :) so that will be fun. it's small and only family. so nothing too crazy :P i think i'm going to nap and shower and get ready for the day... i shouldn't be tired, but i still am... luckily since it's 9am, people won't think i'm too lazy if i go back to sleep (as opposed it being 6pm in cali).
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
man oh man...
so i don't know exactly when these came out.. but it almost makes me hesitant to buy anything just because when you buy it a few months later the newer version will come out and you'd wish you would have bought that instead. boo. technology moves too fast for us.
apple has two more products to add to their line.. well.. not new.. but new models.. the ipod video, and the new imac G5. crazy. i'm not really upset or anything.. i'm just amazed on the more and more things that come out. i love my ipod more than the models out here and i'm not really longing for any of the ones that are out now. but it's kind of school that you can watch tv shows and what not on there. the imac G5.. neat. it has a built in isight.. which is cool in itself.. and a smart idea, because i have the problem where the isight sits too high on my computer so only half of my face shows unless i sit super straight up. plus now there's a remote which is neat like when you want to lay back and watch a dvd or something. i love my imac to bits too.. and i bought it 10 months ago.. so waiting for all this wouldn't really have been useful for me. plus i have an isight and i guess i'm not that lazy that i need a remote.. hahaha.. but it's nice to have nifty things :P
if you haven't donated yet for my walk.. please do :) i'm halfway at my goal.
support me @ aids walk!
so i don't know exactly when these came out.. but it almost makes me hesitant to buy anything just because when you buy it a few months later the newer version will come out and you'd wish you would have bought that instead. boo. technology moves too fast for us.
apple has two more products to add to their line.. well.. not new.. but new models.. the ipod video, and the new imac G5. crazy. i'm not really upset or anything.. i'm just amazed on the more and more things that come out. i love my ipod more than the models out here and i'm not really longing for any of the ones that are out now. but it's kind of school that you can watch tv shows and what not on there. the imac G5.. neat. it has a built in isight.. which is cool in itself.. and a smart idea, because i have the problem where the isight sits too high on my computer so only half of my face shows unless i sit super straight up. plus now there's a remote which is neat like when you want to lay back and watch a dvd or something. i love my imac to bits too.. and i bought it 10 months ago.. so waiting for all this wouldn't really have been useful for me. plus i have an isight and i guess i'm not that lazy that i need a remote.. hahaha.. but it's nice to have nifty things :P
if you haven't donated yet for my walk.. please do :) i'm halfway at my goal.
support me @ aids walk!
Sunday, October 09, 2005
my dad is currently driving to san francisco. "right now?" you ask? yes.. this very second. they left around midnight, and i guess are going to be there early morning. good for avoiding traffic i suppose. my dad has monday night because of columbus day a or something and city of LA employees get all kinds of extra days off.. like cesar chavez day.. haha. i hope my dad took naps and got lots of rest... i'm a little bit worried although i know he is a great driver and knows what he can and can't do.. i still worry a little bit. i think i get it from my mom. my dad used to make the norcal drive all the time. especially when my sister was going to berkeley and we'd drive every fall and summer to cart her stuff around. my dad was always fond of the long drives.. road trips. i remember once we drove to canada.
my dad also has to get home somehow (since he's driving someone else's car up for them). not that my aunt isn't willing to buy him a plane ticket back.. but my dad is insisting on taking the train back. the TRAIN.... from norcal. actually.. it's a train to bakersfield and a bus the rest of the way. bleh. you know how i feel about buses!! it'll take 7 hours or so but my dad keeps saying he's never been on a train (in the US) so now he wants to experience it, he's not just being polite.. he's really excited about taking the train. my dad is so odd sometimes. so funny.
i now have to go the chiro three times a week to "heal" from the car accident. and maybe now apparently i might also have TMJ. argh. it sucks so bad with all the time i have to take off of work and all.. and all the gas and driving that i will have to be doing now. bah. there are times when i feel fine, and time when i don't feel so hot. my jaw hurts so bad right now. and it seems like such a silly thing to say, but that's all i can think about right now.
maybe.. just maybe i should think about sleep huh?
my mom is thinking about getting a laptop... i think she realizes how convenient it is, especially if you are on the go or not at home. i don't think she likes having to share computer time with my sis, or imposing on her and just wants to have her own so she can be on it late at night in her own studio while she's watching her chinese soaps and writing out her 2 hour long emails. haha.. my sister told her apple's are better so i told her she should get an ibook. probably a 12incher. it'll be SO CUTE!!! i think i would have to occasionally steal it just to play with it and hold it. i'm sorry to cheat on you powerbook but i swear i still love you too. who knows if that'll happen.. but i got excited for a second. so lame.. i know.
i was going to start this great music reorganization (as angelee calls it).. and make sure all the songs i want are loaded onto my iMac and thus loaded into my ipod before i go to taiwan. but i got lazy and distracted by SNL and myspace. i can't believe they let ashlee simpson back on snl. well i can.. ratings and all. but bleh. i'm sure she sang live this time, can't risk not. but she is still super annoying. she was so pleased and giddy after she did "well" she was jumping up and down for joy.. like she had never sang a real song in her life. or maybe she was pleased she got away with the lip-singing this time. haha... the show wasn't as funny as i hoped it would be. the funniest was the opening monologue where they had cast members pretend to be people that napoleon dynamite was "supposedly" based on. i laughed out loud it was so funny. the neighbors must have thought i was crazy.
okay.. pretty tired.. tomorrow.. i dunno.. i hope it's super hot so i can layout by the pool. i've been wanting to do that forever but i haven't be able to. and lately the days it's been sweltering are weekdays when i am wasting away indoors. boo. if not i'm sure i can find plenty to do. we also have a softball game tomorrow... we'll see how that goes.. bah :P
my dad also has to get home somehow (since he's driving someone else's car up for them). not that my aunt isn't willing to buy him a plane ticket back.. but my dad is insisting on taking the train back. the TRAIN.... from norcal. actually.. it's a train to bakersfield and a bus the rest of the way. bleh. you know how i feel about buses!! it'll take 7 hours or so but my dad keeps saying he's never been on a train (in the US) so now he wants to experience it, he's not just being polite.. he's really excited about taking the train. my dad is so odd sometimes. so funny.
