ew.. I hate rude customers. They suck a lot of butt. Aside from the normal... yesterday was rude customer day at the GAP. It was horrible. One after another all four of us at one time or another got harassed by idiotic people. This lady yelled at Tracy for not giving her back a shirt that was in her bag the entire time, this lady took a bag when Derek said he couldn't give it to her and said "if he wanted it back she'd give it right back" because she needed to spit in it. Sick.. there was a trash can right outside lady. Not that it's really not something I shouldn't be used to already, I've had multiple people yell at me and give me dirty looks and what not, but I guess it just happened in awhile. So anyways.. I was helping this lady, and I was being really nice, asking her if she wanted gift receipts, and boxes, and she pretty much was rude and ignored me but I was nice and gave it to her anyways. And then I helped her friend, and her friend said she wanted a large paper bag. Since she bought a large sweater I gave her one because I just really didn't feel like dealing with it. Then, this lady, who bought like two tiny shirts wanted a large paper bag. And since a) it was ridiculous to give her a large paper bag for her tiny little purchase, and b) we really didn't have that many bags anyways. I told her we were running low, and I couldn't really give her one. (I said it nicer than that though.) But anyways.. any normal person would have been like okay, and walked away.. maybe a little annoyed, but they would have understood and gotten over it.. because it's that time of the season. You can't expect stores to have all the gift boxes and paper bags you want because everyone and thier mother (literally) is asking for them. Anyways.. so she threw this big hissy fit, and tossed her bag on the counter and said "give me a paper bag or return my stuff." So I paused for two seconds, and started to return her clothes. She gave me the option right? And I really wasn't about to give her a bag. So she threw another hissy fit because I was returning her stuff and wanted to speak to my manager. Threw an attitude at my manager and when he gave her a bag she said "that's right... you need to re-train her" It was just dumb because I know how to do my job, and I do it well.. dammit. I was talking to my best friend, Angelee, who is like princess of shopping (her mom's the queen) and she feels as if I should have complied with these customers, because it's my job, and not my place to pull principle and what not. Like.. I should stick to that rule of the "customer is always right" which really.. I hate that saying.. because.. really.. as I've said before... I hate rude customers. And after thinking about it.. I don't want to sound like I'm whining and complaining, because really.. my job is customer service.. but it's those extreme customers that I dislike.. *sigh.. I don't know.. it's really hard to explain if you don't go through it. And not like customer service in general.. but at this specific store. Like.. I never had any problems like this in San Diego.. but I don't know.. it's hard to explain.. but that was my gripe. I just really dislike when people expect the world when really, they don't deserve it. And this is in all walks of life, not just retail. People complain all day long about things they themselves do, and it's just bothersome.. but I'm sure I do it too.. Everyone does.. it's part of being human I guess. And really.. too complicated to blog about... but something that's been bugging me lately.

Which really.. I've decided that that's what I really use my blogger for. To talk when no one else will listen. what a sad and pathetic life I lead. blah. oh well. I have to be at work in 8 hours. yes.. I've spent 9 hours at the mall for the past four days in a row. It's wonderful.. the mall during christmastime is a craze.. but it's kind of comforting... like method in madness. It's nice to be busy.. stress, but still really at least it gives you something do you ya know? Am I making any sense at all?

I AM SUCH A BAND GEEK!

Okay.. so aside from spending close to 6 years of my life in band, and then trying to attempt to re-join other sorts of bands for 1 or 2 more years, there is always a part of me that will always love band. So here's my story. It's my second day back at work at the mall (go GAP) haha... and I was on my lunch break. I was way tired, but not as tired as the day before, because I had wisely chosen to wear jeans and my adidas instead of a skirt and mary jane platforms. Anyways.. so I'm chillaxin' and eatin, and on the stage, there's an elementary school band tuning up! And they're getting ready to play some Christmas songs. It was sooooo cute. And there were all these parents sitting around, and watching, and video taping (on a Monday afternoon nonetheless).. how sweet. So once I finished my food I walked over to go to Kaybee Toys (to look for a replacement for my sad broken Nsync watch) and before I went in... I HAD to stop and listen because a) they were SOOOO cute and b) it was nostalgia and c) because they were playing christmas songs. But it was soooo cute. And I got that tingly feeling when these two flutists did a Deck the Halls duet. It was so cute. I totally miss being in band. And like it was fun trying to be in the North High band, but really not the same because I didn't really go there. And 'dorkestra' wasn't any better, (although it did help to have cute violinists.. hehehe) and now wind ensemble.. although fun as it may be... I have lost a lot of my skill in fluting, and it's not so fun, when you're not really playing the music. And I dunno.. these concerts, where no one you know really even comes to them, at least no one you I know.. but there's just that *spark missing I suppose. But probably mostly because who knows how well I could play if I had stuck to it.. but I dunno.. maybe someday I will pick it up again, and practice, and be good again. It can be another of those lifetime goals. :)

Anyways.. work has been alright, except my FEET HURT SOOOO MUCH everyday. yikes.. I'm so not used to standing for 8 hours everyday. blahh.. but.. Kathryn DID make my day by sending me a tin of cookies! And they're soooooo good. My mother had to pry the tin out of my hands. THANKS BUTTRYN!! YOU'RE A ROCK STAR! I'm way excited.. I gotta find some time to make some cookies and calorie bars and what not.. :) hehe.. I LOVE not going to school.

well.. I haven't blogged in awhile, but I guess I just didn't feel like it. nothing exciting really. came home from school, went out to lunch and took Carrie to the airport. then went to go have my wisdom teeth taken out. DUDE it sucked. I sat there in a chair and at first the dentist put this gel on my gums that made it kinda numb, and then he tried to put this other numbing stuff in my mouth, but it was in the form of a BIG NEEDLE!! and i completely freaked and jumped out and cried for like a minute. and then just closed my eyes and went through with the operation. I'm sure the dentist thought I was a huge baby. But it was really weird because at one point I went to go scratch my chin, and I could feel the flesh on my chin, but my chin couldn't tell it was being touched. I guess that numbing stuff works REAL well huh? So I closed my eyes, while the rest of the operation was finished. The first tooth took FOREVER to take out, and I figured, hey... if it didn't want to come out, isn't that the point? Just leave it be.. but I guess it doesn't really work that way. A little later I was done, and I chilled, watched TV, took Vicodin and went to bed. that's pretty much how the last two days have been. My sister came by yesterday.. yay! We watched Dawson's Creek and Felicity together.. and she looks so cute! She cut her hair.. aw that kinda makes me want to cut my hair.. but then, I can't look like her! Tomorrow I gotta drive back to SD for work. Hopefully I'll get to play with Kimmy and her calorie bars.. hahaha..

ps.. my mom's a dork. you know that lame commercial with the titanic spoof of the old lady throwing the 'heart of the ocean' diamond of the edge of the boat, and then diving it afterwards realizing how much it's worth and then pawning it off and then become all rich. my mom LOVES that commercial.. how funny. she's a funny monkey.

yay!!! no more tests, no more books, no more teacher's dirty looks. (or in my case, mean TA's)

hahahah.. anyways.. i'm SOOOO done with school and it's been long enough dammit. 10 long long weeks. But yes, I'm finally done (sorry for gloating guys, but this was NOT a fun quarter)

The day after the date auction, I got my butt outta bed and had my meeting with the Kiwanis to start up USD again...umm.. anyone want to help me? please? But yeah, then went to work, and UCSD WOMEN'S SOCCER won the NCAA Div II National Championships!! Whoo hoo! This is the second year in a row that we won it, and the third consecutive year overall (the first year is Div III) Dude.. our soccer team kicks a lot of butt. But it was really cool because I got a little special pass that said "EVENT STAFF" and got to go in special places and had food provided, and I got a walkie talkie (yup.. that means I was REALLY important) hahah.. I love my job. Anyways.. come home, chilled, refused to do my papers, so I watched Varsity Blues. I LOOOOOOVE that movie. It's sooo good. Then I went to bed. (yeah.. I was real productive)

The next day, (monday), woke up late, tried to get some paper done, but wasn't so successful. Went to the San Diego State meeting and then came home, loafed, and wrote my COHI 117 paper. Went to bed really late. Tuesday, I got my butt outta bed at 10:30am went to school to turn in my paper and came home, and tried to write my papers... I mostly read. And watched the Real World Marathon (Kristen's fault) and the Season Finale... aww.. it was soooo sad..but cute at the same time. I would love to be on the Real World, I think that would be awesome.. it's my new goal. Ü Then I tried do my last two papers... but I got in a fight with my mom.. (yes.. again) and was in a really rotten mood. I made Vivian take a drive with me, we went to La Jolla Shores, Mt. Soledad (yeah.. we made out), and In 'N' Out. yup.. drowning out sorrows in chocolate milkshake. Then came back, read, fell asleep and said I'd do it tomorrow.. hah.

Wednesday, I was supposed to re-write my COCU paper.. but I couldn't wake up!! So I woke up an hour before it was due, re-wrote it and had Vivian fix it up (I TOTALLY OWE YOU VIVIAN) and sped to school to turn it in. Then came home, attempted to do my COSF paper... and had to read all these articles first. That took FOREVER. Finally got cracking and pumped out my 6 page paper, complete with references in 1.5 hours. hehe.. that's pretty good, but I'm not really going to comment about the quality of it. Sped to school (again) late and turned it in where I got the NASTIEST look from Cynthia. yuck. But heck.. I was done with my finals, so at that point.. I was like... whatever. Went to Ichibans with Vivian, Kristen, Jill-A, Amanda and Becca for a finals week sushi dinner. whoo hoo! It was good stuff, Vivian totally pigged out.. haha jk. Then drove over to Chris, Mikey and Albert's because it was Chris' birthday!! Happy 21st to him. Too bad he had finals to study for still. And HARD finals.. Chris is a smart boy with smart boy classes (engineering). We delivered his chocolate cake, and chilled for a bit, and got to hang out with Katie Riggs too! yay! But.. Mikey got Chris the BEST birthday present.. hehe.. he bought Chris The Sims game and the HOT DATE EXPANSION PACK!! Next to the e-Kara popstar microphone, that's what I totally wanted. yes yes yes.. I know I'm lame, and I actually want this computer game about going on dates, but it's fun!! So we're going to go back to Chris and Mikey's to go help them pack (they're moving) and play HOT DATE. hehehehe. I'm so excited. Then went and pigged out again on celebratory ice cream at Ghiradelli's (mmm...) with Kathryn, Nadia, Fatima and Kari. I could eat ice cream all day. Had to pay for parking (grr..) and realized I HAD nooooo money... but I fished $4 in changed out and gave it to a very dissapointed parking guy. oops.. sorry.