i now have to go the chiro three times a week to "heal" from the car accident. and maybe now apparently i might also have TMJ. argh. it sucks so bad with all the time i have to take off of work and all.. and all the gas and driving that i will have to be doing now. bah. there are times when i feel fine, and time when i don't feel so hot. my jaw hurts so bad right now. and it seems like such a silly thing to say, but that's all i can think about right now.
maybe.. just maybe i should think about sleep huh?
my mom is thinking about getting a laptop... i think she realizes how convenient it is, especially if you are on the go or not at home. i don't think she likes having to share computer time with my sis, or imposing on her and just wants to have her own so she can be on it late at night in her own studio while she's watching her chinese soaps and writing out her 2 hour long emails. haha.. my sister told her apple's are better so i told her she should get an ibook. probably a 12incher. it'll be SO CUTE!!! i think i would have to occasionally steal it just to play with it and hold it. i'm sorry to cheat on you powerbook but i swear i still love you too. who knows if that'll happen.. but i got excited for a second. so lame.. i know.
i was going to start this great music reorganization (as angelee calls it).. and make sure all the songs i want are loaded onto my iMac and thus loaded into my ipod before i go to taiwan. but i got lazy and distracted by SNL and myspace. i can't believe they let ashlee simpson back on snl. well i can.. ratings and all. but bleh. i'm sure she sang live this time, can't risk not. but she is still super annoying. she was so pleased and giddy after she did "well" she was jumping up and down for joy.. like she had never sang a real song in her life. or maybe she was pleased she got away with the lip-singing this time. haha... the show wasn't as funny as i hoped it would be. the funniest was the opening monologue where they had cast members pretend to be people that napoleon dynamite was "supposedly" based on. i laughed out loud it was so funny. the neighbors must have thought i was crazy.
okay.. pretty tired.. tomorrow.. i dunno.. i hope it's super hot so i can layout by the pool. i've been wanting to do that forever but i haven't be able to. and lately the days it's been sweltering are weekdays when i am wasting away indoors. boo. if not i'm sure i can find plenty to do. we also have a softball game tomorrow... we'll see how that goes.. bah :P
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
so.. i know philly will hate this.. but..
tom and katie expecting!
there's also the story here and here.
personally... i like them. i do thinks it's a little crazy and very hollywood. poor chris klein, but i'm glad tom gets his own kid. hahah.. i think that's probably important. so strange though.. joey potter is pregnant!! hahahaha. i'd rather read about them any day rather than "bennifer2" bleh. i heard that michael vartan got killed off alias because jennifer garner didn't want him there anymore. whether it was because of ben affleck or whatever.. that still sucks so bad.. i hate her even more.. now there's even less of a reason for me to watch that show..not that i really do anyways. haha.. i'm glad that i don't have to record the shows onto dvd anymore.. it would just make me mad. haha.
i signed up for the aids walk with the team at my work. so.. everyone should donate. my goal is $200, and i emailed 38 people so far... if everyone donated $10.. i would totally surpass my goal. i know not everyone will donate but i am practicing wishful thinking anyways.
donate to me! :) i would for you
tom and katie expecting!
there's also the story here and here.
personally... i like them. i do thinks it's a little crazy and very hollywood. poor chris klein, but i'm glad tom gets his own kid. hahah.. i think that's probably important. so strange though.. joey potter is pregnant!! hahahaha. i'd rather read about them any day rather than "bennifer2" bleh. i heard that michael vartan got killed off alias because jennifer garner didn't want him there anymore. whether it was because of ben affleck or whatever.. that still sucks so bad.. i hate her even more.. now there's even less of a reason for me to watch that show..not that i really do anyways. haha.. i'm glad that i don't have to record the shows onto dvd anymore.. it would just make me mad. haha.
i signed up for the aids walk with the team at my work. so.. everyone should donate. my goal is $200, and i emailed 38 people so far... if everyone donated $10.. i would totally surpass my goal. i know not everyone will donate but i am practicing wishful thinking anyways.
donate to me! :) i would for you
Friday, September 30, 2005
typhoon update...
it's 77degrees.. in Taiwan.. less than it is here.. but it's 88% humidity which i bet makes it INSUFFERABLE. it's 85 degrees here now.. with 31% humidity and i already think it's muggy. bleh. but it's not blazing hot anymore.. i hope it helps out the fires. crazy. yesterday the sun was glowing red. i wish i had had a camera.
iSighting with the sis and the baby tonight! whoo.. and maybe my mom? i dunno. when we were setting up the time it prompted this whole discussion of trying to figure out what the time difference would be.. it was pretty funny .. i wish i had saved it.
still very bored.
it's 77degrees.. in Taiwan.. less than it is here.. but it's 88% humidity which i bet makes it INSUFFERABLE. it's 85 degrees here now.. with 31% humidity and i already think it's muggy. bleh. but it's not blazing hot anymore.. i hope it helps out the fires. crazy. yesterday the sun was glowing red. i wish i had had a camera.
iSighting with the sis and the baby tonight! whoo.. and maybe my mom? i dunno. when we were setting up the time it prompted this whole discussion of trying to figure out what the time difference would be.. it was pretty funny .. i wish i had saved it.
still very bored.
i'm sure you've all seen these before a million times, but they're always a fun read everyonce in awhile. i changed the last one (changed in italics). my personal fave is #6.. it made me laugh out loud.
also these are kind of cute.. great truths
DEEP THOUGHTS...
1. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?"
2. Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken there? I'm gonna eat the next thing that comes outta its butt."
3. Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?
4. If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a song about him?
5. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
6. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but they don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
8. Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
9. If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that Acme stuff, why didn't he just buy dinner?
11. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?
12. If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
13. Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
14. Stop singing and read on..........
15. Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup?
16. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?
17. Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it arrive faster?
18. Do you ever wonder why you read my blog in the first place?
... SO bored.
also these are kind of cute.. great truths
DEEP THOUGHTS...
1. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?"
2. Who was the first person to say, "See that chicken there? I'm gonna eat the next thing that comes outta its butt."
3. Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?
4. If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a song about him?
5. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
6. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but they don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
8. Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
9. If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that Acme stuff, why didn't he just buy dinner?
11. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?
12. If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
13. Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
14. Stop singing and read on..........
15. Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup?
16. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?
17. Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it arrive faster?
18. Do you ever wonder why you read my blog in the first place?
... SO bored.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
it's really flippin hot outside. i mean.. i should be glad that it's hot instead of freezing cold.. or that we don't have much to deal with. i mean.. we.. as in south bay/samo area.. because fires are burning as we speak in T.O. point is.. it's not something i "should" be complaining about.. but it is quite sweltering. and i'm right next to the beach. it must be like death in the valley... and chino hills :P (gotta give you a shoutout, concepcions!) hah.
anyways.. i haven't watched the news (bad me) but apparently there is a typhoon headed towards taiwan. it looks pretty huge and ginormous and so i'm kind of scared for my family.. especially with recent hurricanes here. i mean.. typhoons happen in taiwan all the time. so maybe they are used to it, maybe the city is more prepared? i don't know. we'll see.. i requested my vacation.. it's less than a month away. if i'm there when another typhoon hits.. i think i might just freak. this california native doesn't know much about weather.
so.. stalkerish me... i googled someone i used to know.. and he seems to be doing pretty well for himself. and he started this website that helps feed hungry children in argentina with clicks from people (one of thoooose sites you know?) so click on the link, and then click on the button to help feed the children. isn't that awesome?!!
porloschicos.com
it only lets each visitor have one click per day, so click on it everyday :)
anyways.. i haven't watched the news (bad me) but apparently there is a typhoon headed towards taiwan. it looks pretty huge and ginormous and so i'm kind of scared for my family.. especially with recent hurricanes here. i mean.. typhoons happen in taiwan all the time. so maybe they are used to it, maybe the city is more prepared? i don't know. we'll see.. i requested my vacation.. it's less than a month away. if i'm there when another typhoon hits.. i think i might just freak. this california native doesn't know much about weather.
so.. stalkerish me... i googled someone i used to know.. and he seems to be doing pretty well for himself. and he started this website that helps feed hungry children in argentina with clicks from people (one of thoooose sites you know?) so click on the link, and then click on the button to help feed the children. isn't that awesome?!!
porloschicos.com
it only lets each visitor have one click per day, so click on it everyday :)
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
you know what needs to stop RIGHT NOW?! the stupid frigging combination of movie star names anytime someone is a couple. it's getting REALLY OLD. i mean.. bennifer was kind of cute the first time. and then bennifer 2.. or whatever.. but now it is just OUT OF CONTROL. I CAN NOT STAND IT!!
bennifer
bengar
garfleck
tomkat
brangelina
and now... DASHMI... what the hell is that?!!!
barf barf barf barf barf.
i did like when ben affleck went on SNL after his break up with j.lo and said how he made up a bunch of shirts in anticipation of his next relationship... and there was like "benyonce" (ben+beyonce... duh), "boprah" (ben+oprah.. double duh) and my personal fave (matt damon+ ben affleck) "bengay". oh.. what happened to you...
bennifer
bengar
garfleck
tomkat
brangelina
and now... DASHMI... what the hell is that?!!!
barf barf barf barf barf.
i did like when ben affleck went on SNL after his break up with j.lo and said how he made up a bunch of shirts in anticipation of his next relationship... and there was like "benyonce" (ben+beyonce... duh), "boprah" (ben+oprah.. double duh) and my personal fave (matt damon+ ben affleck) "bengay". oh.. what happened to you...
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
this is funny.. stole this off a girl from work's signature in her email:
All-Time Great NHL Goalie: Jacques Plante - "How would you like a job where, every time you make a mistake, a big red light goes on and 18,000 people boo?"
and then i imagine if there was a big red light above my desk and every time i made a mistake it'd go off. sad... it'd be like a disco in here.
this random caller guy called and was trying to surf for information that i totally didn't have. and then he tried to make feel stupid like i didn't know info about my company. but he was totally wrong.. so i layed the smack down. hell yea.
so sad. i heard rumors about them breaking up awhile ago.. but thought it would wash away like the nick and jessica rumors. but i guess not. men can be cheating fools. sophia bush is so pretty too... but i guess they're just both sooo young. i wonder what it will do to the show!
i chatted with my sis today.. (shh.. don't tell my mom :P) but it was good to talk to her. my dad made me sad and told me that i shouldn't go to taiwan and that it wasn't important, and that i'd see them all when they came home anyways. but.. my dad likes to downplay a lot of things, or we just have different ideas of what's "important".. so i have to learn to discount a lot of things he says and not take it personally i guess? but it still makes me sad to think about it. but my sister wants me there, and jake TOTALLY wants me there, and my mom does too. so my dad is just a nut (as seen in previous post). after chatting with my sis i am really excited to go.. i just have to set the dates, which i thought i did, but now i'm not sure. my sister totally misses mexican food, she even had dreams about going to the ghettos of taiwan to try and find real mexican food but didn't get any because it was too scary. and then we showed up at the door full from eating too many tacos and she gets really sad. hahahaha.. i guess it was more like a nightmare. i wish i could like take carne asada, carnitas and gyros to her... but i don't know if i'd make it past customs and if they'd spoil or not. haha.. but she has put in a request for krispy kremes :P
this week i am a total laze. at work, at home, at everything. but it is very nice :)
All-Time Great NHL Goalie: Jacques Plante - "How would you like a job where, every time you make a mistake, a big red light goes on and 18,000 people boo?"