Later.. I conned Vivian into coming over so that I could keep her up while she typed her paper... and stayed up with her all night.. then went to a Kiwanis breakfast.. soooooo tired. I wanted to pass out while driving. (bad news) .. Then came back, passed out in my bed while Vivian finished up her paper, and half of my cupcakes.. hahaha.. Then I slept ALL day.. woke up at 6pm, and I'm just chillin. It's good not to have any school.. I love it. :)

I talked to my daddy today.. he's so cute! (that's all I wanted to say about him) But I'm excited because I get to work book this weekend for the basketball games.. that's my favorite thing to do! yaaay! Go UCSD basketball... I'll get to see Mike and his broken nose.. hehehe.. :( poor Michael. but that's my life.. nothing too interesting.

duude.. tonight started out as a fun night.. but ended kind of sourly. yuck

well. after staying up way late for no good reason last night, I woke up at 2pm (yup.. i'm a bum) yesterday, bummed around until 3pm... chit chatting, and kinda sorta cleaning my room... and then showered and got ready to go the foothill date auction. michelle, sakura and I drove there and had a good time. it was pure comedy and absolutely hilarious and a great time. ryan and beth's script was all cheesy and full of lame pick up lines ... and the sad part was.. that I knew them all. hahaha.. damn.. i can't use them anymore. anyways.. so yeah. I made Michelle buy Petey, but eh.. whatever.. it's a good time. I was gonna bid of on someone, but then the prices got ridiculously high, $200 for Salamanca!! although..there was a reason for that.. but... $90 for Regala... Joe West. hahah.. and that was the "real" high bid of the night.. but whatever. I'm really proud of them for raising such a great amount of money.. and Ryan and Beth and Salamanca did an awesome job planning it. Everyone who went had a good time... especially Kathy! hahahaha.

Anyways... we tagged along to dinner at Macaroni Grill afterwards, especially since our ride was on a date.. and then just chilled, and ate.. and schmoozed. While drive home, Michelle got pulled over. saaaad :( and the cops were such jerks. It was no fun at all. And while we were waiting I was going to run into the gas station, and they made me stay in the car.. "for my safety" What retards. I hate cops that have their heads up their butts and just ride way too high on their power trips to be nice to someone. I think they should have better things to do that make people feel bad at 2am, or hide in intersections waiting for people who don't make full and complete stops. I'm all for safety and what not.. but ridiculous citations and what not are just a waste of everyone's time. yuck. (that goes for those retarded RSO's at school, and some of those CSO's too... not Jason though.. Ü) he's the best one out there.. haha. I guess I just feel bad because it's like I made Michelle go, and I made her drive for my own selfish reasons... boooooooo. I'm sorry Michelle... :(

so yeah.. basically I'm a moron. for those of you who already knew that.. no big news.. but here's the latest reason why, and yet another thing for people to make fun of me about. Last monday I went to the ucsd cki banquet, and then a week later when I couldn't find my wool coat I thought I lost it. I whined and complained for a whole week because i was so bummed that I lost my wool jacket, and I had no clue where I could have lost it... and today.. I FOUND IT IN MY CLOSET. yup. i felt like a moron.

aaaaanyways. umm... let's see. This week has been blah. I've spent all week being so tired.. for really no good reason at all, but here it is.

NOVEMBER 24
after my retarded blogs (sorry guys) that day i slept and then chilled with the fam, and then drove home. it kinda sucked though because it was all rainy and gross and trafficky. also.. i don't think it helped that i wanted to fall asleep.. but anyways. I got home.. attempted to do some homework, and then went to go see a play at my school: Life's a Dream. It was a really really good play, maybe the best graduate production I've seen so far. Mike Ratterman and Vivian's new obsession were in it.. AS WELL AS my acting TA Erik Johnson. dude.. he's soooooo awesome.. he's going to be fucking famous one day..I guarantee it. He's phenomenal. Enough gushing.. but later that night we went to Mikey, Chris and Albert's awesome PB house. It was so cute.. and it was complete with a "man room" which was their garage converted into a chill room with couches, cool posters and a foosball table (which I KICKED Neil's ass in.. hahaha) It was so Al Bundy No Ma'am type deal... it was so chill... I loved it. We watched Almost Famous on their super fly sound system, and then I drove home my drunkard friends, all the while my car was being turned into the bootymobile... siiiiick.

NOVEMBER 25
I woke up late.. had a lazy day.. then went to Fashion Valley with Vivian. I'm very proud of myself.. I didn't buy anything.. yay me. Then ate dinner at Viv's and did birthday present preparations. It was fun.. birthdays are fun... i love birthdays.. they are a big deal no matter what anyone says.. *mom.. *pete.. *losers
oooooh.. this is why I was so tired this week. On Sunday night I stayed up really really late talking to various people about lots of different things. And also catching up on work that needed to be done.. that I just decided not to go to bed that night because when I was done it was like 6:30 and I had class at 8am. this drained me alllll week.

NOVEMBER 26
Went to class, class, circle k meeting, chillin with sakura, reading, sleep.

NOVEMBER 27
class, point loma kiwanis mtg, reading sleep, mania came over!!
OH YEAH.. happy TWENTY FIRST birthday to peter holiday.. i had to be nice to him for 24 hours.. that was excruciatingly painful..

NOVEMBER 28
DUUUUDE. I went to the INCUBUS CONCERT!! it was so awesome.. I was brave enough to go on the floor, and I was so smushed and had a million people groping me that night I'm sure, and at the end of the night I probably had sweat of all kind in my clothes. Yuck.. BUT IT WAS FUN. haha.. i didn't feel so good at the end of that night though. first I got lost from vivian from all the pushing and shoving and squishing. then someone landed on my head while they were crowd surfing. i swear my neck could have been broken or something. although.. i'm sure i would have been able to tell right away.. maybe it just got jammed. and then i fell once, and then a second time! the second time was way scary though because like 20 other people fell on top of me, and then got up, and then 10 more people fell on top of me. At that point I decided I was not having so much fun anymore and wanted out. found vivian.. we watched from afar... but they are so incredibly awesome and talented. i spent most of the time just watching brandon sing, and he seems to really put himself into his music and what he does.. it's great. i almost got to touch him too, but there were tall guys all around me with much longer arms.. booo... and then waited outside afterwards to see if we could meet them like we did with GAVIN ROSSDALE and weezer. but i had a horrific headache and my contacts were bothering me and it was butt cold, AND we didn't get to see BRANDON BOYD, so it was not so fun either. But.. I did get to see Kilmore rather up close being driven away. I did lose my old navy shirt though after taking it off because it was too drenched with sweat (yuck). and I was really pissed because i felt like i was losing EVERYTHING!! (keep in mind this was before i found my jacket IN MY CLOSET!!) got dropped off at home, and then tired and sore, showered and then went to bed.

NOVEMBER 29
class at 8am.. yuck, it was a rainy day :(, tutoring kids..., watched dawson's and felicity.. awww.. i want a pacey! or a ben.. (YEAH NICOLE.. BEN.. NOEL IS LAME) and this is a question that I have. when did dawson leery get so unbelievably hot. i was watching this episode.. and he's sooooo cute. I don't understand, and it's not like i really ever though before.. but he just was so irresistable in this episode. yikes. but yeah.. dawson's and felicity are definitely guilty pleasures. then i went to LA Fitness (in San Diego.. haha) with Vivian and we worked out.. I ran for a mile.. good for me eh? It was bad though because my arms and stomach already hurt mucho from the concert the night before.. so i added pain on top of that.. no good. but it was alright..

NOVEMBER 30
that's today!! LAST DAY OF THE QUARTER.. ALRITE!! i'm so excited this quarter is over. it seems like it's been way too long. like the vendor fair was sooooo long ago. but this quarter has seemed to drag on foreeeever.. and so i am not really sad to see it go at all. especially that cosf 100 class. but YAY!!! so i'm done with classes.. which is awesome. and all of my finals are PAPERS!! whoo hoo.. so I don't actually have to take any tests.. figures.. i should probably be working on them now, or cleaning my room.. but that's why I'm blogging. haha.. but after my classes I went to work at the NCAA Final Four for women's soccer. yay!! i felt all special.. I had a special seat with a sign with my name on it.. and then i got a special pass type deal. hehee.. i love my job. i EVEN had a walkee talkee.. hehe.. those always make you feel important. but i had to call in what was going on in the game so that Ray could update it on the website so people could look at the game on goings.. live. cool huh? well.. UCSD was in the final four.. and it was AWESOME. the first part of the game was pretty uneventful.. but it quickly got exciting. but .. WE WON our semi-final game and we're going to the championships!!! yay! and the crowd was incredible. they were cheering throughout the whole game.. it was great. people who think that there are no sports at our school are kinda right.. but at the same time.. it's there if you want to be part of it.. you just need to go out and support it, so I'm glad that people came out tonight.. it was so fun.

other than that.. not too much else. going to the foothill date auction tomorrow.. hahaha.. it's going to be comedy. still feel like a moron about my jacket.. but EXTREMELY happy that i didn't lose it. it made my day. so happy that this quarter is done with. still very tired, but yet.. still procrastinating as you read. some things never change eh?

this blog is only for my purely selfish reasons to make myself feel better. after wallowing in my own self pity after talking to a friend.. i feel like i am the lamest soul in the world. for a lot of different reasons. i guess it has to do with my self image... or my friends, my family.. or the boys.. or more like the lack there of.. and i guess all the other things that teenage adolesence makes you deal with. and i do it a lot, but i end up comparing myself to a lot of other people.. which is not a good thing to do. but i guess.. i just wanted to let people know that I was unhappy in this moment (as i'm sure that you really care) and ask for people to cheer me up I guess... drop me an email to say hello and that you love me and what not and to cheer me up, because really it would make my day.. even if I never admit to it. I guess every once in awhile someone just has hear the good things about themselves, from other people.. and not from themselves and they're stuart smalley reassurance methods. It's nice to know that they really are loved... and although you can say that it's always there.. every so often they need to hear it. *dude.. i must seem super shallow right now.. sorry guys.

I can't believe Thanksgiving weekend is almost over, or at least it feels that way. It's Friday night and I REALLY don't want to go back to school. Although it is only for one more week of school and one week of finals, where I don't even really know how many finals I have.. but whatever. (yes.. i'm only in school for two more weeks.. don't you hate me?)

Thursday was fun. I slept until 4:30pm.. yes I know, I'm a lazy bum. But to my defense I went to bed way late that night, and I hadn't slept like all the week before, so I guess I'm just catching up right? Anyways.. woke up, showered, and then chilled until it was time for dinner. Had a yummy dinner with my parents, my sister, and then my "aunt's" nephew and his cousin. And then just chilled, watched my movies, and talked to my friends on the phone. Consoled my poor friend Vivian who had issues of all sorts... all just part of being a girl. After that, I decided that boys are not worth the trouble.. and from now on.. just to go with the flow.. sounds good right? Let's see what really happens. But anyways..