and then i imagine if there was a big red light above my desk and every time i made a mistake it'd go off. sad... it'd be like a disco in here.
this random caller guy called and was trying to surf for information that i totally didn't have. and then he tried to make feel stupid like i didn't know info about my company. but he was totally wrong.. so i layed the smack down. hell yea.
so sad. i heard rumors about them breaking up awhile ago.. but thought it would wash away like the nick and jessica rumors. but i guess not. men can be cheating fools. sophia bush is so pretty too... but i guess they're just both sooo young. i wonder what it will do to the show!
i chatted with my sis today.. (shh.. don't tell my mom :P) but it was good to talk to her. my dad made me sad and told me that i shouldn't go to taiwan and that it wasn't important, and that i'd see them all when they came home anyways. but.. my dad likes to downplay a lot of things, or we just have different ideas of what's "important".. so i have to learn to discount a lot of things he says and not take it personally i guess? but it still makes me sad to think about it. but my sister wants me there, and jake TOTALLY wants me there, and my mom does too. so my dad is just a nut (as seen in previous post). after chatting with my sis i am really excited to go.. i just have to set the dates, which i thought i did, but now i'm not sure. my sister totally misses mexican food, she even had dreams about going to the ghettos of taiwan to try and find real mexican food but didn't get any because it was too scary. and then we showed up at the door full from eating too many tacos and she gets really sad. hahahaha.. i guess it was more like a nightmare. i wish i could like take carne asada, carnitas and gyros to her... but i don't know if i'd make it past customs and if they'd spoil or not. haha.. but she has put in a request for krispy kremes :P
this week i am a total laze. at work, at home, at everything. but it is very nice :)
Monday, September 26, 2005
i am unnaturally and unhealthily excited about the new TWO STORY target they are building. i heard a rumor it was going to be 24 hours, but that's less likely to be true. BUT.. i love the big windows and how it looks almost futuristic inside, but maybe that's only from far away. but.. i am excited enough to sit in an empty parking lot late at night to snap some photos. (after a movie.. i didn't make a special trip JUST to take pictures, i ain't THAT crazy!) although i will tell you that i did not like how they closed the entrance to the galleria from behind good guys so that i had to go ALL away around past the cemetary. ugh.. not a fan.
but it's a giant target, even close than the other 2 that are already close to my house and new, shiny and spectacular, so i will forgive.
okay.. sorry i am just rambling now. did a lot of sleeping and eating this weekend. sounds like a good weekend eh? although it's not where i have the tivo set up so last night i stayed up a little late catching up on some of the season premieres. i totally paid for it this morning though. argh.. but desperate housewives was really good, kind of creepy at the end. i don't know whether to thank or curse my sister for getting me hooked on that show. :P
lost again in softball last night. but we're totally out of our league.. so i kind of just expect it to happen.. which makes it less of a dissapointment for me when we lose. other people.. i can't really say.. but some people just don't have fun. which i totally understand, but they also give up trying, or maybe just half ass it.. and then i say.. you have no reason to complain. i dunno.. it was 24-1 (boo), so the team scored the same amount of runs as the team last week, but we played 5 innings, meaning they didn't score the maximum amount of runs each inning (6).. so that's slightly better than getting trounced on each inning right? :P i dunno.. we lost all the time before.. and i think i've come to feel like.. whether we lose by a lot or a little.. it's always the same dissapointment. in fact.. when we lose by one or two.. it's even worse! it's harder because you always think.. "if i had only done that..." one thing that would have made the little difference in the one run.. then you could have tied and gone on to win. when we lose by 20+ points.. i know that it's not in our control, and so i can't feel bad about it. hahaha.. it just becomes funny. makes sense right? or am i just making excuses. :P anyways..we'll have more of a complete team and some of our bigger hitters/good players all there this week, so maybe it will be better. although they always seem to be right where it's hit.. as where we're NEVER in the right place. haha.. how does that happen?
i'm tired.. only 2 more hrs.. this day has flown by a little better than most.. so i am grateful for that. i think i might just veg out tonight. anyone want to come join? :)
Saturday, September 24, 2005
funny conversation with my dad:
me: did you do all the cleaning?
my dad: no
me: who did all the cleaning then?
my dad: me!
me: but you just said you didn't do it
my dad: i dunno.
hahah.. strange.
my dad says he has to go into work tomorrow and do overtime. and then he said "i gotta make some milk money!" but the milk ain't for me! ;P
me: did you do all the cleaning?
my dad: no
me: who did all the cleaning then?
my dad: me!
me: but you just said you didn't do it
my dad: i dunno.
hahah.. strange.