Friday.. SHOPPING! It's the day after Thanksgiving, the BIGGEST shopping day of the year.. and I didn't have to work this year.. hahah. Anyways.. Angelee, my forever shopping partner, picked me up, went to the Galleria (the best mall ever) and chowed on our usuall favorite.. the cheesesteak... mmm... Then did the usual: Nordstrom's, GAP, Banana, Abercrombie, Victoria's Secret, all the various shoe stores, Forever 21, etc.. All the stores in the mall worth going, we went to. Did our damage to our credit cards, and then.. Went to another mall.. Del Amo. hahah. Anyways.. just perused around a little bit. I did run into a million and two high school people who it was good to see and just say hi to.. Larissa, April, Nancy CHOOONNNNG.. high school friends are good to run into to just remember the good times. Talked to my good friend Benji (who is single by the way ladies.. intellectual CS major at MIT who is also in a fraternity and on the gymnastics team (think Blaine Wilson)) haha. Anyways. Poor him.. I heard about all the trauma he had with people confiscating his scissors (hah) and some lady taking his luggage thinking it was hers.. sad sad. Anyways.. came home, ate turkey leftovers INSTEAD of going to El Torasco which I was so looking forward too. (aka.. excellent mexican food) And my sister bought these little cakes for my birthday present.. yay! And my mom gave me a birthday gift.. yay! My family is fun. Anyways.. watched the *NSYNC ATLANTIS CONCERT... oh my gosh.. soooo hot. JC, LANCE, JUSTIN, JOEY, CHRIS.. so great, so talented, and they make me melt. I love them. :) (yes.. I can hear you gagging.. stop it right now) But they are incredible.. and you really can't deny that fact.. unless you can sing and dance better than they can.. and I'd like to see it.. CUZ YOU CAN'T! Nicole's so right.. they're not a boy band.. they're a MAN BAND! hehe.

Anyways.. I hung up on poor Benji for them, so I talked to him later that night about his sordid love life. Dude.. girls can be such jerks sometimes. (but so can guys, so don't think that guys are so harmless or whatever) And just kinda talked... it was a good time. But now.. it is time for bed.. I gotta drive back to SD tomorrow and watch a play for class.. booo... but hopefully it will be fun. I can cure Vivian of her boredness help her resist her temptations.. aka.. I'm just going to be eating ice cream, complaining about boys, and watching depressing movies all night. fun... or.. maybe we'll find some fun place to go and get obliterated. haha.. that sounds like a plan. Ü umm. just kidding. that's my plan for next year.... riiiight

PS. I was supposed to hang out with Elizabeth Fujiura tonight.. but no.. SHE DITCHED ME. yuck. and I bet she won't even call me tomorrow.. what a jerk.. :P

I absolutely love my friends. I have come to realize lately that I have some pretty awesome friends.

Yesterday.. well two days ago now actually.. it was my birthday.. yay! :) And it was just kinda chill. I was suuuper tired because I had a midterm that morning (booo) and I had a paper due the day before and was at FTC all weekend before that (more to tell later). Failed my midterm, and hung around school waiting for my ride home. But instead, went to Carlsbad to go shopping, and then ate at Chipotle and then to Trader Joe's. Where I talked to Phil, who I haven't seen in a long time, and Vivian let him know that it was my birthday and he told me to pick out some flowers. aww... *sweet. So I "got flowers from Phil" and then crack-whore came over and gave me flowers and this funny funny card. I guess it makes up for her DITCHING ME FOR A BOY.. but whatever. haha.. she wouldn't be my crack-whore if she didn't do things like that. :P Anyways.. I got messages and emails from my friends all day, and THEN found out that my sister was going to the BRITNEY SPEARS concert. ew.. what a bum.. She didn't even invite me.. she better have picked me up some bad ass souvenir. Anyways.. then all my girls came over and we ate and chit chatted and hung out. It was good, now that we don't live in the dorms we never really get together and just all hang out. Jill-A, Stup, Patty, Kimmy Gibbler, Vivian, Becca, and Sakura all came over, and I got a couple presents. It was fun just hanging out with them and we all did the whole girl talk business.. haha. and we also watched Real World. I TOTALLY miss living in the dorms because of this very reason. We never get to just chill whenever, and I can't just sleep in my friend's bed or they can run in and sing the rise and since song to wake me up and we never have dance parties anymore. *sigh.. memories. this is when you really don't want to grow up. Anyways.. needless to say I had a fun birthday.

FTC was so awesome. It was the best FTC I've ever been to, and Nicole is way rad. She's my new idol. Anyways.. after a way traumatic Thursday night of fighting with my mom and then losing my gas cap and bawling while on the phone with Beth in a gas station parking lot I finally got to Beth's apartment and chilled with the District Board. Then dragging Salamanca out to take me to Kinko's.. THAT WAS CLOSED! ooh.. I was so mad. Anyways.. getting no sleep, I went up the mountain to FTC with Beth. We did the whole Board meeting thing, among talking about mucho other things. Got settled in, got to be in the presence of Pete Holiday *the International Vice President* oooOOOOOooooo (hahaha)... and everyone else in the district and waited all day for my division to arrive. We did opening session where I made a big fool out of myself.. but it's okay.. because people enjoyed it (when do they not enjoy watching other people be idiots?) Then I just kinda chilled all night. Saturday, workshops, business, food, service project, Kathy's and mine's AWESOME icebreaker workshop. And then I played in the basketball tournament with Pete, Becca, and Kieu. We won our first game and LET Joe and Joey win the next game cuz we didn't want to play anymore and Becca and I had to leave for the New Member Install. But yeah.. I scored the first basket of that game.. and it was nothing but net *whoosh!*. I rock. Anyways.. PTP rafflin, dance. yada yada yada. Then SAA'ing aka.. telling people not to sneak out for the meteor shower. I'm sure I made a lot of enemies that night. I told Ellie that I felt like I was border patrol on the US side trying to catch all the hoodlums that were trying to blend into the dirt trying to sneak into the US. haha.. Kathy was the head hoodlum! Anyways.. breakfast, then closing session, pictures, goodbyes, hanging out with the District Board afterwards. And then back to Torrance where I napped and then drove back to SD. Tried to write my paper, and tried to study for my midterm. *gosh.. I can't wait until school is over.

So now it comes full circle back to my birthday. And today.. I had no classes! whoo hoo.. they all got cancelled.. I slept in for once this year, and then Vivian brought my pictures to me. They're cute. I drove home in only mildly insane traffic. But I did take the Toll Road which made it a TON faster. I was really really tired though.. I wanted to fall asleep. And I wanted to talk to someone, but I couldn't think of anyone that I could call that would talk to me. so.. I just tried not to pass out. Even my blasting radio didn't help.. yikes. Anyways.. came home, slept (again) and then went to Angelee's house. That girl is a TON of fun. we chilled, looked at my pictures, I ate, watched Dawson's and Felicity until we left. I met some of her friends, Harsh and Bradley. And then I went to Rick Berman's (the exec producer of Star Trek.. shyeah.. )house because Harsh was high school friend's with his son Tom. They have a NICE house, and I got a gaze at the emmy. DUDE... I want to be like that when I grow up. That's awesome. All those snotty folks who go to Harvard-Westlake.. they all have niiiiice houses. After we stopped gawking and drooling we attempted to go to Roscoe's Chicken and Waffles, but it was closed, so we went to Wendy's instead. Then to Brad's house and chillaxed there. Before I drove everyone home. Buuut.. Angelee did give me my birthday present.. yes yes.. I now own the new Britney CD. Yay! Tonight was a fun time. I just hope I don't get in trouble for coming home too late. Yes.. I'm 20 years old and in college, and my parents still feel the need to treat me like I'm 5 years old. It's great.

Anyhoo.. time to hit the sack.. *night y'all. Happy Turkey Day.

I am so unbelievably excited that it is the weekend you would not even know. Hmm.. my week... has been busy. On Wednesday.. I slept through my morning class, :( but thankfully she didn't give us a quiz, but told us there was one on Friday (same day as my dumb COSF midterm). boo. And then I proceeded to go to Chem and COSF and section. mm.. that's a whole bunch of fun. I don't remember what I did Wednesday night, but I'm sure it was both boring and unproductive. That seems to be a growing trend in my life lately. (i'm sad and lame huh?) Thursday, class.. watched Being There.. which everyone says is such a great movie, but you know what? I absolutely hate it. It seems moronic this idea of this man who knows absolutely nothing and everyone thinks that he's an absolute genius. It's and interesting concept, but it really doesn't seem plausible. If I ever talked to him, and he was talking about gardening and whatever else nonsense, I wouldn't think they were metaphors, I would just think he has problems. I don't see why everyone is so infatuated with this movie, I can't even stand to watch it, but mm.. maybe I'm the demented one.. or just the stupid one who doesn't see the "meaning" of fabulous movies like that.

Anyways.. then I tried to go to the Point Loma Kiwanis Luncheon, yet again. This time, I found the right place, but yet.. they changed their meeting dates! oh.. how frustrating. So Kieu and I went to the tail end of the UC Kiwanis meeting and then I dragged her to the tshirt place to turn in my designs for my paradise shirts. Dude.. I'm so excited.. my shirts are going to kick so much ass. Ü yay! Anyways.. so I went home before the Cal State San Marcos banquet and instead of reading, I just fell asleep. hah.. Went to the banquet, and came home.. tried to study.. (the night before my midterm.. like always). And yet.. didn't. I'm so lame, I didn't want to study at all and ended up talking on the phone for like 3 or 4 hours. It's insane, and then was online for another 1 or 2 hours.. before I really started cracking down. Then I decided to take a little nap.. 15 minutes.. haha.. turned into like 4 hours.. woke up, tried to cram for my quiz, went to class, bs'ed through my quiz, tried to cram is COSF info, Kiwanis Luncheon, bs'ed through my midterm, another nap (i like naps.) and then women's volleyball game that I actually could enjoy as a fan and not as a worker. It was great, and I love the men's volleyball team because they sit around and harass the other team, and it's funny because they actually know what they're talking about, they're not just annoying parents or fans who think they know what they're talking about but don't. And they also use the game programs to single out members of the other teams and harass them as well. It was hilarious. The men's team is great about supporting the women's team.. it's really nice. Anyways.. went to Taylor's party which is always a good time. I was DD tonight, which was fine because I can have a good time sans alcohol.. and besides.. I don't touch the stuff because I'm not 21 .. riiiiiight. Ü I saw my USD girls which I haven't seen in awhile.. and met some new friends of Ashley's from State. There's always a fun crowd. I was kinda bummed because I had to leave earlier than I wanted to because of my carpool. I guess I'm just sad I hardly get to hang out with Taylor and Ashley, and tonight was no different. There's a lot to say and a lot of things that tonight makes me think about, but here might not be the best place for them to be said. So this is where this story ends.

But I do also feel bad for my mom who called me today to see if I was coming home for the three day weekend. I gave up coming home to work this weekend, and have my DCM, but work is the main issue because ordinarily I could just go home after my DCM and still have a good couple of days at home, but I opted to work instead of going home. I could still go home on Sunday afternoon, but who knows. I feel bad because my mom extended this welcome to see if I would come home because I guess she feels that now that I have a car that I can come home more easily without having my dad to pick me up or me taking the train. But yet, I still don't go home that often, and when I do go home I'm usually running around doing Circle K stuff or other errands, or sleeping. It makes me sad because I feel like I'm neglecting my family, but I don't really mean to. I guess I just hope that my family knows that I still love them lots even though I don't go home all the time, and we fight when we are together. I dunno. Yikes.. I'm in a pensive mood right now. I think about all the things that I'm doing wrong and then depress myself over them.. shoot.. I need to stop this too. Haha.. maybe being as busy as I have been for the past couple weeks is a good thing, because although I kill myself over the things I need to get done, and I'm always tired beyond belief, at least I don't have time to worry about what a lame-o I am. yuck.

*disclaimer* sorry if this blog has offended you or put you in a bad mood. :(

Yikes... I'm in this slump of unmotivation and not wanting to do anything. It's kinda sad. I have a midterm that got pushed up from next Monday to this Friday (you suck Hallin) and I haven't really read at all. Sucks. And there's all this FTC shtuff I have to do... yikes. Anyways.. hmm.. I really haven't been doing much at all I guess.

On Halloween I worked at Women's Volleyball game and then went home. I was so utterly tired I didn't even want to go out, not to SAE, not to Gibbler's friend's, nowhere. Yes yes, I'm lame, I know. So I stayed home and watched Felicity and South Park.. :) Worked on Friday night again at the swim meet.. mm.. and I ate In N Out for dinner. Yum. Hmm.. I was trying to remember what I did all during the week, and I forgot and just assumed that I hadn't done anything. But no.. I did Masquerade Ball stuff all week. Yeah.. meeting with Sakura, driving around to places, going to school at midnight to post fliers, blah. Anyways.. Saturday was Masquerade Ball, as well as the same day that I bought my dress for Masquerade Ball. hehe.. I bought these two cute dresses, one was more party like a black pseudo wrap around dress with 3/4 sleeves and gold sparklies (oohh) and a more business type dress, it was just plain black sleeveless with one of those loose neck collars. It's cute, but I figured it wasn't really party attire, so maybe I'll wear it to the next board meeting or convention, or to the GAP or something. But.. I charged both of those on my credit card, granted they weren't too expensive because I went to Forever Skank and Charlotte Russe, but still.. $50 on my card for clothes.. hehe.. I wonder what my dad is going to say. :P

Anyways.. Masquerade Ball was alright, like all things that I do I feel like it could have been better, but it was good for the two weeks that Sakura and I had. I'm glad that most of my friends showed up. I hung out with Jill-A, Richard and Stup a little, Stup had the prettiest dress :), sung a little Karaoke, and hung out with Sakura, Beth, Ryan, Nicole, Jimmy, Manny, Stephanie, and unfortunately, Salamanca.. (just kidding). And plus everyone else on the boat. I tried to make friends :) I mingled a little bit with the peoples on the boat.. said "I hope to see you at FTC!" hehe.. just trying to help Nicole out.. whatever. Anyways.. Went to Denny's afterwards where I ordered a TON of food, and just gave half of it to Pete Weber anyways. Had a mini-drama over who was staying where, and drove home afterwards, and got to bed at 5am. We were all just really cranky and tired. boo. Anyways.. woke up Sunday, chilled, ate my free burritos.. hehe, and then went and worked out with Mania! Although I spent all of Monday being sore, it was still good. I also ran into Paul Dodge who is cool and chatted with him for a bit ... I might just have a new In N Out buddy. hehe. Monday I drove to San Marcos for their "board" meeting and missed the UCSD one. sadness, and that night dealt with all sorts of Circle K shiznit. I was so upset and I was probably being really annoying. I feel bad for my friends who I pestered last night.. :( I'll apologize later. Anyways.. I didn't go to class this morning.. but it's okay because we watched Being There, and I already saw it. And I have to work later, get a million things done for FTC and my DCM. Oh and I have a midterm on Friday, paper due next Wednesday and another midterm next thursday on top of everything else. Hmm.. didn't I go through this already? yikes..

for beth: fye

I absolutely do not want to do my paper. Which is never really a surprise to anyone.. umm. except that it's due in 6 hours or so and I have no clue what I'm going to write about. umm.. yeah. So I decided to procrastinate some more and blog. haah.. maybe I work better under pressure. Anyways.. So on Saturday I work at a 9 hour Swim Invitational using the new equipment. Which was fun and all and makes my job easier, but the day of the swim meet, during the meet is not a good time to see if the equipment works. Remember that. Anyways.. went home and was supposed to write my paper, and nope.. I didn't, talked to people online, cleaned my room, watched some tv, burned a cd, re-organized my room, washed my clothes... everything but the paper. :P

This morning I woke up to go to CKI South. I was a little late, but not later than Sean, who we had to wake up, and then wait for, only to have him decide that he wanted to drive himself to LA! oh my gosh.. anyways.. there's going to be some heavy fining involved on Monday. Sakura and I ran around like idiots shoving fliers for Maquerade Ball in everyone's faces. and our entire team ran around Columbia Park ran around cheering for ourselves like idiots.. hah.. oh yeah.. and making fun of Hailes because we put him on the SDSU team and kept telling him to "not try as hard" it was a good time. I wish more of our general members went so that they could have seen this side of Circle K... but you know what? UCSD WON FIRST PLACE!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! We're all so competitive, we were just like.. "we wanna win" But we did, so that's good! When we didn't get second or third, Sakura and I started thinking we got first and not really sure, and our hearts were beating so fast, and then we laughed at ourselves for being such losers. But we won, and we screamed and cheered for ourselves (again). We're such nerds. Anyways.. then we ransacked our houses and my neighbors houses for donations to give to the victims of 9:11. And I met some of my neighbors, who can be quite scary. Ask me about one of the "anti-terrorism" shirts my neighbor was wearing. Yikes. Then some people went to the Loft to eat, and then I went home... chillaxed with my parents a little bit, and then slept all afternoon. I woke up at midnight and tried to read for my paper, and then got the "you have too many extra-curricular activities and don't spend enough time on school" comments from my mom. Finally at 3am I decided I wasn't getting anything done so I drove back to school with my worrisome mother loading me up with lots of "make sure you get home safe" tools. :) So here I am 3 hours later... no further than I was.. but I do have a 6 pack of Mountain Dew... hmm.. wish me luck.

so I'm kinda excited.. I just found out it was Daylight Savings.. so we get to "fall back" and I get another precious hour of sleep before I drive to Torrance for CKI South. yeah.. instead of going straight to bed rejoicing my 1 hour of sleep. I waste more of my time since I apparently have more of it. I'm a moron. That's all I wanted to say..

the last couple of days have been interesting days to say the least. Wednesday.. I had the absolute worst night of my life. I woke up completely tired because I had like a half an hour of sleep. Went through the day, slept through my classes (haha), and then ran errands for Circle K. I had to fight horrendous trafiic, and then went to Party City. On the way home, Sakura and I thought we'd have enough time so that we could get home in time to watch Felicity. That is.. if I HADN'T GOTTEN ON THE FREEWAY GOING THE WRONG WAY. Yeah.. I went North instead of South.. dumb me. And I was running out of gas. (greeeaaat) So I get gas, and then get on the right freeway and think everything's over. But no... I go over to pick something up, and the night kinda goes like this: I have a talk that I don't want to have with someone, that includes tears and "stern" language and no result whatsoever, then being double parked behind so I couldn't leave and go home, which is all I wanted to do at that point, getting in a fight with a friend's boyfriend, but finally I did get to go home. yay! but I got home way late, and still had mucha tarea to do.. so I tried to do it as much as I could until I felt like I was going to pass out, and then did. Unfortunately that only left me with a couple hours of sleep. Woke up feeling like shit the next day.... and while walking to class my insides and outsides all hurt at the same time. I almost started crying.. (poor poor pitiful me)... Anyways.. got through that day.

Today.. I was restricted to going to my morning class by Vivian who said I need sleep for my own health and well being, and so I slept until my afternoon engagements and classes. Then tonight I went to two friends' 21st birthday party! It was a really good time, and I got to hang out with some cool people. It was a lot of fun, except for worrying about friends who were way too drunk and getting puked on in the car ride home (yuck!)... but I just hope all of my friends are going to be okay... I know they will. Anyways.. I think it's amazing how I still have so much clarity when I'm "tipsy" I have mad skills. haha.. anyways.. I have to work tomorrow morning... I hope I'll be okay. :)

Heehe.. I think it's funny how in my last blog I talk about not having an internet connection.. AND NOW I HAVE ONE! Yeah! I am now a proud user of Dial-Up! Whoo hoo! Me and Nicole rock. hha.. Anyways. Thanks to Jeff Lan.. who spent multiple hours to try and fix the two modems I already had (with no drivers..:P) but ended with us just buying a new one from Fry's (why my cashier was the nerdiest boy ever who looked/talked/acted like he was born in Fry's) *gosh. I'm such a jerk.