my dad says he has to go into work tomorrow and do overtime. and then he said "i gotta make some milk money!" but the milk ain't for me! ;P
Thursday, September 22, 2005
can i tell you how i almost just died? and i'm totally not exaggerating either. okay fine.. maybe not died.. but definitely could have seriously injured myself, but there was definitely that possibility of death. i hope it's not karma because i hadn't done anything seriously wrong, but maybe that's why nothing bad happened. anyhow.. i went to a small shindig at nicole's work tonight and was driving home up the 405.. just wanting to get home as soon as possible, especially because i have to go into work early tomorrow. yea i know.. so i should waste my time typing this out... but i had to. so anyways.. i'm going a little faster than i usually do. 85 or so. sometimes i'd catch myself doing 90 and then slow back to 80 and progress up to 85. i was around hawthorne/el segundo, a little bit before the 105, driving in the left most lane... for speedy people :P so all of a sudden i see this BLACK car WITH NO LIGHTS ON, that is facing backwards at a 45 degree angle to the barrier, in the middle of the carpool and the left lane... the lane that i am in. uh.oh. so i immediately slam on my brakes and hear the loud screech and wailing of my tires, so i get scared for a second because the sound is so bad, but i realize (or at least i think) that there are cars next to me so i can't really swerve and i have no choice to break hard like my life depends on it.. because it does. so i brake again, loud screech of the tires, over the sound of my radio, and i am coming so close to the car that i swear that i'm still going to hit it. i move over in to the next lane a little bit and squuuuuueeeeeze past the car and i was probably going fast but i felt like it was slow-mo and at the next moment that i'm totally going to grind into the car and start spinning or something. and at the same time that i am slowing down i see all these cars and headlights flying around and past me. and all of that happened in 8 seconds or so. i wonder what the drivers in the other cars are thinking, what the sight looked like, i wonder what the guy in the car thought.. or if there way even a guy, and i wonder if i went back if i could see tire marks on the freeway. as i was driving away i thought i saw the car's headlight turn on and start to move fully into the carpool lane (only being a death trap for one lane as opposed to two). i got a little mad like.. "wtf man.. you just decide to do that now?" but ultimately i am REALLY lucky. someone was watching out for me. i am lucky that i wasn't more tired or distracted so that i noticed the car in time to do something about it. i'm lucky that my brakes and tires are in a good enough shape that i could prevent the accident from happening. i'm lucky that i could think quickly enough and my reflexes were quick enough to make it around that car. i'm lucky that the check engine light on in my car hasn't meant worse things for me (even though i JUST got my car back from the mechanic). i'm lucky that no other cars behind me totally rear ended me as i was braking and not only slammed me from the back, but could have slammed me into the car in front and hit other cars from the backlash. or i'm even lucky that it wasn't raining and the roads weren't slick because then i'd probably have no chance to stop in time. i didn't see my life flash before my eyes. maybe it's just a myth, or maybe there wasn't enough time, or maybe it only happens when you're really going to die and be hurt and it wasn't going to happen this time. who knows.. but i was totally shaken up and drove 55-65mph the rest of the way home. (not in the left lane.. i wasn't annoying!) but now i can totally see in my head the news spots of what could have been in the worst case scenario.
so be careful kids. drive safe.. especially late at night when you "think" that no one else is around and you just want to get home. i totally sound like a PSA, and i might be a hypocrite in a few days when i start speeding again. but i'd still like to say that i'm a safe driver.. but anyways.. stay safe.. those roads and dumb drivers can be a scary place.
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side note: about the emergency landing at LAX today.. i was listening to the radio and i find it amusing, yet kind of cool, how all the passengers were watching the news and essentially watching themselves and their own troubled plane on tv because jet blue has individual tv's with live cable feed. seems kind of freaky, but they said that it actually calmed them down because they knew exactly what was going on. interesting.
so be careful kids. drive safe.. especially late at night when you "think" that no one else is around and you just want to get home. i totally sound like a PSA, and i might be a hypocrite in a few days when i start speeding again. but i'd still like to say that i'm a safe driver.. but anyways.. stay safe.. those roads and dumb drivers can be a scary place.
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side note: about the emergency landing at LAX today.. i was listening to the radio and i find it amusing, yet kind of cool, how all the passengers were watching the news and essentially watching themselves and their own troubled plane on tv because jet blue has individual tv's with live cable feed. seems kind of freaky, but they said that it actually calmed them down because they knew exactly what was going on. interesting.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
k.. maybe it's finally time to update. i talk to linh everyday, what possibly could she need to read this for? :P but i guess reading something (even if it's stuff you already know) still gives you something to do at work. so here goes.. but there's not really much to say i guess. i'm not in the blogative mood.
my sister's baby's due date is this week supposedly.. so we'll see. each day i am waiting for a phone call or email saying "your sister has gone into labor!!" hahaa.. not yet. this guy who works here's wife just came with their baby girl. she's so cute! (and you should see all the girls (and guys!) go gaga over the baby.) man oh man.. hurry already baby!! just kidding.. hahahah. i reserved my plane ticket to go visit and i have to put the vacation request in. i'm sure it won't be a problem, but i wanted to wait until i know exactly when i need to be there, and then factor in jetlag and all that junk. but i set the reservation so at least i have that. sucks though that i might be missing our company halloween party which i hear is always so fun. i'm kind of over missing it just because people here probably get SO into dressing up and their really creative artistic costumes. and i'm so like ready to just grab a white sheet and be a ghost. haha.. so lame. plus.. you never want to miss an opportunity to bond with your co-workers and lots and lots of alcohol. hahaha
so i went to a family friend's wedding in place of my mom since she is in taiwan.. and it was cute. not as good as my sisters!! hahah.. jk.. i just had to say that. but heck.. you can't compare any weddings to my sisters. plus.. since i didn't really know them.. it's harder to be elated you know? but.. when she walked down the aisle with her dad to the same song as in my sister's wedding (pachebel's canon in d) i got a little choked up. i don't know why.. it was so weird.. what's happening to me?!! :P after the ceremony was the drinks/hor'deurves and dinner part. 10 course chinese meal! but.. i have decided that they are a gargatuan waste of food and money. even if you only eat a little, you are still so full by the 5th or 6th course, and then the "good stuff" at the end like the fish, rice or crab are kind of just a waste. BUT.. the highlight of the wedding for me was that they had a CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN. man oh man.. the whole lobby smelled like chocolate, and i just thought it was really good cake. but i turned the corner and there it was! *gasp*... whoo!! i had seen them online before.. i think beth showed me. but it doesn't compare to seeing them in person. 
and eating them. there was strawberries, pineapple and bananas, and then brownies, rice krispie treats, and angel food to put on skewers and dips into the chocolate fountain. YUM. if wish i had actually seen it in person so that i could have gotten one for my sister's reception. or even her baby shower!! haah.. next time. maybe for my birthday. hahaha.. jk. that's a little too extravagant.