Anyways.. Let's see.. since the 16th... umm.. yeah I had the week from Heck last week. I had a midterm on Monday, that of course I didn't do the reading until Sunday night because I'm a procrastinator extraordinary. And then on Tuesday, when I think I'm safe, I find out I have a midterm on Thursday (although I really should have known well before that.. oh well), so I try to study for that, but yet it doesn't start until Wednesday either... or more like Thursday morning.. (I took a nap and it lasted longer than expected... just my luck) and so I did that, and I think it went pretty well though. It was a heck of a lot more useful that stupid Mexican Television Trivia. BLAAAHHHHH! so yeah.. Friday I went to Horton Plaza with Vivian, Jason and Sakura. Sakura and I tried to get donations for Masquerade Ball.. and we ate Mongolian Noodles at the mall.. mmm.... so what I was craving. And then proceeded to shop for Jason's new wardrobe in an attempt to make him "cooler." Yes.. that's really what we were doing.. honest! And I'm damn good at it too, I didn't work at the GAP for nothing.. I'm good with fashion dammit. Anyways.. then went to Carli's to bake brownies and got harassed by Hailes. (ew) and went home extremely exhausted, on to wake up the next morning to work the CCAA Cross Country Finals. I admired these fools who can run 3-5 miles, uphill, downhill in the woods in tiny little shorts in less than 30 minutes. It's amazing.. something I wouldn't be able to do if my life depended on it! Crazy. Anyways.. talked to Angelee.. dude.. I love that girl, and I was supposed to go to the CAL vs. UCLA game with her, but I left to late. Oh well it was a whole case of whoop-ass brought on by UCLA anyways. Eh.. it would have been my first football game. But I guess that'll just have to wait. But honestly.. I think that all these people who have fun football teams at their school take it for granted because speaking from someone who didn't have football in high school OR college, it really kinda sucks. I always wanted to be part o fthat Varsity Blues party life.. it'd be fun.. anyways. So yeah.. drove home (and I never realized how tiring that was) and chillaxed with the parents at home. And of course inevitably getting into a fight with my mother before I left on Sunday... I feel bad, but it's just so hard to stop it. We're both so stubborn and opinionated and we both think we're being misunderstood. Yikes.. not a good combination.

Drove home... started my paper at midnight (due at 9am.) I suck dude.. and then slept through all my classes the rest of the day. Not on purpose though! I fully intended on going to chem and social force, but I slept through my alarm! Yikes.. woke up right in time for Circle K. The funniest thing happened at the meeting. The Pres and the VP had to dig in pudding for the gavel back. True, Riverside and Berkeley have done this before, but I've never seen it live. It's honestly the funniest thing ever. Sakura, Carli, Kieu and I were just standing there laughing trying not to fall over. I couldn't breathe and I started crying because I was laughing so hard. hehe.. it was great. Then went to Horton to follow up on the donations.

Today I just went to my one class, then wasted my time the rest of the day. Horrible eh? But I did make pies!! I was proud of myself.. it's good too! Chocolatte Mousse. Wanna pie? I'll make you one! Went grocery shopping with Crack Whore and wasted more time before Jeff came over to fix my ~pooter. I'm so excited.. except I hope I don't spend allll of my time online. That's bad news. I can't get addicted again.. I'm barely coming off the withdrawal. I'm on the 12th step!! Anyways.. I spent a ridiculous amount of time online tonight.. I think just to feed my addiction once to get it out of my system and hopefully it won't be too bad next time. But you know what.. tonight was interesting, I got to talk to a lot of people I haven't talked to in awhile. But also...

I think I learned a lot tonight, and I really should start putting things into perspective. I talked to some really great people who had a lot of really intelligent things to say.. it's one of those conversations that makes you go hmm.. Granted it took a 3 hour phone conversation starting at 2am (there go my 3000 minutes) but it helped a lot. Those conversations are the best. But I talked to our International Trustee.. who also happens to be the *gasp* INTERNATIONAL VICE PRESIDENT!! yes yes.. me, one of the little people had a conversation with the him. haha.. okay I'll stop now. But yeah.. he seems like a really nice guy with good things to say. I'm really glad I had a chance to talk to him and have a little bit better outlook on this year. The coolest thing though.. is that his birthday is EXACTLY one week after mine. Yeah.. I'm a nerd.. I get excited when people's birthday's are around mine.. whatever.. suck it. But yeah.. so we're born 51 weeks apart. Nice huh? And Britney Spears is born 13 days after me and her middle name is Jean.. *it's a sign! Anyways.. I talked to another friend from home for THREE HOURS about nothing and everything all at once. We talked about lot about expectations, fears, rejection, personalities, and big plethora of other things. And we both passed on the same message to each other, it that it doesn't matter what other people think as long as you yourself are content. Which is funny because we both told each other this, but have problems with it ourselves. Ironic eh? But it was a great conversation because we really understand each other, and can help each other out. But while I was talking to her and I was so angry about random stuff, that in the whole scheme of life.. isn't really that important, and doesn't matter in the long run. And I start to think why should I bother to get so upset about it. Or rather.. why do I? And then as I'm bawling and trying to speak intelligible words, I also think to myself... why am I'm crying over this in the first place.. is it all really worth it.. and I guess that's what I have to figure out. whoa .. sorry to get all philosophical on you, but I think I just needed an outlet. and here it was, so sorry if you feel into the trap.... next time I'll try to have a parental advisory or something.

Anyways.. On Monday, I also found out that MY SISTER MET JC and Chris FROM *NSYNC!!!!!! Oh my gosh.. I'm sooo jealous. She also bought me a t-shirt from the concert.. which is awesome of her. I have a great sister. :) I love her. And she shot video footage of them and Backstreet Boys perfoming... yeeeaaahhh! (she also saw the BSB praticing in their dressing room so she saw them sing acapella!) I also got that Nike bag I wanted for forever and a day. So I'm a happy camper, shoot I'm estatic. There was this really cute puffy jacket that I wanted but my mom got kinda mad. Haha.. that's what happens when you set me loose in a bargain store. BUT MY SISTER MET JC, AND TALKED TO HIM AND SHOOK HIS HAND AND THEN TOOK A PICTURE WITH HIM... OOOOOOOOHHHH MYYYY. And I'm such a dork.. I asked her if she had washed her hands yet after she shook his hand. And of course she said yes.. but am I really that psycho? I guess I am because I was screaming in my kitchen and jumping up and down. It was great. I can't wait until the pictures gets developed. First Ann meets him and take a photo, and then my sis. *next.. it's my turn! and rumor has it that he broke up with his girlfriend!! heheheheheheheh.. * Or maybe I can just take one with *Pete Holiday*.. that would be the equivalent. hahaha.

*are you amazed how i can shift from depressive-deep-thought blog to random-ditzy-teeny-bopper blog so easily? hah.. yes yes i'm multi-faceted.

Gosh.. I really haven't blogged in a long time. The effects of not having an internet connection. Anyways.. I'm always usually too tired to blog, as I kinda am right now... but after reading about everyone else exciting life, I kinda felt left out. Even Beth is blogging! *gasp*

Anyhoo.. my life hasn't been all too exciting. Mostly my l ife just consists of school and Circle K. No homework though, because we all know that I don't read. I'm illiterate. Anyways.. Tricia and I took Mania out for her birthday a weekend ago. It was a good time. We went to CPK. We have a good time when we're together. I love my friends in San Diego. Although it's kind of sad because we're so spread out now. But it was fun because all of the girls went out again for Mania's birthday again on Thursday. haha.. we like to celebrate a lot. Anyways... other than that I've just been trying to cope with school and doing my Circle K thing. One thing that makes me extreeemely excited is the fact that Amanda and Jill and Becca are so in love with Circle K. I love it that they're so excited, it makes me happy. :) Even though Amanda and Richard both fined me a dollar each for being from Torrance. What jerks. :P Anyways.. I also love it that Sakura is in the club, because we think alike on a lot of the same things, and we are always there for each other. It's great. But as I called a friend today and fell apart because I felt like I'm not doing my job, I think a lot of people are kind of feeling that way. Except for maybe a few. But honestly.. sometimes I feel like I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing, and partly it's because I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing! And I can't get people involved, and they don't care... but as my friend says.. it's not really my job to get people to care. I tell them about it, and if they don't want to do anything about it.. I can't force them. But still... it leaves me with that emptiness.

But also.. in terms of general life.. I feel icky because in that area I feel so lost too. Everyone seems to have their life figured out, and they know what they want to do. But I honestly have no clue. I think I'm going to grow up to be an old maid who's never been on a date and who lives with her parents for eternity. That's what it seems like right now. I told Sergi that I admired him and that I thought he was great because he totally seemed to have his life in perspective, and I think he told me that he really didn't. So I guess I wonder how many other people seem all put together but really aren't?

And then there's the question of my social life.. do I really even have one? On Saturday night I wanted to go to the soccer party, but the best directions I could get were that it was "off Governor." Granted I'm sure if I drove down the street I could probably find it, but hey... Vivian and I went to Olive Garden instead. We had a blast... it was great. But I dunno.. I think I'm in that mood where I'm throwing myself a pity party again. I just am in the middle of so many things, that I think that I'm just so utterly confused... *sigh.

Anyways.. on a lighter note to end this depressing blog (sorry guys).. I think I failed my midterm today. Haha.. you would think I would be heartbroken, but I think I just find it amusing about how little I know about Mexican television. hahah.. honestly.. even if I did learn this stuff.. how is it really going to help me in the end? Really Professor Hallin. I don't care about the commercialization of the Mexican media. booooooooooooooooooooo. But one more thing. Do you know where my sister is right now? She's in Washington DC working on the ABC special that's airing the benefit concert from RFK stadium that has *NSYNC and the BACKSTREET BOYS.. and some other people like Aerosmith, Michael Jackson.. ehh.. not important. BUT NSYNC! BSB! all I say is that I hope I get some pictures, or autographed stuff.. or some cool stuff. That would be so rad. :) I love my sister and her wicked job. :)

I'll end with the words of Beth "Joe Bussiere's so cute!" and Nicole "He's so dreamy!" (hahahahhahah.. those kids are crazy)

I honestly never thought I could be so tired in my life. Well I guess I could be... like during convention or something where we don't sleep for days.. but I'm getting some amounts of sleep, but I just wake up so stinking early to sit through classes. yuck. Anyways.. so my weekend was pretty blah. So anyways.. against my better judgement and my friends' advice, I decided to rush.. yes.. again. I dunno.. I thought maybe it would be different this year. And plus Vivian was doing it, and so it was just going to be all fun and games. But ironically enough, the same exact thing happened as last year. Weirdness... That's the second time that the same situation has happened to me two times in two years. I swear.. it's a sign. Like.. someone saying we'll put you through exactly what you went through last year so that you understand, or that you see that it's not supposed to happen. But yeah.. I got dropped after spirit night, but you know what it's okay. I really don't mind it that much. I mean.. in some ways I guess I do.. like I think it would be fun to get all the presents and go to all the dances and get all dressed up and look cute. But.. I also know that if I did that I would be so busy and even more so tired than I already am, and way too stressed out, so in the end, that's the way it's supposed to be right? And I really like what Mark said about me.. hah.. he tells Vivian that I already live the sorority girl life anyways, so I don't really need to pay to be in one. hahah. *sorry if I offended anyone.

But after rush on Saturday night Vivian and I went to Sebastian's birthday party. It was a good time and I saw a lot of people I hadn't seen in awhile, Katie Riggs, Reesa, Candise, Matt, etc... and randomly Clint and Jeff Dodge were there.. not two people I would expect to see there, but it was pleasant, and quite amusing. :) It was great. Vivian and I went home because we were way too tired, and then went to sleep. The next morning I got dropped, and then ran errands.. booo... I went to see Joe again, and chat with him a bit, and then got Stup's water bottles for my way awesome plan, and then chillaxed at Vivian's for a bit before going to the library to read for COCU. *gasp.. YES I went to the library, and YES to read for a class, and NO it wasn't because I had a test... amazing huh? Anyways.. that was good.. I've just been having a normal week, going to class, going to Circle K, and doin' my thang. yes.. I know.. I'm exciting..

plus...Stup and I are great.. we are.. true dat. yeah man.

It's officially my first week of school that I'm done with. It's a good time but I am sooooo tired. Let me tell you, I absolutely HATE 8am classes. Yes yes yes I know that whole "oh you get done earlier" shpiel... but guess what! You still have to wake up early! And then if you just go back to bed after you get back home, you waste the whole day anyways! Blah.. whatever I'm just a lazy nerd.

Anyways.. hmm.. Friday was a good day.. I went to the Kiwanis Luncheon, and then the Div. Banquet. all in good fun. And theeeen that night I went to a party of Becca's friends and it was one of the more humiliating nights thus far. All I can say though is that I'm probably going to die and old maid because boys and I just really don't mix. Anyways... I made a big fool of myself on Friday night and then proceeded to take care of my drunken "crack-whore" who I love dearly, and spent the night. Only to wake up the next day, go to a Circle K meeting, and then go home and sleep for 6 hours. It was a good time. Only that Saturday night was uneventful because everyone had gone out while I was blissfully sleeping. Eh.. whatevers.. I chilled and chatted with friends, no big deal. Watched some movies. The next day my parents came and BROUGHT ME MY CAR! YAY!! It's so great and so exciting! I looooooove having a car. Although I go out far less than I did when I didn't have a car.. it's weird... things just work out like that eh?

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday... class class class. STUB-Me for giving myself 8am classes five days a week. Hopefully I'll get into a routine of things though. On Sunday night I did get to go chill with Joe, who by the way is my very favorite personal hero. He's just great.. that's all. :) I'm glad he's back in SD. But yeah... I seem to be surviving okay without a regular phone or an internet connection, but I think I'm still going through withdrawal. It hurts. Monday night was pretty exciting though.. lots of new of people showed up at Circle K, which makes me really excited, especially since we really didn't advertise all that much. We were all super impressed. :) But it was a really good group, I'm excited about this year. And then I had a traumatizing conversation, but yeah.. whatever.. I'm a dope. Then proceeded to fight with my parents and my sister (*sigh.. yet again) which ended up in my yelling and crying and all of that not so fun stuff at 2am (which my roommate tells me I woke her up.. sorry Michelle!) But tricked Vivian into driving to LA and back (i'm possesed) and then later to Info Night... *sigh.. I'm sooo lame.

Anyways.. school school school.. that's basically what's been going on all week. Yuck. *sigh.. I miss summer.. but I have to go.. I have to go catch Vivian before she leaves me! have fun kids!

Today was the first day of school. It was a good time, but also very very loooong. But you know.. that feeling of the first day of school in elementary school, or middle school, or even high school, is so different than the first day of school at college. It just seems different somehow. Less fun, less exciting. I don't know. I think I'm just feeling old because I don't live on campus anymore, and I can't see my friends, and when I walk around I hardly know anyone because all of the people I do know all are scattered here and there. *sigh.

Anyways.. I woke up frightfully early (7:10am) after satying up painfully late to plan out my life/schedules if I were to add chem or biochem as a major and go pre-med. Scary thought eh? But I went to class at 8am.. *sigh*, and debated about whether or not to sit around and see if I was going to get into photography, but I figured I'd just wait until later. Then was going to go to my friend's chinese class with her, until I found out that was the same teacher that I had that I never went to class and eventually just dropped out of. Yeah.. didn't think I could sit through her class. ummm... no. So I passed out camptoons for Circle K on campus. I always hated those people who stood in your way on the way to Price Center and shoved things in your hand that you didn't want or need. And now... I've become one of those people. And I'm sure a whole bunch of people hate me. But then I always felt bad for those people because they would stand there just trying to do a job, and no one cared and just said "no thanks" and passed them on by. Yeah, that happened to me all day, I hate rejection. One good thing though is that I saw a lot of people today. More than I would normally see just sitting at home, especialy now that we all live off campus. Yuck.. growing up sucks. I do wish that I still lived on campus. Or that I was freshman again. I so live a life full of "what if's" it's horrible. yes yes yes I'm a reject.. I know.

Anyways.. I got home, tried to look at the classes I wanted to add to see if they were full (and yeah.. they were... junk!) scarfed down some lunch, and went back to campus with Michelle. yay! Tried to crash a Chem class, that was full of freshman. Crazy.. I felt oh so old. I can't believe those second and third and fourth years taking DOC.. it must be horrendous. Then tried to go to a math discussion that didn't start until next week, (nice) and then went to two Communication classes and saw some familiar faces, and had some time to kill before I was schedule to *appear* (haha) at the La Jolla Kiwanis Banquet. yeah right. So I wandered aimlessly around, and ran in to Eric Lawrence, one of the nicest guys ever, and just chilled and chatted with him for awhile. Then changed my clothes in the Peterson Hall bathroom (yes.. the pains of not living on campus, and having no car) and got picked up by Helen to go to the banquet. it was okay. It wasn't too painfully long, and I got out in time to catch Vivian before she left for the Delta Sig Party... "Black Thursday".. oooh.. (not really). :P

After rushing to get ready, we parked in a street, and started walking towards the party. At a crosswalk we saw a car run the red light as another car was turing left and watched this poor Jetta get slammed into by a white Alitma (sad.. my car). There was smoke, and air bags, and broken glass and it was just not good all around. We ran across the street hoping to not get killed by opposing traffic after taking a couple seconds too long staring at what just happened. STUBY. major STUBY. actually. STUBthem... dude. Anyways.. we got to the club and saw the MASSIVE line to get in, and tried to squeeze in. (yes.. it's one of our talents). too bad so many other people are talented at that. With much pushing and shoving and lots of yelling of back up, the club closed the doors, and after trying to get people to back up, right when it started looking hopeful that the doors would open back up, the popo showed up and told everyone outside to go home. :P So Vivian and I went to World Famous and ate some okay food while she flirted with the guys next to us, and they flirted back with her and felt up on her shoulders.. haha. And we went back to the party to see if it was back open, and the popo ruined all the fun again and made everyone go home. Somehow.. I feel jipped. but it's okay. there's a whole year of parties to go to. Four this weekend. yeeeaaaaaaaaaahhhh.. whatever.

So Vivian dropped me off, and I'm just sitting here blogging and chatting and being in a funk? What's with me being in funks? I don't know.. oh well.. we'll see what tomorrow brings.

Yes yes yes... I'm still alive, that is.. if anyone cares. Honestly I don't think people read my blogger, or that I'm special. I think it's just a nice place to vent, and if people want to read about my life, then so be it... although it does have that sort of scary stalker quality to it. Anyways.. I've been in a weird sort of blog lazyness funk lately. I honestly don't know what's gotten in to me. But after reading about some people's interesting lives I figured it was time to make a comeback.

*Oh wait.. I know what started this funk.. I was trying to blog last Tuesday about all the madness and my computer just kept freezing, or I pressed the wrong button, and after writing huge long blogs or emails, and they get lost, you just don't feel like trying again ya know? okay.. so here goes*

This past week has been kind of interesting in the way that it doesn't happen everyday. Not interesting good, but just interesting different. Tuesday, as I'm sure EVERYONE knows, was thee day. I remember my mom having the TV on, and I was mad that she had it on while I was trying to sleep, but after I finally woke up and realized what was on TV, I sat along with the rest of the world and stared in disbelief. Along the way I chatted with my grandma about what was going on as she could understand the pictures on the screen but not the words, and I called my sister and told her what was going on. And the first words out of her mouth were.. "Are you joking?" Because honestly, it was just that kind of thing that was too horrible to be true. We talked about how strange and surreal it all was because honestly you never think something like that was going to happen. It just like the plane crash killing Aaliyah, you never think something like that is going to happen, because bad things shouldn't happen to good people right? But all these events have been so weird. We were all in New York last month having the greatest time of our lives, and I flew in on a plane on Sunday, my grandparents flew in on a plane on Monday night, only half a day before it all went down. Who's to say that it couldn't have happened then? And that's the scariest thing. When you think you're in control, and you have everything down, something like this makes you realize that there are a kajillion other things going on it this world that you couldn't even begin to comprehend. Sadness.

But all of this made me think. As I tend to do occasionally. I get this same feeling sometimes when I'm watching TV, or when I'm in the hospital, and I think.. I like communications and I chose it because it interests me, and it's relatively easy (although it does take a lot of hard work) but in the whole perspective of life, when something like Tuesday happens where am I going to be, and how can I be of any help. And then I got to thinking, it would be really great if I could possess the skills to be a doctor. Like if something were to happen, I wouldn't just be sitting around helpless with the masses of other drones. But I could step forward and say.. hey.. I'm a doctor, do you want me to help? Ya know? But that also would require lots more schooling, and tons of classes that I'd probably fail, so.. we'll have to see. But it's nice to know that my dad would be fine with it. hahah.. Although he says he's told me so because he always told me I should be a pediatrician. He just doesn't want me to be an actress or a communications major or fat haha.. *translation* he doesn't want me to mooch off him the rest of his life.

But that was Tuesday... I also went to the dentist that day, and scheduled an appointment to pull out my wisdom teeth in December... scary! And then came home, watched more TV, and finally when I got sick of it, I made Beth come out with me. She came over, we chatted, looked at pictures, and moaned in our usual fashion. And then we ran to Costco to drop off my film before they close, and then went to In 'N' Out (*yumm...) Then Nicole called me on my cell just to chat, and didn't know that I was with Beth, and we talked and I relayed the conversation to Beth and we were all laughing super hard (almost as hard as that time in House, but not as much) while the police men in the next table looked at us funny thinking "how can these dumb girls be so cheery at a time like this" Oh well.. I'm used to people looking at me weird.. haha. uh oh.. is that a good thing? But Nicole and I talked for 50 minutes! (my mom is going to KILL me when she sees my cell phone bill this month!) but it was all worth it.