we've been playing softball. same team name (the menacers) sorry.. haven't changed it to "the ministers" yet. haha.. but a lot of new people. alot of people that i recruited at work. aha. and we're also in a different league. a higher up league. and i know what you're thinking... how come the team that took 5th place went up to the higher league? haha.. we're all thinking that too. it's because i registered too "late" and all the spots were taken. now we just get our asses whooped everyweek and run around like maniacs. never before have i been so glad for the 6 run/inning cap. haha.. i'm hoping the season will somehow get better or be okay. but i guess we also just suck it up and play and try to have fun anyways :P we go to the batting cages a little bit, which is fun too. so yea. that's that. go menacers :P (for the record i'm not exaggerating.. first game score was like 40-1 - something horrific like that.. at least 30+, second game score was 24-3.. go team!)
last sunday sakura invited us out to the taste of santa monica! it was so fun!! and SO MUCH FOOD. there like 30-40 restaurants doling out their goods, and we somehow managed to sample some from each booth. okay.. that's a lie.. i didn't eat some of the stuff.. but only because i didn't like it.. like raw oyster shooters or gaspacho... totally not my thing.
but i did eat a whole damn lot.. and it was almost painful. above are just a few of the faves :) you get to that point where you've been eating so much that nothing really tastes good anymore. well sort of. haha. but it was fun and i'd definitely do it again.. and again :)
last night i went to carlene's portfolio show. yay! it was kind of like all the students who were graduating, showcasing their work, inviting their friends, and hopefully impressing some potential employers. it was fun and interesting to see all the different student's works. also to see the different way people acted and watch how some of the students acted towards you (or other people) when they assumed whether or not you were important. how lame. 
i liked carlene's presentation the best because it was great looking and professional, and well lit, but not in a tacky manner (aka.. book lights), but also she was friendly and took time with everyone, not just the people who seemed important. cuz really the most important people go incognito :) unless their head is just huge and have to toot their own horn of self importance. hahah. but then again.. if you're tooting your own horn.... anyhoo. nicole and carlene's parents are super awesome... (cue parent trap theme song).. ahhaha.. sorry.. running joke of the night. 
but seriously.. they're parents are so cute and nice and friendly and interact so well with their friends. maybe i just think this way because they're not "my parents" hahah. carlene's dad brought plants and chocolate for her display... hahah.. and bought everyone drinks :P i continually stalked the servers with food trays and scarfed down an assorted array of spinach and cheese stuffed mushrooms, meatballs, chicken, tartlettes, and mini tostadas. yum!! nicole and i were joking about how we should wear our work badges and go harass some students... ahaha.. well not harass.. but just uhh.. play pretend :P 
but of course we didn't.. but i did have fun looking at the different booths and even grabbed a few reels and dropped them off to our recruiter. how funny would it be if some of these people got hired. not funny.. but i'd tell them they owe me some sort of manager's fee. ahaha.. jk. after that was dinner at BJ's... yum!!! too bad we met the bitchiest hostess ever! if it was my party i totally would have told everyone to go somewhere else. and do that whole i love lucy thing where she dresses up as different characters and pretends to leave because ricky wasn't playing at the club.. 
but instead it would be actual people .. a friggin party of 30! but nonetheless..we stayed and had our fill of 10 pizza's and 4 pizookie platters. we ate until it was ready to "roll" home. and i mean literally and not gangster like speak. but it was definitely a lot of fun and we got a sneak peak of the amount of "crunk" carlene will be on saturday. hahah.
this is just all the stuff that i have pictures of (sans softball).. but not much else. work and junk. slowly starting to go back to working the 2nd job, and trying to find how to mesh job #3 in. oh.. went out labor day weekend to hermosa. and i somehow found myself riding the bull (oh i guess i have a picture of this too.)
haha.. linh "tricked me" .. and i was kind of mad because you think that everyone just wants you to do it so they can laugh at you. but then you just learn to laugh at yourself and then it's okay.. i guess. hahah.. i guess you just have to get over the fear of riding it once, and then you just want to be better at it and not fall off immediately after you get on so that when it becomes second nature :P next time you're totally riding it linh. haha. aside from being super sick last week, not much else. some co-workers of mine saw pierce brosnan in a restaurant down the street yesterday :P and i had busy bee and el tarasco in a 48 hr period. (yum), got totally sunburnt from taste of santa monica because my dumbass wanted a "tan".. now i'm in a little bit of excruciating pain. constantly applying aloe in hopes that i don't peel.. at least too badly. went to cabo cantina on monday for happy hour with linh and tony... which was exciting because working until 7pm you pretty much never get happy hour.. but theirs is until 8!! whoo hoo!! buy one get one free margaritas and nachos that are super yummy.. we may have found a new watering hole :) so that is my life in a nutshell. this week is waiting for my new nephew (!!!!!), lucky strike for carlene's birthday and possibly disneyland, and then softball. laundry, sleeping and watching tv all packed in there somewhere. oh.. right now it's time to go see who won big brother 6.. but it's one of the "nerd herd" so i'm not really excited .. bah.
gosh can you believe it's almost october!!!???
my sister's baby's due date is this week supposedly.. so we'll see. each day i am waiting for a phone call or email saying "your sister has gone into labor!!" hahaa.. not yet. this guy who works here's wife just came with their baby girl. she's so cute! (and you should see all the girls (and guys!) go gaga over the baby.) man oh man.. hurry already baby!! just kidding.. hahahah. i reserved my plane ticket to go visit and i have to put the vacation request in. i'm sure it won't be a problem, but i wanted to wait until i know exactly when i need to be there, and then factor in jetlag and all that junk. but i set the reservation so at least i have that. sucks though that i might be missing our company halloween party which i hear is always so fun. i'm kind of over missing it just because people here probably get SO into dressing up and their really creative artistic costumes. and i'm so like ready to just grab a white sheet and be a ghost. haha.. so lame. plus.. you never want to miss an opportunity to bond with your co-workers and lots and lots of alcohol. hahaha
so i went to a family friend's wedding in place of my mom since she is in taiwan.. and it was cute. not as good as my sisters!! hahah.. jk.. i just had to say that. but heck.. you can't compare any weddings to my sisters. plus.. since i didn't really know them.. it's harder to be elated you know? but.. when she walked down the aisle with her dad to the same song as in my sister's wedding (pachebel's canon in d) i got a little choked up. i don't know why.. it was so weird.. what's happening to me?!! :P after the ceremony was the drinks/hor'deurves and dinner part. 10 course chinese meal! but.. i have decided that they are a gargatuan waste of food and money. even if you only eat a little, you are still so full by the 5th or 6th course, and then the "good stuff" at the end like the fish, rice or crab are kind of just a waste. BUT.. the highlight of the wedding for me was that they had a CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN. man oh man.. the whole lobby smelled like chocolate, and i just thought it was really good cake. but i turned the corner and there it was! *gasp*... whoo!! i had seen them online before.. i think beth showed me. but it doesn't compare to seeing them in person. 