The next day I was supposed to hang out, but I think I just ended up sitting at home with nothing to do. Oh well.. it was nice to just chill. I went into the garage and looked through all my stuff and re-packed it to get ready for school. It was a good time. Thursday, I just chilled and packed as well. Packing is no fun, no fun. :P On Friday I was packing hard core because I wanted to go out that night. So I got a lot of my stuff packed up. Then Beth and Ryan came over to my house. Where I made them wait a little.. oops. We were also waiting for Nicole, who later called and asked where everyone was because she was at Beth's house. hahaha... so we waited for her, and then went to the Galleria (yay!) to eat. Mmmm.. Chick-fil-A and Mongolian BBQ. yummmmmm... but then after much indeciveness.. we decided to go see Fast and the Furious (didn't happen), I wanted to go the beach (didn't happen), we were going to go play cranium (didn't happen), so I think we sort of decided on going to Starbucks, but Ryan just drove until we ended up down by Cheesecake Factory and we went in to go hook up with Carrie and Manny. We had much indeciveness there as well (yes.. we're all lost souls).. talked in the foyer of the restaurant, talked in the parking lot, and then decided to go to get Boba. The weirdest thing though, I ran into Ernesto (one of my GAP managers) there who I just saw closing the GAP... interesting. We just chilled, talked, looked at pictures, and finally felt we should leave because the place was closed. Ryan, Beth and Nicole drove me back home, and then they left as well. Sadness, and I proceed to pack and also be ridiculed by my mother (as always) and stayed up alll night packing. sad. Finally everyone in the house woke up, I dealt with phone junk.. (I hate the phone company), and showered so we could go to Alhambra. We went to this restaurant which was a mix of all flairs of foods, but it was really gross and made my tummy hurt.. :( but we then went to the used car dealership and PICKED UP MY CAR! YAY!! My mom had already ordered me a 95 White Altima.. which I of course moaned and complained about. But it is a car, and I'm pretty gosh darn happy to have one that I can actually drive on the freeway. :) Although I do love my little red car. *sigh. Anyways.. after a long ordeal I finally got to drive home in my new car, blasting my awesome cd player. But it was a looong drive home from Alhambra taking all local streets because my mom was driving the third car (they bought for the guy who's living in our house (long story)). And my mom doesn't drive on the freeway. Eh.. oh well. That night went to this Japanese restaurant in Torrance with my mom, dad, Eric, my grandparents, Joan and Jeff-gu, I was pretty good. My grandparents were really happy though and seemed to have a good time and got up to toast to us. My grandparents are so great and so cute. :).. went home, and I crashed... but I did get to watch South Park before I fell asleep.

The next morning I got ready to go to school, picked up my pictures from Costco, ate my final meal at home..:( And said goodbye to my grandparents (although I'm sure I'll see them again before I leave) and was sad because I couldn't take my new car (*ooh.. I just thought I don't have a name for it. I should name it) because of minor details that are wrong with it. But hey.. you know mothers.. they always want their kids to be safe, even if their kids couldn't care less. So I loaded up the minivan, and my daddy drove me down to SD, where we then went out to eat at Rubio's and my daddy bought me some sheets (even though I didn't need them), and then grocery shopping, and then pack while he watched me unpack. Aw.. I love my dad.. *I'm such a daddy's girl! :P Then he left because he had to drive home and go to work the next day. Vivian came over.. she helped me unpack a little, and then we went over to her place where I spent the night. She's got a great apartment. :) Although it's a lot on the cold side. We ended up staying up until 6am talking! Crazyness... we hadn't seen each other in so long. We talked about life and boys, and how they both suck hard core. haha.. why so much misery eh? *crushes suck. *boys suck. *I'm going to die an old maid.. I'm convinced. We went to sleep finally and woke up around 1, got out of bed around 3 and went to the doctor to pick up Vivian's drugs. Then we went to Rubio's, and scarfed down my food before I went to the SDSU meeting with John, and then Kirby took me home. haha.. I love Kirby.. we're the most non-asian asians we know. hahah. jk. Anyways.. then Vivian came over, we cooked dinner, and chilled and watched Road Rules. It was a good time. I proceeded to try and unpack. Although I have no desk, or bookshelves, or dressers or once I unpack my stuff, there's really nowhere for it to go. :P And slept at 7am. (i'm psychotic)

Kathryn woke me up, and we went to campus to buy parking passes. Soooo excited! I own my very first parking pass! yay! Too bad it costs an arm and a leg. But it's pretty cool to have one. It's kinda like status, or I'm just excited I have a car... or.. I'm just a dork who's easily amused by little things. Anyways.. went home and realized I still have errands to run, so got Vivian to take me back to campus, and we walked around but campus was pretty dead by then. Sad. We went back to her house where we were supposed to go to Costco with her roommate, but he showed up late. So I took a Nice nap on her extraordinarily comfy bed. Woke up and realized I should go home, and met Vivian's super geeky roommate. And came home. Ate my leftovers, and then Jill, Amanda and Kristen came over! Yay!! I love my girls. We just chatted. I gave them the tour of my excellent abode and we sat engrossed in Big Brother, (*yay*.. I don't care what you say Nicole.. it's a good show dammit) and then in the Real World. Vivian came over with Costco pizza and watched tv with us. Then, Nicole happily interrupted that and we chatted about everything and nothing all at the same time. As well as enduring her cell phone problems.. haha... Then slowly all my friends left.. sad :( and I was left with Nicole. yikes. No really.. I love Nicole.. I don't know how we talk about nothing for such long periods of time though. haha.. but you should all thank her for bringing me out of my no-blog-funk. Although I am jealous because she got to talk to the International Secretary/Vice President. of Circle K.... (da da da daaa) Pete Holiday. *sigh..why can't I be so lucky. Oh oh oh.. I DID get to shake his hand though. Yes yes yes.. I shook hands with the Int'l Sec/VP... who want's to touch me? *pop quiz... what movie is that a reference to?.. Anyways.. I should really go. My roommate's coming home tomorrow and the house is a complete MESS... she's going to freak! yikes. oh yeah.. I should maybe sleep as well.. be normal for a little bit at a time. hey.. I'm working on it.

here's a blog to finish up my rememberance of Hawaii....

So after I met up with Brandy after her class was over, we found Jan and then decided to go eat at Cafe Lauffer. It was a nice little restaurant/cafe with pretty good food and reallly good desserts. I had the best chocolate eclair.. yum! Anyways.. we dropped Jan off, and then proceeded to pick up Krystal and Jamie. Then went to Ala Moana since they hadn't eaten yet. In my usual fashion we shopped first and then went to go eat. And then dropped Krystal off, and proceeded to downtown, the place I know oh-so-well, to pick up Brandy's mom. Then that night we thought we were going to go out and do something, but we didn't, so Lisa and Krystal and Brandy and I just ended up going out to Zippy's for dinner and our "girl's night out." It was pretty fun, we just talked and all of that. And then that night we tried to come up with Jeopardy questions for the MD&E thing.. but we were just way too tired so we fell asleep. But I did watch Liar Liar which is a funny funny movie.

"But my teacher says that beauty comes from the inside"
"That's just something ugly people say to make themselves feel better"
hahahahah.. that's so me.

Anyways.. Saturday I dragged Chris out of bed to go to a KC DCM at 8am... dang high schoolers, they're crazy. But we struggled through that and came back and napped or something. Then Brandy and I went to the Kapiolani Med Center project. We just did arts and crafts with the kids that were in the hospital. It was pretty fun, I made some new friends.. hahah.. We came back and I started packing/planning for MD&E. It was a good time. So later that night Krystal and I hosted MD&E "Night of Fun!" hahah.. we had pizza from Jacob's favorite: Pizza Hut, and then proceeded to tell them about membership drives, MRP, and other shtuff, and started to play a killer game of Jeopardy. It was good, I had kick-ass questions. :) Anyways.. then we just chilled, Randy came by and gave me presents.. awww.. how sweet.. macadamia nuts.. hahaha. And I stayed up and packed and finally collapsed at 7am. I was supposed to get up at 8am to pack, but slept until 9am. whoops. Chris and Jan came by to take us to breakfast, but I made them wait because I was packing.. :P So Brandy's mom finally came in, threw all my stuff in a box and said "go" That's what efficient moms are for eh? Chris, Jan, Brandy, Krystal and I met up with Manny to eat breakfast at the Old Pancake house. I had some super gross runny omlettes.. *sick! if you ever go there order the strawberry waffles.. yummm... Anyways.. we went back, picked up my bags, rushed to the airport, and I finally checked in. Got on the plane with no problems... and sat in the sucky row.. the back row where I can't lean back at all. But I guess it was alrite, the guy next to me what nice, we chatted a little. But mostly I slept.. I was soooo tired. It wasn't as bad as flying back from ICON though. :P I slept through the meal and the movie (Moulin Rouge) and just kinda did whatever the rest of the way. Our plane landed half a hour early and I picked up my luggage quickly (that's the one good thing about checking in late) and waited for my dad who didn't even bother to check whether or not my plane was coming in early. Anyways.. got home, chowed down, and then proceeded to be online.. hahah.. I'm such a chump. Then next day I just pretty much slept and watched tv... pretty lame eh?

okay.. so I think I'm kinda scared because I'm "illegally" using the school computer in the library to do this. But I have an hour to kill until Brandy gets out of class. But anyways.. I think I've found where all the hot guys are in Hawaii. Annnyways.. this is what I did yesterday.

Thursday was an okay day. At 11:30 Manny and Chris and Jacob came to pick me up so that we could go to the Kaneohe meeting. But dude.. I was kinda nervous before hand because I was supposed to make a "presentation/speech" on why they should start a Circle K. But I think for me that it just turned into a what is Circle K all about. Which is dumb because that's what I always talk about so that's what I know. But it's not what they wanted to here. Thank god that Manny was there to give them the Kiwanian perspective of what Circle K is. That's the stuff they wanted to hear. Shoot. Well I guess I know for next time eh? But yeah.. so after that we went to La Gelateria for Sorbet and Gelato. That place is sooo good. yum! And then I came home, wasted more hours of my life watching more tv, and writing more postcards. hahhah.. Oh and I watched the MTV VMA's. *NSYNC is so cute I can barely stand it. Nicole's right... they're not a boy band, they're a MAN BAND. hahaha.. Anyways.. Then I just watched that all afternoon, ate dinner cooked by Brandy and her sis Jamie. The chicken was really good. And then I went out with Chris, Jan, Krystal and Joel to Waikiki. WHICH, is where all the hot boys are. But I think that's just because of the type of boys that I mostly like, *the abercrombie and fitch type .. yes I'm a nerd* are mostly tourists, and that's why they're all at Waikiki, or at the beach 24/7. But that was the largest group of hot guys I've seen in a collective. There are also a lot of freaky people too though. As we were leaving we walked by this guy who was all like "Hey Beautiful.. Love you" to Krystal. And we saw prostitutes. hahah.. they looked like your average skanks in TJ club clothes. hahah. We went to the Duty Free Shopping center and then to the International Market place where I did successfully bargain for my items. I was quite proud of myself. hahah.. I guess that trip to Taiwan did do me some good. (jk) Anyways..that was that, chatted a little bit with Brandy before I went to bed, and of course watched my daily dose of re-runs. Last night it was Saved by the Bell: The College Years. hahah. We have Brandy's mom's car today, and Bran only has one class.. oooh the fun we will have. hahah..