and eating them. there was strawberries, pineapple and bananas, and then brownies, rice krispie treats, and angel food to put on skewers and dips into the chocolate fountain. YUM. if wish i had actually seen it in person so that i could have gotten one for my sister's reception. or even her baby shower!! haah.. next time. maybe for my birthday. hahaha.. jk. that's a little too extravagant.we've been playing softball. same team name (the menacers) sorry.. haven't changed it to "the ministers" yet. haha.. but a lot of new people. alot of people that i recruited at work. aha. and we're also in a different league. a higher up league. and i know what you're thinking... how come the team that took 5th place went up to the higher league? haha.. we're all thinking that too. it's because i registered too "late" and all the spots were taken. now we just get our asses whooped everyweek and run around like maniacs. never before have i been so glad for the 6 run/inning cap. haha.. i'm hoping the season will somehow get better or be okay. but i guess we also just suck it up and play and try to have fun anyways :P we go to the batting cages a little bit, which is fun too. so yea. that's that. go menacers :P (for the record i'm not exaggerating.. first game score was like 40-1 - something horrific like that.. at least 30+, second game score was 24-3.. go team!)
last sunday sakura invited us out to the taste of santa monica! it was so fun!! and SO MUCH FOOD. there like 30-40 restaurants doling out their goods, and we somehow managed to sample some from each booth. okay.. that's a lie.. i didn't eat some of the stuff.. but only because i didn't like it.. like raw oyster shooters or gaspacho... totally not my thing. but i did eat a whole damn lot.. and it was almost painful. above are just a few of the faves :) you get to that point where you've been eating so much that nothing really tastes good anymore. well sort of. haha. but it was fun and i'd definitely do it again.. and again :)
last night i went to carlene's portfolio show. yay! it was kind of like all the students who were graduating, showcasing their work, inviting their friends, and hopefully impressing some potential employers. it was fun and interesting to see all the different student's works. also to see the different way people acted and watch how some of the students acted towards you (or other people) when they assumed whether or not you were important. how lame. 
i liked carlene's presentation the best because it was great looking and professional, and well lit, but not in a tacky manner (aka.. book lights), but also she was friendly and took time with everyone, not just the people who seemed important. cuz really the most important people go incognito :) unless their head is just huge and have to toot their own horn of self importance. hahah. but then again.. if you're tooting your own horn.... anyhoo. nicole and carlene's parents are super awesome... (cue parent trap theme song).. ahhaha.. sorry.. running joke of the night. 
but seriously.. they're parents are so cute and nice and friendly and interact so well with their friends. maybe i just think this way because they're not "my parents" hahah. carlene's dad brought plants and chocolate for her display... hahah.. and bought everyone drinks :P i continually stalked the servers with food trays and scarfed down an assorted array of spinach and cheese stuffed mushrooms, meatballs, chicken, tartlettes, and mini tostadas. yum!! nicole and i were joking about how we should wear our work badges and go harass some students... ahaha.. well not harass.. but just uhh.. play pretend :P 
but of course we didn't.. but i did have fun looking at the different booths and even grabbed a few reels and dropped them off to our recruiter. how funny would it be if some of these people got hired. not funny.. but i'd tell them they owe me some sort of manager's fee. ahaha.. jk. after that was dinner at BJ's... yum!!! too bad we met the bitchiest hostess ever! if it was my party i totally would have told everyone to go somewhere else. and do that whole i love lucy thing where she dresses up as different characters and pretends to leave because ricky wasn't playing at the club.. 
but instead it would be actual people .. a friggin party of 30! but nonetheless..we stayed and had our fill of 10 pizza's and 4 pizookie platters. we ate until it was ready to "roll" home. and i mean literally and not gangster like speak. but it was definitely a lot of fun and we got a sneak peak of the amount of "crunk" carlene will be on saturday. hahah.this is just all the stuff that i have pictures of (sans softball).. but not much else. work and junk. slowly starting to go back to working the 2nd job, and trying to find how to mesh job #3 in. oh.. went out labor day weekend to hermosa. and i somehow found myself riding the bull (oh i guess i have a picture of this too.)
haha.. linh "tricked me" .. and i was kind of mad because you think that everyone just wants you to do it so they can laugh at you. but then you just learn to laugh at yourself and then it's okay.. i guess. hahah.. i guess you just have to get over the fear of riding it once, and then you just want to be better at it and not fall off immediately after you get on so that when it becomes second nature :P next time you're totally riding it linh. haha. aside from being super sick last week, not much else. some co-workers of mine saw pierce brosnan in a restaurant down the street yesterday :P and i had busy bee and el tarasco in a 48 hr period. (yum), got totally sunburnt from taste of santa monica because my dumbass wanted a "tan".. now i'm in a little bit of excruciating pain. constantly applying aloe in hopes that i don't peel.. at least too badly. went to cabo cantina on monday for happy hour with linh and tony... which was exciting because working until 7pm you pretty much never get happy hour.. but theirs is until 8!! whoo hoo!! buy one get one free margaritas and nachos that are super yummy.. we may have found a new watering hole :) so that is my life in a nutshell. this week is waiting for my new nephew (!!!!!), lucky strike for carlene's birthday and possibly disneyland, and then softball. laundry, sleeping and watching tv all packed in there somewhere. oh.. right now it's time to go see who won big brother 6.. but it's one of the "nerd herd" so i'm not really excited .. bah. gosh can you believe it's almost october!!!???
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Thursday, September 08, 2005
i feel like i'm constantly making the wrong decisions. should i be stronger? should i just know what to do? i constantly don't believe in myself enough. maybe all i'm lacking is self-confidence, but i don't want to grab too many things... but i can't just stick to the same things and "hope" that they work out. i need to be afraid to not let go. but what if you let go too early? and what if you let go too late? how come some people just seem to know? they always seem to get it right.. trying new things can be good maybe....... i don't know.
so confused. and i feel like my throat is going to collapse. gah.
so confused. and i feel like my throat is going to collapse. gah.
it's really miserable being sick in the summer. for all the obvious reason that being sick sucks.. and then some. when you are little and it's summer vacation it sucks more because you can't play with all your friends. when you're "grown up" it might be nice if you get to miss work.. but then you have that feeling of being a slacker, or you're just too miserable to enjoy the fact that you're not working. but.. what sucks about it being summertime.. is that it's SO hot outside and nice and the sun is shining all you want to do is go out and tan your arms, and it's hot and sweaty.. but yet you're so cold inside that you wear your sweaters and pants. you can never decide if you're hot or cold and keep taking off and putting back on that jacket. you toss around in your bed, not being able to sleep, sweating, but yet you need all your blankets because you keep getting chills. the second you take your jacket off/kick off the blankets you are immediately cold, and then when you put them back on, you are sweating so bad. it's a vicious vicious cycle. this is all inaddition to the phlegm, the congestion, the dripping snot, and the earaches... oh man.. i feel so attractive right now. i ache and i'm totally dragging ass. i feel kind of pathetic.. and i hope i don't look as bad as i feel. at least this gives me an excuse to wear my cute new sweater from the gap, and my scarf. i totally look all east coast fall... too bad i'm in the west coast and it's perpetually summer. i mean.. not too bad.. just too bad right now. not that i will complain it's super nice out today. i just keep getting strange looks for my thick sweater and scarf around my neck. some of them are like pitiful poor you looks.. i can't decide whether i appreciate those or not. but i guess i shouldn't sympathy in the gift horse's mouth.. or whatever that saying is (and i added stuff to it.. i know there's nothing about sympathy in that saying).. but so yea. anyways.. i still have 6 hrs to go or so.. i was going to go home to organize stuff beth & co's garage sale this weekend (who wants to buy our junk?!) buti think i'm far too lazy to go back night #5 in a row and organize stuff. it might just have to wait until tomorrow. sorry babe...
new season of softball starts this weekend... hope that it's good!! i'm kind of scared because i went to the meeting and it was all these big guys. as the recreation director so succinctly described them "joey gorrillas".. haha.. that's who we play against. hoo-ray. well i actually haven't seen the teams.. i hear some of them are above us, and some "should" be in the same level. i hope.. *cross your fingers*.. i just don't want to get killed. cuz that's no fun. and no more getting hurt!!
bah.. it's only 1pm.. i was hoping blogging would kill some more time. damn me for typing so fast. umm... my mom left for taiwan last night. it's funny how she always waits until the very last minute to get stuff together. it's another one of those things you hate about yourself, but you can't help. can't teach an old dog new tricks eh? at least she didn't miss her flight, that's the most important part. i was thinking today about my sister having a baby. haha.. kind of weird. i'm gonna be an aunt. my parents are going to be grandparents.... so.. surreal!! hahah.. i guess i don't really know what to expect. i like babies.. and they're super cute... but i was walking around the baby aisles of target and there was so many baby things.. so overwhelming! and it's not even my baby. i had to get out of there fast. hahah.. and then i was surrounding by all these screaming bratty children... and you always say "my child won't be like that" i wonder how much control parents have over whether or not their baby is a "good baby".. like not behaviour wise.. but like fussyness, crying.. like is there much that you can do/control? well we will soon find out.
i hope my sister has a girl next... so i can buy tons of cute hello kitty stuff and cute pink clothes. jk. it'll be interesting to have a boy since there are like no boys in our family...
okay.. at this point.. i'm just rambling. nothing interesting to say whatsoever. so i'll stop the misery now.
ohhhhh 7pm hurry and come!
new season of softball starts this weekend... hope that it's good!! i'm kind of scared because i went to the meeting and it was all these big guys. as the recreation director so succinctly described them "joey gorrillas".. haha.. that's who we play against. hoo-ray. well i actually haven't seen the teams.. i hear some of them are above us, and some "should" be in the same level. i hope.. *cross your fingers*.. i just don't want to get killed. cuz that's no fun. and no more getting hurt!!
bah.. it's only 1pm.. i was hoping blogging would kill some more time. damn me for typing so fast. umm... my mom left for taiwan last night. it's funny how she always waits until the very last minute to get stuff together. it's another one of those things you hate about yourself, but you can't help. can't teach an old dog new tricks eh? at least she didn't miss her flight, that's the most important part. i was thinking today about my sister having a baby. haha.. kind of weird. i'm gonna be an aunt. my parents are going to be grandparents.... so.. surreal!! hahah.. i guess i don't really know what to expect. i like babies.. and they're super cute... but i was walking around the baby aisles of target and there was so many baby things.. so overwhelming! and it's not even my baby. i had to get out of there fast. hahah.. and then i was surrounding by all these screaming bratty children... and you always say "my child won't be like that" i wonder how much control parents have over whether or not their baby is a "good baby".. like not behaviour wise.. but like fussyness, crying.. like is there much that you can do/control? well we will soon find out.
i hope my sister has a girl next... so i can buy tons of cute hello kitty stuff and cute pink clothes. jk. it'll be interesting to have a boy since there are like no boys in our family...
okay.. at this point.. i'm just rambling. nothing interesting to say whatsoever. so i'll stop the misery now.
ohhhhh 7pm hurry and come!
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