Oh my. I don't even really know what I'm doing up at this hour. It all started off as Circle K work, but then transformed into much more, and now is this. Yikes.. I've totally messed up my body's ability to tell time. Hopefully I can fix it before I go back to school with my 8am classes! But lately my life has seemed like a blur. But I'll try and sharpen it as much as I can for you.

umm.. Friday the 31st of August... I went out to eat sorbet and gelato with Brandy and her mom, and also Mc D's. It was all oh so good. Yum. And then that night, like true college students, we had a CKI social at Pizza Hut. BUT the reason we had it at PH was because Jacob works there and we got free food. Get it now? hahah.. Oh.. so the funniest quote ever came out of that night. I was rolling on the floor trying not to choke on my pizza:

(@ Pizza Hut during dinner)
Chris: mm.. The garlic bread is pretty good here. I've never eaten it before.
Chrissy: What?! Really? Dang, then what do you eat when you come here?
Chris: ummm... Pizza?

umm. maybe it's not so funny in words, but it was so hilarious. Maybe it was those you have to be there kinds of things. Then in that case, you missed out.. stby. Anyways.. then afterwards I think we wanted to catch a movie but it was way too late, so we went back to Brandy's, played Harry Potter and Life and all that, and just socialized. It was all very late when everyone left and I finally got some shut eye.

The next day I traveled to where all the Hawaiians take their CKI visitors. It the biggest tourist trap on the island. PCC- Polynesian Culture Center. While it sounds all fine and dandy, the secret behind it is that it's actually set up by the mormons to display the Polynesian culture. They put the students who attend BYU Hawaii work there, and by spending money there they say you're "helping to contribute to the education of some who otherwise wouldn't get one" or some mumbo jumbo like that. That's great and all but they make so much bank there.. those pictures that they take for you (like the ones off the rides like Splah Mountain) are $25 for the first ond and $15 for any others thereafter. And the tickets for non-Hawaiians are soo expensive, and the Hawaiian's only Annual Passes are only $16! But I should stop complaining because it is a great place, and I'm sure everyone works real hard there. Honestly I had a great time. They don't have rides (ooh.. except for the canoe tour with that one cute canoe guy) but lots of really interesting and funny shows. I had a great time, and it was cool just to run around like an idiot. Afterwards went to Zippy's for another late dinner, and back to Brandy's house do socialize. Except this time all but a few people were falling asleep in their seats while the others kept on socializing. It was a pretty amusing sight to watch. I chatted and bonded with Krystal, one cool chick. We talked a lot about our opinions of different matters and really clicked. I guess that was what these two weeks was supposed to be about eh?

The next day we were sooooooo tired from the night before we just mulled around all day. Chris, Krystal and I ran my errands.. ahha, and ate Liliha Korean BBQ take-out that was soo good and watched the UH convention videos. That night we went to the PET project at Manny's house. *Who by the way has the best house ever. It's near the top of this mountain and has the most spectacular view, and has the best PORCH (i refuse to call it a Lanai) to enjoy it from. It's a mega-bachelor pad. But anyways.. did that.. and then went to Safeway to buy food for my DCM and board training. And then .. oops.. didn't "just" go to Safeway, but went to Zippy's afterwards for food. But interesting about that night was that I found the Safeway guy kinda fliriting with me, and me kinda flirting back. That's what the club says at least.. but this is the way I see it. I have such a low self esteem about myself that I freak out when any guy starts talking to me for no good reason because I think that no guy could be attracted to a troll like me. So this guy in the soda aisle asks me if I really go to UCSD (I was wearing my sweater) and we talk about the letter grade/p/np system (dumb I know) and later I ask him where the breads are and he asks if I want him to take me there. Hhaha.. at this point I was like.. ummm.. oooookay. But of course I had my back up of the UH club and stopped along the meat aisles to complain about the priceyness of EVERYTHING in that store. And he eventually got bored and left. So we shoped peacefully, and when we went to go checkout *poof* he was bagging my groceries. hmm.. so he's talking to me, asking me if I'm visiting or here to stay, while all the UH people are snickering, and he asks to see my license, and I dunno if I'm trying to be cute, or trying to get his attention because I know I can, but I dunno... whatever. Anyways.. I left there, and that's the end of my story. *sigh... This is my theory. You just have to pretend you're from somewhere else and you'll attract guys who are sick of all the girls in their state. haha. So when I go back to California, I'm going to pretend I'm from Hawaii.. haha. yeah right.. it wouldn't work. I dunno.. like.. it's weird to say that some guy was fliriting with me because I don't think it would be possible in a million years that a decent looking guy would initiate a conversation with me (*definitely better than the Circuit City incident). But it does feel nice to have that attention from someone who's not a freak or pervert or dirty old man, and know that someone out there actually thinks you're okay looking.. So.. I dunno.. it's confusing.. phew.. good thing I usually never have to deal with it. *sigh.. I'm a pathetic freak. why can't cute guys in cali talk to me.. *sigh, stb me Anyways.

The next day was my DCM.. and that morning was trauma, hectic, and yikes.. that makes no sense, but that's how my morning was. Early wake up, finishing my papers, not being picked up, making copies, being late, and then leading a DCM and a board training session that it seems like NOBODY cares or wants to be there... yuck. In the end it was all kind of frustrating, but hey.. at least it's over. That night Krystal and I just ate Hibachi with Brandy's family. And afterwards we roasted marshmallows with her little cousins and played Harry Potter.. it was a blast.

Tuesday was soo boring. I just kinda chilled... and watched tv. For like 5 hours. But I did get to watch lots of interesting re-runs. Finally at 6pm I was rescued. We went to the Pearl Harbor mtg, and then to Anna Miller's for dinner. I got $1.28 Strawberry Pie. Yum.

Wednesday.. haah.. was a little more fun. I got to take out Brandy's mom's car. I was going to sit with Brandy all day, but after deciding that was was worse than sitting at home and watching 5 hours of TV, I decided to go explore Oahu on my own. Nonetheless I got super lost, but did manage to find my way home from UH which I was totally proud of myself. Talk to Brandy's uncle for a bit, asked him for directions, and took a nap. Then talked to Chris and Krystal and Brandy and Jacob, and finally decided to go to the beach by myself (wow!) Went to Ala Moana Beach where it was okay. the sand was kinda rocky, and the water wasn't completely clear once I swan out into it, but it was quite nice. Swam a little, and then laid out a little.. but bright me, decided to lay out at 12noon. Yes, I'm retarded. I was only there for like 20 minutes total, so not too bad. Went back, thought I was going out to lunch, didn't. And chilled... then went to go pick up Brandy, got lost in downtown. Then decided to pick up her mom first then, only to get confused and having to drive in circles mulitple times due to one way streets. I HATE ONE WAY STREETS. After half a hour, I finally figured out where Brandy's mom works, but she had already left because someone picked her up, and no one told me. grr.. But that's okay. Went to go pick up Brandy, also met up with Krystal, and found Manny on the way. It's a regular party. Was going to do something with CKI folks, but everyone was butt tired, so was going to order pizza, but went out to La Pietro's with Brandy's family instead. It was good, and also ate Bubbie's homemade ice cream. Which actually was kinda little dirty store because all their names for their desserts had sexual connotations, and their sloagan was "shouldn't you be licking something?" haha.. amusing. Rock would love that place. Came home, attempted and failed to learn how to french braid, and tried to do my MD&E stuff, but didn't get to that either. eh.. I have until Saturday. But I'm kinda nervous because I have to make a "presentation" tomorrow on why Kaneohe should start a Circle K. Yikes... what am I supposed to say! pssht.. well I'll go worry about it in my dreams, because I'm sooooo tired I can't stand it. blah.. that's how I feel.

BLAH! Where do I start. Overall this has been a pretty shittified day. I mean.. there were some good parts... but there were a lot of bad. So anyways.. let me go back to Tuesday.. that's where I left off.
On Tuesday, Jacob picked me up and we went to the Honolulu Kiwanis meeting at this one nice hotel. There meeting was fun and I even got to speak for a couple minutes at the podium and everything! Although it was still quite nervewracking. Speaking in front of a bunch of Kiwanians hoping they don't think you sound stupid, or don't get what you're saying. Anyways.. afterwards, went to Ala Moana again with Jacob so i could buy my skirt from the GAP... oooh so excited because it was the skirt I wanted FOREVER but my store (or any LA store) didn't have. But I got it! So yeah. Then we went to Hot Topic, where I saw these cool pants that were like plastic shiny material. They would have been the best party/TJ pants... but they were too big (gasp!). Then we visited Lisa at the WB where I loaded up on PPG stuff courtesy of their closing the store sale and her employee discount (yay!). Then went back to Brandy's, and got locked out, but Chris let me know where the "secret" key was, so it was all good. Went to the Hawaii-Loa meetings that night. What Chris said is true, it's pretty entertaining going to their meetings. After I got home I was soooo tired, but I tried to stay up to watch the Real World, ONLY to find out that it wasn't even on! So then I went to bed.

Anyways, the next day I went with Brandy to her classes, out to lunch with her mom and sister and her. CPK yum! But I gotta stop ordering the same thing everytime I go there! then bought postcards (I am the ultimate tourist), and later than night went to this really good buffet place on this Air Force Base in Hawaii with the Kiwanis LtG and the Hawaii Board. It was sooo good, we all ate way too much and gained like 10 lbs each. Afterwards we walked around like we were drunk since we couldn't walk straight because of the amount of weight in our stomachs. It was a good time.

Today... it was a good time. I went to Pali Mountain with Jacob and Chris which is like this Mountain that over looks the island, but is also suuuuper windy. It was a fun time. The wind was so strong, it was just fun to stand there and let it push you around. Sometimes I thought it was going to rip my shorts right off. And then I was sad because I thought it blew my LtG. pin off of my shirt, but luckily for me and unluckily for Brandy's mom it was found in Brandy's house by her's mom's foot (ouch!). Then Chris, Joel, Brandy and I went to the Kaneohe Kiwanis meeting, where that was an experience in itself. But all the more same as the others. Came home, dealt with my business (grr...), and also found out that Fred died. mmm.. poor baby. Kathy should feel bad for making so much fun of him. jk. But it's so sad. *sigh ... I hope tomorrow's a better day.